Chapter 28 Amy: Until Death (21)
After listening to Huang Hai's words, Shi Yan felt uneasy and proud.Of course, she is proud that she and Jing'er shared Huang Hai's entire world equally, but what is uneasy is that she is afraid that she will drag him down and turn the passionate young man into a person who doesn't care about society.She reminded him: "I heard that the central government has expressed its support for the student movement. If you don't participate, will it be---"
Huang Hai's news seems to be more closed than her: "The central government has expressed its position? I haven't heard of it---"
"I read in the newspaper that people from the central government also took to the streets to march---"
"Oh, that's right. It doesn't mean that the central government wants people from the central government to go to the parade." Huang Hai joked, "If the central government has called on everyone to parade, I don't have to go. There must be enough people; if the central government There is no call, I don’t even need to go, it’s useless to go—”
"Why? I think you used to be very -- concerned about national affairs -- I don't want you to be -- because of me -- "
He hesitated for a while, then said: "I didn't care about national affairs before. I went to the grassroots. I just saw a few unreasonable things. I wanted to help correct them within my ability, but there was nothing. It’s done, and it’s made you worry about me. Now, to be honest, I don’t understand very well. I don’t know what the purpose of the student parade is—”
"Isn't it anti-corruption?"
"Corruption is not something that can be reversed---"
She found that he was almost as backward as her father now, so she couldn't help asking: "Then how do you think you can get back?"
"I can't figure it out either, so I just don't participate--"
She didn't ask any more, because what she was worried about was that he was destroying his own youthful vigor for her and the child. Since he didn't participate because he couldn't figure it out, it wasn't her responsibility.I don't know why, but she doesn't seem to know him anymore, she always feels that he has changed a lot, he is not the same Huang Hai as before.
She talked about this feeling with Yao Xiaoping, and Yao Xiaoping said: "How can he still think about doing this now? I think he used to conduct social surveys just to get close to you, otherwise why did he go so far to City D to investigate? He Is there no coal mine near University A? Now that he has chased you, he is of course not interested in these things, and he only wants to go abroad. I think this is dangerous for you. He has to send that wife abroad. Do you still miss him? Did you send your wife to your ex-boyfriend as soon as you left the country? He must have been married a long time ago. Even if he didn't, he wouldn't want such a crazy woman. Isn't it because you Huang Hai can't bear it? ? I don’t think you’ll ever think about him divorcing his wife—”
She said stiffly, "Why do I want him to divorce?"
"You don't want him to divorce, are you willing to be his secret lover? Be the third party for the rest of your life?"
"I'm not going to be his secret lover either---"
"Then what do you want? Break up with him?"
She was very upset when she talked about it, but every time she unknowingly talked about it, she had to slap herself in the mouth and cut off the topic she brought up: "Forget it, let's not talk about it, your side How about it?"
"I was going to tell you as soon as I came up, but you preempted it. Your family's excellence was approved the day before yesterday----"
She was a little surprised: "Really? Why?"
"I heard from Yan Jing that they ran to the cafeteria door in the middle of the night to put up big-character posters, and when they went to turn on the water the next morning, they saw a lot of words written in red pen, saying that they wanted to 'pick peaches', Someone asked to find out who posted it, saying that the person who posted this thing had ulterior motives and wanted to fish in troubled waters, and asked everyone to keep their eyes open and report any clues they found---"
She smelled a strong smell of gunpowder, and asked inexplicably, "Why do you say they picked peaches?"
"I don't understand either, so I went down to take a look. The things they posted have been torn up in a mess. It seems to be promoting an outstanding mentor, probably touting that his mentor is the leader of the student movement--- "
This didn't surprise her. Zhuo Liang always praised his mentor very much, but she didn't expect that he would be opposed by so many people when he praised his mentor. Could it be that he and his mentor are on the opposite side of the center?
Before she could figure it out, news came that Zhuozhuo was injured. The call was from Yao Xiaoping. She called her parents' work place during work hours. Her father ran back and told her to answer the phone, panting.When she saw that the phone was calling so urgently, her legs and feet became weak, and she didn't know what she was afraid of, so she felt flustered and terribly afraid.When they arrived at her parents' work place, Yao Xiaoping had already hung up the phone, presumably to ask her to call.She didn't care about the fact that there were still so many people working in her parents' unit, so she called directly from the public phone.
Yao Xiaoping waited in the concierge and did not leave, and answered the phone as soon as it rang: "Shi, don't worry, just listen to me slowly. That's how it is. The day before yesterday, your family called Yan Jing to go with him to the joint leader of M County. What kind of action, I know it’s not a good thing, so I don’t let Yan Jing go, but that guy is so courageous now, I confessed and confessed, he still ran away with Excellence. As a result, I called back the day before yesterday to say that the masses in M City are awakened Too low, messed around, clashed with the police, Zhuo Liang was injured---"
She is a person whose legs and feet will go weak no matter who sees someone's hand being scratched, and she trembles when she hears this: "Does it matter?"
"It should not be life-threatening, and there is no bone injury, but there are -- some injuries on the head and body ---" Yao Xiaoping comforted, "Don't worry, everything will be fine, his mother has already found a car to get him I came back to City D, I live in a hospital, I may be able to go home in two days, I have been running to the hospital for the past two days, and now I have time to call you----"
She gratefully said: "Thank you, you --- you are helping me, I am --- inconvenient ---"
"You don't need to come back, just take good care of you and the child. Here are me and his mother, and---Aunt Jiang---" Yao Xiaoping seemed to guess what she was thinking, and quickly explained, "It's like this, Zhuo Liang was injured this time because he wanted to protect Yan Jing and the students there. Yan Jing said that nothing would happen, if they did what Zhuo Liang said, there would be no conflicts. But the boss over there is a country bumpkin. I don't understand strategy at all, and there are a few people who have been released from labor camps. I happened to see a police officer named Chen over there. I heard that he was their enemy, and those guys rushed up. He overturned his motorcycle, and wanted to rush to the police station, which made the situation deadlocked. Zhuoyue saw that something was wrong, so he told Yan Jing and the others to leave first, where he persuaded the red-eyed students to leave- --- Result---- was beaten---"
"Yes--was--who hit--hit?"
"Those people's eyes were red, didn't they just beat him up? Maybe someone from both sides beat him---"
She didn't know which tendon was touched, she actually shed tears, and asked about Zhuo Liang's injury carefully, and didn't hang up until Yao Xiaoping swore that it really didn't matter.
