Chapter 5 All five are practicing one thing

Luo had a strange dream at night, dreaming that Chen Bai somehow reconciled with her, but Mr. Shiping went to the revolution.When I woke up, my head was still dizzy, and I was lying on the bed, looking out from the gauze tent, it seemed that the weather was still early.Slowly recalling the cause and effect of this dream, slowly remembering all the issues discussed with her uncle last night, the woman still thought it was a dream. She thought to herself, "Do I really love Mr. Shiping? Is Mr. Shiping really inseparable from me? Because we understand each other a little bit, and we get closer, but because of this, we have to live in one place and become a burden to our lives. Is this life?"

Then, the woman thought about it in her mind, "What is life? Uncle's troubles, Mr. Shiping's thoughtfulness, and her own beauty, all together, each with their own hobbies, followed their own selfishness, and chose the life they are accustomed to. , or pursue a new life in the habit, some people are troubled by this new situation, and some people blush at the center of this new change, and some days bring ordinary, ordinary, a thousand Countless ordinary..." She smiled.She turned her beautiful little head on the pillow, her soft short hair was scattered on the white pillow.She opened her big affectionate and delicate eyes, looked at the top of the tent, pretended to be facing a strange man, bravely forced the man, and seemed to see the various situations that the man shyly avoided. Fascinated by the charm.She lifted up a pair of pure white and soft arms, and saw her long fingers, as well as small shell-like nails, evenly dotted on the fingers, and the small depressions on the arm joints were also the same. The soft lines made her a little surprised.The hands landed on the chest at the end, pressed, and with a little force, I heard the beating of life in my heart, and the healthy and fresh blood in my body flowed everywhere in the tube, as if there was a very absurd longing , gently shaking the soul of the young woman.

It seemed that something necessary was missing, and it was discovered only recently. This thing was spinning in front of her eyes in a trance, and she couldn't stare straight at it. She closed her eyelids. She sighed lowly, called and answered softly, and soon fell asleep again in a daze. When I woke up, I was still lying on the big and soft copper bed, and I tried my best to put together all the things and the impressions of all the characters in my mind at will, and used it as a good game to write my own soul.Auntie pushed the door gently, and a head appeared beside the door, to see if the young lady got up.Luo asked on the bed: "Auntie, what time is it?"

"Eight o'clock." "What about sir?" "I've already gone to work." "Has the report come?" "coming." "Bring it to me." Auntie left, Luo also got up, put on a thin silk jacket, walked down the porch, sat on a chair, let the morning wind blow her body, and saw everything in the distance of the Construction and New Housing Engineering Office on XXX Road scenery. Gentleman was able to sleep soundly last night.When he woke up as usual in the morning, he asked the servant that Luo hadn't woken up yet. He thought that Luo must not have slept that night, so he felt sorry for the young man, as if he had said something inappropriate yesterday, and felt a little sad for the girl. With the meaning of repentance, he looked around and went to Mr. Shiping early in the morning to tell his old friend everything.He knew that Mr. Shi Ping would not talk to him about this matter for a while, and he knew that both of them needed his sympathy and help. He didn't let Luo know about the gentleman's feelings, and he was about to go out to Mr. Shiping's place.

Washed his face as usual, and trimmed his hair and beard in front of the mirror for a while. According to the celibacy of a middle-aged gentleman, he dealt with it to his satisfaction. Then he took his own car and went to XX school to find Mr Shiping.On the way, while planning how to say the words, while facing the cool morning breeze, the gentleman's heart was clean and he was very happy. Mr. Shiping delayed some sleep because of the student surnamed Zhou.According to his habit, he got up very early, and when he got up, he would take a walk on the grass in the small pavilion in front of the residence, or practice a kind of Swedish breathing exercise.This man's career seems to be quite different from that of a gentleman in the customs service who spends his days on economic and financial matters, but his conservative order of life and the rest are completely of the same type.He walked on the meadow, and as he walked, he planned the improvement of the play and the theater.He never rests his mind while exercising his body, so no matter how punctual he is in his daily life, this person is always thin but not fat.

