Chapter 4 Chapter Three Turning Inward, Towards the Truth

Born 24 February 1973 in Bombay, India Scripture: oh!That which has lotus eyes, how sweet to the touch, when singing, seeing or tasting, be aware of your being, and discover the Immortal. Wherever you find fulfillment, in whatever act, fulfill it. At the point of sleep, when sleep has not yet come, and the external waking has disappeared, the "nature" is revealed at that point. Illusion deceives, color draws boundaries, and what is divisible is indivisible. Civilization is a training in how to become unreal, while Tantra is the opposite process - how to prevent yourself from becoming unreal.If you have become unreal, then Tantra will teach you how to touch the hidden reality within you, how to get in touch with it again, how to become real again, the first thing you have to understand is: How we go on becoming unreal, once this process is understood, many things change immediately, that understanding becomes a mutation.

Man is born undivided. He is neither a body nor a mind. He is born undivided. He is an individual. He is both body and mind. It is wrong to say that he is both. It's "body mind", body and mind are two sides of his being, not two dividers, it's some kind of polarity that you might call life, energy or whatever, but body and mind are not two things. The process of civilization, education, culture and conditioning all starts with a split, everyone is taught that he is "two" and not "one", so of course one begins to identify with the mind and not with the body Identify, that process of thought becomes your center, and the process of thought is just the periphery, it is not the center, because you can exist without thought, once you exist without thought...thought is not a necessary condition of existence, if You meditate deeply and you will be and there will be no thought, and if you become unconscious you will be but there will be no thought.In deep sleep you will be, but there will be no thought, thought is only peripheral, your being is somewhere else - deeper than thought, but you have been taught that you are "two" - - body and mind, you are taught that you are the mind and you own the body, the mind becomes the master and the body becomes the slave, you go on fighting the body and this creates a gap, a gap, and that gap is the problem , All neurosis is produced by that gap, and all troubles are produced by that gap.

Your nature is rooted in your body, your body is not separate from existence, it is a part of existence, your body is the whole universe, it is not something finite, you may not have observed it, but, Try to see where your body really ends up, where?Do you think your body ends where your skin ends? If that distant sun dies, soon, you will die here too. If the sun stops coming, you will not be here. Without the distant sun, your body cannot exist. The sun and you somehow The way is deeply connected, the sun must be contained in your body, otherwise you cannot exist, you are part of the sun.

In the morning, you see the flowers bloom, and their opening is actually the rising of the sun; at night, they close, and their closing is actually the setting of the sun, they are just the sun that has spread out.You exist here because there is a sun far away.Your skin is not actually your skin, your skin continues to spread out, even the sun is included.You are breathing, you can breathe because there is air, because there is atmosphere, and every moment you are breathing in and out. If for a single moment you are without air you will die, your breath is your life, if your breath is your life, then the whole atmosphere is a part of you, you cannot exist without it, so, your body Where does it really end?Where is the limit?There is no limit!If you look carefully, if you go deep, you will find that there is no limit, or the limit of the universe is the limit of your body, the whole universe is involved in you, so your body is not just your body, it is yours The universe, and you are rooted in it, likewise your mind cannot exist without the body, it is part of the body, it is a process of it.

Dissociation is destructive, and with division you must become identified with the mind.You use thought, and if there is no thought there is no division.You think and you become identified with your thinking, then you feel as if you own the body, which is completely contrary to the truth, you don't own the body, and the body doesn't own you, they are not two things, your being is one Yes, a deep harmony of opposites, but opposites are not separate, they are united, only in this way can they become opposites, that opposite is good, it challenges, it gives life , it creates energy, and it moves forward through the interaction of positive and negative poles.

If you are truly One, with no opposite poles in you, then you must be dull and lifeless, the opposite poles - body and mind - give you life, they are opposites, but they are complementary at the same time Yes, basically, in the end, they are one, a current of energy flows in both of them, but once we identify with the thought process, we think we are centered in the head.If your feet are cut off, you don't feel that you are cut off, you say, "My feet are cut off." But if your head is cut off, you are cut off, you are killed. If you close your eyes and feel that you are there, you will immediately feel that you are in your head.You are not there because the first moment you entered life in your mother's womb, when the male atom and the female atom met, there was no head at that time, but life began, and you were there, but without a head, between the two In the first meeting of living cells you were created, the head was formed later, but your being came first, where is that being?It is not in your head, in fact, it is nowhere, or we can say, it is everywhere in your body.It's nowhere, you can't point it out, the moment you point it out, you miss the whole thing, it's everywhere, your life is everywhere, it's all over you, not only your body The whole body, if you follow it, you will have to go to the very end of the universe, it is everywhere!

With the identification that I am my mind, everything becomes false, you become unreal, because the identification is false, the identification has to be broken, the technique of Tantra is to break down This identification, the effort of Tantra is to make you headless, not in one place, everywhere, or not everywhere.Why does the human mind become false and unreal?Because the mind is an epiphenomenon, it is a necessary, useful process, but it is secondary, it is a process made of words, not of actual being. The word "love" is not love, the word "god" is not God, but the mind is made up of words, the process of language, then love itself becomes even less meaningful than the word "love", for To the mind, that word makes more sense, God becomes less meaningful than the word "God", it is so to the mind, words become more meaningful, they become primary, and we begin to live in in the text.The more you live in words, the more superficial you become, then you go on missing the truth, the truth is not words, the truth is existence.