As soon as she hung up the phone, her mother rushed over and asked her, "What's the matter? It's Xiaozhuo---something happened?"
Seeing that everyone in the same office was looking at her, she blamed her mother for not being able to wink, and pretended to calmly say: "No---" Then, no matter how others cared, she took the baby and left her parents' office.
Her mother chased her out and repeatedly asked what was going on, so she had no choice but to tell the truth: "Yao Xiaoping said that Zhuoyou was beaten---"
She told the story of what she knew, and her mother complained, "He left his books and didn't teach them well, so why did he go to County M? You should call him and tell him not to be so reckless again." Lost, a person in his teens is not a child, he has a family and a family, and he doesn't even think about what to do if he has something wrong, his lover's child---"
She grunted, "What's the use of talking about it now---" and ignored her mother.Unexpectedly, her mother immediately found a ride to go to City D the next day, and asked her father to make a trip in person to see Zhuo Liang, and see if he could take him back to "Dongdongguai" to recuperate from his injuries.She was in a dilemma, not knowing whether to stop her father from going to city D or follow her father to city D.
In the evening, she went to her parents' unit to make a phone call, and it was Huang Hai. After hesitating for a long time, she said that her father wanted to bring Zhuoyou back to recuperate from his injuries.Huang Hai said: "Yan'er, it is right for your parents to want to take him back to recuperate from his injuries. You must not interfere with what you should do because of me---"
"You think I should--take him--in the hole?"
He was silent for a while, then said: "I know he might not be willing to go to 'Dongdongguai', but I think---he should leave this movement---otherwise it's hard to say what will happen---. I know his mentor, and I know some other student leaders, including those behind them---Zhuge Liang---I can't tell---I always feel as if everyone has their own purpose---want to take advantage of this This thing achieves my own political goals---maybe I'm overthinking---or maybe it's nothing but nothing in the end---no one gets anything---but from what you said Let's see --- it's easy to get out of control --- such a melee --- there may be fatalities --- Mr. Zhuo is right to tell everyone not to have direct conflicts with the police --- the problem is that When everyone's brains get hot---he can't control it---"
She didn't understand half of what she heard, but since Huang Hai had no objection to Zhuo Zhuo coming to her home to recuperate, she felt more at ease.The next day, she didn't follow the car to go to City D. Firstly, it was inconvenient for her to bring a nursing baby, and secondly, there were not so many vacant seats on the bus.She wanted to say hello to Zhuoyue first, lest he expose their marital conflicts to her father, but he was in the hospital, and she couldn't find him to answer the phone.It’s hard to say much during the day when I make phone calls at my parents’ unit, and there are no paid long-distance calls outside, so I have to resign myself to fate.She thinks that Zhuo Liang is a face-saving person, so she shouldn't tell her father about their marital conflicts.
Her father went to City D and returned empty-handed, saying that Zhuo Liang refused to go to "Dongdongguai" to recover from his injuries, because he had to teach students and had many important things to do, so he couldn't leave.
When she heard the news, she breathed a sigh of relief for some reason.But what her father said later made her feel that the "little" under her leather robe was squeezed out.Her father said that Zhuo Zhuo cared about their mother and child very much, asked questions, heard his son's short story, and was so excited that tears flowed down his face. The red envelope given by Aunt Jiang during the Chinese New Year, she said that she wanted to stuff it in her son's hand when he was full moon, but now it seems that it will not be able to stuff it for a while, so I asked my grandfather to bring it to them.
She asked, "Is he --- how bad -- is he hurt?"
"fine."
She doesn't know if it's really "okay" or if her dad is lying to her.During the meal, her father described to them the remarkable heroic deeds at length, saying that the few people in D city who were saved by him were guarding him in the hospital, and those who followed him from M county to see him, the hospital Everyone regarded him as a hero who sacrificed himself to save others, and I heard that reporters all came to interview him.Her father spoke vividly, as if her father had been taking notes by the side when Zhuo Liang was saving lives.
After her father had finished speaking, he concluded: "The first time this kid came to our house, I saw that he was unusual and promising---"
Her younger brother said proudly: "I said Brother Zhuo will participate, right? You don't believe--"
Only her mother is still complaining: "Why do you want to be so promising? If you become disabled, shouldn't I be the one who suffers? I have become a father, and I don't want to think about my lover and children when I do things---"
Her father said: "The people he saved are also children of the same family? They all have parents. I don't know how much their parents are grateful to Xiaozhuo---"
His younger brother rushed to ask: "Sister, did Brother Zhuo beat up those police officers?"
She replied in a muffled voice, "I'm not here, how would I know?"
Her father said: "I can tell you don't understand strategy as soon as I hear it. How can you beat up a few people from the police? You don't want to die? If Xiao Zhuo hadn't tried his best to turn the tide this time, I don't know how the trouble would end---"
Her mother said: "I don't care about other people's children, I just want my children to be safe. Yan'er, please give me a call and tell Xiaozhuo not to participate in these dangerous activities from now on---"
She defended, "He's not a child. If I tell him not to participate, he won't participate?"
Her mother taught her a trick: "Just tell him, please don't participate in these dangerous activities for our mother's sake. If you still want to participate, I will divorce you!"
Shi Yan decided to make a call to Zhuoyue. On the one hand, her mother asked for an explanation, and on the other hand, she also wanted to convey Huang Hai's meaning. The most important thing is that Zhuoyue is Jing'er's father after all, and now he is injured again. , although her father has already visited Zhuoyue in City D on behalf of her, but she doesn't seem to be able to justify it if she keeps silent.
But she really didn't know what to say, and she certainly couldn't say the words her mother helped her design.Her relationship with Excellence has never reached the level of saying that.Those girls in the family have at least been chased by beggars for a while, and at least they have enjoyed the right to dictate before marriage. Although the husband may change from a slave to a general after marriage, the general also commands a soldier. Well, if the soldiers rise up to rebel, talking about a divorce can at least frighten the general. There is only one soldier. If even this soldier runs away, who will the general command?
And her?From the very beginning, he was constrained by Excellence, he never begged her for nothing, he never gave her a chance to boss her around, and he has always been the one who has the final say.He wanted her to stay in school, so she stayed in school; he wanted to follow her to Dongdongguai, so he followed; he wanted to do that, and he did it; he wanted to have children, and she had them had children; he wanted to legitimize their relationship, and he obtained a marriage license.Even if he's still in the courtship stage, she doesn't have the ability to scare him from participating in those activities by "blowing the stage", because he has said a long time ago that he will not affect his career for women.