The gentleman who came to this school to look for Mr. Shiping suddenly didn't want to mention that matter when he arrived at the school.Like Luo, he thought that it would not be beneficial for everyone to tell the story, so he temporarily changed the plan. When he met Mr. Shiping on the lawn, Mr. Shiping was taking a deep breath under the rattan flower stand, and Mr. Shiping did not care for the guests. Find a chair, please sit down.The two stood together under the flower stand. Mr. Shiping said, "You are very early, what's the matter?" "Because the weather is good, the morning is very cool, and it's not the time to do business, so I thought of you to come and have a look."

"Why didn't you invite her?" "Before I got up, I talked to me at night, and I couldn't sleep for about half the night, so I was still dreaming at this time." After the gentleman said it, he noticed Mr. Shiping, and checked whether the words made the listener surprisingly.Mr. Shiping seemed to understand this trick, and smiled solemnly. The gentleman thought, "You think I don't know." Because he was a little upset, he was going to say something that was not suitable for speaking, but he still tried his best to endure it, and see if Mr. Shiping would come to negotiate everything openly and honestly at this time. .Afterwards, Mr. Shiping really spoke up. He said, "Luo seems to be a little different recently."

"I see no other reason, it must be!" The two old friends then frightened each other at this remark.Looking at each other, they all seemed to understand that it would be better to keep it for a while, so Mr. Shiping invited the gentleman to sit on the porch. Sit down and talk about other things.Talking about the advantages and disadvantages of the gold standard system and the ratio of customs tax rates, the gentleman thought that Mr. Shiping was not familiar with this, so he moved the conversation to drama activities.They talked about Japanese plays and Russian plays, and Mr. Shiping also felt that this was not something that gentlemen should understand.But there was nothing to talk about except this matter, so they continued talking without changing the method.

The gentleman left when he arrived. He was supposed to be working at the customs office, but suddenly he went back to his home.When I got home, I saw Luo reading the newspaper on the porch outside the living room.The gentleman walked up to Luo with a little trepidation, as if he had done something unspeakable and dishonorable.Luo was also a little uneasy about what happened yesterday, and when she saw her uncle coming, she lowered her head and said softly, "Uncle, didn't you go to work?" "I went to Mr. Shiping." Luo looked a little panicked, and raised her head, "Why, have you gone to drama school yet?"

"Here we are." "uncle!" "I was going to talk about that." "Speaking at this time will only embarrass the two of you that you don't need to suffer." "I thought about this too, so I didn't mention it." "Is it really not mentioned?" "I can't say it. Originally, I planned to make it clear to Mr. Shiping. I thought that as long as my old friends and nieces need my help, I will try my best to help." "But I thought in my heart that if my uncle ignored this matter, it would be considered as a help."

