Chapter 24 Amy: Until Death (17)
Shi Yan ran away, opened the door, and came to the corridor.When she got here, she wasn't afraid anymore, because she knew that Zhuo Liang wanted to save face, so she didn't dare to chase her out and beat her.Sure enough, he stayed in the house and did not come out.Trembling, she held on to the railing of the stairs and went downstairs one level at a time. She didn't start crying until she walked out of the building where Zhuo Liang lived and out of the sight of her acquaintances and neighbors.
Such a cold and sunless winter, a gray world, a gust of merciless wind, some dirty paper flying against the ground, and she, a pregnant woman, was holding a plastic bag, crying in the cold wind Let's go, this image alone made her cry uncontrollably.
She didn't expect that she would end up like this. If she had known this, she shouldn't have gone back to him with Zhuoyue. Last time she ran away from home, she still had some backbone and some face, but this time she was taken by him. Those who drive away have lost all face and face, and they are useless when they think about it.
The farther she walked south, the heavier her steps became, as if she had left the tiger's mouth and jumped directly into the wolf's den.That Xiaogang's "iron head skill" is not much better than the excellent "dirty mouth skill". "Dirty mouth skills" only hurt her, while "iron head skills" directly hurt the child in the stomach.But she didn't dare to choose the lesser of two evils, because the excellent "foul mouth skill" has a tendency to quickly evolve into "disorderly boxing skill".He is an inhuman person, if he decides that the child is not his, he will definitely hurt the child by any means.
She turned a corner halfway and walked towards the school housing management department. Although she knew that it was difficult to change rooms, even if the housing management department agreed to change, it would take a while, but so far, this is her only way out. Gotta try.
The housing management department is very busy, people come and go, noisy, noisy, people who want a room are like living under a bridge hole, eagerly waiting for a place to live.But the people in the housing management department are as if they are asking to have a communion with them and a wife, and they will not let go.She waited in line for quite a while before a staff member received her.She talked about her situation, and the clerk asked, "Where does your wife work?"
She faltered, if she was in the teacher's college, the staff would definitely ask her to go back to live with her lover, she lied and said, "In other places---" and then declared, "I didn't ask you to give me a single room, I just asked you to give me a private room. I want to change the room because my roommate's son is very naughty, and I'm afraid he'll hurt the baby in my belly---"
The clerk showed a look of "listening to my mother's story about the past", as if it aroused childhood memories, and asked her name and dormitory number thoughtfully, checked the information, and came up with a kind of "There's nowhere to find it after breaking through the sneakers, and it's easy to get here" said: "Aha, so you are the one on the fifth floor of the South First House? There have been many reports about the two people in your dormitory. Where are you doing it?" It's so outrageous, people on several floors can't rest well, and it seriously affects the life and work of the teaching staff---"
She said dissatisfiedly: "Who said this? When did I make such a noise that people on a few floors couldn't rest well?"
"Young man, you are so dishonest! You didn't make a noise, and they went crazy and wanted to sue you?"
She didn't know what kind of logic this was, and she was so angry that she wanted to tell the difference. The clerk said, "It's because of the two in your dormitory. There are quite a few people on your floor who are arguing about reassigning rooms, which adds to our work. caused great trouble. Just don't make trouble for us, okay?"
She boldly said: "Since many people want to change houses, then you can change me to another place --- won't it solve the problem of many people?"
The clerk seemed stunned by her brazenness: "You --- you still have the face to make such a request? How many days have you worked? You don't think about how to contribute to the country, just think about letting the country take care of you, do you have any --- Sense of honor and shame? You continue to trouble me --- I will kick you out of Nanyishe!"
She didn't change to a room, and she even went through a training session. As the people at "Dongdongguai" said, she "felt like a fart was flushed on her face", and she left the housing management department in despair, dragging her heavy two Legs back to South Yishe.
There was no one in the dormitory, her bed was empty, and the quilt and sheets were all there.After thinking about it, she had no other choice, so she decided to take a risky ride to Zhuoyue's place to get her things. If she couldn't ride a bike, she would push it over slowly, otherwise she wouldn't have a quilt to sleep at night.She went down two floors, only to remember that her bicycle was placed at the corner of the stairs on the fifth floor. After she changed to walking to work, Yao Xiaoping asked Yan Jing to help her carry it up so that no one could steal it.Now, if you want to ride a bicycle, you have to carry it from the fifth floor to the first floor.She knew she didn't have the ability, so she cried all the way back to the dormitory, grabbed Yao Xiaoping's quilt, wrapped it around her body, and lay down on the bed crying heartily.
When it was dark, her savior, Yao Xiaoping, came back, along with Yan Jing, hugging Xiao Gang, talking and laughing.When she saw them coming in, she quickly wiped away her tears and returned the quilt to Yao Xiaoping's bed.
Yao Xiaoping didn't ask any further questions, and the envoy said strictly: "Yan, I'll cook, you go to Zhuoyue's side and help bring Shi's things over---"
Rigorously touching the head is not the brain: "What?"
"Quilt, change of clothes, take what you have, you just say that Shi told you to go and get it, Zhuoyue naturally knows---"
There was a look of embarrassment on the rigorous face, and he was shy, as if he was being asked to get on the sedan chair.Yao ordered again: "Hurry up, it's getting dark, Shi needs to rest---"
"What if he-- won't let me take it?"
Yao Xiaoping raised her eyebrows: "What else can you do if you beat him up if you don't let you take it? Are your fists vegetarian?" Then he coaxed a child, "He won't let you take it, are you His iron buddy, if you go and get it, can he not give you face?"
I don't know if it was the rigorous vanity that was inspired by Yao Xiaoping's few compliments, or the fear that was provoked by Yao Xiaoping's upside-down willow eyebrows, in short, he obeyed reluctantly and left.
Yao Xiaoping said to Shi Yan: "Is our Xiaogang much better now? We were going to pick you up two days ago---"
Shi Yan wiped away her tears and said, "Xiao Gang and Yan Jing seem to get along well---"
"Well, Uncle Yan is now the hero in Xiaogang's heart. I ran out of gas that day, so I went to look for him behind my back, and I happened to meet the people he was teaching the gymnastics team. Xiaogang would knock over the fork again when he saw Uncle Yan. He can also play sticks and jump horses, and he was immediately fascinated by Uncle Yan, and he wanted to learn how to knock over forks from Uncle Yan. Now as long as he says, "Uncle Yan will teach you to knock over forks if you are not obedient", Xiaogang Just listen."
