Chapter 15 Amy: Until Death (8)

Zhuo Zhuo's handsomeness is probably really "appropriate for all ages", even the aunt driving the car in "Dongdongguai" noticed it, came over and asked: "Isn't this the daughter of the old Shi family? Is it Yan'er?" " She nodded and said warmly, "Aunt Wang, are you on duty?" Aunt Wang was talking to Shi Yan, but her eyes were on Zhuo Zhuo.Shi Yan wanted to introduce them, but she didn't know how to introduce, as if she couldn't say the words "my boyfriend".It was Zhuo Zhuo who saw the scene and said, "My name is Zhuo Zhuo, please call me Xiaozhuo."

So Zhuo Wang and the two chatted until it was time to drive, and Aunt Wang returned to the driver's seat.Shi Yan admires Zhuo Zhuo very much in her heart, with such strong social skills, she can get along with everyone, and it seems that she will also coax her parents into a circle. After driving for a while, everyone seemed to be tired of looking at the scenery outside the window, and they all started to sleep, and Zhuo Liang also fell asleep with his head on her shoulder.With this "heavy man" on her shoulders, she couldn't sleep well. She sat there all the time, afraid of waking him up. There was a kind of maternal warmth in her heart, and a kind of pleasure of finally repaying her kindness.He made her face so bright, shouldn't she do something for him?She even thought that in the next few days, she would go out with him to enjoy the cool water by the river every evening. There were many people there, and she would meet many people on the road. If they saw that she brought such an outstanding boyfriend back, they would not know their tongue Stretch it out, can you go back?

It seems that the decision to go home this time is really right. It is very exciting to return home, rehabilitate, counterattack and make a comeback. For the past four years, I have returned in despair, walked in despair, and stayed at home. I don’t want to go out to play, because Others' schools are better than hers, because they all have boyfriends. Even Xiao Tao, who is the ugliest in the class and has the most old-fashioned name, got a boyfriend and brought her back. Anyway, there is one, no matter how powerful you are, if you don't have a boyfriend, everything you say is useless.

She used to naively think that if my school is a prestigious school, I don't care if I have a boyfriend or not.But she later found out that this is not the case. At this age, only those who are not admitted to a prestigious school will care if a girl is at this age. Boyfriend is handsome or not, rich or not, obedient or not.Anyway, it's best to take all of these things, and if it doesn't work, you have to take "obedience" as well.For someone like her who doesn't even have a boyfriend, where else can she go if she doesn't hide at home?Afraid people won't laugh at you?

At that time, she also thought of Huang Hai, but when she saw the posture of her female companions, she didn't want to cause trouble. Everyone would laugh at anyone who looked crooked, and called Huang Hai a "bell tower weirdo"?She remembered that Huang Hai didn't go home for many summer vacations, but stayed in City F to study or conduct social surveys. He only went home during winter vacations, and sometimes came to her house to play, but she never went out with him, and even sent him off. Only sent to the door, afraid that others would mistake him for her boyfriend when they saw them together.

Aunt Wang gave them the treatment of a privileged class and drove the car all the way to Shi Yan's house.The two got out of the car, thanked Aunt Wang, and then walked into the house.Shi Yan's parents and younger brother were all at home. When they heard Shi Yan's voice, they all ran into the living room. When they saw a man standing beside her, they all said as she expected, "Yan'er is back?" They all stood there stunned as if they had seen a ghost. The effect was even more shocking than she had imagined. She suppressed her pride and introduced, "This is my mother, this is my father, and this is my brother---"

She thought that Excellence would call "Uncle, Auntie" according to the current unwritten rules, but she heard Excellence call out crisply: "Dad, Mom, little brother, I'm Excellence, I'm here to disturb you for a few days---" She saw her parents as if they had suffered a stroke, their eyes were staring straight, and their facial muscles were convulsively smiling. It took a long time before she said, "Excellence? Then --- what is your surname?" Before she could answer on her behalf, Zhuo Zhuo replied eloquently, "If your surname is Zhuo, you can call me Xiao Zhuo---"

"Little Zhuo? Please sit down please sit down---" Mom immediately went to work in the kitchen, as if two prisoners released from a starvation prison had come to the house, and they would not stop until a whole table of banquets came out to swell them to death.Dad accompanied him for a few words, and just found out that his son-in-law is a university teacher. Before he had time to admire him, he was sent by his mother to buy vegetables at the vegetable market.The younger brother was also very cooperative, and offered to let Brother Zhuo live in his room, and he came to live in the living room by himself, and even dragged Brother Zhuo to his room to see if he was satisfied.Brother Zhuo was also very polite, saying that he would sleep at night and review the textbooks for the younger brother during the day.

The two brothers soon discussed the matter of registering for the college entrance examination. Zhuo brother talked about the college entrance examination, which was really one set. Brother Shi nodded again and again, his admiration was beyond words. Seeing that Zhuozhuo was so popular with the masses, Shi Yan felt very happy, and just smiled and watched Brother Zhuo and Brother Shi chatting together.It was Zhuoyou who woke up suddenly and said, "I didn't wash my face today, so I blew with you here..." Shi Yan hurried to the bathroom to prepare hot water and asked Zhuo Liang to take a bath.Excellence responded.She closed the door for him, and as soon as she returned to the living room, she heard him calling from inside: "Yan'er---, come here!"

He called "Swallow", which made her heart tremble, and made her feel numb even more than his "Dad, Mom, little brother".He must have heard her parents call her that, and he just learned it, but he learned it very similarly, comparable to her parents, the very authentic "Dongdongguai", which is to put the word "er" very quickly The ground follows "Yan", and "Yan'er" sounds more like "Ye'er". "Ye'er" ran over and asked outside the bathroom door, "What's the matter?" He opened the door a little and asked, "Where's the soap?"

