Chapter 6 six supporting roles

Because of a little encouragement from Mr. Shiping, the pale-faced third-year college student seemed to gain a lot of courage and a lot of light. His life suddenly felt unfolded, and he saw dazzling beauty. His soul was cultivated by pity and sympathy. Out, revived in hope. He felt that only Mr. Shiping knew how noble his hopeless and helpless love was.He felt that only Mr. Shiping could understand what he was like.He believed in Mr. Shiping and was grateful to Mr. Shiping. Since talking with Mr. Shiping, he wrote many magnificent words in a secret notepad the next day.He thought he would be alive from now on, he thought he would be a human being and be able to be a human being from now on.It is very easy for a person with a nervous breakdown who is usually weakened by his own imagination to suddenly become strong and solid under a state almost hypnotic. He still continues to live his imaginary life, and if he does not encounter the reef of reality, he seems to be very happy.

The college student remembered what Mr. Shiping said, got up early the next morning, did his first morning exercises, and stood in the flower garden outside the dormitory, still a little shy thinking about everything.He knew that Mr. Shiping got up very early, so he wanted to go to Mr. Shiping's small courtyard through the flower garden, talk to Mr. Shiping there, and ask him what kind of exercise he should practice to meet the needs of his body. .When I got to the corner gate, I saw a gentleman talking with Mr. Shiping there. Because I didn't know this person, I didn't dare to go there again, and I still retreated.He stood in front of the dormitory, breathing in the fresh morning air, waving his arms, and imitating the walking method of the infantrymen he had seen, walking back and forth. : "Zhou, how are you doing, do you want to learn gymnastics?"

Hearing this question, he seemed to have been discovered the secret in his heart, so he was shy, unable to answer, just nodded.The classmate said: "This is not good, who told you to exercise like this?" "I see Mr. Shiping practicing like this every day." "Mr. Shiping gets thinner the more you fuck! You should learn Baduanjin!" "Okay, just learn Baduanjin. Are you happy to teach me?" "Let's study later." That classmate went to the bathroom. This white-faced student stood in front of a flower bed and looked at the cross-shaped flowers of warbler grass, which bloomed very beautifully.Because of the frowning flowers and plants, I thought of reading Zhu Xiang's poems, and then forgot the rules I set. I still took a copy of "Cao Mang Ji", moved a small stool, and sat on the edge of the flower bed to read poems up.

At about two o'clock in the afternoon, Luo came to Mr. Shiping's residence.Mr. Shiping went to class, so she looked through some picture albums and waited in that room.The student surnamed Zhou, because he wanted to discuss other issues with Mr. Shiping, came to find Mr. Shiping, and met Luo there.The man's face was burning, his heart was beating, and he didn't know what to say, so he wanted to turn around. Seeing the student come and go, Luo remembered what Mr. Shiping said about acting, so she called him: "Mister Zhou, are you looking for Mr. Shiping?" "Yes. I didn't know he was in class."

"He's coming back soon, you can wait for him." "I can, I can," he stammered, and turned back into the room, not daring to raise his eyes to look at Luo again, so he turned his back to look at a painting on the wall, as if the painting was It was just hung on the wall recently, and it aroused his great interest. Luo thought to herself, "Such a person is really pitiful." She remembered that Mr. Shiping mentioned that he wanted to play ××× with her, and she didn't know if she would like to, so she said, "Mister Zhou, Mr. Shiping will be with you this morning." I said there is nothing wrong with your matter."

This student, upon hearing this, thought that Mr. Shiping had already told Luo what happened last night to Luo, and now he heard Luo put it forward in a gentle and calm manner, and his whole body was excited by this matter. up.He hurriedly turned his head, looked at Luo, his tongue seemed to be tied, and he asked in a trembling voice, "Did Mr. Shiping say that?" Seeing this situation, Luo didn't quite understand, thinking that this timid student was naturally agitated in front of the woman.Appreciating the man's weakness, she said, "Yes, he said you asked me to play XXX with you, didn't you?"