But in the end, she decided to use what her mother taught her, and she didn't expect to prevent Zhuo Liang from participating in those activities, but maybe she could earn him a sentence like "Leave as soon as you leave, you think I'm afraid of leaving?"She felt that she was really despicable, but it seemed that there was an underlying motivation to shock her to be so despicable for a while.
She found out that Zhuozhuo had returned to the teacher's academy, so she called his place. When the concierge went upstairs to call him, she became flustered, as if she was a thief. How would Dai start her despicable behavior? I don't even know the conversation, and I have already entered a state of waiting to die psychologically.
As soon as Zhuo Zhuo picked up the phone, he called familiarly: "Yan'er, are you okay? I miss you so much!"
Once the final word is hammered! It is still the old rule, he will finalize everything with one sentence.She originally planned to position the conversation in the position of ordinary friends or broken-up couples, but when he called him so expressively, ordinary friends and broken-up couples slipped one foot and fell into the snare of "ordinary couples".She struggled for a while, but still couldn't put into words what her mother had taught her, so she just asked, "Your injury---is it all right?"
"It's nothing, it's all flesh and blood injuries. Thank you so much for asking Dad to come to see me from such a long distance. I asked him to play for a few more days, but he refused. He must go back with the car. I was unable to move at that time. Couldn't walk around with him--"
She found that he was still the same, calling "Dad" without any hesitation. If his father hadn't died young, she would have thought he was referring to his own father.It is always difficult for her to call out "Mom" to his mother. The difficulty is completely like a language barrier, a problem of pronunciation technology, just like the students she teaches can't pronounce "thank you" "th" is the same as the tongue-trapping sound, either the tongue cannot stick out, or the tongue is stuck out and the teeth are bitten, and the airflow cannot be rushed out, so they always use "three" or "dan" instead.
She couldn't go on being despicable, so she had to lift her mother out as a scapegoat: "My mother said--my mother--she was very worried about you--she said--she told me to tell you--don't participate Those dangerous--activities--in case something happens--your mother will worry--"
She pestered her with "my mother" and "your mother" for a while, and felt that the effect was not good, and it was a bit counterproductive. Originally, she wanted to express both the meaning of caring and the position of "ordinary friends" or "breakup couples". But being called "my mother" and "your mother" by her has actually strengthened the relationship between the two relatives, and there is a feeling that "Shi's family cares about Qiao's family".
Sure enough, he understood it this way, and said gratefully and tearfully: "Thank mom for me, tell her not to worry, I'm fine, this time it's because the people below have just mobilized, and I need to go over and give them the helm, I have told them to be careful not to let those impurities such as those released from labor camps mix into the team, and this kind of thing will not happen in the future---" He talked about what happened in M County, and suddenly appeared One sentence, "It would be great if you were in City D---"
She thought he was going to tell her how much she missed, and she was a little embarrassed, so she hurried to steady herself, afraid that he would be moved by his wild thoughts, but in the end she heard him say: "If you are in D city, we can call Huang Hai over." , help us mobilize the workers of the steel mills to participate in this movement--"
She was startled, and said seriously: "What do you mean? Huang Hai is already married, why are you still suspicious?"
"I'm not paranoid," he said frankly, "I just want to take advantage of what he means to you and let him contribute to our career. You know me, I won't affect my career just because of a woman .Besides, I know you have nothing to do with him. He meant that, but you won't. At this point, I am sure of you. If he is not married, he may still impress you by chasing you. But he Now that you are married and married to such a person, you will not do stupid things. I am not saying that you will not betray me, but that you will not rob a mental patient of her husband and her only spiritual sustenance , your moral values will never be that low—”
She felt her ears burning, and her heart was in a state of turmoil. She didn't know if he really overestimated her morality, or if he knew about her and Huang Hai and satirized her there.She quickly put aside the woman and talked about her career: "What can Huang Hai do for you?"
"He has conducted social surveys here before, and has a certain mass base. If he mobilizes the workers now, the effect will definitely be better than ours---"
"What are you -- mobilizing workers for?"
"Students alone can't make things happen. Students can only serve as a kindling, a propaganda machine, to wake up the sleeping people, but the real final word is the workers---"
She just felt as if she was watching a revolutionary movie. He was the hero in the movie, and what he said was a bit like a line, but she was not the heroine in it, but a child who started watching the movie halfway. I wish someone could pull her sleeves and ask "good guys and bad guys?".She asked, "Why can workers --- set the tone?"
He laughed a few times, and pointed out: "Think about it, what can students use to threaten the government? Strike? Although if students strike on a large scale, the government will not look good, but it is just a bad look, and it will not affect the government. The economic lifeline of the country. As long as the economy of a country does not fail, others can do nothing about it. So if you want to use strikes to force the government to make concessions, then you have to wait until the next life! But if the workers all over the country go on strike---then It’s different. Not to mention workers across the country, as long as workers in a key industry go on strike. For example, electric workers, if the electric workers across the country go on strike, I guarantee that it will be successful within a week---now Who can live without electricity?"
She suddenly thought of the things she learned in politics class. It seems that the teacher also said that although the May 4th Movement was initiated by students, it was finally successful because of the participation of workers and peasants. But what kind of achievements did it achieve? , she can't remember.It seems that I am really old, and now I have almost forgotten the things that used to be memorized. I only remember one "May 4th" and one "May 30th". One succeeded and the other failed.The one that failed killed a lot of people and was called a "tragedy", but the one that succeeded, she couldn't remember what the sign of success was, and who was kicked out of power?Or have some treaty been abolished?
She asked: "What purpose do you demonstrate in this way? Anti-corruption? Can corruption be reversed just like this?"
"Anti-officials and anti-corruption are just a propaganda slogan, and it is the slogan that is most likely to resonate with the masses. If a political movement is to succeed, it must first launch a slogan that can arouse sympathy. Jun, now who doesn’t hate official corruption? As long as it is against official corruption, everyone thinks that they should participate. However, of course, official anti-corruption cannot be reversed through demonstrations, and it must be opposed from the root. Serious? The root cause is the political system of the one-party dictatorship—”
She gasped, isn't this just to overthrow the government?She hurriedly said: "Aren't you doing this --- are you too ambitious? If you are anti-corruption --- maybe the central government will support you --- if you want --- fundamentally --- change --- - So what -- the government -- will allow it?"