Living in the mind is like living in a mirror. At night, if you go to a lake, the lake is still and there is no microwave, then that lake becomes a mirror, and you can pay attention to the moon in the lake. But that moon is false, just a reflection, that reflection is from the real moon, but that reflection is unreal.The mind is just a phenomenon of reflection, the real being is reflected in it, but the reflection is unreal, if you get stuck in that reflection you will miss the real being completely, so when you use the mind, when You use the reflection of the mind, everything will sway, a slight wave, a breeze, will disturb the mind, the real being will not be disturbed, but the mind will be disturbed by anything, the mind is a reflection phenomena, we live in the mind.

Tantra says: Come down, come down from your thrones, come down from your heads, forget about that reflection and move toward the real being, all the techniques we talk about take this into consideration: how to get out of the mind so that you To be able to enter into real existence, now let's discuss those techniques. First trick: oh!One with lotus eyes, how sweet to the touch, when singing, seeing or tasting, be aware of your presence, discover the eternal. We are living but we are not aware that we exist, or we are living and we are not remembering ourselves.You are eating, or you are bathing, or you are walking, and when you are walking you are not aware of your existence.Everything is, only you are not.Trees, houses, traffic, everything is, you are aware of everything around you, but you are not aware of your own existence, you may be aware of the whole world, but if you are not aware of You yourself, then, that awareness is false, why?Because your mind can reflect everything, but your mind cannot reflect you, if you are aware of yourself then you are beyond the mind.

Your self-remembering cannot be reflected in your mind because you are behind the mind and the mind can only reflect what is in front of it, you can only see others but you cannot see yourself, your eyes Can see everyone, but your eyes cannot see themselves.If you want to see yourself, you will need a mirror. Only in the mirror will you be able to see yourself, but to do this, you will have to stand in front of the mirror. If your mind is a mirror, it The whole world can be reflected, but it cannot reflect you, because you cannot stand in front of it, you are always behind, hidden behind the mirror.

This technique says that while doing anything - singing, seeing, tasting - be aware of your being, discover the Immortal, discover the flow, energy, life within yourself, and the Immortal, but We are not aware of ourselves.Godziford uses "Remember Yourself" as a basic technique in the West, "Remember Yourself" is derived from this scripture, the whole Godziford system is based on this passage, whatever you are doing, remember yourself , it's very difficult, it looks so simple, but you keep on forgetting, you can't even remember yourself for three or four seconds, and you feel like you're remembering, and then, all of a sudden, you've moved to Some other thought, even with the thought "well, I'm remembering myself" you're missing, because the thought is not remembering yourself, there is no thought in remembering yourself, you are completely empty , remembering yourself is not a mental process, it's not that -- you say, "Yes, I am." Say, "Yes, I am," and you're missing out, "I am" is a mental process Things are a psychological process. Feel "I am", not just "I am", don't verbalize, just feel "you are", don't think.Feel!Try it, it's difficult, but if you keep at it, it will happen.When walking, remember "you are", have the feeling of "you are", without any thought, without any concept, just feel, I touch your head, or I put your hand on your head, Don't verbalize, just feel the touch, in that feeling not only the touch but also the touched, then your consciousness becomes two-way. You walk under the trees: the trees are there, the breeze is there, the sun is there, this is the world around you and you are aware of it.Stand for a moment, suddenly aware that you are, but don't verbalize it, just feel that you are, and this non-verbal feeling, even if it's