Chapter 3 41-60

41 One night, Xiaochun took Feifei and knocked on the door and entered my room. After sitting down, he asked me if he could stay with me for a night. Put it up and put it in the living room, and the two of them slept there that night, they slept there the next night, they slept there the third day, and they slept there every day, I mean, the three of us lived in Together, I have to say again and again that Xiaochun is a righteous person. This time his righteousness is reflected in some details of life, such as: They never mess around and yell in the middle of the night, which makes me fantasize. They always urge me to be serious. Writing, even when they watch the video they turn the volume down and shut the door, they don't fight when they don't get along, they just stare at each other and look at each other endlessly, they're in my cabin Live quietly.

Of course, the three of us often play together. When I am not writing, we watch videos together, go to restaurants to eat, or simply cook at home. I am good at cooking, Feifei is good at washing dishes, and Xiaochun is good at eating out Treat, in short, the three of us get along well and live in peace with each other. For a while, Xiaochun and I were obsessed with playing billiards. We went to the billiards hall to play billiards every day, betting 100 yuan every night, and the money we won was used to buy video tapes on the street. Xiaochun and Xiaochun's billiard skills are developing rapidly, usually playing more than ten rounds an hour, and often the other side wins before they hit three strokes. Unfortunately, Feifei, she loves to play, and we always make excuses that her level is too poor. She watched from the sidelines for a long time, and even Feifei said that she should find me a girlfriend so that we can play with her when we play billiards.What's more, Feifei thinks that living with me is the best way to do something for me, which is to introduce a girlfriend to me. I agree with Feifei's suggestion very much. Trying a mixed-sex lifestyle is delusional.

42 So, Feifei started to introduce a girlfriend to me, of course, she chose from among her classmates. Let me declare in advance that I have a standard for finding girls, that is to try to find those who have boyfriends. It is very immoral for others to do this, but it is very convenient for me. I think that in terms of finding a partner of the opposite sex, You shouldn't think too much about other men, because you don't want to get him, and you don't want to have any relationship with him. On the contrary, you want to stay away from him. Morality shouldn't be an obstacle either, because it's actually just a matter of first come, first served.In addition, imagine if everyone embraced altruism and gave in to each other in this regard, saying "you can fuck this girl, I don't care", it would be even more unnatural.Moreover, with the changes of the times, women have more rights, so that they can make their own decisions. In the past, this matter not only required her consent (which was very difficult), but also had to be discussed with her partner (which was even more difficult). daunting), maybe there will be a duel back to ancient times, but the ancient ape's bare-handed fight is changed to two people holding weapons. I think that not only increases the possibility of casualties, but also very Inconvenient, not to mention, it makes things too convoluted, you want to get a girl, instead of getting involved in a violent act.As a pacifist, I think that the less primitive and ignorant violence like the Trojan War, the better. Modern Helen may wish to go back in time and return to Greece out of vanity, but modern men are not easily fooled. They have learned to respect women so that they will not suffer greater losses.

As for why I would rather find a girl with a boyfriend than a bachelor who seems to be easier to get?That depends on my personal analysis. I think it's better for me to list the reasons so that it can be seen clearly. The reasons are as follows: First of all, I think there must be a reason why a single girl is single. No matter what the reason is, I think it’s better not to mess with this kind of person. At least, after you get her, you will lose a chance to return it to the original owner. Suddenly, I became the original owner, so I can only carry it by myself. I don’t want to carry it. Carrying a girl will easily make her old. (I am especially wary of those girls who will grow old the next day. I would rather find those Really old girls who have given up on themselves, they seem reasonable) In a word, I don't have the ability to be responsible to others, so I don't dare to think about those beautiful porcelains rashly. I don't want to work hard with someone and wait until I succeed. She, I only look for my single opposite-sex comrades in the crowd. They are as restless as I am, have no ideas, walk around day to day, have no interest in giving birth to the next generation for the time being, and dare to take the risk of sexually transmitted diseases and pregnancy instead of starting a family. He is risky, knows himself very well, dare not take care of his own life and other people's life, likes to think of the worst in everything, does not believe in the future that is not yet here, refuses to be deceived and refuses to give up his pursuit The opportunity to have fun, not too cunning, preferably with a little bit of feminist influence, financially able to take care of themselves, not sneaking out to the point of being snobby and rambunctious, they can simply hang out with me all night, and they can simply be "for nothing" at dawn Leaving me cleanly, the important thing is that they have to be a bit pretty-to tell you the truth, I have never met a single girl like this so far. to appear, isn't that a neurosis?

Secondly, it is very easy to break up a couple who seem to be compatible, because there are many conditions that can be used.Think about it, when a man and a woman get together, they usually go through a process from acquaintance, to small friction, to big friction, to seeing through each other, until the spark of breaking up-of course, any moment in this process can lead to marriage. , but as long as I don't step into that threshold, I can take advantage of it. Let's start with the easiest. When they have already hit the spark of breaking up, due to the mysterious force of habit, the girls are often not used to the single life after the partnership is broken up. Therefore, they are more used to finding the next prey for themselves before they break up. If I happened to show up, it was very likely that I would win this honor, because the girls at that time were the least objective, and they were not used to everything about their old lovers, and they often ran around with the mentality of being deceived. Once there is such a person, such as me , gritted the bullet, endured disgust, and listened to their complaints patiently, then they would probably be regarded as an empathetic person by them. As we all know, girls like empathetic people most——At this time, I just need to If the girl is really hurt by an old lover (probably because he was unfaithful to her and found another girl), I can at least avenge her, and the worst Under certain circumstances, it is not a problem to rub it once.