He laughed again: "Of course the government won't allow it. Who is that stupid? If you ask him for the country, he will hand it over to you? Of course not. If it is so easy, why would there be any need to mobilize the workers?" support?"
The more she listened, the more frightened she became: "It's too dangerous for you to do this, and you can't take a peaceful way?"
"What kind of peaceful way? The parliamentary way? In a place like China, there has never been a history of democracy, and there is no sense of democracy. People don't even know how elections are going on, so you can't even think about taking the parliamentary way. Look at it. The current chaos, if there is a national election, it will either be manipulated by those with power and background, or each family will choose each family, and in the end, all kinds of people will be elected. What's the use of choosing a few hundred million out of hundreds of millions of people?"
She was confused by what he said, but insisted: "Anyway, you'd better -- stop doing this -- I think it's -- dangerous -- -- "
He called softly: "Yan'er, I am satisfied if you care about me so much. You don't know, when I was beaten by them at the gate of M County Public Security Bureau, I really thought I would be beaten to death by them. I have no other regrets at the time, but I regret not being able to see you and your child before I die---"
She had a sore nose and almost shed tears, as if she could see him fall to the ground with his own eyes. Under the fists, he covered his face with his hands while calling her and Jing'er's names until he was dying.If he continued down this path, she would definitely cry, but he changed to an optimistic tone: "But I don't deserve to die. Most people in the police are reasonable and know that I am not one of those released from labor camps." , I have no enmity with the police, nor did I instigate the students to attack the police station. I was trying to persuade the students to retreat. Most of the students are reasonable and know that I am for their own good. The ones who really don't understand are those with ulterior motives people--- "
She said eagerly: "That's what I mean. Some people have ulterior motives. You get involved with them---it's very dangerous---I heard that some people in the teacher's college said that you---picking peaches---will investigate you Who - in case they find out that you posted those things - isn't there another problem?"
He asked with interest: "How do you know about 'Picking Peaches'? Even I didn't see the comment on that big-character poster, so I listened carefully. You must have listened to Yao Xiaoping, right? She was very excited this time." My friend, it may be that she saw me save her rigorousness, she ran around the school and hospital these days, and made a lot of delicious food for me to replenish my body----"
She didn't care about these things, and only dissuaded her: "Don't --- post those --- big-character posters about your mentor, beware of people --- say you pick peaches ---"
He was a little angry: "It's a good thing they can say it! The real thief shouted stop the thief, who is picking the peaches? We have done all these years of work and made such a big sacrifice. What were they doing then? Now the peaches are ripe. They jumped out to pick peaches and became the leaders of the student movement. Huh! When we started to do this work, some of them didn't even know which way the door of the university opened---"
"You guys made— sacrifices?" She thought of his parties in E City, but she couldn't see how a meeting could count as a sacrifice.
"Of course! Otherwise, why would I come back to a crappy place like City D? If it wasn't for my career, I graduated from K University, would I be willing to degenerate and come to a crappy school like Teachers College? It's a good thing I endured it for so long , if I don’t do anything this time, I really can’t stay in City D---”
For some reason, he looked down on Shiyuan and belittled City D like this, which made her a little unhappy, although she didn't like Shiyuan and D City herself.She suddenly lost interest, and hurriedly concluded: "Anyway, I just transfer what my mother said---"
He immediately changed from a political leader to a filial son-in-law: "Yan'er, thank my mother for me, and let her old man rest assured that I will behave properly and nothing will happen. Don't worry, just rest at home and take care of your children---"
Later, when she called Huang Hai, she told him all the conversations she had with Excellence, and asked curiously, "Did he come to ask you to go to the steel factory in D city to start a strike?"
"No, that's probably what he said? He must know that it's useless for me to go there. Maybe it's better for him to go, because I didn't have much contact with steel factory workers at that time. I was mainly in the coal mine. Even Coal mine, my social investigations only focused on the 'pork belly' matter---, and in the end nothing was done, maybe even the 'pork belly' couldn't be activated---"
She didn't know how to say: "If you go to D city to help him mobilize the steel mill workers, it will be fun. You two are together, I don't know---" Before she finished speaking, she slapped herself and said, " In fact, it’s nothing, you men, career is the first, brothers are like siblings, women are like clothes----”
He corrected her and said, "Then you just made a mistake. If he asked me to help him in city D, I wouldn't go, but if you asked me to help him in city D, I would die. Do you want me to go?" City D?"
This question really caught Shi Yan's attention, she was stunned for a while, and said: "It depends on whether it is useful for you to go to City D, if it can really play a role in fighting corruption and improving workers' lives, then why not go? Didn't you also wholeheartedly help the workers to do something for some benefits? If you really mobilize the workers as he said, you can fundamentally eliminate corruption, then of course I am asking you It's time to go--"
Huang Hai laughed: "I heard that women are born politicians. It seems that this makes sense. Women are not only politicians, but also leaders. Then it's settled, I'll listen to you, you Tell me to go and I'll go--"
She said angrily: "You are so cunning, you put the blame on me. Then I will do the same. I want you to decide whether mobilizing the workers can completely eliminate corruption. If you say you can eliminate it, I will tell you to-" -- "
The two of you were cunning and I cunningly joked for a while, and he said, "Yan'er, I think Mr. Zhuo is very politically minded, and he is a leader, better than those heads of the 'Northern High School Federation'. If the student movement wants to win To be successful, it is really necessary to mobilize the workers--- not only the workers--- but the whole society---"
"How did you suddenly -- so -- admire him?"
"He is suddenly worthy of appreciation, but it is not a trivial matter to mobilize the whole society. The Chinese are the most hard-working nation. As long as there is food to eat, they will not rebel---the main reason is that China has always had a surplus of labor. Want to go on strike? Who is afraid? If you go on strike, I will fire you immediately and find someone else to do it. There are so many labor forces in China, and no one is afraid of leaving the factory. Many of the workers in the steel factory in D city came from the countryside and can go to the steel factory. If you tell him to go on strike at the risk of being fired, and there is no hope of victory for a while, he may not listen to you. I admire those who engaged in the labor movement before liberation, It is really not easy to mobilize the Chinese workers, probably because the workers at that time often lived in starvation and cold---"
She was suddenly nervous: "Then what do you mean—if it can be activated—or should it be activated?"
