Chapter 27 Amy: Until Death (20)
The two lay down under the quilt again and hugged each other, but because there was an arc in the middle, the so-called "hugging together" means that the upper half of the two hugged together, making a "person" shape.The chevron is still doing self-criticism: "I'm sorry --- sorry --- just now --- too --- excited ---"
With a swipe of the word "人", he said, "Why do you keep saying 'I'm sorry'? Do you feel bad?"
"Okay! So-- well-- I'm-- fine --- but you-- not okay?"
"Hello, I'm fine--" she explained, "I'm not suitable now--too excited--for fear of affecting the children--"
"Then--we won't--will be like this--"
She didn't answer, thinking it's up to you?You still have to listen to my dispatch of troops and generals, I tell you to stand at attention, don't you dare to rest a little bit?But she didn't say it, she just turned around, turned her back to her, and let him sleep with her arms around her from behind, so that the two people changed from the word "person" to the word "a".
He put his arms around her and said softly: "Yan'er, it's really like a dream --- even more unbelievable than a dream ---"
"Me too---" She wanted to hear more from him, but she knew that he must be very sleepy and sleepy, so she yawned first, and said sleepily: "Well, I'm so sleepy, I didn't sleep well last night." Sleep well, go to bed early--"
He didn't dare to speak anymore, he just hugged her tightly.She was so still, breathing so evenly that he thought she was asleep.As expected, he was attracted by her, and soon fell asleep.She heard him breathing evenly behind her back, and knew that he was really asleep, and she was a little proud of her tricks, but she herself didn't fall asleep for a long time, always thinking about the child in her belly, worried that it might be a boy.
The two men she has experienced in her life have completely changed her previous views on male gender superiority. In the past, she really wanted to be a boy, so that she could avoid the monthly troubles and the pain of pregnancy and childbirth. , can be less bound by many worldly concepts, but these two men let her see the weakness of men --- it should be said that they are "hard and soft", there are soft and hard, sometimes soft and sometimes hard.Don't look at that guy is not big, but he is really difficult to deal with. Too soft is a trouble, too hard is also a trouble; not getting up is a trouble, not getting down is a trouble; old and not bubbling is a trouble, too early Bubbling is also a nuisance.
The most troublesome thing is that it seems to have its own will. Not only is it not the party commanding the gun, but in many cases it is basically the gun commanding the party.A boy may become a "governor" in his teens, and his "soft underbelly" can become "hard underbelly", and a map can be drawn on the bed sheet.They have sexual impulses and requirements at such a young age, but they have to wait until they are in their twenties to get married and have a normal sex life. Isn't it too painful and prone to deviations in the past ten years?
People like Zhuoyue can be said to have gone to an extreme, indulging in self-entertainment, and then being "helped" and "helped" by Aunt Jiang ignorantly, making a "soft and hard underbelly" into such a bad temper, normal sex I can't even reach a climax in my life, and I may not even be able to use my mouth in the future, so what should I do?But people like Huang Hai have gone to another extreme, suppressing themselves too much, making their "soft and hard underbelly" so weak that they still can't live a normal sex life in the end.
Women don't seem to have this problem, at least she doesn't, and aside from the slightly annoying monthly period, she's never had any inconveniences.She had only heard about the horror of having a baby, and she hadn't experienced it herself, but since so many people had given birth and survived it, it must not be that scary.Pregnancy didn't make her hate being a woman, on the contrary, pregnancy made her proud of being a woman, because she could have the most beautiful arc in the world, because her arc was making a life carefree life.
What she is worried about now is the life under the arc. If it is a son, won't he also suffer from the "hard and soft underbelly"?Whether it is like Zhuoyue or like Huang Hai, it is suffering.She thought that her son had to endure the pain of "sexual unemployment" for more than ten years, and she didn't know whether he would meet a woman who loved and cared for him, and she was very worried.At one moment she thought her son was Zhuozhuo, and at another moment she felt that her son was Huang Hai. She couldn't think of a way to solve the problem of boys' "sexual unemployment", and she couldn't think of a way to deal with "soft and hard underbelly" correctly. She can only pray that she will not have a son, and she herself is more considerate of this other's son behind her.
In the first few days, Shi Yan was quite worried that Zhuo Zhuo would run into the Heavenly Palace if he bumped into him, and also worried that the neighbors would gossip, but it turned out that these two worries were unnecessary.First of all, Excellence didn't come at all, which made her very curious, what on earth was he busy with?Are you so busy that you don't even have the time to catch rape?Especially when the clues have been found, they didn't come to investigate in depth. This is too unlike Zhuo Liang.In connection with his lofty ambitions, she felt that he had gone to Jinggangshan to start a revolution. He might be eating pumpkin soup with red rice and discussing with Chairman Mao about encircling the cities from the countryside. Otherwise, why didn't he come to catch her?
As for the neighbors in the neighborhood, they didn't know her marital status at all. They only smelled a little entertainment value from the fact that she didn't stay in the teacher's college, but was transferred to the middle school for the children of the steel factory. They knew that she was a person with a story, so When they saw Huang Hai coming in and out of her house, they each used their literary creativity to conceive several versions of love and marriage stories for her, and sometimes came to her for verification, but she could see that these people were involved in this matter. The ignorance and ignorance in the matter are used as a matter of course, and the answers are always confused, making people confused which version is correct.
During the few days when Huang Hai stayed in City D, Shi Yan gave him a few more bed tutoring lessons in order to consolidate his teaching achievements.As the saying goes, as long as the skill is deep, the iron rod comes from embroidery needles. Although Huang Hai has not yet reached the level of the iron rod, her revolutionary subjective initiative has been greatly strengthened. She no longer needs to spend so much effort grinding needles. It can complete the transformation process from embroidery needles to iron rods.
But he never dared to take the initiative to take the class. It was she who personally did the research, got the first-hand information, and then asked him for proof: "Do you want to go to the class?"
He covered it up and said, "No----"
She showed evidence and laughed at him: "Why is it the same as American imperialism? They are all sharpened, and they say they have no aggressive ambitions---"
He hugged her a little embarrassedly: "I said I didn't want to do this, I don't know why it became like this again---"
"Wouldn't it be nice to be like this? It would break my heart if you didn't come across me--"
"But you said you couldn't—"
"I can't be afraid of anything? As long as you can ---" But he firmly refused to "eat alone", so she had to lift the ban for herself, "Let's go to class together, it shouldn't matter to me now, because the child has grown up, just in case I can grow up healthy even after I was born, but it’s even better to be born now, because you are here to take care of me.”
