Chapter 5 Chapter VII

Fifty-three ginseng In retrospect, the first doubter I met should be the second brother Lin Yun.I was nineteen years old that year, and I was studying at Fuda University. There was a classmate named Ye Zhengyuan in the French department next door. He was very gentle and not aggressive. Lin Yun's second elder brother.At that time, he had not yet become a public figure, and he seemed to be a middle-aged man with a quiet inner world and an unpredictable inner world.Holding a magnifying glass with a miniature light bulb on it, he carefully studied my palm prints, and then slowly began to analyze and predict my character and destiny.He said that I am a person who "does what I know can't be done". I often suffer because of my affection, and there are constant obstacles in my life, but my popularity in the future will transcend national boundaries.There are many foreign ties in my emotional world, but it is also full of twists and turns. He said that I should have two half-brothers; I told him that this is something that no one knows except the closest relatives.He could see the existence of Daojun and Daoyang, which proved that he did have his own unique skills in palmprint study; later he went to teach at the Chinese University of Hong Kong, and we lost contact.A few years later, he began to use folklore, feng shui, and tantric Bon teachings to dispel doubts and untangle people's hearts, and we had the opportunity to meet again.This "demon monk" in Li Ao's mouth is actually an expert with deep observation and judgment. Although the method he taught over the years is not the goal I pursue, every time I watch him and the followers around him In terms of interaction, I really admire his comprehensive ability to teach according to the situation and give advice at the right time; his ability to be soft, stable, tolerant and empathetic is by no means what those who attack him can measure.I think he was my first doubter on the road, and also the elder brother who gave me selfless support and care.

The second predestined Tantric teacher is Gyaltrul Rinpoche of the Nyingma sect of the Red Sect.At the end of 1984, I was filming "Silent Night" in Hong Kong. One evening, I just finished filming the scene of my death, and when I returned to the hotel, I received a call from Lin Yun's second brother.He told me that there is a Dzogchen practitioner who is worth visiting; that night this master will hold an empowerment ceremony, and my second brother hopes that I can participate.When I walked into the venue of the Dharma Assembly and walked through the living room, I saw Gyaltrul Rinpoche on the throne, and I couldn't help snickering to myself.His appearance is very weird and interesting, a bit like a combination of alien and bunny.His face is full of joy, his head is rounded, his gestures are graceful; the inner beauty attracts my attention.The rituals and pujas of Tantric Buddhism give me a sense of cultural alienation, but the teacher in front of me makes me feel kind.I had an opportunity to speak privately with him at dinner, and I sat down next to him and asked a rather intrusive question, full of curiosity.I asked Rinpoche what kind of karma I had with my mother, and Rinpoche replied with a narrow expression: "Maybe she used to be your daughter?" .

In 1985, my good friend Ding Naizhu invited Rinpoche to her home in Yangmingshan to teach the Dharma. I had the opportunity to meet Rinpoche again. On the same day, Naijun, Naizhu's lovely sister, sat by and translated for me.Rinpoche told me bluntly what he had observed about me, and those words helped me build some self-affirmation and made my heart of liberation stronger.Over the years, he has occasionally been invited to Taiwan to promote the Dharma, and every time he sees him, he has gained something.There is always insight in his blunt words, genuine care in his mischievous jokes, and you can feel how much he wants his students to concentrate on the path of liberation.He gave me an interesting and expressive nickname—noodles, which means this thin, slippery noodle. Many people want to catch it with chopsticks, but it slipped away after all.When I was thirty-eight, I went into informal retreat for ten months, and the person who prompted my decision was Gyaltrul Rinpoche.At that time, I was giving a speech in San Francisco, and Rinpoche happened to be in the Bay Area. He saw that I was so busy that I was in danger of losing my life, so he reminded me at the right time: Of course, the vow must be fulfilled. The body still needs to be taken care of first.He told me that if I don't retreat to recharge and cultivate, my health will soon go wrong.I have always been convinced by his observations, so I studied and translated in closed doors at my home on Siwei Road for ten months according to his words.He never talks about dogma or forces you to practice a certain method, but objectively gives the most practical advice, and that advice is often the natural manifestation of causes and conditions.