As soon as he finished speaking, Xiao Gang was pulling a few books on the table, Yao Xiaoping warned: "Xiao Gang, don't move those books on the table, the disobedient Uncle Yan won't teach you to knock over the fork---"
As expected, Xiao Gang stopped, and Yao Xiaoping looked at her son proudly and said to Shi Yan, "Little boy, as long as he has something to look forward to and something he likes, he can be saved." Then he told Xiao Gang, "Xiao Gang, auntie There's a little gangster here, don't bump into auntie, if you bump into auntie, Uncle Yan won't teach you to knock over the fork---"
Xiao Gang was trying to imitate the tongue, Yao Xiaoping gave a long "hmm" majesticly, and Xiao Gang stopped.Yao Xiaoping explained to Shi Yan: "He was used to running around in the county, but now he is kept in such a small house, so he has no choice. Now we take him out to the playground every day, to the gymnastics room, Watch him play football, teach him how to play sticks, try to exhaust him every day, so he won't have the energy to make trouble----"
Xiaogang was babbling about "Uncle Yan" again, and the mother and son started talking in J county dialect. Shi Yan couldn't understand, but she was very happy for Xiaogang, Yao and Yan, and sad for herself. How can others have such good luck, but not yourself?
Yan Jing made two trips before he brought Shi Yan's things here, and then went to help them fetch hot water. Every time he came up, he had to talk to Xiao Gangxu and slander him, but it could be seen that Yan Jing also enjoyed it a lot. His status of being admired and looked up to.Yao Xiaoping was cooking in the corridor, making it delicious, and she came in from time to time to enjoy the friendly conversation between Uncle Yan and her son.Shi Yan looked at the family of three with great envy, and only hoped that they would not think of her as a light bulb.
On the weekend, Yao and Yan took Xiaogang back to County J, Yan Jing and Xiaogang stayed at a friend's house as a spiritual backing, Yao Xiaoping went into the tiger's den to get Xiaogang's household registration booklet.
When the family of three returned to the dormitory, Shi Yan saw Yao Xiaoping's face was bruised and swollen. After asking, she found out that Wu Zhigang had beaten her.Yan Jing was cursing, saying that he was not present today, that he would take advantage of Wu Zhigang, otherwise he would flatten his cucumber face, looking at Yan Jing with a regretful expression on his face, as if a national champion who had almost won was snatched away again.
But Yao Xiaoping didn't care about the bronze color on her face, because she got Xiaogang's household registration and could transfer to the teacher's college, and she didn't have to go back to that ghostly place again.
Xiaogang went to the kindergarten of D University. Although he was still sued by the teacher from time to time, and made troubles in the dormitory intermittently, in general, he became more and more obedient day by day.
Yao Xiaoping's side was singing and dancing, but Shi Yan's side was in great trouble, which reminded her of the old saying that "the people get better day by day, and the class enemies die day by day".
It was almost the end of the year, and Vice President Zhang suddenly came to talk to her. She was always afraid of being asked to "talk" by the leader. In her eyes, the leader was like a plague god. good thing.In the past few months of her work, Vice Principal Zhang has never talked to her, and he rarely even meets face to face. Now she is definitely not asked to be a vase, unless Vice Principal Zhang prefers vases with big bellies.
She went to Vice Principal Zhang's office anxiously, and sat in the seat opposite Vice Principal Zhang tremblingly. Before Vice Principal Zhang could speak, she guessed something from the solemn expression on his face.Sure enough, Vice-Principal Zhang said: "We are smart people who don't talk dark words. You didn't get this job by taking a big road. You and I know this. Now someone reported me to the Teachers College, and the Teachers College forced me to investigate and deal with this matter. Well, I stood up for you for a while, but I couldn't stand it anymore, so--"
Although she expected this to be the case, she still felt like a thunderbolt, and she burst into tears.
Vice-principal Zhang advised, "Don't be too nervous. It's just a matter of where you work. There are always jobs. We won't make you lose your job. Now it's up to you where you want to go---"
She choked up and asked, "Who the hell is reporting?"
Vice President Zhang said in a tone like Sister Jijiang: "This is an organization secret, I can't tell you----"
She thought, that's weird, you are the one who was reported, and even you know who reported it, so why can't you tell me?The organization is afraid of retaliation against the whistleblower, and it should also be afraid of retaliation from you.But she knew that she couldn't find out if she asked, so she said bluntly: "It must have been reported by Zhuoyou? Or it was his mother who reported---"
Vice President Zhang was noncommittal: "Stop talking nonsense, this is against organizational discipline, and you must speak responsibly---stop inquiring about these things, and think about where to go first, your salary can only be paid until the end of this month , the working relationship can only be maintained until the end of this month, if you can't find a receiving unit during this period, we will assign you back to 'Dongdongguai'---"
For her now, where to go is no longer important, she only cares about one thing: "Then my --- Fertility index is okay?"
Vice President Zhang was a little at a loss: "Fertility index? What fertility index?"
"That's me --- the indicator of having this baby--"
"Oh, this one? Then I don't know, you have to ask the family planning office of the school---"
She hurriedly went to the school's family planning office to inquire. After wandering around several places, she finally found the school's "Family Planning Office". If you leave, you have to return the indicators to the school, our indicators are very precious and cannot be used by people from other units.”
A well-meaning person also suggested to her: "Why are you panicking? It's better to transfer away after giving birth, then you don't have to pay back the quota---"
She thought, if I could wait until after the birth and then transfer away, would I be in a hurry to transfer away now?But she didn't dare to tell the real reason for her transfer, so she just begged the family planning office with tears in her eyes and asked the family planning office not to take back her fertility quota.Several people in the family planning office were moved, their eyes were red, but a policy is a policy, if a policy can be changed because of a few tears, it would have been changed to a pot of porridge long ago.
Shi Yan returned to the dormitory in a daze, and when she mentioned this, Yao Xiaoping said angrily: "This Zhuo man is too insidious, too vicious, and he is going to kill him, just like he did that day. I, Xiao Gang, jumped off the building. If I, Xiao Gang, really fell that day, I would turn into a ghost, and I would kill Zhuo if I bit her---"
Shi Yan also wished to become an evil ghost and bite Zhuoyou to death, but becoming an evil ghost is like realizing communism. It is just a lofty ideal and cannot save the urgent need. Damn, she has to find a receiving unit, get a fertility quota, give birth to a child, it's best not to go back to "Dongdongguai", and not let the people over there see her family's jokes.