In the curtain of water sprayed from the shower head, she saw a naked man standing in front of her. Although she tried her best to look up at his face, she still saw the guy, with a black and red face, lurking in a large black grass , reminded her of a joke told in the dormitory. It was said that it was a dialect of a certain place, and it was called "district horse and bird black". He also said "District horses and birds are black", and was laughed out of the sky, and asked her how she knew how dark the "bird" was, and the girl knew that this "bird" was not that "bird". She slammed the door shut, as if she was afraid of birds flying out of the grass to peck her, blushed and ran to find a piece of soap, put it by the door, and said, "I put it outside---" He protested, "How can I get it out if you put it outside? Bring it in for me---" He opened the door a crack, and she quickly handed him the soap, turned around and ran away. She went to the kitchen to help, and by the way, she also answered her mother's difficult questions, because she knew that her mother must have a hundred thousand whys waiting to ask her.Sure enough, when her mother saw her coming in, she whispered, "He's taking a bath?" "Ok." "When did you talk about your boyfriend? Why didn't you notify me in advance? Look at me, I didn't expect to have guests at home, dressed so casually, and the house didn't clean up---" She didn't expect that when her mother came up, it was the time issue that caused her the most headache. To be honest, her mother must have been scared to death, so she had to lie and say: "It didn't take long, it was more than a year--" "More than a year? How long have you not talked about it? Why don't you discuss such a big matter with your parents?" She had no choice but to continue beating her swollen face and pretending to be fat: "I haven't decided anything, what should I discuss with you? I have always been --- not so sure about it, this time it was him --- ran to the train, and I took it with me. When he came back--- he didn't even bring a change of clothes, he just bought them in the county---" Seeing the intoxicated look on her mother's face, she was probably proud of her daughter's infinite charm, making such an outstanding boyfriend upside down, and galloping after the train on horseback.The two mothers and daughters had a spy-like exchange on issues of concern to each other, fearing that Zhuo Liang in the bathroom and the younger brother in the living room would hear them, they used some coded expressions and some elliptical sentences. When her mother heard about her excellent work and academic achievements, the expression on her face became even more intoxicated. She seemed to want to hold the wedding now, and told her: "He is a university teacher, and he is older than you. He is more mature than you in every aspect, you should listen to him more in the future---" On the first day when the hairy-legged son-in-law came to the house, besides eating, he only slept. Because he didn't sleep well in the car and the weather was so hot, he didn't dare to go out at all, so he could only stay in the house.At night, Shi Yan wanted to ask Zhuoyue to go to the river to enjoy the shade, but he said he was too tired and wanted to sleep, so they didn't go out, and went to sleep after watching TV for a while. The next day, Shi Yan's parents both went to work, and the younger brother also went to school for the college entrance examination tutoring class. The two of them were left at home, had a casual breakfast, and then went outside to the vegetable market to buy vegetables.Needless to say, Zhuo Zhuo is so gorgeous that the sisters-in-law who sell vegetables all go out on him with knife-like eyes while selling vegetables.He seemed to be completely unaware of this group of throwing knives, or he was aware of it but remained calm, and he was so cool that it made people goug him more and more. After buying vegetables and returning home, the clothes of both of them were wet with sweat. He suggested: "Take a cold shower, or you won't be able to dry your sweat." After that, he dragged her to the bathroom.She struggled and refused to go, insisting: "Let's wash them one by one, the bathroom is too small---" He smiled, and went into the bathroom first, without closing the door, he turned on the faucet and flushed it. She saw that the water was sprayed outside, and she was afraid that it would wet the floor and make people slip, so she had to close it for him. .He caught her in at once, and in spite of her loud protests, he came to strip her clothes.She was soaked all over at once, and half of her clothes were stripped off by him, so she stopped resisting and asked him to strip off her clothes.He hastily washed her a few times, then turned off the water, and without any clothes on, he dragged her to her room, closed and tied the door, and carried her to the bed. She closed her eyes shyly, not daring to look at him, and she didn't know what he was going to do, but she was just curious and didn't intend to stop him.Both of them have reached this point, so what are they doing coddling?She felt that he opened her legs and opened her place with his hands, but nothing happened.She opened her eyes and saw that he was looking at that place with concentration, she asked curiously: "What are you looking at?" He let go of his hand and said, "I