Chapter 2 Chapter 1 a weasel entered her body

When Su Xiaosan left the Century Dynasty Book Company, it was already dark, and the lights in the city looked very strange, and she couldn’t tell the difference between east, west, and north. She had no sense of direction since she was a child, and she often worried that she would get lost in Shanghai, an indifferent city. She still accurately found the subway station not far away. Wang Ba, the boss of Century Dynasty Book Company, is a disgusting guy. He promised to design a cover for 1,500 yuan, but now that the cover design is completed, the pressure is reduced to 1,000 yuan.Su Xiaosan was so angry that her face turned blue, and she really wanted to spit on Wang Ba's pale face with unpredictable smile.There was no choice but to bow her head to Wang Ba, who made her an unknown person who had just debuted?This is a world where the weak are preyed upon by the strong, and the reality is so cruel.However, Wang Ba was not bad, and did not owe her any money. After handing in the design drafts of the five covers, he immediately asked the accountant to pay her 5,000 yuan in cash.With this money, she feels more at ease, and she won't have to worry about life in the next two months.

Su Xiaosan squeezed into the subway car, suddenly feeling irritable.It was rush hour at this time, and the carriage was extremely crowded. She tightly covered her bag with her hands, for fear that the hard-earned 5,000 yuan would fall into the clutches of thieves. Behind Su Xiaosan there was a short-haired man clinging to her back, and she could feel his breathing, because the breath he breathed made her right earlobe itchy, and she concluded that he was a short man.Su Xiaosan was very uncomfortable, as if her earlobe was being forcibly kissed by a stranger.Su Xiaosan blushed and couldn't hide.

What Su Xiaosan couldn't bear was that the man deliberately pressed against her body, and she felt that her butt was being pushed against by a hard object.Su Xiaosan was so insulted that she trembled all over, but she still endured it, thinking that she will get rid of this shameless man soon when she arrives at the station!The man took an inch and even reached out and touched her buttocks. There were tears of humiliation in Su Xiaosan's eyes. Su Xiaosan couldn't bear it anymore, she turned her head and shouted loudly: "Stinky rascal, get your dirty hands off!" The short man also roared: "Keep your mouth clean, who is the hooligan?"

After speaking, his hand quickly moved away from her buttocks. Su Xiaosan was very close to him, it was a dark and rough face full of mustaches, and when he spoke, he sprayed saliva on her fair and tender face.She smelled a bad smell, facing this scoundrel with bad breath, Su Xiaosan was too angry to say anything.She turned her head away, not wanting to look at that ugly face again. The short man stopped talking, but the work on his lower body was still on Su Xiaosan's ass. The people in the carriage had different gazes, indifference, gloating, ridicule, sympathy, helplessness... No one stood up to speak for her, but one said coldly: "Nowadays, little girls always think that everyone is beautiful because of their beauty." If you want to eat her tofu, if you are afraid of being eaten by others, then don’t take the subway—”

There was a burst of laughter in the carriage. Su Xiaosan's tears flowed down silently, she felt raped, raped in public, raped by a large group of people. What kind of world is this? Su Xiaosan was wronged, angry and confused. Her mood sucks! After finally arriving at the station, Su Xiaosan hurriedly fled the subway station and came to the street.On the sidewalk, people hurried to the road in a hurry.Su Xiaosan had no idea where they came from and where they were going.She just wants to go home as soon as possible. Any place other than home is full of uncertain factors and there will be danger at any time.To live is to take risks.

In the process of rushing to Lishui Community on Xinzhu Road, Su Xiaosan occasionally looked back, and was horrified to find that the short man who molested her in the subway car was following her like a ghost.Su Xiaosan gasped, feeling utterly terrified. Is this person staring at himself?Su Xiaosan thought. Su Xiaosan has heard that some gangsters will follow some single women for a long time, and strike when they think it is appropriate, robbing them of wealth and sex, and even killing and dismembering their bodies.These perverted killers have completely lost their humanity, and they are all ruthless guys.

I dare not imagine what the consequences would be if such a villain were to stare at her. She kept looking back, but the guy was still following her not far away. She quickened her pace, and his pace also accelerated. She slowed down, He also slows down. Su Xiaosan was terrified. How to do this. She suddenly saw a tall policeman standing under a sycamore tree on the side of the road, as if he had caught a life-saving straw, he ran over quickly and said to him tremblingly: "Comrade policeman, help, help me—" The policeman turned his face and said lightly, "What's wrong with you?"

