Chapter 7 Taoyedu—— Helplessness and Junjue, several sorrows in the dream

give up and remember I retreat in the lonely world without you, stick to an empty city for you, love the dream of the previous life, and mourn several times in the dream. Where to stay across the river last night, I suspect it is Qinhuai. Whoever plays the flute in the moonlight mourns. The amorous king thanked his daughter, chasing each other across the river. Clouds and rains return before they are completed, and it is difficult to think about good things. Pingling rushes oars to urge two phases. After I want to return to Iraq, it should be like my feelings. In the old days, Wang Xie, skirts and clogs were romantic.The high mountains and long rivers in the Wei and Jin Dynasties were unexpectedly moved by Su Shi's "Linjiang Fairy".Like the river moon following the waves, sneaking back into my heart.

When I read it in my early years, I mostly went for gossip and gossip.Reading the anecdotes of famous people is extremely joyful, but I don’t understand the meaning of the ancients’ words, and I don’t know that the world’s joys and sorrows, the ups and downs of life’s great sorrow and joy, are often hidden in a few small words of chatting and faint ink marks. Newcomers read "Book of Jin" again, flipping through it, laughing out of excitement, always wondering if these blessed people are really happy?Why, I gradually tasted the dissatisfaction in life in their willful indulgence, and I was too sensitive?Or have I stopped being too naive?

For example, I read Wang Xianzhi's last words in "Book of Jin" tonight: "I don't realize that there is nothing else to do, but I only remember that I divorced the Xi family." "When you want to go back, you should be like my feelings", it is Su Shi who sighed that the love in the world is hard to last, and Si Yi's dead lover.Could it be Wang Xianzhi's heartfelt words to tell the truth?Things are generally the same in ancient and modern times. After reading Su Shi's "Linjiang Immortals" carefully, it seems that they were co-authored by the two of them.

In the dream, I mourned several times, Wang Xianzhi and Xi Daomao, this pair of lovers who have been sighed for thousands of years. After many years, at the end of his life, what he cared about was still the helpless breakup with her. "The cloud and rain are scattered before they are formed, and it is difficult to reconcile when thinking about good things." Isn't it him who said it?He once abandoned her because of his inner wavering, and because of his inner persistence, he couldn't let go of his guilt towards her for the rest of his life. Wang Xianzhi is the seventh son of the calligrapher Wang Xizhi.Calligraphy attainments and his father are called "two sages", and Wang Xianzhi's flair is the crown of the moment.According to historical records, he attaches great importance to demeanor and grooming. Although he lives idle all day long, he is not in danger-this is different from a "pseudo-mother".

Han Yi is supernatural, elegant and self-sufficient, and it is also a kind of romantic style respected by people in the Wei and Jin Dynasties.Once, Xianzhi and his elder brother went to pay a visit to Xie An, the two elder brothers talked a lot about common things, and the offering was just warm and cold.Xie An, who has read countless people, judged Wang Xianzhi above his two elder brothers: "Auspicious people have few words, and they know them because of their few words."——The younger one is better. Apart from being cautious in his words, Wang Xianzhi's unruffled demeanor is also similar to Xie An's.

Once, the Wang family caught fire, and Wang Huizhi fled before he could put on his shoes and pull his feet. Wang Xianzhi walked out slowly with the help of his servants, his expression normal.However, I think this is a little pretentious. I think the fire is not urgent. If the fire burns your butt, it is more practical to run away without saying a word, instead of waiting for the servant to help. Another night, Wang's house was stolen and thieves broke into the house. Wang Xianzhi lay on the bed and watched the thieves busy.Seeing that everyone was busy and ready to pack up and retreat, he just said leisurely: "Stealer, the green felt is an old thing from my house, let's keep it." The thieves with relatively low psychological quality were frightened and fled.

This one is more ruthless, he can be so calm that even the astute thief has never noticed his existence, his psychological quality is indeed extraordinary. Even among Wang Xie's sons who have produced a large number of talents, Wang Xianzhi is undoubtedly outstanding.He has been praised by people since he was a child, and he has indeed lived up to expectations and is hardworking and self-sustaining.Even Wang Xizhi felt that this boy would become a great talent in the future, so he praised him. When Wang Xianzhi became an adult, he married his cousin Xi Daomao. The two were childhood sweethearts, and their relationship was very strong.Xi Daomao is also a daughter of a famous family. Although the Xi family is not as noble as the Wang family, it was once prominent in those days. Wang Xizhi himself is Xi Jian's son-in-law.Because of this in-law relationship, Xi Wang's family was happy to see them get married.