Another teacher with whom I had a short mentoring relationship also met at Naizhu's house.One day, Dharma King Penor of the Red Sect was preaching at Ding’s house. I went up to the mountain to attend the Dharma conference. In the afternoon, Jampo Rinpoche also came to meet the Dharma King.I remember that when Jampo Rinpoche just opened the door and entered the hallway, before I could even see his face clearly, I felt an urge to cry. I shed a few tears in front of Mama Ding. Mama Ding saw me I was very surprised by his reaction, so he said to me: "Terry, you and this Rinpoche must be very close, you should get closer to him." Soon Naizhu accompanied me to Tamsui to visit Jiangbo's ashram. I remember a When I walked into his living room and bent down to bow to him, my whole body suddenly rushed to the top of my head, and I couldn't control it with willpower at all.In front of him, I was like a traumatized child who saw his father and cried for more than ten minutes. Only then did I realize how much grief I had suppressed since I was a child.Jampo Rinpoche's speechless compassion makes you feel that someone finally accepts you unconditionally.He exudes a quality of humanity rarely seen in a world of cruelty and violence.The natural understanding in his demeanor and the healing energy radiating from his body make you feel that your grievances do not need to be expressed in words, as he understands them completely at a glance.He told me that maybe we had a relationship between master and student or relatives. If I am interested in Tantric Buddhism, I can support him to build a deep pit dojo.It's a pity that he passed away unexpectedly shortly after the establishment of Shenkeng's dojo.In recent years, I heard that he has been reincarnated, but I still have doubts about the theory of reincarnation, so I didn't set foot in his dojo again.

In terms of Xianzong, Chunhua introduced me to visit Master Shengyan, Master Zhengyan, Master Xingyun and Master Weijue. I have taken refuge in each of them and talked with them in private. They all have a certain degree of insight and wisdom. , but their ashram is too large, the number of believers is too large, the teacher cannot have enough time to explain the truth in private, and my urgent desire to seek the way cannot be satisfied in this form, so I decided not to rely on others according to the law, and began to rely on Read the ancient texts yourself. Read various classics (1) Like most of the truth seekers, I read the scriptures at the beginning, "Diamond Sutra", "The Sutra of Perfect Enlightenment", "Avatamsaka Sutra", etc. Printed good books.The language used in these scriptures is both concise and mysterious, and it is difficult for you to understand it immediately.Orientals like to comprehend and not emphasize words, so you have to convince yourself that maybe you really don’t need to understand, as long as you recite the classics every day as morning and evening classes, you will naturally understand one day.But after chanting for a long time, there is still no sign of enlightenment. At this time, you can’t help but start to suspect that none of those who emphasize understanding may have really realized something. The explanations and annotations of the text sound like some moral common sense.Is that all there is to the deep truth?Is there any deeper truth besides cause and effect, giving, refraining from doing all evil, and practicing all good?What exactly does the non-dual method refer to?What is it that does not think of good and does not think of evil?If there is no good and evil, right and wrong, right and wrong, what can human beings rely on to live?What is the state of having no eyes, ears, nose, tongue, body and mind, colorless sound, fragrance and touch?What kind of tricks is Zen's Shenhuatou playing?The koan and witty words lead the truth to a mysterious place. Could it be that the ancient wise men were really so cruel?Does the misery of life have so much leisure to procrastinate, ponder and guess?I have gradually become disgusted with this traditional religious style. I don't believe that there is no way to find the truth that can be understood at a glance.

One day I took out a Chinese-English copy of "Lao Tzu Te Ching and Zhuang Zi Complete Works" from the bookshelf, and the English translator was James Legge.Although I could comprehend Lao Zhuang in the past, I was not able to fully focus on it. Unexpectedly, this book gave me a clear and complete understanding of Lao Zhuang’s thought.I read "Zen and Psychoanalysis", "Christianity and Buddhist Mysticism", "Enlightenment First" and "Zen and Life" written in English by Suzuki Taizhuo, and I can understand the spiritual connotation of Zen.With this understanding, I felt that I might find the ultimate truth I was looking for in English works, so I decided to return to my "small home" in Soho, New York to live for a while.

In the early summer of 1988, just after my thirty-fifth birthday, I boarded a plane straight to New York.Back to SOHO again, I feel very happy.The area where I live is very close to Xidong Bookstore near NYU, and I like to take a walk there to find books.My hungry heart is like a dry sponge, wishing to absorb all the water of wisdom in the entire bookstore.I choose books that I find challenging from a variety of Daoist books, such as "Aquarian Conspiracy", "Kundalini Experience", "Spectrum of Consciousness", "Secret Teachings", "The Path of Physics", etc. Tao, the writings of Venerable Ramana, Alice Bailey's automatic writing, etc., I bought them all and read them. "Aquarius Conspiracy" made me understand that the hippie folly of the 1960s has gradually deepened into a paradigm shift in consciousness.Over the years, Western intellectuals have devoted themselves to the study of East and West and the integration of various knowledge systems. With the gradual extension of their contacts, the consciousness change of Westerners has clearly converged into a trend; Driving global awakening.The vague call and vow in my heart began to become thunderous in this exciting message.Yes, pushing for spiritual liberation in the Age of Aquarius is that ancient calling buried in my DNA.

