Chapter 7 seven one new corner

"Luo, I'm going to discuss your affairs with Mr. Shiping today." When my uncle said this, it was seven o'clock in the morning of the week. Luo was drinking tea, sitting on the porch of the living room, thinking of another matter.Because my uncle was silent when he saw her, he said again: "I calculated for a day, and I still explain it clearly, so as not to face each other with a hypocritical face when we meet. I am not angry with Mr. Shiping any more. I understand that I shouldn't be too Too selfish. I want you to be happy." When my uncle said this, although he was very sincere and natural, he couldn't help showing a little melancholy.

Luo shook her head and frowned slightly, "Uncle, it's too late." "What doesn't work?" "I can't marry Mr. Shiping." "Didn't you say you were in love with each other yesterday?" "But being in love and being married are two different things." "There is no such reason. Don't make this matter too fanciful. This is not happiness for you." "I don't plan to marry anyone!" "Have you fallen out again?" "I didn't make a fuss. But I talked to him about it yesterday. I don't allow anyone to make such unreasonable demands on me. Mr. Shiping is very sensible, and of course he will understand my reasons. I'm not married yet Time. Maybe I will marry someone in the future, maybe, but I will not marry Mr. Shiping. I don’t like any acquaintances. I can see the weakness of those who love me. I want to stay celibate out of selfishness.

I don’t love Mr. Shi Ping anymore, because I thought he was older and more honest than Chen Bai, but yesterday I realized it.Men are all the same, they can't be bothered.Hypocrisy and stinginess are unimaginable. " "Is this really your opinion?" "I never wanted to use lies to save myself in front of my uncle." "Why are you suing me about this? Why is what you said yesterday completely different from today?" "I'm right, because I don't hide it from my uncle. As for his disappointment in this matter, it's not my fault." The uncle looked at Luo's face with worried eyes, and felt that there were all kinds of inexplicable mysteries going on in the young woman's mind.

He said no more, because what was to be said was all useless nonsense.Luo was still the same as before, lively and bright, which made my uncle always dazzled and surprised.My uncle had planned for her for a long time, thinking that he had forgiven his niece's behavior and Mr. Shiping's faults in a large number of situations, and was thinking about how to deduct a sum of money for her financially. The two started a family, but in the past two days everything has changed completely.He didn't quite agree with this matter at first, but when he had already decided to agree, he heard the news of the rupture. This gentleman lost the focus of his heart, and a persistent thought grew in his mind, and he didn't want to participate in any further proposals. Any advice is appreciated.

Because of her uncle's embarrassment, Luo only thought it was funny.Everyone's motives for behavior are hidden under their own convenient plans, and sorrow and happiness are also transferred according to whether this convenience is available or not.The uncle's silence made Luo see what was the conflict between her and her uncle. Seeing her uncle's dismal look, she couldn't help but take the responsibility of calming down the air a little, and she said, "Uncle, I ask you to let it go and it's better. You are still an old friend of Mr. Shiping, talk about drama, talk about economics, it is good for the two of you to exchange interests with each other.You don't have to worry about me too much, I know how to deal with everything about me!If I don't handle it well, this distress should be recorded in my name. If I handle it well, I will naturally be happy!Don't worry too much about me, it's useless. "

The uncle said, "Well, I don't care about everything. I will do my best, but you don't want to tell me about you. I have to be selfish, otherwise my position will be very difficult to handle, and my emotions will be difficult." I can't stand this torment!" "It's good for Uncle to ignore you. If you know it, you can be calm and calm, and maintain your gentleman status—your appearance and mood, and everything is stable. If you can do this, I would like Uncle to know everything. .” "I can't be what you call a perfect gentleman, and it's better that I don't have to know.

