Chapter 26 Amy: Until Death (19)

The next day, when Zhuozhuo went to class, Shi Yan slipped out of the house and called Yao Xiaoping, but it was Yao Xiaoping who answered the phone, saying that she didn't go upstairs after sending her son to the kindergarten, and waited at the concierge.After a while, Yao Xiaoping came over in a taxi, picked up Shi Yan, and went straight to the Middle School for the Children of the Steel Factory. Steel Factory Children Middle School is opposite a side entrance of the steel factory. It happened that there was light rain and snow that day, and the ground was muddy, but there were still many vegetable farmers selling vegetables at stalls along the street.Yao and Shi got off the car at the gate of the steel factory. Yao Xiaoping saw a bus stop sign on the side of the road, and exclaimed, "It's really convenient here. You can take the bus when you go out, and the vegetable seller is right in front of you. I think this place All right, let's do it here."

Shi Yan immediately stopped and said: "The horoscope has not been written yet, so don't be too happy---" Stepping on the mud and walking through the street, after walking tens of hundreds of meters, I saw the Steel Factory Children Middle School, known as "Steel Flower Middle School". I don't know the age of the building, and I can't tell what color it is, as if it has melted into the gray world. There are some puddles of water here and there on the playground, the basketball stand is crooked, and none of the table tennis tables are intact.Standing on the playground, you can hear the commotion in some classrooms, and occasionally you can see students chasing and fighting in the corridor.

But Shi Yan can't see these things now, only sees a fairyland in the shape of a "door", hoping to find a place in this gray building, to be a steel flower fairy, and to give birth to a steel flower baby.She asked eagerly, "Should we go to the personnel department or the principal's office?" "In a middle school, it's still a question of whether there is a personnel department. Let's go to the principal's office first." When I found the door of the principal's office, I saw that the principal was dealing with a parent. I didn't know what they were arguing about. Anyway, both sides were vicious.The two of them hid outside the office, shivering from the cold.After finally waiting for the parent to leave the principal's office, the two of them hurried in. The principal said impatiently, "What's the matter?"

Yao Xiaoping showed her voice like a yellow warbler, and said sweetly: "Are you the principal? My name is Yao Xiaoping. This is my friend, Shi Yan. I have admired your name for a long time, and I want to be transferred to your school to teach-- - " Shi Yan was startled when she heard that, for fear that the headmaster would ask, "Have you heard of my name for a long time? What is my name?" That would be the end of it.Fortunately, the principal didn't make a fuss about his name, he just looked at them in disbelief and asked, "Why do you want to be transferred to me?"

Shi Yan decided to impress the principal with the truth, so she told the truth about her situation.The headmaster still didn't seem to understand: "Where is this kind of thing? The teacher's college wants to transfer us to work here? Is it a rural hukou? Only rural hukou will be willing to transfer us here. They are using us as a springboard to gain a firm foothold. It's about to be transferred---I don't think you two are like the teacher---so young---" Yao Xiaoping took out all her work certificates and teacher certificates, and Shi Yan also took out all her graduation certificates, degree certificates and award certificates.The headmaster was looking at their papers like an antique appraiser when he heard the class bell ring.The principal said: "I have a class where no one is attending, who of you will take over? Otherwise, I won't accompany you, and I have to take over the class---"

Yao Xiaoping asked, "What class?" "Second year foreign language class---" "It's fine for me to take the foreign language class in the second year of high school. If it's a graduating class in the third year of high school, it's best to ask Teacher Shi to do it." Seeing Yao Xiaoping's nonsense, Shi Yan couldn't help but be terrified. He was afraid that the principal would see his flaws. He clearly said that he was from the scientific research office of the teacher's college. How could he become a teacher of the graduating class of senior high school?

Fortunately, the headmaster didn't make so many twists and turns, and only said with a little threat: "You can't just say that you can teach, I will follow the class----" Yao Xiaoping said with all kinds of amorous feelings: "Welcome to guide---where are the teaching materials?" The principal was a little embarrassed: "The textbooks are still in the office of the foreign language group. I don't know a foreign language. I'm going to let the students go to self-study. I'll watch from the side, as long as there is no chaos----" Yao Xiaoping said: "It's okay without textbooks, I have a solution." Then, she took a wooden triangle ruler used by a math teacher, a box of chalk and a blackboard eraser, and said to the principal, "Principal, please bring two stools. Go to class."

Shi Yan followed Yao Xiaoping and the principal to the sophomore class. When she reached the back door of the classroom, Yao Xiaoping made a "stop" gesture and told them to wait there. She walked to the front door of the classroom by herself, stood on the side of the door, stretched out The feet in the little brown boots kicked the door open with a sweeping leg backwards.Hearing the sound of "pass", a plastic basin filled with water fell from the door. The basin fell to the ground, and the water was sprinkled everywhere. There was a burst of surprise and admiration in the classroom. Shi Yan and the principal were dumbfounded. If the principal came today In class, he must be held on his head by this basin of water.

Yao Xiaoping walked into the classroom on tiptoe, opened the door at the back, asked Shi Yan and the principal to sit at the back of the classroom and listen to the class, and walked up to the podium by herself.The classroom was full of smog, brooms and buckets were thrown everywhere, letters and paper were dotted all over the floor, and the blackboard was messed up.Yao Xiaoping picked up a blackboard eraser from the top of the blackboard with a wooden triangular ruler in her hand, looked at it, threw it aside, wiped the blackboard with the blackboard eraser she brought, wrote a line in English: SEALED WITH A KISS, and turned to He turned around and said that today he would teach everyone to sing an English song, "Sealed with a Kiss".

There was a burst of laughter below, and someone put his finger in his mouth and blew a sharp whistle. Yao Xiaoping picked up a chalk tip, raised his hand and threw it, hitting the man's forehead, and the man shouted: "Why are you hitting on me?" As soon as he raised his hand, he must have hit the target again, because the man lost his voice, and everyone below exclaimed: "A good target! Another one! Another one!" Yao Xiaoping first sang in English, saying it was an episode of a foreign movie, briefly told the storyline, then wrote down the lyrics on the blackboard, explained it, sang it again by herself, and then taught her to sing line by line.At the beginning, few people sang along. Shi Yan took the lead in singing to support Teacher Yao, and gradually everyone sang along. The student who was smashed wanted to be funny and sang in a shrill voice, but was immediately criticized by other students. .