For the rest of the month, with the permission of Vice President Zhang, she didn't have to go to work, and she just took the time to contact the receiving unit.She ran around by herself and together with Yao Xiaoping, spending money like water, because she couldn't squeeze the bus, she had to take a taxi everywhere, and her little savings seemed to be spent soon.
And the money was all in vain, running around, but still haven't found a receiving unit, the main reason is that it is almost the end of the year, if any unit transfers her with such a big belly, it has to give her a fertility index, but no one At this time, the school still has fertility indicators left.If an employee "produces without a target", in addition to the individual employee being fined and dismissed from public office, the unit will also be punished. Don't worry about the red flag unit, but also pay a fine. The cadres in charge of family planning will definitely be punished , the main leaders of the unit may be punished, so no one dares to take this risk.
Yao Xiaoping gave advice to those units: "You have run out of quotas for this year, can you use next year's quotas? There are still some quotas left for next year, right?"
The man replied impatiently: "You are speaking in layman's terms. Fertility indicators are arranged according to the date of your pregnancy, not according to the date of your birth. Whichever year you conceived, use the index of that year. If You have just been pregnant for one or two months, maybe we can accommodate a little bit, make a trick, and give you a target for next year, but you are already - six or seven months, right? Who else can you coax?"
Some units are simpler: "We've run out of quota for next year."
Some units even criticized her teacher college: "Our ideological work is done well, and the employees get pregnant first after getting the quota. Unlike your unit, the child is almost born, and there is no quota. You If this situation happened in our unit, you would have been ordered to do it long ago."
Shi Yan found a few friends to inquire at the "Dongdongguai", but it didn't work, and she was still stuck on the fertility index. The other side might have heard that she was a "Dongdongguai" person, so they not only refused to accept her. , and put it in an ugly way: "A person like this who panics about getting pregnant and having a baby as soon as he starts working is definitely not a career-oriented person, and he will not work well when he is transferred. We will not want such a people, not to mention no indicators.”
She bumped into walls everywhere, was angry outside every day, and returned to the dormitory in despair, always crying a lot.Yao Xiaoping persuaded: "Shi, a strong man can't survive, so just get rid of this child. Otherwise, you will lose your job, and your child will not be able to register. At that time, adults and children will be posted in it---"
She scolded Excellence: "It's all this wolf-hearted Excellence, who doesn't even let her own children go---"
Yao Xiaoping took up the conversation and said: "Since we know that he is a wolf-hearted person, it is useless to keep his offspring, and it will add a disaster to society for nothing---"
She was dissatisfied: "How do you know it will be the same as Excellence? Can't it be the same as me? Can't your Xiaogang be educated too?"
Knowing that she was wrong, Yao Xiaoping changed her mind and said, "I'm just persuading you. At this point, if you don't think so, what else can you do?"
She said hopefully: "The school---didn't take back my quota? My yellow book---didn't they tell me to return it?"
"What's the use of that yellow book? It's just to record your physical examination. The real indicator is the paper certificate given to you by the school after you gave birth. Without that certificate, you can't register your child with a household registration---"
She said vehemently, "I'm going to find that bastard Zhuo Zhuo! Tell him to tell me clearly in front of his face, what kind of ability is he playing tricks behind his back?"
Yao Xiaoping urged her not to go to Zhuoyue: "It's useless if you find him, he won't admit it, even if he admits it, what's the use? He can say that it was wrong to open the back door for you before, but now he realizes it and corrected it." , so I reported it, he is rectifying the party style, what can you do to him? Let's see!"
She said flatly: "I don't care if it's useful or not, I just want to scold him face to face. If I don't scold him, I won't be angry---"
"You scold him, what if he beats you?"
"He dares! As long as he dares to fight, I will fight him, anyway, he doesn't want us to live---"
Yao Xiaoping couldn't persuade her, so she said to Yan Jing: "Yan, you can take Shi to Zhuoyue's side by bicycle, it's so cold, she walked over by herself, and she fainted from exhaustion before she started cursing---you are beside me Keep an eye on it, if Zhuo dares to use force, you beat him and I will give you a certificate. I want to take care of my children, so I won’t go with you—”
Yan Jing had no choice but to drive Shi Yan to Zhuoyue downstairs, but he refused to go up even if he was beaten to death: "How can I go? I am friends with him and you. If you quarrel, which side should I take?"
She said angrily: "It's not easy? Take the side that is against you!"
Yan Jing still refused to go up: "You go, I will wait for you at Lao Zheng's house on the second floor, you --- after the quarrel, come down and call me, I will take you back to the dormitory ---"
Shi Yan also stopped persuading this coward who doesn't know right from wrong to go with her, so she went upstairs alone as a lonely heroine.When she arrived in front of Zhuoyue's gate, she was timid for a minute, but she immediately became brave. What was she afraid of?At worst, he was beaten to death. In this situation, he is not far from being beaten to death.She knocked on the door and heard Zhuo Liang asking inside, "Who is it?"
"I, Shi Yan!"
He quickly opened the door, as if a little surprised and asked: "It's really you---"
She didn't listen to his hypocritical greetings, she pulled him aside with the back of her hand, walked into the room by herself, and without waiting for his greeting, she just sat down on the chair in the living room, occupying the highest position in the living room, posing a three- The posture of the tribunal.
He closed the door, walked to the living room, and sat on the sofa opposite her. Although he was at a disadvantage in terms of location, he was not considered "equal", but because he was taller, he was "equal" with her.He asked, "Look for me---what's the matter?"
"What's the matter? You know it in your heart!"
He hesitated for a moment, then asked: "Or--- about that book? I didn't throw it away, I'll bring it to you now---" He got up and went to the bedroom, and took out the book from some secret treasure "Knowledge of Pregnancy", returned to the living room, and handed it to her like a martial arts secret book.
She took the book, put it on the coffee table in front of her, and said, "Stop pretending, you know I didn't come here for this---"
"Then why are you here?"
She said angrily, "Think about what you have done to yourself!"
He said without thinking, "I never make trouble."
"Hmph, you never make trouble? Who reported to the Teacher Academy that I opened the back door to find a job? Now the Teacher Academy wants to transfer me away---"
"The Teacher Academy is going to transfer you away? Why didn't anyone tell me? When did this happen?"