only for a moment, will give you a glimpse (a glimpse of divinity) - that glimpse What psychedelics can't give you, that glimpse is of the real, and in that moment you're thrown back into the center of your being, you're behind the mirror, you're beyond the world of reflection, you're existential .About this, you can do it at any time, it does not require any special space or any special time, and you cannot say, "I don't have time." When eating, you can do it; when taking a bath You can do it when you are moving; you can do it while moving or sitting; you can do it any time.Whatever you are doing, you can suddenly remember yourself, and then try to go on with that "glimpse into your true nature". It's going to be difficult, one moment you feel it's there, the next moment you move away, some thoughts come in, some reflections come to you, and you become involved That reflection, but don't be sad, don't be disappointed, it's the way it is because, for many lifetimes, we've been worrying about that reflection, and it's become a robotic process where we're immediately, automatically Throw in that reflection, but if you can have that glimpse, even for a moment, it is enough for you to start, why is it enough?Because you can never bring two moments together, only one moment is always with you, if you can have that glimpse, just for a moment, you can stay in it, just effort, a constant effort is needed. A single moment has been given to you, you cannot have two moments together, so don't worry about two moments, you will always have only one moment, if you can be aware in one moment, you can be aware in a lifetime Awareness, now it is just effort, and this kind of thing can be done all day, whenever you think, you remember yourself. "Oh! that which has lotus eyes, how sweet it is to touch, when singing, seeing or tasting, be aware of your being, and discover the eternal." When the scriptures say, "be aware of your being (awareness) Knowing that you are)", what are you going to do?Do you remember to say "my name is Namo" or "Jesus" or something?Do you remember that you belong to such-and-such family, such-and-such religion and tradition?Belonging to such and such a country, class and creed?Do you remember that you are a Hindu, or a Christian?what will you rememberThe scriptures say: Be aware that you are, it just says, "You are".No name needed, no country needed, just let the simple presence be there: you are!So don't tell yourself who you are, don't answer, "I am this and that", just simply be and say you are. But it becomes difficult because we never remember simple existence, we always remember something that is just a label, instead of existence itself, whenever you think of yourself, you think of your name, Religion, country and many things, but it never occurred to me that the simple being said you are. You can practice this: relax in a chair, or just sit under a tree, forget about everything, and feel "you are".No Christians, no Hindus, no Buddhists, no Indians, no British, no Germans, just simple, you are.Feel it, and then you will more easily remember what this passage says: "Be aware that you are, and discover the Immortal." The moment you become aware of "You are," you are thrown back The stream of eternal life.The false will disappear and only the real will remain. That's why we are all so afraid of death, because the unreal will disappear, the unreal cannot last forever, and we cling to the unreal, our identification with the unreal.You must die as a Hindu, you must die as Namo or Krishna, you must die as an atheist or a theist; you as a name and a form will Must die.If you cling to names and forms, obviously the fear of death will come to you, but the real, the existential, the fundamental in you, is immortal.Once the form and the name are forgotten, once you look within the nameless and the formless, you have entered the eternal. "Be aware of your being and discover the Immortal", this technique is one of the most helpful techniques, it has been used by many teachers and gurus for thousands of years, Buddha used it, Mahavira used it , Jesus used it, the modern Godziford has used it, of all the techniques, this one has the greatest potential, try it, it will take time, months