didn't see anything, you are still a girl with yellow flowers." She was a little angry, so he was watching this?Why, I'm afraid she's not a girl with yellow flowers, so I'll check first?She asked in a muffled voice, "So what if it is? So what if it's not?" "It's nothing, just be careful, if not, you don't have to be so careful---" "Watch out for what?" He smiled: "Of course you are careful about your hymen, should you still be careful about me? I have nothing to be careful about---. Don't worry, I won't break your hymen before the wedding day---" She was confused and didn't know what he meant. It sounded like he planned to marry her, and he wouldn't break her place until the wedding day. She didn't know if he was lying to her. Did he use Won't the fingers break? As if he could hear what she was thinking, he promised: "Don't worry, I only used one finger, and one finger will not be broken," he said, taking the middle finger of his right hand to follow her. Another "finger" compares, "Look, this one is much thicker than this one---" Shi Yan didn't understand what benefit Zhuoyue did to himself, would it make him "comfortable"?Obviously not.Does this mean that he loves her very much?In order to protect her hymen, he sacrificed himself, he didn't even do what men want most, and he only wanted to make her comfortable, so he loved her very much, right? She was very grateful and felt sorry for him, so she whispered: "Since this is the case, then let's not do these things until the day we get married---" But he disapproves: "Who's that stupid? It's too early to get married---" She didn't understand why it was so early to get married. He called him "Dad, Mom, and younger brother", so it was considered a family?Besides, he is not young anymore, and she has also graduated, so what else is he waiting for?But she didn't ask these questions, and felt that now was not the time to talk about these things, and she was not the one to mention them. This should be something the man should be eager to take the initiative to do.According to the customs in her hometown, the man would not ask for marriage repeatedly, and the woman would not agree to the marriage proposal. His mind at the moment was obviously not on marriage, he didn't mention the matter of marriage anymore, he just held her breasts with one hand and rubbed them.She felt a throbbing, the tingling feeling spread all over her body, she closed her eyes, ready to concentrate on enjoying the pleasure, but he let it go quickly and said, "Your dick won't grow much, it's just like this- -- " She thought for a while before she understood what he was talking about, and asked curiously, "Why?" "Because you don't have that hard lump inside. If there is one, it means it can still grow. If it doesn't, it won't grow—" She hadn't heard of this before, and she didn't know whether it was science or superstition. She asked, "I -- am I -- here -- small?" "still alright--- " She felt that he was reluctant to say "it's okay", and he must think her breasts were small in his heart.This feeling was confirmed quickly, because he quickly ignored it and moved to touching between her legs.She was very unhappy, why is he so --- disregarding his feelings, just saying that she has small breasts in front of her like this?Not even pretending to be one?She didn't understand why he was so social outside, and why he would talk nonsense at such a moment. When he touched the place, he wanted to drill in, but her place was very dry, and his movements made her very uncomfortable, and she refused, "No, it hurts---" He didn't seem to believe it, so he tried a few more times, each time making her hiss in pain, so he had to give up and said, "Why are you getting more and more regressive? When I was in the car that day, it was pretty good at first." Well, it was later --- there was no water ---, today it was fine, even at the beginning ---" She wanted to say, I am not a well, where can there be so much water?But she didn't say that she didn't want to quarrel with him, especially over these unnecessary things. If he got angry and ran away from here, her parents would be in a panic.Now the whole "Dongdongguai" knows that she has an excellent boyfriend, and they must be jealous of her, hoping that the two of them will blow it off, so for the sake of the people of "Dongdongguai", we must not blow it up with him now Lose. But even if she returned to D City, could she blow him off?No matter where you blow it, your parents will know it, and the "Dongdongguai" people will know it after all, because you have no one to bring back during the Spring Festival, everyone will know that you and your boyfriend blow it off, and because he is so good, People will say that he doesn't want you, not that you don't want him.She knew that these were all vanity, but she didn't even have vanity, so where would she have real pride? She was sad about her vanity there, and she heard him say: "You didn't want to come, don't blame me for not caring about you. Now it's your turn to help me." She didn't know what he was talking about, but seeing him lying flat on the bed, he took her hand and asked her to hold the guy with the black and red face, and told her, "Don't hold it too tightly, it will hurt if you hold it too tight." Yes, it will also strain the soft tissue. Hold it lightly, like a hollow fist. Okay, that's it, move up and