Chapter 14 Section 14

On the roads in Shanghai, there is also the same scene of the New Year with drums and music.However, there are a few more trams, cars, rickshaws, etc., and a little more pedestrians. The rest of the appearance, the appearance of the street market with all the shops closed, is still the same as in Nanjing. I found Sanduoli on Aiduoya Road, opened the door of No. 18, and forgot to say New Year's greetings, and ran straight to the pavilion room I had visited once. I went in and saw that Xiao Yuehong and the little girl were not there, only a ferocious-looking Yankee in his forties, wearing a black sheepskin robe, sitting opposite the window and playing the huqin.

I saluted him and told him that Xie Yueying, who had been here before, was my woman.Before I finished speaking, he asked me in surprise: "Oh, you haven't gone back to Nanjing yet?" I told her again that it was time to go back, but she left again yesterday morning.Then I asked him if she had been here before, and asked Xiao Yuehong if she knew where Yueying was going. He shook his head and said: "I haven't been here before, or Xiao Yuehong knows about it, but I don't know. When she comes back, let me ask her." I asked him where Xiao Yuehong had gone, and he said that she had gone to sing an opera and hadn't come back yet.I was full of hope because of his sentence "maybe Xiaoyuehong knows it but she doesn't know it", so I smiled and said to him:

"Is she probably in World X? Let me go there and find her." He said: "I'm coming back soon, but you can go to X World to play." He didn't know my anxiety like a caterpillar on fire, and thought I wanted to visit X World. Although I thought so in my heart, my mouth But the boss said goodbye to him respectfully and walked out. After all, it was the second day of the new year, and the tourists in World X were really full of holes.I squeezed through a lot of people, and I didn't care about my face, so I ran directly to the backstage room and told the gatekeeper that I must see Xiao Yuehong.The play she sang has not yet appeared on stage, but her hair has already been dressed up.Many girls in the stage room, because I rushed over and dragged Xiao Yuehong to ask Xu Xu, so everyone was squinting at us.After asking for a long time, she was still puzzled. I saw her expression and the way she looked back at her master for the first time, and I knew it would be useless to ask, so I just told her that I still live on Fourth Avenue. If she hears or receives news from Yueying in the future, please come to the hotel and tell me.In the end my words turned into tears again, and when I was about to leave, I added:

"If I can't find her this time, I'm afraid I won't be able to survive." After leaving World X, I went back to the hotel on Fourth Avenue to get a room.It's the same hotel where she once stayed, this time alone, when I think of the old relationship, I don't need to talk about the sadness in my heart.Sitting alone in the room, he thought carefully about that morning for a while, and the things he was so anxious about because she went to Xiao Yuehong's place suddenly came to his mind again. "Ah, this has indeed become a fact. It turns out that love is indeed miraculous, and there are indeed premonitions."

After thinking like this for a long time, the electric light in the room suddenly turned on, and I was startled. It turned out that I supported my head with both hands, and sitting there thinking blankly, I actually lost the passage of time and the separation of day and night. Forgot all. The waiter came in and asked me if I wanted to eat, I just shook my head and looked at him blankly, unwilling to say a word.When he closed the door and went out, I felt a kind of infinite loneliness again, so I called him back and asked him: "Where is today's newspaper? Please go and get me a copy."

Because I think that if Yueying arrives in Shanghai, or take advantage of the excitement of the New Year, she might go to the stage right away. Let me take a look at the play list in the newspaper. Is there any name like her and the play she loves to sing? Listed in the newspaper.But the waiter smiled again and answered me: "There is no report today. There will be no report until the fifth day of the first lunar month." So far I've been disappointed again.But sitting in a room for the night like this is ultimately unbearable, so I asked the waiter again, how many Kun theaters are there in Shanghai now.He thought about it, reported a few places, but the report was not complete, so he finally said:

"I don't know how many Kun theaters there are, but it's easy for you to investigate this. I'll go and show you one of the old newspapers." After he brought the old newspapers from the end of last year, I copied all the locations of theaters that had Kun opera in the repertoire advertisements, and planned to watch it one by one.Because I knew that if Yueying was going to go on stage, her real name would never be published, so I wanted to spend three or four days and go to all the kun corners in Shanghai to see it. From then on, during the day and at night, I only lived in the theater where Kunjiao performed, but this kind of theater watching was really painful.A few times I saw an actress who looked like her in stature, age, and appearance on stage, so I pulled out my eyes and leaned forward to stare.But as soon as she took the stage and sang two or three lines of the play, I was twice as disappointed and depressed than before I didn't see her.