The following classes went smoothly. I learned new words, learned sentence patterns, and assigned homework.After class, the students gathered around to ask Yao Xiaoping's last name, if she was a new teacher, and if she could teach them again.Yao Xiaoping pointed to Shi Yan and said, "That Teacher Shi is your new teacher. She teaches better than me. I'm from the High School Attached to the Teacher's College, and she's from the Teacher's College---" Everyone surrounded Professor Shi again and talked for a while, and they didn't let them go until the bell rang for the next class. The principal agreed to accept Shi Yan, and tried his best to recruit Yao Xiaoping as well.Yao Xiaoping said: "Are you going to allocate a house to the teacher? I will transfer the house if I allocate it---" The principal said: "Split, divide, why don't we divide the house? We treat the teacher very well, otherwise how can we keep the teacher? I will show you the house now. It was the former English teacher's. She never After we were transferred here, I have been regretting it all the time. There is no school in D city that can compare with ours----" A few people walked back to the side entrance of the steel factory stepping on the muddy ground. The house where the English teacher who "had regretted being transferred away" lived was facing the side door of the steel factory, next to Zidi Middle School. It takes ten minutes to walk from the dormitory to the classroom.The house is really old, the walls are gray as usual, and the concrete floor is also bumpy, but it is big enough, a living room is twice as big as the room in the South House, and there is a bedroom, which is bigger than the South House. The room was a little smaller, with a big double bed, but the brown bed was rotten, and a few bamboo mats were placed on it to make up for it. The kitchen is not formal, but it is a little bigger than Zhuoyue's. There are two desks placed horizontally and vertically, which are regarded as chopping boards. There is also a coal stove that looks like it will collapse in a moment, and some black coals are piled beside it. piece.Yao Xiaoping asked: "Principal, do you provide gas to the teachers?" The principal said disdainfully: "Why do you need gas? Can gas be used for cooking? Our steel factory has cheap high-quality coal. I don't know how good it is for burning. It is convenient for cooking and cooking---" The principal kicked those black things , "That's it, just burn a few pieces of paper and you can ignite it. Once it's lit, you just need to keep adding coal, and burn it for as long as you want." Shi Yan remembered that there was a big brazier burning in the principal's office, which warmed the room very warmly, and it was probably this kind of "high-quality coal". There is also a simple toilet in the house, not the usual oval toilet pit, but a long "toilet ditch", like a gutter, leading to nowhere.There is another bathroom, which is very narrow, and there is something like a shower head in it. The principal said that there is no hot water, only cold water. If you want a hot shower, you can go to the steel factory bathroom.There are no windows in the toilet and bathroom, and the inside is dark, and you can't see your fingers if you don't turn on the light. Shi Yan was already satisfied, but Yao Xiaoping was still critical: "Principal, this is the first floor, and the house is low. You see, there are windows as high as the road outside. Doesn't the water flood to the bottom of the wall when it rains? This house It must be very humid. Teacher Shi is about to give birth, and it is easy to get sick if you live in such a humid place. Can you share an upstairs unit---" Shi Yan hastily pulled Yao Xiaoping's clothes, fearing that Yao Xiaoping would lose her job if she asked the party to take care of her and ask for benefits.The principal said: "If Teacher Shi can wait, I can find a way to arrange an upstairs unit for her---" Shi Yan hurriedly replied: "Principal, I will live in this house. This house is very good. I don't need to climb stairs. I like it---" Yao Xiaoping glared at her a few times, but didn't criticize her anymore.Shi Yan seized the opportunity to raise the question she was most concerned about: "Principal, look at me --- I wonder if you can get the fertility index?" The principal was puzzled: "What fertility indicator?" "That's --- don't you have to get a quota from the unit to have a child? Without the quota, you can't get a hukou--" The principal suddenly realized: "Oh, you are talking about registering? No problem, the son of the director of the steel plant's public security department is studying in our school, and we can just hand over the materials to him and take them back home. What is your first child?" "first born." "Why do you have to worry about registering for the first child? I'm afraid that this is the second and third child of yours, so you need to give me some favors--" The headmaster said it so easily, but Shi Yan didn't believe it anymore, and asked several times in a long-winded manner, which almost annoyed the headmaster, so he stopped timidly.The principal asked her to start classes no later than next Monday, and she agreed without hesitation, urging the principal to transfer her a relationship as soon as possible.Like a man and a woman who have been in love for a long time and are eager to get married, the two hit it off, wishing they could step into the bridal chamber and make a good deed happen. When