When there is a big friction between them, you only need to be sideways and fight for the girl, and the big friction will soon rise to the previous situation. As for the small friction, I think, through your analysis, it is not difficult to bring it to the point of big friction. The stage of getting acquainted is actually very easy. At that time, girls often shop around with a strange mentality of choosing. If they want to know that they will accept everything, they are considered smart. However, girls often believe that one boyfriend is better than two This absurd conclusion, therefore, she will naturally compare back and forth, and even, as a result of her superstition and vanity about her sexual charm, she will often communicate with both parties openly and report information about one to the other. The key is that you should take her to bed firmly and quickly, then she will generally not report this information to the other party.What's more interesting is that many girls are often not very confident. She will take you to meet her friends of the same sex, and then listen to their opinions. This will not only increase your chances of pursuing other girls, but also take advantage of the strange same-sex relationship among women. Envy achieves your goals.

Even in the hardest of situations, between seemingly peaceful lovers, your presence can brighten a girl's life and frustrate her boyfriend—even if it doesn't work for them. Make excuses for future arguments, and, importantly, a girl with a boyfriend only compares me to her original boyfriend, which is better than dealing with single girls, because single girls often use you alone to her imaginary Compared with many men in the world, it is naturally difficult for you to win. If it is the kind of person who pursues morality, I think breaking up a pair can also find a way to become a morally perfect person, because you can convince yourself that you don't want to possess the girl, but just borrow her for use, and it will become clear after a while. Returning things back, I can even think that you may be willing to serve as a negative teaching material to let the girl understand the dangers of the world, so that she will cherish the broken mirror after reunion. This will also give you a little bit of comfort, and even feel that you are very noble Woolen cloth!Of course, this kind of people are very annoying, and I don’t even want to show them my novels. This kind of people are very hypocritical, no matter what they do, they can justify themselves, and there is no need for me to think of anything for them. In terms of shamelessness , I am still willing to bow down to this kind of people.

In addition, I am not interested in holy married women. They shoulder the mission of producing the next generation. I think it is my duty to let them spend more time on their children-if the next generation of children is like the previous generation If people are as stupid as human beings, then the desperate situation of human beings will continue absurdly. I am not an idealist. I have never thought that human beings will step into the light in the future. In fact, I have always hated the idealistic education I have received. Well, if I had been told from a young age that you were born as a human being, it was really a disaster, then at least I would not have the funny experience of disillusioned ideals, and now I would not compare unintelligible ideals with outrageous lies.

43 Closer to home. In the beginning, it was a girl named Xia Wei. She had a good name and was decent-looking. She just didn’t like to tell the truth. I don’t have any special opinions on people who have a habit of lying in life, but I just don’t feel comfortable getting along with such people. Convenient, because liars usually don't lie about everything, so you can only guess at what such a person says, which is very cumbersome, and besides, this girl is next to a guy who runs a fertilizer factory, We invited her to watch a movie together, but unexpectedly she didn’t go, so the three of us waited for a long time at the entrance of the movie theater. After we finished the movie, she came, but she wanted Lafeifei to go to another place to play. In short, it’s not good I went through it again and again, and finally I lost interest. Feifei thought that the introduction of one would not work, and it made me run around. I was very sorry, so she had to introduce the second one to me. The second one only met once. I invited her to eat roast duck in a restaurant, and I hardly said anything during the meal, because that girl was very powerful, and every sentence she uttered was followed by an exclamation point, so I dropped the matter.Feifei began to realize that the situation was not simple, so she relaxed, and then re-entered the vicious circle—I mean, I was also wandering around about this matter.

44 As we all know, if you want to accomplish something, you can’t rely on others, because others don’t have your desire, so of course it’s impossible to do it. Of course, I’m referring to ordinary people, and they don’t have others around them as their will. Tool, so I have to worry about everything, unfortunately, I am such a person, with Feifei and Xiaochun living in my place, watching a pair of young men and women dangling in front of me all day, slowly, not I felt envious, and my passion for writing was swept away. I am not a genius, and I don’t have the kind of strong will and long-term patience that are beneficial to writing. Although I think of doing literature when I have no choice but to do it on a whim, I don’t know whether literature itself will allow me to do it to my heart’s content. I thought that after I came to the East Highlands, the environment would force me to be lonely and force me to write masterpieces. But who knows that the situation changed, I also adapt to the situation, changed my mind, and immediately decided that I should not waste my time on vain literature. I don't want to write a good book for others to enjoy and enjoy Endless fun, but I live a miserable ascetic life, I don't have Nietzsche's hobbies, I am a shrewd and practical Chinese, I lack the dedication of God, and God just sacrificed his son for the salvation of mankind , but I live a good life-even the effect of God's move, I mean whether human beings are saved or not, I think it is too early to draw conclusions, I admit that I am sometimes infected by the magical spirit of self-sacrifice , but once I think about the specific object and effect of dedication, most of them will change my mind. I think it’s a little bit more expensive to save a friend, because friends are likely to stop you and say that you are loyal, but you are dedicated to it. I don’t think tricks like literature are very reliable——Looking at Xiaochun and the others looking like fish in water, I can’t help being very greedy. The pursuit of literature is quietly extinguished in my heart, and I think it’s better to get ten famous books A girl is really coming—at the root, although I am sometimes arrogant and supercilious, but most of the time, I have no ambitions, and I like friends who also have no ambitions. When I have no ambitions, I really look down on her. Those guys who are full of ideals-especially idealists like Hitler-in my opinion, the arrogance of idealists makes me terrified, and I hide from them whenever I have the opportunity, lest I get hurt and become a reality. They are ideal talking tools.

