Chapter 8 But there is no hardship in crossing, I will welcome you

betrayal and persistence I am lost in the loneliness without you, like the prosperity of the sea, which has nothing to do with me.Looking back with regret.Taoyedu, the lonely boat looks out, and I can't see your expectant smile. The situation is pressing.Wang Xianzhi didn't want to betray but had to betray his marriage alliance with Xi Daomao.I don't think he can base his small happiness on the huge crisis of the whole family.After all, love infatuation who can be desperate is a minority. Wang Xianzhi is not Jia Baoyu. His sense of responsibility does not allow him to take risks for love and be crazy about love.

If he did this, the Wang family would be oppressed by other noble families.In case of failure, he is a family sinner.Love saint is not for everyone.What's more, how can there be eggs under the overturned nest?Once there are dangers everywhere, the appearance of two people staying together is just a dream.Instead of going his own way now and letting Xi Daomao bear the crime with him in the future, it is better to bear the pain alone. ——Maybe I beautified his selfishness.This man may also have a more sophisticated calculation of his own.Being a son-in-law can bring him greater fame.People in the Wei and Jin Dynasties value freedom and even more fame.Even if he disdains official career in his heart, he can't refuse the benefits brought by this fame.He also won't realize how painful it will be in the future.

After weighing the interests, he decided to divorce his wife.In his early years, Xi Daomao had a daughter, Yurun, who died young and had no heirs.She has no reason to stay in Wang's house. Faced with the embarrassing situation, I think she will choose to leave with self-respect. I can't see the eighteen friends seeing off, and say goodbye at Changting; I can't see the exchange of tears and tears, and I am reluctant to part.When we parted, no one said any decisive words, knowing that we would never see each other again in this life. Real life and death parting, two hearts empty.Like a rock falling head-on, it crushes people to pieces and their souls fly away.

I will send you away with my own hands——forget each other.How to forget each other?She leaves by boat, and he faces each other across the river.A clear and shallow river, it is difficult for Xinghan to cross.The Milky Way in the sky is not a legend, it really exists in the hearts of others, you don't look back, just like the peach blossoms go away with the flowing water.There is a part of me in my life that is gone with you, clinging to you like a shadow, and will never come back. It was you who sent me away with your own hands - don't say it, I don't want to.May you forget me as soon as possible.This life is over, we will meet each other indefinitely.I can force myself to give up, but I can no longer deceive myself.

After Xi Daomao and Wang Xianzhi divorced, he died of depression not long after returning to Xi's house.After Wang Xianzhi married Princess Xin'an, the official fortune was prosperous, and the official came to Zhongshu Ling.The arrogant Princess Xin'an obeyed him because of her deep love, but Wang Xianzhi was always depressed. After middle age, the two had a goddess love. Is he, who is extremely honorable, happy?It is safe to say that he is not happy.He who advocates freedom the most cannot be free. When you are young, you will think that freedom means doing what you want, but when you are old, you will know that true freedom means not doing what you don't want to do.He can't do it!

"Although the years of facing each other can be the joy of the day. The constant suffering is endless. Fang wants to be as good as his sister in the past, and grow old together with her. How can it be said that he is so good-bye! All the feelings are deep, and when How can I see my sister day and night? Look up and mourn, there is nothing I can do, but I should give up my breath!" The letter in "Book of Jin" is extremely sad.Judging from its tone, it is believed that Wang Xianzhi wrote to Xi Daomao after the divorce, telling his guilt and longing for her. Years after the farewell, his best time is still when I lived with you. The love I once had is unforgettable, even if it is not perfect, it is incomparably beautiful in my heart.Your frown and smile occupy my heart and absorb my memory.I can't forget even if I want to, the longer you are away, the more I am addicted to thinking about you and cannot extricate myself.

This may be a letter written by Wang Xianzhi to himself, which will never be sent.The past is like a broken dream, and the deep love is a letter that has nowhere to deliver. Did Xi Daomao see this letter?What do you think when you see it?So what if she sees it—even though she understands that his affection has not changed, the matter is irreversible.Loved it, forget it.Resentment is useless, hatred is useless, infatuation is even more useless. Wang Xianzhi, an outstanding man who is proud of the world, seems to be born among the thousands of people, enjoying the glory.I don't know, will his eyes be filled with tears because of the occasional recollection of the past?