The days of the seeker are the happiest, the ultimate goal beckons in the distance, and the truth seems within reach.I get up every morning to do yoga, prepare a hearty breakfast for myself, go to the supermarket to bring back a large bag of fresh fruits and vegetables, make a cup of Jiangnan Longjing bought in Chinatown, and sip tea while burying my head in the words of enlightenment.This chaos of Chinese and Western, ancient and modern makes me feel free and appropriate.At lunch time, I go to the Japanese restaurant on West Broadway to order a California roll that is not tired of eating, or go to the nearby vegetarian restaurant to convince myself with my brain: the bland lettuce salad is good for the body and soul; Hidden cleanliness.Occasionally in the evening, I went to an Ethiopian restaurant with my friend Anne to enjoy a meal of exotic cuisine with braised beef sandwiched in finger cakes.I love the way of life abroad, but fate always brings me back to Taiwan.

One day I bought a book titled "Time is an Illusion" by Chris Griscom, who is best friends with the famous actress Sally McLean and set up a " Light Institute" uses acupuncture to guide patients into past life regression.I have never been exposed to this field, since the fifty-three ginseng, I have to go to the end, so I bought a plane ticket, sent 500 dollars for medical treatment, and went to this strange town alone. I was housed by the "Light Institute" with an artisan who specializes in silver jewelry.Her interior layout is completely New Mexico style - Indian hand-carved log furniture, simple and thick, Kilim blankets have my favorite color, the dazzling sunlight pours down from the skylight, warming the sleeping black dog on the ground; The hostess told me its name was Peggy.As a "cat person", whenever I met a dog family in the past, I would be threatened by them baring their teeth. Peggy is the friendliest dog I have ever met.It followed me step by step, or lay peacefully at my feet, waiting for me to gently touch the beautiful leather coat with my hands.I think Peggy is also my teacher, and it dispelled my fear of dogs for many years; this fear came from an encounter my mother told me when I was a child.

When my mother lived alone in Geleshan, Sichuan, someone next door raised two big wolf dogs.One year, the bitch was pregnant and gave birth to a litter of puppies. The bitch devoted herself to protecting her paparazzi every day. The mother, who longed to have children, stood lonely in front of the window looking at the family picture.One day, a lady who lived nearby came to visit next door. When she heard that the bitch had given birth to a litter of puppies, she excitedly approached to watch it. Unexpectedly, the bitch thought that the stranger came with bad intentions, and desperately went to the lady’s bed. Pounce on the body, while pounced, while biting the opponent's flesh and blood with fangs.Standing in front of the window, the mother saw the woman turn from white to bloody, so anxious that she cursed and screamed alone in the room.

