Chapter 20 Amy: Until Death (13)

Shi Yan originally wanted to retaliate: "What do you mean by killing first and playing later? Am I not even qualified to see friends?" But now she is afraid of words, how dare she say such a thing?He didn't even dare to hum, so he quietly hid in the bathroom to take a shower. Zhuoyou followed, took off her clothes, and said while taking off her clothes: "Do you know that I will worry about you? Do you know that I will worry about you? Why are you so inconsiderate? You are pregnant with a child, and suddenly It's gone--" She was moved to see him so worried about her and the child, and to cleanse herself, and because she knew that she couldn't keep things in her heart, she told him about receiving Hu Liying's letter today.

He stood there for a while, and she was so frightened that she asked repeatedly: "What's the matter? What's the matter with you? I didn't believe her words---" "You must still believe it, otherwise you wouldn't run away and never go home. This bitch surnamed Hu is really reckless and wants to destroy my happiness. There is no way!" She was afraid that he would think of some vicious method to rectify Hu Liying, so she pleaded for Hu Liying and said, "Don't punish her anymore, she is quite pitiful---" "You women's logic is really problematic. Why do you believe that I have dealt with her?"

"I didn't say you fucked her, I mean don't fuck her in the future—" "Then why do you think I will punish her in the future?" She panicked and said, "I heard you say that---it would make her life worse than death---" "That means I will punish her? She has done something wrong herself. If she still has a little conscience, shouldn't she live like death? If she wants me to love her, but I don't love her, won't she know how to live?" Is life better than death?" She murmured, "But she said it was you -- who pursued her, it was she -- who wanted to break up with you because you -- "

"Because of me? Because of my physical problems?" Seeing his vicious look, she knew that she shouldn't say this, so she quickly added: "She didn't say that---" "Then what did she say?" "She—didn't say anything—" "Didn't say anything and you would run away from home?" He stopped taking a shower and pulled her out, "Come out, come out, show me her letter----" She refused to go with him, as if he was pulling her to the killing field. She broke his hand and said, "The letter is in my little bag. You can go and see it yourself. Don't pull me. I want it." Take a shower, my clothes are all wet, I want to take a shower---"

Zhuo Liang leaves her behind and goes to the living room to read the letter.She closed the door of the bathroom, and the more she thought about it, the more frightened she was. She was afraid that if he got angry, he would crash in and beat her up, and beat the child off. Afraid that he would run to settle accounts with that surnamed Hu, anyway, the surnamed Hu was doing it for her own good, reminding her with his own lessons.She showed him the letter and made him take revenge on Hu, which was tantamount to revenge. She took a long time to take a shower, slipped to the bedroom to get dressed, and then came to the living room after a while, and found that he didn't lose his temper, but was sitting there watching TV.

Seeing her coming out, he smiled and said, "Finally willing to come out? After washing for so long, didn't you wash off a layer of skin?" She stalled for time: "You go and wash it too, you were all wet just now---" "Dry where it gets wet," he patted the sofa next to him, "Come here, I'm talking to you—" She had no choice but to walk over to accompany the tiger. He pointed to Hu Liying's letter, and explained it to her paragraph by paragraph, like teaching a primary school student to read: "Look at this sentence, she said that I don't agree to break up. Am I that kind of person? My self-esteem is very strong. You won’t wait for others to tell you to break up, don’t you think so?”

She nodded, but she thought to herself: It's because you don't want to wait for others to break up, and Hu Liying violated your taboo when she said break up, so you hate her very much. He pointed to another one and said: "Also here, she said that I told her to seduce Wen, so that he could be removed from power, but why should I remove Wen from power? Liguan, what good will it do me if I remove Wen from power?" She nodded again, but she thought to herself: It may not be of any direct benefit to you to get rid of Wen, but he hindered your mother's promotion, so you got rid of him.

As if he heard her muttering in her heart, he said: "The director of the education committee is the most disliked official by others. He is tired and has no money to earn. This man surnamed Wen has always been a person who runs wherever there is money. You Even if you give him a few dollars, he won't want to be the director of the education committee----" She boldly grumbled: "I didn't say that he wanted to be the director of the education committee---" "You didn't say it, but isn't that what you think in your heart? You think that I called Hu to seduce him just to get rid of the stumbling block on my mother's promotion path---"