"Whether you can mobilize it or not, you should mobilize it. If you don't fight for it, how will you know if it will work? If you wait until the victory is in your hands before mobilizing, then it is called opportunism---"
She suddenly became frightened, and dissuaded her, "I was joking just now, you'd better leave it alone, if it doesn't work well, and you are misunderstood by those workers, or held grudges by the factory, or your school finds out, you I can't eat and walk around--"
He immediately said: "I'm just joking too. I know I can't start it, but why did I cause that trouble? Don't worry about me. It's because you mentioned this, and I'm talking nonsense. Actually, I'm honest. Very good, stay in the lab and work every day. Take good care of the baby, don't get angry about these things, lest you lose the milk--"
She doesn't know if the workers in the steel factory in D City were mobilized, but her son was really mobilized, creating a "baby boom" that was as powerful as a student wave to her. , day and night, don't eat during the day, don't sleep at night, you have to hug her in and out, otherwise you can't stop crying, and the crying is loud, awakening the sleeping neighbors, all participating in the "baby boom" They came here, and all of them were mobilized to help her put up small posters everywhere, and wrote: "The sky is yellow, the ground is yellow, my family has a crying man at night, the gentlemen who pass by read it once, and sleep until the sky is bright."
I don't know if all the passers-by are not gentlemen, or all are dumb gentlemen, or the expression "crying at night" is not accurate, because the man in her family is not only "crying at night", but also crying during the day.Anyway, those postings are useless, and the child cries as usual.
The "baby boom" exhausted her physically and mentally. Her lack of sleep was a trivial matter. The main reason was that the child was pitiful, her voice was hoarse from crying, and her temper was violent. When she cried urgently, blue veins appeared on her neck. He was suffocated, and he didn't know what was wrong with him. He took him to the hospital to see but couldn't find out what was wrong. The doctor always said: "Crying is a kind of exercise. You let him cry. He won't cry when he is tired." will cry."
But how could she be willing to let her son cry?When her son cries, it's like a needle is stuck in her heart. How can she "let him cry"?She doesn't believe in the saying "crying is exercise". If crying is exercise, why didn't Jinger exercise like this before?Why don't other kids exercise like this?
During that time, she didn't even have time to call Yao and Huang, and she was dealing with the "baby boom" every day.Later, when her son cried less, she hurried to her parent's unit to make a phone call. As usual, she called Yao Xiaoping first, but she heard a very bad news: Yan Jing broke up with Yao Xiaoping.
Yao Xiaoping said angrily: "Speaking of this, I'm going to scold your Zhuoyou again! I think he was beaten badly last time, and he didn't learn his lesson at all. This time, he urged us to go to Beijing to support those students who are on hunger strike. Do you think he is out of his mind? He is not easy to find anyone, but he wants to find someone like Yan Jing who is starved to death? What is wrong with him that Yan Jing can do anything, but why does he ask Yan Jing to go on a hunger strike? People, go to Tiananmen Square to support the students on hunger strike? I am afraid that his eyes will turn green, and he will pick a fat and tender one from the students who are on hunger strike----"
