Chapter 16 Amy: Until Death (9)

Shi Yan admired Zhuo Zhuo for a while, but her narrow-mindedness came up again. Taking advantage of his good mood at the moment, she boldly asked: "Then your ex-girlfriend, she---does she always remember you?" He pouted: "How do I know?" "But didn't you say that girls can't forget that -- brought her -- the first -- that -- man?" He scratched her nose: "I know what you want to ask, I told you in the car, for other girls, they beg me, I don't even bother to serve them---" She was very proud of herself, and confessed: "Me too, I have never been with other boys --- like this ---"

"I know, that's why I said you are very pure---. It feels different to be with a pure girl. An unclean woman like Hu Liying, I feel sick when I touch her. No matter how beautiful she is, in All I see is a pile of pork---" She chuckled: "Who is Hu Liying? Is it your ex-girlfriend?" "Who else could it be? You can tell who she is by hearing the name---" "Who? 'Vixen'?" "She should be considered a 'vixen', because she can charm some men, but not a man like me. In my eyes, she is just a pile of pork. Pork can also be cooked and eaten. Her pile of meat, send Give it to me, I'm too lazy to eat--"

"What the hell is she—what's going on that makes you want to brag about her?" He smiled. "You must have heard--" "I don't, I just know she has a -- relationship with her --- her immediate boss --- and they say you made a big fuss, and then blew it with her ---" He laughed: "What 'they said'? Yao Xiaoping said it, right?" Seeing that he guessed right, she felt very strange: "Why do you think it was Yao Xiaoping who said it?" "You only know a few people in total, and among the few people you know, who else knows about this besides Yao Xiaoping? She must have listened to what Yan Jing said---"

"Then did you make a big fuss?" "Do you think I will make a scene with people?" "I don't think you will either, but if you didn't make trouble, how could Yan Jing tell Yao Xiaoping like that?" "Maybe Rigorous didn't say that at all, or the 'trouble' he said meant that I got that hooligan down---" "You? How did you get her -- the rascal -- down?" He said calmly: "In fact, I don't need to do it. Since he uses his power to occupy his subordinates, he will definitely step down. These things are not reported by the people, and the officials will not be investigated. Once the people report, the officials will have to investigate. Like him With such a Zhima official, who would be willing to throw away his black hat in order to protect him? Isn't it easy to sue him?"

She didn't understand: "If he used his power to occupy his subordinates, then your girlfriend---isn't he a victim? How could you---don't want her?" "Flies don't bite unsewn eggs. There are so many people in an office. Why does her boss want to occupy her instead of others?" "It must be because your girlfriend is prettier than others. It must be forcible, not voluntary by your girlfriend---" He stated: "Don't call her 'your girlfriend' or 'your girlfriend', she is not my girlfriend, you are---" "I mean your 'ex-girlfriend'---"

"Nor is the ex-girlfriend—" "Then what is she to you?" He said bitterly: "A stain, a stain that I wish to erase from my life. It is because of her that I can't hold my head up in front of you---" She didn't understand: "Can't you lift your head up in front of me?" "Of course, otherwise --- why would I be so timid? Forget it, I don't want to talk about her. In a word, I don't pursue the past and don't think too much about the future. But I am very concerned about the current situation. As long as you are not being nice to me and being nice to others at the same time, I am easy to get along with, but if you betray me, you will be in two boats--- Then you'd better beg God, don't tell me, or—"

She felt that the way he spoke was a bit fierce, but she felt that there were not many men in cuckolds who were not fierce. If they were not fierce, they would not look like men.And although he said "you" and "you", he was actually referring to her in general, not to her in particular.Anyway, she wasn't going to betray him, no matter how fierce he was, he couldn't beat her.She joked: "You sound like you're going to kill a few people—" "I don't know how to kill. I'm not that stupid. Put myself in it and exchange my life for those worthless lives, but I will make life worse than death for the one who betrayed me---"

She shuddered when she heard it, but she couldn't help being curious, and asked: "I still don't understand how you can make her---life is worse than death---" He joked, "Why do you inquire so clearly? Are you going to inquire clearly so that you can study how to betray me?" "Why did I betray you? Who are you to me?" He held her in his arms and asked side by side: "Say, say, who am I to you? Who am I to you?" She was made to hide and laugh wildly by him, and she said unwrittenly: "Don't--- get it, don't be crazy, I'm so--- itchy---"

