Chapter 50 On difficult days (11)

The first snowfall finally came. It snowed continuously for a day and a night.During the day and night when the snow fell, there was no wind, the weather was not so cold, and there was even a slight warmth.The snowflakes have been falling silently, and the earth is soon buried under the white fluffy snow. The snow stopped the next morning.But the sky still didn't clear up.In the afternoon, the wind blew up, and the clouds all over the sky suddenly flew away like torn cotton wool.The pale sun slanted its light from the gaps in the clouds, and the land was blinded with white light.On the horizon in the distance, the snow-covered peaks have lost their former majesty and seem to have become gentler, showing many soft and beautiful curves indistinctly. In the evening, the wind direction changed, and the sky was covered with a layer of blur again Lead gray cloud tent.

The snow scene is so oppressive, especially in Huangxi, the pure, boundless, and vague whiteness on the earth will make people's hearts very peaceful and harmonious.People with rich emotions will have poetic associations, artistic conceptions of paintings, and melodies of music at such moments.In the past, whenever I was at such a time, I always loved to step on the tapestry-like snow by myself and walk aimlessly in the fields, my heart was full of joyful feelings.I often smile involuntarily facing the white-capped mountains at dusk; or deliberately wander on the snow-covered ice of the small river in front of the village, so that I will slip unconsciously and revel in an unspeakable comfort...

Now, I am standing under the tall stone archway on the right outside the school gate, facing the same snowy scene in the evening, and I can no longer feel the emotions of the past.The snow doesn't seem to be as bright and lovely as before, but a little pale; once it is painted with the colors of the dusk, it looks a little sad. I stood there blankly, my heart felt like a handful of firewood stuffed in, and the hairs were messy; my throat seemed to be choked with a date stone, and it was difficult to breathe out.If a person is in a bad mood, there will be many uncomfortable feelings in the body: chest tightness, shortness of breath, and even difficulty in urinating and defecating!I quit working in the Armed Forces—I really went back to my solitude.

But because of my brief intrusion into another realm of life, the solitude now is nothing like the solitude of the past.And when the episode dies like a meteor, it leaves a huge void.I am used to the bitter medicine of life, but once I have tasted the sweetness of life, the taste never disappears, and in turn makes the pain more unbearable.I suspect that this is a trick of fate—although I don't believe in fate everywhere, I haven't become a thorough materialist either. I stared blankly at the courtyard of the Armed Forces Department below the school—the lights flickering in the quiet snowy night were as kind and warm as her eyes.

Is she still working in that dusty cave dwelling?Is the sweat on her forehead still flowing like beads?Surely not.She used to do that hard work for me.How unfair it is that she is being maligned now that she has done good for others! At some point, Wu Yaling appeared in front of me. As soon as I recognized her, I shuddered all over! "I searched everywhere but couldn't find you... What are you afraid of? Why don't you go to work? You're still a man!" She put her hands in her pockets and stared at me sternly.I was terribly ashamed.How can I tell her?She should know that I'm doing it for a reason—

How could I subject her to that pressure again? I wanted to make a point or two, but couldn't get a word out.This moment.She didn't care about everything and came to me again, that was brave and frank.The awe-inspiring endowment shocked me all of a sudden; like a flash of lightning flashed across my soul, I suddenly felt that I saw a completely strange and amazing personality from this female classmate. thing! What kind of thing is this?After thinking about it slowly, I realized that this is a refined spirit.And that's what's lacking in me.Although I used to be a strong and rigorous person, I carried a little countryman's petty air.Tonight, this female classmate illuminates my flaws with her spiritual flash.Although I did not quickly adopt this temperament, it had a huge influence throughout my later life (which will not be dealt with in this story).

