Chapter 24 231-240

231 The day Yuan Xiaochen came back, I finally made up my mind, called Yao Jingjing, and made an appointment to pick up my ID card that I had left with her. The place was a restaurant, and Yao Jingjing was really bored, so she agreed to me. Before boarding the plane, Yuan Xiaochen called me and told me to go to the company to pick her up and talk to me. I said I couldn't confirm the time, so I should call. After that, I set off. After meeting Yao Jingjing, Turn off the phone and let Yuan Xiaochen's heart flutter. Being with Yao Jingjing made me psychologically balanced. Because of this balance, I think I couldn't help feeling a little grateful to her. This feeling of gratitude formed a solid affection in an instant. Because of this affection, I flattered her. , try to make her happy, now, we are in an Italian restaurant, drinking coffee, chatting, I found her surprisingly cute, that is a kind of cuteness, understanding, that I didn't notice before, Relaxed but not tense, Yao Jingjing has a little fox face, white shirt tied in jeans, tied with a wide belt, long legs stretched far, always with a smile when talking, gossip with her face, I just suddenly felt a kind of pain in an instant, that is, thinking that Yuan Xiaochen can chat and flirt with other men like Yao Jingjing, but this pain comes and goes quickly, and it is easy to be interrupted by conversation.

232 To make a long story short, in short, luck was on my side at the critical moment. That night, I played well and won Yao Jingjing's favor. It was only nine o'clock in the evening when I sent Yao Jingjing home. At that time, we were all sober. It made me think that I was starting a new relationship with Yao Jingjing. This illusion infected Yao Jingjing. In short, in order to avoid the uncomfortable feeling, even though I was in a trance that night, I succeeded in empathizing. Although I did not mess with Yao Jingjing, But she also slept tenderly and sweetly for the night, and decided to start dating in the future. In fact, Yao Jingjing had a boyfriend with an unstable relationship at that time, but I persuaded her to talk about breaking up with her boyfriend the next day. Everything happened so quickly and absurdly that I still felt a little unbelievable when I sent Yao Jingjing to work the next morning.

233 "What did you do last night?" As soon as I entered the door, I heard Yuan Xiaochen's questioning voice from the living room. I walked into the living room and saw Yuan Xiaochen sitting on the sofa with a haggard face and luggage on the floor. Nothing in the room moved. It was the same as when I left. My malice was fully satisfied in an instant. I knew she suffers with I have experienced the same, and maybe more than that. "You really want to know?" I was thinking about the ammunition in my hand, thinking about when to deliver the fatal blow. She thought for a while, then nodded firmly: "Yes."

"I will go to Yao Jingjing." In a state of being unable to wait, I blurted out. Yuan Xiaochen was taken aback for a moment, and I thought that maybe such a direct word was completely unexpected to her. She stood up, poured a glass of water, but put it out of her reach: "How did it happen? How much did it cost?" "It cost three hundred for a meal." "and then?" "And then went to the show with her for free." I made it up. "and then?" "And take her home." "and then?" "Then she didn't send me back."

She knocked on the table: "What do you mean?" "You know what that means." "Details! Talk about details!" "What do you want to hear, just ask, how can I remember so much?" "Did you fuck her?" Yuan Xiaochen's bloodshot eyes widened as if they were about to burst. I opened my mouth, but didn't make a sound, but the moment I made it, I realized that this answer was very important, and it might make me regret it, so I stopped it. I looked up at her and she was still staring at me. "Why ask this?" "Ask casually." She said with a smile, "I hope you can answer casually, just be more natural."

I also made a very casual look and said lightly: "We chatted all night, talking about dramas and so on, until this morning, I told her that my girlfriend must be waiting for me stupidly, I have to gone." She raised her eyebrows: "Really?" For some reason, I felt that her expression was particularly unnatural, but I didn't think too much about it, but suddenly raised my voice following the tone I had already set, and said with a smile: "Do you think this is possible?" Immediately, her face turned red, her teeth were clenched, and her hands clenched into fists.