"If you don't tell me who I am, I won't forgive you---" "Okay, okay, I say, I say, what are you to me, who are you to-" His diaphragm got worse, and she finally couldn't stand the itch, so she begged and said, "You --- say I'm who you are, I'm-- who are you -- okay? Don't bother me --- I'm going to itch to death---" He stopped his hand, she took a breath, and said honestly, "Don't worry about me betraying you, I'm only afraid that you betray me---" "Don't worry that I will betray you. I have already told you that I am not a person who treats women like the whole world. I have my career and my ambition. If I find a woman I like, I will Settling down and focusing on my career--"

He said that he would not betray her, and she was very happy, but from his tone, once he got married and settled down, he would put her aside and go about his career, which didn't seem to be her ideal married life.She asked, "What business do you --- do? Do you --- spend so much time?" "Now I can't tell you—" "Such a secret? Is there a risk?" "How can there be no risk in starting a business?" He patted her hand and said comfortingly, "But don't worry, what I do is definitely not crooked, it is definitely something that benefits the country and the people. One day, you will be proud of me ---"

After much deliberation, she couldn't figure out what kind of business he was engaged in. How could he sound like he was engaging in anti-government activities?How else would there be a risk?It's not something crooked, risky, and beneficial to the country and the people. Apart from opposing the government, she really can't think of other careers. She asked worriedly: "Did you --- did --- join some --- anti-government organization?" He joked: "Are you afraid? If you are afraid, there is still time to betray me---" She felt that he was tantamount to admitting that he had joined an anti-government organization, so she panicked and pleaded, "Can't you not join? These things are not something you can do with all your might --- . I found out, what should I do if I arrest you?" "If I'm caught, will you visit me in prison?" She was heartbroken: "If you are really arrested, of course I will go to the prison to see you, but you can't help---participate in these things? How sad your mother will be if something happens to you , and your sister, and—” "Then are you sad?" "Of course I'm sad, I'm sad now, I don't want you to be caught--" He said boldly: "As long as you feel sorry for me, I'm not afraid of being arrested---" Eager to persuade him, she said without hesitation: "Didn't you say that you don't believe in violent revolution when you said that Huang Hai was making small troubles? Why do you want to participate in these things now?" He immediately gave up his career and turned to love: "Haven't you forgotten your Huang Hai?" She quickly declared: "I'm just saying---your career has nothing to do with your relationship---" "But how do I get the feeling that you still have feelings for him?" She was so wronged: "What is 'still'? I have never had feelings for him, where is there 'still'?" "I don't believe it. You said that you have no feelings for him now. I still believe it. You even denied the past, which is a lie. I have already said that I don't care about your past. Why do you still lie to me? Woolen cloth?" Zhuoyou said very sincerely: "I know you are innocent, but it's hard to say in terms of thoughts and feelings---" Shi Yan argued: "Since I'm innocent, doesn't that mean I don't have—feelings for him? If so, shouldn't I—" He seemed a little depressed: "It's really hard to talk about feelings. Some men always talk about women's membranes. In fact, the fact that the membranes on women's bodies are not broken does not mean that the membranes in their hearts are not broken. Just like we are now, you will be with other men in the future, and no one will know that you have had these with me--" "How could I be with another man? Didn't you say that women can't forget the man who -- who brought them -- that --?" "I said I hope so, but I know that what women really can't forget is the first time---the person who touched their hearts---" "But you are the one who touched my heart for the first time." She felt that it was hard to argue now, and the more she argued, the more he doubted him, so she simply said, "Believe it or not, anyway, no matter from which point of view , you are my first--" This time she tasted the sweetness of being full of confidence. Just such a "believe it or not" is more effective than a thousand or ten thousand confessions. He believed it immediately, looked at her happily, and asked: "Really?" of?" She said with more confidence: "Of course it is true. When have I lied to you?" He put his arms around her and held her tightly: "I knew you were like this, I saw you like this at first glance, your kiss is the first kiss, your love is the first love, your person is Virgin, everything about you is --- white, pure, thank you for keeping it for me all these years--" Her confidence soared to the sky: "But you didn't keep it for me for so many years---" "Why not? I have obtained a marriage certificate with others, but I have never loved others, nor have I served others with such dedication—" Seeing that he didn't say "No one has brought me a pleasure orgasm before", she knew that Hu Liying