She was so frightened that her scalp was numb, he is so smart! If you want to play with him, you can't play with him, he can guess your mind clearly, but you know nothing about his thoughts.Stay away from it in the future, but don't let it die in his hands anytime soon.She felt that it was dangerous to deny her thoughts now, and he would see that she was lying, so she took the approach of retreating, and asked in a low voice: "That Wen --- is he a stumbling block on your mother's way to promotion?" Woolen cloth?" "Of course not. In the past, the culture and education department in City D was one department. When it was separated, Wen took the culture department and left the education to my mother. Later, he was promoted to a higher level, and my mother stayed there. In the thankless place of the Education Committee---"

She nodded and said yes, pretending to be sincerely convinced, but she thought in her heart: It's not a fight for power, is it jealousy and revenge?The one surnamed Wen robbed your girlfriend, so you took revenge on the one surnamed Wen. He seemed to guess her thoughts again, and said: "Hu Liying said that I ordered the newspaper to expose her scandal, but think about it, who hates her the most in this matter? Of course it is the one named Wen, if not How could she, surnamed Wen, be removed? If Hu Liying is really helping me, why should I vilify her in the newspaper? I'm not afraid of offending her, will she go around and expose me? "

This seems to make sense, Zhuo Liang shouldn't be so stupid. He went on to say: "Wen has been in charge of the culture of City D for so many years. He has a lot of friends and acquaintances in the newspaper industry of City D. It is not easy for him to ask people to publish an article? On the other hand, I just arrived in City D not long ago. The teacher’s college has nothing to do with the newspaper industry. After my father passed away, except for a few of his former friends, no one else paid for our account. I asked them to write, and they wrote it? ?” She murmured in her heart, a skinny camel is bigger than a horse, the relationship left by your father is still very useful, isn't it you who got me into the teacher's academy?Besides, your mother is an official anyway, maybe someone from the newspaper office wants to go to a key middle school, so he has to ask your mother for help?In return, what is an article? It must be her expression that revealed the distrust in her heart, he got up and went into the room to find a newspaper clipping, pointed to an article and said: "Look at this article, it's all about smearing my face, If I asked someone to write this article, would I lose my own people like this? Once this article came out, I spent a lot of energy to stop it, just asking someone to buy newspapers from the newsstand. Money. How did I have someone write this? Am I crazy?" She took a quick look at the article, and it was indeed more likely that it was written by someone surnamed Wen, especially as the article stated that this matter was a political conspiracy to bring down Joyo’s mother’s political opponents. She felt that it was impossible to be Joyo Ask someone to write it, unless he is really crazy. She said frankly: "I'm sorry, I believed it a little at first, but now that you explain it like this, I know I was wrong, and I shouldn't doubt you---" He put his arms around her and said, "I'm not afraid of people slandering me, and I'm not afraid of being misunderstood, but I really don't want you to misunderstand me too--- . I know that woman surnamed Hu will come to you sooner or later to provoke us It's related, but I don't know which day it will be, which method to use, and I don't know if you can see that she is lying, so my nerves are always tense, I am afraid that one day you will believe her words, Will leave me. As soon as you ran away today, I knew she might be playing tricks in--" "How could she know about us? She also knows my mailing address? I have only been working at this address for a few days?" "That Oda must have told her—" "Oda knows --- Hu Liying?" "I don't know if they know each other, but the turmoil was very famous, and many people knew about it. It would be easy for Oda to find Hu Liying---" "But why did Oda do this? Just because your motorcycle brand is better than her husband's?" "Isn't that reason enough?" "Just because of a motorcycle brand, she is going to destroy our marriage?" "Envy and greed can be said to be the root of all evils. They are the driving forces that drive people to commit crimes. Sometimes you have no idea who will be your enemy, because you don't think you have anything to be jealous of others, and you don't know what their jealousy is. how deep--" She joked: "Who told you to ride such a good motorcycle? If you don't ride it, Oda won't be jealous of you---" "I can't say that I don't even ride good motorcycles because I'm afraid of being jealous, can I?" "That's true." "I'm fully prepared to live my life in people's envy, and you are also fully prepared to--" "I have nothing to envy—" "You have me," he also joked, "You can't stop following me to avoid being jealous, can you?" She said bluntly: "I won't, let anyone who wants to be jealous be jealous." "Okay, this is my good swallow---" The next day, Shi Yan was sorting out forms in the office, when Xiao Tian walked over and asked directly, "Did you read that letter yesterday?" "Look." "Then why did I see him sending you to work today?" She was amused, did you expect a letter to tear us apart?On the contrary, our relationship is better.She asked back, "Do you know the content of that letter?" Xiao Tian seemed to be at a loss for words, and finally admitted: "I am friends