The more innocent he is, the angrier she gets: "Why are you pretending to be stupid? Isn't Vice President Zhang your friend? Will he tell you about this decision?"
"I really don't know, he really didn't tell me—"
"If it's not you, then it's your mother. She said a long time ago that she would report me to the Teacher Academy---"
He pushed it cleanly: "My mother would never do such a thing---"
"Why doesn't your mother do such a thing? Could it be that she is a duplicity person? What she says is high-sounding, but what she does below is all ugly deeds?"
He blushed and defended, "I didn't say my mother was duplicity, she definitely disapproved of opening the back door, but she can ignore it---"
"She said she reported it, but she didn't report it. Isn't that duplicity?"
He blushed even more: "If you want to say that about her, I can't help it, but mothers are always somewhat selfish towards their children, and you are going to be a mother yourself, don't you understand this?"
"Don't use the fact that I want to be a mother to make me up, let me tell you, if I can't keep this child because of this, I --- I will become a devil, and I will kill you if I bite you!" She copied Yao Xiaoping's words, Feeling a little vulgar again, worried about being ridiculed by him.
Sure enough, he smiled disdainfully: "Tell me the truth, is this child mine or not?"
"What if it's yours? What if it's not yours?"
"It's mine, I'll help you find a way, it's not mine----"
"You just kill it?"
"I didn't say I killed it --- I'm not that inhuman ---"
She sarcastically said: "How understanding of humanity you are! You really don't fear your teeth getting cold when you talk big!"
He confessed: "I know you are saying that I refused to send you that day, but I said those things that day - that is, in a fit of anger - and I chased them out afterwards to help you deliver the things there, you just I disappeared. I chased you to Nanyishe, but I didn't see anyone---"
Seeing that he was able to tell that there was no one in the dormitory that day, she thought that maybe he really chased after her. Of course, chasing him didn't mean anything, maybe he chased him and beat her.
He added: "If you think about it, you won't blame me for being so angry. What would you think if I made a child with someone else? I only talk to-- That --- Aunt Jiang has such a little thing, you will never let it go ---"
It seems that he really took the wrong medicine, and brought up the matter again, and she was angry when she heard it: "What do you mean? If you think this child is not yours, you have the right to insult my personality? You can put Me and the child going to death?"
"I didn't kill you and the child—"
"You messed up my job and my fertility indicators. Didn't you screw me and my child to death?"
"It's true that I didn't do it--I admit it--calling Yao Xiaoping's husband--that's--I did it, but--"
She was really stunned: "So you really did that thing? You also said that you didn't kill me and the child. If it wasn't for my child's life, and Xiao Gang's bump, you wouldn't have knocked the child away." Is it? You --- wolf-hearted thing! You have done so many evils, you really --- will die!"
Zhuo Liang's expression changed, and he pointed to Shi Yan and said, "Don't toast and refuse to drink fine wine. I've been here to keep you company and be careful, but you've become more and more embarrassed by your company? How many times have you cursed me so badly? Afraid of you? Tell you, I am now waiting for you to give birth to this child for a blood test, otherwise, I would have long--"
"What's the matter with you? Finish it! Finish it if you have the ability!"
His face was livid, he gritted his teeth, and the muscles on both cheeks bulged.
She sarcastically said, "Have you shown your fox tail? Have you exposed your wolfish ambitions? A person like you can do well in the first year of junior high school, and can do well in the fifteenth year. I can imagine you from the way you treated Yao Xiaoping's son that day." How will you treat your own children. You can focus on killing your own children! I repeat, you are an inhuman thing, you must die!"
He came up to her fiercely in a few steps, raised his fist, but she didn't run away, stood up, and sent him up to beat him with her chest upright: "Beat me, you beat me, if you beat me to death, I won't have to beg for help every day for my fertility target." ---"
He raised his fist in mid-air, held it dry for a moment, lowered it, changed it into a male finger, and almost touched her face, and after a dozen times in a row, he said: "You --- said I didn't Humanity---you are called inhumanity---you curse me to death---I----"
When she saw him, his chest was rising and falling rapidly, his face was pale, his brows were blue, his lips were purple, and the blood vessels on his temples were both blue and purple, really colorful.She was afraid that he would fall to the ground and ask her to carry a murder case, so she didn't add fuel to the flames, and only glared at him.
Like two fighting roosters, the two confronted each other for a while without saying a word. Only then did Zhuoyou's heart muscle seem to unblock a little, and he was able to speak: "I can help you find Vice President Zhang to get your job back. You can also go to Dr. Liu to help you get back the fertility index, but listen carefully, if the child is born and the blood test proves that it is not mine, I-I will not be polite to you!"
"Does it mean that your life is one life? As long as you have a little bit of humanity, you won't do such a vicious thing!"
"I've already explained to you, I didn't report you, why are you so entangled?"
"I can't figure it out? If you have always been an upright gentleman and never played tricks behind your back, how could I not believe you? You are a person who follows me, prospers and opposes me, and perishes. As long as you hate someone, what's the matter with you?" Can't do it?"
"I didn't hate you—"
"You'd better save these words to coax the ghosts!" After she finished speaking, she stood up and walked out.
He said, "I'll take you by car."
"No, rigorously wait for me on the second floor----"
He said sarcastically: "Don't want that ugly monster? Did you poach the corner of Yao Xiaoping's wall?"
"Who am I digging, what does it matter to you?"
He said angrily: "It's none of my business? Don't forget, you are still my wife, don't embarrass me outside!"
"I'm embarrassing you? I still think you're embarrassing me. I'm not your wife. Your marriage certificate was obtained through a fake. Do you want me to expose you?"
"Since you don't regard me as your husband, why should I help you with fertility indicators?"
She was also annoyed: "I tell you, I want you to engage in fertility indicators because I thought you were still a little bit human, so I asked you to atone for your sins. If you have already exterminated your humanity, you don't want to pull it down. But I said it. Here, if the child has no targets and is forced to kill him, you are the culprit! Its ghost will haunt you for the rest of its life, and you can never expect a moment of peace!"
He seemed to be stupefied, and seemed to be overwhelmed by her. It took him a long time before he said, "I've never seen such a ruthless woman!"
"Haven't you seen it? This time it will open your eyes!"
"It's you who are begging me, not me. Are you still so fierce?"
"I'm not begging you, I'm ordering you, testing you, to see if you still have humanity---"
"Is this child really mine?"