"You're right. I saw this too. I had a lot of things to say on the road, but I stopped talking when I met him." "Then I thank my uncle!" "If you want to thank you, thank you, but what uncle does is not to ask you to thank you. Uncle is selfish, please be at peace, and keep pretending like this." "Why is Uncle angry with me? I can see that Uncle is unhappy because I have ruined some of Uncle's ideals. I think I have done something wrong, and I don't need to regret what I did, but for Uncle's For the sake of mental health, I should really regret my inappropriate handling of this matter." When Luo said this, she glanced at her uncle secretly, and her uncle's eyes turned red, so Luo hurriedly said, "If uncle hates me, he will beat me up, just like you should be punished for breaking dishes when you were young. I won't cry. Because I'm an adult now." The gentleman just shook his head, showing a forced wry smile. "It was uncle's heart that you broke, not a single blow or two!" "But it's always something I do unconsciously. I'll be more careful from now on." "Be careful thereafter, well said!" In the end, both of them laughed, but they couldn't seem to be as funny as yesterday.In normal times, casually speaking, even though my uncle is often put in an embarrassing situation, my uncle is always stable and stable, and maintains a calm and calm attitude in his life attitude.Sometimes my uncle also used words to embarrass Luo, who was trying to force her to be angry, but in front of my uncle, because I was an elder who had seen her grow up since she was a child, he lost the reason and got angry to save his own stupidity, and his uncle must admit his mistake. There have been such things.But now it's all ruined.Everything will never exist again, everything is because of the terrible words last night, which has drawn a deep gap between the two of them, and the natural closeness of heart to heart is no longer possible.From then on, the two became more polite, showing tolerance in every move and looking at each other when they spoke; but both of them knew that being cautious was of no help to the facts.How many days the dreadful thing would go on from now on, Lo didn't understand.Luo also doesn't know when uncle will be able to return to his past nature.When will Mr. Shiping still come to this house, discuss big issues with his uncle, and talk about men and women at the same time, and covertly cover the woman's side, while the uncle deliberately comes to talk to his old friend just because there is a naughty niece by his side? Rebuttal, this thing will never be seen again. "Don't mourn the past, but look at your future!" What is the future?The future is my uncle's loneliness, my own boredom, aging, illness, and social chaos.In normal times, Luo looks forward to the country and herself with a bright future.She laughed at those who recalled the past, she scolded those men who did not dare to look at life directly, she did not like those young men and women who sang poems and lamented, and she yearned for a brave and adventurous new life most.But what is she doing now?How can she be strong, how can she welcome the new day?How she will accept the new and unaccustomed life is uncertain.She came to pity herself at this time, because she couldn't see some conclusions she expected in her life, and there were many things she didn't want to think about. I took the encirclement situation in my life and trapped my thoughts.When she couldn't explain it, she thought it must be a dream, it must be a hallucination, which made people so confused, confused and unable to decompose clearly. Uncle is rational, and when he is rational, he just calms himself down, arranges carefully, and makes careful plans.He wanted to settle the matter to make everyone happier.Just for the happiness of the two of them, forgetting about himself, he would not do it.For himself alone, regardless of others, he would not do it.He was perfect in all aspects, so he planned to stop talking to Mr. Shiping for the time being. At this time, it was time for office work, and he couldn't stay at home for a long time, so he talked to Luo again. "Luo, first of all, please believe that Uncle's intentions are good intentions, and it's all for everyone's sake. If Mr. Shi Ping comes, don't talk about what we said last night. I've told you, can you promise me?" "I don't quite understand?" "Why don't you understand? You should let uncle think about it for a while, take a little time to think about it, and look at this matter. The position that uncle is in now is a very pitiful position." "If lying is necessary, I will follow my uncle's advice." "Lying must be necessary. If you can lie, we won't be in such a mess before our eyes." "I see, I promise uncle." "It's good to agree. You don't have to lie, but please don't talk to him about what I already know. It's not all about uncle, it's about you too." "I understand. It's all my fault for uncle's confusion about it." "Is it your fault? You are so brave to blame yourself, but how can you remedy the matter?" Luo didn't answer, but thought in her mind, "I can make amends, but I'll tell you that I don't want to marry him, and I never thought about it." Seeing that Luo had nothing to say, my uncle felt that it was an unreasonable cruel act to scold Luo so harshly, and was about to go out, when Mr. Shiping appeared at the living room door.When Mr. Shiping saw the gentleman, he seemed a little shy, and the gentleman seemed uneasy. They shook hands, and the gentleman called Luo: "Luo, Luo, Mr. Shiping is here..." He also wanted to say, "You accompany me." It's time for him to sit, I'm going to work," but without further words, he