Chapter 31 April nineteenth

I palm my mouth with my conscience.He deliberately took out the photo of his wife and placed it on the table in order to repent of his mistakes in the past few days.But what is this worth? Chrysanthemum comes to play chess, loses and moves pawns, so she is called in for help.It's my turn to lose, that's for sure.Consciously or unconsciously, I took some paths that were not good for me, in order to please her. "No, you lost to her on purpose, and you were very cruel to me," Juzi said, looking at the person who killed me. She just smiled. "I went down with her, and Zilu couldn't help but keep me in order. No matter what, they were all defeated."

"As soon as it's in front of me, it's dung chess," she said, laughing even more. Ju Zi deliberately mocked, "I don't know what it is, there must be a reason for it." "What's the reason? Tell me!" "I won't say, these people think that I am not very good at chess, but you (referring to her) are very good, that's all." Chrysanthemum may have seen our situation. There was no need to play chess, Juzi sat on the bed with her and combed her hair. A woman can fascinate a man with just her hair.Ugh, what am I thinking about all this hair?I remembered things that had nothing to do with hair.These hairs, in a certain scripture, seem to be said to be able to tie up an elephant, and at this time they tied my heart and led me to fall into a valley.

"Only a woman's hair is the most beautiful thing." Juzi had her hair cut, obviously this has nothing to do with Juzi. After hearing this, she pursed her mouth pretending to be contemptuous, which made her more attractive. Chrysanthemum is going to play with me again.With her here, I also admit defeat.Unexpectedly, the loser Juzi said that I did it on purpose, and I shouldn't move casually. "What should I do? I'll admit defeat, isn't that okay?" "That won't work," Chrysanthemum said. "Then I'll be careful to pay for Miss Juzi's game!"

She looked at the side with her hands behind her back. Chrysanthemum was wrong, and every chess move had to be regretted more than three times before it counted.She seemed bored, and went to the window. "Second young master, whose photo is this?" "Auntie is so polite to call you the second young master." Juzi moved a cart and landed on my cannon. "Don't regret it." I said, "Don't regret it once you leave!" "No. Never." "Never do it!" Chrysanthemum pushed the chess and said it was a loss. "You have to get angry when you win, and you have to get angry when you lose. It's really hard for young ladies and grandmas!"

"Why did you get me involved again for no reason? Did I also send you—" "You—" I said, and pointed my finger.It was far away, but her face was flushed. It seems that Shang Baoyu had a chess game, but what does it matter?I am not Baoyu, but Chrysanthemum is like Shi Xiangyun.This is nothing short of a joke.Looking at Chrysanthemum's appearance, she may not be a little sour.She was still looking at the photo, and Chrysanthemum walked over. "Who is this of yours?" She struck up a conversation and took a photo of his wife and asked. Ju Zi replied, "It's the second sister-in-law, his—(pointing to me, but I make faces with Ju) wife."

"Oh, what a beauty this man is." "Second brother, I said that the second sister-in-law looks like a person." I understand what Chrysanthemum means. She took the photo of his wife and looked at it, and immediately released it, then looked at Juzi, "Miss Ju, this looks like you!" "It's like me, it's not like me! I said it's like you, it's not bad at all." Juzi was really bad, and asked me deliberately, "Second brother, don't you think that my aunt is a bit like the second sister-in-law?" "Where is your second sister-in-law so beautiful?"

"You are all ghosts!" After saying that, he left. Only Chrysanthemum was left with me in the room.Chrysanthemum is funny when she thinks of it. Juzi said, "Second brother, I think she is—" "Don't talk nonsense." "I'm not lying! Do you think I can't see it? She's in love (that's a very soft word) with someone. I'll bet anyone. If you don't believe me, I'll scam her." "Who?" "Still asking on purpose! Don't you understand? If you want to do this on purpose, I'll go and sue Miss Yu. Miss Yu will yell out for you. Can you hide this matter from me?"

Chrysanthemum said she was going to leave, but I caught her. "Don't go, you should be a good person if you help me!" "I'm here to help others..." "You're sour. When I see you talk a lot, I'm afraid you'll make her unhappy. Why bother? I'll help you when I can in other matters." "What can I do for you? I don't—" "You don't, you are with the seventh brother, I have a book in my heart. You think I don't know..." Ju Zi didn't want to finish listening, so she ran away. I was alone in the room.The photo of his wife was laid flat on the table, and he picked it up and hid it in the box.My wife failed to help me resist the attack of foreign love, but instead made me go in a bad direction.