Let me also say that when I am full of carnal desires, I can't help being tired of spiritual life. If it doesn't serve my carnal desires better, then I feel that the spiritual life is a total pain. If I am satisfied, I will change my body and turn to see what is worthy of my entertainment in the spiritual world of human beings. My truth may make some people uncomfortable, but I think I also have my right, that is, to People who don't like me don't like the right.So I do what I say and do what I do. 45 Getting girls is not easy for me, especially after I've been out of my environment for a while.I opened the phone book and called a few girls. Of course they were busy and had no time to relax with me. I suddenly thought of Liu Qin and decided to call her. It took me a long time to call her. I called an assistant director who was in charge of selecting actors. He had Liu Qin's phone number in his hand. I called him, but the other party was a man. The man said he bought Liu Qin's mobile phone, but he and Liu Qin didn't know each other, but it was done through Liu Qin's friend. He knew Liu Qin's friend's phone number and told me. I called Liu Qin's friend again. She knew that Liu Qin had changed her mobile phone, but she forgot it. She said that there was a phone book on the desk in her dormitory, and Liu Qin's phone number was recorded in it. She said that she could ask her roommate to look it up. She told I called the phone number of her dormitory again, and the person who answered the phone was a girl. After hearing about my intentions, she actually found the phone book, which was said to be green leather. She found Liu Qin's phone number from it Tell me, I called, the person who answered the phone was still not Liu Qin, but another friend of Liu Qin, she said that Liu Qin left the phone on her boyfriend's car last night, and her boyfriend just left The phone was handed over to her, and she asked me, "Are you in a hurry?" I really couldn't tell her the truth, so I had to say, "It's nothing serious." She said, "Liu Qin will come to me later to pick up the Can I ask her to call you back?" I said, "Okay." 46 I only received a call from Liu Qin the next day. When I was worrying about eating in the evening, Liu Qin asked me on the phone: "Who made this call yesterday?" I said: "Me." You? Impossible——" she said, her voice was flying in a mess, needless to say, she was on marijuana. "Why?" I asked. "Because——you are a man?" "Yes." "I tell you, I don't know a man at this point." "Why?" "Because—"Suddenly, she giggled, "I I know too many men, I can't tell who you are?" I said, "I'm Zhou Wen." "Zhou Wen?" Does any of you know who Zhou Wen is?" Seeing that this matter was getting more and more outrageous, I had no choice but to hang up the phone, but unexpectedly, half a minute later, the call came again, and it was Liu Qin's voice, which sounded like nothing to mention. How dizzy. "Zhou Wen, is that so?" "Yes—" "Where are you?" I couldn't hear clearly, "Are you the one who lured me to your house while I was drunk?" I had to honestly admit: "To tell you the truth, it's me." "Why did you call me?"" I care about you." "Caring about me?" "It doesn't count as caring." "What is that?" "Worrying." "Why?" She laughed again, this time for a longer time. "When did you start flying?" I found a topic. "Me? Did I fly?" "I don't know." "I didn't fly, I was with my friends—" "Oh." "—fly—" she caught up. "Oh." "Do you know what time it is?" I looked at my watch: "Six o'clock in the evening." "It's six o'clock in the evening!