Chapter 13 Two falling flowers and flowing water

Some people say that when people who love each other stay together, even the time is beautiful.I think the person who said this sentence must have loved, and only after loving can he deeply appreciate the sweetness of owning and being owned.It seems that the mountains, rivers, plants and trees have emotions, and every inch of skin can be stretched under the cool breeze and bright moon.When you are in love, you will find that you are the happiest person. The coarse clothes and plain cloth are also beautiful, and the light tea and light meals are also warm. But there are too many helplessness in life, not all sincerity will be cherished, not all love can be blessed, not all stories will have a happy ending.Every day, we meet each other; every day, some people experience parting; every day, different stories of joy and sorrow are brewing.Everyone's life has to experience smoothness and ups and downs, joy and sorrow, reunion and separation.Today you see wild geese flying south, and tomorrow you will see the waning moon and turning round. As many flowers are full of branches, there will be as many autumn leaves falling.

We were once moved by a love in Cambridge, and sighed sadly for that moment of parting.In fact, we are just spectators. As for who Lin Huiyin chooses to be with and what kind of life he chooses, it has nothing to do with us.Perhaps each of the three men in Lin Huiyin's life has his own preference, because they embody different personality charms.So Lin Huiyin spent her life among them, and sometimes she didn't even know who was the most important in her life and who stayed the longest? However, Lin Huiyin has never been a woman addicted to the past, she will not let her lovesickness overflow.Those beautiful things that have passed away have never been forgotten, but they are rationally put in the bottom of my heart, and I will only think of them alone at night when there is no one.After returning to China, Lin Huiyin met Liang Sicheng again, and there was a long-lost familiarity between them.At this time, Lin Huiyin was more elegant, refined and graceful than the little girl a few years ago, which made Liang Sicheng fall in love with her again.In addition, the elders of both parties had hinted of marriage, so Liang Sicheng developed a heart of admiration for Lin Huiyin.In his heart, he even believed that Lin Huiyin was his wife, and he wanted to marry this beautiful and clean woman in this life.

Lin Huiyin just escaped from a love affair, but she is still calm and composed, and no one can see her sadness.Her face was pure and beautiful, and her eyes were gentle and affectionate. When Liang Si became her and couldn't help herself, that Xu Zhimo who was thrown into the world was fascinated by her.Until that day, Xu Zhimo said to Lin Huiyin helplessly and affectionately: "If one day I get your love, then my wandering life will have a destination. Let me stay by your side for an hour, and you know that sorrow is like a saw on my soul." Is Lin Huiyin really indifferent?No, she understands Xu Zhimo's heart, his romance and infatuation better than anyone else.It's just that Lin Huiyin can afford Xu Zhimo's soul, but he can't afford the stability of reality.She also thought about being desperate for a love without regrets, but those unreasonable realities made her hesitate.She chose to abscond at the most brilliant time, and let love fall into dust.

But do you really not love it anymore?The reunion between Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng means that the relationship between her and Xu Zhimo is like a cup of new tea that has been brewed, slowly fading away.Maybe it was to forget that Lin Huiyin did not refuse Liang Sicheng's pursuit of her. They often chose to play in the beautiful Beihai Park, visited the Taimiao together, and sometimes went to Tsinghua Academy to watch Liang Sicheng participate in music performances.Although Liang Sicheng does not have the romance and tenderness of a poet like Xu Zhimo, Lin Huiyin likes the feeling of being with him.With Liang Sicheng, the time seemed to be bright and warm forever, but Xu Zhimo gave her the feeling that fifty-five would always be a humid rainy season, a night with a hazy new moon.

It is impossible to live in a dream forever in one's life. Lin Huiyin, who has seen it, also thought about being intoxicated in a dream of pear blossoms like snow and not waking up again.It is a dream that will eventually wake up. After waking up, that kind of boundless loneliness hits and makes your heart even more desolate.Just like Du Liniang in the play, she had a dream in the garden by the Peony Pavilion, lake, mountain and stone.In the dream, there are thousands of treasures and ten thousand kinds of tenderness. After waking up, lovesickness becomes sick, and one illness can't afford it.Looking at the colorful spring scenery, I am always afraid that time will pass by like a white horse, and my youth will be thrown far away.The beautiful and affectionate Lin Huiyin only wants to have a dream when he is young, and it is good to have a dream.

