Chapter 66 You can never think of 13-(Xue Feng)

really hot.The tired summer is here again.The city immediately seemed to be trapped in a big steamer. No matter how thin the clothes were, the whole body was drenched with sweat day and night. My heart is also hot!Now, the relationship between He Min and I is still in a heated state. I admit that being in love interfered with my work.So it also affected my prestige in the editorial department... Now that I think about it, I have received several letters from Xiaofang since I didn't put the severance letter in the postbox last time, but I haven't given it yet. She wrote back.What letter should I reply?If it is said that I have completely dispelled the idea of ​​living with Zheng Xiaofang now, it is true.But if it is said that I have written Xiaofang off emotionally during my relationship with He Min, that is not true.Whenever I think of her, I can't help but feel guilty.It was for this reason that I could not make up my mind to write to her.If I write a letter, I can't avoid my current relationship with He Min - so I have been procrastinating.Now it seems that this pretending to be deaf and dumb can no longer be maintained, and I must explain everything to her very quickly—we want to break up completely.

separate? Yes, break up.Break up and break up!Take Sister Feng's words: There is no feast that never ends. After repeated hesitation, I finally made up my mind to write a text message to Xiaofang—— A letter of severance, sent out After the letter was sent out, I cried secretly in the dormitory alone.Anyway, I loved her, and I still love her... It's just not being able to live together that made it what it is today.well!A piece of my personal history ended in a short letter like this... But the original me and she can bear this pain.We are young, and we each have a long way to go... We have shed a lot of tears, but our hearts are relieved.

Mentally speaking, I seem to have unloaded a heavy burden.Now I am a free man.Needless to say, I attached my feelings to He Min, and now in my eyes, she is my lover.All day long, I began to edit the beautiful garlands of future family life in my head... In order to adapt to He Min's "modern" demeanor, I used the little money I saved to buy a set of fashionable youth clothes from Shanghai, with three joints The leather shoes were polished black and shiny, and I also bought a pair of cheap toad mirrors.The hair is also intentionally long—— It's a pity that I don't have a beard, so I can't keep big sideburns.

People in the editorial department began to look at me strangely. I know what people say behind my back—I'm definitely bourgeois.I don't care about that.I am a young poet. ——The poet should be more romantic, even the clothes should be different from ordinary people.Let's talk about it!Now is a new era, is it okay to shave your head and wear a pair of oversized trousers to count as ideology? Of course, if it wasn't for He Min, I wouldn't do it either.I hope comrades will forgive me - I am in love right now.You all also had a time when you were young, and you also talked about love, right?I spend the whole day with He Min in a hot-headed way, and the two of us are as good as one.However, one day, an unpleasant incident occurred between me and her.

After dinner that day, He Min and I made an appointment to go to the Heping Cinema to watch the Hong Kong movie "Three Smiles".We have seen this film three times together, but want to see it again. As usual, I was at the door of the movie theater five minutes before the movie started to wait for her.But by the time the movie started, she hadn't come yet.It was strange: she never missed an appointment on such a thing.Is something urgent?I decided to wait a little longer. Another quarter of an hour passed, and she still hadn't come. My heart tightened: Is she sick? So I rode my car and rushed to her unit in a hurry.

I entered the office courtyard of the provincial art museum.She is single, and the office is also her dormitory.A row of houses in the yard were all dark with lights. Well, the lights are on in her dormitory—that's proof she's there. I came to her door with nervousness and knocked lightly with my knuckles.There was no sound inside.she is not here? I tapped again, and then I heard the familiar voice asking, "Who?" "I." He Min yelled "Oh!", and then opened the door. When I entered the door, I was stunned.I saw a handsome young man sitting on the single sofa.He Min looked at me, clapped her hands suddenly, and suddenly realized: "Oh! Look at my brain! I forgot that there will be a movie tonight!" She looked at her watch, "It's over! It's been forty minutes since the show started..."

He Min blushed, looked at me and said, "I'm really sorry... I'm really sorry... Let me introduce you." She pointed to the young man on the sofa, "This is my classmate in middle school, and later played the violin in the military art troupe. , Now the demobilization came back to our provincial orchestra...we haven't seen each other for a few years...so I forgot about watching the movie..." The young man didn't stand up, but sat there and nodded to me with style. Within a second I was disgusted with him. He also nodded to him in style, and went over to sit on He Min's bed.A kind of extreme unhappiness began to spread in my heart.

It was very stuffy in the house.He Min turned on the vertical electric fan on high speed.The three of them were speechless for a moment.The only sound in the house was the uniform hum of the electric fan.To be polite, I was about to chat with that arrogant classmate He Min, but the young man stood up and said, "You are here, I have to go..." "Come back when you have nothing to do!" He Min said to him in embarrassment. The young man nodded to her, then shook my hand coldly, and left.He Min went out to see him off.Sitting in this empty house right now, I don't know how much I feel.