The student was completely confused. He didn't know why he said to play ×××. He can't say that there is no such thing.He thought it must be Mr. Shi Ping's plan to make him and Luo better acquainted, and he was about to cry out of gratitude.But why did Mr. Shiping talk about ×××?Seeing Luo's face, he didn't know what to say, and added everything he wanted to say.His heart trembled, his mouth trembled, and in the end he had no choice but to turn around and look at the painting.As he looked at the picture, he thought, "She knows, she understands, I'm all lost, I'm hopeless," but despite his intentions, he knew that the reality was quite different from this.He can vaguely see his happiness, sympathy, love, and death—this person, he always thinks that he has no part in everything and should sacrifice himself in love as a human being.A confused thought expanded and magnified in the young man's heart, and he thought he could die.He couldn't say whether it was joy or sorrow. Before returning to the dormitory, he could only live a minute or two like this.He wanted to run away, but also wanted to kneel beside Luo, but of course it was all impossible.

Because the person in front of her was such a useless person, she saw that enthusiasm made this young man weak like a slave, and she felt a kind of brutal satisfaction in her heart.She conquered this person, although there was always a hint of disdain, but she couldn't help thinking that it was her own accidental right.Many swampy places are worthless to a rich man, but no rich man ever gives up his useless places.In this way she brought attention and sympathy to the vanquished man.She thought it would be a kind of favor to make the young man a little accustomed to that kind of restraint, so she came to discuss with him about acting.

She asked him what he thought of ×××, and he said some empty words, his words were not coherent, and his thoughts were extremely confused.She asked him again if he felt sympathy for the heroine in that play.The young man just smiled naively, lowered his head timidly, and pretended to be uneasy, anxious and anxious, and answered completely irrelevant to the question.Her extremely unrestrained smile made him feel like an embarrassed mouse in his restraint.In Luo's eyes, these situations have another kind of moving style.She ponders, admires, without the awareness of her own danger.Not only did she not think it was a dangerous thing, but she deliberately made the torch burn in the young man's heart, and she fueled the burning with warmth.She was tired of other love affairs, and this new game gave her a new interest.

Mr. Shiping came in a hurry and saw two people in the room. When the student saw Mr. Shiping, he showed a grateful and shy expression, stood up hurriedly, and moved a little away from Luo.At this time, Luo originally came here to make up for the mistake she made at her uncle's place in the morning, but unexpectedly, she made a new mistake unintentionally. Luo said, "Mr. Shiping, I've already talked to Mister Zhou about playing ×××." Mr. Shiping put down his book while smiling unnaturally, and went to the desk. "You guys must be very good at acting. If you are going to act in the next lunar drama, you should start practicing."

That student was always restrained in front of Mr. Shiping, and when he heard about acting, he said, "Who is playing the gentleman?" Luo said unintentionally, "It's easy to play a gentleman, it's a supporting role." Mr. Shi Ping said intentionally, "Supporting roles are naturally easy to find, so go and audition." From these words, Luo could hear that Mr. Shiping was angry.She knew that Mr. Shiping was troubled by some inappropriate emotions, and she felt a little remorseful, so she asked Mr. Shiping where she and her uncle had parted in the morning.Mr. Shiping said, "I got off the car on XX Road and walked for a while, thinking of many people and things is funny." This word made the young man think that he was referring to himself, and his face immediately burned.Luo thought that the words were purely in the context of jealousy, and when she and the student were mentioned, she felt very unhappy.Mr. Shiping felt emotional for his words, because he tried his best to find the usual reason, but only found depression and all kinds of depression that could not coexist with reason. After a while, Luo said: "If the human affairs are completely funny, this person is a superman, which is really admirable!" "Yes, even if you know it's funny, you still have a serious feeling, so people are stupid." "But it doesn't matter if you are a little bit stupid. Too smart is useless. Everything you do is dependent on a little bit of confusion. Use your own blurry eyes to see all the world, and life will be more interesting. The revolution is still a matter of people being in the dark about it, and they don’t know the good or