had brought him a pleasure orgasm. After all, she is very flirtatious and sexy. I was still fascinated by that fox spirit.She felt a little unhappy, but for the sake of his honesty, she didn't say anything, and it was useless to say, as long as he had never loved anyone else, she would consider him a "psychological first love".It is better to be psychologically first love and spiritually virgin than to be mentally and physically unprimitive. Anyway, men have been entertaining themselves since they were young. Physically, they are not virgins. That night, she slept well. She didn't know whether it was because she was tired from "crying" several times, or because she finally heard his love confession, and she felt at ease.All in all, she slept until after nine o'clock in the morning the next day, and didn't even go to the toilet in the middle. Later, she found that as long as Zhuoyou didn't have the pustule trouble, he was indeed a very easy person to get along with.Because it's at her house, she doesn't ask much of him, and treats him as a guest.From this point of view, Zhuo Liang is a very good guest who is easy to dismiss and does not require the owner to spend too much time taking care of him.He can read a few newspapers for a long time, watch TV news with relish, read books and play chess records when he is free, and is also happy to play chess with her father at night. He plays very seriously, is very devoted, and pleases her father very much. It is said that Xiaozhuo's chess skills are good, his chess morality is also good, and his chess quality is not bad.The younger brother also admired Excellence, saying that Brother Zhuo is much better at explaining political questions than the teacher. No matter what the topic is, after Brother Zhuo talks about it, it will make people "suddenly see." The whole family is that her mother has some complaints about Excellence, mainly because Excellence does not help with cooking, and her mother is not complaining now. Although the mother-in-law here cares about face and wishes her son-in-law to work hard, her mother said that Excellence is the number one. If he came to the door for the first time, and stayed at home, no one would know. If he is not diligent, he will not be diligent. I am afraid that he is such a version, and he will not cook in their small home in the future, then her daughter will suffer. Shi Yan had no choice but to tactfully mobilize Zhuoyue to help with the cooking. In order not to let him have a problem with her mother, she didn't mention her mother's name, only saying that this is the custom here.After hearing this, he was very cooperative, and later helped to cook, but it was clear from the first glance that he couldn't cook, either he beat the bowl or blocked the sink, which was probably a disservice.In the end, Shi Yan had no choice but to tell him to just be proactive and let her come out to liberate him. Every time he said "I'll come, I'll come", she would say "Forget it, forget it, you are not familiar with this place , let me do it." I don't know if her mother noticed it, anyway, her mother didn't mention these things in front of her afterwards. She just lived her life like this, quite comfortable and at ease, the only thing that made Shi Yan unhappy was that Zhuo Liang didn't make much love to her.When he didn't have that pustule, it seemed like he couldn't think of coming to make out with her.Once there is the pustule, if there is no chance to "let it out", he will try his best to avoid her; if there is a chance, he will go straight to the point.Maybe he thinks what he does is intimacy, but she thinks it should be called "enthusiastic", and what she wants is---that kind of intimacy, she can't tell exactly what she wants him to do, she just feels that he is This disappointed her a bit. Fortunately, she found that he didn't have that pustule every day, which made her feel relieved. If there was a pack of pus to be released every day, then her life would be miserable.He let it go once, and he could manage it for two or three days. During those two or three days, their relationship was very warm and comfortable. When it came time to "put pus" next time, she begged, "Can you let me do it by myself? You grabbed my head and pressed me, which made me very uncomfortable. It always reminded me of our hospital. A dementia-" He curiously asked about the dementia, and she told him the story, and he couldn't understand it: "Why do you compare yourself to him? I'm like those --- bully youths ?” She nodded desperately, and said cautiously: "It's kind of like, not that you --- are as bad as them --- but --- you grabbed my head and pressed down --- the action is kind of- -- " He is still baffled: "Did I grab your head and press it down?" She couldn't help laughing: "Maybe you were too --- carried away, don't think ---" He said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I really-- don't feel like that anymore-- maybe I was-- really carried away at the time--" She forgave him right away, thinking that at that time, people might be a little carried away, didn't she cry for no reason?If he is a person who likes