Chapter 6 51-60

51 The three of us, Wu Li and Daqing, took a taxi to a mutton restaurant near Jinsong. We ordered mutton, mutton tail, cabbage, vermicelli, frozen tofu and other must-order items every time, and then waited for the waiter to bring them. This miniskirt has a problem, that is, it rolls up automatically as soon as you walk. We found this after we went out. For this reason, Wu Li has been sitting on the chair carefully, not daring to move around. Wu Li Although she is an employee of a foreign company, she dresses quite boldly. There are many clothes that even actresses hesitate to wear outside, but Wu Li can easily put them on and walk on the street, even if she exposes her own weaknesses. Miniskirts are an example. Although Wu Li's legs are long, they are not thin, and Wu Li's habitual action is to put her hands on her waist.

Therefore, wearing a miniskirt is very eye-catching, just like Sun Erniang in a Kung Fu movie, showing a sense of strength inside and out, as if Daqing's speech and behavior will be kicked over by her thick legs In fact, the actual situation is just the opposite. Wu Li has a very good temper and almost never gets angry.Moreover, Daqing has always been proud of being afraid of Wu Li, and never gave Wu Li any chance to get angry. The three of us were chatting about Wu Li's dress, waiting for something to be delivered. After a while, Jiancheng came in with his wife. Jiancheng's wife is real. She has received a marriage certificate. Her name is Li Xianyan, and she belongs to the tiger. A singer, Jian Jian took a lot of effort to get her.Unexpectedly, after the two got married, they tried their best to give birth to a boy and half a girl. For this reason, Jiancheng always talked about this matter like this: "As the saying goes, if you don't enter the tiger's den, how can you get tiger cubs-but I entered the tiger's den. Don’t be a tiger.” Then he added with a smile: “My wife is a tiger, she told me when I got married, if you treat me badly after the completion of my life, I will let you die. Great, hehe, hehe."

Sometimes, Jiancheng would be full of pride when talking about their non-existent next generation. One day, Jiancheng was very drunk and said to Li Xianyan in front of our group: "Old Li, if we want to give birth to a mother, we will give birth to three mothers." One child, the whole mother gave birth to a daughter, the eldest is called Dabi, the second is called Erbi, and the third is called Xiaobi." "Then what about me?" asked the drunk Li Xianyan. "You?" Jiancheng thought for a while, and finally came up with a title, "You and I have also thought about it for you, so we call it Laobi."

Li Xianyan was not pissed off by a word, so she poured a glass of draft beer on Jiancheng's face. Let me briefly introduce Jiancheng again. Before becoming a liar, Jiancheng went to the China Institute of Foreign Studies and majored in English. But after Jiancheng read a few poetry anthologies in the English he had learned, he also began to write poems. For a time, the standard of hazy poetry was that it could not be read to become a poem, just like "you say, I say purple lines say" sentences can be written at your fingertips, and you can write more than a hundred poems without any effort, thus becoming a poet. Suicide is popular among poets. Seeing the poets die one after another, Jiancheng couldn't help but panic, fearing that one day it would be his turn, so he switched to writing novels and became a writer. The life of a liar is like walking on thin ice, which is very dangerous. Especially after the "handcuff incident", Jiancheng learned from it and started a new life. So Jiancheng changed his family and became a screenwriter. The screenwriter wrote hard work, and there was little work for the script. Jiancheng couldn't bear to wait. Suffering, so he changed to be an actor, Jiancheng thought that an actor can make money and be famous even if nothing happens by accident, and finally started his acting career, first playing a villain in a single drama, and then playing the big guy in an episode of a series. In the end, he was cast as a teacher in an episode of a serial drama, but the good times didn’t last long. After acting in three episodes, it came to an abrupt end. No one asked him to film for a while, so he was banned for a long time. We call it "tertiary film actors".

Of course, the current completion is far from the same, and the roles that have been played are countless, and the tragic era of third-level movies is finally over. 52 The five of us started chatting about eating hot-boiled mutton, but I was secretly waiting for Chen Xiaolu. To pass the time, I chatted with Da Qing about the outline of the script I was writing. , if you want a big turn off, talk about it, it's a panacea, it's tried and tested. Daqing began to write scripts in 1988. Compared with me, he is an old screenwriter. When I started to write the first script with great interest, Daqing’s legs became weak when he mentioned the script, and he rolled his eyes. the point.In Daqing's eyes, the script is just a pile of waste paper that the director can use to cheat around.

