Chapter 21 Amy: Until Death (14)
After eating the noodles, Zhuo Liang seemed to have no intention of saying goodbye, and sat there chatting with Yao Xiaoping.Shi Yan ignored him and got up to make the bed.After collecting it for a while, she said to Yao Xiaoping: "I see that several water bottles are full, can I use two bottles to wash --- feet? I will call you back tomorrow morning -- I am so tired today --- I washed up and went to bed--"
Yao Xiaoping said angrily: "How can you say such an outrageous thing? The two water bottles belong to you. You don't have to beat them and return them to me. From now on, Yan Jing will be responsible for fetching water. He will come every afternoon." The one who fetched water for us--"
She felt sour, it seemed that from now on, she could only get Yao Xiaoping's favor, her boyfriend was so caring, but what about hers?I really don't know what evil I did in my previous life to suffer such retribution.
Excellence was embarrassed to stay any longer, so he got up to say goodbye to the two of them, she ignored him, Yao Xiaoping sent him to the stairs, she heard Yao Xiaoping calling him to come and play when he was free, and he promised: "I will come, I will come. "
Yao Xiaoping sent Zhuo Zhuo away, went back to the dormitory, did not ask her why she moved back suddenly, just helped her tidy up the table and set things up, and talked about nonsense in the meantime, as if she had always lived here.
She couldn't help it, and asked, "What did he tell you?"
Yao Xiaoping's thinking was obviously still on this matter, so when she said "he", Yao knew who she was talking about: "He didn't say anything, just said that there was some conflict, you want to come back for a few days, and ask me to help Take care of you--- "
"What contradiction did he say he didn't say?"
"No. I didn't ask him, and he wouldn't tell the truth if I asked. But it's not once or twice that you have had conflicts, but you have never moved out, so I guess this time -- it is -- It's a little out of the ordinary—must be because of his mother's—the nanny thing?"
She was taken aback: "What about the babysitter? You -- who told you -- what?"
"Who else should I listen to? I don't have eyes? I felt something was wrong that day, but the result was exactly as I expected --- Is Zhuo Zhuo with that aunt? Aunt Wang? Aunt Jiang? Isn't that right? Did he have an affair with that auntie?"
She simply doubted what Yao Xiaoping saw that day, otherwise how could she be so sure?Knowing that she couldn't hide it from Yao Xiaoping, she stammered and said, "It's not like she has an affair---"
"I don't think it's possible to have a leg. Mistresses are all old, so where is the charm? That means having a mouth."
She was taken aback: "What do you---- mean?"
Yao Xiaoping didn't explain, but only persuaded: "If you just have a mouth, you can't be so arrogant---"
Her eyes widened: "What do you mean?"
"In our past -- this kind of thing was very common -- those whose families were poor -- whose sons couldn't afford a wife -- their mothers and sisters -- helped them in this way -- there were dead wives---their daughters help them too---nothing---better than incest---"
This is really more fantasy than the Arabian Nights. She was dumbfounded when she heard it: "Is this--- this--- isn't incest? Is it like this in your county J?"
"I'm not talking about County J, I wasn't from County J before---"
"Then what is your town L like?"
"It's not L town either. My old hometown is not in L town. It's in the deep mountains and old forests. It's very poor and closed. Let me tell you, any place that is poor and closed must be backward and ignorant, in an ignorant way. It may be different, but ignorance is certain. The place where I was born was really poor---you can't imagine it at all. Women are not considered human, almost like animals, because they are going to marry elsewhere anyway. --- If the family can use it --- Use it first --- It's not a loss. I moved to L town when my father died and my mother remarried. My mother married a- -- hunchback --- ugly --- but it took our family to L town --- my mother used her body for us --- a little benefit --- "
"Then how did you go to County J?"
"Isn't that obvious? Do you need to ask? Of course my father-in-law took a fancy to me and got me to teach in his school---"
"Your father-in-law? Is that your---husband's---father?"
Yao Xiaoping said reassuringly: "Don't think too complicated, I mean my father-in-law has taken a fancy to me for his son---"
"Then what did you say before---you refused to marry your husband, and your father-in-law took advantage of his power to punish you. Didn't you --- just --- talk about it from the very beginning?"
"It was said at the beginning, but I have never liked my husband, I just want to use him to teach in the county---"
It may be that her mind has become numb, and Shi Yan doesn't feel any sense of righteous indignation when she hears this now. In Yao Xiaoping's situation, if she doesn't use her body, she has nothing to use.She asked: "Then you --- the people in the deep mountains and old forests in the past --- are interested in --- that kind of thing?"
"It's not just our place," Yao Xiaoping said disapprovingly, "I'm too poor to marry a daughter-in-law, and I have such physical requirements, so what should I do? There are all kinds of tricks, and they can do things with animals. As long as it is a mother's , those people can go on--"
"That's better than --- with your own sisters and daughters ---?"
"It's all helpless, who wants to do that? It's not good to marry a daughter-in-law generously? But many people are so poor that they can't afford to marry a daughter-in-law for the rest of their lives, and they can't even change relatives---so we used to There are so many demented children, they must all be children of their own blood relatives---"
She really didn't know what to say. She remembered that she had seen a lot of demented children at "Dongdongguai" before, but they were all farmers' children there. There were still some demented children among the workers at "Dongdongguai". not much.At that time, she thought that the peasants in the countryside were stupid, so she gave birth to more dementia children.Thinking about it now, it should also be the result of inbreeding.Thinking of this, she felt that she could understand those people in the countryside, but she couldn't understand and forgive him. She said angrily, "The country people are because they are poor, but what about Excellence? Is he too poor to marry a wife?"
"Maybe it's Aunt Jiang who brought the rural things to the city, but Aunt Jiang may also have good intentions. Seeing that it is inconvenient for you to be pregnant now, she will help you out of it. Anyway, in her opinion , this matter is no different from helping you cook--"
She shook her head: "It's strange, Zhuoyou said the same thing as you, and told me to take this as Aunt Jiang helping us with housework---but it's not housework, and it's not because I'm pregnant, they do it It's been a long time, it's been like this since Joyo was very young---"
"Hey, it's Aunt Jiang's fault. Since Zhuo Zhuo was still young at the time, of course she didn't know what to do. I can only say that Aunt Jiang is too stupid, a well-meaning fool, and harmed your family. But now that you have made such a fuss, they will definitely Don’t dare—” Yao Xiaoping asked curiously, “Is it because you are pregnant that you refuse to be with him—that?”
