Chapter 13 Section 13

Outside the door is a happy New Year scene. The store doors on the long street are all covered with Spring Festival couplets, and some of them are closed for half a day, and some are completely closed there.The passers-by were all wearing newly-made mandarin gowns and gowns, and some were congratulating with their hands clasped. The sound of drums, firecrackers, and children's wild noises, all of which are flying towards the face, are absolutely like summer rainstorms.There was also the sound of copying cards and shouting bets.After all, there are fewer pedestrians than usual, and on the cold street, except for a few tourists who decorate the spring scenery, the ground is full of burnt firecrackers and red dust.

With tired eyes that were already red from crying, I staggered out of the hotel door, and went to the carriage house to hire a carriage.But today is the first day of the first lunar month, the grooms are resting, and no one is willing to come out and drag me to Xiaguan.In the end, I had no choice but to take a rickshaw out of the city at a very high price. The sun had already set low, and after leaving the end of the market, on that cold road, there was not a single pedestrian or car for a long time. Towards the end of the day, my car arrived at Xiaguan Station, and I went to the box office to have a look. The door was tightly closed, and the people on the station had all gone to drink and play cards.With the most humble courtesy, I bowed to a station clerk in charge of handymen, and begged him to tell me if there was any train to Tianjin or Shanghai today.

He said that today is New Year's Day, and the trains to Shanghai and Tianjin have only one train in the morning. I was humble and kind again, wishing I could bow down and ask him: "What time did the car drive this morning?" "Jinpu is six o'clock, and Shanghai-Nanjing is eight o'clock." As he said that, he seemed to hate my troubles, and turned his head away.I saluted him again, and asked him in the most amiable voice: "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, please tell me a little more. Is there a female passenger wearing a black velvet cap and a foreign coat on the bus to Shanghai today?"

"Then how would I know, there are so many people in the car!" "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I ran away this morning because of the woman, - oh - ran away, so...," These unnecessary words, I also said it like a fool from my hometown here, and the bottom turned into tears, and I couldn't continue.Hearing my cries, the station attendant gave me a contemptuous look, as if he regarded me as a villain begging for food.It was getting dark by this time, so the station attendant walked away.I had no choice but to get out and stand while wiping my snot with a handkerchief.

There are no rickshaws outside the station. I think if I want to take the morning train tomorrow.It was better to spend the night in Xiaguan, so while weeping, I walked from the sound of gongs and drums to the riverside where many hotels were open. The riverside is already at night, and there are a few lights peeking out from the cracks of the closed doors one by one. When I think about the situation when Chu and Yueying came down from A, I feel even more sad , but for the reason of recalling, I still found Du to live in Yingtai Grand Lv. In the spacious and empty Yingtai Hotel, there are very few guests staying at this time.After I settled down, regardless of the waiter's eagerness to go out to play cards, I stopped him and asked the same questions as the station attendant who asked the man.In the end, it turned into tears again, telling him about running away with a woman, and knowing that it was impossible, he couldn't help asking him if he saw such a woman getting in the car this morning.

After the waiter went out as if fleeing, I remembered what the waiter in the city said to me. If she walked out of Zhongzheng Street at eight or nine o'clock this morning, it would take her at least an hour to get to Xiaguan. In any case, it was almost ten o'clock before she could get here, so of course she couldn't catch the Jinpu bus, nor could the Shanghai-Nanjing bus.Ahhh, maybe she is still delayed in going to the customs, maybe it must be good for the Lord to scare the Lord, I'd better find her here for one night.Thinking of this, my joy welled up again, as if I knew for sure that she was in Xiaguan.

I didn't eat any food, so I ran out, planning to go to various hotels, and went to each hotel to find it. I walked on the dark and uneven road for a while, opened the doors of several hotels, searched and asked, and they all said that such a woman did not come to stay. They taught me to read the names on the passenger list, Of course not, because I know her, even if she comes to live, she will definitely not write her real name. From the riverside to the backstreet, no matter how big or small the hotel was, I humbly asked the same question, but I ended up going to sixteen or seven hotels, but it still had no effect at all.

It was already late at night, and everyone in the store came to the door, those who started gambling started to gamble, and those who beat the New Year's gongs and drums were knocking on the New Year's gongs and drums.I was not afraid of people's contempt and insults, so I knocked on the door and asked a few more.There was one place where I went to knock on the door, but the waiter not only refused to open the door, but even cursed at me for a while in a small door opening.I made up a lot of wrongs with my kind words and good looks, and I recited to him what I wanted to ask, and he just said, "No!" Close that little door.

I walked around a few more places and asked a few more questions. I was exhausted, and my head was so painful that it seemed to be split. I was about to stop this useless search and go back to Yingtai Hotel to rest. Suddenly, a beautiful chartered car came up ahead.From the headlights of the car, I saw a black velvet hat like Yueying's, and a coat with ostrich feathers around it. Before the faces of the people sitting in the car could be clearly seen, the car ran past .I turned around and chased after him. I became more daring and raised my guttural voice with tears, "Yueying! Yueying!" several times.

