Chapter 67 You can never think of 14-(Zheng Xiaofang)

I never imagined that Xue Feng was already in love with another girl! After reading his letter, I couldn't help but threw myself on the bed and burst into tears. All dreams were finally shattered, and I originally pointed out that there was a miracle—one day, he would suddenly appear in front of me... But, how could I not have thought of today's ending? Yes, since Xue Feng is determined to stay in the city, he will never leave there.He will live there for the rest of his life, how can he combine with me again?Of course he's going to find another girl—sooner or later, it's going to happen!

In fact, I already knew this in my heart, but I just didn't want to admit it emotionally.But now that this thing actually happened, it is still so unbelievable, is it true? Really... Now that it has become a reality, there is no need to think about all the causes and consequences.Just suffer in silence!Quietly endure and let this pain become numb! For two days, I have been lying in bed. There is nothing wrong with the body, but everything seems to be uncomfortable.I only eat one meal a day, and I only eat a few bites in a meal-the yellow rice is chewed in my mouth like sand... On the third day, when I was still lying on the kang, I heard someone knock on my door.

I reluctantly went down and opened the door latch, and saw Wu Youxiong coming in.I know he went on a business trip a few days ago. "... I just came back, I heard you are sick?" He stood on the ground awkwardly and asked me.I didn't speak, and pointed to the chair in front of the table for him to sit.I leaned helplessly on the edge of the Kang.He sat down cautiously, looked at me uneasily, and said, "Do you want me to drive you to the hospital in the city with a tractor?" "No. I'm not sick..." I couldn't help but burst into tears. To be honest, I wasn't afraid that Yuxiong would see my tears.

I saw him flustered, and hurriedly stood up and said, "Lie down and rest..." After finishing speaking, he left awkwardly.I didn't keep him.But in my heart I wish he could stay a little longer. About an hour later, I heard another knock at the door. I opened the door and saw that it was still Wu Youxiong—he brought in a bowl of noodles with two poached eggs in it.He put the noodles on the bowl and said: "You can eat some. I heard from the people in the kitchen that you haven't eaten for two days..." I was deeply moved and glanced at him, then at the bowl of noodles .

I suddenly felt really hungry. I picked up the bowl of noodles and asked him, "Can you cook?" "What a fool..." While I was eating noodles, he squatted on the threshold, took out a palm-long tobacco pot, and lowered his head to smoke.At this time, I heard the workers in the yard clamoring and beating the dishes—— Apparently it was time for dinner.I heard a worker yelling: "Technician Zheng hasn't been out for a few days, and I heard he's sick? What kind of sickness, this man doesn't often get sick!" "That's a baby! Don't you see that the stomach is all there?"

This is Accountant Hou's vicious voice! I heard the roar of laughter from the workers... I was trembling with anger, and put the bowl on the table at once! Wu Youxiong knocked off the soot twice, his lips trembled suddenly. I heard the worker say again: "She has no one yet, where did she get a doll!" It was Accountant Hou's vicious voice again: "The man just made her a bowl of noodles, and there was a lot of vinegar in it... The baby loves sour food!" Everyone started laughing again! Wu Youxiong stood up with a "huh" and rushed out. I wanted to stop him, but it was too late.

Immediately a fight broke out outside.I heard Accountant Hou screaming like killing a pig: "Help..." Someone shouted: "Quick! Blood in the nose! Bring a basin of cold water..." I originally wanted to hold back and not go out, but I was afraid that Youxiong would cause some trouble, so I ran out.When I came to the yard, I saw several people surrounding Accountant Hou, washing his face.They pressed his head into a basin of water—presumably to stop the nosebleed.Youxiong squatted aside, wrinkled his head and smoked a pipe. After a while, Accountant Hou straightened up like a drowned rat, covering his cheek with one hand.Youxiong's anger seemed to be still there, so he rushed towards Accountant Hou again, and the people next to him hurriedly grabbed him.He shouted to Accountant Hou: "If you dare to fart again, I'll beat you to death!" Accountant Hou didn't dare to make a sound anymore, he didn't even eat, and went back to the dormitory in despair.

People now boast that Youxiong is a hero, but Hou Accountant is a bear—in this world of men with little culture, fists are an important threat.I turned back to the dormitory, feeling an indescribable feeling in my heart. Life is harsh.It takes a powerful force to reform nature; but it requires a stronger force to overcome man's own weakness, and I think I should stop crying on the bed anyway—a sense of responsibility took me from Called back from emotional pain.First of all, I thought of my flower stick-has any livestock gone in and ruined it these days? ...Hey, I may not have the energy to run those dozen sand dunes for the time being...