She said shyly, "I haven't—"
"That's no wonder, why don't you do it with him? If you don't do it with him, of course he's going to find another way out—"
She was very angry: "Why do you have such an argument? It seems that this is my fault. I am pregnant with a child, how can I do it with him? You were pregnant at that time and you didn't talk to your husband—that?"
"Who said this?"
"You said it yourself, when you were pregnant—"
"That's the third trimester of pregnancy. Why don't I do the same with him? When it's late, I'm afraid that he's going to ask for love outside, so I'll do everything I can to help him out---"
She knows what way to think about and what method to set up, and now she may be more "come over" than most people who have been here, why doesn't she know?She retorted: "I really don't understand. My wife is pregnant. If a husband doesn't take good care of his wife, he also forces his wife to serve them. ?”
"I'm sure not every man is like this. It's just that we two are unlucky to meet this kind of beast --- I didn't say that you are a beast, I'm talking about my beast --- I am like that Accommodate him, serve him, he is still looking for flowers and willows outside---"
Shi Yan said: "So the pregnant woman can't be blamed for this matter---"
"That's right, a dishonest man, no matter how you treat him, he is dishonest---. Then what are you going to do? Keep hiding here?"
"I want to divorce him." She recounted the conversation she had with Excellence about divorce.
Yao Xiaoping said: "I think it's very difficult to divorce your marriage, unless you're going to be ruined like the one named Hu---"
She also knew this, but she thought about it, even if her reputation was ruined, she still wanted to divorce Zhuoyou, and she couldn't be coerced or coerced by him.She said angrily: "It's useless to be afraid of a person like him. The more you are afraid, the more rampant he will be. Anyway, the people he hates, he always punishes them to death. You don't need to be afraid. It doesn’t matter whether you’re afraid or not. Hu Liying took chances at that time and helped him frame Wen. What happened? He didn’t punish Hu Liying for this matter. So I figured it out. Can only come hard--"
In fact, before she said this, she hadn't completely firmed up her determination to "be tough", or she didn't know how far she could be "hard", but as she talked, it seemed that her thoughts had been clarified and her will was firm. .Yes, this is her idea and determination. A word from a gentleman can never catch up with a four-horse horse, and a word from a lady can never pull back eight bullocks.
Yao Xiaoping said generously: "Since you are so determined, then I will support you. I have never liked Excellence, but for your sake, since you are together, I can't say anything. Now that you are going to talk to him Divorced, then it’s okay for me to talk about it, but you have to promise me first: No matter whether you reconcile in the future or not, you can’t tell him that I said it, or I will definitely die miserably.”
Shi Yan couldn't figure out how there was any possibility of reconciliation, so she simply said: "I won't tell him---"
"Actually, those pearl necklaces that Yan Jing bought were indeed worth three yuan a string, but I was afraid that this would affect your relationship as husband and wife, so I asked him to lie and say that they were five yuan a string---"
"I thought of this—"
"There was also the matter of the graduation assignment last time. It was indeed his fault in the middle. He asked Zhao Shiguang to go to my husband to sue, so as to mess up my stay in the department --- Later Zhao Shiguang told me everything ---"
"I thought of that too—"
She did think of these two things, that is to say, she thought of the possibility, but because there was no evidence, she didn't draw a conclusion.Now she feels that none of this is important. With Zhuozhuo and Aunt Jiang at the bottom of the list, this kind of thing like taking advantage of a small advantage and suing black is really just a piece of cake, even the matter of Hu Liying can only be ignored. Counting Chinese food as a dish, the matter with Aunt Jiang is a big dish.If it weren't for Aunt Jiang, maybe she could forgive him for other things, but with Aunt Jiang's matter, even if Zhuo Liang was right in several other matters, she would not be able to forgive him.
But these things are not completely meaningless, at least they serve as a foil, like some pieces of stinky meat, put together by Aunt Jiang's iron stick, they are all stinky, which shows that Zhuoyou is not an honest person, There is no principle in being a person, everything starts from personal grievances, those who follow me will prosper, and those who go against me will perish. In order to achieve my goals, I will use any means.Being with this kind of person, even if he doesn't kill him, will definitely bring the child down.
She sighed and said: "Things are so weird. I didn't find anything before I got married, and I found out everything after I got married. Maybe it wasn't that I didn't find out before I got married. In fact, I found out, but there is no evidence. Once I got married, there is no evidence. Come out, and all the crimes have been proved. Do you think there is really a God or some kind of god? Otherwise, how could the arrangement be so coincidental?"
Yao Xiaoping said comfortingly: "It's really nothing. No one knows about your marriage, and no one knows about your divorce. Then you can still pretend to be a young girl. I can teach you a way---"
"I dragged a child and pretended to be a girl with yellow flowers?"
Yao Xiaoping was very surprised: "You are ready to divorce, and you still want this child?"
She was also surprised: "Is it possible not to have this child? Isn't this a life?"
Yao Xiaoping thought about it for a while, and said: "You talk about fate, I can't say it, and you will think that I am inhuman, but have you ever thought about how you can live with a child alone? Can you go on? And if you have this child, you will never want to get rid of Zhuoyou. He is the father of the child and has the right to visit the child. If you go, he will use this child to punish you for the rest of your life---"
She believes that Excellence will definitely do it: "He will definitely use his children to punish me. He threatened me and said that if I hurt his children --- he will kill me ---"
"That's even more troublesome, and you can't kill the child, otherwise, he might really kill you---"
She had never thought of killing the child, so she didn't think it was a danger, but Yao Xiaoping's mention made her shudder: "Will he wait until I give birth to the child before killing me?"
"who knows?"
"Isn't there anyone who can—can control him?"
"He is such a cunning person, he will definitely make things so that people can't catch his braids --- for example, he bribed the hospital and made you have a medical accident when you gave birth. What can you do with him? I just listen I said this kind of thing, a man was dumped by a woman, he couldn't hate it, so he bribed the hospital, and cut off the woman's ovaries and uterus when she was operated on for appendicitis. Look, how miserable it is , I heard that if you have your ovaries cut, you will become a man---"
She shuddered again: "Then---then can't you sue---them?"
"I can sue, but why can't I sue? It must be the woman who sued to spread the news, but what if she sued? The doctor can at most recite the name of a medical accident. As for the man, if he has no backer, That's like going to jail, if there is a backer, I'm afraid you don't have to sit in jail. But isn't that woman's life ruined?"
She thought bitterly, if Excellence got me to that point, I would never let him go in my life.