——Why am I not hungry at all?" "I'm hungry——I have to go to bed We've had dinner in the street." I've become quite flummoxed by this chatter, and, from my experience, it's time for her to babble, so I decided to stop. "Really?" "Ah." "Are you eating alone?" "I wanted to invite you to eat together." "That's what you said—" "What's the matter?" "You have to remember, you owe I have a meal." "I remember." "I'll spare you today." "Thank you." "Hey, are you Zhou Wen who wrote the script?" "What do you mean?" "I ask you, are you Not writing scripts?" "Yes." "Hey, I really have something to ask you." "What's the matter? Forget it, let's talk about it when you wake up." "What do you mean?" "I-I don't know you What's the status." "I'm fine—are you coming?" "I still have something to do." "Then what about treating me to dinner?" "Didn't you say you'd spare me today?" "I said Have you been?" "Yes." She let out another long laugh, and heard from the receiver that she was very happy. "Don't be afraid, I don't want to eat you." She laughed again, longer this time. "It's time to eat yours." I said. "Really don't want to eat with us?" "Unless you agree to hang out with us." "It's disgusting." She laughed again. "It's fine if you don't agree. Anyway, there are a group of people here. It doesn't matter if there is one more or one less." "Really?" Just send a reporter to interview." The phone was covered, and I couldn't hear anything. After a while, Liu Qin's voice came out again from the receiver: "Hey, is it Zhou Wen?" "Yes." "Let's have dinner together , It’s just the two of us, I really have something to ask you, besides, I also want to see who lied to me last time. Don’t say, I really didn’t look at you last time, and now I don’t have any impression.” “Hey , If you say that, I'll hang up the phone, or you'll never know what mystery is." "Don't, don't—" "Don't, don't—" I'll follow her. "Seriously, do you know where I am?" "I don't know." "At a friend's house - we cook and eat together, three dishes, one soup, you come, my friend has something to do soon, I have to go out As for the dishes, we haven’t eaten, there’s a lot left, and the soup—there’s still a mouthful left.” “You won’t put something in the dishes, will you?” “Don’t worry, I won’t, I’ll put it in the rice.” After all, she giggled again. "Don't tell your friend to go, I haven't seen it yet." "It's disgusting-my friend is more than 20 years older than me, and I call her daughter Big Sister, so don't even think about it." "Oh——" "Are you coming?" "Where is it?" "In Fangzhuang District, Liu Fangyuan." She said the building number and house number, and then said: "If you can't find it, call my cell phone and I will go down to pick you up." " 47 Of course I can find it, even the most ruthless KGB female agent who is good at hiding and attacking, as long as she is a bit pretty, I believe I can find her and kill her.I cleaned myself up so that I didn't look physically disgusting, I mean, I cleaned myself up, and then I went downstairs, got into a taxi, and headed straight for my destination. When I rang the doorbell, I blocked the viewing hole with one hand to prevent the other party from peeping at me through the door. I didn't let go of my hand until there was a shout of "who is it?" The door opened, and Liu Qin appeared in front of me. She was wearing a pair of jeans and a tight T-shirt. She was ten times thinner than I remembered. "Please come in." "My name is Zhou Wen." "My name is Liu Qin." "I know." "I know too." "You haven't changed." "You haven't changed." "I've changed."" I just changed." "I don't think I can change anything by changing it, don't change it." "You are disgusting." During the greetings, I entered the door and changed into a pair of cloth slippers in the hall , walked into the living room with the floor, and saw a table of meals neatly piled up on the dining table. It was really not leftover, and the table was covered with a tablecloth. I went to the kitchen, washed my hands, turned back and sat down at the dining table side. "Can I eat it?" I asked. "Let's eat." Liu Qin sat opposite me. I started to eat, because I was