with Xiao Hu. She is so unfortunate. I sympathize with her and care about you. Before you are married, I will remind you first, otherwise, I will wait for you like her." Xiao Hu married him like that, it's too late to regret—" She couldn't see that Xiao Hu's matter had anything to do with being married or not, and she didn't want to discuss this matter with Xiao Tian, ​​so she pretended to be meticulously sorting out the forms and kept silent. Xiaotian said again: "You may not know that Director Wen is now on stage again. This time it's your family's best luck. Who told him to punish others at that time? Good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil, isn't it? Report, it's not time yet. I'm doing this for you out of kindness, so don't fall into his muddy pit---" She asked curiously: "Didn't the guy surnamed Wen make a --- style mistake? Why --- came on stage again?" "What kind of style mistake does he make? He was framed. Xiao Hu has already told the whole truth. Now that the matter is clear, there is no problem with style at all. It was all framed by your family---" She thought, so that's the case. It seems that this little Hu is also a follower of power, he will curry favor with anyone who comes to power, even Xiao Tian is the same.She looked down on this kind of villain the most, so she snorted dismissively and didn't bother to talk to Xiaotian. She has no interest in the success or failure of this kind of officialdom. She never wants to be an official, and she doesn't break the law. It doesn't matter to her who gets in power and who gets out of power?But when she told Yao Xiaoping about this, Yao Xiaoping made a big fuss and said, "I told you, don't find someone who is an official. If you don't believe me, something will happen? I told you at the time, find an official." There are a lot of troubles when an official is in trouble. When he is going well, you follow the popular ones and drink spicy ones. When he is unlucky, you can't run away---" She was a bit annoyed by Yao Xiaoping's tone of hindsight, but she couldn't expose Yao Xiaoping's background. When did Yao tell her not to find someone who was an official?And she didn't "find" an official family at all, it was just a coincidence, she felt that she didn't follow the Zhuoyue's family to eat spicy food, and she didn't know what kind of enjoyment "drinking spicy food" was, unless it was said that It was invented by Aunt Jiang. Yao Xiaoping warned: "If this man surnamed Wen really comes to power again, you have to be careful---" "What's the matter with me? I don't want to be an official. What does it have to do with me whether he gets on stage or not?" "Why doesn't it matter? Everything related to your excellence is related to you, because you are his wife, and to punish you is to punish him---" "Who knew I was an excellent wife?" "Then girlfriend, it's the same anyway." She still couldn't see why the surname Wen wanted to punish her. Even if he wanted to punish her, what could he do to her?The officialdom is black only in the officialdom. She is not an official, and she does not do anything wrong. I believe that Wen can't do anything to her.But she was very worried about Zhuo Zhuo, and quickly told him the news: "Do you know that the surname Wen is on stage again?" "How come you don't know? City D is only this big in total, and my mother is an official, so you can hide the troubles in the city from me?" "Then you have to be careful—" He smiled disdainfully: "I'm afraid of him? I want to see who can fight whom." She persuaded: "Don't fight with these people, fight back and forth, even if you win the fight, it's meaningless, if you lose, it's your bad luck---" "The problem is that it's useless if you don't fight. Don't worry, he will climb up to the stage again at most, but it's not that easy for him to punish me. I'm a teacher, how can he punish me? Don't let me teach? If you don't let me teach, that's just right, I can't ask for it, who wants to do the job of a teacher?" Once he said that, she felt more at ease. It was true. Zhuoyou was just a lecturer. What kind of man could Wen make him into?Could it be possible to withdraw his lecturer?The teacher's college is not under the management of City D, and if Wen wants revenge, he can only take Zhuoyou's mother as a knife, and try to find a way to squeeze his mother out, so what?Her mother-in-law was planning to retire and take care of her grandchildren. A few days later, Zhuo Zhuo told her the good news, saying that the fertility index was basically obtained, as long as the date on the marriage certificate was changed to a year ago, because of the regulations of the Normal University, the combined age of the husband and wife exceeds 50. Years old, you can have children after one year of marriage.She was so happy that she hurriedly urged him to take the marriage certificate to change the time. A few days later, Zhuo Liang told her another good news, saying that soon there would be an exceptional opportunity to nominate an associate professor, who should be under 35 years old, have a master’s degree or above, have published at least three books, or have published more than ten papers. Zhuo Liang said happily: "Haha, these conditions are all set for me. In the whole teacher's college, who else meets these conditions except me? A few old guys in our department are so angry that their eyes are green. I haven't been an associate professor yet, but when I