Chapter 32 The end of the five feasts

your happiness is the sun in my world.I can't remember where I saw this sentence for the first time, and I don't know who made it.I believe that those who have read this sentence will feel a little warmth in their hearts, like a blessing to a long-gone old man, and like a gentle exhortation to a loved one.It seems that as long as the other party is happy, then there will be no rain in this world, only sunny days. Since you said such precious words, there should be a beautiful farewell.Before the end of the show, hold hands with each other again, and look at each other again, after that, love or not, see or not, it doesn't matter.I always thought that among the many interactions in life, any affectionate return to the capital would make me irreparable.In fact, the so-called deep love is nothing more than giving everything, forgetting time, forgetting yourself, and not leaving any retreat for yourself.

How many people can't resist the temptation of the prosperity on the shore, and they don't know how many times they have turned, why do they still stay where they are?The loyalty and love in the past are no longer worth mentioning in the silent years.Don't ask who is the visitor and who is the returning visitor, just treat it as a meeting on a narrow road, exchange a look with each other, and then continue to go to the future and go far away.All past events have a door, which may be concealed or deeply closed, but they all belong to the past.We can choose to push it away, or we can choose to dust it off, and any choice is a matter of course.

Lin Huiyin had a dream in the quiet ward, dreaming that it was raining in the sky.When she woke up, she cried, not knowing whether it was the sky's fault or her fault.The sky after the rain is extremely clear and clear, as if everything can be restarted, and everything can be started again.Flowers and plants can grow again, and insects and ants can shed yesterday's colorful clothes and return to their original appearance.It's just an old person, can one hundred and thirty-eight regain their youthful appearance? I love this rainy day, This plain is full of green grass! My heart is endlessly blown by the wind,

wind blows: Blow away the vanilla, the fallen leaves, Blows away a wisp of cloud, like smoke— like smoke. I like the sky after the rain, it can make the barren land full of greenery, and it can make a dusty heart clear and clean.The sunny day after the rain is more beautiful than ever. Even if there is no rainbow, there is still a white cloud that will smile at you.This kind of mood has nothing to do with Fengyue, but love for nature. For many years, only at this moment I feel that time is like a glass of pure water, and like a wisp of hazy smoke. She no longer cares about the beginning of the story and the end of the plot when she is ill.She understands that all the flowers and applause in her world are about to come to an end, and how many brilliance in the past will fall to the ground like fireworks.Yes, even if you have the highest glory, in the end, the drama of life still has to end by itself.

Lin Huiyin was admitted to Tongren Hospital, and she was no longer surrounded by people like before.Because of her serious illness, she needed a real rest, and she could even feel that her life was really withering like autumn leaves.Every time a friend came to visit the hospital, Lin Huiyin, who used to love to talk and laugh, became very reticent.However, when she was weak, she actually asked to meet Zhang Youyi.Maybe we all understand why we need to meet Zhang Youyi for 139, because Zhang Youyi is Xu Zhimo's ex-wife, and there is an unspeakable fate between them. Fate, whether it is a good fate or a bad fate, is considered a fate.Lin Huiyin and Zhang Youyi did not have a bad relationship, they just loved the same man.Zhang Youyi once commented on Lin Huiyin in this way. When she knew who Xu Zhimo loved, she once said, "Xu Zhimo's girlfriend is another lady with more complicated thinking, more beautiful appearance, and completely free feet."She actually has no hostility towards Lin Huiyin. Although she is not as talented and cultivated as Lin Huiyin, she also knows that emotional matters cannot be forced.

But Zhang Youyi still blamed Lin Huiyin after all, Xu Zhimo left Zhang Youyi because of Lin Huiyin, but Lin Huiyin loved Xu Zhimo, but did not stay with him.Zhang Youyi blamed Lin Huiyin for absconding at the last moment, leaving Xu Zhimo alone.But she didn't blame Lu Xiaoman, even though Lu Xiaoman made Xu Zhimo fall in love with each other, and even died for her in the end.But she doesn't complain, she understands that since she is in love, she should bear it, just like Lu Xiaoman, who has also undertaken a lot for Xu Zhimo. Lin Huiyin wanted to see Zhang Youyi because she never forgot the mistake she made when she was a young girl.Although Xu Zhimo had never loved Zhang Youyi, if it wasn't for her appearance, he wouldn't turn around so resolutely.So before she passed away, she had to personally say sorry to Zhang Youyi.

She couldn't forget Xu Zhimo, the man who had been separated from her life for many years, the man she loved deeply. Later, Zhang Youyi said in her autobiography that Lin Huiyin met her after she became seriously ill. "A friend came to me and told me that Lin Huiyin was in the hospital and had just undergone major surgery for tuberculosis. She probably would not live long. Why did Lin Huiyin want to see me? He asked me to take Ah Huan and her grandchildren. She was too weak to speak, so she just Looking at us, bobbing her head back and forth, as if looking at me, I don't know what she wants to see.

Maybe it's because I'm not good-looking, and I have a sullen face... I think she wants to see me now because she loves Xu Zhimo and wants to see his child.Even though she married Liang Sicheng, she still loved Xu Zhimo. " I think that even if Zhang Youyi still had some strange grievances towards Lin Huiyin back then, it's time to let go of the past.For a person who is about to die, what is unforgivable?What's more, it was not Lin Huiyin's fault back then, she just chose the path she wanted to take.A girl who is only sixteen years old does not need to pay a lifetime price for a hazy first love.At that time, she only knew how to love each other, but didn't understand what staying together was.A person who has a deep taste of the world will inevitably make many different mistakes in the face of emotions, not to mention the little girl who is immersed in a dream, she falls in love with a married man, how can she be calm and composed?

Lu Xiaoman dared to fall in love with Xu Zhimo regardless of everything because she had been married and knew exactly what she needed.She is no longer afraid of secular storms, but feels that too much time has been wasted in the past, so she must live a good life for herself.Now that I think about it, the combination of Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo seems inevitable. It would be a pity if their lives did not have this intersection.Even though there were too many breaks between them after they loved each other, but because of this love, this life is not in vain. After Zhang Youyi left, Lin Huiyin didn't want to see anyone again, because she was really tired.She began to yearn for a world of one person, a cup of tea, a book, living like a butterfly, lonely and cold.She began to understand that in this life, only at this moment did she truly calm down.When you are quiet, you stop the ups and downs, don't get tired of external things, and only talk to your own heart.

Winter has the meaning of winter, Cold as a flower,— Flowers have floral fragrance, and winter has memories. A dead branch shadow, thin and smoky, Dragging a stroke of painting in front of the window in the afternoon; The sun is fading in the cold, gradually slanting... just like that talk like a guest I sip my tea silently After the last leaves of autumn fall, winter comes like this.In the past, although Lin Huiyin liked the lightness of snowflakes, he was afraid of the bone-chilling cold in winter.But she began to expect this winter to be longer, because even she herself was not sure whether she could wait for another spring.She was afraid that she would die inadvertently while sitting in meditation, and that there would not be a peach blossom to bid her farewell lightly.

She began to forget her promise, and the grand banquet after another in the past. Yes, whoever has not made a promise in his life, but who can say that what he has promised will definitely be able to do it.When the road comes to an end, how can we still care about whether the choice of the year is right or wrong. A journey of mountains and rivers, a passerby, a story, when leaving, no one has to explain to anyone.Since we are destined to be separated, it doesn't matter whether you and I in the world are safe or not, whether it is sunny or not.