returning to the teacher's college in a taxi, Yao Xiaoping blamed and said: "You shouldn't be so talkative, the house is like this, once you live in, they won't be in a hurry to change the house for you, you have to keep this close , I won’t move in unless I get a suitable house—” "I think that house is good enough, I'm afraid that people won't want me if I'm picky---" "You're making a mistake. The less critical you are, the more they think you're incapable of asking for conditions. If you're so eager to transfer in, they'll be suspicious—" Yao Xiaoping probably didn't want to make up for it, so she changed the subject and said, " Are you going back to Zhuo Liang now?" She didn't know whether she should go back: "What do you think?" "I think we might as well ride over to your side, take your things, and move them to the steel mill, so as not to have long nights and dreams---" "What if Excellence is at home?" "What's the matter at home? You've found a job, you've been assigned a house, and you're going to work soon. How can you still live so far away?" "Will he --- become angry and mess up my business?" "Forgive me if he wants to stir up trouble now, but he can't. This is a steel mill, not his city D, even if it is his city D, he doesn't have the ability now---" Shi Yan was still a little terrified, but she knew that she couldn't hide this matter. She could hide it from the first day of junior high school, but not from the fifteenth day of the junior high school. She will start classes next week, and the transportation is too inconvenient to live in Zhuoyue's place. The two of them sat downstairs in the car, Yao Xiaoping asked the driver to wait there, and the two of them went upstairs to move things.As soon as Shi Yan opened the door, she saw Zhuo Zhuo sitting in the living room watching TV, and she panicked even more. Seeing her coming in, Zhuo Zhuo asked with a calm face, "Where have you been?" Yao Xiaoping hurriedly replied, "One of my parents introduced Shi a job, and we went to have a look---" Zhuoyou didn't believe it: "Introduce a job? She can find a job and wait until today? You have time to spend on these useless efforts, don't drag Yan'er, she is pregnant now, she needs to rest more----" "Is Mr. Zhuo impatient because his wife is not at home and hasn't had lunch yet? No way, you have to take care of yourself in the future. Shi has found a job and is going to work soon, so he can't stay at home full-time Waiting for you---" After Yao Xiaoping finished speaking, she said to Shi Yan, "Where are your things? I will help you move, you can rest for a while, Teacher Zhuo said, you are pregnant now, you need to rest more---" Zhuozhuo watched the two of them enter the bedroom, and watched Yao Xiaoping come out of the bedroom carrying the quilt, and realized whether the "moving things" they said was true or not. He didn't dare to stop Yao Xiaoping, so he walked to the door of the bedroom, Ask Shi Yan: "Where did you move? Where did you find a job? How could it be so easy?" Shi Yan shook the door key in her hand: "Steel Factory Children Middle School, I have all the keys, and I will go to work next week---" It took a long time for Zhuoyue to snort: "You don't discuss anything with me, and you have to be so sneaky to find a job. How can you look like a family?" "I just got the news this morning, and you're not at home. Who should I discuss with? Am I not discussing with you?" Yao Xiaoping said: "Mr. Zhuo, the taxi we took is still waiting below, why don't you go down and help pay for the car, otherwise you really don't look like a family---" Joyo pretended he hadn't heard, and stood angrily in the living room, watching Shi Yan collect things from room to room, and watch Yao Xiaoping carry things upstairs and downstairs.The more Yao Xiaoping got angry, the more she went in and out with a sullen face, slamming doors and kicking stools.Zhuoyou reprimanded: "Be careful when you walk, don't kick this and hit that----" "Can't you see it? If you can't see it, move your hands, and I'll leave after a few moves, so as not to poke your eyes---" "You split up other people's couples, and you still expect me to help you move things?" "You help me move things? I'm helping you move things, do you understand? I helped my wife find a job, saved you from paying her living expenses, and saved you a lot of hospital expenses for having a baby, do you understand Understand? You didn't thank me, and you scolded me for breaking up your husband and wife? Couples can be broken up by others? You want to reunite your husband and wife, so you don't go to her on weekends by yourself? Do you have to let her live with you? She lives so far away, How do you go to work every day? If you can afford to buy an airplane for her to go to work, then she won't have to move---" Zhuo Liang probably realized this too, and knew that they should not be prevented from moving, but he couldn't bear the shame of helping move things, so he still stood there without moving. The neighbor who had something good happened came in to take a look, and asked, "What's going on?" Shi Yan hurriedly explained: "I've transferred my job. It's quite far away from the steel factory. I have to move to live there---" Neighbors also enthusiastically came to help, Zhuo Liang had no choice but to reluctantly, pretending to be sending his wife to the front line, and helping to move things.On the last trip, Shi Yan also followed.Zhuoyou complained, "Called a taxi to move. I have never