first came here, I was on the rise! When I mention an associate professor, we can divide into two rooms and one living room! Yan'er, you are so far-sighted, and you have found such a good husband like me!" When Shi Yan heard that there are two rooms and one living room, she was so happy that she couldn't close her mouth from ear to ear, and she didn't care about the word "find" in Zhuoyou.But she was happy for a while, and her superstitious thoughts came up again, isn't it a blessing that comes together?How come there are two blessings at once?She felt that there must be a problem with one of these two things, but Excellence did meet those exceptional conditions for being an associate professor. Is the matter of fertility indicators going wrong? She thought a little selfishly, why don't she just tell him not to fight for this extraordinary title promotion, so that the birth index can be guaranteed to be safe.But she was embarrassed to tell him that, because he would definitely laugh at her superstitious thinking. As if specifically to take care of her superstitious thoughts, Huang Haiheng stepped in and brought her the third good thing: helping her get study materials abroad.She attaches great importance to this good thing, because with this, her recent luck is not "double to" but "three to", "three" is an odd number, it should be able to break the vicious circle of "blessings not double" Bar? Huang Hai didn't know Shi Yan's exact address, so he sent it to Yao Xiaoping, and "please" Yao Xiaoping to forward it to Shi Yan.Yao Xiaoping didn't tire of taking the trouble. When she received the package slip at school, she went to the post office to pick up a large package of books from Huang Hai and sent them to Shi Yan's house on the way.It was a Friday, and Yao Xiaoping heard from Shi Yan that Zhuoyue had no class on Friday and was at home, so she sent her there without saying hello in advance. When Shi Yan came home and saw the book sent by Huang Hai, she was worried for a while, fearing that Zhuo Liang would become jealous again, saying that she and Huang Haila were messing with each other, and instead of sending the book directly to the door, she wanted to cover it up and find someone to hand it over.She thought about an explanation, but Zhuo Liang didn't say anything. It seems that Zhuo Liang is not a jealous person. The last time he was angry about her calling Huang Hai, it was mainly because she wronged him, saying that he took the money. Yao Xiaoping is cheap at ten yuan.As long as she doesn't touch his hair, he is still a reasonable person. Zhuoyue went to City E that weekend as usual, Shi Yan invited Yao Xiaoping and the others to use the gas stove as usual, Yao Xiaoping bought a lot of vegetables as usual, and came to Shi Yan's house to cook happily. After sending Yan Jing to the canteen to buy beer, Yao Xiaoping said confidentially to Shi Yan, "I know I shouldn't tell you about this, but I'm afraid you'll blame me for not reporting it, so I'll tell you first." Shi Yan knew by feeling that this matter had something to do with Zhuo Yue, but she thought it was another official matter, so she said disapprovingly, "What is it?" "Maybe it's not a big deal, but I always feel a little strange. When I delivered the books to you the day before yesterday, I knocked on the door for a long time before Zhuo Liang came to open the door. He looked a little flustered and blocked the door and refused to let me in. I saw There is a pair of women's shoes by the door of your house, the kind of black cloth shoes with white rubber soles and buckles. It smells like someone is cooking, but I know Zhuoyou doesn’t cook, don’t you think it’s a bit strange?” Shi Yan was still a little nervous when Yao Xiaoping said it, but when she heard the white rubber-soled black cloth shoes and the smell of the kitchen, she knew who it was, and quickly explained: "You made a mistake, that is the nanny hired by my mother-in-law. I often come here to help with cooking during a period of time, afraid that I will be tired---" "Oh? Then your mother-in-law treats you very well. But don't be careless. When a woman is pregnant, the husband is most likely to get involved with the babysitters---" "It's not the baby sitter, it's the old nurse--" "Old babysitter? How old? Some men like milfs best--" "It's not milfs at all, it's milfs---" "Is there fifty?" "Surely more than---" Shi Yan told about Aunt Jiang's situation, and Yao Xiaoping laughed: "Oh, that's right, that's why I was paranoid. I thought that during your pregnancy, Zhuo Zhuo put his mind to doing something --- bad .I am really looking at the belly of a big man with the heart of a small husband, thinking that your family's excellence is the same as my animal husband---" The two immediately involved Yao Xiaoping's animal husband, and Shi Yan asked, "Have you settled the matter of divorcing your husband?" "It's almost time, it's just that the child's matter hasn't been settled---" Shi Yan knew that Yao Xiaoping and his wife didn't want that child, so she didn't quite agree with this point, but she didn't want to say much, she just tried to persuade her: "After all, it's your own child. If your husband really doesn't want to have a child, you can-" Yao Xiaoping interrupted her: "You haven't seen my son. If you had, you would not have persuaded me to have a child. He is exactly like his father. At such a young age, he loves to see little girls peeing." , touching