will pass quickly. When Ouspensky was studying with Godzif, for three months, he had to work very, very hard, in order to catch a glimpse of what he was, so for three months, Ospenski lives in an isolated house and does only one thing - remembering himself.Thirty people took part in that experiment, and after the first week, twenty-seven escaped, and only three remained, and they spent all day trying to remember, doing nothing but remembering Say, "I am", and twenty-seven of them feel that they are going mad, they feel that madness is approaching, so they run away, they never come back, they never touch Godziev again. why?As we are now, in fact, we are crazy, not remembering who we are, not remembering what we are, we are crazy, but this madness is considered sane.Once you try to restore, once you try to get in touch with the real, it will look like madness, it will look like madness.Compare with what we are, which is just the opposite, just the opposite, and if you think this one is sane, that one will look like madness. But there were three who persisted, one of them was Ospenski, and they persisted for three months, and after the first month they began to have a glimpse of simple existence, a glimpse of "I am", the second month Afterwards, even that "I" is dropped, and they start to glimpse "is", or just "being (nature)", even "I" is gone, because "I" is also a label, the pure nature is neither "I" ", nor "you", it is just "is". By the third month, even that feeling of "yes" is gone, because that feeling of "yes" is still a word, and even that word is gone, then you are, and then you know what you are, in that Until the point comes, you can't ask, "Who am I?" Or you can go on and on, "Who am I?" Just keep asking, "Who am I? Who am I?" All the answers provided by the mind are will be found to be false and irrelevant.You go on asking, "Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?" and then you come to a point where you can no longer ask questions and all the answers collapse and then the question itself collapses Gone, disappeared, when even "Who am I?" This problem also disappears and you know who you are. Godzford tries from a corner, just trying to remember "you are".Raman Maharshi tried it from another corner, he took it as a meditation to ask "Who am I?" Don't trust any answer that the mind can give, the mind says, "What are you asking? You are this or that; you are a man or you are a woman; you are educated or uneducated; you are rich or poor." The mind will provide the answer, but keep asking, don't Accept any answer because all the answers the mind gives are false, they come from unreal parts of you, they come from words, they come from scriptures, they come from conditioning, they come from society, they come from others, keep asking, let this The arrow of "Who am I?" penetrates deeper and deeper, and a moment will come when there will be no more answers. That is the right moment, now you are approaching the answer, when no answer is coming, you are approaching the answer, because the mind becomes quiet, or you can say you have moved away from the mind; when there is no answer, a vacuum will be created around you Come out, and at that point your question will look absurd, who are you asking?There is no one to answer you, and suddenly even your questioning stops, and with the stopping of asking, the last part of your mind disappears, because the question also belongs to the mind, the answers belong to the mind, and the question also belongs to the mind. Mind, both are gone, so now "you are". Try this, if you persist, this technique will most likely give you a glimpse of the real, and the real is immortal. Second trick: Wherever and in what act you find fulfillment, fulfill it. "Wherever you find fulfillment, in whatever act, fulfill it." You feel thirsty, so you drink water, a subtle fulfillment is achieved, forget that water, forget that thirst, stay where you are That subtle fulfillment you feel, being filled with, just feels fulfilled. But the human mind is harmful, it just feels dissatisfied, dissatisfied, it never feels satisfied, never satisfied.If you are not satisfied, you will feel it, you will be filled with it.When you are thirsty you feel it and you