Read various classics (2) I became anxious after hearing this, and I asked her why she didn't run to save people, and she said: "Silly boy, that bitch is already crazy, running out is equivalent to death." Tears welled up in her eyes as she said this.The memories of my mother infected my young heart through her vivid expressions and words. From then on, when I saw a dog, I automatically felt an inexplicable panic. In the cell's memory bank, there was never a chance to unlock this password. Peggy in front of me, with her loyalty and gentleness, melted my defense mechanism, and we became inseparable friends. The stars at night in Galisteo crowded the Milky Way, and the smell of vicuna floated in the air.The silence is like a black curtain, set off by the ebb and flow of insects, and the cicadas in the nerves of my brain also joined this impromptu concert.This is really a remote town that doesn't even have pollution.The more countries you go to, the more you will be amazed at the migration instinct of human beings.I was alone in a wordless communication with this strange world with perfect ear connection. The treatment of past life regression officially started the next day. I walked from my residence to the clinic along the path in the village, and passed a farmhouse on the way, where six or seven big male dogs were raised. Peggy was clearly the most popular bitch in the village, and she always elicited strong reactions from the male dogs wherever she went.When the group of big male dogs saw Peggy, they immediately rushed forward wagging their tails. Although my defense mechanism against dogs has improved, my heart still beats faster when facing a group of large male dogs in the wild where no one is around.I walked forward slowly, pretending to be calm and shouting back: "Peggy! Let's go." Strange to say, the group of male dogs didn't know whether they sensed my panic or knew that I was going to take their girlfriend away. , I saw two of them staring at my legs and chasing after them. They made a "wow" sound before attacking, bared their fangs, and were about to bite my calf.At this time, I remembered that on the first day at the "Light Institute", I met a teacher who was teaching children to train horses. She said that animals have only two reactions, one is to attack, and the other is to flee; behind these two reactions is fear. If humans The best way to relieve animal aggression (including animal aggression in human nature) is to take a deep breath and keep calm.So I started to breathe deeply.Strangely enough, the male dog, which almost bit my calf, suddenly slowed down and stopped.I continued walking without looking back, and soon Peggy followed. I saw a family in front of me was already watching, and finally breathed a sigh of relief.This incident made me realize that "meditation can control violence". It was a white lady in pink silk and a white chiffon scarf that was retracing for me that day.I looked at the aura of worldliness all over her body, and I couldn't raise my confidence no matter what.My intuition told me that this "pink lady" might not be able to take me into any previous life, so I had to be true to my feeling and walked into Chris's office to ask for a replacement, just as Chris himself was pushing the door to enter the office, my sensitive perception , Immediately sensed the healing energy she radiated, and she quickly agreed to change to another assistant to do the backtracking for me. The second assistant is an Indian psychotherapist. She led me into a room with a fountain and skylight. We sat on the ground and got to know each other through conversation.Then she led me into a large room with a massage table, and she motioned me to close my eyes and lie on my back on the bed, taking deep breaths and visualizing to relax.She asked me to imagine the pure light shining into the body from the top of the head, washing away all obstacles and stale air from the soles of the feet. I found that this way of visualization is very similar to the Taoist "marrow washing exercise".Then she started massaging my belly, she put slow, deep pressure under the ribs and around the navel, I felt pain in those areas, she said it meant I had a lot of buried emotions to release; then she Guide me to sink into faint meditation with spiritual hints.After being quiet for a while, she hinted that I had returned to the state of conception. She asked me if I had any psychological reactions. The old habit of seeking harmony was repeated, and I felt that the lack of response would disappoint her, so I managed to squeeze out one or two "artificial images", which she said might be the first and most recent reincarnation of Backtracking. I told her "in that life" I was a girl performing arts in Tianqiao, Beijing, and my father in this life was also my father in that life. He seemed to be holding a bowl in his hand, standing in front of the crowd to collect money.When I was narrating, I was in the same mood as when I was acting in the past, and I felt that the script was written too poorly.Then the Indian lady asked me what other scenes appeared, and I reluctantly babbled: a flood submerged our farm, my father and I went our separate ways in the flood, and we were separated and never met again. Then I whispered the second reincarnation under her questioning, but the plot was so bad that I must suffer from amnesia.After the two past lives were finally finished, the Indian lady began to seriously analyze my subconscious mind.She said that from the images of those two lives, the relationship between me and my father was suddenly interrupted, so my parent-child and sexual relations in this life must have been affected by the previous life, and there was also a sudden interruption.At first glance, it sounds like these words are in line with the facts, but I know these facts without her telling them.Both Chris's own book and Sally McLean's books emphasize the unique acupuncture techniques used at this center.They claimed that when the gold needles were inserted into the