other people's breasts, kicking other people's buttocks, teachers and parents have come to the door many times, his father always doesn't take it seriously, and asked his son to tell him how to touch and kick, which girl's ass kicked The most comfortable --- " She frowned when she heard it: "You shouldn't let the child follow your husband, he has brought your son to death---" "I'm studying outside, if the child doesn't follow him, who else will he follow?" "I'll let you go --- my parents ---" "My parents are both in the country, and they are too old to move. How can I deal with that boy who is flying in the sky? Let me tell you, it's all hereditary. He has a father like that, so he can be raised wherever he is. Something. This kid must be a hooligan like his father when he grows up. His father is protected by his grandfather, otherwise, he would have been arrested and sent to jail--" She felt that this matter was really a headache, and even an outsider like her felt a headache, so Yao Xiaoping must have a headache even more.She said with a headache: "Then if your son is really arrested and sent to jail, don't you feel bad?" "If you don't feel bad, you won't worry about it---I really regret that I didn't kill him at that time---" Yao Xiaoping was angrily denouncing the two villains, one big and one small, at home. Yan Jing bought beer and came back. Shi Yan was afraid that Yan Jing would be unhappy when he heard Yao Xiaoping talking about his son, so he quickly gave Yao a wink, wanting to tell Yao to stop talking about this topic , but Yao Xiaoping didn't care, and testified rigorously: "Yan, Shi still doesn't believe me when I say it, tell me, is my son too difficult?" Like an answerer, Yan Jing testified without hesitation: "That Xiao Gang, I have convinced him, I wish I could call him 'ancient grandpa', that kid is not afraid of anyone or anything, I admit that I am timid, see Let him dodge for three feet---" Shi Yan couldn't figure out whether it was because the two people exaggerated their words because they didn't want the child, or there were really such difficult children in the world.She can understand that Yan Jing doesn't like Xiaogang, but Yao Xiaoping doesn't like her son either, so she doesn't understand, it's likely that she was blinded by love, and in order to please Yan Jing, she doesn't even want her own son anymore . She couldn't help thinking about her child, wondering if it would be difficult to give birth?She thinks this is still an education issue. She doesn't believe that there are children who can't be taught well in the world. The key is to lay the foundation well from the beginning. Straight, when it grows into a big tree, it will be difficult to straighten it. The conversation that day basically revolved around children.In the evening, after Yao and Yan left, Shi Yan lay on the bed alone, thinking about it, thinking about Yao Xiaoping's son and her own child, and Yao Xiaoping's husband. If the education is good, what about Yao Xiaoping's husband?Maybe it's because no one has disciplined him since he was a child? Now she believes in heredity again. Didn't Zhuge Liang be ignored when he was a child? He didn't become a difficult child like Xiaogang.She remembered that Aunt Jiang said that when Zhuo Zhuo was a child, both his parents went to work in the cadre school, and he was left alone, so he had to go to the acquaintances and friends of his parents to eat "Hundreds of Foods". No one cares about life and education. After Aunt Jiang came, Zhuo Liang didn't have to go to someone else's house to make a living.Perhaps during that time, Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang depended on each other for life, so he was always grateful to Aunt Jiang, and made a wish that he would take Aunt Jiang to enjoy the blessings when he became rich. She thought that Zhuoyou could be regarded as a "self-adult", because Aunt Jiang was a rural wife with no education, at most she was in charge of Zhuojiao's life and education, and didn't she all rely on Zhuoyou herself?Even if his parents came back from the cadre school, they might not have time to take care of their children. She suddenly felt a little uneasy. During this period of time, Aunt Jiang often came to help, she didn't care, and she was quite grateful, because Aunt Jiang helped with a lot of housework, which saved her a lot of trouble, and Aunt Jiang was so old. No matter how imaginative she is, she can't afford to be a mother who can afford to be outstanding. She will never associate Excellence with such an old mother. But what Yao Xiaoping said today made her very worried.If there is nothing else, why did Joyo wait so long to open the door?And he looked a little flustered, and he blocked Yao Xiaoping out of the door. Could it be that Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang have--what? She found that outstanding things are really like a bunch of rotten meat, usually scattered everywhere, you can't smell the smell, sometimes you think it's a good piece of meat, it's a pity to fall on the ground.But if you have a thin bamboo stick, string them up one by one, and you will smell the pungent smell immediately. She remembered that time on the train, when Zhuo Liang disappeared for a while, and when he came back, he seemed to have solved the "problem" and slept like a dead pig.It was likely that the train conductor helped to "solve" that time. Although the train conductor