Sitting in front of the stage, among many happy men and women, I thought about the plot in Anyuan last year, and the life I lived with Yueying for nearly two months. When there is no place to vent, where is the mind to listen to and watch the show?But because he wanted to find out the reason why she came, and wanted to find the reason why she came here in this sea, but he had to sit there from beginning to end, and he didn't dare to miss a single angle of Kun. When watching a movie, because the eyes have to be wide open to pay attention to the actresses who come up one by one, so time can still falter.But when the show ended, I had to walk back to the hotel alone with a pair of heavy feet and a bleeding heart. I felt worse than the state of a death row prisoner walking to the execution ground.

I can't sleep at night no matter what. Although I bought a lot of cosmetics such as sesame oil, perfume and Apicon powder that she used when the theater was not open in the morning, I poured it on the bed and smelled it, but The more I smell this fragrance, the more I want to think of Yueying, the more I can't close my eyes.Even if I forcefully close my eyes sometimes, above the eyelids, twirling over and over again, are still her smiling face, her body, her hair and her lips. Sometimes, before the theater opened, I often went to stand in front of the foreign shop at the north Sichuan intersection of the main road.But when I saw the flesh-colored silk stockings and high-heeled leather shoes, I would think of her pair of very white and soft fleshy feet. If I was a little presumptuous, I would almost think of the upper part of her silk stockings or her only wearing them. Footwear, standing naked is enough, especially if I can't bear it.It was the spring and summer clothes of those petite curvy women that one had to see when one walked through the glass windows of the various laundry shops on Fourth Avenue.Because I have seen her obscene clothes and her breasts with half-unbuttoned shirts, so I have to go to the most obscene things when I see the clothes of Xiang Ze who once kissed a woman.

Days like this passed day by day. When I got up in the morning, I would go to the shops selling women's products or in front of the laundry room to stand in a daze.But I have seen all the Kun theaters everywhere, but there is still no news about Yueying.A week has passed since the first month of the old calendar, and newspapers are starting to print newspapers.Since the fifth day of the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, I have gone to various newspapers to place an advertisement: "Yueying, come back, I am dying. Your Jiecheng is still staying at the XX Hotel on Sima Road waiting for you!" But it was published in the newspaper for three days, but there was still no news.