acupuncture points of the brow chakra, the people receiving the treatment would automatically have the image of the past life; Sally also vividly described the scene of her entering Atlantis in the book. However, the woman in front of me is obviously using "free association", neither acupuncture nor real past life pictures, only my lack of imagination "nonsense".I couldn't help myself and began to protest frankly. I said that you have done false advertising, which is basically deception.The Indian lady justified some arguments to defend her own side. I felt that there was no room for discussion, so I told her that although I am a person who disposes of money as I please, at this moment, I want to take a responsible attitude and ask you to return the money I have already issued. A check for five hundred dollars.The Indian lady's face changed with anger. She said that she had worked in this center for several years and had treated people from all over the world, including some well-known people.A few days ago, a musician from Europe broke through a serious psychological barrier on the massage bed I was lying on, and was moved to tears.I said that for a person who has never looked deeply into himself, "free association" may be very effective, but for someone who has been searching inward for a long time, your method is very superficial.She left on the spot after hearing this, and I went back to the residence alone to play with Peggy.That night the Indian lady took a check for five hundred dollars and handed it back to me in person, and I told her that I admired her honesty and self-respect. Read various classics (3) The next day, I learned from a patient from Germany that the Pink Lady and the Indian Lady had handed in their resignations and would soon leave and return to their hometown.I found that I have been doing the boring thing of "kicking the hall" for many years. It is really not suitable for a person with my personality to set foot in other people's halls.No one likes to explore and test, most people just want to surrender; I decided to find my own way alone and alone. I found it! (1) Just when I dispelled all other intentions of relief, one day I finished shopping at the Bloomingdales department store in New York and was walking on the road. I looked up and saw a small bookstore in front of me. It was the Quest Bookstore (Quest Bookstore) that I had always wanted to find out. , I pushed the door open with excitement.This library was also home to the offices of the famous Theosophical Society.I browsed aimlessly through the various religious, philosophical and metaphysical works on the shelves.I didn't wear glasses at that time, and I couldn't see things clearly at a distance, but I was inexplicably attracted by a photo on a bookshelf in the distance.Squinting up, I walked up to the photo of an Indian boy who looked like a girl, and the title of the book was Krishnamurti: The Years of Awakening.I didn't know who this person was at the time. Seeing that the revolving bookshelf was full of his works, he was obviously a person of weight.Every book on the shelf has a picture of him on the cover, and his face has changed dramatically from youth to old age, as if he were not the same person at each stage; especially prominent is Popu Jayaka ( Cover photo of The Life of Krishnamurti by Pupul Jayakar.In that photo, he should be about fifty years old. I think it is the most beautiful face I have ever seen—this face does not seem to allow the slightest ambiguity and compromise, and the penetrating eyes seem to be looking at another person from a distance. The world; usually there is always something dreamy in such eyes, but his distant gaze is vigilant and knowing.I can only say that I was fascinated by that face, I bought all the books on the rotating shelf, and returned to my home in SOHO to start a local reading.There is no kitsch nonsense in Krishnamurti's book, and every sentence hits the core, piercing human self-deception and ignorance to the point, and his insight has explored the bottom of human consciousness.Like countless people in the world who have been inspired by his words, I know that Wusan Shen's journey has come to an end.I found it! Kermit's teachings seem to be the original viewpoints of philosophy, Zen, Madhyamaka and Buddhism, but the level and subtlety they cover seem to go beyond the above categories; basically he is a teacher who cannot be classified. His teachings are, in a nutshell, the ultimate truth.Because the ultimate truth has transcended self-centered activities and penetrated into the vacuum of selflessness, it cannot be expressed in words.Traditional religious organizations mostly start with intuitive "enlightenment" for unspeakable truths, but Kirk's method of explanation is to cut in from the opposite side, using language tools that modern people can easily understand through dialogue to reveal the truth in consciousness layer by layer.Since it is impossible to explain it from the positive side, then from the negative side, all kinds of illusions, symbols, names, ideologies, values, dogmas, ideals, sense of time, struggle and duality should be eliminated one by one.When all the nets of ignorance are untied, there is no need for any deliberate practice or exercise, and there is no need to establish any viewpoints and concepts. The human mind can naturally rest in the state of liberated emptiness.When the time is right, the wind of enlightenment will come uninvited. This is what Kleiner called "the way of inaction".But inaction always gives people a feeling of not knowing how to start, it seems too easy, and it is difficult for human beings who are accustomed to making a difference to understand the state of mind of mere existence, and always want to grasp something and pursue something, so energy It is gradually worn out in the process.However, what can be grasped and pursued is not the truth, it is just an illusion that we believe to be true.Kirschner’s words prompted me to reflect on my process of pursuing the