Yao Xiaoping said: "Oh, your life is over, and you can't escape his hand no matter what---. It's only your fault--- he fell in love with you---and you have a child again, just like me , if I hadn’t been taken by that bastard, if I hadn’t had a child, I wouldn’t have fallen to this point, or why would there be a saying of ‘a beautiful woman is a poor man’?”
She said modestly, "What kind of beauties are we?"
"Why are we not confidante? If not confidante, how could these two bastards take a fancy to us?"
"It's all your fault. I had to go to that relative of yours to borrow a work permit that day. If we didn't go there, how could we meet---that bastard?"
"Then it should be Huang Hai's fault. It's not to find him. How could we go to my relative?"
When it comes to Huang Hai, Shi Yan is very sad. It feels like fate has played a big joke on her. She has a good relationship with Huang Hai. On the way, she kills such a brilliant person, which confuses her and Huang Hai, and she develops with him. Such a relationship seems to be specially designed to push Huang Hai into the arms of that crazy woman.She said dejectedly: "Forget it, don't blame him, he is also miserable now---"
"What's the matter with him? Is it about your—"
"I don't know if it's because of me, but he -- found a mentally ill girlfriend --"
"Ah? Is there such a thing? No matter how bad his conditions are, he won't find a lunatic! Why is he in such a panic?" Yao Xiaoping analyzed, "He must be trying to get angry with you. If you are married, he will also get married. Let me show you -- this is too immature -- didn't it hurt a few people?"
Shi Yan quickly defended Huang Hai: "He is definitely not angry, he is not such a superficial person, he is sympathetic to that woman, because that woman's former boyfriend abandoned her as soon as she went abroad, and she is a little crazy. Huang Hai wants to send her abroad---"
Yao Xiaoping said: "I don't believe it. How can there be such a person in the world? In order to get a lunatic to go abroad, they fall in love with her? Can a lunatic go abroad? The United States is not a Chinese lunatic asylum, and a lunatic will be sent there Go? I think he's lying, either because he wants to save face, you are married, and he also makes up a girlfriend; or there are other reasons---"
She thought for a while and said, "I think he speaks clearly and clearly. It doesn't seem like he's lying. You said he wanted to save face, and marrying a crazy woman will save face? Besides, he is not a liar---" "
"Do you want me to test him for you? Just tell him that you are about to divorce. If he hears the news that you are about to divorce and insists that he has a girlfriend, then he really has a girlfriend. If he That girlfriend is just a cover, and when he hears that you are about to get divorced, he will definitely change his mind and say that he has no girlfriend---"
She felt that doing this seemed unethical. If Huang Hai didn't love her, then he would definitely look down on her: If you liked me, what did you do eight hundred years ago?You didn't think of me until you couldn't get along with Zhuoyue. I'm not a junk picker, so go ahead and play.If Huang Hai really liked her, then when he heard that she was about to get divorced, he would definitely throw that crazy woman away, wouldn't that mean forcing that crazy woman to death?
No matter what the result is, it is not what she expected, she resolutely stopped and said: "Don't ask Huang Hai, don't throw me in front of him --- don't mess with me ---"
Yao Xiaoping smiled wryly: "I'm out of good intentions, I'm afraid you two will miss it, since you think I'm messing around, then I won't care about your business---"
She asked curiously: "Aren't you the most opposed to Huang Hai before? Why are you so actively trying to bring us together now?"
"One moment, another moment. At that time, I didn't understand Huang Hai, and I didn't understand Zhuoyue. I felt that one of them was not beautiful on the outside, and the other was not beautiful on the inside, so I disagreed with both. But it's different now, okay. It is said that I have understood Huang Hai and Zhuoyue, so I agree with Huang Hai. I used to think that Huang Hai was not good enough for you, but you are not the same as you used to be now. You have been married and had children. Don’t you Can you still be as proud and arrogant as when you were a girl?"
These words made her very unhappy: "I was not arrogant when I was a girl, and I am not inferior now---"
"That's what you said, but you still have a spectrum in your heart. It is said that women have steelyards in their hearts. They weigh themselves more accurately than anyone else. After you have gone through all this, you subconsciously lower your price Now, I don't care so much about his face---"
This made her even more unhappy. It seems that in Yao Xiaoping's eyes, she has already lowered her price. In the past, Huang Hai was not worthy of her, but now she is not worthy of Huang Hai. How unreasonable it is! She retorted Said: "I don't think I've lost my price now, and I didn't think Huang Hai was unworthy of me before. There are not only these two men in this world, and I don't have to marry someone---"
Yao Xiaoping changed her words and said: "However, I also think it's best not to provoke Huang Hai now, mainly because I'm afraid that your Zhuo Zhuo will be jealous. If you divorce him because of his affair with Aunt Jiang, maybe he won't kill you Well, after all, he was wrong about this matter. But if he knows what you have with Huang Hai, then it’s okay? If you don’t kill the two of you, he will definitely not be able to sleep. "
Now Shi Yan is waiting for Zhuo Liang to punish her. She has even written a suicide note, telling the truth about everything before and after, and finally said that if she dies for no reason, then Zhuo Liang is the culprit.
She copied many copies of the suicide note and put them in envelopes. The recipients' addresses were written on the envelopes. From the city newspaper, wait, she signed all these suicide notes and sealed them with her own seal, but they didn't seal them, and handed them all over to Yao Xiaoping for safekeeping.
Yao Xiaoping comforted her, saying that maybe the matter would not develop to that point, and at the same time patted her chest and said: "If something happens to you, I will definitely not let Zhuo go---"
She didn't know Yao Xiaoping's ability to not let someone surnamed Zhuo go, but she didn't want to ask, so she was satisfied with having such a good friend who was willing to avenge her in theory.
Now her relationship with Yao Xiaoping has improved to a higher level. I don’t know if it’s sympathy or like-mindedness. Anyway, they have a good heart and a heart-to-heart bond. She completely understands Yao Xiaoping’s situation, and Yao Xiaoping also fully understands her situation, or Yao Xiaoping has always understood her. However, she did not fully understand Yao Xiaoping's situation until now.
She also fully experienced the boldness of throwing away the key to go to the revolution. This time, she did not lose a dependence emotionally, but truly put life and death aside.She didn't know how Zhuo Liang would punish her, but she had imagined all kinds of weird ways to die, such as riding a bicycle, tripping over a steel rope tied to the road and falling to death; or going down the stairs After a few steps, the stairs collapsed and fell to his death; or Zhuo Liang came into the dormitory in the middle of the night, covered his mouth and nose with gauze soaked in chlorine and francium, and suffocated to death; On stage, birth and death.