let his old friend to the porch, watching the behavior of these two people carefully, and at the same time threw his body into a wicker chair up. Luo raised her head, looked at Mr. Shiping for a while, and then at her uncle for a while, feeling amused. The two gentlemen's pretending to be serious and ignorant made her unable to bear it, and suddenly burst out laughing. Luo knew exactly what these two people were thinking and planning. She knew the secrets of her uncle and Mr. Shiping, and she saw two comic characters in front of her. Since neither of them had time to speak, she said: "Uncle, you have forgotten your time, do you still want to talk about drama with Mr. Shiping?" This gentleman just realized the time, and began to pay attention to the wall clock on the wall.So I said, "Shi Ping, come here to talk, are you going to act again? My time is up, and I'm going. Luo, I tell you, remember to do what I want you to do, I will do it in the afternoon I can discuss it with you..." Luo said, "Uncle, why don't you go to work and call to ask for half a day off, how about it?" Mr. Shiping said, "I'm leaving too. I'm here to ask if you would like to play ××× with Mister Zhou—our third-grade student." I understand, because Mr. Shiping clearly thought that the gentleman had already gone to the office, so he came here. The uncle said again, "Tell me, my time is gold, I have to go. Middle-aged gentleman, outdated person, this is my niece's note to her uncle, the time is..." This is still a lie Luo also knew about it, because my uncle left reluctantly, leaving this person alone in this room. Mr. Shiping seemed to be very sensitive, and today he wanted to avoid suspicion, so he said more resolutely, "Let's go together, you take the car to Eduardo Road, I want to find someone at ×× University." Luo then said, "Mr. Shiping, you said that Zhou would play ××× with me. Isn't that the worker who played ×× last time, a young man with a fair face and a long body?" "It's him." Mr. Shiping agreed unnaturally, because what he said was a complete lie, he felt very funny in his heart. Because Luo had a new imagination, she said, "This guy is not bad, he is enthusiastic about acting, and he looks honest and cute. He is not like Mistkin, Mistyu, and Mister Wu. Those self-admired Xiaosheng is Chen Bai's favorite student, and I heard that he will join some XX, but he is a passionate person! It is roughly the same as Mi Siwen and Mi Siyang, who are already in love, because they are all self-proclaimed passionate people." When Mr. Shiping heard this, he frowned slightly, "Do you think that person is honest and cute?" Luo estimated Mr. Shiping, knowing that this man's feelings were hurt by her words, and on the one hand, because her uncle was still nearby, she deliberately said, "Yes, I like him very much." The uncle listened to him, secretly smiled in his heart, and said deliberately reproachfully: "Luo, your mouth is too good at singing, but it's not suitable for speaking at all." These words were obviously meant by my uncle to protect Mr. Shiping. When Luo saw the decent clothes of this lying gentleman, she felt aggrieved, and asked a little coquettishly, "Uncle, what kind of mouth is suitable for speaking?" "I admit your genius for singing, and I don't deny your genius for speaking, but you don't need a genius for speaking. What does Mr. Shiping think?" Mr. Shiping said, "This is for sure. But it is the right of young people to hack and kill at will with the sharp edge of words." The gentleman said, "I don't quite agree with this. If it's their right to speak harsh words, then there is no problem. People of our age have only an obligation." "Uncle's duty is probably something else." Hearing this, the gentleman gave Luo a serious assessment.First I said I wanted to leave, but now I don’t make any phone calls, so I just sat there and didn’t move. "I still have rights, not necessarily all obligations!" Mr. Shiping looked a little melancholy, and Luo thought that Mr. Shiping was hurt by jealousy.She hated the man's temper the most, and she had some reason to break up with Chen Bai. So seeing Mr. Shiping's appearance, she felt a kind of cruel joy.According to her own talent, she obeyed the instinct of women to dominate men, remembering what Mr. Shiping said, "It is a right for young people to use sharp words and hurt others at will." Go ahead on purpose.She didn't look at Mr. Shiping, but turned her face out of the window and said, "Mr. Shiping, didn't you say that that very beautiful student wants me to play ××× with him? I'll ask him tomorrow." "If you want to ask him, you can ask him, but I have told him that you don't have much free time." "I have time, I must play ××× with him." The gentleman was amused at this.He wanted to see the outcome of the two people's words.He ignored this in the past, but today he approached it with a new interest.He pretended to be reading a newspaper, lowered his eyes to look at that day's newspaper, and listened to what Mr. Shiping had to say, as a tool against Luo. Because Mr. Shiping was silent, Luo opened his mouth again, "I want to play ×××, even if I don't have a supporting role, or I won't act next time. I want to play the female role of ×××, to mock him The selfish lover. I'm going to love someone who makes them look down, insult them, and disgrace those selfish people. I'm going to learn that protagonist who said: Hey, look, I kiss the person you look down on He is so vile, but he has such a perfect body, such healthy arms, a beautiful head, a noble and dignified appearance, and at the same time, the place is to be your servant. He has no soul, I just love His body. What use would I have