truth. Yes, the pursuit itself is deviating from the truth of the facts. Although the pursuit can also bring hope and pleasure, and the pursuit can also satisfy the desire to conquer since childhood, but the pursuit After all, it projects a sense of time and the illusion of the future, thus ignoring the truth of the present moment - the truth includes the inner and outer situations, that is, thoughts, emotions and bodily sensations in the heart or consciousness, as well as what is happening outside. interactions with various relationships. For the understanding of the "now", traditional religious organizations usually use Zen seven activities and the master guides the students to gradually deepen; The next best thing is the convenient method.With an uncompromising spirit, the net of ignorance first uncovered by Kremlin is the most widely and longest-spread theory of "convenience" since ancient times.Kirchner pointed out that the ultimate state of human spiritual evolution is to realize reality, truth and bliss, while the most common ways of traditional practice and meditation are convenient methods such as reciting mantras, chanting Buddha, and visualization.Kirchner believes that such convenient methods are not only useless, but also harmful. In his book "Human Imperatives", he pointed out in detail what is real meditation and what is wrong meditation.He said: "Meditation is neither repeated chanting, nor supernatural experience, nor deliberate cessation of chanting. Although mantras and rosaries can calm delusion, in essence, this is just a form of self-hypnosis. It is better to take tranquilizers." never mind." I recalled that when I first came into contact with religion, the mages taught me almost all the methods of reciting mantras and visualization, or else focusing on focusing and delusional thoughts through following and counting breaths.At the beginning, these methods were very effective, and Benz's thinking activities quickly quieted down, but soon returned to the original state, so I had to count breaths, chant the mantra again, and wrestle back and forth like this repeatedly.After a period of time, I began to have doubts: Is it possible to be free by doing this?The answer is that not only can it not help me out, but it has further created even greater conflicts, because when I talk to people, I am thinking of mantras, and when I am doing something, I can’t concentrate on the work in front of me, and I am always thinking about it. fix this thing.What K said fully confirmed my suspicions, so I read on to see what else he had to reveal.He said: "Blind believers and dogmatic people can't enter the field of meditation anyway. Freedom and freedom are the first conditions for meditation, and it means completely letting go of the false morals and value standards of society. This is the essence of meditation. Start", "Meditation is the spontaneous and innocent situation of the moment, such a mind is always independent", "Once you are a Hindu, you cannot be independent. Similarly, other religions cannot be independent. One is bound by commitment How can a person be so independent? Being independent means being unaffected, innocent, free and complete. If you can be truly independent, you will be able to hide in the city, and you will always be an outsider. Only when you can be independent will you have complete action and cooperation; for love is complete". I found it! (2) After reading Kerry’s long list of insights, I’m glad that I’m a slippery noodle. My heart has not been restricted by anyone or any organization. At the same time, I also realize that the process of pursuing independently is far more difficult than joining an organization. However, truth, the lily in the deep mountains, is by no means easy to reach, and it may be difficult to find it without a little spirit of experimentation and adventure.Then Kristen further extended the relationship between freedom and violence.He said: "Freedom is a kind of infinite space. When there is not enough space, violence will definitely appear." "The scope of social culture is too narrow, and there is no freedom at all. It is because of the lack of freedom that order is disordered."These words made me think that the education we have received since we were young really has no space. Parents do not respect your autonomy, right to grow up, and right to trial and error.Teachers blindly indoctrinate you with various concepts of right and wrong, black and white, and right and wrong; you only listen to them during class, and there is no discussion during the process, and doubts are not encouraged. If students have doubts, most of them will be regarded as rebels .In politics, freedom of speech is not complete before the Kuomintang lifts the law, let alone the establishment of an opposition party to check and balance the ruling party.The institution of marriage turns free love into an inflexible lifelong commitment. No wonder there is violence and disorder everywhere in families, schools, and society. Krishnamurti's Insights (1) Kirschner's truth is obviously people-oriented. Unlike traditional religious teachers who are always committed to maintaining collective order, he always advises people to endure humiliation, observe precepts, do good deeds, and submit to the virtues recognized by society; he has a deeper insight into When there is no room for freedom in the human heart, repression and disloyalty to one's own truth breed violence and disorder, and the collective order disintegrates.After all, the so-called macro terms such as country, society, and nation are nothing more than the combination of many repressed individuals.However, the war of individuals against collectives has never stopped since ancient times. The world has not improved due to rebellion and revolution, and human beings have not really changed because of this.On this macro issue, Kirschner also has his insights. He believes that human beings' sense of self and relationship with other beings create society and the universe, so the individual