was a little younger than Aunt Jiang, he was not much younger.Perhaps for Zhuoqiang, this matter has nothing to do with sex at all, but just helping him solve problems. But when I think about it this way, it's a bit wrong. Since it's not a matter of womanizing for Zhuoyue, there must be no need to take off his clothes, right?Aunt Jiang is so old, is there still Leng Leng there?It must be the suction of the mouth. Judging from her own experience, if it is mouth work, neither the man nor the woman need to undress, Joyo just needs to unzip the pants, and the woman doesn't need to unzip anything, just open the two lips.If that was the case, why did Zhuoyou block Yao Xiaoping at the door and not let him in?Since even Zhuo Liang had time to zip up her trousers, Aunt Jiang had even more time to tidy herself up to the point where she could be seen by others.With outstanding ingenuity, don't you know that people like Yao Xiaoping are getting worse and worse?The more blocked you are, the more suspicious Yao will be. If there is nothing to do, you can suspect that something is wrong. It is better to let Yao go in generously. Yao will not find anything, so it will be safer. Isn't Aunt Jiang the one who came on Friday?Who is it then?She racked her brains for a while, but she couldn't think of anything suspicious. Besides, Yao Xiaoping said, there were a pair of white rubber-soled black cloth shoes with buckles inside the door. Among the people she knew, only Aunt Jiang seemed to be seen wearing them. .Women who are not forty years old will never wear that kind of shoes. They are so old-fashioned and they don't follow. Who would wear them?Now that she wants to wear more comfortable shoes because she is pregnant, she would never think of wearing that kind of shoes. Could it be that Aunt Jiang and some young girl were here on Friday?If yes, who is the girl?Could it be Aunt Jiang's relative? She got up and went to each room to search, but she didn't know what to search for, she had never cheated before, so she didn't know what clues would be left by a cheater.She just searched blindly, thinking that once she saw the "clues", she knew what she was looking for.She even pulled out the drawer of his writing desk to check, and there was really nothing suspicious.Of course, this doesn't mean anything, because if it's done in the way Zhuoyue likes, there won't be any traces left at all. When you're done, just spit it into the toilet. Once the water is flushed, it will be cleaner than anything else. She couldn't figure out who was hiding in the house on Friday, but she felt that someone must be hiding in the house, and she must have done that with Excellence, because she hadn't had sex with Excellence during this period, and she didn't find out He's got new porn magazines, and he doesn't seem to be anxious about having a pustule that won't come out. Some time ago, she didn't think so far, she only secretly thanked herself that she didn't have to tire her mouth.She remembered that Yao Xiaoping said that Yao would not have sex with her husband when she was pregnant. If you don't, you won't be interested. But Aunt Jiang's incident sounded a wake-up call for her. It is very likely that Zhuo Liang has not lost the pus during this period, but has found a place to vent.Didn't Yao Xiaoping scold her husband one by one?Maybe it was because Yao's husband did something ugly during Yao's pregnancy. She wanted to make a phone call to Professor Zheng's home in E City immediately, and call Zhuo Zhuo to torture him, but she knew it was a stupid idea.If he had nothing to do, doing this would be tantamount to telling him that she didn't trust him, and he would definitely be furious, not sure how to punish her.Even if something happened to him, he wouldn't admit it over the phone. She wanted to simply put this matter aside, after all, it was just Yao Xiaoping's one-sided remarks, but she couldn't let it go, she felt that Yao Xiaoping would not say such things for no reason, and many of what Yao said had been confirmed.The three yuan pearl necklace, although Zhuoyou explained it in the past, and she still has to testify rigorously, but now that she thinks about it, it is very likely that Yao Xiaoping was afraid that this would make a big deal, so she did work for Yanjing, so Yanjing changed her words and said that the necklace is five yuan. A bunch of money. But she remembered that Yan Jing once said this sentence: "The ones that are given away? How can they compare with this? Only ten strings can beat this one." A person like Yan Jing said that he bought a necklace of five yuan and asked someone to issue an invoice for three yuan. On TV, he blurted out "Ten strings are worth this one", if it wasn't for a pearl necklace or a string of three yuan, he would never have said it so innocently.Rigorous, if not well-developed limbs, simple-minded, at least not very good at mathematics, if he spent 50 yuan to buy ten necklaces, how could he say "ten necklaces are worth one" without hiccupping?Isn't fifty obviously twenty more than thirty?I'm afraid that even she can't do the math so fast, only people who have lied to Yao Xiaoping's level can do it. Now she even has to re-examine Hu Liying's matter. It can be said that the things Hu Liying said are entirely possible. For his mother's future, Zhuoyue asked Hu Liying to frame Wen. , and also used the press to mess with Hu.As for that article, it might just be a pro-Wen