Chapter 4 Chapter Six

seek (1) "Soul Immortality" is like a unique key, which opened the door for me to explore inwardly, made me realize the creativity of my mind, and made me move forward with more focus on my inner calling.On the way of self-exploration, we need all kinds of help. One of the most important Taoist friends is Sun Chunhua, who witnessed Li Ao and I failed to agree on a divorce, and made us the "last supper". The other is Master Tang, a qigong doctor. I mentioned in the previous article that during the filming of "Big Stupid" in Hong Kong, I injured my tailbone (and the third cervical spine) because I fell off a horse. After I returned to Taiwan, I found a massage therapist for treatment, but the tailbone The meridian is still a little bruised, so the right half of the body often has a dull pain.Soon someone introduced me to an old apartment next to the "Double-headed Sweet" fruit shop on Xinhai Road, looking for a qigong expert who specializes in treating bruises and pains—Master Tang.I found "Double-Headed Sweet" according to the address, and also found Master Tang's clinic.

It was an apartment on the second floor of a simple, almost shabby building. There were some patients sitting in it. Some of them had a thick piece of dark brown medicine cake on their shoulders and necks. I asked them what it was, and they said It is a secret recipe handed down from three generations in Master Tang's hometown in Xuzhou - a medicine cake made of sweet potatoes, which can suck out the silt in the acupuncture points on the shoulders. I found it very strange to see it.When I entered Master Tang's massage room, I saw an elderly lady receiving treatment. Upon closer inspection, it turned out to be Layman Ye Man——Auntie Ye.I once read in the "Shi Fang" magazine that Aunt Ye suddenly hit a blind cat and killed a mouse on the seventh day of a Zen meditation, and tasted the feeling of "pushing the river cart".It is reasonable to say that her meridians have been unobstructed, so why is she still sitting here receiving qigong treatment?I was thinking to myself when Aunt Ye suddenly said, "My disease cannot be cured by meditation." Waiting for Master Tang's treatment by the side.After Aunt Ye's treatment was over, Master Tang asked me to lie on the massage table, and he treated me with qigong acupuncture.His method is completely different from general massage and massage. Not only does the patient feel no pain, but he also feels very comfortable and refreshed.After the treatment, he prescribed some herbal powder for bathing and asked me to go home and take a medicinal bath by myself; its effect is to promote blood circulation and detoxification.After a period of treatment in this two-pronged way, one day Master Tang said that he would suck out the blockage at the tailbone point with his bare hands, and I accepted his "silt suction method" with unknown emotions.After a few seconds, Master Tang asked me to sit up and look at his palms, and I saw that his palms were covered with gray and sticky things, which he said were the deposits in the acupuncture points.He asked me if I was feeling lighter, and I said it was.He said that he did not know how much vitality he would consume once using the "silt suction method". I took a closer look at his face and found that all his hair stood on end, just like the reaction of a person in a cartoon film after being shocked by an electric shock.I asked him how he felt, and he said he was a little staring, and I felt very sorry.Later, I heard that many dignitaries in the officialdom often sent cars to pick up Master Tang for outpatient visits. I wondered how he could cope with so many patients.

A few months later, Master Tang held a meditation class in a certain American company, and I became a student in the class. We not only practiced meditation, but also received external energy empowerment from Master Tang.There were two people who were angry at the scene, and I was one of them. From then on, my external energy began to flow uncontrollably in my body. After practicing for several months, various deeply buried emotions began to be exposed and released.I gradually realized that like my father, I was an expert at suppressing anger, sadness and fear. We habitually maintained our peace and dignity in front of others, and strived for interpersonal harmony. Most of the negative emotions were suppressed inward; just because there was no Moderate catharsis, the emotions will suddenly lose control in life, and a huge burst of emotional energy will erupt.

My mother is much more frank than our father and daughter in this regard. She always speaks directly and expresses her anger, so her energy is higher and smoother than ours, but it also causes us pressure.At this time, I realized that I desperately needed a space for solitude. The home in the World Tower only smelled of my mother. It was difficult for me to fully develop my creativity in this space.On a certain level, I envied my father, at least his and my mother's schoolwork had been temporarily suspended, leaving me alone to continue to deal with this difficult and stubborn energy (she felt the same for me).