When you must be engaged to someone, just tell me again, and that's it. " "Uncle said this as if he was very sad!" "It's a little sad, but for your sake, I think that's the way to go." "I don't want to trouble my dear uncle with my behavior." "You are a person of this era, and middle-aged people can't understand your behavior. This fault must not be your fault!" "Mr. Shiping also mentioned this." "Of course we have to talk about this. Because Mr. Shi Ping seems to be the leader of your drama movement, but he is still a person who grew up in the same world and in the same atmosphere as me. I also calculate that he will fail. He Haven't you been troubled by this?"

"I don't ask, and I don't want to be very clear, because I'm not born to sympathize with this kind of distress." "How did you ask him?" "I said that I will always be my own person, and I can't take anyone's enthusiasm or tenderness away." "How did he say?" "He smiled, very reluctantly. He made me unhappy. He is such a knowledgeable and thoughtful middle-aged man, and he has retained one of the most stupid instincts of human beings. When he saw me getting a little closer to a student, he wanted to Jealousy. Although he tried his best to tolerate his weakness, he still had to belittle others in terms of words and attitudes. Because of this, I raised the issue to him. I didn’t need to be jealous because I didn’t admit the man who loved me , made me bear a contractual obligation, so I broke up with Chen Bai. Now Mr. Shiping is unfortunate, and because of this matter, I lost my illusion about him."

"Then are you going to act again?" "Why don't you act anymore? Being in love and acting are completely two different things. I go with them for the sake of acting, and no one can embarrass me. Also, because I am curious, I want to act to be satisfied." My curious mind." "Luo, your words are becoming more and more dangerous. I am worried about your future, and I hope you will stop acting." "Uncle means that he is planning for yourself again." "Not for myself, but for you—and, so to speak, for everyone else. Here I have to say that Mr. Shiping took you in an unfortunate direction, and you gradually became the character in the script, not the old you! "

"Because uncle is pessimistic?" "Because then you become an isolated person." "What I envy is being alone. What I want is to be alone." "You are a hero, but you will definitely fall into the trap of ordinary people in the future. A person who fights against habits will always be crushed in the end." "I'm not threatened by this. I know that with the testimony of my uncle's life, conservatism has won. But now I should choose the thing that will break me to pieces. When the opportunity comes, I will be very brave and jump into the trap! "