faction article, not the one that vilifies Hu as Hu Liying said. I remember that day when Zhuo Zhuo heard that Hu Liying had written a letter, he was very nervous at first, but after reading the letter, he became less nervous.If he didn't do anything shameful, then he wouldn't be afraid of Hu Liying's letter. Didn't he have good reasons to refute what Hu Liying wrote in her letter?So what was he afraid of at first?Most likely, he was afraid that Hu Liying would tell the story about him and Aunt Jiang. When he read the letter and found that Hu Liying didn't play this trump card, he calmed down. As for why Hu Liying didn't play Aunt Jiang's trump card, she didn't know, maybe she wanted to test it out first, maybe she was afraid of Zhuo Liang's crazy revenge, maybe Hu Liying didn't know about Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang, but Zhuo Liang thought Hu knew.In any case, this Hu Liying is a key figure. The next day, Shi Yan went to the school library to look up the old D city evening papers, but the library said that they did not collect evening papers before, only daily newspapers, and only recently began to collect evening papers, so the previous ones could not be found.She wanted to find out Hu Liying's letter and see if there was Hu Liying's address or phone number. If so, she wanted to talk to Hu Liying in person to find out what was going on. It's a pity that Zhuoyue took that letter and never returned it to her. She decided not to rely on the power of the masses, but to get back to individual heroism, to investigate it herself, and she must get to the bottom of it.Isn't Aunt Jiang here every week?Then use the tricks and lure the enemy to go deep to see what the hell they are doing.But she didn't know whether Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang would do this every week. If they didn't do it every week, then she might not be able to catch them.If Zhuo Zhuo had raised her vigilance because Yao Xiaoping came to the door that time, then she might not be able to catch them. That week, she has been digging traps since Monday, saying that this week is very busy and people are very tired, and she wants to go to the cafeteria. Zhuo Zhuo comforted and said: "If you feel tired, don't do it, anyway, Aunt Jiang will come to help cook on Friday---" She was excited and nervous when she heard it, and her mood was very contradictory. Sometimes she wanted to dig deeper into the trap, pretend to be more clever, and catch the coquettish fox of Zhuo Liang at once; sometimes she wanted to reveal her plan so that Zhuo Liang could smell Get some news and don't step into her trap, because it is not good for her to seize the "current" of excellence, and she will definitely end up like Hu Liying, not to mention the marriage of the two, it must be ruined. But she felt as if some invisible big hand was pushing her to dig a trap. She couldn't stop, thinking about how to find out the truth of the matter, otherwise it would be like sorry to the people and the party. On Friday, before she went out, she devised an excuse to leave a document at home, and it seemed more reasonable to stay home halfway.She also took all the extraneous things off the key so it wouldn't rattle when she opened the door. When she arrived at the office, she was completely in the mood to go to work, fidgeting, and kept looking at the clock and watch, thinking about when it would be better to rush back.When it was almost ten o'clock, she had meat for the first time and called her mother-in-law's house.As she estimated, no one picked up. It seems that Aunt Jiang has already left.但是她不知道姜阿姨现在是在路上还是已经到了。看来“捉奸”这种事还真不容易，时机太难掌握了，去早了，人家还没脱衣解带；去晚了，人家已经完了事，战场都打扫完了。 后来她实在坐不住了，心想，就当这回是演习的吧，反正姜阿姨不会只来这一次，今天没抓住，就等下次吧。她开始施行她的侦破方案，她对办公室的人说，她把一份文件掉家里了，要回去拿份文件，然后她就出了办公楼，骑车回家。 她上一楼上了一半的时候，往楼道下面望了一下，看见了卓越的摩托车，她知道他肯定在家，心情一下紧张起来。她又上了几步，突然不想再往上走了，想起了那次去E 大看许国璋真人的时候听来的几句话，她那次离得远，又不熟悉许国璋口音，听得不那么清楚，但有几个典故却给她印象很深，因为好像是专对她说的。 那次许国璋说，人们总是热衷于发现真理，但有时候真理并不是那么受欢迎的，比如你们有很多人到这里来，都是慕名而来，想看看我的真相，但是当你们真的看见我的时候，可能更多的是失望。然后他讲了几个西方的典故，一个是《圣经》 上的，好像是说上帝警告了谁，叫她别回头望，但她回了头，于是被变成了一根盐柱子。还有一个好像是希腊罗马神话里的，也是有那么一个人，叫她别回头望，她回了头，于是被羁留在冥府里了。 她想起自己，这么发了疯似地调查事实真相，为了什么？如果今天没抓住卓越跟姜阿姨做那事，事情也不算结束，因为他们今天不做，不等于以前没做，也不等于今后不会做，那她得一次又一次地来“捉奸”，一直到捉住为止。 即便捉住了，又能解决什么问题？ 石燕想下楼走掉，但发现楼下那对夫妻正提着一个煤气坛上楼来，两个人再加一坛煤气，正好把楼道堵死了。如果她叫那两人停下让她下去，也不是不可以，但不知为什么，她没往楼下走，而是接着往楼上走去，脑子里全都是初遇卓越的那一次，恍惚之中，好像走在她身后的就是卓越那伙人，抬着席梦思，把她和姚小萍一步一步“逼”上楼去。 她像梦游一般地一层层往上爬，听见身后煤气坛磕磕碰碰的声音，还有那两口子互相埋怨的声音，女的说“从来没见过换个煤气还要把女的也拖上”，男的说“谁叫你舍不得出几个钱请人换的”。她把这两人的对话听得非常非常清楚，但对自己正在干着的事却一点没感觉。 等她从“关心他人比关心自己为重”的状态中清醒过来的时候，她已经到了家门前，搬煤气的两口子早在前一层楼就到家了，但她完全没注意他们是什么时候到家的，如果注意了，她还来得及下楼去，但她似乎想都没想下楼的问题，象被鬼推着一样，一直上到了自家门前。 她在门前站了一会，想象把门打开后会看到什么景色，在她印象中，“捉奸”总是跟“赤条条”“肉虫”“被子”之类的词分不开的，地上是一定有些狼藉的，床上是一定有些污物的，她觉得有点恶心，不知道如果待会捉住两个“赤条条的肉虫”该怎么发落。 她把钥匙伸进了锁孔，拧动钥匙前的那一秒钟，她还在想，今天肯定没事，因为现在还早，卓越肯定还没睡醒。但当她转动门把手，把门推开一道缝的时候，她楞住了：她的眼光象电影摄影师的镜头一样，从客厅穿过，再从开着的卧室门进去，正对在卓越身上，他坐在床边，两手撑在身体两边，她的镜头下摇，姜阿姨进入画面，正跪在床前，头深深地埋在卓越两腿间。 如果石燕从来没干过那活，她或许不会知道姜阿姨是在干什么，也许是在帮卓越钉裤子扣呢？也许是在帮他缝拉链呢？也许--- 但是她太干过那活了，太知道姜阿姨是在做什么了，虽然她从来没以这个姿势为卓越干过那活，但她每次想到别人为卓越干那活的时候，就是这么个画面：卓越或坐或站，而那个干活的人或蹲或跪，头埋得深深的，正在起劲地吸吮，而卓越半闭着眼睛，十分享受的样子，一只手还摸着人家头顶，仿佛是一位首长在奖励勤务员活干得好。 有那么一刻，她以为自己会倒下，或者会肚子痛，流产，但其实什么也没发生，她站在那里，安如泰山，心跳没有加速，血液没有冲上脸面，连手里的钥匙都没掉地上，完全像是在拍摄一部电影，注意力全都在角度和光线上。 她看见卓越上身向后仰，嘴里“噢噢”地叫着，好像很享受似的。她觉得一阵恶心，差点吐出来，但在那样的时刻，她还能想到“可别吐在地上了”，而且把吐忍住了，令她对自己佩服得五体投地。 电影里的那两个人全神贯注于自己的演出，丝毫不受她这个摄影师的影响。现在剧情渐进高潮，男主角坐直了，一只蒿着女主角的头发，使劲地提上按下，她突然想起自己头发被蒿的情景，一下进入了角色，从观众变成了演员，尖叫一声，就冲进卧室，用手里的钥匙乱打他们两个。 