down---" She was held by him, so she had no choice but to slide up and down with his hand. After a while, she felt that her wrist was sore, she barely held on for a while, and said for mercy: "My wrist hurts---" "You only moved for a short while, and your wrist hurts? Think about how long I moved that day---" She thought about it too, maybe she was too delicate, so she begged: "Then let me change hands---" So she alternated left and right like this, and he didn't know how long she had been working, but he didn't mean to stop, just closed her eyes, and seemed quite comfortable.She couldn't help asking: "How long will it be done?" "You'll know when the time comes." She persisted for a while, feeling that the future was bleak, and she hoped for "the time" like the poor people hope for liberation.He seemed to read her mind, and said, "Maybe it won't work with your hands, but with your mouth, remember not to bite---" She was stunned and asked her to touch that place with her mouth?That's disgusting.He was pulling her head but she was holding back from the place and said "wait a minute I need to go to the bathroom" and she broke free from him and ran out of the room to the bathroom and closed the door .She was afraid that he would come after him, but he didn't.She stayed in the bathroom for a while, then came out quietly, and saw that he was no longer in her room. She was afraid that he would run away in anger, but when she saw the door of his room was closed, she knew that he hadn't left, but returned to her The room, I probably settled it myself.She felt relieved, ran into her room, put on her clothes, closed the door, and tied it. But she's worried that he'll be mad about it, maybe she should give in to his request?But she really thought that was disgusting.What if he was not satisfied and ran away in anger?She was at a loss, and her only thought was that she shouldn't have brought him home, that the "Dongdongguai" people should not have known that she had a boyfriend, and that she had never had one before. Or focus on learning; if you have done it and blow it up, it would be a shame. She thought of how happy and proud her parents were when they saw that she had a boyfriend. One could imagine that although they hadn't said anything or urged her to do anything these past few years, they were all very anxious and probably a little desperate for her. , I didn't expect her to find any great person back.If they just let them think like this, maybe it would be better. Anyway, they have been hurt for four years, anxious for four years, and it’s okay to be sad for a few more days. In the future, she will find anyone who she wants, and they will be happy. It’s better than nothing. powerful. But now she has raised their expectations so high that she has already lifted them to a high scaffold. If the lower shelf is suddenly pulled, the people above will definitely fall to their deaths. The more she thought about it, the more desperate she became, and she began to cry.After crying for a while, I felt that I was making a fuss over a molehill, and I didn't know if he was angry or not, so I started crying first, which was useless. Zhuo Zhuo didn't come to her that day. At noon, she went to wake him up for dinner, but he didn't hear an answer after calling twice. She was afraid that he was sleeping, so she didn't dare to shout loudly.In the afternoon, when she saw that her parents were coming back soon, she wanted to make a good relationship with Zhuoyue before they went home, lest her parents would become suspicious if he stayed in the room for a while. She went to the door of his room and stood there listening for a while, but she didn't hear anything, so she boldly knocked on the door, and heard him say: "The door is not locked---" She opened the door and walked in, and saw him lying on the bed, silent.She walked to the bed and asked, "Are you feeling unwell?" "Are you ashamed to ask? You're going to kill me---" "How did I fix you?" "Bring it up, get it up and be irresponsible---" "Who did I get up?" She immediately understood who he was talking about, and murmured, "It's not me---" "Who else could it be if it wasn't you? That's why I've been avoiding meeting you, knowing it would end like this—" When she heard him say this, she was moved in her heart. It turned out that it was because of this that he avoided her during this period of time?Does this mean that he still loves her very much?Love too much, love to hide, at least it shows that she is very sexually attractive to him, because she can make him impulsive.Seeing him lying there like a seriously ill patient, she felt a surge of tenderness in her heart, walked up to him, sat beside his bed, and asked softly, "Then are you well now?" He said coquettishly, "What's wrong? It's been a long time------" She was terrified: "What's going on? How does it --- hurt? Where --- hurts?" He grabbed her and pulled her hand there: "Where else can it hurt? Of course it hurts here---" It felt a little half soft and half hard there, but under the touch of her hand, it soon began to grow stronger. She hurriedly took it away and asked, "Why does it hurt?" "Because --- if it doesn't work, it hurts if it doesn't work ---" She asked shyly, "But you boys---can't you solve it by yourself?" He said a little depressed: "But I can't, no matter how I do it myself--- I can't ejaculate---" When she