But she never imagined the way of death by knife and axe, not because that kind of death is unromantic, but because she thinks that the outstanding bad is not the bad of thugs, but the bad of poisonous snakes. whole person.For example, for Yao Xiaoping, instead of going directly to the department to file a complaint, he asked Zhao Shiguang to file a complaint with Yao's husband in a roundabout way; or for Hu Liying, instead of directly beating and scolding Hu, he asked others to report to the newspaper. Go up and slander Hu.
In a word, Zhuoyou pays attention to killing without blood, and the purpose of not seeing blood is to wash away his own ties so that he can get away with it.The most hateful thing is this kind of person, and the most terrifying thing is also this kind of person.
She thought of such a terrible ending, and dared to confront Zhuo Liang, which gave her a sense of victory: How about it?I’m not afraid of you, it’s up to you what to do with me! Maybe this is the so-called “death and rebirth”, it’s not brave, it’s just forced, just like Chen Sheng and Wu Guang, it’s already too late, desperately rushing to the destination is death, rebellion It is also death, maybe rebellion can find a way out for itself, so why not rebel?
She felt that her situation was similar to that of Chen Sheng and Wu Guang. Now that the scandal between Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang had been broken, could she still be expected to let her go?Instead of following him reluctantly, tolerating the scandal between him and Aunt Jiang, and finally being retaliated by him, it is better to rise up and run away from him, so as not to worry day and night, at least you can guarantee that you will not be tarnished and your children will not be affected.
Every morning when she went to work, she made preparations that she would not be able to come back. When she came back safely every afternoon, she felt that she had taken advantage of her life and wasted a day.She also doesn't care whether there are articles slandering her in the Evening News of D City. If there is any slander, it will always reach her ears. His whole scandal was exposed.
She doesn't miss the life with Joyo at all, what is there to miss?He completely treats her as a high-end nanny who doesn't need money. She does all the housework. He doesn't do anything. Shall I go to the sun?Excellence is not helpful in these things. If she talks about him, he will say, "If you don't want to do it, don't do it, and no one will force you. I hate those people who work hard and can't complain."He was writing there all day long and didn't accompany her. Every now and then, she had to go through that horrible "making love" process, which made her sick just thinking about it.
Now she lives with Yao Xiaoping, which is more comfortable than living with Zhuoyue, because Yao Xiaoping takes care of cooking and grocery shopping. Although Yao Xiaoping works in the attached middle school, she is more free than her. She doesn't have to sit in class, and she completes her homework after class. Just go home.Yao happened to pass by the vegetable market on his way back from get off work, so he went in to buy vegetables, and when he got home, he lit the fire to cook, because it was gas, so it was quick to cook.
Rigorousness is like a sentinel who arrives on duty on time. He comes over every afternoon around five o'clock to help turn on the water and get hot water. Shi Yan doesn't have to do anything, and sometimes just helps choose vegetables.The three of us ate dinner together. After eating, Yao Xiaoping sent Yan Jing to wash the dishes. After finishing the work, Yao and Yan Jing went out for a walk. She didn't know where they went or what they did. Anyway, Yao Xiaoping only needed to go for a walk They all come back very late.
Yao Xiaoping sometimes joked while cooking: "Shi, do you think I am a man who repays kindness and revenge? I use excellent gas and support you to divorce him. I will suffer retribution sooner or later----"
Sometimes Yao Xiaoping said: "I made your life here so comfortable, it's tantamount to digging a grave for myself---"
She was puzzled: "Why?"
"You live here so comfortably that you can't think of leaving. Doesn't that mean that you have lost a little thought of Zhuoyou? He originally expected you to run back to him if you couldn't live here for two days. Now Alright, Zhuo Zhuo is going to take his anger out on me, I will also find a time to write the suicide note---"
Yao Xiaoping made herself laugh out loud, and after laughing, she was worried again: "What if the gas in this altar runs out? Will he help us?"
She didn't know either, in fact, she didn't want to use Zhuoyou's gas, she wanted to break up with him completely, without any involvement, but she knew it was impossible, no matter how hard she tried to get rid of him, she would never be able to break up with him in this life. It's clear, because half of the genes of the child in the womb always belong to him, and she can't kick him out even if he wants to see the child.Since it is unclear, there is no need to make a fuss about a jar of gas.
Yao Xiaoping said: "Hmph, we'll use this to test him. If he keeps helping us get gas, you can make up with him, otherwise---"
She thinks it's too much of a joke, she and the problem of excellence are definitely not a problem of gas.
A few days after she moved back to Nanyishe, Zhuoyou came to tell her that she had obtained the fertility quota.
"Thank you," she held out her hand, "give it to me."
He took her hand and held it, but didn't give her anything: "What for you? Do you think it's a certificate? An indicator is an indicator---"
She pulled out her hand: "Then there must be a certificate, right?"
"The certificate is in the school hospital, let's go to the hospital together tomorrow, we must go together as two people, otherwise we won't get the quota---"
She laughed and said, "Two people have to carry one indicator?"
"It's not lifting, but --- the school's regulations, you also have to go to the hospital for some tests, you'll know when you go ---"
The birthright of the child is important, she agreed.
Yao Xiaoping stayed with Zhuoyue for dinner that day, Yan Jing went to buy a few bottles of beer, and drank with Zhuoyue in full swing, people who didn't know where saw the four and thought they were two loving couples, who knew that they were husband and wife , but not in love, and the other couple is in love, but not husband and wife.
Maybe things in the world are like this, love and husband and wife are often incompatible.
The next day, Shi Yan took half a day off and went to the school hospital with Zhuo Zhuo to get the "credentials".She had been to the school hospital during the last employment medical examination, and her impression was not very good.When I came to the obstetrics and gynecology department today, my impression was even worse. How does it look like an obstetrics and gynecology department?Although she doesn't know what an obstetrics and gynecology department should be like, there must always be some instruments, some hospital beds, and a few white coats dangling around, right?
But the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology in the Teachers College is so small that there is a scale at the door, like the one used by farmers in "Dongdongguai" to weigh pigs. The bamboo poles are not much better, and there is a bed covered with white sheets, which looks dirty.In the obstetrics and gynecology department, I saw a woman in a white coat who claimed to be Dr. Liu, but she felt that she was not even a nurse. She was at the level of Aunt Jiang, only wearing a pair of black cloth shoes with white rubber soles.
Dr. Liu focused 90% of his attention on talking to Zhuoyue, and at the same time, he used 10% of his attention to do some checks for Shi Yan, such as measuring his height and weight, and checking his blood pressure. The most professional examination is to let her lie on the bed and touch her stomach a few times, which takes less time than her twisting and undoing her trouser belt.