Chrysanthemum is really a very smart person, don't expect her to be able to see the relationship between us!But at the same time, Chrysanthemum has a private affair with Chrysanthemum, and I know all about it.Everyone knows how to do their own things, or no one will hinder anyone. It came again, quietly, like a ghost, first a hand and a head appeared... "Where's the chrysanthemum?" I agreed, but I still asked Chrysanthemum, not coming in.It's all excuses.Maybe she saw Chrysanthemum coming out of my room, which has another meaning. "Come in." I didn't say I was there or I wasn't there.

just come in.Timidly, strangely, he walked in slowly, which made me short of breath. I looked at her, and she looked at me, the way she looked at me at a certain dinner table.She cleverly pretended to be grandiose and walked to the table, leaning on the back of the chair with her hand.Between us is a chair as the Great Wall.With assurance, her color gradually softened. "Please sit down!" "I'm here to find Miss Ju." I just laugh.This is obviously nonsense. "Looking for Chrysanthemum? What's the matter?" The so-called "speechless glance makes people ecstasy", she added a detailed explanation for this sentence with agility and life.I temporarily figured out the duty of my two arms at this moment, and in a crude and sudden movement that slightly surprised her, she became the person in my arms.Needless to say, I now understood what my lips were supposed to do.

"How are you doing?" I didn't answer, but used my lips to repeat the wanton and repeated movements to explain the answer to me. "Someone is coming." She put her hands against my head. "No, no one is afraid!" Who am I afraid of?This is not a bad thing.I have been sleeping in someone else's arms for five or six years, but this time, is it a sin?I believe that if Ju Zi or the seventh brother came at this time, I would still be like this, and I would not have to let go.Is what I did a sin?I am young, she is also young, come to kiss together, celebrate the existence of our lives, come to love each other, who can interfere? one Personally, I finally cried.I understand that this is by no means crying because of her displeasure.These tears are the reward for a warm kiss. For fear of people coming, she stopped immediately, and big tears rolled down her cheeks. I should always smile at the memory of my successful supporting role in this scene!I saw the tears that others shed for me, and I sucked them dry with my mouth. "You killed me." "No, I love you, and I fulfill you at the same time! I let you know what love is all about, and I made you discover some youthful truths in me, and I am so bold because of you. You know my mean?" "I understand. It's not that I don't love you. I'm afraid. As soon as they know—" "I'll fully admit that this was my act, and it has nothing to do with you." "I'm only afraid of chrysanthemums." "Her? It doesn't matter if she knows! I will let her know in the future. " Not to mention, this time someone put a soft thing on my lips.I did it with all my strength, and on her cheek I made some hotter-than-wife contact. "you love Me?" "Yes, forever." "I have loved you for a long time." "..." Qiqi called her aunt from afar, and we regained the distance between the chairs. Make up for my faults in my actions with tears.It was getting late at this time, and there was only one person in the room.I can remember the position of the chair by the table, as if mocking me, the corners of which glow faintly in the gray dusk. "Did I do something? Is it a dream or..." I was still skeptical. I laughed alone in tears.I did something bad, but I have nothing to repent of, and in a few kisses I carved my love more strongly on the impression of a young woman.I am out of my wife's watchful eyes, and the new betrayal has become an unfaithful man.I've come to play a joke on my own feelings.I'm mad. Can't play, let alone sleep.I wrote a letter for my wife, but in the letter I lied to my wife, saying that I only missed her on this day, worried about her life, and was lazy in doing things. "I have loved you a long time ago" is still in my ears. "It's been a long time ago," Alas, there is such a person, and there is a woman who has long been secretly in love in my heart. I don't know how many tears I should pay for this sentence! I love someone, yes, I love a woman who is a concubine—and she loves me too. What am I writing in this book?No need.A smile, a squint for a while, a soft and trembling words, even if I write a hundred thousand words a year, I can't describe them properly.The complex emotions in my own heart, which are neither sad nor happy, what words can I use to keep them in this notebook?I am not Goethe who wrote The Sorrows of Young Werther, I have no such genius.I'm not... Thank God!Today, I have to touch one of the beautiful qualities assigned by your subordinates to the women of this world with my working hand, and I have kissed it with my clean mouth. Give me another chance, let me do something more godly and holy in front of you and by you.I knelt by the bed in thanks and prayer, and shed some tears again. I don't hide anymore.I try my best to move forward.I want to go right into the man's heart and see a soul brutally crushed by money.I want to see this sick soul regain her vigor and health gradually under the warmth of my love.My actions are to save a person, so that she knows what she should do and what she can do. She has the right to give happiness to others, and I also have the right to enjoy the happiness that others give her. This is not an excuse.