This fascinated him: "Really? Can I really give birth now? Then do it while I'm here--"
They began to make love in a regular way. Although she said that she hoped that the child would come out now, she was still very worried that the child would come out too early.What Huang Hai said is right, the time when a person stays in the mother's womb can be called carefree, once it is born, how can there be no worries?Even as a baby, don't you still have worries?It's just that it can't speak, it can't express, otherwise, how could the baby cry when it's hungry, and cry when it urinates?Isn't that what it is telling the parents that it is uncomfortable?
She doesn't want to deprive her child of this carefree time, she wants her child to be mature, so she tries her best to restrain herself every time she makes love, and fakes an orgasm in the third part, making Huang Hai dance with joy, She was soon attracted by her.
When they are not doing their homework in bed, they are like an old married couple, living a peaceful and warm life, watching TV together, sleeping late together, going grocery shopping together, and then Huang Hai cooks and she guides them.Like a husband going away, he tried his best to arrange everything he could think of.
He originally wanted to hold a wedding at the "Dongdong" this time, but because Xiao Fu refused to go, the wedding was not completed. Although some money was wasted, there was still some left over, which his parents gave him.He proposed to buy a refrigerator: "Yan'er, I have some money here, let's buy a refrigerator, it's too inconvenient without a refrigerator, you have to buy vegetables every day, and eat as much as you cook, otherwise the leftovers will spoil , besides, when the child grows up, he still wants to eat popsicles, and the watermelon is frozen, and the child also likes to eat it---"
If she didn't accept it, he acted aggrieved, as if she didn't treat him as a family member, so she quickly agreed.After buying the refrigerator, he proposed to buy a washing machine.If the refrigerator can save money in Shi Yan's world, then the washing machine is really necessary. If there is no washing machine, you have to wash it by hand.
After I bought the washing machine, I realized that the layout of the house was too old and there was no place for the washing machine. The bathroom and kitchen were too small to fit the washing machine.In the end, Huang Hai had to make two holes in the wall of the living room, let the water come in through the pipe from the washroom, let the outlet pipe of the washing machine go into the washroom, and the washing machine is placed in the living room.Shi Yan found a flower cloth to cover it, and put a plastic flower pot on it when not in use, so as to fool people.
He also asked Shi Yan to borrow a tricycle from the school. He went to the steel factory to buy a lot of coal and came back. He painted several houses, repaired the potholes in the ground, and replaced the broken glass on the windows. The crooked stove was rebuilt, in short, any "one" he could think of, and all "one" that Shi Yan needed, he would give her "one".
Even Granny Wang on the opposite side has benefited from the Yellow Sea. Granny Wang's son is a worker in a steel factory, but he is very incompetent and idle. He only knows how to play cards and gamble outside. In his thirties, he doesn't even mention his daughter-in-law. Not to mention, Granny Wang often used a dustpan to ask for a dustpan when the coal was burned out, and asking her son to buy coal was as difficult as peeling his skin.
Granny Wang has gone to Shi Yan's house to beg for coal a few times. This time Huang Hai went to buy coal, so she bought some coal for Grandma Wang, dragged it several times with a tricycle, and piled up her own kitchen. There was a huge pile in the living room.Granny Wang was very grateful, and said: "Your living room has such good furniture. If you can't pile coal, you can pile it in my house. When you need it, just come and get it."
Before Huang Hai left, the two were naturally inseparable. Shi Yan wanted to see him off at the station, but he refused, saying that she should rest more, and he was also afraid that people would laugh at him if he cried at the station.On the night before leaving, after the two had made love, Huang Hai said, "Yan'er, as soon as I go back--- divorce---"
She was startled: "Divorce? What are you doing with divorce?"
He was stunned for a while, and said, "Divorced---so I can be with you---"
"We are so far apart, how can we stay together after we are divorced?"
"I can transfer here--"
"Are you transferred to teach middle school? Don't be stupid, can't you do well in University A? Are you going to transfer to this shitty place?"
Both of them have nothing to say. They have never brought up this topic during the few days they were together. Both of them try their best to avoid talking about each other's "spouse". It feels like those two people don't exist at all. This is how it is currently.Now that I mentioned it, I suddenly woke up. It turns out that both of them are people with masters, and neither of them is free.
She said: "Xiao Fu is sick, so don't force her to get a divorce. If she --- dislikes you and wants a divorce, then get one. If she doesn't have that intention and you bring it up, it doesn't mean ---Let her --- be abandoned again? One abandonment will make her like that, and if she suffers again, will you still make her live? "
He probably knew this too, so he didn't refute, just said: "But I never married her --- in thought, I just helped her --- go abroad, and I never --- did that with her. This kind of thing will never happen in the future--"
She persuaded him: "Why do you do this? If she doesn't want to, of course you can't force her, but if she wants that, why do you have to --- reject her? Do things that are neither bad for her nor you. What's wrong with doing it?"
He asked inexplicably, "How could you-- like this? You don't-- care about me at all?"
"Why don't I care? It's because I care about you so much---love you so much---" she said sincerely, "I'm telling the truth, before All I think about is how much you love me --- will people gossip when I'm with you --- will you lose my face --- but now I don't think that --- I think What matters is whether you are happy or not --- how painful it will be for you when others gossip --- not how much I lose face --- if you don't care if others gossip --- then I don't care --- since I'm so far away The place --- doesn't help you -- so why doesn't it let you get --- pleasure from her?"
As soon as Huang Hai left City D, Excellence came, making Shi Yan flustered, suddenly felt that fate was smiling at her, and let these two enemies pass by, and suddenly suspected that Excellence had been spying on her, otherwise how could he seize the opportunity It was so good, Huang Hai walked on the front foot, and he arrived on the back foot?Fortunately, she didn't go to the station to see Huang Hai off, otherwise Granny Wang at the opposite door would definitely tell Zhuoyue that "she went to see off his husband", and then there would be a good show.
When Excellence came, she was sitting on the sofa in the living room thinking of Huang Hai, when she suddenly heard the sound of a motorcycle outside, followed by a knock on the door, knowing that it was Excellence, her heart was beating wildly, and when she got up to open the door, A terrifying and absurd scene appeared in front of her eyes: Huang Hai was captured by Zhuo Liang from the train station, and Zhuo Liang in black leather was pushing Huang Hai, whose hair was wet and messy, to confront her.
She opened the door with trepidation, and saw a group of children surrounded by two motorcyclists in black leather clothes. One motorcyclist was holding a gas stove, and the other was rolling a gas jar. The man was bowing and holding the gas jar Let the body of the altar tilt, one side of the bottom of the altar is on the ground, and roll forward. It is estimated that rolling this way saves more effort than carrying it on the shoulders, but the bottom of the altar is round, and it refuses to roll straight forward, and always twists and turns. The ground rolled out of an arc, and the man had to correct the direction at any time.
