Chapter 37 Remember the night of May 3rd

Still suffering from the inexplicable fire of love burning in my heart, neither walking nor sitting.It is always the battle within oneself.Although this is inevitable in everyone's life, this mutual ebb and flow seems to be able to maintain the balance between reason and emotion, and I have suffered a lot!Obviously there are ups and downs, but I still stand on the same line. The reason is that I try my best to inject all the troubles I can bear into the empty space of my heart, so that I can maintain this normal state.But what's the point of supporting me like this? Ah, love, I used to know it from those books, and now I understand how easy it is to explain!With all the magic power of words, depending on the poet's careful selection and handling with skillful craftsmanship, what can be said is limited!A poet who suffers from unrequited love can use a huge volume of poems to explain his pain of wanting to kiss a woman on the lips but not being able to get it, but this comment is still a very simple one!

From this point of view, my diary can be stopped. But just to record the word "beauty", what a huge wave of fury can be stirred in my heart!I will encourage myself to spare as much time as I can while thinking and breathing, to use words to preserve the scene of the waves breaking up, the scene of a drop of water being wiped out, in this book!The material form of beauty will lose its moving lines one day and will eventually be wiped out; my heart will also be weakened by age.I think this record, if I can hold the crumbs of my mood, then these crumbs can be used for me to find this beautiful old dream again in the future when my hair is full of gray hair!

In order to improve my strength to move forward in a kind of female relationship, I happened to send Qiqi as a representative, and invited me to dance in the hall, and I went. First, I accompanied Qiqi to do a British governor's nerd dance, standing up and jumping for joy.Followed by two female guests.Then accompany Miss Yu.Then accompany Chrysanthemum.Accompanied by Chrysanthemum for a long time, this little thing just licked my nose with the tip of her tongue. It was Chrysanthemum that was trembling all over.The small and soft waist wrapped under the green Parisian satin cheongsam, together with the perfectly curved buttocks, make my heart flutter.She took this opportunity to boldly use those charming long eyes to oppress me fearlessly, and I surrendered.This is when I saw from her eyes that she felt that I had become the second seventh brother, so I ran away with an excuse.

When I came back to the house, I was only intoxicated by the warm fragrance, which came from Chrysanthemum.But as soon as I left Chrysanthemum, I had already transferred to my aunt and came to have fun. One day, I will ask Aunt Juzi and Aunt No matter who they are to give me a chance to smell this strange mixture of sweat and powder to my full! I thought: The old man in the market can really be worshiped as a god!This is at least a good advisor for my future.It was only then that I realized how accurate the hexagrams for two women to "occupy" one man or "compete" for one man are to me.