She couldn't help it, and asked, "This place --- how do you have a baby?"
Dr. Liu ignored her, seeming to disdain such a stupid question.Zhuo Zhuo helped to explain: "I don't give birth here. I only create files and do some tests here. In the end, I go to the hospital in the city to give birth. Isn't that right, Dr. Liu?"
"That's right. Your lover doesn't understand, you go back and tell her—"
Zhuo Zhuo added: "Dr. Liu said that when you are about to give birth, you can call a car twice in the school team, once for delivery, and once for pick-up. They are all free of charge. You have to pay for the production expenses first, and then bring the invoice back for reimbursement- -- "
It was the first time she had heard that an invoice would be issued even for the birth of a child. No wonder Excellence had to issue an invoice for everything.However, after hearing these details, she felt relieved, and snorted: "I don't think this is a place to give birth---"
After chatting with Zhuoyue, Dr. Liu sent them a small yellow notebook with the height, weight, waist, chest, etc. written on it, as well as the schedule of pregnancy checkups. It seems that she has to come to this place several times, but she I'm not going to come with Zhuoyue, lest Dr. Liu be absent-minded and make a mistake in examining her.
Dr. Liu also explained the matters that should be paid attention to during pregnancy, mainly related to matters between husband and wife, such as what contraceptive methods are usually used, what contraceptive methods are planned to be used after delivery, external ejaculation is not safe, and how to wear condoms It works, wait, and forced them to buy a pamphlet edited and printed by Dr. Liu, about couples’ sex life and contraception. After touching it with sweaty hands, the man's genitals in the picture turned into a long streak of black ink, like standing on the ground with three legs.
Such a broken book actually costs ten yuan without an invoice, which makes people suspect that Dr. Liu is doing black market business.But Zhuoyou didn't care about money, so he bought it like a treasure book.
With this Huang Benben, a big stone in Shi Yan's heart was released. This is the birth index, and now her child has the right to be born.Some time ago, she was always as if she stole something from others. She was not straight, angry, and evasive when speaking and doing things. Find out you're pregnant.Now that you have the indicators, you can feel proud.It was really strange, as soon as I got the indicators, I felt my stomach was heavy, as if I couldn't grasp the balance without walking on my back.
She walked out of the hospital with duck steps, Zhuo Zhuo suggested, "Let's find a place to have a meal and celebrate."
She almost said: "What are you celebrating?" After he reminded her, she remembered that he is the father of the child, and he has the right to celebrate, but she didn't want to celebrate with him, wishing to pick out half of his genes and give him back , because she was worried that his virtues would be passed on to her children.She excused impatiently: "I only took half a day off, and I have to go back to work---"
"Then go after get off work?" He continued without waiting for her to evade again, "Let's have a meal together, for the sake of the children---"