"By then it will be too late for you to get up." "I will never be so cowardly! If it is said that remorse is an instinct of human beings, it must be the instinct of those who are happy, sad, and sad." "Will you never regret it?" "Because I decided it was a stupid thing to do." "What's the use of being so clever? One ought to—" "I think what I ought to do is to live. What I like is good. I'll get what I want, and I'll let go of what I don't want. Uncle, I am learning to be a good person. Morality and justice are all based on my attitude towards life. Uncle, don’t think that I am still a child. I want my uncle to trust me more than others love me. Because of my uncle’s trust, I am You can be free from this aspect and be a brave man.” "Luo, your ability to explain is very good. I can't refute what you said. What you said is all right, I am afraid that these are only your words, not your thoughts.It seems that you do it because you said it, but you say it not because you want to do it.I advise you not to act in dramas, and not to read scripts every day, because you can get a chance to use your thoughts a little more than your mouth. " "I believe this is my uncle's kindness, but it still doesn't quite suit my temperament. I am trying to build my truth in words, and I can live in harmony with words. " "Your experiment is still dangerous, so I always feel that it is not good. If I ask me why it is not good, I can't find a reason, but my uncle's stubbornness is based on more than 40 years of life experience. You know this very well. .” "Uncle, I obey you! It's not because of your truth, but because of your pity. I should make you happy. This is the little bit of responsibility I feel towards people. I'll think about what you said , if I think about it clearly, I will definitely be able to do things that make you happy!" At this time, the gentleman remembered the dead girl, who seemed to have said such words when she was about to get married, and the personnel affairs of the past twenty years came to his eyes, and he felt a little worried, and he didn't want to say anything more. The little study has gone. Luo understood how her uncle felt.As long as her uncle doesn't talk to her and her mouth is useless, she can feel the gentleman's concern for her.It is also possible to take her uncle's opinion into consideration, but she knows that consideration is a kind of folly, because everything is dealt with according to consideration, but it can be dealt with to her own satisfaction.When everything suits one's own wishes, it seldom suits others' wishes at the same time.So she thought it was stupid to think about it, and agreed to her uncle to think about it. In fact, she knew what the result was before thinking about it. She talked too much, and it was of little use, as she knew very well.She thought of silence, for silence is rest.But as soon as the opportunity for silence came, she became lonely.When talking to everyone, she saw in words that she was a hero, all resistance was invincible, and all refutations were failures.She also sees herself a hero in the company of all, the instant softness of strength, the humility of pride.But put herself in the realm of no one, since there are no enemies, everything that makes her strong and divine king disappears in the darkness, and she becomes terrified.The more she thought about it, the more frightened she became, but she was willing to be an ordinary woman in a very peaceful manner, and she hoped to leave the past and the present. ... These emotions disturbed this person's soul at the same time, and it was invisible on the surface.In order not to live a life of introspection that is not commensurate with her age, she thought to herself that she should be a person who survived the bustle of the world. Although her uncle's advice calmed her down for a while, the next day, she was still the same as before. She is living in an active life again. Luo felt a little uneasy when her uncle went upstairs and didn't come down for a long time.Uncle was embarrassed by this turn of events, Lo thought it was perfectly natural.The age gap makes the two people appear to be in conflict. The uncle always loses to the niece. Today's situation is a little different. Sitting alone in front of the corridor downstairs, Luo always finds it funny when she thinks about the people and affairs in front of her. Her uncle's nosy temper always made her a little difficult to deal with.At one moment she seemed to understand this middle-aged man very well, and at another moment she was extremely confused. Therefore, although Luo was pitying and forgiving her uncle's behavior, she always planned to leave this middle-aged man in the end.Then she thought of the plan of how she should leave her uncle.She thought about how a person can live independently.She thought about how to live among a group of men, fall in love, revolutionize, act in a play, do what she likes, try to bring new ones to her side, try to let some stupid and wise people take turns to approach her in opportunities, so that In order to satisfy her instinct of curiosity about human beings.Only by discovering everything, grasping everything, and abandoning everything, can she