is the universe.He argues that neither social movements nor political reforms can radically transform the world unless everyone mutates rapidly.He said: "The system can never change human beings, and the system is always changed by human beings." Someone asked him how the power of the ego can change society and the universe, and he replied: "The surging water of the Ganges is made up of countless small water droplets. Converged. All major movements that change humanity begin with some ego." But how does the ego begin?As soon as the word "how" was uttered, it already implied the method and the heart of pursuit, and Ke's keen mind immediately saw the trap in it.He said: "The word how does not refer to a method, but a kind of exploration, but what is change? Is there really a change? Or can you ask this question only after a complete change? ... Change means Moving from an existing situation to a different situation. Is the different situation the opposite of the existing situation, or is it something else entirely different? If it is just the opposite of the existing situation, it is not different at all... Like Cold, hot, high and low; there is opposite in the middle, and there is positive in the opposite; they exist because of contrast. However, even if there are differences in degrees, all things belonging to the comparative level are still the same in essence, so they change The opposite is that nothing has changed at all. Even if the act of change gives you a sense of improvement, it is still an illusion.” This long passage made me start to reflect on the problems of traditional cultivation.When we are cultivating hard, our hearts are actually filled with the desire to become a certain ideal state, and this desire itself will make us stand still.No wonder some of the old ginseng I have come into contact with who work hard to meditate or do Qiqi do not give people a sense of mature personality and clear wisdom. Instead, they have a worldly sense of competition and competition. narrow.Many years later, people in Taiwan began to introduce the original Theravada Dharma, such as the works of the Buddhist monks and Achaan Chah. Many people suddenly realized that the observation made by the Buddha more than 2,500 years ago - that human beings are upside down - refers to It is the desire in the human heart to become better. After confirming with Buddhism, people began to understand that the teachings of Kelvin and the spirit of Buddhism basically lead to the same goal by different routes. You even found that the insights of Lao Zhuang and Zhuangzi are also of the same purpose.Then Klein pointed out the true meaning of the sacred, he said: "You divide human life into sacred and profane, moral and immoral. This kind of division is the breeding ground of misfortune and violence. Everything is sacred, otherwise there is nothing the same Things are sacred", "Sacred things have no attributes. Stones in temples, images of gods in churches, these symbols are not holy. People call it holy because of their complex desires, fears and longings, but such sacred remain in the realm of the mind; they are made of the mind, but the mind is nothing new and unholy." "The word holy is originally derived from whole, which means health and sanity. . . . No matter how much the mind that operates in the mind longs for sacred things, it still operates within the scope of time, within the scope of fragmentation. So can the heart be whole and unbroken?" These words reminded me and made me realize that my thinking activities always fall into criticism, ridicule and confrontation. These instantaneous and never-ending micro-conflicts are basically completely ignored by us if we do not have the ability to reflect .Such ignorance and omission is what Buddhism refers to as unconsciousness and deep sleep.The complete and unbroken mind that Kelvin refers to is the awareness or awareness that does not choose, condemn, judge, compare, distinguish, or interpret, that is, pure contemplation; in Buddhist terms In other words, it is the view of reality in the middle way, the view of truth and righteousness, or the Zen "there is no difficulty in the ultimate path, but I hate to choose" and "look straight down".What Kirschner emphasizes is letting go of all predestined relationships. Under the erroneous interpretation of traditional religious organizations, this letting go of all predestined relationships makes people think that practicing Taoism means abandoning the world, abstinence, living in isolation, and ascetic self-abuse. Worldly experience produces a sense of shame and guilt, as if only religious organizations and people in these organizations are holy and innocent.This kind of thinking has contributed to the over-inflated cultural status of religious organizations. From ancient times to the present, there have been more than 5,000 (and still increasing) wars caused by differences in beliefs and sects. Therefore, Kremlin boldly pointed out: "The world has always been accustomed to follow the traditional way. In fact, this is the beginning of our inner uneasiness. Because what we pursue is always the promise of others, and we follow the carefree guarantee guaranteed by others without thinking." a spiritual life of concern. Most of us are opposed to tyrannical authoritarian systems, and it is incredible that we accept the authority or tyranny of others internally and allow them to warp our minds and lives. But if we begin to reject all , not in thought, but in deed, rejecting all religious authority, all manners and dogmas, we immediately find ourselves isolated, and begin to be enemies of society as a whole, instead of respectable and noble persons However, as long as the issue of face is involved, it is impossible to approach the infinite and unguessable reality.” When I read this sentence, I couldn't help the tears welling up. What a needless heart this is!If a person has even the slightest scruples and cannot expose the truth to such a thorough degree, such compassion is not easy