are full of thirst and you feel it in your throat and if it grows you feel it all over your body and then there comes a moment when it is not "You are thirsty", you will feel that you have become that thirst, if you have no water in the desert, you will not feel "you are thirsty", you will feel that you have become Became that thirsty. Dissatisfaction is felt, misery is felt, misery is felt, whenever you suffer, you become the sufferer, that's why the whole life becomes a hell, you never feel the positive, you always It is to feel the negative.Life is not as misfortune as we make it, misfortune is just our interpretation.The Buddha is very happy here and now, and he is very happy in this life.Krishna is dancing and playing the flute, right here and now in this life, right where we are miserable, Krishna is dancing, life is neither misery nor joy, joy and Misery is our interpretation, it is our attitude, it is the way we process it, it is the way we see it, it is your mind, it is the way the mind sees it. Remember the above words, and then analyze your own life, have you ever recorded your happy moments?Do you ever jot down moments of fulfillment, satisfaction, and joyful glimpses (glimpses of divinity)?You don't write down any of this, but you write down your every pain, your suffering, your misfortune, and you keep accumulating that, you're a cumulative hell, and it's your own Choose, no one else forced you into this hell, it's your own choice.The mind takes that negativity, accumulates it, and then becomes negativity itself, which is a self-perpetuating misfortune, when you have more negativity in your mind, when you become more negativity, there is more Negative things are accumulated, like attracts like, and this has happened for many, many lifetimes.Because of your negative attitude, you miss everything. This technique gives you a positive approach, which is the complete opposite of the normal mind and its process, wherever you find fulfillment in whatever behavior, to realize it, feel it, become one with it, don't See it as just a passing stage, that contentment can become a glimpse of a greater positive being. Everything is just a window, and if you become identified with pain, you are looking through a window.The window of pain or suffering is only open to hell; if you become one with a moment of satisfaction, a moment of bliss, a moment of ecstasy, you are opening another window, existence is the same, but your window is Different. Wherever you find fulfillment in whatever act, fulfill it -- wherever!No conditions, no matter where.You see a friend, you feel happy; you meet your lover or your beloved, you feel happy, to achieve it, in that moment, become "happy", make that happiness a door, then you are In changing the mind you will start accumulating happiness, your mind will become positive and the same world will not look the same.There is a Zen monk named Bokuju who is said to have said, "The world is the same but nothing is the same because the mind changes and everything remains the same but nothing It's the same because I'm different." You keep trying to change the world, whatever you do, the world will stay the same because you stay the same, you can get a bigger house, you can get a bigger car, you can get a prettier car Mrs or sir, nothing will change, a bigger house will not be bigger, a beautiful Mrs or Mrs will not be prettier, a bigger car will remain the smaller one, because you it's the same.Your mind, your ways, your views are the same, and you go on changing things without changing yourself; so only poor people leave their huts and move to palaces, but even if they do, the The poor man remains the same, he was pitiful in the hut, now he will be pitiful in the palace, the pitiful may be majestic, but he will be pitiful. You continue to carry your misery, wherever you go, you will follow yourself, so any change is basically not a change, it is just an appearance, you just feel that there is a change, but in fact there is no change.Only one change, only one revolution, only one mutation can exist, and that is: your mind goes from negative to positive.If your outlook is centered on misfortune, you will live in hell; if your outlook is centered on happiness, hell