have a lasting interest in life.Because all the lives she has seen and heard are not in line with her disposition, so whenever she thinks about life other than those, her heart is settled. She seemed to be able to forgive her uncle's behavior.She pitied him, she laughed at him, and yet respected him at the same time.In this matter she left a permanent contradiction.At this time, although I was planning how to leave my uncle, when I heard my aunt coming downstairs to fetch milk, I asked my aunt what my husband was doing.She was relieved when she heard that her uncle was still lying on the couch reading a book. When she arrived, she sang because she was happy, and even though she knew that her uncle was not very happy, she still sang for a long time, and went to her uncle's study to ask when the wireless radio that her uncle had promised her would be available for purchase. After lunch, at about three o'clock in the afternoon, Luo begged her uncle to go to ×× to do some shopping with her. On ×× Road, she saw Mr. Shiping walking alone in the sun, and her uncle parked the car by the side of the road. , Mr. Shiping stood beside the car.Sitting in the car, Luo called Mr. Shiping and asked him where he was going and why he was walking under the bright sun at this time. Mr. Shiping didn't seem to notice Luo's concern, and he just said to the gentleman, "Because I want to go to ××× Road for a meeting, I should first go to ×× to find someone, so take a walk and get acquainted with the road. .” Seeing this look, Luo thought it was Mr. Shiping's lie, and felt that Mr. Shiping looked pitiful, so she asked what kind of meeting it was.Mr. Shiping was still looking at the gentleman and talking. "It's about the development of acting, and there is a man surnamed Zong from Japan who reports on the latest drama movement in Japan." "Why didn't you invite me?" Only then did Mr. Shiping see Luo's face and said: "You don't like meetings, you think meetings are empty talk, so I won't tell you." "I was not happy in the past, but I am happy today. When will this open?" Mr. Shiping took out a watch from his bag, looked at it, and said, "There are still forty minutes." "I'm going with you, I'm going to see." Uncle said, "Really?" Luo said, "I really want to go! Uncle, you can go back by car. I thank you. If you are happy, go and buy that box for me. If you are not happy, go home. I must attend the meeting with Mr. Tong Shiping now. It must be very interesting there. Mr. Shiping, let me ask you, should we still ask uncle to take us to ×××, so that we don’t have to take the bus?” "No need. Let me see the house number of this house, 148, 150," he said while drawing out a card with a person's correspondence address written down in pencil. "Luo, 九× Go back, we will walk a few steps to that friend's place. He also said that he wanted me to introduce him to you. This is the most enthusiastic artist who just returned from Japan. He looks normal, but there are some places. It's very satisfying." Luo had already jumped out of the car at this time, and her uncle hadn't driven the car away before he noticed these two people. "I went, didn't I?" "Uncle, you go, I'm with Mr. Shiping. If you want to go home for dinner, I'll call you later." "Okay, you go with Mr. Shiping. You take the road on the left, it seems to be cooler." "Well, let's go over there. It's a lot of fun with the wind. See you later, Uncle." "Goodbye." After her uncle drove the car away, Luo began to ask Mr. Shiping, "Is the meeting really going?" Mr. Shiping looked at Luo, nodded, and without saying anything, he took two steps first, and Luo chased after him. "What's the house number my friend lives in?" Asking this was because she thought Mr. Shiping was still lying. "One seven five." "It's far ahead!" "It's almost there." ... The person he was looking for was not at home, but he left a note to Mr. Shi Ping, saying that he would be back at 3:30 at most, so the two had to stay and wait.Because there were still ten minutes left, and Mr. Shiping sat on a chair without saying a word, Luo felt a little sad.She was not used to this kind of situation, so she said: "Mr. Shi Ping, if you don't talk to me, you must still remember what happened to that fool last time. If there is only that little reason to keep you silent, then You're looking like a backup fool, too." "In front of you, I really look a little silly." "No, I said you were a little like a child. Because only children are serious about such things." "What am I serious about?" "You can't let go of that student surnamed Zhou." "You're quite wrong. It's a pity that your cleverness can only make you think of such things. I am not a child, and I did it because you liked it. On the first day, I was not very happy. But I think about it. I think this is just my fault, so I sincerely hope that that person can give you happiness, and I will never be that stupid person again. I am silent, I am just thinking about that student, how to make you interested in him Hold on longer, of course I don't need you to believe it, but this is the real reason." "I believe you, because of this, I thought you were a child. Who needs your generosity? You are so magnanimous, and you must