Because she couldn't see the man's face, she only thought it was Huang Hai from his body shape, but how Huang Hai was wearing a black leather suit and how he was with Zhuo Liang really puzzled her.She couldn't help but be in a daze, Zhuoyou shouted happily: "Yan'er, I finally got the gas!"
She was even more dazed, before deciding whether to accept it or not, two motorcyclists had already brought things into the house, one was leading the way to the kitchen in front, the other was bowing and rolling the gas jar behind, this time she After seeing it clearly, that person was not Huang Hai, but a stranger she had never seen before.She didn't dare to refuse, fearing that he would be furious if he refuted his reputation in front of outsiders.
Joyo went into the kitchen, put the gas stove on the desk she used as a chopping board, kicked the coals piled on the ground with her feet, and said disdainfully: "What age is it still burning coal? Now there is gas, These rotten things are useless. Go ask anyone who wants coal, tell them to take it all, and save you the trouble of hauling it to the garbage dump--"
She disagreed: "I'm going to use these coals for a fire--"
He probably realized that the gas could not be used to warm the fire, so he didn't insist anymore, he just looked around for a place to put the gas jar, and finally decided to pull the coal grill under the table aside, and stuffed the gas jar under the desk.It can be seen that the man who came with him is better at manual work than Zhuo Zhuo. He pulled the coal, put the gas jar, put the gas stove, and connected the gas jar with the gas stove. , command where to put it.
All this happened so suddenly, before Shi Yan could completely calm down from the shock, the gas stove was already sitting on her desk where the oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar were placed, and the oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar were swept away to a corner inside.Zhuoyou turned on the gas stove with a bang, and the blue transparent flame fluttered gently, winning the admiration of the onlookers outside the window.
Zhuo Zhuo asked her for a towel, wiped her hands and said, "Yan'er, is there any fish at home? I already told Xiao Fan that the fish with pickled cabbage you cook is better than that of 'Sichuan Cuisine King'--- - "
She heard that Zhuo Zhuo and Xiao Fan were going to stay here for dinner, and she couldn't think of any reason to refuse, so she said: "There is still fish, but it is on the refrigerator, it needs to be thawed, I'll go outside and buy one-" --" When she mentioned the refrigerator, she regretted it a bit, fearing that it would attract Zhuoyou's attention and make him guess the origin of the refrigerator, which would cause a big fuss.
It was Xiao Fan who would come and take the initiative to say: "Why bother my sister-in-law to go? I'll go out with Lao Zhuo to buy fish---"
It was a few steps long, and the two rode their motorcycles, followed by a group of watching children, yelling and shouting, it could be seen that Zhuo Zhuo and Xiao Fan were very useful, and their faces were full of pride.
She started to cook, and suddenly realized that in just ten days, she had made all the mistakes of "the third party intervening" and "the red apricot cheating".Before today—strictly speaking, before today's magic weapon—she never thought that she was a third party, and she didn't realize that she had already stepped into the ranks of cheating girls , My mind is full of love and love, I completely forget who Xiao Fu is, and I also forget that there is an outstanding comrade in the world.
The Yellow Sea is far away, and she has never seen that little Fu before, so her feeling of "the third party" is not as obvious as the feeling of "the red apricot is out of the wall".If Excellence never showed up on the first day of junior high school, then she would not have the feeling of "Hong Xing", or if Zhuo Zhuo's appearance was just to show up, but to Xingshi to question her, then she would not have "Hong Xing" It’s a feeling, but he just sent such a pot of gas over, and such an old couple commended her cooking skills outside, and recruited diners for her, and immediately put her into the ranks of Hongxing sisters, and it was out of her The red apricot sister of the wall.
She doesn't know whether Zhuo Zhuo will stay here temporarily or for a long time. If it is a long stay, it will be terrible. The neighbors will definitely see the flaws. Who is that man for so long?", she will be ruined.
But Zhuoyue is probably here for a long-term stay this time, because what he brought over is his gas stove, he must have been tired of eating in the cafeteria for a while, and he wants to come to her to improve his life, or someone over there asked about it. When his wife came, he couldn't bear face, so he had to come and live with his wife.He doesn't have to go to work, he only has classes two or three days a week, and it's no problem to ride a motorcycle back and forth.
Don't look at her being justified every time she leaves from Zhuoyue, but she still feels a little guilty if she sternly refuses to visit him, especially after what happened with Huang Hai, even her own She is aware of her red apricot-like guilt, but now she seems to be on a Mercedes-Benz train and can't stop. She can't say that when Zhuo Zhuo and Xiao Fan come back from buying fish, she sternly tells them to get out Bar?
She just finished the banquet in such a daze, while the two men sat in the living room chatting after buying vegetables.She was chopping with knives and axes in the kitchen, frying and frying, making a lot of noise, and couldn't hear what they were talking about, but the overall feeling was that they were in "Dung and Dirt, Ten Thousand Households", but their "Back then "Including "this year" too, because she heard them talk about some people who are still alive, and the "surviving" ones who are "reigning" have been subjected to their "dung", and they put the top to the center and the bottom to the D Leaders at all levels in the city have been demoted to nothing.
She cooked a fish with pickled cabbage that had been "blown out" by Zhuoyou, as well as his favorite favorites, shredded tripe in red oil, fried peanuts, spicy tofu, etc. After seeing the dishes, the two men remembered that they didn't buy wine. They said in unison that such a good dish would be a pity if you don’t drink a few sips, so they dispatched a motorbike team and went to the canteen a few steps away to buy beer in a big way.
It took a long time to eat that meal, mainly because the two male diners ate vainly while discussing politics. They were living in a hut, looking at the world, and their humble status did not dare to forget to worry about the country.It had been several hours since Shi Yan finished eating, and several people were killed watching the TV series. Those two hadn't finished watching the world, and she had to help them bring a few cold dishes to the kitchen to reheat them several times.
Later, the two men finally satiated with food and drink, and Xiao Fan left quickly, while Zhuo Zhuo went to the toilet to urinate, and when he came out, he said to her: "I drank too much, go to sleep, and please wash the dishes." Bar---- "
She put away the dining table and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, feeling even more uneasy.It seems that Zhuozhuo is staying here for a long time. She suspects that he really went to Jinggangshan this winter vacation and learned the three major disciplines and eight points of attention of the revolutionary army. Otherwise, why would he be so polite and "trouble" her to wash the dishes? Woolen cloth?People who don't know heard this and thought that Joyo was doing the dishes all the time, and it was "unprecedented" for her to do the dishes.