the bad. They don’t know the pros and cons, and if they do it in a daze, they will succeed in the end. A person whose eyes must see everything, he can’t do anything. of. When he drank water, he saw that the water was full of bugs. When he ate bread, he saw many mold spots. He went outside, and most of the people who walked side by side were consumptive patients. When he lived at home, he still dreamed what other people could not dream of. of all kinds.He is smart in everything, he is not happy in anything. " Because the words seemed to be directed at the young student, who admitted that his confusion was an art.He said, "I agree with Luo. Sometimes I seem to be very clear, and I can see everything around me very clearly. I am really distressed. If I become a little confused, everything that used to trouble me will really turn into happiness again. If I can still choose my own things in the future, although I have no reason to refuse to be distressed, I am willing to be a little confused." Mr. Shiping thought the student was funny and pitiful.This student was so hopeless and helpless last night that his life couldn't find the edge, but for a day, because of an inadvertent misunderstanding, because of a little coincidence, he immediately lifted his soul up, as if he had grasped the center of life, for this real life. He was so confused that he completely lost any sympathy he had for the student.He felt pitiful for Luo, too. In her capricious behavior, this woman trampled on her own feelings, and then came to find subjects for masturbation, stabbing others with the sharp edge of words, and she was very happy.She imagined that because of the beauty of her youth, she had the right to use her beauty to trample on the feelings of others, and because of this, she now let the young man love her.She wanted to suffer others as the basis for her own happiness, and she did something that other women would not do, and she was laughing in her heart at this moment.Mr. Shiping said with a little sarcasm, "Luo, you are happy because of your intelligence." Luo turned to Mr. Shiping, "Then, Mr. Shiping is distressed because of his cleverness. Why not be a little confused?Why do you have to be so serious?Why do you try to know those who don't know, and pretend to know what you don't know, and suffer for it? " "This is being human!" "But do people choose to do this?" "You think you should choose. Or, there is still a chance to choose, don't you?" "I choose what I want." "It's better to take what is allocated according to the opportunity. Apart from the opportunity, people will have no choice at all. Not only life and career, but also friends and love. Some people think they choose to do it, but in fact they still take it and put it at hand. The most convenient one." "I deny that theory." "If a sentence is an empty theory, it can naturally be denied. If it is a fact, then the denial should be based on finding evidence in other people's or your own life." "Mr. Shi Ping, I want to show you the evidence, you just have to wait for a few days." When Luo said this, she used her usual protesting voice, and the college student couldn't help laughing out loud. At first, Mr. Shiping didn't want to continue talking, because he saw the college student becoming more presumptuous in the misunderstanding. It was ridiculous and pitiful to see this person restrained first, but seeing this person no longer restrained, on the contrary, Mr. Shiping was not very serious. happy. "He thought that I was working hard for him. Although he didn't have a word to say, that look seemed to help me out of gratitude. He thought the proof of what he said was that he loved him. This kid really got his happiness in confusion It’s gone.” Mr. Shiping said while thinking about this, “Mister Zhou, you must also feel that you can choose what you need, don’t you?” The college student looked a little shy, his throat was choked by love.The woman replied in a general voice: "I agree with Miss Luo." "Very good, very right, you also believe that you choose what you want, and you get it!" Mr. Shiping's voice had a hint of ridicule, and he wanted to say, "Your words are based on choices, and your business is yours." It was completely misunderstood." However, the student's expression of gratitude to him and his humility in faith still softened Mr. Shiping, and he couldn't be tough.He had no choice but to say, "You can believe in your own abilities, this is a very happy thing!" Because Luo didn't know the conversation between the two of them yesterday, so she showed intimacy with the student at this time, but it was just a momentary behavior dictated by vanity.In order to provoke Mr. Shiping deliberately, she said that she wanted to act with a student surnamed Zhou.For Mr. Shiping's anger, and to avenge this anger, she said that she could choose what she wanted.But later, when