to guess wildly, can't he also interpret her crying as not loving him? After doing it, he was still a little carried away, and almost pressed her head again, but as soon as he pressed her head, she protested, and he let go, probably realizing that he had lost his composure.She was very happy, firstly, her resistance worked and earned her dignity and respect, and secondly, it showed that he didn't do that intentionally, but was just too excited and crazy. But she found that her kung fu hadn't been mastered yet, and it was useless to rely on her hard work, and she couldn't release the pus even after a lot of effort.She was terrified, did his body get used to her so quickly?Tired of her?Or does he now feel that she is a snobbish, shallow, vulgar person, so his body doesn't respond to her? Although she comforted herself by saying that his reaction was still there, it just couldn't reach the point of "letting it out", but she knew that this was deceiving herself, because his reaction was not necessarily aimed at her, but depended on the package. The production cycle of pus, there will be a pack of pus after a few days, it is not for anyone, it is a physiological phenomenon. She is very uncomfortable, not only because of her own thoughts, but also because of the current predicament. If she can't let it go, she can't let it go. This is a practical problem, and if it is not resolved, it will affect the relationship between them, because if it is not resolved, He is not in the mood to talk about love, and if he doesn't solve it, her parents will find that Zhuoyou's behavior is strange and worry about it.In a word, if the problem of pus is not solved, Zhuoyou will be another person, a person she doesn't like, and once this problem is solved, he will be the person she likes, a person worthy of her love. She decided in her heart that if he presses her head now, she will not resist and try to release the pus as soon as possible.But he didn't want to press her head anymore, he probably realized that pressing her head would hurt her self-esteem.With her own strength, she had a stalemate with the black-red face who didn't listen to the teachings for a long time, and had to declare defeat: "I can't do it, I-- I can't help--, you-- figure it out-- - " He said cautiously: "You don't like me pressing your head, then you can stay below, in that case, I won't --- press your head ---" She lay flat on the bed as he said, and he straddled her, but didn't actually sit, just knelt there, let her open her mouth and take his dick in her mouth, and then he fucked himself quickly.This is a little easier than pressing her head, but when she opened her eyes and looked at him, she found that he looked terrible, his face was full of madness like a soldier with red eyes who killed people on the battlefield, as if he was riding a horse on a rampage, Like crazy slashing.She was so frightened that she closed her eyes, only hearing his panting and the sound of "吱嘎嘎嘎嘎嘎" from her mouth. This time she failed to lift him at the critical moment, because at the last moment his whole body was pressed down, preventing her from moving, and she could only wait until all his pus was sprayed, and his body was paralyzed Only then did he have a chance to push him away and ran to the bathroom to vomit and rinse his mouth. Maybe he heard her vomit this time, and when she got back into the bedroom, he said, "I'm sorry, I didn't know you-- were so disgusted with me--" She quickly declared: "It's not that I'm disgusted with you, it's just that it's stuck in my throat, it's a bit like digging my throat with my fingers, I can't help but want to vomit, if you don't believe me, try putting your fingers there---" He actually put his finger down his throat, and was really about to vomit, and he laughed and said, "That's just because I grew so long that it went down your throat. But being long isn't a bad thing—" Don't you girls like men with long hair?" She went to cover his mouth again, and he said half-smugly and half-apologetically, "I'm sorry, the growth is too long, it made you uncomfortable, let me make up for it." He let her lie on the bed, and he came to make amends, but after trying a few times, he found that there was not much water, so he asked, "How can I make you come out of water?" "Just don't talk nonsense--" "What is nonsense?" "It's the --- disgusting words --- ugly words --- dirty words ---" "I haven't said any ugly words or swear words," he said aggrievedly, "I just said some pillow words, how did it become ugly and swear words? The pillow words are just for --- aphrodisiac, husband and wife lover We all said--" "I don't care what people say between husband and wife, I don't like that--" "Then what do you like me to say?" "I like it when you say --- you love me ---" Now Shi Yan doesn't dare to touch Excellence, fearing that any touch will trigger a bed war. Although Excellence will "serve" her very attentively before and after each battle, and let her "hum" a few times, but she I would rather not have those few times of "humming" than go through that long and embarrassing process of squeezing pus.She felt sometimes