Xi Daomao is dignified and quiet but not rigid. She is a woman with a lot of interest in life.Wang Xianzhi has the same temperament as her.Originally, he was indifferent to official affairs and could not tolerate common things. After he got this virtuous wife and beautiful family, he became even more indifferent to fame and wealth. They were not people who were obsessed with fame and wealth, but because of the magnificence of the Wang family, the two of them could have spent their days leisurely and become a couple of immortals in the eyes of the world.Unexpectedly, fate prefers to be happy and not end well.

In Wang Xianzhi's life, the peach blossom that appeared unexpectedly was Sima Daofu, the daughter of Emperor Jian Wen.Sima Daofu has been in love with Wang Xian for a long time.She was originally married to Huan Ji, Huan Wen's son.Later, Huan Ji wanted to usurp military power and was abolished. Sima Daofu divorced Huan Ji and proposed to remarry Wang Xianzhi.At this time, she was already the princess of Xin'an, and the royal family of the Eastern Jin Dynasty also recognized Wang Xianzhi's character and prestige, thinking that he could be a good son-in-law.So the empress dowager made the decision, and the emperor ordered the king to present him as his son-in-law.

"Three or two peach blossoms outside the bamboo", which outstanding man has never had two or three peach blossoms in his life?It is probably rare to see a person who is outstanding and has no gossip at all.Faced with the peach blossoms that suddenly appear in life, most people can get through it safely, and after being fascinated for a while, they finally turn back to the right path.But Wang Xianzhi was different. Sima Daofu's affectionate and menacing peach blossom disrupted his overall plan for the future. Due to various reasons, he could not refuse. Sima Daofu is determined, even if Wang Xianzhi burns his feet and refuses marriage on the grounds of lameness, it will not help.Sima Daofu made it clear that he should not marry a king.This beautiful princess comes with an indomitable attitude and affection, she is a strong invader with clear aggressiveness.

Wang Xianzhi can ignore her, but he cannot ignore the pressure and expectations of the entire Eastern Jin Dynasty behind her.Her arrival was a gesture of favor that could not be categorically rejected when the situation was precarious.Once Wang Xianzhi contradicted and wavered, Xi Daomao was the first to suffer. To make a digression, when I was writing this article, I listened to an old song "Several Sorrows in Dreams" over and over again. I always felt that the helpless parting in this song fit the tone of too many sad stories. ask if you know You chase me to change rivers and mountains gathered all kinds of grievances heartbreaking how many kinds of hate You fight me for that kindness no longer How many times do you want to chase your dreams need to break love Dominating the heights may have emotion in my heart in your heart Is it empty How sad in the dream I regret and hate you for sinking into the sea of ​​pain How many complaints in the dream regret losing love Thousands of people in the dream lamented Zhu Yan's change Although Wang Xianzhi is not a king, he still wants to pursue higher fame and fortune.The cold female voice sighed faintly, resentful and pitiful.Throughout the ages, how many men who strive for fame and fortune have not hesitated to cut off their love in order to achieve their goals.How many women have been implicated and let down by innocence, and their lives have been ruined.Although the singer hated the man's heartlessness, he also pitied him for being bound by ambition and fame. Once he dominated the high place, he was trapped in a sea of ​​misery. In the future, he would inevitably feel empty, and there was no one to talk about his regrets.Its song is sung three times, which seems to have sung enough of Xi Daomao's melodious heartfelt voice. do you know?The most untestable thing in this world is emotion, because it is destined to be influenced by other factors.Wang Xianzhi doesn't need to think about himself, but as a child of a family, he has an innate sense of responsibility and honor. A child from an aristocratic family who has been proud of everyone since he was a child must succumb to the arrangement of fate at this time.Xiaoyao like Xie An has to take on family responsibilities and come out to revive the Xie family.Wang Xianzhi, who was placed high hopes by the family, was destined not to stay out of the matter, and not to ignore the interests of the family. A male friend talked to me, before family interests, love is always second.I was aphasic, and at that moment my heart was as cold as ice.I think I understand men's thoughts better.It's not that there is no emotion in the hearts of those men who are accused of being heartless, but love is rarely ranked first.There are more values ​​to be realized in life.Even though he knew that what he made would be a decision that he would regret for the rest of his life. It is not without hesitation to give up a sincere relationship, but when it is time to give up, you will definitely give up-this is the difference between men and women-women can replace many things with feelings; men can replace feelings with many things. Life is destined to have some decisions that you don't want to make but have to make.It is still easy for a strong man to break his wrist, even if his body and mind are separated and he will never live again, so what? In most people's lives, love doesn't come first.