heard the last few words, she found it very harsh. Although she knew that it was the word, she still couldn't accept it coming from his mouth. She would rather he use something else instead, just say "that and that" It's better than saying it outright.But he didn't seem to feel anything, and continued: "Maybe it's because I messed up too much when I was a child, and I don't feel much about myself---" "You did this when you were a kid?" "Who doesn't do it? Boys do it. I've known it since I was very young. I was quite afraid at first, but then I saw a book saying that doing it properly is harmless, so I did it boldly---" She felt that it was difficult for him. He would be impulsive when he was with her, but they were not at that level at that time, and he didn't dare to ask her for help, so he had to avoid her.Then he served her so diligently in the car this time, he must have wanted to make her "comfortable" first, and when she was extremely comfortable, she would be willing to help him.In fact, he might as well tell her the truth earlier, then she will be willing to help him no matter whether she is comfortable or not. She made a wish: "It's too late now, my parents are coming back, but at night---we can go to the river---" After she finished speaking, she blushed and ran to the kitchen to make dinner.When eating at night, Zhuo Liang came out of the room, his complexion was not very good, and he ate very little, probably feeling very uncomfortable.She looked at him very tenderly, hoping that her eyes could make him think of her promise, and that her promise could give him a little bit of wishful thinking and quench his thirst. (Admonition everyone: This episode may have some descriptions that make you unhappy, readers who don’t want to spoil the holiday mood, please read it after the holiday) When they were having dinner, Shi Yan's parents immediately saw that the hairy-footed son-in-law's expression was not right, and they were terrified, thinking that they had failed to entertain him somewhere, and had neglected this fast-paced son-in-law.Mother asked carefully: "Xiao Zhuo, do you have a cold?" Joyoung lazily replied: "I don't have a cold---" Dad said: "I'm afraid it's heatstroke? Don't go shopping under the sun in the future. I will take time out to buy vegetables after get off work. It's okay to go shopping after work. Seasonal vegetables may not be available if they go late. But the general dishes can be bought---" Zhuoyou didn't say a word, Shi Yan replied instead: "He's fine, don't worry---" After eating, Zhuo Liang left the table, and when he walked, his waist was arched, and his legs seemed to be a little out of place, which made the mother ask her daughter in a low voice, "Is it a herniated lumbar intervertebral disc?" Shi Yan couldn't laugh or cry, and couldn't tell her mother that the lumbar disc in front was herniated, so she just said vaguely, "No, no, don't worry", then hurriedly put away the table and picked up the bowls, and took them to the kitchen sink to wash.Mom came up to stop her and said, "Let me wash it, you can ask Xiao Zhuo if he wants to go to the hospital---" "No, he'll be fine in a while—" When the dishes and chopsticks were packed, Shi Yan said to her mother, "Let's go out to enjoy the shade", and went to Zhuo Zhuo's room to find him.Seeing him lying on the bed again, she walked over, stood by the bed, and asked, "Can you walk? If you can, let's go to the river to play---" He didn't object, got up, and walked out with her still in that "lumbar disc herniation" posture.She was afraid that someone outside would see the flaw, so she asked worriedly: "Can you --- can you go as --- as if nothing happened? I'm afraid that others will --- see ---" He was a little impatient: "you think I like this?" She didn't dare to say any more, because she felt that she was too concerned about face and was too inconsiderate of him. He was always handsome and unrestrained, and he would not walk in such an ugly posture unless he had to.She wanted to put herself in her shoes and imagine what would happen if this happened to her, but she couldn't think of it.She hasn't done these things for so many years, and it seems that she has never felt pain.Why are men like this?Is it like this for every man, or is it just for Excellence?In her impression, she didn't seem to have seen any man walking like this, but that may be because she didn't know about it before, so she didn't pay attention, but now it's different, she has opened her eyes, and from now on, as long as she sees walking like this again man, you know what's going on. She chose a less lively road to walk to the river. The road was fine, and she didn't meet any people who "inquired about" or "little radio", but there were many people by the river. Well, it was still broad daylight, and there was no suitable place to do that.She said apologetically, "It doesn't seem to work here, too many people---" He asked, "Where else can I go? Is there a hotel or something here?" She thought it was a bit exaggerated to think that she had to go to a hotel next to her home, and the hotel was not close.She shook her head and said, "There is one, but it's too far—" He didn't mention the hotel anymore, just squatted on the ground, staring at the river in a daze.She also squatted down beside him and asked, "Is it very painful?" "It's useless for you to ask, you