I tried all kinds of methods, but in the end I had no choice but to learn to be a country fool, go to the Shangcheng God Temple and the Red Temple to pray devoutly, and ask the Bodhisattva to bless me.However, the signatures from various places and the lessons from various places that have been predicted all say that they will come back, they will come back, just wait patiently.At the same time, I thought of the lottery that I asked for in land A, and I was really puzzled and uneasy, because the same Bodhisattva clearly made two prophecies there. Because of my grief, I sometimes bought a lot of paper, silk, ingots, etc., and ran to the cemetery in the suburbs near Shanghai.When I found a woman's tombstone, I regarded her as Yueying's tomb, worshiped it, prayed warmly, and cried bitterly.Perhaps this kind of prayer had an effect. One day, I returned from a memorial service in the western suburbs of Shanghai, and suddenly received a letter from Yueying from Nanjing on the door of the hotel room.The content of the letter was very simple, just saying: "I saw the advertisement in the newspaper, come back!" I liked it very much, and thought that the ghosts and divination classes in Shanghai were really effective, and she really came back. So I immediately went to buy a lot of sesame oils, powders, and perfumes that she loves, and made a big bag. I planned to give her a gift when I went back, so I took the night train that night and hurried back to Nanjing, because the train had already passed. Drove as usual. Of course I didn't fall asleep all night on the train.I stuffed her letter on my chest under my clothes, and at the same time opened a bottle of Eutrulope's perfume, which she loved to sprinkle on the quilt, and put it in front of my nose, closed my eyes, and smelled the perfume. As if she was sleeping in my arms, my mind was full of thoughts about her posture and words before and after going to sleep. Before dawn, the car arrived at Xiaguan, and when I was rocked into the middle of the city in the carriage, my heart jumped with joy, which was several times greater than when I went into the city with her last time. While I was looking at the dry trees and barren fields by the roadside where the sun was shining, I was meditating in my heart on how to say the first words to her after seeing her, how to settle the lovesickness of the past few days with her. The carriage was going really slowly, I urged the groom again and again, asking him to fasten the whip for me, and thank him heavily when I arrived.When Zhongzheng Street arrived, I just wanted to jump out of the car and run to the hotel faster than a horse, because the closer I got, the more anxious I felt. After all, I arrived at the door of the hotel. I didn’t get out of the car, so I asked the accountant who was standing at the door to pick up the guests loudly from the window and said: "Is your wife back?" When the accountant saw it was me, he greeted me and said: "My wife has been here, and the suitcases have been moved, and she left the luggage to me to keep in that room, saying that you are coming soon." I opened my eyes wide again after hearing this, and stood there for a long time.The accountant saw that I was in a daze, and noticed my frightened and disappointed description, so he continued: "Just go to the room and have a look, there is still a letter written by Madam." After hearing this sentence, I kept running up to the room where the person locked up by magic was still released.I ordered the waiter to open the door to have a look. She had indeed taken away all of her suitcases, and all that was left was my suitcase, a bookcase, a few foreign paintings and a stack of easels.On the lid of my suitcase, she left another letter in bold and large handwriting: "Jiecheng: When I left, I told you not to chase me. Why did you catch up to Shanghai again? I think your health is not good, and if I live with you, you will definitely die because of me in the future. I feel that your body has not been as good as before recently, so I decided to separate from you, why do you bother? I took all my things away, so that you won't feel bad when you see it again.I didn't take any of your things, I just took a picture you drew for me that wasn't finished. Jiecheng, I'm not sure where I'm going this time, please don't come after me again. Goodbye, you have to take care of your own body.Yue Ying. " "Ah, she left me because of my weak body!" When I thought about it like this, a feeling of shame, indignation, and annoyance rushed to my heart at the same time.But looking back, I felt that I would never be reconciled to not going with her like this, so I immediately decided to go after her again. I thought that no matter what, I must find her and meet her again. After I packed up my luggage, I called the waiter to ask: "When did the lady come?" "It came three or four days ago." "Did she stay here all night?" "Hey, stay overnight." "Who sent the luggage?" "I sent it." "Where did you send it?" "She's going to hitch a boat." Ahhh, I didn't know until now that she went to A, probably she must have gone to look for that little boy Chen Jun.While I was thinking like this, I also felt a kind of malice, I wanted to catch up with A and be the face of that little boy, and then scold her. I asked the waiter first, and he said that today there will be a boat on the water, so I didn't wait for another sentence, and asked him to open the account, pack my luggage for me, and drive out of the city immediately. In the afternoon when the boat arrived at A, it began to snow suddenly.The north wind was unusually tight, and the streets of City A were also particularly depressed.I took the car to the big hotel in front of the provincial office to stay, and then I took the car to the Daxin Hotel in the snow. As soon as the owner of the hotel saw me going, he bowed to me very affectionately, first congratulated me on the New Year, and then asked me: "Do you always live in the office? Why do you look so bad? Are you sick again?" When I heard his question, I knew that he didn't know anything about Yueying and me. He seemed to think that I had never left Land A.I also pretended to be nonchalant and asked him: "How are the actresses who live here?" "Ah, they, they left at the end of last year, about a month or so?" I chatted with him for a few days, and asked him the address of that little fair-faced Mr. Chen, and he suddenly asked me in surprise: "Don't you know? He vomited blood and died on New Year's Day. It's a pity that Mr. Chen is still very young!" Hearing this sentence suddenly, I felt a chill in my heart, and my nervous jealousy and resentment suddenly relaxed. As a result, the fatigue and intemperance of the past few weeks crawled out of hiding , conquered my body.Barely stumbling out of the hotel door, I myself realized the exhaustion of my body and the shock of my heart.I called a rickshaw in the light snow and taught him to pull me to St. Paul's Hospital. I felt that my eyes were black. Lying on my back in the car, I only slightly felt a gust of air-conditioning, gradually approaching my heart from the tip of my toes.I felt it was dangerous. I wanted to scream but couldn't, and my tongue was frozen.I wanted to move, but my limbs didn't listen to my commands.All of a sudden, I felt a heavy black lump flew over my forehead, and I don't know what happened after that.