His tone was very pleading, his eyes were also begging, and it was for the sake of the child, so she agreed as soon as her heart softened.
That afternoon, Shi Yan was not in the mood to go to work at all. Fortunately, she had nothing to do when she went to work.That day her mind was full of children's affairs. She didn't dare to think about it much before. She was afraid that things would be reversed when extremes were extreme, and that extreme joy would lead to sorrow. If she thought too much, she wanted to run away from her goals.Now that I have got the indicator, I already have a yellow book in my hand. It feels like registering a child's household registration. I am bold and my mind is like a wild horse, running wildly.
What she thinks about the most is the gender of the child. She used to really hope to have a boy, because she thinks that boys are mostly like fathers, and girls are mostly like mothers.Maybe she is only considered "upper middle" among female compatriots, but Zhuoyou can be regarded as "upper" among male compatriots, whether it is appearance or intelligence.If she could have two, it would be better to have a boy and a girl, but since she could only have one, she would rather be a boy.
Not only that, but she has always felt that being a woman is hard work and a disadvantage. Not to mention anything else, there are a few days of "unlucky" every month, which brings countless troubles to women. Not only is it uncomfortable, but there are also many taboos. This can't be done, that can't be done, and there are many inconveniences in life and work.A woman also has a hymen that does bad things there. She remembers seeing it there, saying that almost every organ in the human body is useful, only the cecum and hymen are useless to the body, and they might even cause bad things.Everything she heard about giving birth from her mother's generation seemed to say that it was excruciatingly painful, and all of them screamed and vowed never to have another child, and men don't have to suffer.
但现在她的想法全变了，她热切希望生个女孩，如果是个男孩的话，很难担保孩子不踏卓越的代，谁知道他会把什么遗传给孩子？虽然他那事姜阿姨要负很大责任，但最初引起那事的，不还是卓越自己吗？如果换个老实点的孩子，胆子小点的孩子，即便“知事早”，也不会跑去偷看姜阿姨洗澡上厕所，那就不会有后来的事。既然他就是这么个苗子，那即便他没遇到姜阿姨，说不定也遇上了一个蒜阿姨。或者更遭，姜啊蒜的都没遇上，于是天天在外面打游击，逮住谁是谁，结果成了强奸犯。
如果生个女孩，就不会有卓越那样的麻烦，女孩知事不知事，都不会有那种冲动，又怎么会偷看保姆洗澡呢？她回想她这一生，好像从来没有过想偷看男人洗澡的念头，哪怕是私下里都没有过这种念头。男人洗澡有什么好看的？用“洞洞拐”那边的话来说，男人身上油腻腻的，洗澡的水脏得可以肥一亩地。男人身上长着什么，又不是不知道，还用得着冒犯法的风险去偷看？
她也算过来人了，也品尝过性爱高潮的滋味，从身体的感受来讲，那的确是一种别的感受都无法代替的快感，有人用掏耳朵来比喻那种感受，还有人用挠痒痒来比喻那种感受，但她觉得都不是，没有什么感受跟那种感受是一样的。但她也没觉得那感觉就值得人们为之冒险犯法，做爱对她来说，还比不上心心相印的关怀和爱护，如果这世界上没有一个人在乎她，关心她，爱她，她一定会感到悲伤，但如果仅仅是没有人给她带来快感，她到不觉得有多可怕。
遇到卓越之前她活了二十几年，从来没有过性爱，更别说高潮了，她不也活得挺好的吗？高潮这事，你要比作人参燕窝都行，吃了大补，益寿延年，但人的一生中如果没有吃过人参燕窝，不也活得好好的吗？卓越说女人品尝三次高潮就会上瘾，她已经品尝了不止三次了，她怎么没上瘾？
所以她无法理解卓越为什么要跟姜阿姨做那种事，在她看来，只能是他意志薄弱，存着严重的侥幸心理，只要没人发现就放纵自己一下。所有知法犯法的人都是存着侥幸心理：我做得这么隐蔽，怎么会有人发现呢？只要没人发现，做做又有什么大不了的？等到被人发现了，抓住了，他们也不会检讨自己，反而恨那发现他们的人。
她无法体会男人冲动起来究竟有多难熬，是不是不释放就要爆炸？应该是不会的吧，不然的话，这世界上不知道该有多少人早就爆炸了。如果男孩都是中学左右“开知识”的，那离他们结婚的那一天还远得很，也没见几个爆炸的嘛？
卓越自己也上过大学，那时候应该是没法跟姜阿姨做那事的了，但他不也活下来了吗？难道他在K 市找了别的什么阿姨？如果他经常性地找，天长日久地找，难道不会被学校发现，被他的同学发现？也许他就是因为被K 大那边的人发现了，才避到D 市来的？
想到这里，她不由得打了个寒噤，也许大家都知道卓越是个什么样的人，就她不知道。知道的人都不理睬他，他只好来骗她这个不知底细的人，根本不是爱上了她什么，而是看中了她好骗。你看他说的，“你胸也不高，屁股也不大”，而且他说话总是一口一个“你们女人”如何如何，既然他这么瞧不起女人，瞧不起她，他还要来追求她，那肯定就是因为他做贼心虚，知道自己找不到什么更好的人了。