After tidying up, she tiptoed to the door of the bedroom to have a look, and found that Excellence was already breathing heavily.She went over to cover him with a quilt, took out a quilt by herself, and lay down on the sofa. Although she was very tired, she couldn't sleep, thinking about her marriage with Excellence.
She didn't know how Excellence viewed their marriage. For her, she was always puzzled by the marriage certificate. After all, she was not present to sign it, so she always felt that it didn't look like a real marriage certificate.At first, she was worried that the marriage certificate was not legally binding, and she could not obtain the fertility indicators, but now she was worried that the marriage certificate was too legally binding, binding her to Excellence.She decided to ask a knowledgeable person. If the marriage certificate was legally binding, she would apply for a divorce; if the marriage certificate was not legally binding, she would tell Zhuoyue to tell him not to look for her again.But she didn't know what to do until she found out.
It was getting dark outside, and Zhuo Zhuo hadn't gotten up to open the way yet, so she became more and more uneasy, afraid that he would come to trouble her when she went to bed at night.Even if she didn't make trouble, sleeping with him now on the same bed that she slept with Huang Hai would make her sick to the point of embarrassment.It suddenly occurred to her that the bed was actually excellent, and if he was going to sleep there tonight, she really had no reason to drive him to sleep on the sofa.She also thought about the fact that in the past ten days or so, she had been sharing the same quilt with Huang Hai on Zhuoyou's bed, and she couldn't help but get goosebumps, why didn't she think about it at the time?
If I had known this, I shouldn’t have agreed to Zhuo Liang to bring the furniture. If she hadn’t shipped it, she would still have a broken bed. Now that broken bed has been thrown away. If she ordered Zhuo Liang to take the furniture away, she would still have to run around Go make a bed.There must be beds for sale, but moving, assembling, and having to find someone to help is extremely troublesome.
What happened later made her feel that fate was smiling at her again, because just as she was there, unable to sleep, Zhuo Zhuo rushed out of the bedroom and shouted: "Hey, it's true that women are wronging the country." What's the matter! You made me late for a meeting at six o'clock, and I, the host, am late by myself. What are you talking about----"
She intuited that this was not her responsibility. The so-called women misjudged the country must have been misunderstood in the gentle village. How could one misunderstand the country while the other was on the sofa?But she didn't argue, because judging by his expression, he wasn't really condemning her, but was boasting that she had a country that could be misunderstood by women, and a country that women could misunderstand her own.She pretended to be nonchalant and asked: "Do you have a meeting? Why don't you tell me so I can wake you up?"
He didn't answer, but said in a hurry: "Is there still a lot of food left for lunch? Help me find something to pack, I'll take it home to eat, anyway, you don't eat those spicy dishes---" After finishing speaking, he rushed in To the toilet.
When she saw that he was going to take the vegetables back to eat, she knew that he would not come back here tonight at least, and she was secretly happy. She only wished that she didn't cook more vegetables today, and let him bring enough vegetables to eat for a lifetime, so he probably wouldn't Are you here to find her?She hurriedly found a few lunch boxes, filled him with the leftover vegetables from noon, spicy and not spicy, packed them in plastic bags and tied them up, and asked him to take them home to eat.
He came out of the toilet, took the plastic bag in her hand, said, "Then I'm leaving," and ran out in a hurry.
Later when she told Yao Xiaoping about this, Yao Xiaoping laughed at her: "You really have never seen the world, the main reason is that you have met too few suitors in your life, just these two men, just such a little bit of courtesy, you can be taken away." Impressed, but still very guilty? What do you have to feel guilty about? One of them --- their own conditions are only that way, you don't dislike him chasing you and lowering your status, it's good, and you don't need to be grateful to him? He deserves to be attentive. If he doesn’t behave better, how can he get your love? The other one is your husband. He shouldn’t have brought you a gas stove? In my opinion, he hasn’t done enough. If he fulfills his duties as a husband, Huang Hai won't have the opportunity to be courteous---"
She had to admit that Yao Xiaoping's words had some truth, but she always felt that something was wrong.She admired Yao Xiaoping's ability to deal with such things from the bottom of her heart. When Huang Hai was still in D City, Yao Xiaoping's family of three came to her place. They played happily all day, as if two old couples were gathering together. He didn't even mention the word "excellence" or ask any embarrassing questions. Only Xiao Gang made a fuss about Huang Hai's appearance.
At that time, she was worried that Yan Jing would tell Zhuoyue about this matter, so she asked Yao Xiaoping to be strict in private.But Yao Xiaoping patted her chest and assured her: "Don't worry, you won't do that if you are rigorous. Among other things, he has been with me for so long, and even if he hasn't learned the glorious qualities in me, look at me. I've seen it too---"
She was still in the old habit of telling Yao Xiaoping everything, because she had too many things in her heart, and it was very annoying to entangle her in a mess without asking anyone to talk to.Moreover, she had been with Yao Xiaoping for so long, and she knew that Yao Xiaoping was not a messenger. Yao Xiaoping knew what to say and what not to say.The most valuable point is that Yao Xiaoping herself is not a model of moral integrity, so she told Yao Xiaoping that there was no psychological pressure.
But Yao Xiaoping was not optimistic about her relationship with Huang Hai, so she poured cold water on her head: "Are you stupid now? Originally, he had already suppressed himself so much that he had no ability or interest. After being taught by you like this, let him He has tasted the sweetness of doing that, and he has a wife who is a flower, so why not work day and night and enjoy the blessings of everyone?"
This made her very unhappy. Could it be that in Yao Xiaoping's eyes, she was Huang Hai's "concubine"?But it's not easy for her to refute, because no matter how she refutes, she can only refute the title of "concubine" at best, and it is impossible to refute her as Huang Hai's "wife".
She stated: "He said he wouldn't talk to Xiao Fu---like---"
"Do you believe this kind of thing? A man, of course he swears in front of his lover, and he may really think so in his heart when he is around his lover. If he can take off and put on his thing, he might really He was willing to take it down and give it to his lover for safekeeping. But when he returned to his wife, especially when there was a need, he must have changed his mind again. After all, it is his own responsibility field, and it is not considered responsible if he does not cultivate it. It was a waste of an acre of land---"
What she said made her feel cold, but she still said firmly: "That's nothing, I will call him--- that way, if his lover doesn't want to be with him--- that---that's another thing- -- but if he loves --- would like that --- he doesn't have to --- I --- don't ---"
Yao Xiaoping put on her bluntly: "You are just comforting yourself. Anyway, he is someone else's husband, and you can't control him if you want to. You might as well give him freedom. If he would rather not have that freedom, then Of course you are elated. If he wants that freedom, you also have an explanation for your conscience and face: I told him to do that. Shi, stop coaxing yourself! Saying that you are happy as long as he is happy, this How is it possible? If it was your own husband, would you let him have this freedom? If he is happy with others, will you be happy?"
