Chapter 32 Remember April 14th and 15th

The smooth approach exceeded my expectations, and the distress became deeper as the hope progressed. I became a different person, the loveless and distressed Tunzo I used to joke with instead of sympathy with mockery.It's not that I can't love it, I'm only worried about the role I will play in the near future.I want to play smart and sophisticated but not at all.While imitating a tragic protagonist, embellishing the whole with the tenderness of love, I can see that I am as rash as a cook.Yes, I have adopted the method of a cook to a colleague's aunt, and I have conquered the grandmother with some slightly rash attentions.I made her see that I was a hero, at least in love.This stake of love, I believe, is stronger in her heart than in mine.From a smile, a speechless moment, I have strengthened my confidence.

And because of this faith, it troubles me even more.I found my cowardice yesterday, the day before yesterday, on a kind of trek (although I drank countless glasses, I am not very drunk).Coupled with the experience of host and guest families in the past few days, I saw some inseparable relationships that I hadn't seen back then.In the meantime, I'm still unwilling to part with my whole friendship here, and I seem to see that if I let the facts develop, there will be an inevitable result of physical rapport.The responsibility of others is the possibility of sacrificing the body to lust.I finally backed off.Since the tenth, I have lived in a kind of hiding.But vaguely, it often seems that there is a hand trying to catch me.It was also like this unknowable hand once caught me and then let it go again. Although I didn't squeeze it tightly, I struggled to break free, but there was nothing I could do.I couldn't struggle, and I was afraid to move forward, so I fell under this delicate authority, becoming a paralyzed sick prisoner who couldn't move.

one A cough across the wall made my heart beat.When the slight sound of footsteps trembled in my ear nerves, it was like a sharp spear piercing my heart.I don't think that after I conquered others with some rudeness and hospitality, I used some inadvertent actions to make me fall to the ground! Today is fourteen, counting the days since I fell into the pit, it has been two weeks.The gloomy weather and the insomnia that come at night have contributed to my bed-loving habit.It was eleven o'clock when I opened my eyes on the bed.How can I sleep till this time?I was also surprised. But I still can't get up.Beside the bed, there is a copy of "Small Island" that Qiqi put yesterday, so I just picked it up and read it.A person approached the window, and my book fell and was crushed unknowingly.Before I looked up, I could detect that the velvet curtain outside the large horizontal window near the bed was being moved by a hand.I took Qiqi's behavior and closed my eyes on purpose, and the person who was peeping through the gap in the curtain said: "I haven't woken up yet."

"It's really changed, is it always sick and unhappy?" I heard a person say from a little distance away. I knew it was two people, so I opened my eyes immediately. "Uncle Zeng, Uncle Zeng, it's almost twelve o'clock, can't you afford it? If you don't, I won't be waiting for dinner!" It was Qiqi's voice. I opened my eyes slightly, and saw the child's small round face flat against the glass.This is the youngest guest, and because he is alone, he has stayed here for a long time.The age is eight years old.He has short black hair and a small round and white face.A pair of big black eyes are perfectly placed under the slender eyebrows, proving that this cute and lovable child, although his parents were taken away by heaven at a young age, can still be loved by many others. so as not to lose her liveliness.This child is as smart as a dog and weak as a sheep, so everyone dotes on her like a treasure. "Open your eyes, open your eyes," Qiqi yelled and smiled, and saw another face approaching the window at the same time.

I got out of bed and did something smart and stupid.I also put my mouth on the window, and actually kissed Qiqi through the window.Without courage, I moved my lips a little further, although Ming saw that she had no intention of avoiding her. "Hurry up and get up, Song's mother is irresponsible for her food. The rotten cabbage we ate yesterday must be eaten again today." He said with a smile. "Then Uncle Zeng will be fined, we don't care!" "I don't care! I don't care, whoever is younger will eat cabbage!" In order to avoid Qiqi's slap through the glass, she deliberately shifted her face to the left.

Apparently, Miss Qin, who was standing farther away, would know, so she immediately left the window and walked down the corridor.However, blushing.Oh, this peach-colored thin cloud made my peach-colored dreams clearer, I no longer pretended to be afraid, I stuck my lips to the place where her face was pasted, and hit Qiqixu more than ten times. . After washing up and not having time to shave, she urged Qiqi to go to the restaurant. I ate.The lilacs were in full bloom in the yard, and everyone came out to see the lilacs.Everyone sat on the little vermilion chairs under the corridor. "This flower blooms and thank you and blooms again."

Maybe it was intentional, maybe it was unintentional. "It is true that flowers will always bloom, but people are really getting older day by day." "Don't show your face!" "Don't show your face," Qiqi learned to say. "Isn't this group of people just a little older than you?" Everyone just laughed out loud. "Uncle Zeng won't go to the yamen today, let's go to your room with aunt to play chess." The so-called "get what you want" is this matter. It seems that I have a disease. Recently, I am willing to live alone, so that I can think about the root of my disease.But playing chess is my medicine.I boldly obeyed.

I lost.Qiqi was so happy to lose that she jumped wildly. "Why, it's a net loss!" Not only chess, I lost all.But I could see the air of a winner in me, and I felt from my loss that she had lost to me in another matter. I specially found some witty words as tools to make her feel that my mouth was attached to her heart.I also tried my best to get close to her, so that she gradually got used to this part of contact, and removed her timidity.Finally our feet meet under the table. Touch, there is a reddish face in the white, I can see the beating of this woman's heart, I can kiss that cheek a thousand times.