Su Xiaosan said: "Someone is following me!" The policeman smiled: "Who is following you?" Su Xiaosan looked back, the short man had disappeared, she stood there numbly, at a loss.She could not believe that he would disappear so quickly, that he would appear as a ghost as soon as the police left. The policeman smiled again and said, "Where is the person following you?" Su Xiaosan said loudly: "The one who was still there just now—" The policeman said: "Beauty, go home quickly, no one will follow you, don't think too much." Su Xiaosan said seriously: "Someone really followed me, and it was a short man."

The policeman shook his head, ignored her, and left, talking to himself as he walked, "What's wrong with people now, they feel so insecure." Su Xiaosan really didn't feel safe at all, and she didn't know where to get a sense of security. Even the police didn't believe her words, and maybe even regarded her as a fool. A gust of cold wind blows over, making Su Xiaosan shiver. After entering late autumn, she often shivered in the cold wind, like a helpless chick. She suddenly picked up the bag containing 5,000 yuan and ran wildly.She imagined herself as a galloping horse, like a whirlwind, and no one could catch up.

She no longer looked back. After finally reaching the gate of Lishui Community, Su Xiaosan slowed down. In the corner on the left of the gate of the community, stood a man in black clothes. He was unkempt and leaning on a stick, staring blankly at her. To be precise, he stared blankly at everyone who entered the community. The street lamps made his face eerie. What's the matter today, I always meet weird people.Su Xiaosan thought. When Su Xiaosan was about to enter the gate of the community, she was a few steps away from that weird person, and glanced at him inadvertently, and found that his right eye was empty. When she saw him just now, the eyeballs of his two eyes were still intact. No damage, it became like this after a while, Su Xiaosan's hair stood on end, and his face tightened for a while.