seen such a prodigal. How much is the fare for waiting by the meter? You have told me, I will find a ride---" Yao Xiaoping shabby said to him: "How much money can I save by finding a free ride? Don't worry, I will pay for the car I ordered. If you don't give your wife a penny, can she afford the car?" money?" Zhuoyou was about to get nervous, but Shi Yan interjected, "Okay, okay, we're done moving, let's go---" Before getting into the car, she bid farewell to Zhuoyue in a low voice, "I'm moving in because next week I'm going to class, I have to go over and get acquainted with--" He asked: "Where is it? It shouldn't be kept a secret from me, right?" Shi Yan didn't know what that place was called, but said it was the building diagonally opposite to the gate of the Middle School for the Children of the Steel Works, the one on the left of the first floor of the third unit, and got into the car after speaking.After the car started, she looked back at the place where she had moved in and out several times, and knew that this time it was really gone forever, so she couldn't help feeling a little mixed.But when she turned around and faced the front of the car, she was extremely happy, feeling that her car was going straight to the child's household registration. She slept alone in her "new house" that night, covered all the quilts and blankets, and still felt cool, and only then did she realize Yao Xiaoping's great wisdom and foresight.The next day, she went to school, but she didn't have the nerve to mention the room change. She just finalized her office desk and textbooks, all of which were left by the English teacher who "has been regretting the transfer". Even at this point, she was still worried that the job would not be secure, and it would always be like a dove occupying a magpie's nest.She didn't really feel relieved until the principal offered her a three-year contract to sign. She didn't think it was a contract of prostitution at all, but felt like an invisible net that caught a fertility target, because other schools They didn't dare to accept her because they didn't have a fertility quota. Since the steel factory children's middle school dared to accept her, it showed that they did have a fertility quota.She readily signed, and cheekily asked the principal when the salary would be paid, and if he could pay her this month's salary first, because she had no money in hand. The principal lent her some money from his own pocket, and she was very grateful. After leaving school, she took a car to the nearest department store to buy an electric heater, cotton wool, and some small things. On weekends, Yao Xiaoping’s family of three came by bus, saying that they came to her place for a "Warm House Banquet". They bought some vegetables that were fresh enough but full of mud and sand from the vegetable vendors at the gate of the steel factory. Yan Jin killed a frisky chicken, but was not killed by Yan Jin's multiple stabs. He chased wildly around the house, and was finally caught by Yao Xiaoping, who twisted the chicken's neck and killed it with a knife. Braised in pieces, making it fragrant. While cooking, Zhuo Liang also came over on a motorcycle, bringing some gadgets that Shi Yan had pulled down, and when he came in, he complained that the road was too muddy and his motorcycle was dirty, and he had to wash it for at least two hours when he went back. Yao Xiaoping whispered to Shi Yan in the kitchen: "That iron rooster of yours is here, and brought some things you left behind, so I can take the opportunity to have a meal---" But as soon as she walked out of the kitchen, Yao Xiaoping burst out laughing. Like a flower, "Oh, today's Wenju Banquet is really lively, everyone who should come has come. Yan, go to the small shop at the door to buy a few bottles of beer, and have a good drink with Mr. Zhuo---" During the dinner, Zhuo Zhuo suggested: "Yan'er, when I am free, find a car and move my furniture here---" Knowing that he was talking about the furniture that drove her to Liangshan, she hurriedly evaded and said: "No, no, this room is very wet, and the furniture is broken when you move it---" Yao Xiaoping strongly supported: "Shi, why don't you let him move the furniture? If he puts his furniture in someone else's place, wouldn't it take up a room in the other person's house? If that friend wants to use the room sometime, don't you have to ask him to find another room?" Is there a place? You have no furniture here, what does it look like? The bed is covered with strip mats, which is very cool, so don’t freeze the waist of the parturient—” After a few days, Zhuo Liang really found some people, borrowed a car, and moved the furniture here. The neighbors who moved next door were quite envious. Too bad, no one is willing to play such a good furniture, you are the first one.Zhuo Zhuo was so pleased with the news, he called friends, served tea and lighted cigarettes, and was very busy. After moving, he invited Shi Yan and those who moved to the restaurant for a meal, which cost a lot of money. Later, when Shi Yan called Yao Xiaoping on the phone, she complained, "It's you. You promised him to bring the furniture. Now the whole room is his stuff. What can I do—" Yao Xiaoping said with a smile: "Forget it, even if you don't let him move the furniture, you can still draw a line with him from now on? The child in your stomach has tied you together. Besides, Huang Hai is also married. You are dragging your sons and