Chapter 21 five days later

If I leave, there will be no time in the future.For some reason, every time I think of this sentence, I feel inexplicably desolate and bitter in my heart.People have to experience too many life and death partings in their lives, and those sudden partings often hurt people by surprise.Where in life do not meet, but some turn around, it is really a lifetime, from now on there will be no period, never see each other. In fact, we all know how difficult it is to live in the world. No matter how strong your heart is, you are weak in the face of death.In the peaceful and stable days, I still feel afraid, fearing that my loved ones will go before me one day.How can ordinary people easily bear that kind of great sorrow?I wish everyone could live until their gray hairs, fulfill all their long-cherished wishes, and die peacefully with a smile on their faces.But there are too many unavoidable catastrophes in life. If you can't pass the most difficult hurdle, you can only fall off the cliff and be smashed to pieces.Even if you are an all-powerful overlord, you still cannot turn the tide and bring the dead back to life.

1931 was a beautiful year for Lin Huiyin, but also a sad year in his life.She recuperated on the mountain due to lung disease, and the long-settling passion was released. For this reason, she wrote many graceful poems, which added a beautiful touch to her life.For a person who is busy in the secular world, it is a kind of practice to be cool and cool.We all know that life is like a dream, but we can't immerse ourselves in the dream just because it is a dream.People live for a lifetime, although they don't want to shake the world, but they still have to leave something behind, so that the living can be traced, even if it's just a simple and ordinary story, it can be regarded as a kind of merit.

In September of this year, Liang Sicheng and Lin Huiyin left Northeastern University to work in the China Construction Society in response to Zhu Qiqian's employment.Liang Sicheng served as the director of the French Department, and Lin Huiyin was "school manager".In autumn, Lin Hui went down the mountain after recovering from illness, and resumed his long-lost career and life.Although she was a bit reluctant to leave the quiet years in the mountains, Lin Huiyin's love for her career had already surpassed her yearning for a poetic life, so the short silence made this talented woman quickly regain her beauty.

However, she didn't know that a huge tragedy was about to happen in the world, and this tragedy made her unable to be completely relieved for the rest of her life.On November 19, 1931, Xu Zhimo took the "Jinan" postal plane of China Airlines from Nanjing to the north. He rushed there in such a hurry to participate in Lin Huiyin's Chinese architectural art exhibition held for foreign envoys at the Concorde Auditorium in Peking that night. Art lectures.Before that, Xu Zhimo sent a telegram to Lin Huiyin, saying that he would arrive at Nanyuan Airport on time at 3:00 p.m., please send a car to pick him up.Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng sent a car to pick them up, but the plane didn't arrive until 4:30.The airline said that there was heavy fog in Jinan, and the young poet died in this misty fog.

"When the plane arrived in the Dangjiazhuang area in the south of Jinan, it was suddenly filled with fog and it was difficult to distinguish the course. In order to find the exact route, the pilot had to lower the flying altitude. Unexpectedly, the plane hit Baima Mountain (also known as Kaishan) and immediately fell into a valley. "It is this short process that turns the fresh life into ashes in an instant, and even the wreckage cannot be found. Maybe we don't believe in the theory of fate, but this unpredictable life cannot be resisted by you and me. Everything is possible Destiny, whether it is accidental or inevitable, the ending is like this, who can change it?

There are different opinions about Xu Zhimo's death.Some people say that Xu Zhimo died for Lin Huiyin. If he did not attend her academic lectures, how could such an accident happen?Some people also said that Xu Zhimo died for Lu Xiaoman, because Xu Zhimo had quarreled with Lu Xiaoman before he left, and deep conflicts had accumulated between them because of Lu Xiaoman's indulgence and extravagance. In fact, we all know that Xu Zhimo's death is his doom, so why bother to blame Hongyan.Some people will never make any mistakes after flying for a lifetime, and some people may encounter a crash only once, and their dreams will die.There are too many accidents in life that we cannot predict and grasp. Since we cannot predict the future, we can only resign ourselves to fate.But many people are willing to regard Xu Zhimo's death as a soul-stirring martyrdom.It seems that only in this way can he repay his passion in his life and leave an affectionate finale for his poetic and romantic life.

Xu Zhimo's death was not the beauty's fault, absolutely not.People in the world often say that beauty is unlucky, and heaven is jealous of talent. Although it is not absolute, God is indeed fair.If I give you an incomparable talent, I will not give you simple and stable happiness.It has been said countless times that life is a kind of exchange. The so-called trade-offs, gain and abandonment are the same. After Xu Zhimo's death, the most distressed should be the one he loved the most.In addition to the relatives who are related to him by flesh and blood, they are the ones he loved in his life, and the woman who loved him.We can imagine how grief-stricken his ex-wife Zhang Youyi was when she heard the news of his death, she couldn't cry.And the prose written by Lin Huiyin is enough to show how heartbroken she is.She said that after that, many days of missing him were afraid that they would be all dark and painful, and there would be no light, because she did not have his beautiful and poetic faith.As for Lu Xiaoman, her heart ached even more. Xu Zhimo's death robbed her of her last sincerity in the world.She wrote "Crying Mo", and since then she has been walking in the world with a whole body of sickness and desolation, and that kind of incomparable desolation is unbearable to witness.

It is said that Lin Huiyin asked Liang Sicheng who rushed to the scene to retrieve a piece of the wreckage of the crashed plane, and she hung the wreckage in her bedroom to express her eternal memory of Xu Zhimo.Many people don't understand the depth of her affection, and Liang Sicheng may find it unbelievable to her actions, but the deceased is already a gentleman, so why bother to have any meaningless disputes with a deceased friend. The way Lin Huiyin mourned this time may be because she felt indebted to Xu Zhimo.The betrayal of him when he was young at eighty-nine, and this accident cannot be said to have nothing to do with Lin Huiyin. After all, Xu Zhimo traveled all the way to Lin Huiyin for a lecture.When people face the ending, there is really no way not to believe in the hidden cause and effect.Lin Huiyin said that death is not necessarily more bitter than life.Is this a consolation to the living, or a blessing to the dead?

lightly i go, as I come gently; I gently waved, Be a cloud in the western sky. The golden willow by the river, is the bride in the sunset; The shadows in the waves, Ripples in my heart. The green dragonfly on the soft mud, flamboyantly swaggering at the bottom of the water; In the gentle waves of the Cam, I am willing to be a water plant! That pool under the shade of elm trees, Not a clear spring, but a rainbow in the sky; crushed among the floating algae, Precipitating rainbow-like dreams. dream?hold a long pole, Stroll to where the grass is greener; A ship full of stars, Sing in the starlight.

But I can't sing, Quietly is the shengxiao of parting; The summer insects are also silent for me, Silence is Cambridge tonight! quietly i left, as I came quietly; I waved my sleeves, Do not take a single cloud with you. A few years ago, the poet Xu Zhimo wrote this song "Farewell to Cambridge".A few years later, he is really as written in the poem: quietly I leave, just as quietly I came; waving my sleeves, I won't take a single cloud away.Whether you or I believe in fate, many things have already been arranged.Whether you are an ordinary person or an elegant guest, you will inadvertently lay down unknown foreshadowing for your future.

Every accident is a turning point in life.In this life, there are always some people who are the stones you must throw when crossing the river, the firewood you need to cook tea, and the street lamps you turn on at night. Give life back to the years.At that time, where will the lonely shadows be scattered?