Generally speaking, directors and screenwriters often have irrelevant thoughts on scripts. Screenwriters sit under the lamp every day, thinking hard, starting from a blank, searching carefully, squeezing nutrition from their own life experiences, and racking their brains. Weaving a story, and then handing over the finished thing to the director, and it’s over. When the script is in the hands of the director, it can become a magic wand that turns everything into gold. First, the director can call the story his own, and then start to get it from investors. To defraud the shooting fee, direct the artist to obtain the scene for shooting, direct the lighting to set up the light required by the director, direct the camera to construct the image to be shot, direct the road to have the props used in the plot, direct the make-up to make up the actors, and direct The costumes are for the actor to dress up, direct the production director to prepare meals for him, direct the field recorder to record the shooting entries and time codes, and direct the assistant director in charge of selecting actors to pick out the girl he likes, and direct the on-site assistant director to He prepares everything, and after the filming is finished, the process of the director dictating is not over yet. He has to direct the editor to cut out the required images, direct the music director to find someone to write the lyrics, compose the music, direct the dubbing to match the music, and direct the effects Make motion effects, instruct the subtitlers to put on the subtitles, and then rush to newspapers, radio, and TV stations to do publicity. Every sentence begins with this: "My movie-my TV series-my drama -"

If the film is successful, the director will say to the media: "The main thing I want to say in this play is-I caught it-I found it, I saw it-I did it-thank you for your support." If the film fails, the director will say: "The main reason why this film is not done well is, firstly, the script is not good, and then the leading actors and actresses are not good, and then the camera cannot be shot, the makeup is nonsense, the lighting is not right, The artist doesn’t know how to set the scene, the investors don’t have enough money, I’ve tried my best, but everything is out of control, there’s no way, come back next time—”

The screenwriter first deals with people with this face, what do you think will be the result?As a result, all screenwriters want to be directors. Not only the screenwriter, but also the cameraman, the artist, the actors, everyone, everyone. Therefore, it can be concluded that the fundamental difference between screenwriters and directors is that the work done by screenwriters is creation, while the director, needless to say, is power.Therefore, Daqing, who is not afraid of power, simply dismisses those directors who can't write scripts. Most of the directors Daqing likes write their own scripts. In this way, the director changes the process of exercising power into the process of realizing his own ideas. In this way, the director transforms from a power organization into a creative organization. In this way, the director becomes an artist.

The above words were told by Daqing to me when we talked about scripts. Daqing said, don’t talk about scripts, don’t talk about scripts, and don’t write scripts, especially don’t write scripts for them. Awesome opportunity, if you write the script, you can find the money yourself and find a way to shoot it. I like to hear Daqing publish such high-level theories. As I said, Daqing can not only create, but also think, and there are very few people like this. I think that as a senior screenwriter, Daqing's words make sense. I think maybe Daqing is an artist, he loves art more than power.

53 The bottom of the hot pot was almost dry, the mutton was almost finished, and when we were full of wine and food, Chen Xiaolu came slowly. She moved a chair and sat next to me, her hair combed perfectly, her Rolex watch, diamond ring, platinum earrings, and silver bracelet in place, her eyebrows painted, eyelashes painted, foundation applied, lipstick applied, perfume put on, Wearing a neat casual makeup, she is so pretty, like a fairy. I asked her, "Have you eaten yet?" "No." "We're almost done eating, let's see what we can order." "It's okay, I don't care."