Since I entered the performing arts industry, I have almost no private life to speak of. Under the exaggeration of the media, I seem to be accompanied by a man forever. In fact, the time I lived under the same roof with the opposite sex, a total of more than ten years Probably less than two years.My mother has been a widow for more than 30 years, and I have been a widow most of the time.I often want to use the relationship between the sexes to escape the helpless life of mother and daughter, but I have rebelled countless times and finally returned to the original point.Usually I am not making movies, TV, or commercials, but also appearing on stage, hosting programs, accepting interviews, or going out on location, participating in film festivals, consoling overseas Chinese, or giving speeches.All the income I earn from hard work is handed over to my mother. She saves money and uses the principal to generate profit and profit from the principal. Finally, we can live without worrying about food and clothing for the rest of our lives, and my father no longer has to pay all his salary. To my mother (since I started earning money to support the family, I asked my mother to let my father go, and my mother finally agreed).

On the surface, everything seems to have improved, and everyone should be happy. Unexpectedly, rich money still cannot bring a big heart. My mother's attachment to money has not diminished. She can't even bear to eat a steak in a western restaurant, and she can't bear to use the new towels she bought. The cans in the chest of drawers have not been thrown away for ten years, the remaining two bean sprouts are considered a dish, and the remaining lipstick is still dug out with hairpins and used as rouge, which lasts for six or seven years.I reminded her that the money is enough, and there is no need to live in such a tight situation. Her defense is: "It is because of such austerity that I have money." I asked her: "Don't you think this is a life with the cart before the horse? The way? The purpose of making money is to improve the quality of life, not to turn you into its slave labor.” She immediately changed the subject, claiming that her health was entirely due to poor food, so she still had to continue to be frugal.

seek (2) However, the problem is that her frugal sphere of influence always extends to me. I have worked hard for more than ten years, and I often face those two bean sprouts when I go home for dinner. My pocket money of 20,000 yuan a month, tens of Years have never been raised because of "good performance", and it takes a lot of talk and even disputes when it needs to be installed.During that period, I suddenly developed an inexplicable aversion to money. I felt that it was a sin to have money in and out, so I began to donate a lot.Psychoanalysis is really correct. A mother who always walks to the right must have a daughter who walks to the left.My mother was very angry with me for donating money, but my reason was very grand, and she didn't have anything to do with me.

As my inner qi was activated, my energy began to increase, and my desire to live independently from my mother also grew stronger.As I became less and less self-deceiving and dependent, and less and less willing to put up with her endless nagging and negative mental state, I mustered up the courage to tell her that I was looking for a house to move out.After listening to my words, my mother raised her lightning eyebrows and said threateningly: "What's the matter? You are an unfilial thing, the old woman has already made you hate it, right? You can find a house, within five minutes away If you can find a suitable house, I'll pay you to buy it." I knew she didn't want me out of her sight, but I was determined to go.I figured I'd have to find a house within five minutes.That weekend, in the alley of Siwei Road, less than five minutes away, a small construction company was promoting an eight-story apartment. When I passed by, I saw their sample house. The interior layout, lighting and building materials were different. That’s right, I couldn’t help shouting to myself: “God helped me.”

A year later, I moved into Cailu and officially lived an independent life. My pocket money increased from 20,000 yuan to 40,000 yuan.Thirty-six years of relinquishment of sovereignty are finally over. The Three Obediences and Four Virtues and the Way of Loyalty and Filial Piety are deceptions and traps woven by the authoritarian side, and they are also a thoughtless formula and a prohibition that restricts the growth of both parties.Under this prohibition, the authoritative party can stop growing as much as they want and consolidate their old habits. If the next generation lacks insight into human nature and psychology, they will definitely be infected and brainwashed by these old habits, and continue to live in a vicious cycle of shrinking and self-sufficiency. In the morbid state of security and restlessness.However, looking around, there are not many people around who understand. All knowledge systems, including psychology, philosophy, metaphysics and various miscellaneous studies that I have dabbled in, are not enough in my opinion. Only those who have fully understood can truly see the deepest part of human nature.I feel that I must find a complete mental map in order to establish the correct direction of life.This huge desire and dissatisfaction prompted me to embark on a journey of seeking the "fifty-three ginseng" [1].It is undeniable that the most convenient way to find the way is through the intermediary of people, and gradually find one's own way through the learning process of visiting famous teachers.