becomes heaven, try it!This will change the quality of your life. But you are interested in quantity, you are interested in how to get richer - in quantity, not in quality, you can have two houses, two cars, a bigger bank account, lots and lots of things.Quantity changes, it becomes more, more, but your quality remains the same. However, richness is not in stuff, richness is the quality of your mind, the quality of your life.A poor man can be a rich man in terms of qualities, and a rich man can be a poor man, and this is almost always the case, because a man who is concerned with things and quantities is completely unaware that there is a different dimension In him - the quality level, that level changes only when your mind is positive. Beginning tomorrow morning, remember this all day long: whenever you feel something is beautiful, satisfying, blissful—there are many such moments in a twenty-four hour day—be aware of it.For many a moment, heaven is very close to you, but you are too attached to hell, you are too involved in hell, so you go on missing it.The sun rises, the flowers bloom, the birds sing, the breeze blows through the trees, it's happening!A child looks at you innocently, and a subtle sense of joy enters you, or someone smiles and you feel joy. Look around, try to find that joy, let it fill you, for that moment, forget everything, let it fill you, taste it, let it happen to your whole being, be one with it, Its fragrance will follow you, it will keep echoing in you all day long, and that echo, the feeling of that echo will help you become more positive. This has a cumulative effect, if you start in the morning, at night you will be more open to the stars, to the moon, to the night, to the darkness, do it experimentally for twenty-four hours, just to feel what it is, Once you can feel that positive is leading you to a different world - because you are different, you will not leave it, the whole center of gravity will change from negative to positive, then you will be with a A different, new way of looking at the world. I recall an anecdote.There was a disciple of the Buddha who wanted to leave. The disciple's name was Punakasiap. He asked the Buddha, "Where am I going? Where am I going to teach you?" The Buddha said, "You can choose to go. where." So he said, "I am going to Bihar far away, I am going to move to Sukha province." Bihar is Sukha province. Buddha said: "It will be better if you change your choice, because the people in that province are very cruel, violent, mischievous, and so far no one has dared to go there to teach them non-violence, love and compassion. So please change your choice." But Punakasiap said, "Please let me go there, because no one has ever been there." Buddha said, "Before I allow you to go, I will ask you three questions: If people in that province insult How would you feel about you, humiliating you?" Punakasiap said, "If they just insulted me, I would think they were nice, if they hadn't hit me, they were good people, they could have hit me." Buddha said, "Second question, how would you feel if they started beating you?" Punakasya said, "I would feel that they are very good people, they could have killed me, but they just beat me "Then Buddha said, "The third question, if they really kill you, really murder you, how would you feel at the moment of your dying?" Punakasiap said, "I will thank you You, and thanks to them, if they kill me, they will liberate me from a life that may have many mistakes, so I will feel grateful." So Buddha said, "In this way, you can go anywhere , the whole world is a paradise for you, now there is no problem, the whole world is a paradise for you, so you can go anywhere." With this kind of thinking, there is nothing wrong with the world.In your mind, nothing may be right.With a negative mind, everything is wrong, not that it is wrong, it is wrong because a negative mind can only see what is wrong. "Wherever you find fulfillment in whatever act, achieve it." It's a very delicate process, but it's also very sweet, and the more you do it, the sweeter it becomes, and you'll be filled with a New sweetness and fragrance.Just look for the beautiful, forget the ugly, and a moment will come, and when that moment comes, the