The man's hollow right eye was unfathomable, like a gloomy ancient well. Su Xiaosan withdrew her gaze and hurried into the community. After she entered the community, the man squatted down, groped on the ground for a long time, stood up, wiped the things in his hands on his clothes, and stuffed them into the empty right eye socket. Before going upstairs, Su Xiaosan opened the mailbox and took out a few letters from it.They were basically advertisements, only one letter was written to her by someone else, and she threw those advertisement letters on the ground, and she got on the elevator.In the elevator, Su Xiaosan looked at the envelope. The words on the envelope were beautifully written. There was no sender's address, and there were only two words written there: 内详.This is obviously a woman's handwriting, who will write to her?She thought about it, among the female friends she knew, even if they wrote to her, they would not use this traditional method, how convenient email was. Su Xiaosan really couldn't think of who would send her a letter. She didn't take it apart, and when she got home, she threw it on the table. Although this is a rented house with only one bedroom and one living room, Su Xiaosan still regards this as her own home, a warm haven.She spends most of her time in this den, separating herself from the outside world.She was so exhausted that she couldn't wait to kick off her shoes, throw herself on the pink cloth sofa, and close her eyes. She needs to calm down. But she couldn't calm down. Wang Ba's treacherous face, the short man's bullying, the strange man's empty right eye... She couldn't erase these from her mind at once, and she didn't know how long it would take to erase them from her mind. Su Xiaosan hugged a fluffy bear doll, and couldn't help but shed tears again. She suddenly thought of the man named Chen Huaiyuan. After he left without saying goodbye a month ago, his whereabouts were unknown, and he didn't even send her a short message on his mobile phone.Su Xiaosan has been in love with him for more than a year, and she doesn't understand what kind of person he is. He only knows that he is a poet, has no job, talks about ghosts all day long, is never by his side when he is needed, and often leaves without saying goodbye for no reason. , After a period of time, it came back inexplicably.Su Xiaosan vowed not to talk to him every time after he left, but when he stood at the door and rang the doorbell, she saw his downcast appearance through the cat's eyes, and her heart softened, and she couldn't help opening the door, Letting him in is like a mother letting her son who has been wandering for a long time come home. Su Xiaosan murmured: "Chen Huaiyuan, you rotten duck! You will never come back again! If you come back, I will never open the door for you again! From now on, we will break up completely! I am really sick, how can I fall in love with you What about you? What is it about you that fascinates me? I, Su Xiaosan, are really obsessed!" At this time, Su Xiaosan was a helpless child. She couldn't find someone to cry to, so she could only lick her wound and cry silently. It was pitch black. Where does Su Xiaosan live? Is this a wilderness or a narrow valley? She couldn't see anything, and the cold wind was howling in her ears. Faintly, Su Xiaosan heard someone whispering. "Xiao Shan is a wild species, no matter how good she is, she is still a wild species, not our own daughter!" "Please, stop talking, don't let Xiaosan hear, the child is innocent!" "I just said, let her hear it. I'm not reconciled. What I worked so hard to raise is a wild species! Why can't you give me a child!" "It was you who agreed to adopt Xiaosan back then, what you are saying now is not human! Xiaosan is such a good child, I regarded her as my own daughter from the beginning! If you don't want to adopt her, you can find another woman Go, I'll raise her up!" "You are reasonable, you think I dare not leave!" "Go away, I've had enough of you!" "..." Then, the sound of tearing and crying came from the darkness. Su Xiaosan said dully: "Mom and Dad, I'm not a bastard, I'm your biological daughter, stop arguing—" After an unknown amount of time, their voices disappeared and were sucked away by the darkness. Su Xiaosan was weeping, standing helplessly in the cold darkness, feeling like a child who had been ruthlessly abandoned, she called every day should not be, and the earth was not working. In the darkness, a cold hand held her hand. Su Xiaosan shouted in horror: "Who are you? Let me go, let me go—" A sneer. Su Xiaosan was terrified. "Come with me, I will take you to a happy world, how much you need happiness, you seem to have never been happy, since you were born, you are a girl soaked in bitter water. I will take you away, To a blissful world free from pain and trouble—” Whose voice is this? Is it Chen Huaiyuan?No, he has never said such a thing, he will not say it in the past, he will not say it now, and he will not say it in the future. Besides, his voice will not be so cold, but it will always be weak, even if he is talking about his lofty ideals of a poet , He has never been high-pitched. This is an unfamiliar voice.Terribly strange. The cold hand clenched tighter and tighter, and her soft little hand hurt extremely. She struggled, but couldn't get rid of it. In the darkness, Su Xiaosan couldn't see the man's face clearly, she could smell bad breath.She wanted to vomit, but couldn't vomit. The cold hand was very powerful, pulling her into the depths of the darkness. Su Xiaosan shouted sharply. to no avail. She was thrown into a black hole. Suddenly, Su Xiaosan saw a little light in front of his eyes, but the surrounding area was still dark.She tried hard to open her eyes wide, trying to see the world and the person who forcibly pulled her away.The man finally appeared, his dark face full of beards made her shudder, and she remembered the short man who molested her on