"Don't, don't, we're waiting for you!" Everyone said in unison. Chen Xiaolu looked at everyone's concerned eyes on her, and then looked at me. I lowered my head: "The adultery is exposed, they all know it." Everyone roared with laughter. Chen Xiaolu rolled her eyes and looked at everyone. Daqing said: "Zhou Wen told me, and I told everyone." Jiancheng said: "It's okay, we can understand, we are all from here, let's eat." 54 After we came out of the restaurant, we scattered around, I got into Chen Xiaolu's car that was already on fire, looked up at Chen Xiaolu, and was surprised to find that she had a displeased look on her face. "What's wrong?" I asked, reaching out to hug her. Chen Xiaolu pushed me away: "I told you don't talk, don't talk - you -" I froze. After a while, I asked her, "Why?" "If I tell you not to say it, don't say it, you know—oh——" She sighed, closed her eyes, and leaned her head on the backrest with a look of infinite distress. "Then, I'll go first, goodbye." I opened the door and got out of the car. In a short while, Chen Xiaolu's car sped away. 55 As I said, love at first sight is unreliable, sex is even more far-fetched, there is no life-saving straw in the world, life is stagnant, and people have no purpose except to follow the rules to death. If there is, it is to live itself, to live , Live, live ruthlessly. When I walked on the street, I felt not only inexplicable, but also incomprehensible.I went through a lot of trouble and saw Chen Xiaolu, but I didn’t expect such a result. I wanted to smoke, but when I touched my pocket, the cigarette case was gone. The shabu-shabu restaurant where we ate just now was sparsely populated. The table we ate at just now had already been cleaned up. I went to the service desk and asked the lady on duty if she saw my wallet. The lady called the waiter who cleared the table. I questioned them one by one, but no one saw them, so I had to go out of the shabu-shabu restaurant and find a public phone, but I didn’t have any money on me, so I went back to the shabu-shabu restaurant again, and used the public phone there to call Daqing. I haven't arrived home yet, so I had to go out of the shabu-shabu restaurant again, wandering in the street for an unknown amount of time, and then turned back to the shabu-shabu restaurant. Unfortunately, the shabu-shabu restaurant was closed and even the lights inside were turned off , so I turned back the same way and went to the public phone to call Daqing, but no one answered, and Daqing still hadn’t returned home. It seemed that he and Wu Li had gone somewhere to play, so I sat by the public phone booth In a small piece of yellow light, waiting for Daqing to go home. While waiting, I was extremely bored. I didn’t even want to smoke or drink water. I was like a frog in a dry desert. I squatted on the ground with my eyes bulging. He walked down and down, his eyes were in a daze, and he couldn't recognize anything. 56 Finally, Daqing got through on the phone. He had already returned home. When he learned about my situation, he asked me to wait without saying a word. He hung up the phone and came straight to me. Within half an hour, a taxi stopped at Beside me, Daqing pushed open the door, got out of the car and paid the phone bill for me, I got into the car, and the car continued to drive, Daqing said: "I am also bored, Wu Li and I will go to her house together, I will not only watch I don't know what to do other than TV." "Where's Wu Li?" "I fell asleep as soon as I got home." "where are we going?" "Go—let's eat." "Didn't we just finish eating?" "Why am I hungry again?" "Okay, let's go eat." "Give." I took an envelope from Daqing, which contained 2,000 yuan. "I'll pay you back in two days." "Don't worry, all your money is in your wallet?" "yes." "how many?" "Five thousand." "Unfortunate." Daqing patted my shoulder and sighed. 57 Daqing and I were sitting in a cheap Cantonese restaurant called Jinding on the side of Dongzhimen Inner Street. It was twelve o’clock in the middle of the night, and Jinding started serving people. Dozens of them came in as soon as we ordered. In an instant, the whole restaurant was crowded and noisy. , So, we quickly finished eating and checked out, and I followed behind Daqing, bypassing several taxis waiting on the side of the road, and walked onto the road. Suddenly, I felt that there was something wrong with Daqing. As for what was wrong, I couldn’t tell at once. I recalled Daqing’s performance from the time we met in the afternoon to the evening, and recalled the call Daqing made to me. In short, there is indeed something wrong with Daqing. It is different from the past, especially now, Daqing is walking in front of me, like a wandering spirit, as if completely forgetting that I am walking behind him, I saw him go west for a while, then suddenly turn around in the middle, cross the road, and head east Go, cross the Dongzhimen Bridge, and then walk all the way in the direction of the Agricultural Exhibition Hall, without speaking to me in the middle. I walked two quick steps, side by side with Daqing, and patted him on the shoulder, Daqing stopped with a cry. "What's up?" "Daqing—" I didn't know how to speak, so I had to say, "I'm tired from walking, please sit