She couldn't help laughing: "What serious matter is turned into a joke by you---"
"It's not a joke, it's true, so I'm determined not to let Yan Jing go. But ever since that guy went to M County, he regarded Excellence as a savior. Called him to support, he didn't even go to work, he wrote a sick note, and desperately wanted to go to Beijing---"
"Has he gone?"
"No, I hid all his clothes, trousers, suitcase, etc., and he didn't make it--"
She couldn't help laughing: "It's really you! Only you can think of it---"
"What's the use of thinking about it? I've killed myself. I knew that I shouldn't stop him. Even if he eats two or three students who are on hunger strike, it's not my business. It's good now. He thinks I let him He lost his face in front of those support team members. They all went, but he didn't make it, and he didn't make it because he was stripped naked and had no clothes or pants. What face did he have to face others? Now he has gone with我彻底吹了。真没想到，那么多次风浪都没掀翻我跟严谨这条船，结果却被你家卓越掀翻在--- 政治的泥坑里了--- 以前看那些电影-- - 什么夫妻恋人因为政治见解不同分手--- 总觉得是在编神话--- 现在看来还真有那种事呢--- ”
“你们也不是什么政治见解不同，你只不过是怕他饿着了，”她安慰说，“过几天他自然会回心转意的--- ”
“不会的了，他说了，他跟我不是一路人，我是自私庸俗的人，他是位卑未敢忘忧国的人，我是没良心的人，他是良心未泯的人，好像我的良心就全被狗吃了一样--- ”姚小萍换上一种无所谓的口气说，“吹了也好，免得我成天提心吊胆，担心这担心那的。他现在不过来吃饭了，我还少做好多菜，省了我好多力，也不觉得自己年纪大了，以后找个半老头子，人家还担心我嫌他年纪大呢--- ”
她安慰了一阵，又向姚小萍讨教治疗小儿哭闹的偏方，但姚小萍跟她那些邻居的口吻一样，说是她惯坏了的。她没再多说，支吾了几声就结束了谈话。
她跟黄海打电话时没敢多说靖儿哭闹的事，因为说了也没用，他又没带过孩子，肯定没有灵丹妙药，白白让他着急。她问了问他那边的情况，他也说不出什么来，好像消息挺闭塞的，一听就知道成天呆在实验室里，两耳不闻窗外事，一心只洗圣贤瓶。她因为听了他那番发动全社会不容易的理论，也觉得学潮搞不出什么名堂来，就不再担心他因为她变颓废了。
她全副精力对付儿子的“婴儿潮”，每天都在与疲劳作战，最大的愿望就是能够躺下睡一觉，但她的孩子绝不让她实现这一愿望，总要她抱着走进走出。她抱着走几个小时，孩子就可以几个小时不哭，但只要一停，孩子就哭起来了，真是比什么都灵。有时孩子本来是睡着了的，只要一停，孩子就醒了，睁着眼等一会，如果她接着走，那就没事。如果她居然停了不走了，那孩子就不得了啦，马上大哭，就像受了多大委曲似的。
孩子不睡觉的时候，也得她抱着走动。她抱着孩子，边走边跟孩子说话，孩子乖得很，睁着两只明亮的大眼睛，听她胡扯八道，很矜持地只听不表态。但如果她坐下来，虽然仍然在跟孩子胡扯八道，而且扯的是同样的内容，但孩子就像听到了什么荒谬言论一样，眉头一皱，就大哭起来，仿佛在说：“你胡扯些什么呀! 推倒重来! ”
街坊邻居都说是她惯坏了孩子，但他们也不知道在已经惯坏了的情况下该怎么纠正，总是说她先就不该惯坏孩子，大有逼着她把孩子塞回肚子，再生一次，从头养成良好习惯的趋势。她对群众的指点唯唯诺诺，不置可否，免得他们越说越来劲。但她内心里总觉得这孩子是得了卓越的遗传，很可能卓越小时候就是这样的，哭泣是为了得到妈妈的重视，因为他的妈妈那时没功夫管他。
有一天，她正浑浑噩噩地抱着孩子在卧室里踱步，她弟弟跑进来对她说：“姐，听说天安门那里打起来了--- ”
“谁和谁打起来了？”
“解放军和学生--- ”
她不相信：“解放军怎么会和学生打起来？”
“是真的，是我们英语老师听广播说的，中国国际广播电台，还有假？”
“也许你们英语老师听错了？”
“怎么会呢？我们英语老师听力好得很， VOA ， BBC 都听得懂--- 。她说中央台也播了，人家播音员都穿着黑衣黑裤，带头默哀呢--- ”
“中央台播了？怎么没听爸妈说？”
“他们只知道看本地台的电视连续剧，怎么会知道？”
她慌忙跑到父母单位去打电话，她很想先给黄海打，但见姚妈妈在身边，只好先打了姚小萍的。过了一会，姚小萍来接电话，她问：“听说--- 天安门那边--- 出了事？”
“你才听说？这边早就传开了，这两天学生都跑铁路上去扒铁轨堵火车去了--- 我看这回天下要大乱了--- 。哎，前几天这事好像都平伏下去了的，我还以为结束了呢--- 怎么突然一下闹这么严重了--- ”
“是不是有些不法分子混进来捣乱？”
“谁知道？只知道我们这里传吼了，有人在现场录了音--- 复制了好多盘，到处分发，我也听了--- ”姚小萍把声音压低得几乎听不见了，“政府真的出动部队了--- 死伤很多人--- 坦克在人身上碾来碾去--- 外面还贴了好多照片--- 吓死人--- 听说香港那边的电视天天放这个--- 好多人从银行往外取钱--- 如果你在银行有钱--- 也赶快取出来吧--- ”
她还是不敢相信：“不会吧？解放军怎么会--- 跟学生闹？谁不知道镇压学生运动的人从来没有好结果？他们这样做了--- 不激起全世界的公愤？”
“公愤顶个屁用。不管你公愤还是母愤，都是嘴里喊得快活--- 也动不了谁一根汗毛-- 。你公愤你的，政府之间要跟谁做生意是一样的做--- ”
她听不下去了，焦急地说：“我不跟你说了，我要给黄海打电话，不知道他那边怎么样了，你自己保重--- 你要不要跟你妈妈讲几句？”
姚小萍知趣地说：“算了，不跟她讲了，你告诉她别担心就行了，如果这边势头不对，我就躲你那边去--- 唉--- 到了这种时候就觉得还是呆在乡下好。”
她慌慌张张地给黄海打电话，号码拨错了好几次，等到终于拨对了号码的时候，却怎么也打不通，好像她电话上连着的是根草绳子一样。
石燕把孩子递给姚妈妈抱着，自己去查看电话线，左查右查都没发现问题，为保险起见，她又往姚小萍那里打了个电话，是通的，她赶在对面拿起话筒之前挂掉了。然后她再给黄海打电话，还是打不通，无论是实验室还是寝室都打不通。
她失声痛哭起来，姚妈妈吓得连声问：“是不是萍儿她--- ”
她连连摇头，一把抱过孩子，抱得紧紧的。孩子好像知道此刻不是闹腾的时候，很安静地没哭。她感觉黄海是出事了，他每次装得那么无动于衷，肯定是在骗她。像他那样热衷于社会调查的人，会不参加这么重大的活动？不知道为什么，她眼前全都是坦克在黄海身上碾过来碾过去的情景，可能是因为这一个细节特别可怕，而她每次最担心最害怕的事，总是一件件发生了。
她又打了几次电话，仍然是打不通。她只好往姚小萍那里打电话求救，等姚小萍接了，她哭着把打不通黄海电话的事说了。姚小萍安慰说：“可能是电话线出问题了吧。你不是往寝室和实验室都打过了吗？都打不通吧？那刚好说明黄海没出事--- 而是电话线出了事，总不能说坦克---- 把整个A 大全都给--- 碾平了吧？”
她知道坦克碾平A 大是不太可能的，但碾断了电话线还是可能的吧？既然电话线都碾断了，那人---- ？她哭着问：“你有没有什么办法能知道他的消息？”