"Whether it's yours or not, it's a life. If you have the ability, if you don't save it, are you still human?"
"If it's not mine, what responsibility do I have to save it? As long as I don't hurt it, no one can say I'm inhuman."
Seeing that he was still arguing, she became even more angry, and returned to the old topic: "You didn't hurt it? You instigated the Teachers Academy to transfer me away and make me lose this fertility index. You are not hurting it, what are you doing?" ?”
He argued: "It's really not that I want to transfer you away. I'll call Vice President Zhang right now, and you can listen to me, okay?"
"Okay, you call now, I'm listening."
He hesitated for a moment and said, "Come on, let's go downstairs and make a phone call---"
She went downstairs with him and called the concierge. She knew he would dial a number indiscriminately, and then said that Vice President Zhang was not there. Sure enough, he called for a while, put down the phone and said, "Vice President Zhang is not at home-- - "
She didn't even bother to say "I've expected it", and just snorted.
She was about to leave when he said, "Wait until I call my mom---"
This time, I got through right away, probably Aunt Jiang answered, because he quickly said: "Please ask my mother to answer the phone---" Then he gave her a guilty look, and she ignored him.
She heard him asking about his mother's report. She didn't know what was said there. Nothing was said.When he hung up the phone, he said to her, "My mom said she didn't report---"
"It's either her or you, anyway, I can't do without the people of your Zhuo family---"
He didn't refute her words one-on-one, but said: "But it's really difficult for you to teach in a middle school in D City, mainly because of the fertility index---"
This result was not beyond her expectation at all. His mother, if he didn't say that, how else would he say it?Maybe it wasn't his mother who answered the phone at all, but Aunt Jiang. Who knows what they were muttering, and he used it to fool her.
He asked: "How about Dongdongguai? If it doesn't work, you can go back there first---"
She snapped back and said, "There are signs on Dongdongguai. I went back eight hundred years ago. Do I need you to remind me?"
He stared at her and didn't speak for a long time, but his eyes seemed to say: "Look, I didn't lie to you, did I? You can't get into D City Middle School, and you can't get into Dongdongguai. You will turn around, and you will eventually get in." Come to me, without me setting up fertility indicators for you, you can't have this child, so why be so cruel? It's the way of the world, you can't do it if you are not convinced---"
She didn't bother to look at him so proudly, so she went to the second floor angrily and called out rigorous, ready to go back to Nanyishe.As soon as he stepped out of the building, Zhuo Liang greeted him and pulled Yan Jing aside to speak.She called a few times, but she didn't come over rigorously, she just replied, "Wait a minute, Lao Zhuo has something to tell me—"
She thought, do you even want to win over rigor?It's too black-hearted, she yelled majestically: "Jing, let's go, what have you to say to him---"
But that timid and timid guy like Yan Jing was still talking to Zhuo Liang, when she got angry, she left without waiting for Jing Jing.
After walking for a while, Yan Jing rode up to catch up and complained: "Your temper is too big, he has something to tell me----"
"Did I prevent you from talking to him?"
"You didn't stop me, but if you run like this, how can I have the heart to talk to him? You have to learn from Yao in these aspects---"
She replied: "You should also learn from Yao in these aspects, so she won't scold me for helping me---"
Heheed a few times in a rigorous and good-tempered manner, and said: "Yao is Lei Feng, we should all learn from Yao---"
She also calmed down and asked, "What did that bastard pull you to say?"
"He asked my dad if he could help you find a job in the middle school--"
"He is so capable, and still needs to ask your dad for help? Can you --- dad, he --- help?"
"I'll ask him when I go back tonight, but you can't count on him. He has no power or power, so he can only rely on his acquaintances, but he has already asked someone for help once, and he has received his favor. report----"
She comforted and said, "Just ask him for help, don't put pressure on him---"
Back in the dormitory, she told what happened today. Yao Xiaoping said: "Excellence is a short favor. It is useless to find a strict father. If it is useful, use Excellence as a reminder? I would have thought of it a long time ago. Not only because of rigor My father has no power or power, and it is also because the attached middle school lacks teachers of language, mathematics, body, sound and beauty, not teachers of our major. Before I went, there was a lack of such a teacher, but once I went, there will be no shortage of them. This professional teacher----"
She introduced herself: "I can also teach a few languages --- didn't you say that you have taught everything before?"
"When I was in the countryside, I couldn't compare with the attached middle school. Now the attached middle school is one of the top key middle schools in D city. The students are crowded and there are many teachers who want to be transferred, so the requirements of the attached middle school are also set very high. No Those with a bachelor’s degree in the major you teach will not be accepted, you are not a foreigner—”
"Then I'll go to the countryside. It's definitely not so strict there. Maybe --- there are fertility indicators ---"
Yao Xiaoping resolutely objected: "You have never stayed in that kind of place, and you think that life in the countryside is a little bit harder. Let me tell you, it is not only a problem of life, but also a spiritual suffering. This is how things are in China. The more one hand overshadows the sky, the lower the leadership level is, the less you know how to appreciate your talent. When I was teaching elementary school below, no one said that I was good at teaching, and everyone thought my method was wrong. No matter how good my students were in the exam It’s useless, either because I’m lucky, or because I’ve made a fool of myself. When I went to the township-run middle school, only a few people could tell that my teaching level was high. When I went to the county middle school, I was the gate teacher for the third year of high school every year. Now I’m in the attached middle school , Everyone said that I was a good teacher. Not long after I came here, I was allowed to take public classes in the city. In order to keep me, the leaders of the attached middle school went to the kindergarten to speak for me. If you go to the countryside, you can do it in a few days. Suffocate you to death."