she saw that the student was a little indulgent and said some stupid things, and Mr. Shiping wanted to give up all his rights, she was not very willing. She then spoke to her uncle at home, making the students feel that they had nothing to do with them, and the students had to leave after they arrived. After the students left, Luo looked at Mr. Shiping with a little sadness, and said in a low voice, "Don't be angry with me, I'm just a game! My temper is just like this." Mr. Shiping held Luo's hand, and he seemed to be surrounded by a kind of depression, and he seemed a little tired of this question, "Can I be angry with you? Don't you clearly know that what I said about acting ××× was a lie, why did you come to talk to him at this moment?He turned to a misfortune in a situation of misunderstanding, and he thought you loved him!Thought you loved you as much as he could!You are willing to live on this misunderstanding, I can't say anything and don't have to say anything.At this time, I just want to explain clearly, do what you are willing to do. " Luo felt a little confused, "Why would there be such a scary misunderstanding when talking to him like this?" "Didn't you say that men are extremely shallow when it comes to men and women?" "But this is an introverted melancholy." "You mean that every man of that kind is very content, isn't he?" "I suppose it should be, because he doesn't seem like a self-indulgent man." "Totally wrong! He came to me last night and said a lot about how he loves you and how he knows he has no part. He didn't expect your relationship with me. He believed that I was the only person he could help. He said he would be happy if he told me about it. What can I say? I can't say anything but sympathy for this man. I tell him that I will try to make Lo a friend with you from now on. I When I try my best to help you, you should live well. I really did. This man got my word and just came here to meet you, thinking you have heard me say it Everything, you said to play ×××, he must be too excited. He thanked you and me in a kind of misunderstanding. He got happiness and sorrow from this misunderstanding, and thought it was something he chose. I am not angry , but I think everyone is stupid because of this matter. You also misunderstood me on this matter, thinking that I am a narrow-minded person. It may still be a virtue to be narrow-minded in love, But I am lacking in this virtue. In fact, I am not very happy in this misunderstanding. He asked me to help, trust me, and I will tell him my position later, but I will say in front of his situation. I can’t even say anything. I still want to tell you what to do about this matter. Who knows that this misunderstanding will prolong first. Whether you love him or not, it’s all your own business, and I don’t want to say anything Yes. If I say, this person is not good, you will naturally think that I have selfish intentions. If I say that this person is good, you may suspect that I am useful to others. I don’t want to add any opinions. Didn’t you say Can you choose what you want? Now is your chance.Don't think that I will restrain you because I love you. I myself can't imagine that I will restrain anyone. " When Luo heard Mr. Shiping finished speaking, she was not excited, and was very quiet.I saw Mr. Shiping. "I did not expect that such a misunderstanding had been allowed in the matter. I could not be bound by love, and certainly I would not have changed my mind on his wretched condition. Love is not a handout, nor an exchange, so I have not his obligation. However, Mr. Shi Ping, I am now thinking this way: If I regard everything as my right, then I will not give up.I cannot give up my rights on the other side for the sake of rights on one side.In these matters, I am somewhat greedy, and because of this, I am not concerned about any danger.I want to live freely, what I want or don't want, I have the right to put it down or get it!Whoever wants to possess me completely with enthusiasm or other selfishness is delusional and impossible.So now I'm here to tell you, I wish you could understand me better. " Mr. Shiping just nodded and smiled like an adult listening to a child, and Luo went on to say, "Zhou loves me, I find it interesting, because I can't imagine that I can make a man fall in love like this. With A little curiosity, I want to be better with him in the future, of course. But today's misunderstanding I can't let him exist! I don't allow others to get his undeserved happiness through misunderstanding, because this undeserved happiness will become My duty. I love me as much as you do, and I feel it's my right, and I can't bear it a little when you're young and stupid in this matter. Your position is now his, I may hurt your self-esteem by saying this, but if you think about it a little bit, you can get some of your benefits, if you really want to