daughters. After getting divorced, do you really expect to find a powerful man? Even if you can find one, he must be an old man. Men in the world are all selfish. One might be worse than excellence--" "What about rigor?" Yao Xiaoping lost her breath and said after a long time: "Strict people are good, but you may not have thought about my life. You are always worried that one day he will get tired of me, and one day he will change his mind." I'm afraid that he won't be able to stand other people's comments, afraid that Xiaogang will annoy him, and fear that his family will object—— The burden of thinking is too heavy. - " She comforted: "Don't think about it, I think he is really good to you. Take your time, I believe his family will also figure it out---" Yao Xiaoping said angrily: "But why should it be his family's turn to figure it out? Apart from being married and having a child, what else is there that I am not good enough for him? not human?" This topic is too sensitive, and the two of them will be filled with righteous indignation and discouraged when they talk about it, so she brakes in time every time and changes the topic: "I want to spend the Spring Festival here, so as not to run home alone and let my parents see the flaw, It made them uncomfortable, and made them have a bad time during the Spring Festival. I want to go back when I am about to give birth---" Yao Xiaoping reminded: "Since you don't go back during the Spring Festival, it's better to wait until after the baby is born. If you go back to have a baby alone, others will see the flaws differently? Besides, you gave birth in your hometown and want to go back to D There are a lot of troubles in the city for no reason. You are not here to supervise and rely on others to help you register. If you don’t succeed, you will not waste all your efforts? I think it’s better to wait until you have a child in D city and get the account. It’s good, it’s not too late to go back to my hometown, and it’s normal for others to look at it at that time, your husband has to go to work, of course he can’t accompany you back to his hometown to live----” She sincerely admires Yao Xiaoping's cunning and cunning, but said worriedly: "I'm afraid of the days when I give birth to the hospital---no one takes care of me---I don't want to seek excellence, it's useless to ask him, he can't do anything- - you have to go to work again--" "Then ask my mother to take care of you for a while. She is free at home. Don't look at my mother as an old lady in the country. She has seen the world. She used to be the wife of a Kuomintang officer. She eats well, drinks spicy food, and travels all over the world. , What haven’t you seen? It’s many times richer than you and me. Later, her husband, a Kuomintang officer, went home to recover from his injuries. Before he had time to escape to Taiwan, he was caught by the Communist Party and shot. My mother married into the deep mountains and old forests. go----" Only then did she know where Yao Xiaoping's beauty, temperament, talent, and wisdom, which are very different from those of the girls in the mountain village, come from, the wife of a Kuomintang officer! What else can I say?It must be good-looking and talented.This also made her even more confused about how Yao Xiaoping's mother could endure the fate of living in the mountains, doing farm work, eating bran vegetables, and marrying a hunchback. Maybe a woman's resilience is good, no matter how hard she bends, she just won't bend. Yao Xiaoping warned: "I will go back to my hometown during the Spring Festival. I will go back on the 27th and 8th of the twelfth lunar month. I will not come back until the third and fourth day of the first lunar month. I think you have to go back to Zhuoyou for the Spring Festival. Otherwise, you will be alone. Don't spend it." A weeping Spring Festival---" "I've thought about this too, but I think it's better than going back to "Dongdongguai" alone and making everyone in the family cry for the Spring Festival---" Yao Xiaoping suggested again: "Can't you just form a temporary united front with Zhuoyue? You want to save face in front of your parents, but he wants to save face in front of his mother? You can talk it over and just fool around with the family members during the Spring Festival. Old man, first go to your place to stay for a few days, and then visit his house, if the well water does not interfere with the river water at other times, wouldn't that kill multiple birds with one stone?" "He didn't mention it, and I won't beg him. I don't want to be with him, and maybe he doesn't want to be with me either. He thinks I have a dirt road here, and he's afraid he'll dirty his motorcycle. To say --- no use --- but a bad thing --- " Yao Xiaoping immediately realized the true meaning of "bad things", laughed for a while, and said: "You can do whatever you want, as long as I am in D city, I will come to accompany you. If I am not in D city, then there is no other way, or else Are you going to play in our country with me?" She didn't want to go either, the boat was exhausting, and it was the countryside, what was there to do?If I go to someone else's house alone for the Spring Festival, doesn't that still prove that there is something wrong with my marriage?Since you don't want to lose face, then hide in your own home and don't go anywhere. After only a few days of work, she had the final exam and then the winter vacation.She received her wages for January, February, and