the subway, yes, it was him.Could it be that he is really a demon who has been looking for opportunities to attack her.Su Xiaosan shrank back, and the short man approached her step by step with a smirk. Su Xiaosan was trembling all over, and tremblingly said: "Don't come over, don't come over—" The short man ignored her words, and while taking off his clothes, he approached her. Su Xiaosan had nowhere to escape. Suddenly, she saw a person standing behind the short man. He was unkempt, with a black hole in his right eye and an expressionless face. Are they a gang? Su Xiaosan was desperate. She wailed, "Please, let me go—" ... Su Xiaosan couldn't believe that she had a nightmare. After waking up from the sofa, her spirit was on the verge of collapse, and her body was in pain like tearing, which was a feeling she had never experienced before.She got up from the sofa, threw away the furry bear doll, and searched around the room with frightened eyes. She found no one. I checked the doors and windows, they were all closed, and there was no sign of anyone entering. It was indeed a nightmare! But she still felt that she had been raped, and it seemed that the demon's filth remained on her body.Su Xiaosan took off her clothes, rushed into the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and let the clean hot water wash over her defiled body. Su Xiaosan applied shower gel to her jade-white skin over and over again, rubbing vigorously over and over again, her skin turned red, but she still felt that she hadn't washed it off. Maybe people are born dirty and can never be washed clean. Su Xiaosan didn't give up until she was exhausted from washing. She was half lying on the sofa weakly, staring blankly at an oil painting on the wall. It was Su Xiaosan's portrait, drawn for her by a male classmate of hers at the Academy of Fine Arts.This male classmate pursued her at that time, but she didn't like him, and lost contact after graduation, but she kept this painting.Even though she didn't like him, he was the one who captured her heart most accurately.She thought that if she got back with him back then, maybe she wouldn't be living such a miserable life now.Su Xiaosan in the portrait looks depressed, she likes her own demeanor, that is her true state.She hasn't been happy since she knew at a young age that she is not her parents' biological daughter. Su Xiaosan couldn't sleep tonight. She thought of her adoptive mother Yang Xueli.That was a beautiful woman, she cleaned herself up until she died, Su Xiaosan had never seen her slovenly. Just like when the nightmare started, Su Xiaosan's adoptive father, Su Guoqing, left Yang Xueli and her shortly after the quarrel and left home.That night, Yang Xueli hugged Su Xiaosan and shed tears all night.Su Xiaosan stretched out her small hand and gently wiped the tears on her adoptive mother's face.Yang Xueli said to her: "Xiaosan, you are my own daughter, don't listen to your father's nonsense, you look so much like me, look at your eyes, nose, mouth... there is nothing alike." Su Xiaosan murmured: "Then why did dad leave?" Yang Xueli said: "Xiaosan, your dad didn't leave because of you, he was angry with me, and he will come back soon." Su Guoqing did not return to this home after all.Once, Su Xiaosan met him on the street. There was a woman beside him. That woman was not as beautiful as Yang Xueli. She had freckles on her face and a big belly. She seemed to be pregnant.Su Xiaosan stood there in a daze, looking at them with a worried face.The man she once called her father also saw her, with complicated expressions in his eyes, and after looking at her, he took the freckled woman's hand and left.Their backs disappeared into Su Xiaosan's eyes, and she murmured, "Dad, Mom said you would go home—" Yang Xueli raised Su Xiaosan alone. Su Xiaosan did not expect that when she was in her third year of university, Yang Xueli had a tumor in her brain, and it was already at an advanced stage when she discovered it.When Su Xiaosan rushed home, Yang Xueli was quite clear about her affairs, she took her hand and said calmly, "Xiaosan, Mom is leaving. Mom has a few words to tell you." Su Xiaosan burst into tears: "Mom, I don't want you to go, don't—" Yang Xueli had a sad smile on her white paper face, and said weakly: "Xiaosan, Mom doesn't want to leave, and I don't want to part with you. My daughter has grown up. Mom still wants to enjoy your blessings. But there is no way, it is hard to find a tenth of a hit. Xiaosan, my good daughter, what mom wants to say is that after I leave, you have to take good care of yourself, and everything depends on you. Open up, there is no hurdle that you can't get over, mom knows you have knots in your heart, knots that can't be solved, mom understands. Besides, don't hold grudges against your dad anymore. He is not wrong. He should have his own life. It's not easy, please forgive him, Mom has long taken things lightly in her heart. Also, when Mom leaves, you have to help Mom comb her hair neatly and put on clean clothes for Mom. Mom will be refreshed all her life ..." Yang Xueli passed away soon, and before she died, she left a passbook for Su Xiaosan, and the money in the passbook was just enough for her to graduate from university. He also left Su Xiaosan a small oilcloth umbrella with dots of plum blossoms painted on the surface. Su Xiaosan didn't know why Yang Xueli kept the small umbrella to herself. She had never seen it before, and Yang Xueli must have treasured it for many years. Su Xiaosan thought that her name must be related to this little umbrella. However, she was ignorant of the details. Thinking of her adoptive mother, Su Xiaosan felt very sad. If she doesn't die, Su Xiaosan still has someone to rely on. Su Xiaosan let out a long sigh. Her eyes fell on the letter on the table inadvertently, and her heart beat. Who is this letter to her?Another letter with what content? Su Xiaosan cut open the envelope with