The car in front of me stopped, and I jumped up like a ghost, and I jumped up to see that the one sitting in the car seat was a cute little girl who was younger than Yueying. .She was clearly a prostitute who came back from the game, and she was shocked when she saw my appearance, and I told her with tears in my eyes, and briefly told her about Yueying.Although she seemed to be expressing sympathy to me, the driver who did not do well spit on me, let go and strode forward again. Walking back to Yingtai Hotel, it was already midnight, I tossed and turned alone, thinking that Yueying would go out this time, the more I thought about it, the more strange I felt.If she thought I had no money, she shouldn't have followed me in the first place.If she thinks my appearance is ugly, she will love me until she leaves.Besides, when I first met her, I didn't seem to be completely passive when I saw her actions and listened to her words. If she had another lover, during the past month or so, I and her Haven't left overnight.That little boy Chen Junli in A land did have a relationship with her in the past, but she is no longer in her heart now, so why did she abandon me because of this?Or did she think of her mother in Tianjin?Or did he think of Li Lanxiang and that grandma?But it won't be, because she doesn't have any deep feelings for them.So what is it for?for what?After much deliberation, I couldn't think of a reason why she wanted to leave.If I want to say it hard, maybe she has become jealous of that kind of slutty actress life again, or it's because I love her too much recently.But no, and no, the dissatisfaction with the life of an actress was told to me by herself.I love her too much. Although she has expressed dissatisfaction from time to time recently, how can there be anyone in the world who hates those who spoil themselves?

I think more about the sex life I have had with her for more than a month, think about her actions and expressions when she raped me passionately, think about the thing about washing her body last night and her last one. With a peaceful smiling sleeping face, a kind of indescribable misery pressed up step by step from the bottom of my stomach, "Ah, no matter what, I will never see her anymore, I will never see her anymore!" Thinking of this, my heart The distress in his chest changed into a whimpering cry.The more I want to stop crying, the more intense my grief becomes, but the cries become louder. After a night of depression like this, the sky became gray and gray again, and the sound of locomotives turning around at the station came a few times from a distance. At this point, my mind suddenly became clear. "What should I do?" If the speculation last night is correct, then maybe she is still around Nanjing today, I just need to go to the station and wait, and when she gets on the train today, I will go and pull her back.If she has already left Nanjing, then did she go to the north?What about those who went south?Just thinking of this, a steamship in the river, the mother-in-law let out a whistle. I was in a daze again, because when I thought about her leaving last night, I only thought of the train, but I didn't think that I could go to Hankou and go to Shanghai by boat from here. I hurriedly called the waiter to get up, fetched water to wash my face, and I didn't pay the bill, so I paid three oceans, and then hurried downstairs to the ship pier by the river. I went to the pier and asked on the boat. In the cabin, there was only an old man lying on the bed, smoking under a kerosene lamp.I was extremely sorry and asked him a lot of questions.He said that the customs are closed from New Year's Day to the fifth day of the new year, but yesterday afternoon there was a boat that was launched late due to a backlog, and he didn't pay attention to whether there were passengers on board. I decided that if she wanted to leave, she would definitely go on this boat, so I thanked the old man many times and left the barge at the pier.I went to the shore and thought about it quietly, but I still felt uneasy, so I went west with a few workers and passengers who got up early, bought a ticket and boarded the liaison ship bound for Pukou, because I thought in case she didn’t leave yesterday Well, I can't escape the two trains at six o'clock and eight o'clock today. I'll go to Pukou and wait for it for an hour, and then I'll come back and catch the train to Shanghai. The boat set off, and the gray sky gradually brought dawn.In the light blue sky in the east, a few pink clouds also gushed out, which were the CD-ROMs reporting the sunrise.The stars in the sky have already collected their shadows, and the cold wind blows into the boat.Several passengers on the side of the boat clicked a few times.I heard a few sirens in the cold air from the other side, and I was anxious again, I was afraid that the Jinpu bus would drive ahead of me, and I wished I could abandon the late ferry and go to Pukou station with one foot. . When the boat arrived at Pukou, the sun rose, and a few lonely passengers, with long shadows, walked slowly ashore from the gangplank.I squeezed past several groups of pedestrians heading towards the station in the same direction, and hurried to the empty hall in front of the box office. There were very few tourists in the hall, only a few servants were there sweeping the floor and fetching water.I grabbed a steward in a uniformed car and asked him very humbly if he had seen such a woman.He bent his head, thought for a while, then shook his head and said, "No!" He even raised his mouth and told me to go look for it in the carriage. I took one ride after another, looking from the back to the front, and from the front to the back. I only saw three of the women travelers.Three were old women from the country, one was a middle-aged middle-class man who was with her husband, and he was obviously going to visit the New Year by car, and the other was a Westerner. Standing blankly in the cold wind on the platform, I saw the passengers on the same boat as me get into the train in groups, and a few minutes later, the train started to move with a chirp. .With tears in my eyes, I watched the car go far away on the platform, and then I walked out of the station, boarded the ferry, and took the ferry back to Xiaguan. It was already past seven o'clock when we arrived at Xiaguan Station.After all, it is the Shanghai-Nanjing train, and the people commuting on the station are also very crowded.I bought a ticket to go in, and first looked around on the platform for a long time. I saw a woman who looked like Yueying several times, but when I was about to go up to have a look, I was in vain again. After getting into the car, I looked at it twice from front to back and from back to front as I did at Pukou Station, but the result was still the same as when I was at Pukou. The car was a little late that day, and I didn't arrive in Suzhou until after two o'clock.Sitting bored in the car seat, I was full of ominous thoughts, because I knew that she only knew Xiao Yuehong in Shanghai, so in my fantasy, how would I introduce the stage boss to Yueying .I also thought about how the so-called master who slept with her on the same bed took advantage of it, and how he had committed adultery with Yueying. Thinking of this almost made me jump out of the car seat.Fortunately, just when I was in the worst depression, the bus also arrived at the North Railway Station, and I kept taking the car to find Xiao Yuehong's house in Sanduoli.