“也许你--- 可以问问他的父母？”
“可是我没有他父母的电话号码---- ”
“黄海肯定有他父母的电话号码--- ”
她感觉抓住了一线希望，但马上就破灭了：“如果能找到黄海要他父母的电话号码，还用得着--- ”
“其实你先就应该问黄海拿到他父母的电话号码的--- 既然你跟他有那层关系，怎么不向他打听他父母的电话号码呢？早打听在这里，现在这种时候就用得上了--- ”
她知道姚小萍也黔驴技穷了，不然不会这么强词夺理事后诸葛亮。她没心思多说，匆匆结束了跟姚小萍的电话，又转回去给黄海打电话，还是打不通。
她爸爸妈妈大概是听了她弟弟播报的新闻，都找到单位来了，见她满面泪痕，吓得要命，连问：“怎么啦？怎么啦？是--- 小卓出事了吗？”
她到这时才想起卓越来，但她觉得他不会出事，因为D 市离北京远得很，姚小萍又安然无恙，卓越肯定没事。她摇摇头，他们又问：“那--- 小姚她没事吧？”
“没事--- ”
她父母想不出别的人来问了，只催她回家。她顾不得许多，径直问她父母：“你们知道不知道上次来看我的那个同学--- 他家里的电话号码？”
“哪个同学？”
“黄海--- 就是上次你们叫他到D 市送年货给我的那个--- ”
她父母都不解：“我们没叫谁送年货到你那里呀! 你说你回来坐月子，我们就都留在这里等你回来吃--- ”
“就是那个--- 上次来看过我--- 和靖儿---- 你们还留他吃了午饭的那个--- 就是那个脸上有点--- ”她见她父母的表情显示出他们已经对上号了，就问，“他父母都是'洞洞'的职工，你们有没有他们单位的号码？”
“只要是'洞洞'的单位，应该都有号码，都在那边那个本子上--- ”
她明知道黄海的父母晚上不会在单位上班，但她想也许他们正跟她一样，在单位给儿子打电话呢？她找出了黄海父母单位的号码，打了个电话过去，但没人接。她连续拨打了好几遍，始终没人接。她只好放下了电话，抱起孩子，冲出办公室，冲进夜幕。其它人莫明其妙，都跟着她冲进夜幕。
回到家，她就把孩子用背带背在身上，捆扎好了，走到她妈妈房间说：“妈，把你车钥匙借我用一下--- ”
她妈惊呆了：“这么晚了，你要到哪里去？”
“我去我那个同学家，看看他爸妈有没有他的消息--- ”
她妈妈不肯给她钥匙：“你真是疯了! 天又黑，路又不好走，还那么远，你背着个孩子，又好久没骑车了，你想去--- 讨死啊？等明天他爸妈上班了再打个电话问问不行？”
她执意要去，她妈妈死不给她钥匙，两人僵持不下。她赌气背着孩子往外走：“你不给我钥匙，我自己走过去吧--- ”
她爸爸和弟弟都出来打圆场，说那么远的路，你走过去也到了明天了，还不如等明天。见她对他们的建议无动于衷的样子，她爸爸提出骑车带她过去，她弟弟说：“姐，要找谁？我帮你去找--- ”
她把黄海家的地址告诉了弟弟，交待说：“你就问问他们最近接到儿子的电话没有，如果没有，就别对他们说--- 那事。如果他们接到电话了---- 就问问是--- 什么时候接到的--- 问他--- 在那边--- 好不好--- ”
她弟弟得了军令，骑车去了。她妈妈没拦住，生气地责怪她说：“就为了一个同学，你叫你弟弟摸黑骑这么远的路--- 要是路上--- 出点事--- 怎么办？”
她回嘴说：“我叫你把车钥匙给我，我自己去，你又不肯--- ”
“你不是我的孩子？你去我就不担心了？”她妈妈气急败坏，把她拉到卧室里，关上门，厉声质问她跟那姓黄的同学到底是什么关系：“他上次来，我就觉得不对头，贼眉鼠眼的，你喂奶，他都不知道回避，还在旁边盯着看，盯得眼睛都不眨，一看就知道不是个正经人。你是个结了婚有丈夫的人--- 怎么--- 跟一个男同学--- 走这么近？不要说外人看见，就是我这个做妈的看见--- 如果不是对我自己的女儿有把握--- 我都觉得你们之间--- 不对头了--- ”
她冒险顶嘴说：“不对头就怎么啦？你就不认我这个女儿了？”她把自己跟卓越的矛盾都捅了出来，除了床上的和卓越跟姜阿姨那一嘴，什么都毫无保留地说了出来。但说着说着，连她自己也发现总是那么几句话，“不做家务”啊，“不关心我和孩子”啊之类的，谈不上罪大恶极。
她妈果然没觉得这是什么大不了的事：“夫妻之间哪能没有矛盾？没矛盾就不是正常夫妻了。即便你们夫妻之间有天大的矛盾，既然结了婚，孩子也有了，就应该想办法解决。你就别赶那时髦离婚了，更别想着嫁那么个--- 丑八怪--- ”
她生气地说：“你就知道看外貌，他丑怎么啦？只要我不在乎他的丑就行-- 如果不是想到你们会有这些偏见，我也不至于--- 连他的消息都不知道--- 至少我可以让他往你们单位打电话--- 现在倒好--- ”
她妈妈惊讶地瞪着她，话都说不成句了：“你--- 你别告诉我你---- 你跟你那同学---- 做下---- ”
她生怕把她妈气病了，赶快解释说：“你放心，我没跟他做下什么，我们只是同学，互相关心一下而已--- ”
“我看你这就不像是互相关心一下，你这么深更半夜叫你弟弟跑到人家家里去打听，人家会怎么想？还不认为你--- 贱--- 没身份？”
“命都不知道在不在了，我还管什么贱不贱---- ”她说着，就哭了起来，把从姚小萍那里听来的传闻哭诉了一遍。她妈妈吓得目瞪口呆，不敢再说什么，只帮忙把靖儿从她背上解下来，她接过来抱在手里，发现靖儿并没睡觉，而是睁着两只大眼睛自个儿在玩呢。她觉得这孩子太聪明了，这么小就懂得察言观色，妈妈有事他就不扯不闹。她想起黄海说的人只有在那个弧线下才无忧无虑的话，想到她的儿子这么小就开始为妈妈分担忧愁了，想到今后可能就她跟孩子相依为命了，越发觉得心酸难忍，紧抱着孩子坐在床头流泪。
好像等了几百年似的，才把她弟弟等回来了。她弟弟浑身都汗湿了，气喘吁吁地跑到卧室里来向她汇报：“姐，他家说他上星期打了电话回来的，这星期没有---- ”
她脑子轰的一声，眼前发黑，如果不是手里抱着孩子，她真不知道自己还撑不撑得住，一口气憋了好一阵才缓过来，强撑着问：“那你有没有--- 告诉他们-- 那事？”
“没有--- 你叫我别告诉他们--- 我就没告诉--- ”
“那他们知道不知道--- 那事？”
“好像不知道---- ”
那一夜，她不知道是怎么熬过去的。第二天一早，她赶在上班前就跑到她父母单位去打电话，还是打不通。她疯了一般不停往黄海的实验室和寝室打电话，一直打到她父母单位的人来上班了，才万不得已停下。然后她把黄海的电话号码写在纸上，求她父母上班时有机会就打这两个号码，如果打通了，就说找黄海，不管问没问到消息，都请她爸爸骑车回家告诉她。
吃中饭的时候，她父母从单位回来，她不敢问他们电话打通了没有，她爸爸主动报告说：“一直在打这两个号码，都没打通--- ”
她熬到晚上，又跑到父母单位去打电话，还是没打通。她给姚小萍打电话，姚小萍一接电话，就气喘吁吁地说：“我现在不能跟你多说，我要走了，人家都等着我。你等我的电话吧，如果我到十点左右还没打电话给你，那我就不在人世了，我妈就拜托给你了，你好好照顾我妈--- ”
她惊呆了：“怎么回事？”她能听见电话里一片闹闹嚷嚷的声音。
“现在不方便讲，我得走了，你等我电话--- ”
她吓呆了，姚小萍已经挂了电话，她还对着话筒问了一阵，才不得不放下了电话。她不敢把这事告诉姚妈妈，只故作平静，说姚小萍有事，呆会再打电话。
她一边焦急地等十点钟，一边往黄海那边打电话，总是打不通。她急中生智了一回，乱编了一些电话号码，一个个打，前面几位数都不改变，只把最后几个数字变来变去，她认为只要前面的号码不变，就一定是打到A 大的，只不过是不同的宿舍或者院系，师院的号码就是这样的。
她乱打了一气，都没打通，最后好不容易有一个打通了，那边接电话的一问“你找谁”，她反而慌了，哭着把打不通黄海电话，很担心黄海生死的话说了一些。那边很生气地说：“神经病! ”，然后就挂了电话。
她知道黄海是凶多吉少了，打不通他的电话只是一方面，有可能真是像姚小萍说的那样，只是电话线坏了。关键是黄海没有打电话回来，他是个很细心的人，现在发生了这么大的事，他肯定会担心她着急，担心他父母着急，如果有一点办法，就肯定会打电话回来报平安，而他现在既没给她打电话，也没给他父母打电话，那就只能是---
看来这事已经闹到全国了，连姚小萍都卷了进去，生死未卜。不知道小刚怎么样？严谨呢？卓越呢？
她紧抱孩子，流着眼泪，等待着电话铃的响声，突然参透了那谁的一句诗：
The beacon fire lasted for three months, and the family letter was worth ten thousand gold.
