Chapter 49 On difficult days (10)

With the help of Wu Yaling, my life became "rich".I bought a fleece jacket and a pair of padded shoes with the money I did as a part-time job in the Armed Forces Department, and I also exchanged a small dish ticket for Dazao, so I could eat a "C dish" a day if I could. I know that many of the money I used were given to me by Wu Yaling herself.Whenever I think of this, my heart palpitates. I have grown up so much, and I have never had such a close relationship with a girl.Of course, for Wu Yaling and me, apart from her care for me and my gratitude to her, there is nothing else - I am clear about this.I just felt a vague dread in the presence of a strange thing.Like some other things, sometimes it is not clear what it is for. Whenever people experience something that they have never experienced, no matter whether the thing itself is good or bad, the mood is always tense and restless.

But to be honest, I really don't want to lose this new life.Money is very important to me, but the most important thing is spiritual gains.Isn't the most important thing for people to live in the world is the friendship between people?Especially when you are in trouble, the friendship shown to you by others is more precious than anything else. Every day after dinner, I go to the county armed forces department to work.The way of life is already familiar.Wu Yaling and I cooperated very well, and we did more and more every day.Wu Yaling told me that the Armed Forces Department has a lot of odd jobs, and after this job is done, she will contact other businesses.Since we got along for a while, we became a little more casual.Sometimes I dare to hum a song tremblingly.But when singing, her back is always facing Wu Yaling.At this time, I knew that she had stopped working, and stood behind me and listened quietly.Sometimes, suddenly, she added her clear and soft soprano voice to my low singing voice, which made my voice tremble immediately, and my voice was involuntarily out of tune, and even suddenly hoarse.

At this time, she stopped singing, and said with a giggle: "My voice is probably like a tiger's voice..." Ah, there are such happy moments in life!For a country bumpkin who was discriminated against, this sudden scene was as incredible as a fairy tale.This is a cold winter, but also a warm winter; this is a poor winter, but also a fulfilling winter; this is a winter that can never be forgotten!Due to the improvement in both material and spiritual aspects, even I myself feel that I have become a little more "spirited".I felt that my back was straighter, my feet were firmly on the ground, and my thoughts became more agile.

But the good times didn't last long.Soon, an ominous atmosphere emerged.I felt that many students in the class began to look at Wu Yaling and me with a strange look.Zhou Wenming, in particular, gestured to the students and winked, as if Wu Yaling and I had done something bad.What hurt me so much was not the attitude of my classmates towards me, but because Wu Yaling suffered such an injustice.I'm used to all kinds of bullying, but how can she stand it?She has a good heart! I now know what my original vague fear was, all because of me, and now it hurts someone else.Yaling has strong self-esteem and has always had high prestige among her classmates. This kind of pressure and blow is too serious for her.What's more, this incident also affected the third person——

Zheng David.The relationship between David and Yaling has always been very good, everyone knows this.I myself often feel vaguely that the relationship between Yaling and David is probably what people often call "falling in love". It can be seen that due to other people's nonsense about me and Wu Yaling's long and short, it made David feel very uncomfortable.The gloating Zhou Wenming deliberately poured some of the worst words into his ears.One morning, I wanted to take a look at the history class that was going to be taught that day, so I walked to the classroom very early.When I walked to the door of the classroom, I had to stop.I heard two people talking inside - David Zheng and Yaling Wu.

"David, what's the matter with you calling me into the classroom so early! Why didn't you speak?" "...Yaling, I'm...very distressed! What's going on with you and Ma Jianqiang? "Listen to Zhou Wenming's bullshit! Don't you look, Ma Jianqiang is such an honest person! He is miserable enough now! I just help him solve some difficulties, let him do some odd jobs in the armed forces department, earn two money……" "Then can't you use other methods to help him? For example, give him some money and food coupons... If your family doesn't have any spares, our family can help... Forget it, I'll give him some." Don’t do this! David, you don’t even know that Ma Jianqiang is a person with a very strong self-esteem. You must not hurt his self-esteem. Don’t you think about it, a person who has reached such a point and lives with integrity, What else is there to support but precious self-esteem?"

"Then you can't always let him go to the Armed Forces!" "The Ministry of Armed Forces is the Ministry of People's Armed Forces. He's not a spy, so why not go there to sabotage? Why not!" Speak! How ridiculous! I am not afraid!" "This is too much for me..." "I didn't expect you to be so ridiculous! This is my own business, what has nothing to do with you! Don't worry about it!" "You..." "What's wrong with me?" "Ah..." Ah!I quickly left the door of the classroom and ran towards the leafless grove in the southwest corner of the campus.I feel bad and ashamed!I've had other people bring such troubles!I held the stack of vegetable tickets in my pocket like a handful of kudzu needles. The new fleece on my body and the new cotton shoes on my feet were also very dazzling.

I knew all this was unattractive--just trying to look on the bright side.In fact, I kept turning a blind eye to myself: on the one hand, I knew that my money was given to me by Wu Yaling in disguise, and on the other hand, I tried to comfort myself that it was "earned by labor" .Now, things have finally reached such an embarrassing situation!I am really like a thief caught by someone.People's mistakes often come from their own momentary weakness! Since then, I dare not look into David's eyes anymore. I think he should hate me; I'm sorry for him—whatever his troubles are, I caused them.

It seemed that David was really completely in a deep distress, and he didn't even speak at ordinary times.His peaceful heart and comfortable life were completely broken.In the past, after school in the afternoon, he always left the school with Wu Yaling; now, he left quietly with his head bowed.During self-study, he would ignore anyone except lying on the table and doing homework.Sometimes Wu Yaling talked to him, but he pretended not to hear.No matter how mature he looks compared to the average classmates, he is still a young man who is far less than twenty years old!At this moment, the rumors of Zhou Wenming, who loves to make trouble, spread more fiercely, and everyone in the class talked behind their backs.I, Wu Yaling, Zheng David, have all become targets of attack.Usually, the three of us are the best in the class and are often praised by the teacher.At our age, everyone is more or less jealous, and now such a thing has finally happened, which can make everyone happy.That's all for nothing, but the most serious thing is that an extremely embarrassing suspicion has emerged between the three of us who were attacked!Because of David's distress, others felt that Wu Yaling and I really had something unclear!Wu Yaling is also a stubborn person by nature, and she is not willing to give in to David's attitude at all.As for me, what can I do?The misunderstanding was due to me, and how could I do anything to either of them other than pain and depression?If so, that would make things even more sour!what should I do?I'm in endless trouble...

What happened, I thought, is irreparable, but at least I can do it: Never go to the Armed Forces again!And keep away from Wu Yaling - I should still go back to my own solitude.