After talking to Yao Xiaoping about Huang Hai and Zhuoyue, Shi Yan felt "debt-free and light-hearted".Indeed, as the father of her child, Zhuo Liang should take care of her as much as possible. How could he leave her alone and leave her alone for ten and a half months?He sent the altar of gas only because he had extra gas, otherwise he would not have thought of it on her head. You see, he was reluctant to send her the altar of gas he used for bathing. ?This time, maybe it was because Xiao Fan heard his bragging and wanted to eat sauerkraut fish, so he brought Xiao Fan here to taste her cooking under the banner of delivering gas.
The same is true for Huang Hai, if Xiao Fu agrees to go to "Dongdong" to hold a wedding, will he still have time to come to D City?If Xiaofu's whole family warmly welcomes him to stay in City F for the Spring Festival, will he refuse the invitation of his parents-in-law for her?If his face hadn't been damaged, how could he still think of her, a woman who was pregnant with someone else's child?He must have fallen into the arms of other women long ago.Who knows if his first love is real or not?Since she foolishly said first that she was brooding over his first love, of course he went ahead and said that it wasn't his first love.
So, I really don't need to be grateful for their diligence, let alone feel like I owe them a debt, weighing heavily in my heart, always thinking about how to repay it.
But along with that feeling of being "debt free," comes the feeling of "loveless and empty."This made her a little discouraged. It turns out that life is so bleak! No one really loves you, and they only "follow the next best thing" if they can't find a better one, so everyone is "secondary". For the perfect "good" in other people's minds, you can only be a "time".And what you can find is not the perfect "good" in your mind, but also a "time".The so-called love is just a "time match", if two "times" are matched, and you have never met someone who is not good, then this "secondary match" is relatively stable; if unfortunately you meet a person who is not good, then " "Second times" is about to be subverted.
She was very dissatisfied with this "substandard" feeling, and wished that Huang Hai would go for plastic surgery now and turn him into a handsome man, so as to find out whether he loved her because he was not handsome and no one wanted her, or He does love her.
She thought about it seven times, eight times, thinking of herself in a dead end.If Huang Hai is ugly and she is not ugly, she has no way of knowing whether Huang Hai really loves her; if she is ugly and Huang Hai is not ugly, Huang Hai does not know whether she really loves him; They don't really love themselves; if neither of them is ugly, it's useless, and they are still "secondary matches", because the other party must have had a more perfect ideal lover in his mind.
Fortunately, Huang Hai chased her very closely, so that her wild thoughts would not develop to the point of severing her emotions with a knife.In the place where she lived, there was a canteen at the corner of the street, which also operated pay phones, but generally they didn't page.Before Huang Hai left, he went to make a good relationship with a kid named Xiao Ming in that family, and said that if Xiao Ming helped Shi Yan answer the phone, he would give him two yuan for each call.
Xiao Ming valued the two dollars very much, and when he got a phone call, he would call Shi Yan. Sometimes he was too aggressive, and Huang Hai didn't call, but Xiao Ming also came to call, and asked her for money after calling.When she went to answer the phone, she found that there was no one at all, so she had to revise the regulations, stating that she would not pay until she verified that it was Huang Hai who called.Only after the introduction of this policy did Xiao Ming stop the unhealthy trend of lying about military information.