to be understood by those who have fallen into the trap of saving face. Krishnamurti's Insights (2) The biggest burden of China, an ancient nation for thousands of years, is the problem of face. Not only does it have something to do with outward pursuit of material comfort, but even all ethics, morality, and dogma are mixed with face; the more competitive it is , the more perfectionist a person is, the more he wants to save face.I think back to how many interpersonal disputes in the process of growing up were caused by loss of face.The strange thing is that face is just an image or image created by us. Why do we take it seriously and even sacrifice our lives to protect it?Is it because people have a tendency to feel inferior and self-denial?Yet this inferiority complex must come from a desire to be better.In the discussion of this issue, David Bohm, a scientist who studies quantum mechanics, conducted a complete and detailed discussion with Kerch, which was later combined into the book "Beyond Time and Space".Bohm argues that once humans have the ability to make better tools, they by extension think they need to get better; the human mind naturally always projects higher goals.Then Kremlin raised the issue of the sense of time, which is what Buddhism calls the mind of the past, the mind of the present, and the mind of the future; when people start to look forward and think ahead, they will have expectations and regrets, so the inner battles, struggles, conflicts and conflicts Confusion poured out one after another.Tracing this far, we have found that the ego or ego is the root of all problems, and the next question is, how do I get rid of this I? As soon as the word "how" appears, we are back to the question of method.Religious people from ancient times to the present have tried to break the cage of the self through certain methods and realize the infinite power of the universe. They have tried asceticism, living in isolation, and meditation. They have tried everything they can, but no effort has really reached purpose.Bohm then asked, "Is it because all the effort is still limited to becoming?" Kerr replied, "Yes, but people never grasped that. They had to let it all go." This refers to letting go of the sense of time in your mind, and only performing pure observation and listening in every moment.Because Kerr does not emphasize deliberate cultivation (I just mentioned that there must be a desire to become in deliberate cultivation, so you are still trapped in self-centered activities), he pointed out that only by maintaining an open and pure view in the activities that are naturally carried out in daily life Only by listening and listening can we comprehend the present moment without doing anything.He said: "Is there a voice in your head when you listen, or is there no noise or thoughts at all? Suppose you want to express something beyond words, but if I can't listen in complete silence, I can't understand the deep meaning of what you are saying." Connotation. Now is the present moment, which is full of time and thoughts. Once the thoughts stop, the present moment has a completely different meaning. In other words, the present moment is nothingness, and nothingness is like the number zero, which contains all Numbers are included, so nothing is everything. But we are very afraid of going into nothing.” "Emptiness encompasses the entire universe, and there is no longer my petty fear, pain, and anxiety. Emptiness means the compassion of the entire universe, and compassion is emptiness, so emptiness is the supreme wisdom." The emptiness that Kelvin refers to is exactly the same as the ultimate truth of Buddhism and Taoism. It is a state of great wisdom and simplification, so Kelvin said: "If a person can really be simple, he can understand the intricacies. But we start out complex, so we never know the simple. Our brains are trained to know the complex and want answers to those complex questions. We cannot see the simple truth These words remind me of what Lao Tzu said, "In order to learn more and more, for the sake of Dao, you will lose more and more, so that you will do nothing. Do nothing and do everything."There is nothing wrong with a complex knowledge system, but before people know their own truth, such knowledge will only complicate things. However, once they realize the emptiness and inaction of loss and loss, knowledge becomes a tool that can be used flexibly ; In other words, it is man who uses knowledge rather than being enslaved by it. Kelvin still maintains a consistent middle way for the energies naturally displayed by human beings such as sexual desire, greed, hatred, ignorance, and fear, neither repelling, nor suppressing, nor indulging, but just following the manifestation of these energies, With mere observation or seeing.If you see through repelling, repressing, or indulging in self-centered activities at the moment, and immediately turn into emptiness or selflessness, this is turning consciousness into wisdom, and troubles are the flavor of Bodhi. Beauty and love. Like a benevolent and radical wise man, Kelvin helps the readers to realize the epiphany and make a sudden change in the up-and-down and approaching revelations, and to enter the roadless country and incredible situation he has already been in.My heart was shaken by his sincerity. My doubts and observations about human nature over the years were finally clarified and confirmed in his words.My utter dissatisfaction with the world began to settle like volcanic ash.The thousand-year-old woman finally found her way home. However, the most outstanding religious figure in Shaw's mouth, the person Henry Miller most wanted to get acquainted with, the reappearance of Buddha in Huxley's mind, and the incarnation of Christ in Gibran's mind, do not exist or exist in the consciousness of Taiwanese people. unknown people.After I decided to return to Taiwan, I must discuss with Cao Youfang, Jian Zhizhong, and Wang Jiqing how to translate and introduce Kerry's teachings in a planned way.