她发现自己从一开始就被人算计了，不知道那次楼道偶遇是不是卓越一手策划的，应该不是，因为卓越不知道他们那时会去那里，不可能先知先觉地设计好了。但是从他撒谎说钢厂在抓黄海起，他就是有计划有步骤的要把她搞到手了。后来他故意很久不理她，又追到火车上去，跟到她家里去，一步一步地逼着她献手，献口，到最后的献身，连孩子都是他使计让她怀上的，他自己也承认了。
他们的同居，也是他早就策划好了的，他让她跟姚小萍合住，而姚小萍有严谨这么一个男朋友，肯定要在寝室幽会，卓越就可以用很冠冕堂皇的理由把她搞到他家去住，在别人眼里他们就跟夫妻一样了，等到发现怀了孕，他马上把结婚证搞来了，还积极地跟她回“洞洞拐”去举行婚礼，让那边的人也知道他们是夫妻了。
以前很仰望他的时候，她对他做的这一切都很感动，觉得他这么出色的人，能这样爱她，真是不简单。现在知道他的底细了，就发现他这样做只是因为她好哄，既然别人都知道他的底细，哄不住，那他只好来哄她了。
她心虚地四处望了一下，想看看别人是不是都在暗中嘲笑她。她感觉大家似乎都有点心照不宣的神情，特别是那个小田，肯定老早就从胡丽英那里听说了，看见她像个傻瓜一样每天跟卓越在一起，肯定在心里把她鄙视得一文钱不值。
她越想越烦，决定今天不去赴宴了，免得继续丢那个丑。五点还差一刻的时候，她就跟着一些溜号的人往楼房外面走，想趁卓越到来之前溜掉。她平时是不敢这样溜号的，虽然不少人都是提前十五到二十分钟下班，但她是新来的，有点不敢放肆。今天也顾不上了，溜了就溜了吧，免得被卓越撞上，死缠着她去上餐馆。
她刚从楼里出来，就看见卓越已经来了，叉站在他的摩托上，手里拿着个报纸类的东西在看。他似乎狠狠打扮了一下，穿着一件黑色的皮茄克，黑色的长裤，黑色的皮鞋，一身黑，只有衣领是白的，头发似乎也修整过了，肯定吹了一下的，很飞扬的感觉。
这件黑皮衣，她只在挂衣柜里看见过，但从来没见他穿过，好像还有很多衣服都没见他穿过，可能是因为他们几乎没约会过，一上来就同居了，每天她去上班的时候，他都还在睡觉，等到她下班回来，他早就上完课回家了，她看见的他，都是穿得很家居的，天热的时候就是一条短裤，背心都懒得穿，天凉了，就穿着棉毛衫棉毛裤，没有个形状。
今天他这么一打扮，把她晃得头一晕，还好他没带墨镜，不然的话，简直就像电影明星了。她停下脚步，站在那里看他，发现过路的人都在看他，像看电影明星一样，令她想起那次在火车站，他穿着海蓝色的衬衣，扎在浅色的长裤里，戴着墨镜，鹤立鸡群地那么一站，也是引得过路人注目观望。
有那么一刻，她差点走上前去，让他把她揽进怀里。但她没法忘记亲眼看见的那一幕，眼前这个英俊潇洒的男人一下变成了那个狼狈不堪地往裤子里塞那玩意的丑陋形像，她不由自主地往他那个地方望了一眼，当然是在裤子里藏得好好的，但她仍然觉得自己看见了那个软缩的家伙。
她不声不响地退回到楼里，希望他等久了，不耐烦了，自己会走掉。但她刚在办公室坐了一会，小田就跑来告诉她：“喂，下班了，你怎么还不走？小卓在外面等你呢--- ”
她觉得小田的笑非常诡诈，肯定是在嘲笑她身在泥坑还不自知，她冷冷地说：“他不是在等我--- ”
小田好奇地看了她几眼，消失不见了，过了一会，又跑回来，气喘吁吁的：“他是在等你，我问了他的--- ”
她回答说：“噢，知道了，谢谢你。你先走吧，我--- 还有点事--- ”
小田又消失了，这回没再跑回来，但卓越很快就上来了，站在她办公室外，敲了敲开着的门。
她装做刚知道的样子，抬起头，抱歉说：“对不起，今天不能跟你去吃饭，我还有点事没弄完，等着要的--- ”
他走了进来，坐在她对面的椅子上，说：“还有多久？我等你。”
她装模作样地整理表格，他拿了张报纸看起来。过了一会，他说：“我今天去几家医院打听了一下，还是觉得市一医院的妇产科最好，不过听说他们俏得很，要排队，过两天我去找找熟人--- ”
她推脱说：“你别管这些事了吧，我去哪个医院生还没定--- ”
“医院一定要找个好点的，对大人小孩都有好处，这些事你别赌气，也别逞强，我们都不是小孩子了，都应该从大局出发，为孩子着想--- ”
她懒得跟他多说，他总是有很多大道理的，而且他的大道理都是对别人的。她愤愤地想，你这么为孩子着想，为什么不为了孩子忍忍你那包脓，而要跟姜阿姨做出那些丑事来？你那时为孩子着想了吗？
他好像猜出了她的心思一样，放下报纸，望着她，很诚恳地说：“燕儿，我知道我对不起你，对不起孩子，我是个意志薄弱的人，放纵了自己的--- 欲望，但是我并不是个--- 下流的人，我知道错了，也在改正，你不能给我一个机会吗？”
她不吭声，他又说：“我这个人轻易不许诺，但只要是我说了的，我一定会做到，不管是好事还是坏事，我都会做到，你可以走着瞧。”
她想，你威胁我？我怕你？她昂然道：“你不用威胁我，我早就知道你是一个记恨心很强的人，你不会放过我的，所以我已经把遗书都写好了。你想干什么，你看着办吧。”说着，她就站了起来，往门外走。
他跟过来，抱住她，在她耳边说：“我不是在威胁你，而是在向你发誓。我说过我一生都不会背叛你的，我就一生不会背叛你。你可能觉得我已经背叛了你，但我--- 那不是背叛--- 我的意思是--- 我以前--- 觉得我---- 那不是背叛--- 因为我并不是出于--- 感情--- 我也没---- 跟她做--- 夫妻的事---- 但是既然你觉得那是--- 背叛--- 那我就按你的--- 想法--- 所以请你相信我---- 我永远都不会做--- 那样的事了的--- ”
石燕没想到卓越会来这一手，顿时僵在那里，脑子里尽是“知错能改，善莫大焉”，“犯了错误不要紧，只要能改正，就是好同志”之类的--- 玩意。
说是“玩意”，而不是“话语”，更不是“思想”，是因为她此刻脑子很糊涂，根本不可能有什么清晰的思维，连组词成句的能力都没有，只是一些感觉，可能感觉都算不上，只是潜意识，可能潜意识都算不上，只是一种--- 玩意，但那是个能决定感情倾向的“玩意”，比如此时她就没痛斥卓越一顿，然后逃掉，可能在感情上已经将他当成一个“善莫大焉”的好同志了。
卓越附在她耳边说话，弄得她的脸痒痒的，他的两条长胳膊把她连人带臂膀一起搂在怀里，像把她五花大绑了一样，令她动弹不得。他身上的皮衣散发出一股皮革特有的味道，而他的人散发着一股男人特有的气息，混合成一种既陌生又熟悉的气味，令她眩晕，腿有点抖，头重脚轻，好像站不住一样，无力地靠在他身上。
他顺势吻在她脖子上，两手交叉在她胸前，不老实地活动起来，虽然隔着毛衣和外衣，她也能感受到他手的热度和力度，只觉血液迅速奔涌，她动用残存的一点理智，低声说：“你干什么呀，当心被人看见--- ”
“没事，都下班了，谁会看见？”
她发现自己这么快就糊里糊涂成了他的同谋，没反对他的进攻，只担心被人看见，实在很令她瞧不起自己，她挣脱着说：“放开我--- ”
他放开她，跑过去把办公室的门关上了。
她傻站在那里，怔怔地说：“你不是说--- 去吃饭的吗？”
他几步跨上来抱住她：“呵呵，现在谁还有心思去吃饭？吃这不好吗？好久没吃了，都快憋死了--- ”
她一听到这个“憋死”就有几分不快，用手推他，说：“但是我肚子饿了，也别把孩子饿着了--- ”
“不光是肚子饿了吧？那里也应该饿了吧？”他说着，手钻进她衣服下面，但她把棉毛衫扎在裤子里面，那是她的老习惯，比较保暖。他找来找去找不到衣服的开口处，只好隔着棉毛衫摸她的乳房。
这是她的“软肋”，她身上的火炬，最容易点着的地方，每次他抚摸她的乳房，总是让她兴奋莫名，比他直接进攻下面还令她动情。但他平时很少光顾她这一块，大概是觉得她的乳房不够大，提不起他的兴趣。他除了最开始的几次以外，其它情况下都是把她的胸当鸡肋的--- 食之无味，弃之可惜。她也不好意思叫他去抚摸她的乳房，因为她觉得如果他不喜欢那个地方，她叫他摸也没意思，他肯定是敷衍了事地摸两下了事，那她反而没感觉了。