suffer, it's your own business, I can't control it." After finishing speaking, Luo left. Mr. Shiping had nothing to say, and let the woman go.But after walking down the corridor, Luo came back again.She stood by the door, holding the small umbrella in her hand, "Mr. Shiping, your behavior made me laugh, why didn't you send me out?" Mr. Shiping shook his long head, sighed, and spread his hands, "You are so capable, you were born in the wrong era. Because this world is full of men like us, and women are all for this kind of thing. I prepared it for a man. But you are too advanced. I don’t know if it is convenient for you to handle everything like this, but the man wants to treat you as a devil. Your cleverness made your uncle surrender. You just Do what you like to do, your sharp nerves make your unfathomable spirit. You think you are very satisfied with your own way of life. But I say you were born in the wrong era, because you play with everything like this, you What exactly did you get? Naturally, you can say that this is the case, and you will get a lot of things.Yes, you get the love of many people for you, you get the news that everyone is distressed for you, and you conquer the men of an era.There is also a middle-aged Mr. Shi Ping, who also fell in love with you, changed his attitude towards life, and became much younger.You are invincible in this regard.But can you go on like this forever?Are you getting tired? ..." "When I'm tired, I die." "Your words are so moving. You are often more excited about your own words than anyone else's, and for this reason you always choose the pure language, the powerful symbols. You are a true artist. " "You mean to think that I will never be the woman you want. Men are all the same. I know what you want in a woman. I have a secondary education, have a slim body, and have a gentle and sensitive heart. Because of worry Men's jealousy becomes very chaste, because they are good at running the house, and they are good at educating their children... Women are like this, and men will naturally be happy. You are all afraid that women will have their own opinions, because this will make you men live The main reason for the collapse of order, so even if you can improve in other aspects of thinking, this aspect still retains the attitude of being a man in the past." "Am I totally that attitude?" "Not exactly, but you feel a little more used to that attitude, and it's more appropriate." "Or so." "If this is not the case, then go to XX with me as usual at this time, and go to my uncle's for dinner." Mr. Shiping smiled and said, "No, I want to think alone, whether it is my fault or someone else's fault. I want to find out, because this incident has confused me. Also, I want to get my Your freedom is not letting you conquer or play with." Luo also nodded with a smile and said, "That's right, Mr. Shiping, see you later." "Okay, bye, bye." Luo left, then turned around again, "Mr. Shiping, I hope you don't feel bad." Mr. Shiping ran out in a hurry, grabbed Luo's hand, and said softly, "Don't worry, don't use your gentleness to torture me. Although your behavior is your right, I am no better than that melancholy Zhou." , The focus of life is maintained on your every word." Luo then disappeared from the porch like a swallow. She ran into the third-year student outside the school, which was obviously waiting here on purpose, but also on purpose as an accidental encounter.Luo could see the young man's trick very clearly. The college student wanted to say something that had been in his mind for a long time.Unable to speak for a while, Luo smiled and said, "Mister Zhou, where are you going?" "I want to go shopping at ××." "Then let's go on the same road, and I also want to buy a book from XX." "Mr. Shiping... I have talked to him a lot, he is a very nice person, isn't he?" "There are many such good people in the world!" "I admire him." "Yes. This kind of person is worthy of admiration. But everyone also has something worthy of admiration, or moral knowledge, or beauty, or power, or sincerity, don't you think?" "Yes. But—" "Well, don't you admire beauty?" "..." The man, with the most unnatural smile, explained what he wanted to say. Two people, one was so natural and casual, the other was so restrained and tense. After the conversation, the bus came, and the two of them got on the bus again and went to ××. At about four o'clock in the afternoon, in the elegant seat of Baishou Hall on XX Road, the master Zhou Tongluo was eating ice water in a seat. Looking at the thin lips trembling slightly with every opening, and seeing the cowardly but forced wanton look, Luo felt a little ridiculous.This is a slave who falls under her skirt, without pride, without assertion, without the slightest ego.In all cases of consecration, that air of terror, that effort to shrink and shrink the male soul again, seduced