快到十点的时候，电话铃响了，可能是屋子里太安静了，铃声显得特别刺耳，靖儿被吓醒了，大声哭起来。石燕慌忙掀开衣襟，把乳头塞进儿子嘴里，一手抓起电话，胆怯地问：“姚，你没事吧？”
姚小萍的声音里全是死里逃生的喜悦：“我去参加追悼会了。”然后压低声音说，“今天真是太惊险了! 下午就有人来我们楼里通知所有人今晚都去大操场参加追悼会，还发了黑纱白花。我本来想不去的，拖着孩子不方便，哪里知道他们晚上又来了，挨家挨户叫人去开追悼会，看那阵势，不参加肯定要挨揍。听说男生楼里有个人，说了一句'死都死了，开追悼会有什么用'，结果被他同寝室的人蒙在被子里痛打一顿，还把他的被子什么的全烧了--- ”
这个“死都死了”像把尖刀一样刺进她心里，好像是专门针对黄海说的一样，她感觉师院的学生是在帮她揍那家伙，该揍! 但她意识到那家伙说的是句大实话，就因为是大实话，她才这么恨他，因为对死去的人来说，开追悼会的确是没用了，无论其它人怎么追悼，死掉的人永远都不能被追悼回来。
姚小萍的声音好像变得遥远了，但不绝如缕地飘进她的耳朵：“ --- 沿路都派了纠察队员---- 马上报信---- 请大家撤离的时候---- 以免造成不必要的牺牲--- 大会主持人--- 叫大家不要惊慌--- 做好了防护措施的--- 如果军警来镇压--- 纠察队员将用他们的身躯做成一道人墙--- 阻拦---- 军警进入大操场--- 像北京的那些--- 学生和市民一样--- 我看见卓越了--- 穿着白衬衣--- 戴着红袖章--- 英雄--- ”
她一下抓住了“人墙”两个字，现在她知道黄海为什么没消息了。她眼前出现了一个人影，好像是黄海，又像是卓越，穿着白衬衣，戴着红袖章，站在一匹高头大马前，两手紧紧勒住马缰。那个骑在马上的军警用大棒打来，他头上顿时鲜血如注，洒在白色的衬衣上，像绽开了一朵朵殷红的花。但他仍然死死地拉着马缰，不让那马前行一步，因为他身后是手无寸铁的人们---
姚小萍小声说：“ ---- 真的好感动人，我真的相信他会用生命和鲜血保护我们。他还说可以去帮我跟守门的说说，让我带着孩子先回去--- 我没答应--- 怕那些学生以后--- 报复我--- 再说我也是很同情那些死难者的--- 不管死的谁--- 开追悼会总是应该的---- 去都去了--- 中途退场--- 两边不讨好。他见我不肯走，就叫我站到他值勤的那块去，说如果遇到军警镇压--- 他会保护我们母子撤退--- 他还恳求我--- 说如果他遭遇不测的话--- 请我像-- 以前一样--- 照顾你们母子--- ”
她知道姚小萍是在讲卓越，但她的思维老闪回到黄海身上去，心痛地想到，也许黄海遭遇不测的时候，也曾想过找谁托孤的，但他身边没有可以托付的人，而“不测”来得太突然，他就那样倒下了，坦克在他身上碾来碾去，他变成了一团血泥，渗进他身下的大地，她永远都找不到他了。
姚小萍听见她的哭声，停止了讲述，说：“你怎么不向卓越打听一下黄海的下落？他跟北京有联系，消息肯定比我们灵通--- ”
她心里突然升腾起一种希望，希望黄海这些天其实是在D 市帮助卓越发动钢厂工人，因此逃过了那一劫。虽然她知道这不太可能，但她遏制不住要这样想。她让姚妈妈跟女儿讲了几句，就慌忙结束了跟姚小萍的通话，转而给卓越打电话。
但门房上楼去了一趟，下来告诉她卓老师不在家。她死等在那里，过一会就打一个电话，把门房都打烦了：“刚给你说了，卓老师还没回来，你怎么不信呢？”
她陪小心说：“对不起，我--- 怕他回来了您不知道--- 您可不可以再上去看看？”
“我坐这门口，进进出出的人我都看得见，怎么会他回来了我不知道？就算我不坐门口我都不会错过，他那摩托声我还没听熟？这段时间晚晚都是深更半夜才回来，晚晚都把我叫起来开门--- 。你要等，那你就留个号码，等他回来我叫他打给你吧。”
她连忙把这边的号码给了门房，然后坐在那里等卓越的电话。快十二点了，卓越才打电话过来，声调亲切而激昂：“燕儿，谢谢你关心! 我没事，你们还好吧？”
“挺好的。我想问问你--- 你上次说想请黄海来D 市帮你的，后来你--- 请了没有？”
“没有，请了也没用，钢厂那些家伙麻木得很，不见棺材不掉泪的。但现在不同了，我们把北京的惨况一讲，就有很多工人愿意参加罢工了---- ”
她惊慌地问：“你们--- 还在--- 搞-- ？”
“当然哪，难道能在这个关键时刻放弃不搞？他妈的! 没想到政府还真动手了---- 真他妈的不是人--- 竟然敢下令开枪! 这个下令的人脱不了干系的，一定会被绑在历史的耻辱柱上---- 。不过他们这样干，也未尝不是一件好事，现在38 军和2