Huang Hai has quite a lot of phone calls. He made a call at the train station in city D, and also made a call when he transferred to city E. After returning to city F, he made another call just after getting off the train, and arrived Big A, before he had time to take a shower and eat, he ran to the pay phone booth and called again.Although she ran to the street several times in two days, she was very happy. She liked the lingering and caring in these small details, and felt that only in this way could it be the taste of loving and being loved.
After listening to Yao Xiaoping's words, she was always uneasy, worried that after being trained by her, Huang Hai would open his eyes and would share the same bed with his crazy wife from now on.She found that she was really depraved. Not only did she use some derogatory terms to refer to the second person like the general third person, but she also tried her best to detect whether the first person and the second person were together.
She always waited until after eleven o'clock in the evening before running to the street corner in the dark to call Huang Hai. She always called his laboratory first, and then called his dormitory if he was not there.If he's not in either place, it means he's gone to his crazy wife.
她三个晚上之内打了两次电话找黄海，两次都是一打到实验室就被黄海接了。她跟他甜言蜜语了几句就问：“你--- 一个人在实验室？她不在？”
“谁？小付？她连上班都只上半天，哪里会现在还泡在这里？”
“你怎么不早点--- 回家---- 去休息呢？”她特意把“回家”两字说重一点。
“我在这里复习英语，这里安静--- 寝室里吵得很--- ”
她听说他寝室里吵得很，心里很高兴，知道他还是跟人合住的，不是跟疯老婆在一起。但她听说他在复习英语，就有点伤心，知道他是在为出国做准备，也就是在为他的疯老婆准备，准备好了，他就要出国去了，而且会把他的疯老婆带出去。她有点心酸地说：“那你好好复习吧，我不打搅你了--- ”
“燕儿，你没事吧？怎么听上去--- 情绪不那么高？”
她坦白说：“情绪是不那么高。我打这个电话，是想看看你---- 是不是---- 跟她在一起---- 听到你没跟她在一起---- 我情绪很高--- 。但是听到你--- 说你在复习英语，想到你要--- 跟她一起出国了---- 情绪就不高了--- 我是不是--- 很无聊？我凭什么管你？”
他轻声笑了一下，说：“不无聊，很有聊。我喜欢你管我，你管我说明你在乎我。你那次叫我跟她---- 什么什么--- 那才叫---- 无聊--- 不过我说的无聊---- 就是没意义的意思---- 那样说--- 没什么意义--- 只会伤我的心--- 让我觉得你不在乎我---- 。燕儿，我不会跟她在一起的，我不爱她，我只爱你。记得我送你的那块石头上的话吗？那就是我想对你说的---- ”
她听了这些很感动，本来也想如法炮制回复几句，但旁边有外人，她说不出口，就简单说了一句：“我也一样。”
每次打完电话，她就很开心，像吃了蜜糖一样，心里甜蜜蜜的。如果不是肚子沉甸甸的话，她就要一蹦三跳地回家去了。
除了打电话，他们两个人还恢复了通信的习惯，不过现在不像以前那样谈些不着边际的事了，都是很着边际的事。她跟黄海以前的通信，她去年暑假从“洞洞拐”那边回来之后就烧掉了，倒不是怕卓越看见吃醋，因为那些信根本没什么醋可吃，而且那时她还没见识过卓越吃飞醋的本事，她只是觉得那一页已经翻过去了，为迎接生活的新篇章，就烧掉了那些信。
她把这也坦白给黄海听了，还做了一番自我检讨，但黄海说烧了最好，因为那些信都是他玩小聪明弄巧成拙的证据。黄海说：“让我们现在开始初恋吧，我要把我那些信背后的话，那些我当时想说而不敢说的话，一封一封写给你。你怀着孩子，要多休息，就不用长篇大论地回我了，说个'信收到，已阅，喜欢'就行了。”
于是他们开始了初恋。她没想到她的初恋是挺着个大肚子开始的，但她的大肚子一点都没妨碍她堕入初恋，甚至还给她的初恋增添了一个话题，因为他们俩的电话和信件最少有一半时间是在讲她的大肚子弧线和弧线下的那个生命。
她每天都要到学校门房那里看看有没有自己的信，有的话，就兴高采烈地揣着信跑回家去看，没信的时候就把已经看过的信拿出来温习。他的字还是写得那么漂亮，哪怕是长篇大论，也不马虎，每个字都是那么漂亮。而他的话，也是那么动听，每一句她都喜欢。
姚小萍的眼睛自然没放过她这些掩饰不住的喜悦，打趣她说：“还是那么虚无缥缈？”
“怎么是虚无缥缈？”
“你在这里，他在那里，看不见，摸不着，最多只能打打电话写写信，还不虚无缥缈？”
“一点也不虚无缥缈，又能听见声音，又能看见落在白纸上的黑字--- ”
“看来黄海还有几把刷子，脸长得那么困难，还能把已婚少妇迷得颠颠倒倒的--- ”
“你也是少妇，如果他来迷你，能不能迷倒你？”
“我这个人讲实际，如果他脸上没那个坑，我就知道自己配不上他，干脆不做那个指望；如果他脸上有那个坑呢，我又觉得他配不上我，也不朝那方面想，所以--- 不管怎样我都是不会被他迷倒的--- ”
甜蜜的日子过了一段，有一天黄海忧心忡忡地对她说：“燕儿，小付她--- 又全休了--- ”
“为什么？”她已经猜到了一些，担心地问，“是不是你向她--- 提出离婚了？”
他支吾说：“其实我---- 没向她--- 提出--- 我只对她--- 父亲说了一下--- 她父亲就在我们学校当教授--- 我请付教授在适当的时候---- 以适当的方式--- 把我的意思--- 转达给他女儿--- 也不知道他是怎么转达的--- 小付第二天就没来上班了--- 我很担心--- 打电话去她家--- 才知道她--- 旧病复发--- 医生给她开了全休证明--- ”
这是她最担心的结果，偏偏就发生了，她心情沉重地交待说：“那你现在千万不要再给她增加压力了--- ”
他叹了口气：“这事何时才是个头？”沉默了一会，他又说，“只怪我自己--- 燕儿--- 我对不起你--- 我不应该--- 匆忙作这么个决定的--- 我那时以为--- 我从来就以为我跟你--- 是没有可能的---- ”
她也检讨说：“还是应该怪我--- 我不该那么匆忙就--- 你别逼她了吧--- 还是履行你自己的诺言--- 把她办出国去--- ”
“但她像这个样子--- 办出国去就更难--- 摆脱了--- ”
姚小萍听她讲了这事，斩钉截铁地说：“我早就料到会是这样的了! 这是已婚男人惯用的伎俩，你何曾看见过已婚男人爽爽快快为了第三者而跟他们的老婆离婚的？都是拖拖拉拉，两边挂着，只要情人没把刀架在脖子上逼他，他就乐得享齐人之福。至于不离婚的理由嘛，总不过就那几条：孩子还小啊，不能没爸爸呀，父母身体不好啊，经不起儿子离婚的打击啊。你家黄海的这个理由也不是历史上首创，老早就有男人用过了，老婆有精神病啊，一提离婚就要要死要活啊，我不能见死不救逼人去死啊。切，他早干什么去了？他要真是这么善良，这么人道主义，根本就不会惹这身狐骚，要么就一心一意善良他的老婆，要么就一心一意善良你--- ”
她替黄海辩护说：“他跟小付结婚主要是因为我那时跟卓越结婚了--- ”
“那才巧呢! 你不是说早在那之前他就有过跟'五花肉'结婚的念头吗？你那时跟卓越结婚了吗？”
她被问倒了，支吾了一阵才说：“也许那时他觉得自己配不上我---- ”
“那他怎么现在又觉得配得上你了呢？我跟你说，男人都是一个版，都想妻妾成群，一夫一妻制是他们迫不得已才接受的，但他们无时无刻不在想着恢复一夫多妻制，男人都是能骗多少女人就骗多少女人的，只要不穿帮就行--- ”姚小萍分析说，“你不是说那个小付的爸爸是A 大的教授吗？肯定是手里掌握着出国的名额，所以黄海才这么巴结他，愿意跟他的疯女儿结婚--- ”
她觉得这个说法不能成立：“如果小付的爸爸掌握着出国名额，那他的女儿怎么自己出不了国，还要靠黄海呢？”
对此姚小萍有现成的答案：“有些教授的儿女其实是很傻的，父母聪明过头了，把祖上积蓄的一点智慧都占光了，到了儿女辈就傻呆了。开后门这种事，在中国行得通，但在美国你行得通吗？人家美国大学会录取你吗？你到了美国那边活得下来吗？付教授总不能说把女儿送到美国去做街头女郎吧？而黄海就不同了，他本来就聪明，又找了这么个岳父，出国就是'裤裆里抓啥--- 稳拿把掐'了。说不定他留校也是走的这个后门--- ”
她忍不住说：“你怎么总是把--- 男人说这么坏？”
“男人本来就是这么坏。”
"What about rigor?"