"But--the baby can be born--"
"Why did you give birth to your child? You wanted it to live a happy life, a human life. If you go to a place like the countryside, you can only live a life that is not as good as a pig or a dog. Do you still miss your child?" Can the child lead a human life? Once you and your child’s hukou are in that place, it will be very difficult to get out in this life. You only need to see how much I paid for it! Don’t be short-sighted and hurt your child 。孩子没出生就做掉了，是害了一条命，是你心头一个永远的伤，但孩子自己没受过苦；如果你把它生下来，又没有能力让它过好的生活，那你不是害了它一辈子？”
石燕知道姚小萍说得对，如果不能让孩子过人的生活，那就干脆不要把它带到这世界上来。但她觉得现在已经晚了，因为她已经把孩子带到这个世界上来了，虽然在她肚子里，但她的肚子在这个世界上，那孩子不也是在这个世界上吗？
她不相信肚子里的孩子就是完全不懂事，完全不知道痛苦的，她觉得她的孩子聪明得很，什么都懂，跟她心连着心。每次她哭的时候，孩子就静静地躺在那里，一动不动，好像不愿意给她增添忧愁一样；每次她生气的时候，孩子就会猛踢她几下，好像在提醒她：制怒! 制怒! 怒气伤肝；每次她担心孩子有什么意外的时候，孩子就会连续动几动，好像在告诉她：别担心，我好着呢；每次她跟孩子“抵架”的时候，只要她在心里对孩子说“宝宝，累了吧？换个手手”，孩子就换个手手，在另一个地方鼓起包来。
她没做过流产，关于流产的事都是听姚小萍她们说的。听说四十五天之内的胎儿，是先用什么把胎儿打碎，然后用负压吸出来；三四个月的，是往你子宫里放个装水的塑料袋，骗你的子宫，让它以为孩子够大了，于是产生宫缩，把孩子挤出来；再大点，就可以催产生下来了，跟正规生孩子一样，你一样阵痛，一样鸡喊鸭叫，一样坐月子，但孩子不会给你带回家去养，而是由医院“处置”了。
像她现在这样的，肯定是催产。
那就是说，她的孩子是“生”出来的，而不是“流”出来的，也不是“刮”出来的，生出来的孩子是不是能呼吸了呢？她想应该是的。如果孩子能呼吸，那不就是一个活生生的人，就能感受一切了吗？只是不会说话，不能表达自己的喜怒哀乐，不能抗议这个世界对它做的一切，不能请求谁来保护它，但那并不等于孩子不能感受痛苦。
她不可扼止地想知道医院将会怎样“处置”她那被催产出来的孩子，也许瞒着她，血淋淋地拿去做试验？她的孩子被解剖刀切割的时候，难道不痛吗？也许他们在解剖前就把它弄死了？怎样弄死呢？捂住它的口鼻，还是给他打什么致命的针？她不敢沿着这条路往下想，只祈祷医院不会把她的孩子拿去做实验。
但如果他们把孩子丢垃圾桶里，不也很残酷吗？那样不管不顾地一丢，不把孩子砸死了？即便不砸死，不也砸得很痛吗？孩子憋屈地呆在垃圾桶里，不是很可怜吗？她一想到她的孩子将被丢到一个她永远找不到的地方去，她就仿佛看见一个赤身裸体的小婴孩，躺在乱山岗子上，一群眼里泛着绿光的饿狼正一步一步逼近孩子，孩子用它仅存的力量向她呼救。 . .
她不寒而栗，痛哭到气都换不过来。
她不知道自己到底哭了多少，只知道她的泪终于流干了，眼里只剩下复仇的火焰。她知道肚子里的孩子是保不住的了，但她也没想过丢卒保车的事，她绝不会让她的孩子一个人孤零零地躺在乱山岗上哭泣，而自己苟且偷生地活下去。活不成，就都不活了。她想象不出如果她做掉了孩子，保住了工作，她今后的日子又有什么意义，她心里永远都会回响着孩子凄厉的呼救声。
现在她只想复仇，为她的孩子复仇，谁弄得她的孩子活不成的，她就向谁复仇。但她想来想去，也只想出卓越这一个恶人，其它的人，都是在执行政策，都是没办法。只有卓越，是在公报私仇，打着端正党风的旗号，干着谋害人命的勾当。
她真的考虑起变恶鬼的事儿来了，变了恶鬼，就可以咬死卓越而不犯法。但她发现这也不是一条容易的路，她怎么能担保自己死了就一定是变恶鬼，而不是变一个被恶鬼们欺负的善鬼？难道阴间就是什么清明公正的地方吗？还不是一样污浊腐败! 仍然是卓越这样的恶鬼占上风，仗着手里有权，为所欲为。
她觉得对卓越最好的惩罚就是在一切无法挽回之后让卓越发现孩子的确是他的，让悔恨折磨他一辈子。但她仔细想了一下，又觉得这也没什么把握，卓越那种人，即便知道自己亲手害死了自己的孩子，也未必会受良心折磨。他根本就没良心，又怎么会受良心责备呢？即便他的良心还没给狗吃掉，他也不会受良心责备，因为他从来就不认为自己做错了事，什么都是怪罪在别人头上，不光嘴里是这样说，他连心里都是这样想的，所以才会怪罪得那么理直气壮。到时候他肯定是责怪黄海不该寄那本书来，或者怪她没告诉他真相，或者怪那个医生骗了他，那样他就丝毫不受良心责备，每晚可以高枕无忧了。
所以最好的办法是亲手杀了那个灭绝人性的家伙，既然她也没准备一个人独活，那她还怕什么犯法？犯法就犯法，只要主义真。但她担心自己没这个体力，所以她只能凭智力来战胜卓越，先麻痹他，装做跟他和好的样子，等他放松警惕的时候再下手。
她被自己的凶残吓了一个哆嗦，但她随即安慰自己：兔子逼急了都知道咬人呢，更何况是一只母兔子在为了孩子咬人？谁害了我的孩子，谁就是十恶不赦的罪人，杀他就是为民除害。
那天晚上，她的梦全都是跟死亡相关的，但奇怪得很，凡是别人伤害她和孩子的，在梦里都实现了，凡是她向卓越复仇的，在梦里都没实现，总是因为七扯八拉的事情泡汤了。她不时地从梦中惊醒过来，想到连梦里都没人为她主持正义，就义愤填膺，想到自己和孩子死后，父母该是多么难过，就心痛难忍。