You are so far away from me that I can't see you.But I know that since the city of my feelings is captured by you, there can be no other occupants—even if I am just a relic of your change of dynasty. I will go back to my world and grow old in silence, not to disturb you.This world is already a ship, and it is hard to recover if it is overwhelmed. My life is pure and shallow, your love can't bear my sorrow of parting, and can't reach the shore we agreed on.The love is thin and cool, before a sigh falls, my life has turned yellow.From then on, it doesn't matter who I am, but who you are.Since then, the long and lonely years have been deserted and desolate, and I can't forget each other, only long memories.

After Wang Xianzhi married Princess Xin'an, he took a concubine.The concubine's name is Taoye, and she is deeply favored by Wang Xianzhi.According to records, Wang Xianzhi wrote a song for peach leaves. According to folklore, Wang Xianzhi loves peach leaves very much.I once welcomed him to the ferry, and wrote a song: Peach leaves compound peach leaves, and peach trees connect peach roots.The two pleasures of pity and pity alone make me diligent.Peach leaves compound peach leaves, crossing the river without oars.But there is no hardship in crossing, and I welcome you myself. It is said that Tao Ye felt Wang Lang's affection, and wrote "Tuan Fan Song" to answer:

The round fan painted by Qibao, shining brightly in the moonlight.And Lang is noisy and hot, remember each other and don't forget each other.Tuan Fan complex Tuan Fan, holding the promise of self-impedement.Haggard and unreasonable, ashamed to meet Lang.Peach leaves reflect safflower, graceful without wind.There is no limit to the spring breeze, and Gan Lang picks me alone. The stone tablet of "Ancient Taoye Ferry" still exists in Nanjing today, and the scenery is naturally no longer the same as before.It is said that in the Eastern Jin Dynasty, the river bank was full of peach trees. When the wind blows, peach leaves and peach blossoms fall on the river. People at that time called it "Taoyedu".Later, because Wang Xianzhi wrote a song here to see him off, the place became famous and attracted endless praises from literati and poets of all dynasties.Zeng Ji of the Song Dynasty wrote "Taoye Crossing": "The fragrant grass on the waist of the skirt rejects the long embankment, and Nanpu complains every year. "Crossing": "The flowers are flying on the white board bridge, and the concubine was sent back by the ancients. The water shines on the face of the city, and Liu Shu smiles. The invitation flute is buried for a long time, and the fan is empty and catastrophe. The beauty is valued in the world, and the peach leaves are preserved in the ancient ferry."

Later generations are chasing after the ancients, unable to see through the desolation of the past.Men admire his elegance, and women envy his love for Taoye. I prefer to understand his love for Taoye as a kind of empathy.Love is a play, and he puts all his heart into the performance, which makes people see the clues of falsehood.With his all-time aloofness and arrogance, why is this so! Wang Xianzhi's "Peach Leaf Song" tastes the meaning of the song, and it seems to be written for Xi Daomao.To put it cruelly, Taoye, a beautiful and lovely girl, is just a prop for Wang Xianzhi to express his feelings.Tao Yegu cannot simply be compared to Lolita, and Wang Xianzhi is definitely not the generation who blames uncles.However, in this story, the happy girl who is satisfied and deeply grateful for her pet survives with the nostalgia that a middle-aged man can't talk about.She doesn't need to know her misery. In his happiness, she is just a substitute, and what he recalls is always another person. Know you can't come back.I found another person, just because she has a little shadow of you.I abandoned you, and I have a deep heart, and I haven't forgotten it for a moment. The longing and debt to Xi Daomao dragged him down.The guilt made Wang Xianzhi feel ecstatic and pathetic in the second half of his life.The once real beauty has disappeared, but the brilliance of beauty in memory will never fade.He was saying goodbye to Taoyedu, and what he greeted was not Taoye, but Xi Daomao, who would never come back. Yi Ren goes away.I can't go with you, I can only stay here with my heart and soul.It has already been scarred and burdened for you, but stubbornly refuses to leave. In the eyes of outsiders, I am unattainable, and my colorful life, only the old people know that it is dilapidated and withered, and it is too difficult to revisit. do you know?I didn't know until now that the whole world's looking up is not as good as looking back at you. You are the forbidden place in my heart that I can't bear to visit again. I have sunk my love for you, and I dare not look back in my lifetime.Only when I was dying, I salvaged my feelings for you, let go of my arms, and followed you across the river. Through the icy bustling, back to you, to find the few tender time - this is the only thought I have before I close my eyes.