她有点反感地想，其实他还是知道她喜欢他抚摸哪里的，但他自己对那里没兴趣，所以他一般不触及那里，只在需要讨好她的时候，才勉为其难地摸一摸，有点像那些爱做表面工作的干部，轻易不到贫困地区去，但如果能吸引几个记者，讨好几个领导，塑造自己的光辉形像，还是会咬着牙，到贫困地区去走一走的。等记者们一走，他老人家就打道回府，再也不去贫困地区了，用个粗俗的比喻，就是“连拉尿都不朝那个方向拉”了。
她觉得自己现在应该把他推开，但她的双臂软得没有一点劲，她的身体仿佛是久旱的农田遇到了一场春雨一样，每个毛孔都张开了，准备接受一场透彻的滋润。
他推着她往办公室的一个长椅子那里走，就是那种几根长木条做成的椅子，如果赤裸着睡上面，背上肯定会留下斑马纹的那种。那个长椅子是供来访者等候用的，很简陋，但很长，可以同时坐四、五个人。他把她放倒在那个椅子上，她感到头硌得疼，她想抗议，而他已经在解她的皮带了。她抓住皮带不让他解，低声责问道：“你干什么呀？跟你说了，会给人看见的，你怎么不听呢？”
她是越来越同谋了，而他也越来越心领神会了，安慰说：“放心，门拴上了的--- ”
他一手放在她脖子下，把她的头勾上来，吻住她正准备说话的嘴，另一只手摸摸索索地打开了她的皮带扣，松开了她的裤子拉链，从她腰上把手伸进她裤子里。他的手有点冰，她哆嗦起来，但很快就被他按住了要害部位，冷摆子变成了热摆子。
他在她的要害部位抚摸了一会，发现她没再抵抗，便抽出放在她脖子下的那条手臂，两手齐心合力把她的裤子往下拉，边拉边说：“裤子别穿得太紧了，当心把孩子憋坏了---- ”
她虽然不喜欢他这个“憋”字，但因为是在说孩子的事，她还是顺从地“嗯”了一声。他把她的裤子褪到膝盖那里，她知道自己现在的样子一定很滑稽，“饥不择食”，“急不可耐”，“野合”，“苟合”，“偷情”等一系列坏字眼全跑到她脑子里来了。她使劲闭上眼睛，怕看到他拉开裤子拉链，让那东西露出来的情景。他不管是衣冠楚楚，还是全身赤裸，她都是爱看的，觉得有种贯穿一气的美。但他拉开拉链，露出那个东西的样子，就把他搞得不伦不类，很难看，很滑稽，让她想起那天他被“捉奸”时的丑陋。
但他并没拉开他的裤子拉链，而是坐在椅子上，把她抱起来放在自己腿上，用手在她那个地方指指点点：“其实你也憋坏了，随便一摸就这么多水--- ”
她差点发作，但他很快将一个手指伸了进去，她“啊”了一声，就不吭气了，专心对付体内那种又胀又酸的感觉，羞惭地发现自己其实很贪这一口。他的手指在里面活动，边动边问：“想不想？想不想？你也一样想吧？还要讲狠，躲在外面不回来，你看你的身体多老实，想了就是想了，不撒谎--- ”
她恨他在这种时候说这种话，但她无力呵斥他，只张开嘴，让他来吻她，好堵住他的嘴。他吻了下来，她很配合地把舌头伸给他，让他吮吸。他又加进去一个指头，胀得她放开他的嘴，“啊”地长唤一声。他得意地说：“很舒服吧？想不想我把你送上天？”
她不回答，他一边搅动一边说：“其实追求生理上的快感，对男女来说都一样，只不过你们女的脸皮薄，不愿意承认罢了，你看你现在多享受，这才是真实的你，平时总戴着个贞女的面具--- ”
她没理他，但心里发誓：你再说一句，我就走掉。
他似乎已经掌握了她秘密通道的各个开关，知道什么样的动作，什么样的力度，什么样的频率可以达到什么样的效果。很快，她就感觉到快感的浪头正在一点一点逼近那个部位，那里的肌肉有种想收缩的欲望，但她知道还没到火候，还差一点，如果她现在就让那里的肌肉收缩，快感就会跑掉。她现在得屏住气，不去想那个地方，等那个浪头自己冲到那里，那里的肌肉会自动开始收缩，那时如果她加一把力，就会把那个浪头推得很高很高，分成前后两路向身体的各处蔓延，一股潮水从尾椎骨那里升起，沿着脊椎往上涌，另一股潮水从她的隐秘处升起，沿着她的秘密通道往里流，那种感觉是能深入到骨头里面去的，没有哪一种感觉能跟那相比。
她感到浪头快到了，就像往常一样，向他张开嘴，请求他来吻他。但他突然把手指抽了出来，她的身体顿时感到一种空虚，潮水还在那里徒劳地左冲右突，使她有种焦灼的感觉，很想把他的手抓住放回那里。她不解地睁开眼，见他正饶有兴趣地望着她。她想问他为什么，但她问不出口。
他得意地说：“差一点就来了吧？我看得出来，也感觉得到--- ”
她喘着气，不知道他这是什么意思。
他接着说：“这叫釜底抽薪，懂不懂？你现在体会到我每次的感觉了吧？我知道你不相信我那是--- 纯生理的，是完全不带感情的，但我没有撒谎，就是那么回事。现在你体会到了，你就会相信了。到了你现在这个地步，如果我停下不管你了，那你真是求生不得，求死不得，现在不管你对我有没有感情，你都会求着我帮你做完--- ”
她惊呆了，愤怒地说：“无聊! ”
“我一点也不无聊，不过是在说一个事实，一个你不愿意看到的事实。你敢说你现在不想一步冲上那个高峰吗？”
她冷冷地说：“我想，但我不会想到连脸都不要的地步。我还以为你真的知错了，原来你只不过是想方设法替自己辩护。你以为你了解女性，其实你并不了解。你就等着我来求你吧--- ”她说着站起身，整理衣裤。
他懊丧地看着她，说：“可能我真的有点不了解你们女性，你们到了这个---- 地步--- 也不觉得--- 非--- 达到高潮不可的吗？也许我还没把你弄到那个地步？”
她讥讽说：“你不是有一点不了解女性，你是完全不了解女性。按你的理论，我现在可以随便找个人来帮我，对吧？那我现在就去找一个，这个楼里肯定还有人没走，至少门房老头还没走--- 你就当他--- 帮你--- 做公务的吧--- ”
他呵斥道：“那个老家伙，你别去丢我的人了，你不要脸，我还要脸呢--- ”
“你做那事的时候，想过要脸没有？”
“那是不同的--- ”
“为什么不同？就因为你是男人，我是女人？”
他词穷了，放开她：“你要找人帮忙，你去找吧，算是一报还一报，但是只能用--- 手--- 不能用别的--- ”
她哭笑不得：“我不会做那么不要脸的事的，你也完全用不着做那种事，你这些天--- 按照你自己说的--- 你在改正--- 你没干那事--- 不也活得好好的吗？”
他争辩说：“那不同的嘛，这几天你没在跟前，我--- 没受刺激，根本都不会想那个事，也就没东西需要--- 放出来，但是那些天，你每天都在我身边晃--- 但是又--- 不能帮我放出来--- 我有什么办法？”
她没好气地说：“那就算是我的错吧，但我改正了，我搬出来了，不在你面前晃来晃去了，你还要我怎么样呢？”
他被她噎住了，噎了好一阵，才指着她，恨恨地说：“你不要逼人太甚，我已经认错了，我也改正了，我已经把身价放到了尘土里，低到了不能再低的地方，你还要怎么样？你面子也要足了，威风也耍尽了，你不要得寸进尺，一而再，再而三地逼我，一个人的忍耐力是有限的。我现在就问你一句话：你到底跟不跟我回去？”
她看他那么凶狠的样子，心里有点怕，怕把他气极了，头脑发热，会伤害她跟孩子，她知道好汉是不吃眼前亏的，但她也不愿轻易示弱，硬着头皮说：“我不会跟你回去的--- ”
他威胁说：“我给你机会你不用，到时候可别后悔，等你来求我收留你的那一天，我是不会动菩萨心肠的--- ”
她见他这样说，就不怕他了，不就是个不收留吗？我根本就没想过请你收留。她硬气地说：“这个你放心，我不会来求你的。”
他咆哮道：“你这个给脸不要的贱女人，滚! ”
他越这样，她就越不怕，冷嘲热讽地说：“别忘了，这是我的办公室，你有什么资格叫我滚？”
“你也别忘了，连你这份工作都是我给你找来的，我叫你滚，你就得滚! ”
“我不稀罕你找的这份工作。”她看着他那个地方，幸灾乐祸地说，“你也别操心给我脸了，还是赶快去找你那个姜阿姨吧，当心把自己憋死了。”
她打开办公室的门，走了出去，身后传来他砸破什么的声音。