two months, and the school also gave her a quarter of the year-end bonus and distributed some Spring Festival supplies.Her hands were not so tight, and she also went shopping for some new year's goods. She lied to her family that she would go to her mother-in-law's house for the Spring Festival this year. It was inconvenient for her to take a car with her big belly, so she would not go back to her hometown for the Spring Festival. When she had a baby, she would go back to her hometown. You can live until the end of summer vacation. When her parents heard about it, they felt very regretful, saying that this was the first time since she was born in the past few decades that she was not at home for the Spring Festival, and only now did she really realize that her daughter was indeed married and became a member of someone else's family.Her parents tearfully wanted to come to D city to see her, but she refused in a hurry and said a lot of high-sounding reasons, and finally stabilized her parents. On the 30th day of the twelfth lunar month, there was light rain and snow outside, and the sky was overcast. She didn't wake up until late, ate something casually, and then leaned on the sofa to watch TV.As she was watching, she suddenly heard someone knocking on the door. She thought it was Joyoung, she hurriedly turned off the TV, did not open the door, did not dare to vent her breath, and pretended not to be at home.But the person who knocked on the door was very patient, knocked a few times after a while, and finally shouted loudly: "Shi Yan'er, I'm Huang Hai, and I'm helping your parents to bring you New Year's goods---" She got up in a hurry, took off her shoes and ran to open the door. It was really the Yellow Sea, looking like it was raining and snowing, her hair was soaked and stuck to her head in a mess, a pair of leather shoes under her feet were covered with mud, and half of her trousers were covered in mud. God, with big and small bags in his hand, like a country bumpkin visiting relatives in the city. When Shi Yan got excited, he ignored politeness and asked directly: "Why did you come here?" "I went back to 'Dongdong' and thought you were going back, so I went to your house to see, but your parents said that you would not go home for the Spring Festival this year. Your parents heard me say that you would come to D city to do business, so they called me Help me bring you some New Year's goods---" Huang Hai rubbed the mud on his feet by the door and entered the house. She asked curiously: "Didn't you—didn't you say that you held a wedding at the 'Dongdong' during the Spring Festival? It's done so soon—is it over?" "Hehe, the wedding was cancelled, Xiaofu changed his mind, and he doesn't want to go back to the 'dongdong' with me to embarrass him—" She was very sad for him, and she could imagine how embarrassing he was in front of his family. Maybe the family invited all the guests, but the daughter-in-law didn't come again. How could his parents save face?She comforted her and said, "It's definitely not about being afraid of embarrassment, maybe it's because you don't want to part with your parents, or --- it's because you don't feel well --- you should be happy, right?" Huang Hai chuckled again: "Unless the sun comes out from the west and we get married like we are, how can we be happy?" Knowing that he had an "empty marriage", she felt sorry for him, and she didn't know what to say to comfort him, so she stood there without saying a word, looking at him distressedly. While looking for a place to hang those bacon and fish, he turned around to comfort her and said, "I said a long time ago that I am with her just to give her a hope of going abroad so that she can get better. Now my purpose I am slowly reaching it, and she knows that she thinks I am ashamed, which means that her illness is much better, and it is too late for me to be happy----" She was heartbroken, turned her face away, found a dry towel for him to wet his hair, found a basin, poured some hot water, told him to take off the wet shoes on his feet, and put on cotton slippers after washing his feet , so as not to freeze the feet. He followed instructions in all his actions. She wiped his head when he was told to, and scalded his feet when she asked him to.She saw that he stood up with his hair brushed. Although it looked like a mess of grass, he looked much better than before, especially from the face that was intact, he was simply handsome.And his feet are also white and slender, she thought that if his face hadn't been damaged, he would be handsome from head to toe.Somehow, when she thought of "from head to toe", her thoughts slipped to the part located at the middle point of her head and feet, and her face burned a little. While picking up those new year's goods, she pretended to be careless and joked: "Then you are at a loss, why don't you take advantage of Xiaofu when he is still confused----and make it a good thing? Let her be happy, and she will not Have you forgotten about that doctor studying abroad?" He also joked: "Do you think I am a person who does this kind of thing? It's not that I am noble, but that I regard myself as very precious. If it is not someone I like, I will not do it if I give it to me." That kind of thing, I'm afraid it will tarnish my innocence--" She felt that he was trying to save face. How could a man not want to do that?Especially in the face of the past tie flowers, and people who have already got a