feel very great when you do it, but this sacrifice is not only a comfort to your own mood, but also a waste. Apart from your own mood, what benefit is there? Will I thank you? Will he thank you? " "I don't do anything in gratitude!" "As I said, you don't do it to thank anyone, but to be great. Isn't that the same stupid thing?" "So, what should I do to meet a man who wants you right?" "You should forget others and only pay attention to me. Just like I forget others in front of you, because friendship is a torch, just like the Buddhist scriptures say that the Buddha is merciful, whoever wants to light the lamp in his heart can take a torch, but Although there are many people received, it does not affect the needs of others, nor does it make oneself lack anything.” "Your analogy is good, but adages cannot be used as a standard in human life, so I don't think you may be able to keep this belief yourself." "You don't believe in the truth, but you believe in all kinds of prejudices caused by human selfishness, which is so bitter that women laugh." "Do you think it's funny?" "If I still have the opportunity to tell the truth in front of you, there are too many things about your behavior that make me feel funny." "What's so little?" "It's rare that you are pitiful." "Is there nothing right?" "For what? Women don't need your virtues, because these virtues are the result of your man's satisfactory efforts. Women only need to be free and easy, convenient, and free. It is good for men to love and give these and other things to those they love. man." "I only understood what you said today!" "That's because you used to know only yourself." "I'm not trying to save anything by saying this!" "It doesn't matter just to save our friendship? Why do you have to argue? In front of women, there is no need to argue. Whatever you want to do, just do it. If you want to use it, use it, and don't explain it in behavior. As far as a woman can guess with her own imagination, a man's folly sometimes makes a woman happy. A man should not be too careful. If you have to explain something when you do something, it seems that every action has a very good reason. A reason is beneficial to oneself, and all actions are in accordance with the law. Women will not be happy if there is no betrayal. There is a humble lover in Molière's play. Every time he adds a long list of explanations for his actions, the result is only The woman's slap hit him on the cheek. Chekhov also laughed at this kind of careful man in a short story. Because the man won the woman's first friendship with his small courtesy, he thought that it was still necessary to possess a woman. It is utterly ridiculous. Such behavior of men is not ridiculous, and should be pitied, for it is a very stupid estimate!" "Go on." "Let me go on? But I understand that even if you pretend to be very dignified, your ears still listen to what you say, that is: don't believe her. In fact, it is very good that you can all maintain this belief." Okay, but you men think that ears are not as good as eyes, so women's actions make you angry, but women's words don't affect men at all. But what about men? They do bad things in their actions, but they always rely on words to save everything. Probably because I love to lie too much, so I don’t pay attention to women’s words.” "Go on." "You make me thirsty, thinking that's the best way to treat a woman." "Luo, you're so smart, I'm really sorry for you. If you talk less and think more, your opinion will be different." "If the opinion is but an abstract statement, I need not trouble you." "I once thought about it this way, what use is it for you and others when you talk like this?" "I'm not looking for usefulness to talk!" "You are self-willed, vindictive, ... and other similar reasons, you can't speak for yourself." "Mr. Shiping, I won't talk anymore, I will try to let you go on." Mr. Shiping laughed.After talking for a while, both of them laughed. When the master came back, he saw Mr. Shiping and shook hands. Mr. Shiping introduced Luo and shook hands.This person's name is Zong Ze, and he had heard it a long time ago.Because Luo once acted in a Japanese play, which was translated by this person. A thin and emaciated person, with a dark face, short eyebrows, and an unnatural voice, everything about this person seems to be found in an ordinary person.But when speaking, there is a kind of simplicity that ordinary people lack, and when looking at people, there is also a kind of vigor and domineering, this is what Luo discovered when she saw it. This person was talking to Mr. Shiping, and he didn't seem to pay much attention to Luo's expression.When it comes to the shortage of acting talents in China, and when it comes to opinions on the script, it seems that Luo is completely unaware that Luo is a colleague.He said what he had to say without pretense, and his opinions were never compromised by politeness.Because the time was about to come, the three of them walked out of the door, called a car from a nearby car dealership, and went to ××. In the car, this man still didn't seem to pay much attention to Luo's conversation. Lo felt a little threatened in the presence of this man, and felt a