that she was too selfish to be as proud of giving pleasure as he was, but sometimes she defended herself by saying that he was only using his hands and she was using her mouth. Zhuoyou seemed to have heard her thoughts, and next time, he proposed to serve her with his mouth, scaring her so much that she almost jumped out of bed, and kept shouting: "No, no, it's too dirty, too dirty! " "The person I am is not too dirty, but the person you enjoy is not too dirty? If you are afraid of being dirty, you should wash it first---" She still refused: "It's not about washing, it's not about washing, it's just that it feels dirty---" He held her down involuntarily, and was about to serve her tongue. She was so frightened that she closed her legs tightly, stood up, and dug his face with her hands. Hearing his "ouch", he let go of her and covered his face with his hands. She got up in a hurry, pulled his hand covering her face, and asked eagerly, "Where did it hurt you? I told you not to do this, don't do this, but you didn't listen---" When he let go, she saw a fingernail mark in the corner of his eye, she was frightened, hugged his face, blew and touched, and apologized repeatedly: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it wasn't intentional, it wasn't intentional---" He said: "Fortunately, I didn't goug out my eyes, otherwise I would have become a one-eyed dragon --- . But it's fine if I become a one-eyed dragon, because you are a kind person. If you gouged me out into a one-eyed dragon, you would definitely marry me." , you can't bear to tell me to be a bachelor for the rest of my life, can you?" She said tenderly: "Whether you become a one-eyed dragon or not, I will marry you, as long as you --- love me ---" "Don't I still love you?" This question was very confident, and she felt very comfortable after hearing it, and said impulsively: "I know you love me, and I love you too, let's just do it as usual, why use these--- informal How?" He hesitated for a while, and asked, "You don't want to stay until the wedding night in the bridal chamber?" "Let's just pretend that today is wedding night in the bridal chamber---" "If we do that now, what if you regret it in a few days?" "Why should I regret it?" "How do I know? For example, you --- dislike me ---" She was surprised; "How could I dislike you?" "I --- have --- problems in this area, don't you --- dislike me?" She guessed that the "problem in this aspect" he mentioned was the problem of not "that". Thank God, he didn't say the word "shot", otherwise such a lyrical scene would be destroyed.There was tenderness and pity in her heart, she put her arms around him and said, "You fool, you still say you know us girls, but you don't know anything about us. When you suffer, I love you and hurt you too late. How can I despise you?" ?Come on --- just do it --- formally ---" He didn't object any more, and only said conservatively: "The formal method may not necessarily be effective---but maybe---" He let her lie flat on the bed, "I heard that it will be very painful for the first time. , let me do some preparatory work for you---" She didn't know what "preparation" was, and she just felt that he was no different from the previous few times, so she stuck her finger in, she closed her eyes, and played back all the scenes that moved her, just like the previous two times, Soon people feel excited. He whispered "A lot of water, I'm going to increase the size---" and pulled out his finger. She was about to ask him what he was doing, when he felt that he went in again, but this time it was the same as last time Different, I just felt that his fingers were thick and heavy, which brought an unprecedented fullness to her, which made her almost scream, but fortunately she controlled it in time, and asked in a whimpering voice: "What are you doing? " He asked proudly: "Is it very stimulating? I put two fingers in it---" God! She said worriedly: "Be careful to hurt there--" He said knowledgeably: "No, you girls are always worried that the man's thing is too big and will tear your place, but it is not true. Think about it, you can have a baby in your place, How big should the child's head be?" Now she doesn't care about calculating how big the child's head should be, because the stimulation there is too strong, he moves around in it, not only coming in and out, but also scratching in all directions, trying to get in as much as possible, she can only care about humming, it's very difficult. He was soon taken to the peak by him, curled up in his arms, seemed to be crying, begged him: "It's better to come-- it's regular--" He said triumphantly: "Don't panic, I'm going to make you cry a few more times---. See? I've saved all of them, so that you can keep having new feelings and never get tired of me. If it wasn't for you coming today- -- It's normal, I have to wait for a while before I'm willing to use these two fingers. Hehe, you're so excited now with only two fingers? What about three or four? Aren't you going to be so excited?" It's really scary! Three or four?Isn't that like a small tree stick?She didn't have time to answer, he started to