He Min came back immediately, her face still flushed, and she said, "What, are you jealous?... You're an idiot!" "You're here...I'm leaving..." I also stood up and said. He Min smiled nervously, and said, "It's really interesting! I just gave away one, and I want to give you another one." "I don't want you to give it away!" I said rudely. I quickly came out of her house, pushed my bike and left. He Min rushed to the door, but I didn't even turn my head... There were not many pedestrians on the street, and the two rows of street lamps stretched forward in parallel, and then intersected in the distance-this intersection is actually the feeling of the eyes, but in fact, the two rows of street lamps did not intersect. "Oh! Really! It's like a certain phenomenon in life..." I muttered to myself while riding the bicycle.

Along the way, my mind was in a mess, and my hands on the handlebars were shaking slightly—yes, I was really angry with He Min tonight... The anger subsides after a day or two - I still want to be with her. I called to ask her out.This time she ignored me.She said she was busy and couldn't do without work at work! She didn't come to me for several days. For two afternoons, I went to her unit to look for her, but she was not there! My heart was in a mess... After get off work, I had to bite the bullet and read in my dormitory, but I couldn't read a single page.Later, I had no choice but to walk in circles in the courtyard—anxious, like a bereaved dog in the same district!I couldn't figure out why He Min ignored me because of something big.

I suddenly thought of Yue Zhiming.She is his cousin, he can always come forward to bridge our relationship, right?Besides, it was he who introduced me to this wayward thing at the beginning of the recording.Since falling in love with He Min, I certainly don't go to my old friend's place very often.But he's my cousin now—of course, I'm just admitting it on paper.This afternoon, I went to the Provincial Dramatists Association to find Yue Zhiming. His door was open, but no one was there. There was a friend of his in the house, listening to music on a tape recorder. I also know this person, but I can't remember the name——I used to talk with a group of people in that "salon" with Yue Zhiming.This man is also one of them.I only heard that he was the son of a deputy political commissar of the provincial military region. I asked him, "Where is Yue Zhiming?" "Going to the theater," he said. "Will you be back soon?" "No. It's a performance report, he's on the jury, and he has to watch a few shows a night... Do you have anything to do?" He also seemed to recognize me. "It's nothing. I'm so bored, come out and chat..." "It's been a long time since I saw you...do you recognize me?" I nodded to show my understanding.Such acquaintances don't even bother to ask each other's names.He yawned, turned off the recorder, and said, "Are you interested in going to the prom?" "Prom? I can't dance..." "You can take a look if you don't know how to jump, anyway, aren't you okay?" "Which agency organized the dance?" I asked him. He gave me a strange look and said, "Organization? Why do you go to the dance party organized by the agency? It's the same old... This is a family dance, a disco." disco?I know it's a popular dance now.According to Yue Zhiming, it was originally a folk dance in Africa, then it was introduced to Western countries, and now it has been introduced to China somehow... However, I have never seen this kind of dance.My obsession is ballet.But out of curiosity, I agreed to go and see with this man. After leaving Yue Zhiming's house, I rode with this man straight to the upstairs of a family member in the provincial military region.It is already evening.We entered a unit on the second floor. As soon as I opened the door, I heard the electronic music like playing cotton. We enter the living room.There was no one in the living room, just some fashionable clothes thrown here and there.The dance is being held in another room.Looking from the living room, through the half-open door, you can see the shaking figure inside. The man leading me took off his long-sleeved shirt and greeted me, "Go in?" I said: "You go in first. I want to sit for a while, it's a bit hot." He was wearing a vest and couldn't wait to get in. I sat on the chair for a while, and then pushed open the door with a feeling that was close to fear.I immediately saw a group of young men and women my age dancing happily to the sound of cotton-plucking music.Everyone was sweating profusely with their mouths open, and some were so hot that they only wore a small vest, dripping with juice all over their bodies.My first feeling was: these people are suffering here! This is the famous disco? Maybe I can't appreciate this kind of art.In my opinion, the dancing is crazy and a little bit wild.Male and female buttocks squirming around, turning everyone into a mouse-headed mouse... I am so embarrassed to watch it, and I regret coming here.I was about to get away from this noisy world, when suddenly through the glass of the window, I found a figure on the balcony that seemed very familiar. I carefully identified it, and there was a "boom" in my head! I saw this turned out to be He Min! Yes, this is indeed He Min.She was dancing this damn disco on the balcony with a guy!I recognized it again immediately, that man was the one I met in her room last time... I felt dizzy, and quickly put my hand on the door frame. At this time, the sound of playing cotton stopped.This group of crazy people all got off their feet and waited for the tape to be changed.I saw the guy on the balcony huddled intimately and started kissing... I turned around abruptly, walked through the living room, opened the door, and went down the stairs as quickly as possible from the second floor, found the car after stumbling, and exited the family courtyard of the Provincial Military Region. I'm speeding through the streets at dusk! My eyes were cloudy, and I didn't know which street I was on at the moment, or where I was going... A car stopped a few meters away, and the driver poked his head out. Ya scolded fiercely: "Did you die?" I was startled, and I squeezed the brake suddenly, and as a result, even the car and people fell into the gutter on the side of the road.Venus burst out in front of my eyes, and many places on my body were burning like pokers.I felt sticky on my left foot, so I touched it with my hand—in the orange light of the street lamp, I saw my palm was covered with blood...