The next afternoon, I still struggled to get out of the room to check my flower sticks.I walked through the willow and Artemisia bushes, and walked to the big sand beam in the distance. The sun is shining hotly on the earth, and Damingsha in the distance looks like a burning fire.It hadn't rained for many days, and the crops in the farmland were sunburned.The ears of grain are stuck in their necks and cannot be pulled out, and the broomcorns are only a foot tall; some plants have already begun to wither.Only the drought-tolerant goosegrass is still dark green—this poisonous grass thrives even in Daming sand.

I walked through the shouting beach covered with a layer of groundgrass, and arrived at the edge of the big sand beam-the area where flower sticks were planted. I was scratching on the sand dunes, and saw a person walking down from the sand beam. who?There are very few people in these places. I quickly recognized that it was Wu Youxiong. He also saw me and came to me with sweat all over his face.He asked me: "It's such a hot day, and you're sick, what are you doing here?" "Come and see the flower stick." I said. "I've shown you. All right." "Oh..." I looked at his sweaty face gratefully, not knowing what to say.

I had to go back with him again. On the way, he followed me, smoked dry tobacco cautiously, turned his head and asked me: "Are you feeling better?" I didn't know why I said, "I'm not sick..." "Not sick?" He looked at me in bewilderment, and didn't say anything. Wu Youxiong's thick body and simple face made me feel a sense of intimacy.It suddenly occurred to me to tell this man my misfortune.I now need someone I trust to listen to my grievance and pain, otherwise I will really feel sick in my heart.I hesitated for a while, then told Wu Youxiong the ins and outs of me and Xue Feng in a homely tone... Youxiong listened to me quietly as he walked. After I finished speaking, he stopped suddenly. He probably wanted to comfort me, but he didn't know what to say.After a while, I said: "You... want to drive more. Or, you go back to the city and live for a while, and I will drive you with a tractor. Or, you might as well ask for leave and go find him..." I smiled bleakly She smiled and shook her head at him. He was stunned for a while, and then said: "Either way, the farm workers will go to the Heilongtan Brigade to watch a play tomorrow night, and you can go to relax... The farmers take shelter from the rain and sing, it's very interesting!" I thought about it, and decided to go out It's also good to go.I said to him: "Okay, I'll go..." After dinner the next afternoon, all the people on the farm put on their own clothes, and some of them didn't wash their hair and messed up their beards, as if they were going to It's like going to a ceremony.Everyone's joy is understandable, there are not many such entertainment opportunities in the desert in a year.The tractor roared in the front yard, and everyone rushed there. I knew the tractor had no seats, so I took a small stool. When I came to the front yard, I saw many people crowded in the tractor's bucket.Ario was already sitting in the driver's seat.There is a small mound next to the carriage, and I stepped on the mound and entered the carriage.I put the stool in a corner and sat down.In the car, some people stood with their hands on the side of the car, and some people brought a torn sack to make a bed and sat on the floor. Sitting across from me is Field Chief Cao.He was wearing new clothes and a new hat on his bald head, and he greeted me with a smile. The people in the car saw me and went too, they all looked at me in surprise and joked with me—— Not too rude of course.After the tractor left the farm, it got up on the white clay road called "sheep's brain" by the locals.The road is full of potholes, shaking people's internal organs.I couldn't sit firmly on the stool, so I stood up and held the edge of the car with my hands. The tractor entered the hinterland of the endless desert.There is a monotonous yellow in the field of vision, only one is dotted with taupe grass on the side of the road.The tractor bumped violently, and my hands were numb from the shock, but I dared not let go. Our Caochang worker was thrown to the ground from time to time in the carriage, rolling around like a rubber ball, which made everyone laugh.Accountant Hou, who was standing at the end, came over and sat down, leaning back against Captain Cao, and finally saved his driver. After walking for a while, a village appeared on the side of the road.I saw that the crops around the village were almost dried up, and there was not a drop of water in the manger well. The tractor stopped in the village.I thought I had arrived at Heilong Beach, but the people listening to the car said that this was the village of Yuxiong and the others.A lot of people were already crowded on the road, stopping Yuxiong—they obviously wanted to take his car to go to the theater.Yuxio had no choice but to wave his hand and let them get in the car.A group of men and women rushed up quickly, filling the compartment to the brim. As soon as the car moved, the people in the car were crowded and shouted.Shouting, laughing and cursing, and the roar of the tractor filled the desolate desert with a joyous and hot atmosphere... Soon, the tractor drove to the destination. This is a big grass beach with a radius of two li.The terrain is flat and wide, and although the vegetation is sparse, there are many young willow trees-now they have become hitching posts.Horses are tied to almost every tree.The entire grassy beach is full of scattered crowds, a noisy and lively scene.Some red and green cloth tents were hung on an earthen platform in the distance, and operas were being performed on them—— However, there are not many people watching the theater, most of them are scattered all over the place doing various things.The whole Mongolian family sat on the ground, drinking and singing.Some girls posed in front of