very hungry, so I ate very quickly. I drank two bowls of soup. Liu Qin just gestured a few times with a pair of chopsticks, and then stopped eating. She kept drinking water, rarely Talk, and when I finish eating, I will pack up my things.I pretended to help her clean up, but she refused. I sat on the sofa and waited for her to come back. When she came back and sat on the ground opposite me, she handed me the tissue box and asked me to wipe my mouth. Rice grains and the like were found on the paper towels.I smiled at her: "Don't be so thoughtful, you're not a restaurant waiter." "Yeah—I'm just an actor trying to please the screenwriter." "That puts my mind at ease." "You're disgusting."" Really?" "What am I doing to please you, and you don't think about it?" "I thought about it, but I didn't think about it—it's my turn to please you." "That's more or less the same." The conversation was interrupted, and we exchanged Look, at the same time, like a person who has nothing to say, reach out for the teacup to drink tea, and put it back on the table at the same time after drinking, counting her cleverness, find something to do, she pours me tea, I just sit, but I also have a way to deal with it. I watched her pour tea and commanded: "More." After saying this, I thought of another topic. "I saw you a while ago, in Dongfang No. 1." I said. "No. 1? Impossible, I have never been there." "Strange? Did I read it wrong?" "I will never go to Dongfang No. 1, I only go to Banana." "Hey, this is weird. If I hadn't met you that time, I wouldn't have thought of calling you." "You—" "Did I see a ghost that day?" "Who are you scolding?" "I was talking to myself—— Let me ask you, do you have a younger sister or elder sister who looks very similar to you?" "What nonsense are you talking about, you, we are all only children, you think I am a farmer from other places!" "It's weird—too Resemblance." "Let me tell you——a place like a disco, everyone looks like everyone, it's dark, how can you see clearly?" "Oh, it's weird, did I think of you on a whim?" "I see You think of me when you're horny." "Ten points for the correct answer." "It's disgusting." We laughed together. "How are you doing recently?" "Me? I'm fine." "Why is it so weird?" "My two boyfriends used to fight to find me together, but now for some reason, they ignore me all of a sudden." "Alright, it's rare to be quiet, isn't it?" "What is it! I'm so angry!" "Why?" "The two of them are robbing my best friend now!" "Who is your best friend?"" Who? From our dormitory, you should know each other. I met you last time." "Last time? Last time I saw you all—others didn't remember you." Wang wrote the script?" "I wrote it a while ago, but later he felt that I couldn't write well, so he asked someone else." "Really?" "I don't even bother to lie to you about this kind of thing." She smiled: "So it is That's it." "It's over," I said, "Can you treat me to a meal for nothing?" She smiled bitterly, suppressing her disappointment, and pretended not to understand: "What did you say?" From then on, the conversation became intermittent. Finally, we had nothing to say. I went to the balcony, looked at the lights below, and thought about how to get away. When I looked back, I saw Liu Qin lying on the floor. He was motionless, and even his eyes were closed. I said, "Hey, then I'm leaving." Liu Qin opened her eyes, looked at me, and said nothing. I walked back from the balcony and passed her: "The food you cook is delicious." Liu Qin smiled: "Don't go, some friends will come over to play together later, let's go to Banana." "I don't Go, it's too noisy." "Then—" She looked at me, "It's bad luck." I heard her mutter in such a low voice, but I didn't know what she was referring to. I went to the hallway to change my shoes, Liu Qin came over and looked at me: "Aren't you going to play