Old love is finally difficult, and no matter how sober a person is, it is inevitable that he will be deluded.In September 1922, Xu Zhimo returned to China by boat, arrived in Shanghai in October, and soon went north to Beijing to reunite with Lin Huiyin.At this time, Xu Zhimo was free, and he still couldn't forget Lin Huiyin.At the beginning, Lin Huiyin didn't give him any reason to leave without saying goodbye, so he still didn't believe that the woman who had promised him that he would never leave would change so easily.If Xu Zhimo had a family at the beginning, there was a huge obstacle between him and Lin Huiyin, and now he is single, does Lin Huiyin have to worry a lot?

Maybe Xu Zhimo never really understood Lin Huiyin, how indifferent and forbearing this weak woman has.When Xu Zhimo saw the woman he had been passionately in love with in Kangqiao, and now Liang Sicheng and Liang Sicheng had become a beautiful couple in everyone's hearts, he felt so lonely and ashamed that he couldn't add it.Because he couldn't bear to give up, Xu Zhimo often went to the house of his teacher Liang Qichao as a guest, and even pretended to be calm and breezy.Liang Sicheng is hospitable, and Lin Huiyin always has a sweet smile on her face, as if nothing had ever happened between her and Xu Zhimo.They get along happily, talk about ideals, life, and poetry casually, but are they really peaceful in their hearts?

The clever Lin Huiyin deeply felt that Xu Zhimo was infatuated with her, but she buried the fifty-six feelings in the past deeply, and Xu Zhimo was even a little scared by that kind of silence.He almost didn't even have the courage to look into her eyes. He was afraid that from her clear eyes, he wouldn't be able to find the slightest shadow of the past, or the warmth of yesterday.So, he always let himself fall into the memory, pretending that they were still walking in the misty rain and fog in London, snuggled up by the fireplace to roast fire and drink coffee, and paddling in the gentle waves of Cambridge.Isn't time still there?What exactly is perishable?

Can't go back, really can't go back.Falling in love with this sentence has been many years ago. Everyone who has experienced the vicissitudes of life has said this sentence and loved this sentence.Love helplessly, love to heartache.How many relationships came and went in a hurry, and in the end, we all became the ones picking up the past.Looking at the passers-by in a hurry, and then said the same sentence with a lot of emotion, I can't go back, I can't go back. Because of Lin Hui's calm appearance, Xu Zhimo knew that the affection of the past had been scattered in the wind and became a helpless memory.Is it really when the love becomes deep and the love turns thin?The relationship between them seemed to be a scene that had just begun before the curtain call was hasty before it could be performed.Xu Zhimo hasn't taken off his costume yet, Lin Huiyin has changed another role, a role that he can't figure out.

But he still guards that stage and waits innocently, waiting for the woman he loves to look back one day and find him. Although Xu Zhimo has experienced many women in his life, besides Zhang Youyi, Lin Huiyin, Lu Xiaoman, Ling Shuhua and Han Xiangmei, even abroad, there are many women who admire him, but the women Xu Zhimo really loves are Lin Huiyin and Lu Xiaoman.Before falling in love with Lu Xiaoman deeply, he never forgot Lin Huiyin in his heart.And Lin Huiyin's love for Xu Zhimo, how has he ever let go?It's just that everyone loves in a different way and chooses a different life, so people who once loved each other will drift away from each other because of many differences.

In fact, love in the world is nothing more than this, you love me, I love him, and he loves you.The person you love may not love you, and the person who loves you may not love him.People who love each other may not be able to be together, and people who do not love each other may not be happy together.So until now, we have not been able to truly distinguish between falling flowers and flowing water, who is affectionate and who is unintentional.Or maybe there is no affection, but just a chance encounter in the world of mortals. Once we part, there will be no trace of the two.