the proud Lo with a vague desire to look a little further into everything. She said, "Mister Zhou, aren't you XX?" That student, the class he was taking at this time was the latest one, he didn't know what to say, but quietly went to look at Luo who was sitting opposite, and heard what Luo asked him.He hurriedly replied, "I'm not, I'm not." Luo said, "Why don't you join? Mr. Shiping Yes, you know? There are many students in your school who are too. Everyone comes to make society move forward, destroy the fence that hinders our humanity, break habits, and eliminate stupidity. Only ×× can do it. If everyone concentrates on doing it in groups, everything will be fine.” "Miss Luo, do you believe this is possible?" "Why don't you have faith? Young people don't have faith and lack the ambition to seek the unknown, how can they live?" "Many people are still alive!" The college student was emboldened by seeing the life problems discussed.He added, still with the timid stutter, "They were happy." Luo's voice was a little louder, "Yes, those stupid things, it's comfortable and convenient to live in clothes, eat meat and read English. I won't talk about them, because that's not what I want to pay attention to. I mean thinking Young people, young people with feelings. Their individualism is not allowed to exist. Pessimism, disillusionment, writing sad poems, rejoicing in tragic characters in love novels, is completely sick. They live in the world and poison their own souls Rotten, and indirectly rotted to the people around him." "But I can't believe in anything." "Then why do you still believe in acting?" "Because it's art! I like acting, and I like it, so I believe in it." "But art also exists together with that big problem. You like acting, but you can't go to the big stage to fight with Li Guichun. You still believe in the new and deny the old. Why don't you get closer to the newer one? " "I don't want to go. I don't want anything. I've read some books, and I know a little bit about what should and shouldn't be. But I'm not used to crowds. I often think that the world is so lively that I don't seem to have a share, so I sometimes think that it will be better if I die. " "Why do you have to die? The solemn meaning that everyone lives." "Why must it? I don't know. But I am not dead, I am still alive. I want to die or be quiet. I am tired of everything, I can't bear it, no one knows what kind of chaos is hidden in my calm appearance heart of!" "I know! If you really die, there will be one less living person in the world, and one more stupid ghost. Anyone who commits suicide is a stupid fool. If it is not stupid, it is sick and crazy. Born in this era, from the old era because of All rural and urban systems and morals cultivate the grown-up soul, and use it to mix in the metropolis to fight the new life. Depression is something that everyone does not lack. To resist this new everything, digest it, accommodate it, He will live on, and because of the rejection of the old and the approach of the new, the efforts to survive will make the soul and body of this person as solid, that is certain. As for the backward elements who cannot bear it, he will either perish or perish. Not backward, but at the same time, just because they are not used to this reason, they cannot work hard for survival in the group life, and they cannot melt themselves into the old organization. In this way, people become lonely, and later they cannot bear it, and everything is hopeless, so and committed suicide." "It's not like they don't have noble ideas!" "What is the use of thinking? Their own tragedies are caused by imagination. Their thoughts are noble, but their actual lives are ordinary. Their minds are full of poetic harmony and fairyland perfection, but the world has only trivial prose and life. Struggle. The less intelligent they are, the easier they are to be saved, and the more intelligent they are, the more useless they are, a bookworm." "..." He didn't say what he wanted to say, because he was afraid, the college student lowered his head, trembling all over. Luo thought to herself, "You who have lofty ideals, if you know that your lover is just a very ordinary human thing, you won't be so distressed." The college student also laughed at his own situation at this time, scolding himself, "My nobleness is useless in love." But he lacks the courage to be an ordinary person.He didn't dare to mention this matter, didn't dare to pay attention to him, and he didn't want to change.On the one hand, he felt sorry for himself in this situation, but at the same time he was very willing to make this peaceful friendship continue.He felt happy now, but when he turned his head around for a moment, he saw that he was unhappy again. Because Luo frowned once in silence, he suspected that he was tired of Luo, so he made a foolish plan, "I will die for