但她不哭了，因为哭没有用，因为泪流尽了。
她没有按姚小萍建议的，赶在年底前就把孩子做掉，以便保住自己的工作。如果孩子保不住，她也不在乎自己工作不工作了，只要赶在孩子出生之前完成了自己复仇的愿望，她就跟孩子一起死了算了，永远都不分离。
主意定了，她心情很平静，一边等待复仇的机会，一边仍然到处找工作，也不拘是什么工作，见到单位就进去问别人要不要人，有没有生育指标，问得别人都拿异样的眼光看她，只差把她送精神病院了。
有天下午她从外面回来，刚进楼，卓越就从门房里钻出来，拦住她说：“燕儿，我想跟你谈谈---- ”
她见她的麻痹对象自己送上门来，心里一喜，说：“行啊，我们上楼去谈吧--- ”
“上楼谈不方便，我们到外面吃顿饭，边吃边谈--- ”
她现在早已将个人生死置之度外，别说吃饭，就是吃枪子她都不怕，便不推脱，立即同意：“好啊，等我跟门房说一声。”她请门房告诉姚小萍，她跟卓越一起出去吃饭去了，免得姚小萍他们等她回来吃饭，然后回头对卓越说，“走吧，我们去吃饭。”
卓越用摩托把她带到校门那里，叫了一个的，带她来到他们初次下餐馆的那家，叫了好几个菜，也不急着说话，只帮她夹菜，劝她多吃一点。
她想，难道他在这些菜里下了毒？怎么劝得这么殷勤？但她想到他的摩托还放在校门那里，不象立即就要毒死她的样子，再说他看见她跟门房说话了，应该知道现在毒死她的话，他脱不了干系。她的肚子也的确饿了，加上好些日子没在餐馆大吃大喝，肚子里有点缺油水，看到一桌的饭菜，馋得厉害，也就不客气，自顾大吃起来。
吃了一阵，他说：“你也不问我约你谈什么？”
“有什么好问的？你愿意讲就讲，不愿意讲拉倒，我不在乎--- ”
“如果是关于你的工作和生育指标的事的，你也不--- 在乎？”
“我在乎又有什么用？权在你们这些人手里，你们想把我们怎么样，就可以把我们怎么样--- ”
他似乎噎了一把，过了好一阵才说：“燕儿，对不起，这事真的得怪我---- ”他见她又怒目圆睁了，便赶快声明说，“不是我举报了你，而是---- 我连累了你。我那天打电话给我妈的时候，才知道--- 那个姓温的--- 已经内定为市里的二把手了，马上就是一人之下，万人之上，还没正式宣布，他就开始整他的敌人了--- 我是他的眼中钉--- 他老早就想整我--- 这我也知道--- 但我没想到他--- 这么不择手段--- 拿你开刀--- ”
“你把自己洗刷得挺干净的嘛--- ”
“我没有洗刷自己，我已经说了，你是因为我受到牵连，这怎么是洗刷自己呢？这几天，我一直在跑这个事，但--- 这些当官的--- 你也知道--- 都只能在不影响他们个人利益的情况下帮帮你--- 真的危及到他个人的利益了--- 他当然是--- 顾不上你的了---- ”
她不知道该不该相信他，她还是有点相信的，因为他看上去有点憔悴，的确像是在走背字的样子。而且在她看来，相信不相信都没什么区别，反正孩子保不住了是个事实，至于是谁造成的，只不过改变一下她的复仇对象而已，但不能改变她孩子的命运。她冷冷地说：“你们官场上的那些勾心斗角，跟我不相关。如果你是怕孩子的冤魂今后缠着你，你随便找个什么理由糊弄自己吧。你这种人--- 反正吃的就是撒谎的饭，骗人，骗己，总不是一个骗？”
他又想发火：“你这个人怎么回事？好话歹话都分不清？我是好心好意跟你商量，你怎么--- ”
她反唇相讥：“你跟我商量什么？商量怎么去搞垮那个姓温的？你就别做那个梦了，我不会像胡丽英那么傻，助纣为虐，帮你去做坏事---- ”
他又噎住了，噎了好一阵，才沉重地说：“这次没那么简单了--- ”
她见他变相地承认了那件事，又想发火。但他抢在前面，说：“燕儿，不要害怕，这都只是我人生暂时的低潮，我会斗过姓温的那伙人的，我会搞垮他们的，我会把你今天被夺走的一切还给你的，而且是加倍地还，不信你走着瞧---- ”
她气不打一处来，教训说：“你到现在头脑都还没清醒过来，还在说昏话。你根本就不该跑到官场上去逞什么能，你就老老实实做个平民百姓，也不会连累我和孩子。我看你这次应该吸取教训，从此远离官场，不然的话---- ”
他反驳说：“应该是你的头脑还没清醒过来，还以为只要老老实实做个平民百姓，就没你的事了。你看看你自己，你没想过要卷进官场的是是非非，但是怎么样呢？你还是被卷进去了。如果你因为这事丢了--- 工作--- 或者丢了孩子--- 你恨不恨那些人？你会不会拼命反击，搞垮他们？”
她想起自己的复仇计划，但辩驳说：“那不同，我只反击那些伤害了我孩子的人，我不管他是官不是官--- ”
“我也只反击那些伤害--- 我---- 的人，只不过我的仇人刚好是官--- ”
“我跟你不同，我是被你连累的--- ”
“有什么不同？你也是被连累的，我也是被连累的，我父母身在官场，我就自然成为他们敌人的攻击目标，你以为我有什么选择吗？我跟你一样毫无选择。可以说你---- 比我还多一点选择，你至少可以选择不--- 嫁给我，但是我呢？我能选择不被生在卓家吗？”
石燕又有了那种感觉，总觉得卓越的理论有问题，但就是指不出问题在哪里。不过她也懒得管他问题在哪里了：“我不管你有没有选择，也不管你在官场上混还是不在官场上混，我早就搬出来了，跟你没关系了，你如果有点人性有点血性，就应该去对你的敌人说清楚，让他们也有点人性有点血性，该跟谁斗就跟谁斗，别拿孩子开刀--- ”
“如果他们有人性有血性，就不会做这种事了。燕儿，这正是他们想要的效果，他们就是要我众叛亲离，家破人亡，妻离子散，连我最亲的人都不支持我，都恨我，他们就是想用这种办法搞垮我--- ”
这回她抓住了他的破绽：“你众叛亲离是他们造成的吗？就按你说的，我工作的事是姓温的捣的鬼，但我们关系破裂是姓温的造成的吗？”
“我们关系的破裂不是姓温的造成的吗？如果不是他指使那个下贱女人写那封信--- ”
她打断他：“你别推卸责任了，我是为那封信搬出去的吗？”
“那封信肯定还是起了作用的，而且我跟--- 姜阿姨的那件事，不还是姓温的造成的吗？”