can't understand it. You women are born to be evil spirits. You have made men like this, but you have nothing to do---" She asked a little curiously: "Then when you were with your girlfriend before---was it the same?" He curled his lips in disdain: "You think I'm a boar in heat?" She pondered this for a while, and thought it was a good sentence. He is not a boar in heat, or he does not treat any girl like this, which means that he treats her differently. Maybe it's love?The love of men is different from that of girls. Girls only need to be together, while men require a certain way of "together".It's really terrible now, she also has a new understanding of "together", and maybe she will not be able to think about it when she hears the word "together" in the future. But her heart was full of pride, proud of her great charm, and soon turned her pride into sympathy and pity for him. She suggested: "Let's walk along this river bank and see if there is any place that compares with him." --- nobody's ---" He stood up slowly and followed her along the bank.As she walked, she looked around to see if there was any place to hide from other people's eyes, but it was too early, and there were no trees by the river, and the river bank was like a flat river, and she could see who was doing what a few miles away. After walking for a while, he refused to leave, squatting on the ground, staring at the river in a daze.She had no choice but to squat down on the ground and stare blankly with him.After squatting for a while, I couldn't squat anymore, so I took off the insoles on the ground and sat on the shoes.He also took off the insoles on the ground and sat on the shoes.The ground is very hot, even though the shoes are cushioned, you can still feel the coaxing heat. She saw a pair of lovers by the river, all cuddling each other, and wanted to cuddle with him very much, so she leaned towards him and took his hand to play with.But he quickly withdrew his hand, moved aside, and said, "It's still like this? Didn't you see that I was suffering to death?" She was embarrassed for a while, and then a little proud, so I have such a great charm?Touching hands and rubbing shoulders can make him feel bad?She had no choice but to keep a little distance from him, and found a few topics to talk about, but he was not interested. In the end, she didn't say a word, just sat there and waited for the dark, and she had a strange feeling in her heart, why people always say "falling in love" ?It seems that it has nothing to do with "talking". After finally waiting until it was dark, he pulled her over, grabbed her hand, and stuffed it into the opening of the zipper he had opened, but as soon as she touched it, he hissed, as if it hurt.Terrified, she asked; "Did I hurt you?" He said righteously: "It's nothing, the main thing is that the two fruits hurt, just be careful not to touch them, but don't be afraid, it doesn't matter if you touch them, it hurts a little, but it hurts even more if you don't let it out---" When she heard the word "let it out", for some reason, she remembered that when she was a child, she had a boil on her head, and her mother used a needle to open the head of the boil, saying that the boil would not heal unless the pus inside was "released".But her boil will be completely healed if it is opened, but his boil may relapse, if it is opened today, it will be cured, and pus will grow again tomorrow, so she has to pick it again, giving her a feeling that there is a long way to go. It seems that love is not only an emotional problem for men, but also a pathological problem. No wonder the husbands of the girls in the class either don’t come, and when they come, they arrest their wives and take them to that simple guest house.The man's area is a lesion, which keeps producing pus, and the woman is the predisposing factor. The man brings a pack of pus to see the woman, and as soon as he touches the woman, the lesion becomes worse and becomes inflamed, so he has to use the woman to squeeze the pus.But women are not fuel-efficient lamps. If you want me to squeeze pus for you, you have to pay a handling fee. Since most women ask for the payment method of "love", men have to put the few money in their pockets. The love bills were brought out to pay. This is Yao Xiaoping's dialectical method of "the one in the front and the one in the back". In fact, it doesn't matter before and after, it's just a matter of bartering.Perhaps in terms of time, it happened that the man in front paid the love, and the woman in the back paid the sex, so it became what Yao Xiaoping said, "the one in the front, the one in the back". It is impossible to truly understand the truth of this proposition just by listening to Yao Xiaoping's words. Only by experiencing it personally can one truly understand the meaning of this sentence.When she looks at those couples now, she can see the essence through the phenomenon, from the back to the front.Those couples looked like they were leaning on each other and talking about love from the back, but they must be the same from the front. The female lover's hand was stretching into the male lover's zipper opening, busy squeezing boils! Her right hand soon became sore and painful, so she switched to her left hand, but she sat on the right side of Zhuoyou, and it was very inconvenient to use her left hand, and it was not easy