the photo booth, waiting for the well-dressed photographer to press the shutter.Now and then people came and went, most of them on horses.I saw many Mongolian or Han women riding on horses, with colorful headscarves on their heads, and some with children in their arms.Some young men and women ride the same horse, and the man puts his arms around the woman's waist, giving people a very romantic taste.Outside the theater crowd, there is a circle of hawkers selling food and drink.These people dug stoves on the spot, and most of what they sell was mutton, which was often boiled in large pieces in pots.The dishwashing water and the mutton soup were unsightly, but many people ate them with great relish.The air is filled with sand and dust, and there is an unpleasant smell of sheep. After our men got off the tractor, they scattered.Ario made an appointment with everyone to gather by the tractor at eight o'clock. With novelty and excitement, I wandered around in this noisy world first, and then went to the stage to watch the play for a while.The play is an old play, performed by a commune troupe, the level is extremely low, and the amplification equipment is not good, so I can't even hear a word clearly, only a group of people yelling on the stage.I asked the people around, and the rap was "Yutangchun". I was not interested in drama, so I walked out of this circle of people again, walked through the stall selling mutton offal, and walked towards the edge of the big grassy beach.I saw a village in the distance, shrouded in a thick willow bush. I ran into Wu Youxiong suddenly.He asked me to see the Dragon King Temple.He said that there are many scenery inside!So I followed him to see the Dragon King Temple. On the way, Yuxiong told me that this temple existed a long time ago and was destroyed by the Cultural Revolution.The current temple was built only the year before last, and the funds were raised by several surrounding villages.I heard that a temple fair was also set up, and the people in charge are the secretaries of the various brigades. The person in charge of the temple fair, this is really the unity of theocracy and the unity of religion and politics.In this remote and backward area, this kind of phenomenon is not uncommon at present, and most of the counties and townships turn a blind eye to such things. We came to a sand dune and entered a small courtyard surrounded by earthen walls - this is the temple.In a small brick house, many red cloth plaques were hung on the recessed windows, on which were written words such as "repay God's grace" and "response to requests".A copper gong is hung in the corner of the right room, and an iron bell is hung in the corner of the left room—I don’t know how to pay attention to these two things!There is a couplet written on both sides of the door, and there are two wrong words on it.The couplet said: Entering the Dragon Palace, the weather will be smooth and the weather will be smooth, and the Guotai (Tai) Ming (min) will be safe when leaving the Dragon Palace. I looked at these stuff, only feel novelty and funny. I asked Yuxiong, "Do you believe in God?" He hesitated for a moment and said, "I don't believe it. But I never dared to say that I don't believe it. Because many people here believe it... If you say you don't believe it, everyone will regard you as a barbarian!" Became barbaric?" I exclaimed in surprise. We all laughed.Then they entered the temple together. The paintings in the temple are colorful. On the cement altar, there is a wooden tablet for gods.There is an ashes box in front of the altar, and cigarettes are floating on the altar——the whole temple is filled with the smell of hygienic incense.An ever-burning lamp stood quietly beside the incense ash box.In the corner of the wall on the ground, there was a pile of tattered bedrolls of the temple attendants.Looking up, there are five main gods on the front wall: the Dragon King of the Five Seas is in the center, and on both sides are the Medicine King Bodhisattva, General Chonglang, the Raining Dragon King and an unknown god.There are auspicious clouds flying on the walls on both sides, and many gods riding horses and dragons are galloping in these clouds.It seems that the god-maker's drawing skills are extremely poor, and all the gods are drawn out of proportion—— Maybe that's what God looks like?Yuxiong and I didn't speak to each other, we watched quietly for a while and then came out. When the two of us turned out, I suddenly found that among the row of hanging plaques, there was a piece that read "Dedicated by Cao Shengrong".Others are made of red cloth, but this person is made of red silk, with the words "My god manifests" written on it. I suspected that someone named Cao Shengrong hung it up somewhere else, but Youxiong smiled and said, "It's our director Cao...his wife has hepatitis..." This is really dumbfounding!A Communist Party member, who was sick, did not seek medical treatment but prayed to God!It was almost eight o'clock when we returned to Caotan. The workers on the farm gathered around the tractor one after another, and some of them were already sitting in the carriage.On the stage in the distance, an old student was singing something boring.By the time we returned, night had fallen. The desert is immersed in boundless darkness.The headlights of the tractor swept the road ahead and the sand dunes in the distance.The sky seemed to be covered with a layer of dark clouds, and lightning had already lit up in the distance.Soon, there was a muffled thunder—it seemed to be raining! All the people in the car cheered, saying that the performance of praying for rain was finished, and the Dragon King of the Five Seas immediately appeared.Everyone shouted and shouted with joy.Field Manager Cao sat across from me, with his back against that of Accountant Hou. With the light of a flash of lightning, I saw this communist who believed in God look up at the sky in awe... I couldn't help laughing.