ugly also becomes beautiful, just pay attention to those happy moments, then a moment will come, and when that moment comes, there will be no What can be called unhappiness, then there is no unhappy moment.Be concerned with those who are happy, then sooner or later there will be no misery, everything is beautified by a positive mind. The third trick: At the point of sleep, when sleep has not yet come and the external awakening has disappeared, it is at this point that the "nature" is revealed. "At the point of sleep, when sleep has not yet come and outer waking has disappeared, the true nature is revealed. There are turning points in your consciousness at which you are more conscious than at other times Closer to your center. You change gears, and every time you change gears, you go through neutral, which is closer. In the morning, when the drowsiness is leaving, disappearing, you feel like you are going to wake up , right in that middle point, you're in a gap, there's a point, when you're not asleep, but not awake, right in the middle, right at that point, you're in a gap, from sleeping to waking up, your Consciousness changes the whole process, it jumps from one process to another, there is no process in between, there is a gap through which you can get a glimpse of your true nature. 同样的情况也在晚上发生，当你再度从清醒的运作过程跳到睡觉的过程，从你的意识到无意识，这之间有一个片刻是没有运作过程的，那个运作过程没有抓住你，因为你必须从一个状态跳到另一个状态。如果你能够在两个状态之间保持清醒，如果你能够在两个状态之间变成觉知的，如果你能够在两个状态之间记住你自己，你将会瞥见到你真正的本性。How do we do this?当正在进入睡觉时，要放松，闭起眼睛，把房间弄暗，只要闭起眼睛，开始等待，睡意正在来临，只要等待，什么事都不要做，只要等待！你的身体在放松，然后变得沉重，感觉它，觉知那个感觉。睡觉有它本身的运作过程，它开始运作，然后你清醒的意识就开始在消失。记住，因为那个片刻非常微妙、非常短，如果你错过它，你就错过了；它不是一个很长的时间，只是一个单一的片刻、一个非常小的空档，之后你就从清醒变成睡觉，只要等待，完全觉知，继续等待，这需要时间，它至少要花上三个月的时间，唯有到那个时候，有一天，你才能够瞥见那刚好在中间的片刻，所以，不要匆忙，你无法现在就做，你无法晚上就做，但是你必须去开始，而你或许必须等上几个月。 一般而言，在三个月之内，有一天它会发生，它每天都在发生，但是你的觉知，以及那个跟"空档"的相会是无法事先计划的，它是一个发生，你只要继续等待，有一天它会发生，有一天，你会突然觉知到你既不是醒的，也不是睡的，一个非常奇怪的现象，你或许甚至会感到害怕，因为你只知道两种情况：你只知道你睡觉的时候和你醒来的时候，你不知道在你的存在里有第三个点，在那个点上，你两者都不是，在它的第一次冲击之下，你或许会变得害怕和惊恐；不要害怕、不要惊恐，任何那么新的，以前从来不知道的东西一定会带给你某种害怕，当你一再一再地去经验这个片刻，它将会给你另外一种感觉：感觉你既不是活的，也不是死的；既不是这个，也不是那个——这是一个深渊。 这两个运作过程就好像两座山，你从一个山峰跳到另一个山峰，如果你保持在中间，你就掉进一个深渊，而那个深渊是无底的，你会继续往下掉、再往下掉。苏菲门派的人使用过这个技巧，在他们将这个技巧给予追求者之前，他们会同时给予另外一个练习来作为保护。在苏菲的系统里，每当这个技巧被给予时，在这之前会给予另外一个练习，那个练习就是闭起眼睛想象你掉进一口深井里，一口黑暗、深邃而且无底的深井，只要想象掉进一口深井里——往下掉、往下掉、再往下掉，永远往下掉，它是无底的，你没有办法达到它的底，这个往下掉无法在任何地方停止，你可以停止，你可以打开你的眼睛说：不要了，但是这个往下掉本身是不能够停止的，如果你继续，那口井是无底的，它变得越来越暗。 在苏菲的系统里，这个"井的训练"，这个没有底的、黑暗的"井的训练"必须先练习，它是好的、有帮助的，如果你练习它而了解到它的美和宁静，那么，你越是深入那口井，你就变得越宁静，世界被留在远处，而你感觉你已经走得很远、很远、很远。宁静随着黑暗而成长，而在深处是没有底的，恐惧会来到你的头脑，但是你知道这只是想象，所以你能够继续。 透过这个练习，你就变得有能力来做这个技巧，然后，你将会在睡与醒之间掉进那口井，它就不是想象的，它是一个真正的事实，而它是无底的，那个深渊是无底的，那就是为什么佛陀称这个无物为"空"，它是无止境的，一旦你知道了它，你也变成无止境的，醒着的时候很难有这个瞥见（瞥见神性），当然，当你在睡觉的时候，那也是不可能的，因为那个时候那个运作过程正在发挥它的功能，很难将你自己从那个运作过程抽离，但是在早上的时候有一个片刻，晚上的时候也有一个片刻，它是非常容易的，但你必须等待。 "在睡觉的那个点，当睡觉还没有来临，而外在的醒已经消失，本性就在这个点被显露出来。"那么你就知道你是谁，你就知道什么是你真正的本性，什么是你真实的存在。当我们醒着的时候，我们是虚假的，这一点你知道得很清楚。当你醒着的时候，你是虚假的，当眼泪是更真实的时候，你却微笑，你的眼泪也是不能够相信的，它们或许只是一个门面、一个仪式、一个责任。你的微笑是虚假的；那些研究脸的人会说：你的微笑只是一个假装的微笑，它在你的内部没有根，那个微笑只是在你的脸上，只是在你的嘴唇上，它并不在你的存在里，它既没有根，也没有分枝，它是强加上去的，那个微笑并不是由内在来到外在，它是从外面强加上去的。 任何你所说的或是你所做的都是虚假的，你不见得是故意要做这个人生虚假的生意，你不见得知道！你或许完全不知道，但事实上你是如此！否则一直携带这些虚假而无意义的东西是非常困难的，它是自动发生的。当你醒着的时候，这个虚假就一直继续，甚至在你睡觉的时候，它也一直在继续，当然，睡觉的时候它是以一种不同的方式。你的梦是象征性的，不是真实的，你会感到很惊讶，甚至在你的梦中你也不是真实的，甚至在你的梦中你也在害怕，因此你创造出象征符号。 现在，心理分析正在做分析梦的生意，他们生意做得很大，因为你无法分析你自己的梦，它们是象征性的，它们不是真实的，它们只是以隐喻的方式说出某些东西，如果你想要杀死你的母亲而除掉她，你甚至不会在你的梦中杀死她，你会杀死某一个看起来像你母亲的人，你会杀死你的姑妈或另外一个人，但不是你的母亲。即使在梦中，你也无法真实，那么就需要心理分析，需要一个职业性的心理分析学家来解释，但是你或许会以一种歪曲的方式来描述整个事情，使得甚至心理学家都被你欺骗了。 你的梦也是完全虚假的，如果醒着的时候你是真实的，你的梦也将会是真实的，它们将不会是象征性的，如果你想要杀死你的母亲，你将会看到一个杀死你母亲的梦，而不需要，一个人来帮你解释说你的梦意味着什么。但我们是那么虚假，在梦中你是单独一个人，但是你仍然在害怕世界和社会。 杀死母亲是一项最大的罪恶，我怀疑人们是否曾经想过，为什么杀死母亲是最大的罪恶？——之所以是最大的罪恶——因为每一个人对他的母亲不应该怀有深深敌意的感觉。那是最大的罪恶，社会是这样认同的，你的头脑就被制约了，所以，甚至只要一想到要伤害你的母亲就是一项罪恶。在全世界，在所有的社会里，都会这样说杀死母亲是最大的罪恶—— 她生你而你却杀她？ 但是为什么会产生这样的罪恶？因为每一个人在内心深处有一种可能，不赞成必然需要母亲，因为母亲虽然生你，她也是可能将你虚假化的一个工具，她会使你变得不真实，她塑造了你，如果你是一个地狱，那个地狱里面有她的一部分、最大的部分，如果你是悲惨的，你的母亲也是在某个地方隐藏在你里面；因为母亲生你，把你带大，或者，实际上，她从你真实的存在把你"往下带"，她将你虚假化，第一个不真实是发生在你和你母亲之间，第一个谎言发生在你和你母亲之间——第一个谎言！ 即使没有语言，而小孩子不能够说话，他也会撒谎，小孩子迟早会觉知到，他的很多感觉不被母亲所赞同，她的脸、她的眼睛、她的行为、她的心情、她的每一样东西都显示出，在他里面的某些东西是不被接受的、不被赏识的，那么他就开始压抑，有某些东西是错的，当时还没有语言，他的头脑还没有开始运作，但是他的整个身体就开始压抑，然后他开始感觉，有时候某些东西不被母亲所赏识；他依靠母亲，他的生命依靠着母亲，如果母亲离开他，他就完了，他的整个存在都集中在母亲身上。 