to get up and run to the other side, so she had to switch back to her right hand, but after a while After a while, my hand became sore again, so I had to switch to my left hand again.She found that the other female lovers didn't seem to be as exaggerated as her. They just sat there, and they could maintain a posture for a long time. In the arms --- that is using the right hand, and then sitting facing forward --- that is using the left hand. She didn't know whether it was the girls who were not squeezing the boils, or whether their wrists were tough enough not to ache as easily as hers.She thinks it's mostly the latter, and it's likely that they have a long history of squeezing boils and have worked out.These things can definitely be exercised, just like running. It takes a lot of effort to run a lap at the beginning, but if you run every day and keep running, you will run more and more easily, and you will be able to run many laps slowly. So she thought about the future, wondering if he would meet her often after returning to D City?After this period, he should know that she loves him and is willing to do these things for him, then won't he avoid her?He has his own unit, where no one disturbs them, and they can do whatever they want, so he doesn't have to avoid her?But she thought that the two of them would do this together in the future, and she felt very boring.I just hope that she squeezes out his pus, and he will have the heart to fall in love. She was just thinking wildly about squeezing his boils. She didn't know how long she squeezed, but she knew that the sky was getting darker and darker, and finally it was dark.He whispered, "Use your mouth, or you won't be able to ejaculate---" She can't wait to beg him to stop using the word "shot". For some reason, every time he says this word, it makes her feel sick. Although she knows that he is just telling the truth and doesn't use any dirty words, but She just doesn't like to hear that word. She looked around, but there was no one around, so she bent down obediently and touched his place with her mouth. She didn't feel any particularly unpleasant smell, but it was definitely not as delicious as milk popsicles, and she couldn't tell what it was like. Well, she has seen, eaten, and touched things in her life, and there is nothing that can be used to describe that thing, which shows that it is unique. He taught her little by little: "Hold it, lick the front with your tongue, yes--- yes--- that's there--- do you feel that little hole? Yes--- that's there--- oh--- - so comfortable---" She knew what the "small hole" was for, and she couldn't help but feel a little disgusted, but she still felt a little sense of accomplishment when she heard him whisper "Ooh", but she didn't like the tone of his commanding her, as if she It's just a tool, not a person he loves. She said to herself, don't complain, the most important thing is to squeeze the boil, otherwise, he has no intention of falling in love at all. Thinking of this, she felt motivated, squeezed, Squeeze, squeeze hard, squeeze out the pus, and he will be interested in falling in love. He kept teaching her how to squeeze, sometimes telling her to suck, sometimes to lick, sometimes to make her deep, sometimes to make her shallow.Later, maybe because she felt that she could not understand his will, she simply started to do it herself.His hand is like a driver, driving her "pus squeezer". When he told her to be deep, he pressed her head hard, and when he told her to go fast, he kept pushing and pressing alternately. Later, she no longer needed to do it.什么了，都是他在操纵，她只是提供一个口腔，用来容纳那个玩意，给她的感觉是，主要是他的脊椎骨不够柔软，他自己的嘴够不着他那玩意，如果够得着，还不如用他自己的嘴，因为他最清楚什么时候该快，什么时候该慢，什么时候该深，什么时候该浅。 她突然想起小时候看到过的一幕，一个痴呆儿，不知道怎么得罪了几个以爱打架出名的青工，被他们几个抓住，按住了头让他吃地上的泥巴，那个痴呆儿一次次地挣扎着把头抬起来，那几个坏蛋一次次地把痴呆儿的头按下去。虽然那事跟眼前这事性质完全不一样，但不知怎么的，一经想起，那个画面就在她脑海里扎个根， 抹也抹不掉了。 她的头被他提起按下，她的喉咙被顶得想吐，由于一直张着嘴，没机会吞咽，口水也开始往外流，脖子也低疼了，她知道自己现在的样子一定是要多狼狈有多狼狈，要多低贱有多低贱，眼泪不由自主地流了出来。 他疯狂了一阵，终于大功告成，他没再提她的头了，而是使劲按在那里，让她差点喘不过气来，胃里一阵阵痉挛，呕吐感越来越强，然后她感到那玩意在她嘴里跳动，有什么东西喷进了她嘴里，她知道那是她为之奋战了半天的那包脓，她一阵恶心，不知道哪里来的一股力量，猛地挣脱了他，往河底方向冲去，边跑边呕，还没到水边，就已经把晚饭全都吐出来了。 她踉踉跄跄地来到水边，掬水漱口，漱了无数遍，才觉得止住了恶心。她回头看了看他们刚才坐过的地方，吃惊地发现他已经不在那里了，她一下就慌了，难道他发现她在呕吐，生气了？跑掉了？还是她没完成任务，断在关键时刻，酿成大祸，他已经死掉了？ 石燕慌慌张张地爬上河坡，发现卓越还在那里，只不过是长条条地躺在地上，所以她从河底看不见。她用手在他鼻子那里试了一下，还有气，没死，她长舒一口气，放了心。她想对他声明一下，说她不是因为对他心理上反感才呕吐的，而是他那个玩意伸到她喉咙那里产生的生理反应，就像有人用手指挖自己喉咙会引起呕吐一样，跟喜欢不喜欢手指没关系的。但她决定还是先别无事生非，也许他根本没看见她呕吐，何必要多此一举？ 他肯定是没看见，因为他并没有不快的样子，而是抓住她的手，问：“你到哪里去了？” 她觉得他的腔调有点半死不活的，忙问：“你还好吧？你没事吧？” “没事，就是很累，不过是那种舒服之后的累--- ” “你怎么睡这里了？地上多脏啊，再说又晒得热哄哄的，睡了背上会长疮的--- ” 他懒懒地坐起来，说：“把你的腿借我躺会。” 她在他旁边坐下，还是坐在自己的鞋上，他仰倒在她怀里，上半身让她抱着，下半身还坐在他的鞋上，曲起双腿。皎洁的月光照在他右边脸上，左边遮在暗影里，半明半暗，脸上高的地方越显其高，低的地方更见其低，有种雕塑般的效果，她觉得他英俊极了，便用手去描摹他脸部的轮廓。他一动不动的，不知道是在享受她的描摩，还是睡着了。 她就这样抱着他坐了很久，一直坐到别的情侣都离去了，她才摇摇他，说：“我们也回去吧。” 他仿佛大梦初醒，说：“啊？不早了吧？刚才睡着了，今天终于睡了个好觉。” “难道你昨晚没睡好？” “没有，很久都没睡好了--- ” “为什么很久都没睡好了？” “想你呀--- ” “你想我为什么不来找我？” “不想搞成这样--- ” 她的自豪感油然而生，而且不由自主地要把他那个前任女朋友拖出来做陪衬，好像只有通过比较才能有鉴别一样：“但是你说你跟以前那个女朋友不是这样的--- ” 他笑了一下：“知道你会对这事念念不忘，耿耿于怀。女人就是小心眼，你看我就不过问你以前的事，不管你以前爱过谁，跟谁做过什么，都不关我的事，只要你不是跟我在一起的时候又跟别的男人好，我都不过问。” 她不好意思地说：“我没有耿耿于怀，只是随便问问--- ” “你不用为她耿耿于怀的，我根本不爱她，从来没爱过--- ” 这话听着舒服，但需要再砸落实一把：“那你怎么还为她回到D 市来？” 他“切”地一笑：“我为她回到D 市来？你听谁说的？我是那种把女人当整个世界的人吗？别把我说得那么胸无大志，好不好？我回D 市之前，认都不认识她--- ” 这话让她高兴了一阵，因为他不是为前任女朋友回来的，她心里的那个大包就消除了，但他说他不会把女人当整个世界，又让她有点不舒服，虽然她知道男人不应该把女人当整个世界，不然的话，干不出事业来，但是她还是希望他是把她当整个世界的，然后再由她来劝说他要胸有大志，主动要求他别把她当整个世界，而他为了她才不得不胸有大志，才勉勉强强不把她当整个世界，并因此干成一番大事，那样的话，双方感觉都会比较好一些。 