Chapter 52 On difficult days (13)

I followed Teacher Li to his dormitory.He sat me in his chair and fumbled around in a cardboard box under the desk. I saw him take out two eggs—eggs are extremely rare these days, Mr. Li saved them at some point, and he probably didn’t want to eat them. After a long time, the eggshells were covered with a thick layer of dust.He washed the eggs and put them in an iron pan on the stove, then pulled up a chair and sat across from me.He adjusted his myopia, was silent for a while, and then said: "I'm very excited today. Why? Because your story touched me deeply, and reminded me of when I was young... Oh, I shouldn't have told people like you about myself, but ..."

He seemed to hesitate, then spoke slowly again. "...it's been many years. At that time, I was young—a little older than you are now, and I was about to graduate from college. It was at this time that I fell in love with a female student in our class. In college In the last year, we can consider marriage issues. The female classmate I like is also good to me." "But soon, I knew that one of my best boyfriends had been chasing a female classmate for a long time. They could have done it without me. But that female classmate, but that female classmate immediately expressed to me Deeper affection, which caused my boyfriend to be in great pain."

"I was very depressed at the time. Although I liked that female classmate, but seeing my friend in such pain, I felt that I had done something I shouldn't have done! In this way, when I was assigned for graduation, I finally gave up staying in school I automatically asked for the opportunity to be assigned to you. You know, our place is thousands of miles away from here. I only had one idea at the time: leave them far away, let my friend combine with that female classmate... Later , They really got married..." Teacher Li stood up, unlocked the cabinet, rummaged through it for a while, took out a photo and handed it to me.I saw that there were two men and women with sweet smiles on it, and there was a very handsome little boy between them.This is undoubtedly the family of Teacher Li's friends. "I have never met a lesbian I am satisfied with in my life, so until now, as you say, I am still a bachelor..." Teacher Li smiled faintly and said: "But I am not I regret what I did back then. Shouldn't people live a more noble life in this world?"

"My business is simply like this...Of course, your business is different from mine, but it is basically the same in spirit. You excited me today, and made me feel like I was back in my youth..." Mr. Li spoke quietly, but from that demeanor, it could be seen that his heart was filled with a very excited emotion.I also listened quietly.This is the first time I've heard such an exciting story about love. "However, Jianqiang! Do you really have to drop out of school? It seems unnecessary. Let me do the work of all of you! You, Yaling, David, Wenming... Please believe that I can do it Well done to you all!"

Teacher Li stood up, put his hand on my shoulder, and waited for my answer. "No!" I looked up at my dear teacher.What he told me about his own experience just now strengthened my belief and determination.I said to him: "No! Teacher Li, the matter has come to this point. The more you work, the greater the impact will be. Maybe the whole school will know about it. In this way, the pressure on Wu Yaling will be even greater. Yes. I have already decided that I must drop out of school. I will go back to study on my own! I will never lose my studies. I just ask you to tell my classmates and school leaders that I dropped out of school because of family difficulties. Don’t tell me. The real situation. Before I leave school, please keep it a secret, just let me go quietly..."

My throat was blocked, and I couldn't speak any more. I hugged my head with both hands, and lay down on the table all of a sudden.After a while, Teacher Li shook my shoulder. I looked up and saw him handing a letter to me.I don't understand what's going on here.Teacher Li held up my myopia, put the letter on the table in front of me, and said, "I respect your decision and your request to me. I wrote this letter to the teaching director of our neighboring county middle school. He It’s my friend. The distance between you and our county is not much different. I suggest you go to the middle school in the neighboring county to continue your studies. The environment there is just a little sparser, and the accent is different from our county. You will get used to it gradually. You Go to contact me first, if possible, you can go through the transfer procedures after finishing it..." I picked up the letter gratefully, not knowing what to say for a long time.

"I... try my best to fight like this..." I stood up and said goodbye to Teacher Li, but he grabbed me and stuffed two hard-boiled eggs into my pocket... The next morning, I quickly completed the withdrawal formalities - all this is easy, because in these difficult years, dropouts are almost every day.As for luggage, there is nothing to pack.I thought: early in the morning, before the wake-up bell rings, I can get up with my bed rolled up. Throughout the afternoon and evening, I met everyone in the class who told me that Wu Yaling was looking for me.In fact, I have seen her a few times and avoided her on purpose.I think she probably asked me to work in the Armed Forces Department again.But, goodbye, all of this... I was determined not to see Wu Yaling again before I left. At night, I intentionally stayed out of the dormitory and spent a long time outside the big wall behind the senior classroom.

It was very late, and I returned to my dormitory. The classmates were already fast asleep, but the lights were still on, and I stood on the ground blankly for a while.At this time, I felt an unspeakable sadness.Tomorrow, I'm leaving here.In other words, you will leave your original life path and start a new life again!I might also go to the middle school in the neighboring county to continue my studies—but how can I afford to toss again, I think I will probably shave my head bald, and devote all my youth and life to the land in spring, summer, autumn and winter.Labor is not a stigma, but a basic requirement of our lives.Being a farmer, such a fate is very common for native farmers. Countless people have gone through the course of their lives in this way. In the end, like an ordinary tree, it grows out of the land and finally disappears. In the ground... I was thinking wildly, and I had no desire to sleep at all.

It was too cold to stand on the ground, so I got on the kang and opened my bedding. I was going to stretch my legs under the blanket and sit until Mingming. Just when I opened my bedding, I suddenly found a few books in the quilt.At a glance, it is "Young Guards" and "Dedicate Everything to the Party".As if I had a premonition, I quickly flipped through the book, and sure enough, I found a letter—it was from Wu Yaling. Ma Jianqiang: I went to the teaching office for a meeting at noon, and I heard from a teacher that one of our class The classmate dropped out of school and just finished the formalities.I quickly asked him what is the name of this classmate

Only by your name did I know it was you.I'm so miserable, I've been looking for you all afternoon and evening, I didn't find it either.You must be avoiding me.i know the real reason you dropped out what is it.I didn't expect that my good intentions would have such consequences.I it's painful.In any case, I don't think you should drop out at all.i really don't know what to do... Send you a few books, these books are my favorite, you will like them too of.I think that no matter how difficult the country and we personally encounter before returning to China, No matter how unfortunate we are, we should never lose heart.we have to work hard

We must have the courage to sacrifice, and overcome difficulties hand in hand, so that our youth will be endless. Ashamed of our great motherland, the great era.These three books will help We better move toward life… Wu Yaling I read this letter over and over several times, and my heart was churning like a boiling water pot, which could not be calmed down for a long time.I got up from the bed, turned off the light, and left the dormitory alone, and came to the school's big playground.It was already sunny.On the dark blue sky, a round of bright moon hangs high in the sky, its clear light shining on the snow-capped land. I wandered around the school playground for a long time, seeming to think a lot, but also like not thinking about anything.The tide of emotion is moving in my chest, ups and downs, all tastes; I want to laugh, but also want to cry...