scissors, and pulled out the letter paper from inside.Five pages of letter paper were filled with densely packed characters in beautiful fonts. She turned to the last page, there was no signature, and the person who wrote the letter was a mystery. The content of the letter has nothing to do with Su Xiaosan, it's like a novel. Su Xiaosan was attracted by this strange letter: When I was six years old, a weasel entered my body. It was a dusk in the early summer of 1966, and Yezhuao Village was shrouded in rose-colored sunset glow.Mother Xiao Sanniang sat in the middle of the small courtyard with a solemn expression, and a cold light shone from her cloudy eyes.This is Xiao Sanniang's inherent expression.Whether she is happy or sad, she always has this expression. In my impression, she has never laughed or cried. Maybe she has never laughed or cried since she was born. It was a strange evening. I sat on the threshold and watched my mother. I saw a lot of weasels entering the courtyard in single file.I counted carefully, and there were 72 weasels.All the weasels in the mountains and fields around Yezhu'ao Village gathered in the courtyard?My heart was beating wildly.Those weasels surrounded Xiao Sanniang. They sat on the ground, raised their heads, and watched her. I believe these weasels were summoned by Xiao Sanniang. Why did she recruit these weasels? If the villagers knew about it, they would beat her to death together with the weasels.Recently, chickens in the village are always being dragged away by weasels, and the villagers hate weasels to death. There is a mysterious power in Xiao Sanniang. After the weasels were seated, Xiao Sanniang began to speak in a language I couldn't understand.Her speech was fast, like dense raindrops, and her hoarse voice was even more mysterious.When she spoke, she closed her triangular eyes, her ugly face twitched, and her whole body trembled. I was terrified, never so scared.I feel that Xiao Sanniang is not my mother, but a monster.Only now did I understand why people in the village usually avoided her, as if she was a plague.When she was arrested and criticized, people spat on her and threw rotten leaves. They said she was a bad person. That scene made me angry. They were so unfair. I didn't see her hurt anyone. Only I can feel it. to her kindness and warmth.At this moment, that loving mother disappeared in front of my eyes. She was indeed like a monster. I was cold from head to toe, as if frozen. Although she was close at hand, she was far away from me, so far away that I couldn't get close.I often have the feeling that when Xiao Sanniang does weird things, I know that soon, the beautiful image of Xiao Sanniang's loving mother will return to my heart. Those weasels surrounding Xiao Sanniang nodded towards her, making chirping sounds, as if they were talking to her.Xiao Sanniang is their king, she owned them, but she was far away from me. I was a child abandoned by Xiao Sanniang at that time, extremely lonely and afraid. Tears welled up from my eyes. Nobody cares about a little girl's tears. Suddenly, I found a weasel turned its head and called out to me twice, its amber eyes flashed with cold light.The cold light turned into two silver threads, flying towards me and entering my eyes. I was dizzy for a while. The sky gradually darkened. Xiao Sanniang's hoarse voice finally fell silent.She opened her closed eyes, and a red light shot out from her eyes, and the weasels left the courtyard in panic. Until I can't see them clearly. I felt like a weasel didn't leave, but entered my body. Xiao Sanniang stood up from the middle of the small courtyard, walked in front of me, and said softly, "Ah Hong, you are hungry, Mommy is going to cook for you." I didn't say a word, and sat motionless on the threshold. Xiao Sanniang hunched over, entered the room and lit the kerosene lamp.Then she walked into the stove again, and there was the sound of washing pots in the stove.In those famine years, the sound of washing pots was full of expectations.I'm not as excited as usual. I'm not hungry at all tonight, and my stomach is still very bloated. I heard a strange noise coming from my stomach. It was as if the weasel was telling me that it was in my belly. I also seem to have a mysterious power. After dinner, I vomited out all the sweet potato porridge I had eaten.Xiao Sanniang was very distressed. Sweet potatoes are also a precious food in this lean season.In fact, she was more distressed about me, she patted my back with her dry hands and said, "Ah Hong, did you catch a cold?" I wasn't sick, I just wanted to vomit and spit out the weasel in my stomach.I don't want it to live in me, and I don't want that mysterious power. I don't want to be a witch like Xiao Sanniang. That night, I had a high fever.I kept saying in a daze: "I want to eat chicken, I want to eat chicken—" Xiao Sanniang didn't take me to see a doctor, nor did she give me the herbal medicine that was always prepared at home. She killed a chicken she raised at home and stewed it for me overnight.Smelling the aroma of chicken, I stared at the big bowl of chicken in a daze. Xiao Sanniang didn't give me the chicken right away, but stared into my eyes, and said a series of words that I couldn't understand, maybe she regarded me as a weasel, like casting a spell on a weasel.After saying the spell, stuff chicken into my open mouth.No one would believe that a six-year-old girl could eat a whole chicken and even drink up the chicken soup. This is true, but I don't even believe it. What is even more unbelievable is that after I ate that chicken, the fever went away. Standing in front of me, Xiao Sanniang let out a long breath of relief. Since then, the village has rarely heard of anyone whose chickens were dragged away by weasels.I thought the weasel was still inside me.The weasel in me is responsible for a lot of weird things that happened to me growing up, the weasel gave me some sort of mystical power...