Chapter 53 On difficult days (14)

This is an excellent morning.The sun rises from the far horizon.Apply a light red color to the snow-covered earth.The whole Yellow Plateau is dressed up like this, and Yu Qi suddenly looks very majestic.The desolation that is everywhere in winter is covered by the thick velvet snow; all the heights and irregularities on the earth have become some simple curves that connect with each other.Everything gives a sense of richness and grandeur.The skinny me, with my luggage on my back, appeared on the winter field and walked into such a picture of nature.Leaving the county seat, passing through flat fields, and entering a deep ditch between mountains——

The mountain road immediately became rugged and dangerous. I trekked hard.In order not to fall into the ravine, all thoughts and energy were concentrated on walking.In order to avoid the eyes of my classmates, I quietly left the school before dawn.No sleep, no food, hungry like a cat scratching.His eyes were black, his legs were trembling, and he couldn't remember how many times he fell and was bitten on the road of more than ten miles! Under a rocky cliff sheltered from the wind, I fell down on a mound without snow, closed my eyes and gasped for breath. I fell here and couldn't get up again.A feeling of being alone took hold of me; lonely, discouraged, like a defeated soldier.I remember that at the end of summer and early autumn, I walked from the road in front of me to the county town and the new life I was longing for with a good mood.Now, it's coming back from the opposite direction.This may be the turn of my whole life.

As hard and frustrating as this is, it by no means means I've regretted it.No, everything that is past but past is past.The emotion is perfectly natural right now.Who would not feel uncomfortable in such a situation?I'd rather see it all as fate.In the face of fate, people will gradually become calm.I remember before I came to high school, the white-bearded grandpas in the village said that there was a miracle in my grandpa’s grave that a tree root lifted the coffin, so they inferred that I had a great future; but my father told them the opposite.He said: "There is no such blessing buried in our ancestral grave!" "Father, you are right..." I closed my eyes, rested my head on the bedroll, and muttered; Consciousness has been out of control, and gradually I don't know anything...

Later, I dreamed that I was dead; the body was on a block of ice, and the bones were cracked.I even asked Lin Ming: Since I am dead, why do I still feel cold?Oh, I found out that I am not dead, the ice seems to be gradually becoming warmer, so my body warms up slowly, and I also heard a voice calling my name from a very distant place... I woke up, opened my eyes and saw that I was covered with a cotton coat, and David Zheng was squatting beside me—all this was even more unbelievable than a dream! "Jianqiang!" David yelled, and wiped the tears under the glasses with the back of his hand, his lips were trembling with anxiety, and he couldn't speak anymore.He quickly took out a handful of biscuits from his satchel, and held them in front of me again.

I immediately realized what was happening in front of my eyes!A shiver of joy spread through his body like lightning.Everything before became so far away in an instant, only this sincere and friendly face existed in front of my eyes.I took over the cookie from David, and his new trust and friendship in me. "I'm sorry for you, I didn't expect to push you into this situation. I heard Yaling said that you dropped out of school because of those things, and I felt very sad, so I came to chase you. You must go back to school! Your teaching office signed up; I also begged my dad to find a way to subsidize some of the county's mobile relief food, and he has already agreed... You must go back. The classmates heard that you dropped out of school, and donated A lot of food stamps and money, everyone is waiting for you. Teacher Li also called me, Yaling, and Zhou Wenming to talk, and they also came looking for you, behind... Please forgive me..." He put the cotton coat that fell on the ground on me, like a big brother, and put his arms around my shoulders affectionately.I cried in the crook of his arms.In an instant, happiness, joy, grievances, all emotions flooded up.David was also weeping.At this time, we are all like children and adults.Yes, we are moving from being kids to being adults.In this delicate and wonderful age, how many subtle and beautiful memories will be left for us in the future!At this moment, a cry suddenly came from behind us:

"Ha, I caught up!" This is Zhou Wenming. Behind him, Wu Yaling, who is covered in snow powder, saw me and stopped suddenly, with a happy smile on her face immediately, but her eyes were full of tears. Covered with tears.Zhou Wenming came to me with three jumps and two jumps, his usual arrogance was gone, his face blushed blushingly, and he said to me bluntly: "I'm sorry. Teacher Li has already criticized me, and I have given Ya Ling and David apologized, and now I have to apologize to you. I was really sorry and hurt you before, please forgive me. You are actually a very good person. I am not good. I am too sick. Too much, I grew up fighting in the alley. I remember many of your benefits. Not to mention, every time I take an exam, I don’t know how to do it. I always peek at a few of your questions... Hey! It’s not you, I'm afraid I will repeat a grade this year. From now on, I will also learn from you classmates. Jianqiang, you go back! In the future, tell us what you lack, our family has everything. Let's be a brother, You will help me more in my studies in the future. Can you forgive me?" I was deeply moved by Zhou Wenming's words, and I said to him: "I will never hate you. You are very smart. As long as you work hard, you will be able to catch up with your studies." Come up!"

At this time, Ya Ling came up to me and said to me, "Go back quickly, Teacher Li is coming. Let's go back quickly so that he can save a little distance. Teacher Li is deeply myopic, don't let him He fell and knocked off his glasses!" We all laughed.David jokingly said to me: "Look at your hesitation, is there any other conditions to negotiate?" But I said to him seriously: "Then...you must be with Yaling!" David's face turned red, and Yaling's also turned red, but Wenming picked up my bedroll and shouted, "We'll open the way!" He shouted, walked to the front, turned to us and said : "The road is not easy to walk, the four of us just pull one by one. I lead the way and open the way; Jianqiang pulls me, David pulls Jianqiang. Yaling pulls David, and the air pulls Yaling! Okay? "He made a face at us, and David and Yaling looked at each other and smiled, turning their heads aside in embarrassment...

The four of us held hands, stepped on the footprints when we came, stumbling, laughing and laughing, and marched in the snow-capped canyon.Zhou Wenming, who was walking in front, blew a loud whistle; the melody played by the whistle was the familiar "Song of the Guerrillas".I, David and Yaling, couldn't help humming this song softly along with the civilized whistle.Our fathers and brothers hummed this song in the mountains and fields, overcame countless difficulties and hardships, and won the victory of the revolution; today, this immortal song also makes our feelings boil and inspires us to move forward firmly in the hardships!I took the hands of my partners and sang my dear "Song of the Guerrillas" to the county seat, to the school, and to the future; the blood in my body was surging violently, and tears quickly blinded my eyes. The snow mountain is gradually blurred, blurred...

Written in Xi'an from the winter of 1980 to the winter of 1981