loving her, I will call me a fool as much as I can, it is better than living to suffer. " Luo is really bored, because when it comes to being a person and life, she thinks of her own failure to approach life poetically. The other person, and this second person will take his place in the near future, so that the third person will stand by his side from an unexpected opportunity.She appreciates all kinds of impressions in this life, those selfishness, superficiality, hypocrisy, and despicableness, and she draws them out of her experience one by one, sees them very clearly, and sends the day away.The life she lives is still an empty life reserved for personnel affairs with future ideals, and she can no longer play games. At this time, the college student sitting across from him saw some of the stupidity that made her angry, and she felt that it was inappropriate to come here to chat with this person and drink soda. After a while, she returned the money and said that she still had something to do and had to go back to school, and that she would see her at school in a few days.When leaving the Baishou Hall, the student suddenly said in a very weak tone, "Miss Luo, do you allow me to write a letter for you?" Luo said, "Isn't it convenient to say it?" "I write better." Luo said, "Okay, write to me." While taking out a small card with the correspondence office from her wallet, she reckoned for the student that the stupid things said in the letter would never be any different from what he saw now. , she originally wanted to stretch out her hand to give this person a shake, but she didn't do it temporarily. When the student returned to XX school, after dinner, he went to Mr. Shiping's residence and talked with Mr. Shiping.Mr. Shiping knew the intention of coming, but Mr. Shiping did not expect that Luo would sit with this person for so long in the afternoon. When I came to the room, no one spoke.Because Mr. Shiping was a little unhappy, he didn't speak first.The student didn't speak out until later, asking Mr. Shiping about the play, the script, the scenery and the lighting... It was completely needless to say, and he hesitated completely hypocritically. Mr. Shiping became a little impatient, so he said: "You look better today." The student thought that Mr. Shiping was teasing him, and the joke was full of appreciable kindness. His face was a little hot, and when it was time to confess, he plucked up his courage and asked Mr. Shiping, "Mr. Have you spoken to Miss Luo?" Mr. Shiping said, "Not yet." "I must have said it." "No, no, I'm very busy!" There was a little silence. "I talked with her for a long time in the Baishou hall in the afternoon. I thank you sir, but I don't know how to repay. I have to live according to my husband's words and make my body and soul as strong as possible so that I can resist all the pain of course! " "You are already strong." The tone contained "You are a stupid pig!" "She's so smart! She's so sensible! She persuaded me to join XX, saying that my husband is also included, and my classmates are also included. I didn't say yes to her, but I admitted in my heart that it should be." "..." "I thought my husband had said something at least vaguely, and I asked her permission to write a letter. She promised me. She gave me her address. I surveyed the mistakes I had made in words. , use words to save, or it will not be a very disastrous failure." "..." "I love her, it makes my blood burn. I am a useless person, I know it very well. I can't be as casual as Mr. Chen Bai in front of her. I feel that I am very reserved, because I have struggled so hard. What I say is still not as convenient and free as it is now in front of my husband. I love her, so I am as confused as a fool, and I don't want to lie in front of my husband. " "..." "When she doesn't speak, I can't help but think of 'I'm dead'. I'm so confused!" Mr. Shiping was still unable to say anything, but at this moment, because he heard the mention of death again, he was very angry, and he said to himself, "If you want to die, you can die early. You don't understand a thing, and it doesn't matter when you're dead! There are enough fools like you in the world." But in the end, the middle-aged man was still a middle-aged man, and he actually showed a very concerned look, asked the student a lot of questions, and then encouraged the student with some unintentional words, and sent him to sleep. After the student arrived, he went to Chen Bai's room, hid his recent excitement, and had some conversations with Chen Bai. He asked Chen Bai about some things that belonged to Luo, and while he asked Chen Bai, he also had a little secret self-satisfied.Chen Bai had no way of knowing the young man's secret. He talked for half an hour, left Chen Bai, and returned to the dormitory. After the lights were turned off, he lit a candle and wrote the letter to Luo.