down for a while." So we sat side by side on the curb. Daqing asked me for a cigarette and started smoking. "Are you sleepy?" Daqing asked me. "not sleepy." "How is Chen Xiaolu?" "How? I don't know." Daqing took off his glasses, wiped them with his T-shirt a few times, put them on again, and asked me incoherently, "Are you okay?" I stood up, took out a cigarette case from my trouser pocket, and took out two cigarettes, one for Daqing and I, and lit them respectively. "Daqing—" "what?" "Are you okay?" I finally realized the problem, so I raised my voice. "No?" Daqing turned to look at me. "No kidding - we were on the phone this morning, what did you mean 'come back' on the phone?" "What's the meaning?" "What do you mean? Wu Li was by your side at the time, right?" "Yes what's the matter?" "I just remembered your tone of voice, that sentence was said to Wu Li!" "What's the matter?" "Stay stubborn." I lowered my head, "If you don't want to sue me, forget it." "Guess again—" Daqing said to me in his usual joking tone, but the tone was extremely unnatural, and I thought, I guessed it right. "Daqing." "what?" "Why do you talk so little when you cook mutton at night?" "I just heard you talk about Chen Xiaolu, where can I get in the mouth?" "What about after Chen Xiaolu comes?" "I'm not afraid of affecting you—" "Why don't you come home so late?" "It's not that I made a bad friend by mistake and sent you money—" "Why are you unhappy?" "No?" "Daqing—" "what?" "What happened to you and Wu Li?" "We're screwed." 58 For me at that time, there were really a few things that were certain in the world, such as: life is blind.The universe is made of two kinds of matter - luminous and non-luminous.Mathematics is the most concise of all things.I am doomed to die and so on - among them, Daqing and Wu Li cannot be separated. Therefore, what Daqing said shocked me greatly, as if one of the limited things I believed was missing. I even forgot about the matter with Chen Xiaolu. Of course, when I say this, everyone will be stunned, so how to explain this matter? Because of the maxim I believe in that "the history of a thing is the thing itself," in order to find out about a thing, you have to start from the beginning, which is of course very troublesome. 59 Among my paltry so-called insights into life, there is one thing that is purely private, and that is my liking. Not afraid of being laughed at, I want to talk about it next. In essence, I only like one type of people, and I only have a little lasting interest in them. The characteristic of this type of people is that they always have an obsessed purpose in their lives, which is to find the meaning of life, regardless of whether they are men or women. Is female, high or low status, deep knowledge, good or bad encounters, life or death, moral or immoral, whether they have faith, whether they pursue the truth, and no matter how they explore, I always like this type of people, This kind of people is widely distributed in the world, it is not easy to identify, and most of them have died for a long time. In essence, this kind of people have a common characteristic, that is, they are all losers, and their way of finding the meaning of life is often What Ball Sr. called "trial and error." Daqing is unfortunately included in this list by me. 60 Daqing's life, creations, feelings, etc. have always revolved around the meaning of life. Therefore, it is self-evident that the relationship between Daqing and Wu Li also permeates the questioning of the meaning of life. Of course, Wu Li didn't know this.Wu Li is a normal girl who likes Daqing. She has simple requirements in life and pays attention to emotions. She rarely makes mistakes in their relationship and is willing to grow old with Daqing.I would add that the mental and physical lives of the two were generally in harmony. However—is there any meaning in life in emotion?Do relationships contain meaning in life?What is the role of desire in human relationships?This is what Daqing often asks himself. Daqing is very sincere, even in the face of his most humble desires, he is not relentless, Daqing dares to act, Daqing has some knowledge, as I said, he can think, analyze, and simply define things, even Daqing can use logic.In short, in my eyes, Daqing is a man with a brain. Daqing told me that there is only one person in the world that he will never forget, and that is Wu Li. Daqing has a lot of affection for Wu Li.Wu Li is simply a symbol and belief in the world of Daqing. Daqing also liked other girls, but his feelings towards Wu Li were always different from theirs. Daqing and Wu Li have lived together for ten years, during which there were of course small twists and turns, but Daqing has always had confidence in his relationship with Wu Li, which shows that Daqing has confidence in interpersonal relationships, which shows that Daqing hopes to find love in his relationship with Wu Li. The meaning of life - no matter what slang is used to describe this kind of behavior, such as love, perfection, communication and so on. However - what is certain is that Daqing and Wu Li are finished. Daqing finally did not find the meaning of life in Wu Li. All of my words must sound ridiculous, go ahead and laugh, it's all right.