她一惊：“那也是姓温的--- 造成的？是他--- 教你的？逼你的？”
“如果不是他在文革期间整我的父母，把我父母都赶到干校去，我会--- ”
原来如此! 她反驳说：“父母被赶到干校去的，该有多少？难道人家都--- 成了你--- 那样？”
“你怎么知道他们没成--- 我--- 那样？”
她还真不知道那些人成没成他这样，她也不想知道，她无奈地说：“你这个人从来不认错，什么责任都要推到别人身上，总要找个替罪羊，如果你不是这样，至少还有一点改正的希望，但像你这样死不认错--- 你还指望不众叛亲离？”
他辩解说：“我--- 不习惯口头认错，但是我在--- 实际行动上不是都--- 改了吗？而且口头上---- 我求你还求少了吗？我这一辈子没求的人，都--- 求在你身上了---- ”
“你求我什么了？你哪次不是想方设法为自己开脱？”她发现这顿饭已经吃成辩论会了，便打断自己说，“我不想说这些了，分都分开了，再说这些没意思。我只求你做一件事：请你去告诉那个姓温的，我早就离开你了，跟你没关系了，请他不要为了整你就连累我的孩子--- ”
他不屑地一笑：“你以为政治斗争是过家家？跑去说声你跟我没关系，人家就认为你跟我没关系了？他已经下手了，就算下错了手，就算错整了我的邻居，他都不会改正的，更何况是我的--- 妻子---- ”
她很不平：“他怎么能这么不讲道理？你跟他说，我不是你妻子。如果你不敢去，让我自己去跟他说---- ”
他压低嗓门喝道：“你去跟他说什么？说你跟我划清界线了？愿意倒戈一击，站在他那边对付我？”
“我没这么卑鄙--- 我只跟他说我跟你没关系---- ”
“那他凭什么要相信你？”
她想了一阵：“我可以让姚小萍去为我作证，我早就从你那里搬出来了，我们的结婚证也是---- ”
他把筷子往桌上一撂，弄出很大的声响，吓了她一跳，她怕看他的眼睛，觉得凶光毕露，真的想不出为什么刚认识他的时候会当成“炯炯有神”。他威严地说：“你把我的事告诉姚小萍了？”
她装糊涂：“你的事？你什么事？你有什么事好告诉她的？”
“别装蒜了，你知道我在说什么。我告诉你，如果你蠢到把什么都告诉她的地步，你就--- 别想我会原谅你了---- ”
她气了：“我什么时候请求过你原谅我吗？如果你今天约我就是告诉我你连累了孩子，而且一点不内疚，一点也不想办法救自己的孩子的话，我没什么好跟你说的了。”
说完，她就往外走，被他拉住，他小声恳求说：“燕儿，别走，我话还没说完。求你搬回来住吧，请你别做亲者痛、仇者快的事，我不能让他们看笑话--- ”
“你到了连孩子的命都快保不住的时候，你还在想你的面子？你的面子几斤几两？就那么值钱？比一条命还值钱？”
“我叫你搬回来，也是为了保住--- 孩子的命--- ”他见她满脸是“愿闻其详”的神情，便解释说，“我都安排好了，你搬回来，安安心心把孩子生下来，然后---- ”
她追问：“没生育指标怎么生？”
“生育指标不过是用来上户口的，你要生谁还能把孩子堵在你肚子里不让生出来？”
“但是不能上户口孩子不成了黑人黑户了？”
“成黑人黑户也没什么，不过就是上学交的钱多一些，难道谁还敢把孩子抓去杀掉不成？”
这倒也是，但是到哪儿去找钱呢？她问：“那我的工作呢？没有生育指标生孩子，我就失去公职了--- ”
“你还要公职干什么？就在家带孩子。”
“我不工作，我跟孩子吃什么？喝东南西北风？”
“我养活你--- 跟孩子---- ”
她狐疑地看着他，有点不明白他怎么一下变得这么慷慨大方了：“你不是不相信孩子是你的吗？怎么又愿意养孩子了？”
他支吾说：“我--- 我问了刘医生，她说---- 是我没听懂---- 但是我觉得是她没说清楚--- 开始她说你是六月底怀孕的--- 但后来我再去问她的时候她--- 又说--- 说六月底是你末次---- 例假的时间，真正怀孕的时间应该是---- 七月中---- ”
“难道你连这也不懂？我们那天去拿指标的时候，她不是当着你面说的吗？”
“但是--- 七月中--- 那个丑八怪不是还--- 去找过你的吗？”
她气不打一处来：“他就是去送个书，只在客厅坐了几分钟，难道就---- 成了你怀疑我的理由了？”
“我--- 怎么知道他坐了几分钟？”
她气得说不出话来，但终于认识到这事已经无关紧要了，根本就没打算再跟他在一起，还管他冤枉她没有干什么？
他恳切地说：“燕儿，我知道我们之间有些--- 矛盾和误会---- 但在这种时候--- 就应该向国共两党学习，放下前嫌，结成抗日统一阵线。如果在这个时候我们光考虑个人利益，光顾着清算旧账，就不利于团结了，而我们的敌人就巴不得我们不团结，巴不得我们分裂，那他们就太好战胜我们了---- ”
她这人一向都是把党的话当圣旨听的，从来不在脑子里多打一个转，党咋说，咱就咋办。卓越的这些话，听上去就像党的话一样，有一种催眠作用，她一听到“放下前嫌”，“统一阵线”，“团结”，“分裂”什么的，就有一种神圣的感觉，觉得不服从就是大逆不道一样。她像被催眠了一样，火气也消了，反驳的神经彻底瘫痪，只剩下一种向往进步，向往高尚的愿望。
他问：“燕儿，好不好？算我求你了! ”
她梦幻般地问：“什么好不好？”她看见他眼里闪过一丝老师责怪学生不听讲，或者责怪学生“猪脑髓”的神情，她清醒了很多，等他发脾气。
但他显然是忍住了，耐着性子说：“我在叫你搬回来住--- ”
“你让我考虑一下。”
“别又跑去问你那狗头军师，也该成熟一点了，别老是像个--- 小女孩一样，动不动就问别人讨主义，最后搞得主意没讨到，还把--- 家丑--- 泄露出去了--- ”
她受不了他那居高临下教训人的口气，回敬道：“我们有什么家丑？我们根本就不是一家人，有什么家丑可言？”
他满脸都是“忍字头上一把刀”的神情，让步说：“好吧，你要跟她讨论可以，但是记住，有些事是不能告诉她的，不然你把她当知心朋友，她却把你当傻瓜玩。什么话能说，什么话不能说，这么大人了，心里要有个数，免得别人把你当傻瓜看--- ”
她回到寝室之后，就迫不及待地把今天跟卓越的