每一样母亲所表示的、所做的、所说的、所行动的，都具有意义，如果小孩子微笑，然后母亲就爱他、给他温暖和牛奶，而且抱他，这个时候他就在学习一些外交手腕，他会在不想笑的时候笑，因为他知道这样做，他能够说服他的母亲。他会笑一个虚假的笑，然后那个谎言就诞生了，那个搞外交手腕的政客就诞生了，现在他已经知道如何去虚假化，而这是他从他和母亲之间的关系学来的，这是他跟世界的第一个关系，当他开始觉知到他的悲惨、他的地狱、他的混乱，他将会发现他的母亲隐藏在某一个地方。 你或许会觉得对母亲有敌意，这是非常可能的，那就是为什么每一种文化都坚持：杀死你的母亲是最大的罪恶，即使在思想里、即使在梦里，你都不能够杀死你的母亲，我不是在说你应该杀死她，我只是在说你的梦也是假的、象征性的、不真实的，你是那么的虚假，以致于你甚至无法做一个真实的梦。 这是我们两个虚假的脸：一个是当你醒着的时候，一个是当你在睡觉的时候，在这两个虚假的脸之间，有一个非常小的门、一个间隔，在那个间隔当中，你能够瞥见到你真实的面目，那个面目是你不跟你的母亲关联在一起，不透过你的母亲跟社会关联在一起；那个面目是当你跟你自己在一起，当"你是"——不是这个也不是那个：没有分裂，只有那真实的，没有不真实的，你能够瞥见那个面目，那个在这两个醒与睡的运作过程之间天真的面目。 平常我们不会顾虑到梦，我们顾虑到我们醒着的时候，但是心理分析比较顾虑到你的梦，比较不顾虑到你醒着的时候，因为它觉得在醒着的时候，你是一个大谎言家，而在梦中可以抓到某些东西。当你在睡觉的时候，你比较没有觉知，你不会强迫事情，你没有在控制，那么就可以抓住某些真实的东西。你或许是一个无欲的人，醒着的时候，你是一个和尚，但是你压抑了性冲动，那么性就会将它自己压进你的梦中，你的梦将会有性欲。很难找到一个不做性梦的和尚，事实上那几乎不可能，你能够找到一个没有性梦的罪犯，但是你找不到一个没有性梦的宗教的人。一个淫荡的人或许不会有性梦，但是一个所谓的圣人会有性梦，因为不论在你醒着的时候压下什么东西，它都会在你的梦中进出来，而染上你的梦。 心理分析学家并不顾虑到你清醒时的生活，因为他们知道那完全是假的，如果他们想瞥见某些真实的东西，他们只能够透过你的梦来瞥见，但是坦陀罗说：即使梦也并不那么真实，它们只是更真实。这看起来是似非而是的，因为我们认为梦是真实的。它们比你醒着的时候更真实，因为在梦中你比较没有防卫，检查员在睡觉，事情可能会出现，那个被压抑的可能会表现出它自己，当然，它是象征性的，但是象征符号能够被分析。 人类的象征符号在全世界都一样，当醒着的时候，你或许会说不同的语言，但是在做梦的时候，你是说同样的语言，全世界梦的语言是统一的，如果性遭到压抑，那么同样的象征符号将会出现。如果对于食物的冲动、想吃东西的冲动或饥饿遭到压抑，那么同样的象征符号，或是类似的象征符号将会出现。梦的语言是一致的，但是在梦中仍然会有困难，因为它是象征性的，弗洛伊德或许会以不同的方式来解释它们，而容格会以另一种不同的方式来解释它们，阿德勒又会以另一种不同的方式来解释它们，如果你被一百个心理分析学家分析，将会有一百种解释，你会变得比你以前更混乱，更混乱的原因是因为一种东西有一百种解释。 坦陀罗说：在醒着或睡觉的时候你都是不真实的，只有在这两者之间你才是真实的，所以不要顾虑到醒着的时候，也不要顾虑到做梦和睡觉的时候，要顾虑到那个空隙、要觉知到那个空隙，当你从一个状态转变到另一个状态，你要瞥见它，一旦那个空隙来临，你就能够知道，你就变成它的主人，你已经有了那个钥匙，你在任何时间都能够打开那个空隙而进入它，一个不同存在的层面、真正的层面，就打开了。 第四个技巧： 幻象会骗人，颜色会划出界限，即使可分的也是不可分的。 这是一个稀有的技巧，不常被使用，但是印度最伟大的老师之一——山卡拉，曾经使用过它，山卡拉的整个哲学就是以这个技巧作为基础，你知道他"马耶"（maya）的哲学——幻象的哲学。山卡拉说：每一样东西都是幻象的，任何你看到的、听到的、感觉到的，都是幻象，它不是真实的，因为那真实的无法被感官所触及，你在听我讲话，我在看着你听我讲话，它或许只是一个梦，你无法判断它是不是一个梦，我或许只是梦见你在这里听我讲话，我怎么知道这是真实的而不是一个梦？这是没有办法的。 据说庄子有一天晚上梦见他变成一只蝴蝶，早上的时候他非常伤心，他是不轻易伤心的，人们从来不知道他会伤心，他的弟子集合起来说："庄子，师父，你为什么那么伤心？"庄子说："因为一个梦。"弟子们笑了，然后说："你竟然因为一个梦而伤心，你一直在教导我们说，即使整个世界都引起你伤心，你也不要伤心，而单单一个梦就使你伤心？你是在讲什么？"庄子说："它是如此的一个梦，它引起我非常非常深的混乱、伤心和痛苦，我梦见我变成一只蝴蝶。" 弟子们说："它里面到底有什么东西那么困惑？"庄子说："那个困惑是这样的：如果庄子能够梦见他变成一只蝴蝶，那么相反的情况不是也能够成立吗？那只蝴蝶或许会梦见它变成一个庄子，这样一来，我就很困扰，到底什么是对的，什么是错的？什么是真实的，什么是不真实的？是庄子梦见他变成一只蝴蝶是真的，或是蝴蝶进入睡觉而梦见它变成一个庄子是真的？如果其中一个是可能的，那个另外一个也是可能的。"据说庄子从来没有克服这个困惑，终其一生，这个困惑都被保留着。 要如何来决定我不是在梦中跟你讲话？要如何来决定你不是梦见我在讲话？用感官不可能作决定，因为当你做梦的时候，梦看起来是真实的，跟任何东西一样的真实，当你做梦的时候，你总是觉得它是真实的，当梦能够被感觉成是真实的，那么，真实的存在为什么不能被感觉成梦？ 山卡拉说，用感官不可能知道面对着你的东西是真的，或是假的，而如果不可能知道它是真的，或是假的，山卡拉称它为"马耶"：它是幻象，幻象并不是意味着不真实，幻象意味着不可能去决定它是真的，或是假的——记住这一点。在西方的语言里，"马耶"被翻译得非常不对，在西方的文辞里，它给予一种感觉说"幻象"意味着"不真实"，这不是！"幻象"意味着没有能力去决定事情是真的，或是假的，这个混乱就是"马耶"。 整个世界是一个马耶、是一个混乱，你不能够决定，你对它不能下决定，它总是躲开你，总是在改变，总是在转变成另外的某种东西，它是一个想象的东西，一个类似梦的东西，这个技巧所顾虑到的就是这个哲学。"幻象"会骗人，或者我们可以说：那个会骗人的是幻象。"颜色会划出界限，即使可分的也是不可分的"在这个幻象的世界里，没有一样东西是确定的，这整个世界就好像彩虹，它们好像有，但其实没有。如果你在很远的地方看，它们是有的；如果你走得比较近一点，它们就消失了；你走得越近，它们就越不存在；如果你走到你看到彩虹的地方，它已经不在那里。 整个世界就好像彩虹的颜色，它的确如此，当你离得很远，每一样东西都是有希望的；当你走得比较近，希望就消失了；当你达到那个目标，就只有灰烬存在，只是一道死的彩虹，各种颜色都消失了，东西看起来的样子已经不复存在，你觉得它们存在，然而它们是不存在的。 "即使可分的也是不可分的。"你的整个数学、你的整个计算系统、你的所有观念、所有哲学，都变成没有用的，如果你试着去了解这个幻象，你的努力将会使你更加混乱，在那里没有什么东西是确定的，每一样东西都是不确定的，都是一个流动、一个变化的流动，你不可能去决定这个或那个是真的，或是假的，那么将会怎么样呢？如果你采取这个态度，事情将会怎么样呢？如果你真正深入这个态度，说每一样不能决定的东西都是幻象的，你将会自动地、自发性地转告你自己，那么，唯一你能够有一个中心的点，就是你自己的本性，那是确定的。 试着去了解这个：我或许会在晚上梦到我变成一只蝴蝶，在那个梦里，我不能够决定这是真的或是假的，早上的时候，我或许会像庄子一样地困惑，事情是不是刚好相反，或许是蝴蝶在做梦，这是两个梦，我们无法比较哪一个是真的，哪一个是假的。 但是庄子错过了一样东西——那个做梦的人，他只是想到梦，他只是在比较梦，而错过了那个做梦的人，那个梦见庄子变成一只蝴蝶的人，那个在思考事情或许相反的人，那个在思考说：蝴蝶正在做梦，而他变成了庄子的人。谁是这个观察者，是谁在睡觉，而现在是醒的？对我来讲，你或许是不真实的，你或许是一个梦，但是"我"对我自己不可能是一个梦，因为即使梦要存在的话，也需要一个真正做梦的人，即使是虚假的梦，也需要一个真正做梦的人。如果没有一个真正做梦的人，那么，连一个梦也无法存在，所以，把梦忘掉。这个技巧说：把梦忘掉，整个世界都是幻象，而你不是，所以，不要追逐世界，在那里不可能得到确定，现在，即使科学研究也似乎可以证明这一点。 在过去的三个世纪里，科学是确定的，而山卡拉看起来只是一个哲学的头脑，它是富有诗意的。有三个世纪的时间，科学是确定的，但是在这最后的二十年里面，科学已经变得不确定，现在，最伟大的科学家说：没有一样东西是确定的。对于物质，我们永远不能够确定，每一样东西都再度变得不确定，每一样东西都看起来好像是一个流动，一个一直在改变的流动，只有外观看起来是确定的，你越深入，每一样东西就变得越不确定、变得越模糊。 山卡拉说，而坦陀罗也一直在说：世界是幻象的。即使在山卡拉出生之前，坦陀罗就在教导一个技巧，说整个世界是幻象的，所以，将它想成一个梦。如果你能够将它想成一个梦（只要你去想，你就会了解它是一个梦），那么你整个意识的焦点将会转向内在，因为有一股深深的冲动要去找到真理、找到那真实的。 如果整个世界是不真实的，那么你在它里面就无所庇护，那么你是在追逐和追随影子，你是在浪费时间、生命和精力，那么你就移向内在，有一件事是确定的："我是。"即使整个世界都是幻象，也有一件事是确定的：有一个人知道这是幻象。那个知识或许是幻象，那个被知者或许是幻象，但是那个知者不可能是幻象，这是唯一的确定，这是唯一你可以站在它上面的岩石。 这个技巧说：注意看世界，它是一个梦、它是幻象，没有一样东西是它所表现出来的那样，它只是一道彩虹，深入这个感觉，你将会被丢回你自己，当你回到你自己的本性，你就来到一个确定的真理，来到某种不容置疑的、绝对的东西。 科学永远不可能是绝对的，它一定是相对的，只有宗教必然是绝对的，因为它不是在找寻梦，它在找寻那个做梦者、它不是在找寻那个被观察者，而是在找寻那个观察者，那个看的人、那个觉知的人。