marriage certificate, it is reasonable and legal, can they give it away?It can only be said that it is true that people did not send it.She believed that Xiao Fu was definitely not really crazy, but that he hadn't come out because of his former boyfriend, but since Xiao Fu cared so much about his former boyfriend, he naturally guarded himself like a jade.She believed that Huang Hai would not force Xiao Fu, but it was not enough to send him to his door. Men want to save face in these things, otherwise they are not men.She remembered that she had asked Yan Jing about the bet that Zhuo Liang said, but Yan Jing said that no one had bet with Zhuo Liang at all, and she had never heard that Zhuo Liang had four or five girlfriends who are still thinking about him, so she felt that Zhuo Liang Probably because he wanted to save face, he didn't want to admit that he cared so much about Huang Hai, and he had been competing with Huang Hai all the time. Hearing that Huang Hai was so happy and relieved when he got married, he made up so many love stories to prove that he didn't care about Huang Hai, nor did he care about her. . She didn't expose Huang Hai's face, but instead asked, "How did you find this place?" She never told him the address, and when she called, she only thanked him for helping him find a job at the Steel Factory Children Middle School, but she She didn't say anything about her separation from Zhuoyue, nor where she lived now. She told her family that she lived with Zhuoyue. He said: "I went to Nanyishe first, and wanted to ask Yao Xiaoping to transfer the things to you, but she was not there. I went to Mr. Zhuo to look for you, but you were not there. I didn't find out the home of Mr. Zhuo's parents. , otherwise I went there. I also came here with the idea of ​​giving it a try. I asked all kinds of questions. I kept asking until I went to your school, and the teacher on duty told me that you live here. Where is Mr. Zhuo? He is too busy to go home during the Spring Festival?" She knew she couldn't hide it anymore, and she couldn't help it anymore, so she poured out all the scriptures about herself and Excellence.Although I regretted it while saying it, worrying about ruining Huang Hai's marriage, but for some reason, I just said it smoothly, like an arrow with a bow that can only move forward, and cannot turn halfway, let alone retract it and put it in. Quiver. He stood there in a daze, with complicated expressions on his face. I don't know if it was because of the complicated emotions in his heart, or because his asymmetrical face made the expressions complicated. She laughed at herself and said, "Actually, you told me long ago that he was definitely not a kind person. I blamed me for not listening to you at that time---" He stammered, "I-- I said he was--never--never kind--and just because--no-- didn't like him--I didn't Knowing whether he is kind or not--I have only a little contact with him--how can I tell if a person is kind or not?" "Anyway, it's too late to regret it now. It's useless to blame anyone. Let's clean up the mess yourself---" He was stunned for a while, and said: "Shi Yan'er, I'm really sorry, I didn't expect that some of the things I did--affected your marriage--" She asked curiously, "What did you do?" "I --- send a book, call you, I really didn't mean it, I just thought about my old classmates, can't I send a book and make a phone call?" When she heard his apology, she felt a little uncomfortable. She hoped that it was "intentional" that he sent books and made phone calls, not out of "old schoolmate" friendship.But hearing him make such a clear statement, it means that she is being sentimental.She also came to clarify, and said magnanimously: "Don't blame yourself, I know you are looking at the sake of old classmates, because Zhuoyou is too jealous---" "It's nothing to be jealous, it means he cares about you. If it were me, I might be more suspicious than him, so I think you have problems with your marriage, and I'm the culprit. If I hadn't sent that book, Yao Xiaoping wouldn't have gone to your house. You won't find out--" She raised two eyebrows: "You mean as long as we don't know about that, our marriage will be fine?" "Some things don't know as if they don't—" 她觉得跟他有点谈不拢了，至少在这个问题上是如此。她把自己的家庭矛盾婚姻纠纷讲出来，是希望听到他跟她共鸣的，而不是希望听到他跟卓越共鸣的，但也许男人跟男人总是更有共鸣，同一个战壕的战友嘛，就像她跟姚小萍是同一战壕的战友一样，更能互相理解。不知道为什么，她有点挑拨离间地说：“你这么护着他，他可一点也不护着你。他听到你结婚的消息，说像你这样的丑--- 什么什么的---- 只有疯子和我这样的傻子才会喜欢---- ” 他垂下眼睛说：“他说我丑八怪？说我丑八怪我不怕，因为我本来就是丑八怪--- ” 她见他还在向着卓越，又说：“他说你丑八怪你不怕，那他还说你以前那个女朋友是你编造出来的，是你的情场技巧，想用你的悲惨遭遇来打动我，不然我可能连信都不会回你--- ” 他抬头看了她一眼，马上又垂下眼睛，低声问：“你会不会回呢？” “在你心目中，我就是--- 那样的人吗？” “哪样的人？” “就是只看重---- 外貌的人吗？” “看重外貌有什么不对吗？我自己--- 没外貌，但我也喜欢外貌漂亮的人---- 看见不漂亮的人--- 我也不喜欢。谁不喜欢内在外在俱美的人呢？又没谁制定了法律，说没外貌的一定有内在美，或者内在美的一定没外貌--- 。我这个样子，连我自己都不喜欢，我怎么能强迫别人喜欢呢？谁说喜欢我的外貌，那她肯定是---- 在撒谎--- ” 他说他去打听过整容的事，但医生说他这样的很难整好，因为他是小时候受的损伤，脸上那块骨头根本没发育长大，填填补补是没多大作用的。他还说改造一个人的内心比改造一个人的外貌容易得多，外貌的缺陷也并不是内在美的保障。 他们两人仿佛又回到了以前通信时期的某个阶段，谈话逐渐从自身抽离，慢慢滑向普遍真理，不再是探讨他们个人的历史或现状，而是放之四海而皆准的东西，比如外在与内在的关系，言论与行动的关系，男人与女人的关系，大人与小孩的关系，等等，等等。 讲讲说说之间，他们已经做出了几个菜，在桌子上放了一个小炭炉，烧着钢厂的优质煤块，上面座个小锅子，烧了汤，做成一个家常火锅，把豆腐鱼丸菠菜粉丝之类的东西放里面烫了吃，再加上从家里带来的腊肉腊鱼，不算丰盛，但很实惠。 两个人烤着火吃火锅，吃得汗涔涔的，很舒爽。吃过饭，已经天擦黑了，黄海说要去外面找旅馆住，石燕不同意：“现在到哪里去找旅馆？公车都停了，大家都回去过年了，等你一步一步跺出去找到旅馆，只怕到了明年了。就在这里呆一晚吧，反正年三十大家都不兴睡觉的---- ” 他没再坚持，答应留下来。她带他去钢厂澡堂洗了个澡，因为是年三十，没什么人，水量很足，洗得很舒服。回来后，他把客厅收拾收拾，她从卧室抱了两床被子出来，放在沙发上，两人各捂一床被子坐沙发上看电视。他似乎看得很认真，该笑的笑，不该笑的不乱笑。而她只是懒心无肠地看着，总是等到他笑了，她才知道电视上有了好笑的东西，为了显得自己也在看，便跟着笑一笑。但她心里老在想像如果他现在伸出手来握住她的手，她该怎么办，或者如果他把她揽过去，她该怎么办。 