move around inside again, he moved violently for a while, and brought her up to the peak again, when she straightened her toes, clamped her legs, and hummed happily, he asked proudly : "Do you like me?" "Do you love me?" "Are you addicted?" She nodded to both of the first two questions, but did not answer the last one.He didn't seem to be in the mood to wait for her answer, he just said excitedly: "I'm here---" She knew that the real thing was coming this time, so she didn't dare to open her eyes, she just closed them and waited for him.She felt that his thing was not as smooth and hard as fingers, nor as flexible as fingers. It was a bit like the legs of a person suffering from polio.Using his hand as a crutch, it took a lot of effort to get the polio guy into position, causing her a feeling of stiffness and pain she hadn't experienced before.But she knew that this was the ordeal that every girl had to go through, so she didn't complain, she just waited patiently for the end of the process. Once polio's legs enter the position, they are still majestic, just like those cadres who have been helped to power, as long as they are in that position, they can abuse their power no worse than those who came to power with real ability.She felt that his person was deeply trapped in her person, and the two faced each other, having dialogue and communication on the deepest level.She likes this way of making love very much. When he moves lightly, she feels that he is expressing his heart tenderly; and when he is wild and violent, she feels that he is swearing that he loves her.In this way, there is no feeling of "playing" at all, only the feeling of loving and being loved. He moves non-stop, up and down, left and right, and moves in an orderly manner, but she may not have the feeling of "crying" because she has already "cried" just now, and her body is not getting stronger and stronger during his movements Wetter and drier.She gradually felt a kind of rubbing pain caused by dryness, and when she could hardly bear the pain, he let out a long cry of "ah" and collapsed on her body. He kissed her passionately, mumbled words of gratitude, and they fell asleep in that position.Later, she woke up first, because he was too heavy and pressed her awake, as if the deeper he slept, the heavier he was, so she finally understood the meaning of "sleeping".She pushed him away as lightly as possible, got up and went to the bathroom to rinse, feeling happy that she had found a way to save the country with Chinese characteristics: it should have been like this a long time ago, if it was like this from the beginning, it would not have stayed. The next two terrible impressions. She went back to the bedroom, checked the sheets, and found that there was nothing "falling red", she couldn't help but thank him for the "physical examination" in advance, otherwise, she would have thought she would not be a virgin long ago.Although he said that he didn't care who she loved and what she did before, but she is indeed a virgin, if she can't be recognized by the only appraiser, what a loss! She lay down beside him without any clothes on, and fell asleep peacefully with her arms around him. She didn't know how long she had been asleep, but a knock on the door woke her up, her heart throbbing with fright, as uncomfortable as having a heart attack.She thought it was her parents or younger brother who had come back, so she hurriedly grabbed a quilt to cover Zhuo Liang, then pulled another piece of clothing to put on.After being busy for a while, I remembered to look at the clock on the wall. It's still early. It's not time for get off work and school. Besides, the three of them have keys, so why knock on the door?It should be a guest. She dressed and ran her hands through her hair as she walked toward the gate.When she reached the gate, she first asked through the door, "Who is it?" "It's me, Huang Hai." She was stunned when she heard it, she didn't know if she was dreaming, she clearly remembered that she had just had sex with Zhuoyue, how could she dream of Huang Hai at such a time? Huang Hai said outside the door: "If it's inconvenient for you, don't open the door, I'll just leave the book outside your door, you remember to take it in as soon as possible, so as not to be taken away---" When she heard the word "book", she thought that she once asked him to help buy books. It seemed to be an ancient history, and she had long forgotten it.She opened the door and said, "Come in, how much is it? I'll get it for you—" The door opened, and she saw Huang Hai standing in front of the door, with a big bag at his feet, looking heavy, probably bought a lot of books.His head was dripping with sweat, and his T-shirt was also wet a lot, probably from riding a bicycle. He looked her up and asked, "Taking a nap? Sorry, I shouldn't have come at this time---" "It's okay, come in." Huang Hai followed her into the room, she asked him to sit on the sofa, let the electric fan blow on him, then ran to pour tea for him, brought out the tea for him, went to the bathroom to fix his hair, and then ran Go to the living room and talk to him.As soon