a soul? A soul is an adornment upon you. You lie to make you appear noble and complete. You do mean things with the noblest reasons. That is the use of your souls .In order to humiliate you, I love the person you despise..." She walked up and down with the air of playing a female role, proud and beautiful, and said in the best posture With the best spoken words, he performed everything freely in the corridor. Mr. Shiping tried his best to hide his embarrassment, and with the calm attitude of a director, when Luo rested on a chair, he clapped his hands for a while, and said, "Very good, you can make a very moving appearance to move people. " "I'm not only pretending to be, I will really live like this in the future." "That must embarrass your uncle and the man who loves you." "Naturally, the last scene of that scene didn't say: You see me like this, you pretend to smile, trying to save your failure from this calm and noble gentleman's attitude. But I know very well that what I do is going to be like a nail Like, firmly nailed to your heart and become a fatal wound...?" Mr. Shiping said, "Your words are jewels." Luo could see her victory, and smiled triumphantly, "Once I played these roles, it was as if the man standing in front of me was the man who loved me and hated me!" Mr. Shiping was silent, and there was a little dispute.This middle-aged man, with his usual rationality, can control everything in a big troupe very freely. When it comes to love, he becomes stupid and demented.At this moment, he knew that Luo was using her talents to abuse her, and she could have laughed at things, but she couldn't deal with them with the same calmness anyway.It is impossible for him to still pretend to be stable in the past. He smiled and looked at Luo's shining face and shining eyes, feeling a kind of adult melancholy and speechless. The gentleman seemed to be a little embarrassed on behalf of Mr. Shiping. Seeing the situation, he imagined in his heart: "I'm afraid this is unreliable again. A woman, a young woman who is not lacking in human vigilance, uses words and deeds. The well dug is such that a man of determination cannot get up when he falls. Mr. Shiping is sure to fall again. This is an unfortunate fate." He added a bit of sarcasm to his words, "Old friend, it's not easy for you as a director to control this student." Mr. Shiping responded to the gentleman with the same meaning, and said, "Yes, I know it's not easy. As for you, there are geniuses in your family, and being a parent is not easy!" "But lions also have domestic animals. Who said that? I remember it was like the last time I watched your play. The character said that lions also have domestic animals. It must be such a sentence." Luo said, "The following means that domestic lions do not lack all the appearance of lions. This remark is not aimed at women, men also have their share!" Uncle said, "There is still the following, which you have all neglected. I should continue with the following, that is: I can roar and make gestures, but I am definitely not a lion in the mountains!" I'm used to it, I'm not afraid that my family will raise this little lion. " Luo didn't admit that the words were funny, "Uncle's words mean that I can only say that I can't do it." "It's not like that. I mean someone who plays too much and her attitude often has to be the attitude of the character she's playing, but that doesn't hurt." "Uncle and Mr. Shiping seem to be standing together. This is probably a sympathy for each other." "Today you have the upper hand again!" "Does uncle still want to say, because you are a woman, so let you have a little?" Mr. Shiping didn't know why, but he asked whether the gentleman could go to the office.The gentleman said no, but Mr. Shiping said he was leaving.Because the gentleman saw that Mr. Shiping was leaving, he still went to work, and asked Mr. Shiping to take his car to the Dharma Realm and get off the car.The two left after a while. When the two of them went out, Luo, who was sent to the car outside the door, seemed very happy to see his uncle, but Mr. Shiping kept silent as if he was worried, and deliberately made his uncle look very intimate. Said, "Mr. Shiping, I will come to school to see you in the afternoon." Uncle glanced at Luo, and Luo laughed loudly, and ran into the house in a jumping posture. The two old friends each retained an uncomfortable impression of the girl's erratic behavior.Neither of them wanted to mention this matter, and tried their best to endure it. The car was driving on a flat road at a speed of 25 miles. After passing ×× road, after passing ×× road, Mr. Shi Ping wanted to stop the car and said I want to find a friend at ×× University.After the gentleman drove away, the man walked slowly along the side of the road. After walking for a while, he felt a little hot, took off his coat and held it in his hand, and continued walking. Mr. Shiping's reason was confused by a new dispute.He knew many things, experienced many things, and looked at many things, but none of them applied to love.Because of this, his stubborn appearance became even more stubborn, but this kind of grudging treatment could not be noticed by others, and he wanted to laugh at himself mercilessly.He pitied the student, but was no wiser in his own conduct than the student.He has written countless tragedies and social dramas in script creation, and he can say countless emotional words in the articles, but he can't use those words to deal with Luo in front of him. It is not easy for those who have gone to stand upright," he felt the same way. He suddenly saw gray in front of him, saw himself like a clown, and became sad for no reason.