但他始终没伸出手来。 看到半夜了，她觉得累了，不想真的撑到明天早上，就道个晚安，进卧室去睡觉。她听见他关了电视，也关了灯，屋子里静了下来，黑了下来。 她是瞌睡到了眼皮上了才去睡觉的，但等到躺床上了，反而睡不着了，慢慢回想她跟他的那些点点滴滴，觉得他说得对，最理想的爱人，当然是内在外在俱美的人，所谓爱上了一个仅有内在美的人，也不过是因为找不到内在外在俱美的人了，只好舍了一头顾另一头，世界上哪里有专爱丑八怪的人呢？她一直都不爱他的外貌，现在也不爱，只不过知道他人好，就不计较他的外貌罢了。 她想到那些孤男寡女共处一室最终发生了点浪漫事的故事，觉得她对此也不反感，如果黄海来找她，她一定会答应他，特别是想到他活了二十多年，又结了婚，有了名义上的妻子，而这个名义上的妻子可能还不时在他身边晃动，但他却从来没有品尝过做爱的味道，她很为他难过。她自己现在为了孩子起见，是不会想什么高潮的，但她愿意让他享受一下。 有好几次，她都似乎听到了他走近卧室的声音，但屏息聆听，又似乎不是。她因为睡不着，就老是想上厕所，每次都得经过客厅，有几次还把他惊醒了，但他也只朦胧地跟她说了几句话，没别的表示，她有点失落，想起他说过的那句话：“不是我喜欢的人，送给我都不会干那种事，怕玷污了我的清白--- ” 她也听到他起床上厕所的声音，那一夜，他们就像比赛上厕所一样，你上一趟，我上一趟，谁也不甘示弱，总听到开厕所门的声音，开灯的声音，冲水的声音，关灯的声音，关厕所门的声音，就是中间拉尿的声音没听见。她因为是蹲着的，又见黄海在客厅，所以拉得特别谨小慎微，再加上她每次尿量并不多，所以拉得没声音情有可原。但是黄海呢？她想起卓越每次上厕所都是弄出很大声响的，男人嘛，拉起尿来居高临下，又是动能又是势能，还能不拉出巨大动静来？难道黄海因为怕她听见，是蹲下去拉的？ 她就这么胡思乱想着，一直到快天亮了才昏昏沉沉地睡去。但还没睡多久，就听到有人敲门，她怕是卓越，正想警告黄海别开门，但已经晚了，黄海已经去开了门，然后是两个人在客厅说话的声音。 “卓老师好早啊! ” "Why are you here?" “我到D 市来办事，石燕她家让我给捎些年货过来，昨天去过你们家了，但是你们不在那边，我就找这儿来了--- ” 石燕预感到今天有一场大闹了，像卓越这样疑神疑鬼的人，一本书都可以疑出一个私生子来，现在“捉奸在沙发”了，还能不大闹？她不怕别的，就怕弄得邻居们听见，这里是钢厂的宿舍，周边住的都是钢厂职工，有的很可能是她学生的家长，如果他们不调查研究，就认为她作风不正，联名跑到学校去要求开除她，那就糟糕了。 她赶紧穿上毛衣，把棉衣往身上一套，就边扣扣子边从卧室走出来，看见黄海也套上了棉衣和毛裤，正在往腿上套外面的裤子。而卓越穿着黑皮茄克，手里拿着一双黑皮手套，腋下夹了个摩托帽，威风凛凛地站在一边，像看杂耍一样看黄海跌跌撞撞往裤筒里钻。 她问了声：“这么早，你怎么来了？” 卓越知道是在跟他说话，闷声回答说：“太早了？打搅你们了？我走就是--- ” “大年初一的，昨晚守了岁，不在家里多睡会，这么早跑来干什么？” “ D 市的风俗，大年初一兴拜公婆的--- ” 她知道他是来拉她去装门面的，推辞说：“现在谁还讲那些规矩？” “你不讲，别人还要讲，你不能只为你自己活着，就当我麻烦你，请你今天跟我去我妈那边一趟吧，她这段时间身体不大好，但一直在念叨--- 你和孩子--- 她是为了孩子才退休的---如果你初一都不露面--- 叫外人看见--- 她还怎么做人？” 她听说他妈妈身体不好，就有点拿不下面子来拒绝他了，而且她自己也求他帮她装门面的，叫他在她父母打电话去他那边的时候别说他们分居的事。她抱歉地跟黄海打商量：“我去他妈妈那边应酬一下，你再睡会，我很快就回来了---- ” 哪知这句话把卓越惹毛了，发脾气说：“露馅了吧？刚才还说是送年货过来的! 送个年货，就算你远途，歇个一晚也就够了，还要呆在这里扎根？那就不是送年货那么简单了吧？” 她也发脾气了：“你管我那么多干什么？我的朋友，呆在我家，想呆多久呆多久，关你什么事？” “不关我的事？我是你丈夫，你的家就是我的家，我不欢迎谁，谁就得离开! ” “笑话! 你根本不是我的丈夫，你那个结婚证是搞假搞来的，我没到场签字，不算! ”她看见两个男人都扬起眉毛张开嘴巴，让她没来由地想到“扬眉吐气”这个词。卓越的眼睛又可以算得上炯炯有神了，不过在她看来都是凶神，而黄海的眉毛仍然是一边高一边低，但她看了心里很高兴，因为这说明他知道事情真相了，他昨天那样畏畏缩缩，肯定是怕影响了她的婚姻，现在他知道她的婚姻不过是“伪婚姻”，他就不会那么畏畏缩缩了。 卓越忿忿地说：“你不承认？你早干什么去了？一纸婚书，难道是你想承认就承认，想不承认就不承认的吗？” “假的东西，我为什么要承认？我告诉你，这是我的房子，写在我名下，钥匙在我手里，你在这里耍什么威风？我连你都可以赶出去! ” “一个人还是讲点脸，尤其是人民教师，这里住的都是你学生的家长，你这样在光天化日之下跟人乱搞，还有理了不成？” “谁跟人乱搞了？你才跟人乱搞! ” 黄海插嘴说：“卓老师，你要带石燕儿去你妈妈家，尽管带就是了，但只要石燕儿没赶我，谁也不能把我从这里赶走--- ” 卓越调转枪口对付黄海：“你也是个有妇之夫，春节期间，不在自己家里陪自己的爱人，跑到别人家里来纠缠别人的老婆，应该也不是什么值得夸耀的事吧？” “如果我的妻子愿意我陪她，我一定会陪着她；如果我妻子不愿意我陪她，我也绝对不会死乞白赖地要陪着她--- ” “哼，你妻子不愿意你陪，你也不能死乞白赖陪别人的妻子呀! ” 石燕说：“是我叫他留下来的，他昨天就要去住旅馆，是我叫他不去的，我叫他陪我的。大年三十你连个人影都没有，我有个朋友陪陪你还有意见？” 卓越冷笑一声：“我有什么意见？一个人自己不要脸了，别人还能帮她要到脸？” 黄海说：“卓老师，请你不要用这样的语言说自己的妻子--- ” 卓越又调转枪口：“我的妻子？你刚才听见了的，她把她自己当成我的妻子吗？她从来就没把她自己当成我的妻子，她从来就是跟你暗中勾搭，只是因为过不了你那张鬼脸关，才会找我这么一个垫背的--- ” 她生怕这话伤了黄海的自尊心，声明说：“你说错了，我从来没有把他的脸当一道关，我是因为他有过那段初恋才耿耿于怀的---- ” 黄海叫道：“燕儿! 我那不是初恋--- ” 卓越鄙视地说：“'燕儿'也是你叫的？真不知道自己几斤几两--- ” “为什么'燕儿'不是我叫的？我在心里一直都是这样叫她的，在你认识她之前我就是这样叫的了，只不过我没你那么自信，没敢当她面叫出来而已--- ” 卓越打断黄海，说：“你不自信说明你还有点自知之明，如果连你都自信了，天下个个都有理由自信了。我警告你，你现在是有妇之夫，她现在是有夫之妇，你们之间，还是注意一点影响，不要搞得臭名远扬! ” 石燕说：“人正不怕影子歪，我们行得正，坐得端，有什么影响不影响的？” 卓越不理他，只对黄海说：“我现在很忙，没时间管你们之间的破事。但请你别影响我的孩子，光是你那张脸，就应该懂得自我回避，别把我的孩子吓坏了。你没见燕儿这墙上贴的都是漂亮娃娃？那就是为了孩子长得漂亮，有你这样的人在旁边晃来晃去，十张二十张漂亮娃娃脸都给抵消了。” 她看见黄海脸色黯淡下去，生怕他自卑起来，忙说：“你别听他的，外貌丑陋的人总比心灵丑陋的强--- ”但她一说完就知道这个“外貌丑陋”说得没水平，既然从来没把他的脸当成一道关，又怎么看得见“外貌丑陋”呢？她竭力想挽回一下，但没想出什么好词儿来。 三人对峙了一会，黄海说：“燕儿，你先跟他去拜望一下他妈妈，别让老人家等急了。等你们拜望完了，如果卓老师有兴趣，我们三个人再接着讨论外在美内在美的事--- ” 她说：“好，那我去一下就来，你别趁机跑掉了。”她匆忙跑到厨房去，从热水瓶里倒了些水洗脸，然后梳了梳头，连护肤霜都没来得及抹，就对卓越说，“走吧，还站这里干什么？” 卓越打鼻子里哼了一声，跟在她后面出了门。 黄海追出来说：“卓老师，还是叫出租吧，这么冷的天，路又滑，燕儿坐摩托不安全--- ” 卓越又哼了一声：“这也用你说？” 来到街边，卓越叫了辆出租，让石燕坐了进去，对司机说了地址，就关了车门，她看见他骑着摩托跟了一阵，然后就走丢了。 司机停车后，她发现不是乔阿姨以前住的地方，忙问：“是这里吗？好像不对呀! ” 司机有点不耐烦：“不是这里是哪里？你爱人亲口说的地址，难道我是聋子？付钱吧。” 她无奈地付了钱，下了车，自己去打听乔阿姨的住址，正在东问西问，卓越来了，带她上了楼。乔阿姨的房子似乎并不比以前小，但给她的感觉是“降级”了，“破落”了，因为屋子里显得有点凌乱，那些书柜都一古脑地挤在一间房里，镜框子也没挂起来，墙壁上空荡荡的，有种日落西山的感觉。 乔阿姨的确像是病了，虽然没躺床上，但病怏怏的样子，让她心里很同情，觉得多半还是因为政治上不得意。也不怪当官的总想保住乌纱帽，一旦没那帽子了，一切待遇都不同了，她不由得在心里感叹，还是做个平头百姓好，没什么大起大落，从来就没“起”过，哪里有什么“落”呢？像这些当官的，“大起”的时候怕高兴成中风，“大落”的时候怕郁结出癌症，还怕连累自己的孩子，以及孩子的孩子, 太累了,不值。 乔阿姨给她的孩子准备了红包，连姜阿姨都准备了一个红包，她知道这都是D 市的风俗，便都接在手里，但一出门就给回卓越了，不想欠个人情。哪知卓越一点不客气，转手塞进了自己口袋，搞得她有点后悔，恨不得返回去向乔阿姨姜阿姨们申明一下，说“我可没有得你们的红包,都给卓越拿去了”。 出来后，他又为她叫了辆出租，但他没上车，只绷着脸说了句：“我这段很忙，反正你也有人陪，我就不跟过去了，你好自为之，别为了那么个丑八怪搞得自己身败名裂。”说完就猛地关上车门，骑上摩托绝尘而去。 司机莫名其妙，问石燕：“那是谁？摔坏了我的车门我可对他不客气! ” 石燕气昏了头，就这么一来一去，花了她一百多快的士费，本来两地就隔得远，又是春节，的士司机都自动涨了价，而卓越爱面子，叫的都是很贵的那种车，结果都是让她来出钱，连孩子的红包都被他不声不响地放入腰包了。她最担心的是黄海也跑掉了,那她跑这么一趟,就真是鸡飞蛋打了. 等她回到家，发现黄海果然已经走了，钥匙放在对门的王婆婆那里，茶几上留了一封信： “燕儿， 我在心里这样叫你很久了，但一直都不敢当你面这样叫，觉得自己不配，没资格。今天我终于有勇气叫出口了，感谢你给了我这个勇气。从今以后我都要这样叫你，永远这样叫你，一直到死。 卓老师有一句话说得对，我这样丑陋的脸孔，是不该在你面前多晃动，因为那会影响你肚子里的孩子，所以我不告而别了，尽管我全身每一个细胞都渴望留在你身边，陪你过春节，陪你生产，陪你度过春夏秋冬的每一天，陪你到老，陪你到死。 我不该自作聪明地耍那个计谋，编造一段根本不存在的初恋，想通过怜悯来接近你。那说明我当时并不完全了解你，把你当成了爱慕虚荣的女孩，也许到现在我也不是百分之百了解你，但凡是我了解的地方，我都无条件地爱，凡是我还没了解的地方，我都愿意用我的一生去了解。 遗憾的是，阴差阳错的，我已经让我自己陷入了一个尴尬的境地。只恨世界上还有责任义务这些东西! 既然我结了婚，而且她又是个病人, 我只能尽我的责任，把她办出国去。但我的心永远都在你身边，陪伴着你，永不分离，一直到死。 只希望有朝一日现代科学技术能改变我的容貌，让孩子看见我的时候，不会惊慌失措地躲避；让你被我亲吻的时候，不用闭上眼睛；让我们挽手漫步的时候，不用担心旁人诧异的目光；让你想起我的时候，不再需要跟一个“但是”... ... 我走了,再见! 祝你春节快乐! 永远快乐! ” 信上压了一个光滑的石头，是那种在风景点常卖的扁平石头，石头上有写得很漂亮的草体字，她辨认了一会，认出一边是“海枯石烂”，另一边是“ 至死不渝”。 石燕刚看完那封信的时候，心里有种恐惧的感觉，因为黄海在信里不止一次地提到“死”。她想起他曾试图整容，但医生却给他的脸判了死刑，她怕他因为对自己的脸绝望而做出极端的事来，心里骤然抽紧了，眼泪也流了下来。慌乱之中，她把信又读了两遍，觉得他的信不是那个意思，他对未来还是怀有希望的，很可能只是怕影响她肚子里的孩子，暂时回避了。 其实她根本没想过黄海的脸会影响孩子，到现在她也不这样认为。孩子在肚子里，根本看不见外面的东西，又怎么会看见黄海的脸呢？她墙上贴的那些漂亮娃娃，都是姚小萍买来送给她的，说妈妈多看谁，孩子就像谁，叫她多看看那些画，免得她的孩子象卓越。 但她知道她的孩子最少百分之五十的可能会像卓越，因为遗传的事是来不得半点虚伪和骄傲的。她没反对挂那些画，是因为她觉得多看漂亮娃娃没坏处，一来可以遮盖一下破败的墙壁，二来对孩子也有好处。她的解释是：妈妈喜欢漂亮娃娃，于是看到那些图片的时候，心情就很愉快，而妈妈心情愉快，对胎儿肯定有好处。现在黄海来了，她这么开心，怎么会对孩子造成负面影响呢？ 她不知道黄海究竟去了哪里，如果他真的是到D 市来办事的，那他可能去了那个办事的地方，比如朋友家。如果他办事只是一个借口，那他很可能去了火车站或者汽车站。她觉得他多半去了车站，因为他昨天来后根本没提在D 市办事的话题，她也从来没听说过他在D 市有熟人或朋友。 她一刻也不愿再耽误，就到外面去坐出租，先到火车站，下车之后就直奔候车室。因为是大年初一