I was standing under the stone arch, just standing in front of her as if I was on trial, not knowing what to do.Perhaps it was her magnanimity that inspired and inspired me, so I raised my head and looked at her calmly.The shimmering light on the snow reflected her delicate face, stubborn forehead, and a pair of beautiful and clear eyes.The lips are slightly raised, with a kind smile floating on it, showing another aspect of her character—— Gentle, sincere, lively. "Let's go, let's go to work again!" She still looked at me, her chin raised towards the courtyard of the Armed Forces Department.I tried not to let myself cry aloud, and I said to her:

"Yaling! I can't hurt you anymore! I can live on my own...you are a good person! I respect you like my sister..." Tears have already flowed out of my eyes, hot, on the cold face It trickled down and fell on the snow.She laughed and said, "I'm one year younger than you! I can't be your sister!" I was silent, I couldn't laugh, and I had nothing to say.She soon stopped smiling, too.She only sighed softly, and then said: "Then I won't go tonight. I must go tomorrow night! You know, we are contract workers, and I can't do the rest by myself!" She rushed I smiled secretly, turned around and stepped into the vast snowy night.

I stood in a daze for a while, feeling a little cold, and walked towards the school.Along the way, my heart was churning very hard, and I felt that there were many things that I needed to think about carefully, but I couldn't figure it out in a hurry.As soon as I stepped into the school gate, I saw Zhou Wenming walking carelessly from the yard with a yellow schoolbag on his back.He probably couldn't sit still in the classroom, so let's go home.I wanted to avoid him and didn't want to meet him face to face, but it was too late, he had already walked in front of me.The ear flaps of his cotton hat were drooping.He stopped in front of me, looked at me from head to toe, put on a strange smile on his face, and imitated the Japanese accent in the movie and said: "Go to work in the Armed Forces Department again? Eight roads give you rice What happened to Ximixi?" I couldn't control my anger at all!Without making a sound, I raised my hand and slapped him.I was stunned immediately - how could I hit someone?

Zhou Wenming was also stunned, but he quickly realized that he threw away his schoolbag and rushed over to fight me!We wrestled with each other and fell to the snow at the same time. In a fight, I'm no match for this fat guy from the state cafeteria.He quickly pinned me down in the snow, sat on top of me, grabbed my hair, and knocked my head to the ground. I felt a sudden blackness in front of my eyes.Fortunately, the snow was thick on the ground, and my head was not broken, but Zhou Wenming still rode on me and continued to press my head on the snow. Suddenly, I felt Zhou Wenming suddenly fall from my body, and I heard a "boom", he yelled "Oh my god!", and fell beside me.When I got up, Zhou Wenming was also getting up, and I saw him wipe a trace of blood from the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand.I suddenly found David Zheng standing in front of Zhou Wenming, frowning, looking at him without saying a word.I understand, it was David who knocked Zhou Wenming to the ground just now.

Seeing David's gloomy face, Zhou Wenming picked up his schoolbag in a panic, ran past him, and ran away.While running, he scolded: "David Zheng, big bear bag! My wife was abducted!" With trembling lips, David picked up his schoolbag that had fallen on the ground. It's just the two of us.It's an extremely embarrassing situation. I hesitated for a moment and took a step closer to him, wanting to say something to him. He slung his schoolbag over his shoulder and gave me a look—a look that reflected an elusive complex emotion.When he saw me approaching, he turned around instead and left quickly without looking back.Looking at his distant figure on the empty snow field, I felt very sad: he has no intention of talking to me!The powerhouse of this life!He clearly had a prejudice against me, but he still helped me beat Zhou Wenming—and at the same time punished me mentally.He actually hit two people!I can't feel the pain that Zhou Wenming hit me now, and although David helped me, he left me a deep and painful scar mentally.From the bottom of my heart, I really have a clear conscience for David, but in fact it is because of me that I broke the harmony between him and Yaling.He was in pain too, I could totally see that.David!Can't you see what kind of relationship I have with Yaling?Can you believe those rumors that are made up? However, I remembered what was written in a novel: No matter who you are, you are all selfish in love.what!It seems that David's prejudice against me is inevitable.He is still restraining himself now, maybe he will take revenge on me severely in the future!What's frightening about Yang is that Wu Yaling doesn't take such a serious problem seriously.Just now, she came to see me.God knows what would have happened if David had seen her talking to me just now standing in the dark snow!