with us?" "Next time." "Then, let's call later." She yawned and rubbed the Said with closed eyes. I nodded, opened the door, and walked out. "Goodbye," she said to me. 48 I'm interested in the life of an actor, and sometimes it's a strange feeling when I see actors who never hope to be famous go around, the success of actors is extremely limited, and even for talented actors, being famous is not easy. Mostly by luck, but actors have a way of exposing themselves to highly uncertain prospects.Actors are people made of special materials. They can do things that many people can't. I can't imagine how actors feel when there is no filming for a long time. How do I keep my beauty from fading? I can recognize the actors from the crowd at once. Every trained actor has a unique temperament. Their enigmatic eyes are scattered in the city of Beijing , Scattered in bars, swimming pools, discos, restaurants, theaters, and the projection halls of studios, the figures of those actors are full of passion and dreams, and they are recorded on film or video tapes for people to watch. Sometimes, I will see them one after another. Two films from different periods, with the same actors, but decades apart in age, are almost unrecognizable, but the phantom made up of the same person's face clearly tells me some kind of information about time, I can't imagine How an aging actor watches films of his own youth as phantoms of his past not only animate but also make voices, a horrific record that forces one's present to confront the past directly, Clarke.Gable and Vivien Leigh's kissing scene was seen by Gable when he was old. What would he think?Would he believe that all that ever happened?I have no idea.Sometimes, on the set of filming, I see actors and actresses with different ulterior bitterness in their pockets, but they can perform all kinds of performances under the camera that have nothing to do with their hearts. I feel that is really a miracle. 49 I absolutely hate taking pictures, and I absolutely hate looking at old photos of myself, it's some disgusting evidence that I exist without meaning, and I can't stand it.The self in memory is better, it is very vague, and, together with the less certain imagination, it often prevents me from facing the past years too clearly, which makes me feel passable, but the photos are ruthless. , it made me unhappy to see that the so-called "growth" is very objective and concrete, and it tells the pain and absurdity that a life from scratch has to go through. There is the characteristic of trying to maintain its existence, and human life has this characteristic, but in vain knows that this is impossible, and can only struggle wildly, looking at its own bad end, even from descendants. You can’t be comforted, because your descendants’ minds start from scratch, and there is no memory of you in them. Even, you have to feel uneasy about the meaningless existence of your descendants. What is more troubling is that all this consciousness takes place forever outside of your death!You can see, you can feel, you can infer, and you can believe that your inference is correct. Once your eyes leave the appearance of busy life, it will fall on your existence, and your life will linger in pessimism. More than that, I can't stop in nothingness! 