as he sat down, he remembered that there was watermelon in the refrigerator, so he ran to get some watermelon for him. Huang Hai didn't eat the watermelon, just took a few sips from his teacup, and explained: "I was going to send the book to your school, but I heard Yao Xiaoping said that you went back to your hometown, so I just brought it back, so that you can start reviewing as soon as possible. ---" Her mind seems to be rigid, and she can't understand the relationship between books, Yao Xiaoping, school, etc., as if she was born here, doing those things with Zhuoyue, and everything else is so far away, so strange .It took her a long time to ask: "Are you on vacation too?" "Well, now that I've graduated, there's no summer vacation, only a few days off---" Her mind seemed to be a little more active, and she said: "I, like you, only have a few days off---" "When are you leaving?" "I'm leaving tomorrow--" "Then it's a coincidence that I catch up, I won't meet you one day later---" He looked at her for a while and said, "Well, these books are quite heavy, let me carry them to City D for you- -- " She quickly declined: "How can I do that? Didn't you take a detour to City D?" "No detour, I'm going to do something there anyway--" Before she could answer, she saw Huang Hai's expression change, as if seeing a ghost, he stared blankly behind her, scaring her into a cold sweat on her back. Shi Yan felt an arm around her shoulder, and then heard Zhuo Zhuo's voice: "Hi, Lao Huang, you're home too? I was thinking about going to visit you with Yan'er one day---" Huang Hai left and said: "Since Mr. Zhuo has come back together, there is no need for me to endorse the book for you, it is his turn to memorize it---. You are here, I am going back---" Shi Yan habitually saw the guests off politely, but as soon as he arrived at the door, he was held back by Zhuoyou: "It's so hot outside, wouldn't it be better for you to let him ride on the bike? You go with me like this, so don't make them both familiar." It's -- " Huang Hai said "I'm leaving, you go in---" and then got on his bicycle and left. She saw the figure of Huang Hai riding a bicycle getting smaller and smaller under the bright sun, and finally disappeared in the dazzling sunlight. She felt very guilty in her heart and murmured: "I should keep him for a meal, He rode so far, he must have not even eaten, so let him ride back on an empty stomach---" Zhuojiao reached into her clothes and grabbed her breasts, rubbing her breasts, and said, "Don't be so foolish, he's not a fool, wouldn't he be shopping outside by himself? Come in, open the doorknob." The heat is coming into the house--" She was afraid that passers-by would see what Joyoung's hands were doing, so she obediently followed him into the house.He closed the door, went to the sofa and sat down, opened the book bag, took out a few books and looked through them, and said, "Where are these books? Can you trouble him to buy them from F City?" Stuffing the books into the bag, he said, "These books don't need to be carried back to City D, they are of no use---" She also came up, took out two books and looked at them, and found that they were all written by the professor Wang she was going to take the exam, so she asked: "Why is it useless? What I want to take the exam is the graduate student of this professor---" "What are you doing as a graduate student?" "He's very famous, he wrote the textbook for our class---" "What's the point of writing textbooks? I have also written textbooks. No matter how famous he is, he is famous in China. Who knows him internationally?" What a big tone! She has always admired this Professor Wang extremely, and she always thought that he was the textbook, the embodiment of knowledge, and the embodiment of power.She realized that Professor Wang is a real person and not a teaching material, and it was thanks to Xu Guozhang, because once she heard a student from the English Department of the Teachers College say that Xu Guozhang went to E University to give lectures, and the teacher organized everyone to go to E University to listen to Professor Xu’s lecture. She suddenly realized that Xu Guozhang was alone?She has always thought that "Xu Guozhang English" is like "New Concept English", the five words coexist with life and death, and together they symbolize a certain doctrine or genre. 那次她也慕名前往了，虽然她不是英语系的，但是她很想看看一个从书上走下来的人是什么样子的，于是她自费前往E 大，但没资格坐前排，甚至连座位都没有，只站得远远地看了一下许国璋教授，虽然连面目都没看清，还是觉得挺值，以后无论见到谁手里拿着“许国璋英语”，她都要说上一句：“许国璋是这本书的作者，我见过的。” 她还没亲眼见过这个王教授，但黄海见过，如果她像上次见许国璋一样，远远地看一看王教授，她就已经心满意足了，如果能做王教授的研究生，恐怕会跟中了举的范进一样，落下个痴心疯来。而卓越居然连王教授都看不上，一下就扯到国际上去了，看来这回她是燕雀，而他是鸿鹄了。 她胆怯地说：“光国内有名就已经让我胆寒了，哪里还敢梦想找个国际有名的导师？如果人家在国际上都有名，肯定更瞧不起我了--- ” “现在国内的研究生有什么好读的？要读就到国外去读--- ” “那你怎么在国内读研究生了？” “就是因为我读了，我才知道国内的研究生没什么好读的，还是谋求出国吧--- ” 她从来没想过出国的事，“洞洞拐”这里好像还没听说有谁出国了的， C 省师院那里也没听说有谁出国了的，她连考国内研究生都只是试试看，并不是确信自己有那个能力，哪里还敢想出国的事？ 她不相信地问：“我只读了个本科，就能出国？要不要先在国内把硕士念了再说？” “本科为什么不能出国？很多人都是本科毕业就出国的，去国外读硕士、博士、硕博连读的多得很。” “还有这种事？那你怎么不出国？” 他耸了耸肩：“我的事业在国内，但我们K 大学你这个专业的，最少有一半在国外，另一半正在办出国--- ” 她还是不敢相信：“但是那是你们K 大呀，国外都知道K 大，但是有谁知道我这个破师院？” “知道不知道有什么关系？只要你GRE 什么的考得好，肯定能出国--- 。我早就说了，黄海这人就是会小打小闹，只知道鼓动你考国内研究生，现在还有谁考国内的研究生的？” “那你觉得我--- 有没有这个能力？