“他有他的坏法。”
石燕问：“严谨怎么坏了？”
姚小萍懒洋洋地说：“他呀，他是横草不拿，竖草不拈，衣来伸手，饭来张口，懒得像条蛇--- 找到我真算是他有福气--- ”
“那是你把他惯坏了--- ”
姚小萍眼睛一翻：“我惯他？是他自己惯自己，还不是仗着他自己是青皮后生，没结过婚，年轻，就觉得自己身价高。哼，我看他离了我又能找到什么了不起的人物--- ”
她见姚小萍真生气，不敢火上浇油，只在里面打圆场：“他对你一见钟情，哪里还有心思找别人？我看他这辈子是认准你了，赶都赶不走的--- ”
姚小萍没反驳，大概这话听着还顺耳。
石燕给别人鼓劲还行，但给自己鼓劲就往往是鼓反劲，鼓来鼓去鼓得自己一肚子气。黄海仿佛是心有灵犀一气通，只要她心里对他有气，他打电话的时候很快就能觉察到：“燕儿，孩子没事吧？你没事吧？怎么听上去情绪不高？”
她也不知道他是怎么听出她情绪不高的，她感觉跟平时没什么两样，该说什么说什么，但他总是很灵敏地嗅到了不一般的味道。她知道瞒不过他，就把姚小萍的话原封不动地过给他，但说的过程当中就觉得黄海受了冤枉，边说边担心把黄海惹毛了，再不让她跟姚小萍来往，干脆自己先表个态：“我知道你不是那样的人，但是姚一说，我就觉得你--- 我看我--- 我以后还是少跟她接触，免得--- ”
“干嘛要少跟她接触？我觉得她挺不错的呀，她很有生活的智慧，她说的话都很有道理--- ”
“那你的意思--- 你也是--- 也想三妻四妾？”
他笑了起来：“我只说她的话有道理，我没说她的话也适用于我。有道理嘛，就是适用于大多数男人，适用于通常的情况，但那并不等于适用于每个男人--- ”
“那你---- 是不是那样呢？”
“我不是。我留校的时候还不认识付教授，也不认识小付，你那时也还没--- 结婚--- 。我留校也没留在什么了不得的地方，付教授也不是学校有权有势的人，所以这一点姚小萍说得不对。但是在别的方面--- 我只能说到目前为止姚小萍没说准，今后的事情，请你给我一个机会，让我天长日久地证明给你看--- ”
她没吭声，他又说：“燕儿，你不能因为别的男人做的事就判我的罪---- 株连九族也不能这样株连--- ”
她觉得他说的有道理，保证说：“我以后再也不听姚的话了，因为她总爱把男人往坏处想--- ”
“她也不算把男人往坏处想，因为世界上的确是有她说的那种男人。她现在既没证据证明我是那种男人，也没证据证明我不是那种男人，所以她的推测可以做参考，但不能定我罪。要等到了我进棺材的那一天，她才能给我下结论。如果到那时事实已经证明我不是她说的那样的男人，她还一口咬定我是那样的男人，那她就没道理了。但在那天之前，我们都不能说她的话没道理--- ”
“你真的不想--- 三妻四妾？有条件也不想？”
他笑了一阵：“我为什么要想三妻四妾？我觉得世界上有一个人值得我去想就足够了。心里装着一个人，装得满满的，不好吗？如果心里装那么多人，那肯定是每一个都不完美，都不理想，不然怎么需要到别的人那里去弥补呢？那其实是很---- 惨的，你说是不是？”
她没吭声，但心里回答说：“是，是很惨。”
“你想不想有三四个--- 情人，每个人只有一两个令你满意的地方--- 这个有的那个没有--- 那个有的这个没有--- 每个人都跟着一大串'但是'？”
“我不想--- ”
“那我为什么会希望那样呢？”
“因为你是--- 男人---- ”
“燕儿，男人跟男人也是不一样的，有的是多多益善，有的是久久益善，有的喜欢短平快的爱情，有的喜欢地久天长--- ”
“你喜欢什么样的爱情？”
“我喜欢地久天长的爱情，我觉得那才叫爱情，才难能可贵，得到了才值得骄傲。可能你又要觉得那是因为我生得丑，找不到短平快的爱情，所以只好喜欢地久天长的爱情---- 嗯---- 看来我的当务之急是去整容--- 燕儿--- 我会想办法去整容的，不为别的，就为了让孩子不怕我，也为了向你证明我的爱情不是我这张脸的副产品--- ”
她撒娇说：“我不要你去整容! 你整了容，太英俊了，就看不上我，跑到那些漂亮女孩怀抱里去了--- ”
“为什么？是我去整容，不是那些女孩去整容，她们不还跟以前一样吗？我没整容都没爱上她们，整了容又怎么会爱上她们呢？”
“你--- 以前没爱上她们，是因为你--- 觉得自己不配--- 等你整了容--- 就觉得自己--- 配得上她们了--- ”
他呵呵笑了一阵，纠正说：“你说得不对。正因为我知道我自己配不上任何人，所以我在感情的世界里是绝对自由的。我不用像别人那样，先衡量一下自己，看看哪些人有可能接受我的爱，再在那些人当中选定一个爱的目标。我反正是一个也配不上，一个也不会接受我的爱，我为什么要限定自己能爱谁不能爱谁呢？况且爱情这事，是一个人限定得了的吗？只能说一般人潜意识里有那么一个先决的框框，便有意识地去'爱'那些他们能追到手的人，不能追到的，即便心里爱了，也只好把那个爱的幼苗掐灭。而我刚好就不受那个限制---- ”
她把这话告诉姚小萍后，姚小萍说：“啊，这个黄海嘴皮子还真的很厉害呢，我都说不过他了，如果严谨有他一半会说就好了。不过这么会说的人，哄女孩子就更容易了。我很愿意跟黄海赌一赌，如果他整了容，变成了一个英俊小生，有了很多漂亮女孩追求，如果到了那时候，他还能不花心，一心一意对你好，那我就---- 把姚字倒挂起! ”
她把姚小萍的赌讲给黄海听，他听了很开心，说：“好，那就一言为定! ”
她好奇地问：“如果你赌输了呢？你把黄字倒挂起？”
“我赌输了让她把我的头倒挂起。”
她吓得再不敢提这个赌了。
黄海提议等石燕生孩子的时候，他到医院来守着她，但她不赞成这样，一个是太远了，跑来跑去得好几天，二来也太张扬了，毕竟两个人都有那么一个婚姻在那里，如果搞得人尽皆知，只有坏处没有好处。最后他们决定她生产的时候他不到D 市来，但等她回到“洞洞拐”那边之后，他去她家看望她和孩子，那样比较隐晦一点。