那两个人显然是被吓糊涂了，只知道用手去护自己的脸，但那正好提醒了她，脸是重点保护单位，也是最佳攻击点，她拿着钥匙，很公平地打男主角一下，又打女主角一下，心里很惊异自己在这种时刻还能保持男女平等。 好一会，卓越才醒过神来，跳到一边去整理裤子，而姜阿姨已经扑到石燕脚边，匍匐在地上，嘴里含糊不清地说着同一句话：“石老师，你听我说，石老师，你听我说--- ” 失去了一个目标，石燕只好攻击那个够得着的目标，她的手还在扬起落下，用钥匙打姜阿姨，但她的眼睛却直楞楞地盯着卓越，看他狼狈地把他那玩意塞进裤子里去，看他狼狈地拉上拉链。她头脑一片空白，但眼睛却看见了每一个细节，连他那玩意在被塞进裤子里去时的软缩状态都没错过。 她的手越打越没劲，等卓越上来夺她手里的钥匙的时候，她就乖乖地住了手，泥塑木雕地站在那里。卓越对姜阿姨说：“姜阿姨，你先回去吧--- ” 她大叫一声：“不许走! ” 姜阿姨说：“好，我不走，我不走。石老师，别生气，我扶你上床去吧，当心把孩子--- 气坏了--- ” 这句话好像提醒了她一样，她开始捶自己的肚子：“气坏了好，气坏了好，我不要这个孩子了，我不要这个孩子，这么不要脸的爹，还能生出什么要脸的孩子来吗--- 都是遗传--- 都是遗传--- ” 卓越抢上前来，一手一个抓住她的两手手腕，攥得紧紧的，眼睛通红，像要吃人一样：“你今天敢再打我的孩子一下，我就要你的命! ” 她也豁出去了：“你要我的命吧! 你把我的命拿去吧! 我反正也不想活了，嫁了你这种流氓，我还活什么活？” 卓越对姜阿姨说：“去把门关上! ” 姜阿姨应声去关门，石燕知道自己末日来临了，这两个狗男女，肯定要整死她了，免得他们的丑事暴露出去。她也不是那么好欺负的，谁临死不知道反抗一下？蜜蜂临死还知道蜇人呢。她大声尖叫，用脚踢卓越，想踢他的要害，但被他用一条胳膊紧紧箍住，抱得离了地，另一只手捂住了她的嘴。 她动不了，也没力气动了，便闭上眼睛，心里说：“善有善报，恶有恶报，你们整死了我，你们也没有好下场。” 卓越把她连拖带抱地弄到床上放下，其间一直捂着她的嘴，等他把她放在床上了，他还捂着她的嘴，警告说：“我现在放开你的嘴，但不许你尖叫，也不许你乱喊，如果你不听，我就捂死你。听见没有？” 她老老实实地点点头，他放开了她的嘴，说：“你要怎么惩罚我都行，但是请你不要危害我的孩子，我相信我的孩子不会像我这样，我是被--- 社会害的--- ” 她不知道他在说哪个社会，难道他的“社会”跟她的不一样吗？大家都是同时代人，她看不出他那个“社会”怎么就会把他害成这样。 姜阿姨也凑上来作检讨：“石老师，你别怪越儿，要怪就怪我吧，是我养成了他这个习惯。他知事早--- 我看他憋得难受--- 就帮他--- ” 她冷冷地问：“那你们这事--- 是有历史的罗？” “只在他小时候有过--- 后来他上大学去了--- 就没有了--- 这次--- 你现在怀身大肚的--- 也不能解他的急--- 我就--- 我就--- 帮他一下--- ” 她恶狠狠地说：“你这个贱女人，你这是帮他？你这是害他! ” 卓越说：“姜阿姨，你回去吧，这里有我。路上小心。” 她又想叫“不许走! ”，但觉得没什么意义了，兴许姜阿姨走了更好，卓越就少一个帮手了。而且卓越的手一直放在她嘴边，她觉得如果她再叫一声，他真的会要她的命。 姜阿姨走了之后，卓越在床边坐下，小声说：“你别怪她，是我不好，我很小就--- 知了事--- 那时对女人--- 的一切都很好奇--- 我在家里--- 偷看她洗澡--- 偷看她--- 上厕所--- 被她发现--- 但她没告诉我父母--- 也没告到我学校去--- 我胆子--- 更大了--- 叫她--- 把她的东西给我看--- 她很疼我--- 被我缠不过了--- 就--- 给我看--- 也让我--- 摸--- 但是我从来没跟她--- 做过--- 那种事。请你相信我--- 我们把界线分得很清的--- 我是把她当妈妈看待的--- 她也是-- 把我当--- 儿子看待的--- 我们从来没做过--- 乱伦的事--- ” 她冷笑：“还要怎么乱伦？这还不算乱伦吗？” “这不是乱伦，她只用嘴帮我，我从来没--- 进入过她--- 那个地方--- ” 她又冷笑：“我看你还不如去写本乱伦的书算了，可能赚的钱更多，这么新奇的理论---- 保证很多人喜欢---- ” 他抱着她，恳求说：“燕儿，燕儿，你要相信我，我一直都是爱你的，我不会背叛你的，我教的学生里就有女生爱我，如果我要背叛你，我有很多机会，但我看都不看她们一眼的。你就当这是姜阿姨在帮你--- 做家务不行吗？” “天下有这样做家务的保姆吗？” “那你叫我怎么办？你不肯跟我做，你不许我看黄色杂志，把我的杂志烧了，你要我怎么办？憋死？还是把我逼到那些女学生那里去？” “你就非得干这事不可吗？不干就要憋死吗？别人那些老婆怀孕的男人怎么办？人家都跟保姆干这事了吗？” “可是别人没我这个问题呀--- 要怪只能怪--- 我那时太小--- 不知道这事会酿成这样的--- 苦果--- 她洗我的衣裤我的床单的时候--- 总是看见--- 一团团--- 的-- 遗精--- 她说那对身体--- 不好--- 所以她就帮我--- 用嘴出火--- 久而久之我--- 习惯了那个方法---- 别的--- 方法就--- 不够刺激了--- ” 她问：“那次在火车上你是不是跟列车长--- 这样做了？” 他似乎想抵赖，她说：“你已经做下这些了，少那一次算什么？你不承认，只能证明你是个爱撒谎的人，罪加一等--- ” 不知道他究竟是做了那事，还是怕她说他撒谎，他没再抵赖。 她喝令道：“还有谁？你给我一个一个交待出来。” “没有了，真的没有了，我也不想这样，我怎么会--- 到处干这个事呢？请你相信我--- ” 她不再回他的话，因为她脑子太乱，不知道该说什么，她也哭不出声来，只觉得心里闷得慌，好像要把胸膛剖开才能呼吸一样。 石燕不知道自己是怎么挺过那几天的，只记得她好多次都差点一口气上不来憋死，只得张开嘴，大口呼吸，但每次吸进的空气好像都只能达到喉咙附近，就不肯往肺部去了，整个胸腔像有块石头梗在那里一样，她惊恐地想：这一定是心肌梗塞，我要死了! 想到死，她不禁悲从中来，我死了，我的孩子也活不成了，我的父母肯定要难受死了，我还这么年轻，就为这事死了，说不定都没人知道我究竟是怎么死的。她的眼泪一下子掉了下来，而一旦哭开了，胸腔反而不那么梗了，但呼吸仍然是浅表式的，吸进的空气总不够她身体的需要，像她每次游蛙泳的时候一样，时间游长一点，就觉得肺部受到水的压力，呼吸不畅，只有翻过身，改成仰泳，让胸部露出水面才能顺畅地呼吸。 卓越一直在旁边作检讨，翻来覆去就是那几句话，无非是“时代”啊，“憋死”啊什么的，还做了很多空前绝后的保证，大意是说他再也不会做这种事了，如果她不相信的话，他马上叫他妈妈把姜阿姨赶回乡下去。 他还为她想了多种惩罚措施，有的算得上匪夷所思，比如叫她砍掉他那玩意等等，但中心思想都是一个：他是爱她的，无论她怎么惩罚他都行，就是不要离开他，不要因为这事影响他们的生活。 后来卓越大概是检讨得饿了，但不敢劳动她去做饭，只好到外面去买吃的。临走的时候，他用她的长丝袜把她的手脚都拴住了，说怕她做出什么傻事来。过了一会，他回来了，拉了一把椅子到床前，把从餐馆买来的饭菜摆在上面，才解开拴她的丝袜，叫她起来吃饭。 她怕饿着了孩子，乖乖地起床来吃饭，但她浑身无力，连碗都端不动，他就喂她吃。吃完了，他把碗筷什么的收到厨房去，扔在那里，又回到卧室来，跟她一起躺在床上。两人或者一声不吭，或者他重复他那一套检讨和保证，而她只无声地啜泣。 那个周末基本都是这样度过的，她不记得吃了几次饭，被捆过几回，又被放开几回，反正次数对她来说也不重要，重要的是什么，她也不知道。 到了星期天晚上，她觉得脑子清醒多了，因为明天要上班了，总不能说就这样在床上躺一辈子吧？她星期五已经旷了大半天工了，难道今后就这么旷下去？她知道卓越星期一也有课，难道他从此以后不上班了，就在家里看管着她？ 她跟卓越说了几句话，意思是她想搬回南一舍去，但她不会把这事告诉任何人，所以请他放她一条生路。她脑子很乱，说得颠颠倒倒的，声音因为哭多了，又因为老没说话，变得非常奇怪，连她自己听着都不象是她自己在说话。 但他听懂了她的意思，反对说：“你现在不能搬出去，你南一舍那边太小了，又没有煤气，什么都做不成，你吃什么？要搬就我搬出去吧--- ” 她没反对，但他又说：“我也没地方去，不如我们还是住这里，你不高兴跟我住一起，我可以在客厅住--- ” 她不同意，执意要搬出去，而且挣扎着起床去收拾东西。他不帮忙，但他也没阻拦，只跟在她身后，不知道是怕她体力不支晕倒时好救助她，还是在监督她，不让她跟外界联系。 等她收好了两个大包之后，他交待说：“我同意你搬出去，是给你一点时间想想，不是允许你长期住外面的，也不许你把这事说出去，不然的话--- ” 她保证说：“我不会说出去的，说出去对我有什么好处？难道能给我脸上增光吗？” 他又交待说：“不许你伤害我的孩子，不然的话--- ” 她又保证说：“你放心，这是你的孩子，也是我的孩子，我不会伤害它的--- ，你也尽快把生育指标的事弄好，不然的话--- ” “生育指标没问题的，我已经给人家说好了。我们尽快把婚礼办了吧， 不然的话--- ” 她差点跳起来，幸好她浑身无力，不然肯定跳得比天花板还高，那就该楼上的人吃亏了，她瞪着他说：“你在说什么？难道你疯了吗？到了这个地步，你还在指望我跟你举行婚礼？” “那你想怎么样？我们已经领了结婚证了，你还想赖帐？”他两道眉毛楞的! 幸好只是两道眉毛，如果是两把剑的话，后果不堪设想。 她一看他楞眉毛，就吓得要命，觉得他的眼神露着凶光，好像能现场把她吃了似的。她硬着头皮说：“我不赖帐，但我可以跟你离婚--- ” “ 没有我同意，你休想离婚! ” “你领结婚证时没我在场，不算! ” “算不算不是你说了算的---" “算不算也不是你说了算的--- ” 他们差点又搞成互扔手雷的阵势，还好，卓越率先换了武器：“没结婚还想要什么生育指标？” 她被打哑了，半天才挤出一句：“反正我不会跟你举行婚礼。” “举行不举行我们都是夫妻。” 她懒得跟他争辩了，说：“你说是什么就什么吧，反正我思想上是不会把我们当夫妻的--- ” 他似乎要发作，但终于忍住了，指着她，抖抖地说：“你---- 你这是要逼死我呀？” “到底是你要逼死我，还是我要逼死你？你把我害到这步田地，你还说我逼死你？” 他冲上来抱住她，嘴里含混地恳求说：“燕儿，燕儿，你别走吧，你原谅我吧，我这么爱面子的人，已经这么低三下四地求你了，你还要怎么样？你还要怎么样？” “你求我什么了？你一直都是在讲狠，威胁我，恐吓我，你这就是求？我没见过这样求人的人--- ” “那你要我怎么求？跪在地上求？只要你发个话，我都做得到，我这就给你跪下--- ”他说着就跪在她面前，抱着她的两腿，头埋在她腿缝里。 她惊呆了，没想到他真能做得出来，她楞在那里，看着他，说不出话来。 他跪了一阵，见她没反应，讪讪地说：“男儿膝下有黄金，我都做到这一步了，你还是不能原谅我，我也没办法了--- ”他爬起来，把她收拾的两大包东西背在肩上，说，“我先把这些送过去，你呆家里乖乖的，别乱来，你答应我了，我就不拴你--- ” 她没好气地说：“我乱来什么？你以为我会为你这种人寻短见？我没那么傻。” 他大概觉得她说的有道理，没再拴她，只把门锁上了。她估计他是想先下手为强，过去给姚小萍打个预防针，把谎撒在前面，免得她到时泄露了他的秘密。她等他去玩鬼把戏，她现在只求能逃离这里就行。 过了一会，他回来了，把煤气灶拆了，说给她带过去做饭用，反正他不会做饭，留着也没用。他下楼的时候，她听见煤气坛在楼梯上磕磕碰碰的声音，想起楼下那两口子搬煤气互相抱怨的情景，想像他到了南一舍那边一个人搬煤气上楼的情景，回想起这几个月的生活，心里有种说不出的滋味。 他返回来的时候，身上搞得脏乎乎的，手上也挂流血了。她不好意思冷眼旁观，上去帮他把手洗干净包扎了一下。 他借机搂住她：“燕儿，你还是心疼我的，你还是爱我的。别走吧，就这样在一起过不好吗？跑到那个破地方去--- ” 她挣脱开：“谢谢你帮我把东西运过去了，你就别过去了吧，我自己骑车走，反正我得把车骑过去--- ” 他没反对，但他跟了下来，骑着摩托跟在她旁边，一直跟到南一舍，又跟到楼上。 姚小萍正在欢天喜地试用煤气灶，见他们两个上来，连声招呼说：“坐一会，坐一会，我下面你们吃--- ” 卓越马上赞成：“好啊，那我就不客气了，刚好肚子饿了--- ”他象到了丈母娘家一样，非常宾至如归，一屁股坐在石燕床上，等姚小萍下面他吃。 石燕赶他：“别坐这里，我要收拾床。” 他挪到姚小萍床上去坐下，石燕又赶他：“别坐姚的床，你身上脏死了--- ” 姚小萍说：“没事，没事，卓老师尽管坐，这里没什么椅子，就坐床吧，要不就坐小凳子--- ” 姚小萍很快就下好了面，三个人同桌开吃。卓越问：“严谨呢？刚才还看见他的--- ” “我把他赶走了--- ” “怎么不留他一起吃面？” “只剩这点面了，他那个大肚汉，不够他吃--- ” 石燕有点内疚，因为她一回来，就得把严谨赶走，但她也没办法，她只有这么一个地方可去。