但显然不能对他这样说，这种事，讲的就是自觉自愿，说穿了就不稀奇了。她觉得他的苗头还是很好的，是朝着把她当整个世界的方向发展的，现在他心理上可能还没有把她当整个世界，但他生理上可以说是把她当整个世界了。男人不是很受生理支配的吗？所以应该先把他的生理搞清楚。 她问：“那你们是--- 别人介绍的？” “也算是吧--- ” “她是不是很漂亮？” “很性感，胸很高，屁股很大，打扮得很妖冶--- ” 她嫉妒地说：“那不是应该--- 很令你--- 激动吗？” 他做了个鬼脸：“刚开始是，但是一旦了解了她的为人，就不喜欢她了，看见她就烦。我是个很注重精神享受的人，我心里不喜欢的人，不论她长什么样，我的身体都对她没反应。” “那她--- 为人怎么样？为什么你一了解她的为人就不喜欢她了？” “她很庸俗，势利，没什么知识，只知道逛街，买衣服，要钱花，打着我父母的旗号招摇撞骗，我们没一点共同语言，我妈我妹妹都不喜欢她--- ” “那你怎么会爱上她？” “我已经说了，我从来没爱过她--- ” “但是你为什么会跟她--- 谈恋爱呢？” “我不是已经说了吗？她长得很性感--- ” “不是说连结婚证都领了吗？” “领结婚证只是为了分房--- ” 为分房就领结婚证，似乎有点太实用主义了，但比起为了爱情领结婚证，还是让她心里好过一些。她问：“可是你们连家俱都打了--- ” “家俱嘛，总是要打的，跟谁结婚都得打家俱，正好那时家里有点木料，就把家俱打了--- ” 她心里有点不舒服，听他的意思，他以后结婚是不会打新家俱的了，就用他那套旧家俱，那象什么？跟谁结婚都是这套家俱对付？她旁敲侧击地问：“那你--- 以后结婚的话，就不打新家俱了？” 他笑着说：“别操这些心了，一套家俱算个什么？我早就嫌那套家俱式样不新潮了，所以都懒得搬到我那套房子去。你放心，你要什么样的家俱我给你打什么样的家俱--- ” 她很开心，嘴里客气说：“我又没说要你给我打新家俱，我是说如果你以后跟别人结婚的话--- ” “我跟哪个别人结婚？” "how could I know?" “你不准备跟我结婚的？” 她更开心了，但觉得他这还不能算求婚，便不回答他的话。他坐起来，反客为主，把她放倒在他怀里，手伸进衣服去摸她，边摸边问：“跟不跟我结婚？跟不跟我结婚？” 她被他摸得浑身发软，但她还是不说“跟”，因为这仍然不算求婚。他一边摸一边自言自语般地说：“真的是很奇怪，你胸又不高，屁股又不大，为什么我就偏偏对你有反应呢？” 这话听着滋润! 她觉得自己现在像个公主一样，正被白马王子崇拜着，她鼓励地问：“为什么？” “我就是不知道才问你呀--- ”他想了一会，说，“可能是因为你很纯洁，很天真，很可爱，你不势利，也不庸俗--- ” 王子这几把粉把公主扑得满脸白乎乎的，她昏头昏脑的，自己都觉得自己的形像越长越高，快要摸不着自己的头了。他的手已经从胸前移到她裙子底下去了，但她没反对，只觉得浑身都是软软的，又胀胀的，似乎对他的手非常欢迎。 他伸手在那里探了一下，欣喜地说：“好多水啊! 今天肯定能成功了! ”他很顺利地就把手指伸了进去，低声问她，“为什么今天这么多水？” “不知道，可能是因为你--- 说的-- 那些话--- ” “我说的哪些话？” 她觉得如果重复他那些话就成了自我吹嘘了，所以她不回答，只紧闭着眼睛，想像他自从认识她之后，就每夜每夜睡不好，在床上辗转反侧，想像他为她受着苦，渴望见她，又不敢跟她在一起，回想他那次在火车站当着那么多人的面搂住她，让旁边那些人羡慕得流口水，然后他在车上吻她，还说“你真可爱”。她把这几个她最喜欢的感人场面都集中在脑海里连番播出，播得她身体那么软软的，心里那么甜甜的，人象浮在波浪上一样，头发晕，人发飘，身体里的热浪一阵高过一阵，大有山洪即将爆发之势。 在一片晕乎之中，她忘了矜持，忘了害羞，向他张开嘴，请求他来吻她。他开始没看见，但她唔唔着，哼哼着，他终于看见了，俯下头来，吻住了她。他的舌头用跟他手指相同的节律运动着，她感觉上下两边像有人在挖地道一样，一下比一下地更接近挖通的那一刻，两边的热浪在向着一个地方冲击，两边的热流在向着一个地方奔涌。她吸住他的舌头，贪婪地吮吸，而她那个隐秘的地方似乎受了她吮吸的提示，也起了一种类似吮吸的律动，一种她从来没体验过的快感传遍全身，她放开他的舌头，快乐地哭了起来。 他笑了一下，说：“真是个哭包，舒服也是哭，不舒服也是哭，我今天让你哭个够--- ” 石燕后来又“哭”了几次，不过后面的“哭”就只是一个委婉的说法了，因为她并没哭，只“伊伊我我”地哼叽。每次她一哼叽，卓越便在一旁得意：“你们女人的这种哼叽，就是对男人的最高赞美，因为那是她快乐之极的时候才会发出来的声音，没有让女人这样哼叽过的男人，根本不能算男人--- ” 她听他这样说，也就不怕他笑话她的哼叽了，想哼就哼，不想哼也哼。到最后她实在没得哼了，他也感觉到了，便把手指抽了出来，伸到她眼前，调侃说：“看，全都泡肿了--- ” 她羞得紧闭着眼不理他，他用她的裙子擦了一把手，佯作抱怨说：“夹得真紧，指头都差点被你咬断了--- ” 她擂了他一拳，嗔怪说：“你不说这样的话行不行？我看你在人前不知道多会说话，怎么一到我面前就瞎说？” “我在你面前不瞎说，那我在谁面前瞎说？亲者严，疏者宽，你没听说过？” 她总觉得这话什么地方有毛病，但是她说不出是什么毛病。她对他的很多话都是这个感觉，听起来不顺耳，但就是不知道错在哪里，最后就归结于自己的耳朵有毛病。 他问：“舒服不舒服？”她不回答，因为这句也属于“瞎说”系列。 他又问：“你以前肯定没有过这么强烈的高潮吧？有过没有？” 这句属于“更瞎说”系列，她也不回答，但他一直追问，把她问恼了，抢白他一句：“你知道我是黄花闺女，还问这样的话？” 他不以为然：“黄花闺女怎么啦？黄花闺女就不能享受性快乐了？只有那些傻瓜男人才会坏了人家黄花闺女的招牌又不能给人家带来快乐。像我这样的，既能给你带来快乐，又不会坏你黄花闺女的招牌--- 。再说你们黄花闺女不是还可以自力更生吗？我这么粗的手指都没弄破，你们那么细的手指就更不会弄破了--- ” 她又擂他一拳：“你怎么越来越瞎说了？谁那么无聊-- ” “这怎么是无聊呢？性快乐是每个正常人的正常享受，不知道享受的是白痴，不敢享受的是白活--- 。你们即使不把手指伸进去，在外面总还是有过的吧？弗洛伊德不是说了吗，女孩子从小就知道享受性快乐，知道刺激阴蒂可以得到高潮，所以她们总爱坐在楼梯上滑呀，骑木马呀，骑自行车啊什么什么的--- ” 她听得汗毛倒立，这个弗洛伊德是不是有毛病？怎么骑木马骑自行车也成了追求性快乐了？谁小时候没骑过木马？谁大了没骑过自行车？难道都是为了那事？她没把这话说出来，一是弗洛伊德的名字太如雷贯耳了，二是因为她也不知道别人是不是这样，只能说她在此之前并不知道什么高潮不高潮，但是也许别人知道呢？也许别人骑木马骑自行车真的是为了这事呢？她一个人不能代表全体女性，所以还是少说为妙。 他接着进行知识讲座：“据弗洛伊德说，女孩的高潮大多是阴蒂高潮，要等到成了妇人，才会慢慢品尝到阴道高潮--- 。你肯定有过阴蒂高潮，但是阴道高潮你这肯定还是第一次，不然不会这么强烈--- ” 他虽然是引用名人的话，说话的态度也很科学技术，但还是把她的鸡皮疙瘩听得撒了满地，不由得伸手去捂他的嘴：“别说这些乱七八糟的东西了--- ” “怎么是乱七八糟的东西呢？都是权威理论，印成了书，译成了多种文字的，不知道的人肯定是不爱看书的人，才会那么孤陋寡闻。我是认真看了的，所以我特别了解你们女孩子的性心理，比你们自己还了解--- ”他拨开她的手，捏住了，不让她捂他的嘴，追问道，“我说得对不对？” “不对! ” “什么不对？” “全都不对! ” 他不追问了，只得胜地笑：“越否认就越证明我说得对，现在你已经品尝过阴道高潮了，就不会满足于阴蒂高潮了。这是女孩子的特点，刚开始，没经过开发，不知道个中滋味，自己摸两下，就以为到了极乐世界了，在男人面前就扭扭捏捏的，甚至有点抗拒。等到男人给你们带来几次真正的高潮，你们就上瘾了，就越来越贪婪，就离不了男人了。我会让你上瘾的，会让你离不了我的，你信不信？ --- ” 她嘲笑说：“你不是说女孩子能自力更生的吗？为什么我会离不了你？” 他把她的手拿起来跟自己的合在一起比，说：“你的手指没我的长，再说自己的手怎么比得上别人的手呢？尤其是异性的手。人人都有一双手，但为什么人人都要找异性朋友呢？” 她从来没想过这就是找异性朋友的原因，照这么说，找对象不用看脸长得怎么样，也不用看人品，就看手指长不长就行了。 他好像猜出她在想什么，很严肃地说：“但是人是高级动物，男人在这方面尤其高级，因为男人是主动方，能不能达成性关系，取决于男人动没动情。男人的大脑越发达，思想越深沉，就越注重精神层面的东西，像我就不会跟一般男人那样，见到高胸大屁股就动情，我只对我喜欢的人有反应--- ” 她很喜欢听这样的话，希望他多说说精神层面的东西，但他很快就转到身体层面来了：“但你们女的不同，你们是被动方，没什么挑选，不管被谁摸，只要摸到一定时间了，你们都会产生反应。” 这话好像很难听，但是她还没想好一个反驳的说法，只表示个态度：“瞎说。” 他说：“我们打个赌好不好？如果三次过后，你还没上瘾，那我就不姓卓了--- ” “那你姓什么？” “我跟你姓--- ” 她不回答，只在心里转念头，准备到了三次的时候，不管上瘾没上瘾， 坚决不承认上瘾了，好让他赌输，好让他跟她姓，叫他“石越”。 那天他们一直在河边呆到很晚，她在他怀里躺一会，他在她怀里躺一会。她躺他怀里的时候，他就瞎说一气；他躺她怀里的时候，他就让她揉他脸上的一些穴位，很享受地说：“我自己这样按摩，一点感觉都没有，但是你的手一按，我就觉得特别舒服--- ” “可能是因为新鲜吧--- ”她想得比较远，担心地问，“如果以后你对我的--- 嘴也没反应了，那怎么办？” 他有点沮丧：“我也不知道--- ” 她原以为他会说“到那时我们就结婚，就用正宗的方法，就用不着嘴了”，她甚至在心里作了准备，如果他那样说的话，她就叫他别等到结婚了，现在就用正宗的方法做吧，免得把他憋成这样，也免得她有被人当“痴呆儿”的感觉。对她来说，跟他已经走到这一步了，她也没想过还会跟别的人谈恋爱，她在这一点上是很传统的，从一而终，不跟定谁，是不会跟谁做这种事的。既然已经做了，那就说明是跟定他的了，等于是思想跟他结婚了。 她安慰说：“你别担心，如果真的到了那一天，我们可以--- 象--- 夫妻那样--- 做--- ” 他没说什么，只抓着她的手盖在他脸上，良久才说：“我们不用想那么远，想了也没用。” 这话又让她有点难受，揣摩不出他是什么意思。他这么爱护她的处女膜，又总说结婚还遥远得很，象对两个人的今后一点也不看好一样，可能他其实没打定主意跟她结婚，所以他保护着她的处女膜，免得破坏了那里，她就会要死要活地缠着他。 她拿出一点气势，很刚强地说：“你不要把我当那些死皮赖脸缠着人结婚的女孩，我自己做的事，我自己会负责的，如果你跟我在一起，有一丝一毫的勉强，那不管到了哪一步，我都不会缠着你-- ” 她自己都被自己这番豪情吓了一跳，生怕他知道了这一点，就跟她按夫妻那样做，但做了又不跟她结婚，那不是把她害惨了？她赶快住了口，希望他根本没听见。 他很可能是没听见，因为他说：“听说女孩会永远记得那个破她身的男人，不管今后她遇到多少人，也不管她遇到什么样的人，她都不会忘记那个第一次--- 突破她的防线的人--- ” 她不知道他说的“破身”和“突破防线”是一回事还是两回事，她不知所措地等着他继续往下说，但他又没下文了。她问：“突破防线是-- 什么意思？” “当然是弄破了你们那层膜的意思--- ” “但是为什么女孩会永远记得--- 那个人呢？” “我怎么知道？这是你们女孩子的事。其实从前的人都认为破身是件坏事，因为血是不祥的，谁沾上谁倒霉，所以破身的事新郎是不干的，都让女方家里人去干，或者让族长酋长巫婆什么的去干。可是到了现代，破身反而成了一件好事了，男人都巴不得做那个破身的人。不过我觉得你们女孩应该永远记得那个给你们带来第一次快感高潮的人。你说呢？” 这个问题她从来没想过，今天是第一次听说。她想了一下，说：“我觉得女孩会永远记得那个爱她的人--- ” “但是爱不只是一句空话，要有行动的--- ” 她也知道爱要有行动，但她心目中那些爱的行动，好像并不包括“破身”或者“快感高潮”。她知道这样说会让他笑话，但她还是说了出来。 他果然笑了起来：“你这是典型的小女孩想法，谈恋爱象过家家一样，吃的是假饭假菜，做的是假夫妻。但是生活不是过家家，生活是吃真饭，做真爱，如果一个人不能给他所爱的人带来快感高潮，那他还有什么脸说他爱着这个人呢？” 她被他问倒了，觉得她的爱是有点象过家家，而他的爱才是真实的生活。她有点羞愧，虽然她给她所爱的人带来了快感高潮，但是她自己却呕吐了。相比之下，还是他的爱伟大一些啊 !