我是说--- 出国？” “你绝对有这个能力，我对你有百分之一百二的信心--- ” “但是如果我出了国，而你在这里，那不是---- ” 他很豪迈地说：“那有什么？只要你能象鲲鹏一样，展翅飞翔，去实现你的理想，我在哪里都无所谓的--- ” “但是我有所谓，你不出去我一个人出去有什么意思？” 他安慰说：“会有办法的，我可以到国外跟你团聚--- ” 她听说他也能出去，心里高兴了，马上开始操别的心：“我就怕我出不去--- ” “只要你想出去，你肯定能出去，心想事成。我知道你为高考的事窝着一肚子气，但是考上国内研究生也不能出这口气。你那些进了名校的高中同学，难道人家不会考国内研究生？他们考本校的研究生，说不定就是自己本科时的导师，那不是比你更方便？所以说你只有出国了，才能把他们都比下去--- ” 她完全没想到他对她高考失利这么理解，对她出国这么有信心，简直比黄海有过之而无不及，黄海只不过是对她考国内研究生有信心，而卓越则是对她出国有信心，真是天壤之别啊! 她不免好奇地问：“怎么黄海没提过出国的事呢？难道他们A 大没人出国吗？” “ A 大怎么会没人出国，只怕是能出国的都出国了，就剩下黄海这样没能耐的，才想着考国内的研究生。我看他是不想让你翅膀长得太硬，太硬了他就更没希望了。像他这个长相，人家美国人会让他进去吗？美国人是最讲究美的，城市规划，人民生活，都讲究一个美字，汽车太脏了在街上跑，都会被罚款，凡是有碍观瞻的，都不会允许进口，更何况像他这么--- 怪头怪脑的？黄海如果把你留在中国，说不定还有点希望，一旦你去了美国--- ” 她见他也是跟黄海一样，把对方当作情敌，一口咬定对方在追她，心里很有点得意，开玩笑地问：“那你这么鼓动我出国，是不是为了让美国帮你把情敌档在门外？” 他淡然一笑：“你别把我说得这么没自信，我根本就不把他当情敌，更用不着美国人来帮我忙，大家敞开了竞争，只要都不玩卑鄙手段，我肯定打败他。” 她见他公开承认在跟黄海竞争她，心里就别提多高兴多得意了，笑得嘴都合不拢了，得意了好一阵，才回到实际问题上来：“那出国要--- 怎么样才出得成？” “我会一点一点教你的，看什么书，参加什么考试，报哪些学校，我都有研究，我搞的就是这一行，就是研究高等教育的。现在主要是中国的高等教育研究起步比较晚，整体水平比较低，美国人瞧不起。但是如果他们眼界开阔一点，知道整体水平不能代表个人水平，那他们就会认真读读我写的东西，就会看得出我是有真知灼见的--- ” 她想起她那次在图书馆看他论文的时候，因为没看懂，还以为自己水平低，既然美国人也看不懂，那就说明她水平不低，只是他水平更高罢了。她帮他谦虚一把，问：“是不是因为你是用中文写的，所以美国人看不懂？” “可能吧，我找了几个人帮我翻译成英文，准备拿到国外发表，但他们都不懂高等教育，只懂英文，所以翻得词不达意，效果不好。我正在提高我的英语，准备自己来翻译。” 她觉得他学英语比搞什么反政府活动安全多了，连忙支持说：“我支持你学英语，等我回到D 市了，我也来学英语，我们一起学。你帮我找些出国考试资料，先让我看看，估计一下自己的实力，看看有没有希望--- ” 那天他们说的话，可能比他们认识以来说话的总和还多，两个人谈出国，谈复习，谈考试，谈未来，谈了很多很多，谈得很融洽，很和谐，很振奋，很开心。 一直到她父母下班回来了，他们还坐在客厅畅谈。她见她父母推门进来，才发现时间不早了，跳起来去做饭，被她妈妈档住了：“你明天就走了，还不好好休息一下？去吧，去休息休息，也收拾收拾东西--- 。这次只能住这么几天，又得等到春节才能回家了-- ”妈妈说着眼圈就红了。 她调皮地说：“妈，我这只是去个D 市，你就这么舍不得，如果我出国去了，你怎么办？” 她妈一惊：“你要出国了？去哪里？几时走？还回来不回来？” 她哈哈大笑：“妈，吓你的，只是在说这个事呢，还没考试，也没录取，要出国也还早得很呢--- ” 卓越也帮腔说：“妈，您女儿有志向，有能力，总有一天会出国的，我正在给她鼓劲呢--- ” 她妈妈嗔怪说：“噢，我说呢，我这女儿从来没说过出国的事，怎么一下子就想跑那么远了呢，原来是你在里面鼓捣啊？等我女儿出了国，我想见她见不到的时候，我就拿你是问--- ” 卓越呵呵笑着说：“行啊，只要您那时还能逮到我，就拿我是问吧--- ” 妈妈笑着说：“出国是好事，我不阻拦你们，但你们总得在走之前把--- 婚结了吧？不然我们都不能亲自嫁女儿了。女孩子家，出不出国没什么，出不出阁才是大事--- ” 卓越保证说：“您放心，只要燕儿开个口，我们马上就结婚--- ” 石燕觉得这次卓越是把面子给足她了，让她妈妈听着就像是他一直在求婚而她没松口一样，她咧着个嘴只顾笑，她妈妈对卓越说：“我这女儿年少不懂事，在这些大事上，你可不能光听她的，该拿主意的时候你就得把主意拿了--- ” 她开心地说：“妈，这个你就不用教他了，他本来就爱拿我的主意，这次毕业分配，如果不是他在那里拿主意，我就回'洞洞拐'来了--- ” 她妈妈一听，更加感激不尽了，连声说：“你看，你看，我叫你听他的话没错吧？” 这次回D 市，坐的是石燕的父母帮忙找的便车。卓越运气不错，第一次坐“洞洞拐”的便车，就是一个中巴，而且是到D 市那边去接人的，所以去的路上就他们两个客人，很宽松。既然有这么方便的车，石燕就把那些书带上了，她的理由是带过去给姚小萍用，所以卓越没再反对。 快到D 市的时候，卓越就开始给司机当向导，七指八指的，就把车指到了他住的那栋楼下。等司机停了车，他对石燕说：“下车吧，怎么还坐得这么安稳？” 她见他脸上又是那种“密谋”的神情，就乖乖地下了车。司机把车开走后，她有点不好意思地说：“现在这样住在一起不好吧？” 卓越呵呵笑着说：“我说了叫你现在就搬过来同居吗？我是来拿我的车的，不然的话，如果你那边寝室已经不在了，你怎么去南一舍？走去？这么重的书，这么热的天，不把人累死了？” “我寝室不在了？怎么会？” “你毕业了，还不该搬出学生寝室？” “但是我人都不在这里--- ” “谁叫你不在这里的？学校可以把你东西扔出去--- ” 说着话，他已经把他的车推出来发动了，自己叉站在车上，叫她上车。这次她不客气地抱住了他的腰，想起前几次连衣服都不敢抓的情景，不禁又有“时间隧道”的感觉。 卓越真是料事如神，他们刚来到她的寝室楼，刚下车，还没站稳，就被门房看见了，讨账似地对她说：“钥匙呢？你已经搬走了，把钥匙交给我吧--- ” 她问：“我搬哪里去了？”自己也觉得这话问得滑稽。 “我怎么知道？我只知道你们那届的人都搬走了，人家都把钥匙交了，就差你一把，再不交要罚款了--- ” 她慌忙把钥匙交了，茫然地问卓越：“我搬走了？怎么我一点都不知道？” 他嘻嘻笑着说：“你现在哪里有心思管这个？” 她觉得他在笑她“上瘾”，而且笑得密谋，便擂他一拳，说：“是不是你早就安排我搬家的事了？” 他没回答，只说：“我们去南一舍吧--- ” 两人旋风般地来到南一舍，但他不肯上楼，说：“你先空手上去看一下，能行再叫我，免得我白费力搬这些书上去--- ” 她不明白他在搞什么鬼，但看上去很有理由的样子，她没再问为什么，按他说的，空手上楼去看看。等她爬到五楼，还才到楼梯口，她就有点明白卓越的意思了。她看见姚小萍跟严谨两个人在五楼的拐角处摆了个小桌子，两人正坐在小凳子上进餐呢。严谨只穿着背心短裤，比在自己家里还随便。 看见她上来，姚小萍马上站了起来：“你回来了？我们帮你把东西都搬过来了，不过还没收拾，都摆在那里，等你来弄的，我带你去看看--- ” 严谨是背对她坐的，现在也跳了起来，跟她寒喧：“你回来了？老卓呢？” “在楼下。”她跟着姚小萍往寝室走，边走边感谢，“太谢谢你了，帮我把东西都搬过来了，不然给学校扔外头去了--- ” “学校催着搬家，又跟你联系不上，只好先搬了。那几天光下雨，搬搬停停，搞了很久--- ” 她又感谢了一番，问：“严谨跑这里来吃饭，你不怕别人看见？” “谁看见？暑假五楼没什么人，楼下有几个，但都不认识我们--- ” “你还是小心点--- ” “我知道--- ” 她们两个来到519 ，是南面最后一间，姚小萍选这间房的房之前，来实地考察过，说就选这间，因为它是最后一间，紧靠着一个从走廊上伸出去的阳台。姚小萍说阳台虽然是大家的，但近水楼台先得月， 501 的人总不会跑大老远到这里来摆桌子吃饭吧？以后就是咱们的了，可以在阳台上放东西，夏天还可以在那里乘凉吃饭。 石燕问：“你不是说要在这个阳台上乘凉吃饭的吗？怎么没在这里吃？” “这是个外阳台，有点热，那边虽然是楼梯拐角处，但地方比这里大，暑假里又没人从那里经过，不是比这个阳台更好？那里有穿堂风吹着，电扇都不需要--- ” 石燕进了519 ，看见屋子里摆了两张床，但她的那张上面铺的不是她的东西，而是姚小萍的东西。姚小萍走过去，快手快脚地卷铺盖，边卷边解释说：“你不在，我就铺了我的东西在上面，让严谨睡这里--- ” 她脱口问道：“你们没在一起--- 睡？” 姚小萍嘻嘻笑着说：“用不着从头到尾都在一起睡的嘛--- 这么小的单人床--- 挤一夜不挤死了？难道你们是一起睡到大天亮的？” 她脸一红，本来想辩驳一下，但是觉得也没什么好辩的，卓越去了她家，就算她说他们晚上是分床睡的，姚小萍也不会相信，就算相信了，也知道他们白天干了什么。 她也过去帮忙，姚小萍一点一点撤离，她一点一点收复。正在光复祖国大好河山，就听见卓越和严谨说话的声音，看见他们两个一人提了一个包上来。姚小萍招呼卓越说：“你也上来了？那干脆就一起吃饭吧，这里待会再收拾，我先去生炉子做饭， --- ” 石燕一听说“生炉子”就头疼，她家现在已经烧上煤气了，但以前生炉子的痛苦光景还没完全从印象里铲除，她制止说：“算了，别生炉子了，这么热的天，生炉子不搞一身汗？” 卓越提议说：“我跟燕儿出去吃吧，书先放这里，专门背过来给你的--- ” “给我的？”姚小萍问，“什么书？考研的书？”说着就从那个袋子里拿出一本看了看，欣喜地说，“太好了。石，你自己有书了？那这套我就留下了，待会给钱你们--- 。就在这里吃吧，我现在就去做--- ” 石卓两人都越坚决制止，卓越叫上石燕说：“我们去外面吃饭吧--- ” 石燕跟着卓越下了楼，见他把她的旅行袋又背了下来，问：“怎么忘了把这个袋子也放上面？” 他笑了一下，说：“没见过你这么没眼睛的，人家小两口住得好好的，你跑去打什么岔？” 她这才醒悟过来，但仍然不解地问：“那我--- 就不回去住了？” “至少暑假里是这样，等到开学了，你们那楼里的人都回来了，严谨肯定不敢去那里了，那时你再搬回去不迟--- ” 她觉得这个安排有道理，但又有点不好意思：“那--- 我搬你那里去，别人会不会--- 说闲话？” “你管别人说咸话还是淡话？你现在已经毕业了，工作了，怕谁说？” 她觉得也是，便不再操心，只说：“我还有很多东西在上面--- ” “吃完饭再去拿--- ” 不过他们吃完饭也没去拿，因为卓越说现在去不好：“别去惊了那对野鸳鸯--- ” 他们两个人又一阵风似地回到卓越那栋楼前，她还有点扭呢，但卓越像没事人一样，老夫老妻地跟她上楼，路上碰见熟人还响亮地打个招呼，如果有人说“怎么这几天没见你呀”，他就一五一十地告诉人家：“去燕儿家呆了几天，今天刚回来--- ”。 进了他的家门，他不让她关门，说：“好些天没住人，屋里一股霉味，先开着吹一下--- ”他开了家里好几个电扇，都呼呼地吹着，抱怨说，“安个空调还要副教授职称，不然早安了--- ” 他打开冰箱，找了盒冰淇淋出来，叫她吃。 她很爱吃冰东西，特别爱吃冰淇淋，从小就是。她家里很早就买了冰箱，但学生寝室没有，所以她也不是经常吃到这些冰东西。现在看见他这里有冰箱，还有冰淇淋吃，开心极了，觉得住这里比跟姚小萍去挤青年教工宿舍好一千倍。 她见他冰箱空空如也，建议说：“明天我们去买些菜，自己做饭吃，在家里呆了一段时间，都不想吃食堂的饭菜了。也别老是上餐馆了，又贵又吃不好--- ” “没事，明天可以去我妈那边吃--- ” 她吓了一跳，这也太“时间隧道”了吧？她想起在照片上看到过的未来婆婆，总觉得有点冷若冰霜，高不可攀，急忙推脱：“还是等等吧，我们--- ” “丑媳妇总是要见公婆的，躲得过初一，还躲得过十五？如果明天不去我妈那边吃饭，那我们到哪里去吃？食堂你又不喜欢，餐馆你也不喜欢--- ” “我们自己做。” “要做你做，我是不做饭的，而且我这里什么都没有，怎么做？”