little uncomfortable.For a woman who, at her age, is charming and youthful, and accustomed to being admired, finds this new situation intolerable to a man who completely neglects her beauty.She thought to herself, this is a man with a strange temper, a man who is not interesting, a man who only knows life and doesn't care about human feelings.As soon as she heard Mr. Shiping talking to him, she made an estimate of this man's usual life and career.But according to the power endowed by her instinct, she seemed to give in to this man invisibly. When Zong Ze and Mr. Shiping were not talking, she asked Zong Ze a lot of things. She chose a kindness that a man could not resist, and then Honestly and humbly ask about the situation of Japanese dramas.She caught the attention of this short and sharp man in terms of words, and she acted unceremoniously, saying that next time she must ask Mr. Zongze to point out the third act of XX, and what attitude should be used to read it. a speech.Zong Ze remained as calm as before.Luo thought that this man's ears paid attention to her words. Mr. Shiping was listening, just smiled slightly, without adding any comments.He noticed Zong Ze, but knew that Luo's pride had been hit.In Mr. Shiping's eyes, Zongze had accidentally obtained a victory that humiliated Luo, and Mr. Shiping felt an indescribable joy.When getting out of the car, because Zong Ze went down first, Mr. Shiping had a chance, so he gently said to Luo, "Speak less, or you will lose to others!" Luo blushed, and when Mr. Shiping reached out to help the woman by the side of the car, Luo brushed his hand away and jumped out of the car. There were about twenty-seven people in ××'s meeting, and Chen Bai was also present. It seemed that because she felt the need to demonstrate friendship, Luo deliberately sat in front of Zong Ze with the handsome man Chen Bai, and talked a lot of unnecessary things.While talking to Chen Bai, she noticed Zong Ze. Zong Ze seemed to know a little bit, but he still didn't show any embarrassment like other men. When he gave a speech, he was a hero and a warrior. At the end of the meeting, Chen Bai invited Luo, Mr. Shiping and Zong Ze to dinner at XX Building because Luo seemed to be very peaceful today. Luo did not answer, but saw Mr. Shiping smiling. Mr. Shiping agreed, Zong Ze also agreed, Luo was too embarrassed not to agree, so the four of them went to the ×× building for dinner soon.After dinner, Luo wanted to go back, and asked Mr. Shiping and Chen Bai if they were going to transfer schools.Chen Bai said that he still wanted to go to Zongze's residence to talk with Mr. Shiping.Luo looked like a little girl and said, "It's getting late, I'm going back, I'm not playing anymore." She meant that Zong Ze had to say something, but Zong Ze didn't speak.When Mr. Shiping saw this situation, he said: "If you talk to Mr. Guo Zongze, I will send you home." "I'm not going. I promised to call my uncle to tell my uncle to have dinner today, but I forgot." "Let's go there and talk for a while, okay?" Chen Bai also said the same, because Chen Bai was very willing to send Luo back alone, but it was inconvenient to say it at this time. Only then did Zong Ze say, "If Miss Luo has nothing to do, it's good to talk there." Luo felt a little annoyed when she saw Mr. Shiping, and it seemed that Mr. Shiping did not help her and made her difficult. She asked Chen Bai to send her back, saying that it would be all right to go back to Mr. Zongze's house again.Chen Bai was overjoyed, so he said a few words to Mr. Shiping, and walked away with Luo. When the two left, Mr. Shiping saw where the two were going, sighed lowly, turned around and asked Zong Ze, "Zong Ze, let's go!" After the bus, Zong Ze suddenly asked, "Are they married?" Mr. Shiping said, "Except for supporting roles in the play, the personalities of two people cannot be described." After Zong Ze heard this, he didn't say anything else. On the way, Mr. Shiping saw that Zong Ze was as silent as a Buddha, and wanted to know Luo's impression, what kind of attitude he retained in the man's heart, so he asked him, "Is Luo okay?" Zong Ze shook his head without answering, and Sneered for a while. The indifference of this man's expression showed the unfathomable depth of his soul, which reminded Mr. Shiping of Luo's restraint in front of this man.He seemed to see the future, as if Chen Bai and the pale-faced college student had the same fate as himself, and none of the three were as good as Zong Ze.He thought to himself, things in the world are really coincidental, the difference between tragedy and comedy, the difference is just a sentence and the same little thing, there is a change in the coincidence. When he was at Zongze's home, he said a lot about Luo.But Chen Bai called, saying that he might not be able to come to Zongze's house anymore, because Luo's uncle stayed with him to talk, and if Mr. Shiping wanted to go back, there was no need to wait. Because of this phone call, Mr. Shiping felt a little bit aggrieved, so he unknowingly talked to Zongze about how interesting Luo's uncle is, and invited Zongze to go to the gentleman's house to talk about it some other day, but Zongze agreed. up.