50 I thought, I digress again, what's the matter with me? To hell with film, photographs, audio tapes, mirrors and the like!I don't want to face them.I should go back to the memory of Yunshan Wuzhao. My memory can be controlled by my imagination, and I can shine a light in the dark night of existence. I can make it warm, and I can also make it scented. I will try whatever makes me feel at ease, I can only live on my memory, I need the comfort of chaos, I need to forget myself, I need to liven up my existence, I need to write, I believe, I can Comfort yourself, in the narrative, I will not get lost, because I know my duty, I am a stupid writer, I want to write a bestseller, I want to have a happy reunion with life and then leave reluctantly, I want to go to a garden Instead of being a ruin, I want to go into the garden and pick off all the colorful flowers. I will lead you, my reader, and let you play with me in the world ecstatically. I lie to you, for To make you happy, to make you happy, not to take you into the desert, to cuddle with you, to be terrified, to be in distress, I don't want to do that, I don't want to be in a situation with no one I can't get out of, I have to resist thinking about that kind of bad luck, even though I know that I don't have the talent to turn hell into paradise. 51 Now that I'm too lazy to lead the readers around, I think I'd better tell how I seduced Humong cleverly. The time has come and the story should begin. 52 To be honest, this matter is all due to Liu Qin, and part of the blame has to be settled on Xiaochun and Feifei. Of course, the two girls Xu Jing and Zhao Yan are also indispensable. There are only me and Buzzing left, so I have to waste my saliva and start with Liu Qin. 53 Xiaochun and Feifei are still living with me. They don’t quarrel most of the time, but once Feifei thinks that Xiaochun doesn’t care enough about her, they will quarrel. Xiaochun is fine when he and Feifei are alone, but once he sees Feifei’s beauty Classmates will be moved by their beauty, and they will fantasize about changing tastes. At this time, he is often impatient and meticulous, and if he is careless about Feifei's request, he will find it troublesome. Sometimes he thinks that if he gets a better Feifei would treat her better if he had a more beautiful girl. In fact, he was always fantasizing about weaving other beautiful girls into his harem. Unfortunately, he was not an emperor, or even a homeless man. In the world, he has almost nothing except a home he doesn't like to return to and a Xiali car. In this snobbish society, his ideas are surprisingly unrealistic. It is difficult for a girl to fit into his harem. Think about it, what can a Xiali hold?But Xiaochun also has a sober moment. He realizes that Feifei is very rare, so he will show more care for Feifei. This often happens after the two quarrel and when they reconcile as before. At this time, the two will show a kind of Happily, as a bystander, I will understand the meaning of the sentence "Only gods and beasts are alone", I mean, I think I am like a beast. So, I set out to find my partner, regardless of whether it is suitable or not, first become a human being and then talk about other things. I started to try my best to keep in touch with friends from the past and go out at night. For this reason, I took out all my savings, bought a Jetta car, drove it around, went to public places to spend time, watched dramas, movies, and concerts , go to pop concerts, even watch dances, go to art exhibitions, change restaurants for dinner, hang out with a few drunks in several bars in one night, in short, anything, as long as you can meet more acquaintances, meet a熟人就能把熟人周围的人都认识，这样积累下去，只要花上足够的时间，在北京这种地方，你就会认识几乎所有常在外面混的人。 我就是这么干的，功夫不负有心人，很快，我就能够在外面搭上姑娘了，可惜我那时没把嗅蜜与选美搞清楚，所以一直暗暗难过，认为出动的效果不甚理想，直到一天在一个酒吧趴在桌上吃薯条之际，耳边传来一个熟悉的声音，＂请挪一下――＂我一回头，是刘琴，我们背靠背坐着，椅子挨到一起，她的衣服被夹在当中，而衣兜里的手机正在响着。 她一笑：＂是你呀――＂我搬动自己的椅子，对她说，＂这电话肯定不是我打给你的。＂她找到手机，看了看，一下子关掉：＂讨厌，没完没了的，真讨厌。＂＂谁呀？＂＂我男朋友，我在他身边他就劝我多出去见见导演，我要老跟导演在一起，他就打电话让我回去，什么人呐！＂ 54 俗话说，苍蝇不叮无缝的蛋，刘琴随便一句话，我立即心领神会，我回头看到她与两男两女坐在一桌，其中一个边说话边指手划脚，还真像个导演，与刘琴在一起的姑娘一副爱听的样子，我回过头，与我一桌的两个酒友正无聊地把头望向电视，那里正播出一场足球比赛，我把椅子横着移了移，又向后移了移，这样，我正好与刘琴能够侧着脸说话。 ＂你最近怎么样？＂＂最近――我？＂＂是啊――＂＂刚从上海回来――＂＂上谁的戏呢？＂＂老王的――我演女二号。＂＂怎么样？＂＂没劲――贤妻良母型的，你看我像吗？＂我笑了笑，没说话。 ＂你呢？＂她干脆把椅子转过来，与我坐并排。 ＂我？＂＂你写什么呢？＂＂没人约我――想写也写不了，在家呆着呢。＂＂哎，我知道有一制片人在找剧本呢――＂＂别给我介绍――＂＂那你想我给你介绍什么？＂＂女朋友。＂＂算了吧――又想耍流氓了吧？＂＂你的意思――要耍一块儿耍是不是？＂＂真恶心。