但黄海很不放心她一个人呆在D 市待产，催着她叫姚小萍尽快把姚妈妈接来陪她。姚小萍抽了个周末，回家把妈妈接到D 市来，在石燕客厅支了个单人床，姚妈妈就住那里。
姚妈妈果然干净利落，一看就是见过大世面的，来了没几天就会用煤炉电暖器之类的先进玩意了，还学会了到外面电话亭打电话，买菜做饭那是天生就会，不用学的。姚小萍说她妈妈是来帮忙的，叫石燕不用给她妈妈工钱，管吃管住就行了，但石燕还是一上来就给了一些工钱，好让姚妈妈买点自己喜欢的东西。
预产期还没到，石燕还没停课，孩子就提前来报到了。那天她觉得肚子痛，开始还以为是什么东西吃坏了拉肚子，但姚妈妈有经验，说可能是“发动”了，两个人慌忙火气地坐出租来到医院，一来就被送进了待产室。她疼了六七个小时，还没生下来，她想起黄海的先例，心里急得要命，催着医生给她剖腹产。
医生说她的确有了剖腹产指证，同意剖腹，但必须她的丈夫亲笔签字才行。她撒谎说她丈夫出国了，医生说那就叫家里的近亲属来签字，她说她的近亲属都不在D 市，医生不相信。她忍着阵痛跟医生狡辩了好一阵，医生才同意让姚妈妈签字。可怜的姚妈妈，吓得手脚发抖，打死都不肯签字，好像一签就会出人命一样。
不得已，只好打电话叫卓越，万幸万幸，卓越在家，听说了签字的事，马上就骑着摩托赶来了，很爽快地签了字，她被推进了手术室。
本来她的预产期正好是清明节，她心里一直有点不安，怕会有什么不吉利。但她的宝宝真懂事，提前一个星期来到人世，硬是把个清明节给她绕过了。当医生把孩子取出来之后，她也从麻醉中醒来，朦胧中听到一声嘹亮的啼哭，医生告诉她是个男孩，她哭了起来。
医生护士都以为她是喜极而泣，没谁在意。但她自己知道在哭什么，她是在担心她的儿子长大了会跟卓越一样走歪门邪道。医生把孩子抱来她看了一下，还没等她抹干眼泪看清楚，医生就把孩子抱走了，说她的伤口还没缝完。
那天晚上，卓越在医院陪她，算他运气好，刚好旁边有个空病床，暂时没住人，他就躺在那个床上睡觉。半夜的时候，她伤口痛得钻心，只好叫他起来去找医生来给她打止痛针。她叫了半天，把隔壁左右床上的人都叫醒了，他还没醒，被另一个陪夜的男人推了几把才推醒。
卓越听说是让他叫医生，很不情愿：“医生有医生的规矩的，如果你需要打止痛针，他们会不给你打？还用得着你自己去叫？忍一忍吧，动了刀总是有点痛的。你看别人都没像你这样--- ”
听他那口气，好像她怕苦怕痛丢了他的人一样，她气得要命：“我只是有一点痛吗？我一点痛会叫你？你来痛痛看! 早知道如此，还不如让姚妈妈呆在这里陪我--- ”
他劝慰说：“你别生气，生气对伤口不好--- ”
“你知道生气对伤口不好，你怎么还惹我生气？”
那个陪夜的男人听见，出来调停，说：“你痛得很厉害呀？那我去帮你叫医生吧--- ”
那人去了一会，一个穿白大褂的女孩出现在病房，给她打了一针，她才熬过了那一夜。但她第二夜就不要卓越在那里陪她了，正好那空病床也住了人，他乐得遵命回家睡安稳觉。
孩子第一次送出来喂奶的时候，她又哭了，因为孩子长得跟卓越一模一样。医生护士同病房的人，个个都夸奖她的孩子英俊，以为她是太高兴才哭的，谁也不知道她正是在为孩子的“英俊”而哭。
卓越到医院来看她和孩子，这下大家都恍然大悟，说难怪孩子这么英俊呢，有其父必有其子嘛。一时间，有五六个产妇上来攀亲，有几个还没生的也在里面搀和，说如果生了女儿就要跟卓越打亲家，搞得卓越无限风光，抱着孩子给这个看给那个看，还自作主张地说孩子叫“卓识”，远见卓识的意思。
后来有人打听到卓越是已故美男市长卓夫的儿子，又是一阵惊叹，以为卓越也是什么大干部，个个都很景仰。卓越对这些误传谣传也不加以纠正，让大家去将错就错，错上加错。“卓识”跟他爸爸“卓越”成了产科病房的明星人物，而“卓识”的妈妈是谁，反而被人遗忘了。
石燕也懒得去争什么风，劈什么谣，感觉这都跟她没关，她早就为孩子想好名字了，不用那些气贯长虹的辞汇，就叫个“石靖”，因为“靖”是“平安”“安康”的意思，她只要她的孩子平安健康就行。
卓越让石燕去他妈妈那边坐月子，她不同意，说她要回“洞洞拐”去。他有点不高兴：“我妈给你们把房间都准备好了，再说你跑那么远，我怎么去看孩子？”
她不敢跟他正面交锋，怕把他惹恼了，他会抱起孩子就跑。他压着火气说：“你这个人就是这样，总爱闹别扭，做什么事都不替别人着想，只由着自己的性子来。”
她差点跟他吵起来，但她怕被同病房的人听见，驳了他的面子，他会使狠劲报复她，只低声说：“我为什么不愿意去你妈妈那边，你自己心里清楚--- ”
这颗子弹厉害，直中要害,他的气焰低了下去，辩解说：“你这样说就没道理了，你知道的，那事早就过去了，我从那以后就没有跟她---- ”
她绷着脸说: "我没说你---我是担心---儿子---"
他愣了,好一阵才咋摸出她的意思, 缓和了口气说:“你要跑回那么远的乡下去，那就不怪我不去看你们了，我这段时间忙得很--- ”
她赶快说：“我知道你忙，就别操心往那里跑了吧，我下学期开学前就回来了--- ”
他那天下去专门带他妈妈到医院来看孙子，没带姜阿姨，搞得石燕心里有点歉然，一定是她说了那个话，他才不敢让姜阿姨来医院看石靖的. 她很担心，生怕卓越为了说服她去他妈妈那边坐月子，就把姜阿姨解雇掉，还好他没再提那事。
乔阿姨见了孙子，激动得热泪盈眶，抱在手里，连声说：“跟越儿小时候一个样。”
大概卓越在家里已经给他妈妈事先通过气了，所以乔阿姨没提叫石燕去她家坐月子的事，还抱歉说：“小石啊，我最近身体不大好，不能帮你照顾孩子，就全靠你父母了--- ”
她像听到大赦令一样，感恩戴德，连忙客气一番，说了一些感谢的话，又祝乔阿姨早日康复，身体健康，永远健康。婆媳二人亲切友好地交谈了一阵，卓越就陪着乔阿姨离开了医院，再没来过。
姚小萍和严谨把石燕接出了院，回到她自己的窝。等他们走后，她第一件事就是张罗给孩子上户口，她不敢把这事交给别人去办，只好冒着落下病根的风险亲