＂我笑了起来。 ＂你真找女朋友呀？＂＂真的――发一个吧。＂＂哎，你想要什么样的？＂＂好的呗。＂＂什么样的算好的？＂＂你这样的就成。＂＂我这样的你哪儿有戏呀。＂＂眼看着你这样好的不成，我就只好退而求其次――＂＂哎，我问你，我算好的吗？＂＂算，你就算好的了。＂＂真的？＂我手机响了，我看了一眼来电显示，是一个我约好的姑娘，我盯着刘琴的眼睛，＂可是我得走了，有姑娘在等我。＂＂那我要是陪你呢？＂刘琴一把抢过我的手机，跟我闹，＂不许接。＂我乐了，＂那也要有个先来后到呀。＂她看着我：＂那么，留个电话吧？我把你电话丢了。＂我把电话写在烟盒上，把一包烟给她：＂先别抽，等我们练完了一起数着星星抽。＂＂为什么？＂＂因为我要把你带到荒郊野外，在深更半夜乱搞，在我的汽车顶上。＂＂真恶心。＂＂我们可以数着星星乱练，你数一颗，我练一下。＂＂我看我数不了几颗就会数晕。＂＂我想我练不了几下也会练晕。＂＂你说什么呐？＂＂我？对台词――灭琼瑶的电视剧台词，你说这种台词能让演员的大虫牙酸倒吗？＂＂我说呀――真恶心。＂ 55 是的，真恶心，我以前根本不会耍贫嘴，写了几年电视剧以后居然无师自通，出门在外经常能够派上用场，我是说，随时都能出口成章，碰到不吃我这套的就会顿遭白眼儿，但要是遇上随和的却能没话找话，说个没完，无疑，刘琴就属于后一种人，她把椅子转回去，接着与另一桌的人说话，我从她手里要过电话，打回去，那个姑娘告诉我，晚上不出来混了，明天一早有事，我失望地挂下电话，把目光也投向电视，万般无奈地看那场我特不爱看的足球比赛。 比赛完毕，我与来的两个人付了账，出了酒吧，招手告别，我走向我的汽车，却在路边看到正在打车的刘琴。 ＂你把出租车钱给我吧――这趟活儿，我拉了。＂她回头看到我，笑了：＂怎么又碰见你了，我都换了俩地儿了。＂＂我一直追着你――没发现吧。＂＂你那么恶心呐！＂她对我说，笑了起来。 ＂你不是住方庄吗――我顺路送你。＂＂方庄？＂她像恍然大悟似的说，＂我早不住那儿了。＂＂你住哪儿？＂＂我住亚运村那边。＂＂完了，跟我们家正相反，你还是打车吧。＂＂你看，你看，还说要把我带荒郊野外去呢――现在不是正深更半夜吗？＂＂可我还没想好当不当强奸犯呢――＂我一招手，＂上车吧。＂＂我跟你逗着玩呢――我自己打车走。＂＂那好吧――再见――下次可别逗我了。＂＂你真想送我？＂她挑起眉毛问我。 56 开着车，带着刘琴，听着音乐，一会儿便把她送到家，她住在亚运村往北很远的一幢像是农民盖的五层楼房里，夜深人静，四周连路灯也没有，我停下车，对她说：＂要不要再送你一段？＂她想了想：＂只许送我到门口。＂＂我还是走吧。＂＂谢谢你。＂她下了车，一直走进漆黑的楼洞。 我看看表，已经半夜两点了，于是掉了头，把车向外开，没开多远手机就响了，我一接，居然是刘琴。 ＂是周文吗？＂＂当然了――你改主意啦？＂＂我们这儿停电了！＂＂怎么了？＂＂我害怕。＂＂那――＂＂我什么也看不见，打火机落酒吧了，门也打不开，这楼里只住了两户人。＂＂你男朋友呢？＂＂给他儿子过生日去啦。＂＂你的意思是――＂＂你回来接我吧。＂＂好吧。＂我再次掉回车头，往回开了一段，来到刘琴楼下，车灯下，只见刘琴站在楼洞前，用手挡着眼睛，冲我招手，我停下车，她迅速拉开门钻进车里。 ＂吓死我了。＂＂你是说我吗？＂＂真吓死我了。＂我把车内的灯打开，只见她手里拿着我给她的那盒烟，我从烟盒中拿出一支烟点燃，递给她，她吸了一口，把烟雾吐出：＂什么破地儿呀！怪不得才卖八万，我住进来不到一个月，都停三次电了。＂＂你男朋友送你的房子？＂＂他？＂刘琴看我一眼，＂他只送过我这个手机――和一脸盆精液。＂我们一齐大笑起来。 ＂要不，你跟我混吧？我可以把手机钱省了。＂＂你？＂我低下头：＂我正找女朋友，找来找去我看还不如你。＂刘琴看我一眼：＂不合适，你太小，我想找个年纪大点的。＂＂年纪大还不容易，再过几年我不就年纪大了吗？＂＂算了吧――再过几年我也年纪大了。＂她黯然地说。 ＂到那时候――＂＂到那时候――你就后悔了。＂＂还真没准儿――可是――＂＂可是――＂刘琴看着我，＂你别多想了，我们去哪儿？＂我心头一凉，停了一下，才接口道：＂不知道，我们家有俩朋友住着，不太方便。＂＂要不，你陪我上去吧。＂＂行，我后备箱里有一包蜡，前一段买蛋糕时白送的。＂＂你去拿着吧。＂ 57 我们没有用上蜡烛，我一手打着打火机，一手拉着刘琴的手走上一节节楼梯，后来我不用打火机了，我抱住她往上走，一直走上五楼，再往后，我们开了门，进去，再往后，我们上了床。 刘琴是个瘦骨精，我与她乱搞时，她的髋骨总会撞到我，看样子她是那种喜欢乱搞的人，搞得非常好，我们中间一句话也没说过，只在完事前，她提醒我：＂别――＂我说我知道。 她去洗澡，我却差点睡着，她洗完回来叫我，我去洗。 随后，她对我说：＂明天一早他可能回来――你只能睡到天亮的时候。＂我直起身说：＂我还是现在就走吧。＂她拉住我：＂别，再陪我躺一会儿。＂我说：＂一会儿我就真困了。＂＂你要愿意现在走，就走吧，反正我一睡着就没事了。＂我下了床，拉开窗帘，月光透进来，我找到自己的衣服，穿上，往外走。 她叫住我：＂真怪，我们俩一碰到就会出一些怪事。＂＂我看你就像一件怪事。＂我开着玩笑，话音未落，一头撞在一个衣柜上。 58 从刘琴那里出来，我把车开回到东高地，我开门进去，小春与菲菲已经睡着，我轻手轻脚上了床，闭上眼，却无法睡去，有种人生如梦的感觉，半天，我才发现我是醒着，睁着眼睛在黑暗中愣神，我想我有点失眠，于是起来吃了一片安定，天朦朦亮的时候，药力发作，我慢慢睡去了。 59 我像是被一阵说话声吵醒的，起初，说话声听起来显得非常模糊，渐渐地，说话声清晰起来，我没有睁开眼睛，而是竖起耳朵，仔细地听，原来，小春正与菲菲低声地吵架，因为他们要压低声音，所以听起来就显得格外的凶狠，我可不想在这时醒来，于是，接着装睡，不久，两人由于没吵出什么结果，决定休战，我正要趁机起床，不料，小春的一句什么话却引起了菲菲的不满，很快，两人再次开战，话题变换很快，从一个人不关心另一个人，转到什么是关心，转到举例说明，从一个例子又转成相互告诫，这时，两人显得十分推心置腹，显然，双方都对对方十分关心，可一个关心，另一个却不领情，很快，两人开始就某一问题争执起来，接着，菲菲开始埋怨小春不好好工作，努力上进，小春说菲菲不该跟别的混混在一起混，忽然，话题再一转，两人都说自己这样过是不得已为之，因为看不到什么希望，这本是一个和好的机会，不幸的是，两人错过了，相互指责再次开始，声音越来越大，小春示意菲菲到厅里去吵，不要吵醒我，于是，两人来到厅里，关上门，一会儿，菲菲进来，低声哭着，收拾东西，准备离去，我想做为朋友，我应劝一劝，于是假装醒来，问菲菲：＂是不是吵架了？＂菲菲悄悄地擦去眼泪，不说话，很快便把一个小包收拾好，然后走了出去，单元门当地一声关上了，我叫小春，他过来，我说：＂追去吧，别打架呀！＂小春抽了两口烟，追了出去，半小时后，我已起床，刷完牙洗完脸，正喝速溶咖啡时，小春回来了，坐在我旁边，连连叹气，我说：＂怎么了？＂小春说：＂不回来，走了。＂我说：＂那晚上去她们团找吧。＂小春说：＂你看，弄一个姑娘也没什么劲。＂一会儿，他又说：＂你写东西吧，我们没耽误你吧？＂ 60 我要说，任何开头都是好的，但开头之后，坏事的苗头就会出现――总之，你早晚会面对不知所措的局面，如果菲菲与小春只是混在一起几天，那么一切要么随风而去，要么便会有一段或好或坏的记忆，不幸的是，事情慢慢发展，最终会把人拖进泥潭――总之，好结局不多见。 小春在我的房间里来来回回走了有10公里，断然得出结论，且与我有关：＂我得把她找回来，还没帮你找一姑娘呢，她要走了，还真麻烦。＂这成为小春晚上找回菲菲的理由，也许因为同样的理由，菲菲决定回来――当然，这是笑话，总之，晚上，两人已经再次相亲相爱地与我一起看录像了，为了庆祝他们和好，我给他们放了一盘由艾尔。帕西诺与米歇尔。法依弗主演的美国商业片《弗朗基与约翰尼》，让他们觉得，外国人也吵架，与中国人一模一样。 电影看完后，我们一起听音乐，小春再次向菲菲提出给我介绍女朋友的事，我假装表示，不着急，反正也就那么回事，小春问我昨天夜里有没有什么好事，我说，我说不清，反正碰见一姑娘，最后一起上了床。 ＂好看吗？＂小春问我。 ＂是个演员。＂我说。 小春说：＂还是找菲菲的同学吧，免得你学坏。＂菲菲说：＂可我们班女孩除了嗡嗡都有朋友了。＂小春说：＂嗡嗡够呛吧？＂我说：＂是不太合适，我想，怎么也得比嗡嗡好看点吧？＂菲菲说：＂嗡嗡挺好看的。＂我说：＂那是在500年前的意大利。＂菲菲说：＂你要是闷的慌，我就叫嗡嗡过来，她反正没事儿，昨天晚上我还看见她一个人在传达室门口转来转去，一副没事干的样子，我们这些不回团的人有什么事儿就问她，她天天呆宿舍里，什么事儿都知道。＂＂要不叫来？＂小春问我。 ＂叫来也行，我可以把老巍介绍给她。＂ 老巍是我的同学，没别的毛病，就是头有点秃，给自己起了一个乐观的外号叫靓仔，谁要说他不亮，他就在我＂晃他晃他＂的叫嚷声中，低下头给别人看。 ＂不合适吧，＂菲菲说道，＂老巍人是不错，可看起来像个四张儿的人，嗡嗡才17岁。＂＂可是，＂我反驳道，＂靓仔10年前也17岁呀！＂别说，菲菲还真让我给驳倒了。 ＂要么，把他们俩都叫来，相互看看吧。＂＂可周文怎么办呀？＂小春说。 ＂我不着急。＂我说。