My goal has been achieved!She didn't even dare to ask any more questions.Suddenly, she stood up, stumbled and ran to the bathroom, closed the door with a bang, and then there was the sound of flushing water inside. I knew that she was crying, even crying extremely hard, and a sense of pleasure surged into my heart. Now, the thing about her sleeping with her ex-lover made me feel better. 234 The heavy curtains were finally pulled back, there was no more smoke, everything was clear and clear, this is the moment for gamblers to show their cards, and Yuan Xiaochen and I are gamblers, delusional to use a period of time to gamble for our lives A gamble on emotional happiness, in a foolish fantasy, this kind of happiness should belong to everyone, but unfortunately there is no "should" in life, only "so".

All day long, we have been attacking and questioning each other, stabbing each other, and defending ourselves. Although the self-esteem of both parties has disappeared in the face of the facts, we still speak with swords and lips with a kind of competitive vanity, and we must make sure we occupy Advantages, we even talked about how to rent a house and let her move out in the next few days. At night, we were exhausted, and an atmosphere of reconciliation emerged. "I'm just too good and strong, and I want both love and career," Yuan Xiaochen bowed his head to summarize himself, "It seems impossible."

I wanted to cooperate with her and say, "I'm just too stupid and don't want to be responsible." But when the words came to my lips, I didn't come out. I just sat beside her and smoked one after another. "You see, I still can't leave you now. I tried, but it didn't work. I feel uncomfortable. Forget it, let's just take it easy. What do you think?" Yuan Xiaochen raised her face in frustration and asked I. I nodded, took her hand, shook it before letting go, and she smiled at me: "Do you want a cup of coffee I made?" She stood up and walked to the kitchen. When her footsteps disappeared, I picked up the phone and called Yao Jingjing: "Hi, I'm not free today."

"I know that you didn't answer the phone for several times, but you promised me that I just talked about breaking up with my boyfriend, and I have something important to tell you. I want to see you today, and I miss you. "I heard Yao Jingjing speak to me in the tone she used yesterday, which shows that her enthusiasm has not diminished in the slightest. "Then, please contact me after nine o'clock in the evening, I can't come out now." I whispered.Hanging up the phone, I thought, my wicked head must turn around after drinking the coffee Yuan Xiaochen made, and think of a way to get rid of her.

At ten o'clock in the evening, Yuan Xiaochen and I had a meal of quick-frozen dumplings. We were too tired to say anything, especially Yuan Xiaochen. She waited for me all night and didn't ask for leave during the day. She missed work all day and rode snakes with me. Fighting fiercely in the fog, now the face is ashen, and we have lost the strength to raise our arms. We just sat on the sofa and stared at the TV screen to watch the football game. The more I watched, the more annoying I was. Suddenly, the phone vibrated on the table, and I stood up to see that it was Yao Jingjing who sent the message: "I At Q, I want you to come over." I know that Q is a newly opened bar, located near the west gate of Chaoyang Park. 235 I put the phone back on the table and sat next to Yuan Xiaochen again, but unexpectedly Yuan Xiaochen stood up suddenly, rushed to the table, picked up my phone, and for a moment, she stood in front of me like crazy. "There's a shameless slut waiting for you at Q, why don't you go?" I glanced at her and didn't answer. "Go, you should go!" she cried out loudly. "Who told you to look at my phone?" I asked in a low voice. With a "snap", my phone fell heavily on the ground and broke, followed by Yuan Xiaochen's cry: "I'm sorry, I accidentally broke it, I'll pay you for a new one, a better one!" After all, she ran to her small bag, took out the wallet from it, walked up to me, took out three or four thousand dollars from the wallet, and threw it in my face without thinking. Paper bills are all over the body. I stood up and looked at her coldly. "Go!" she cried. "Go away! Don't think I don't know who it is!" "Is it over, are you?" "Are you done—are you done?" she literally howled. I walked out the door. "I'll kill you!" I heard Yuan Xiaochen screaming from behind. Out of an instinct, I took two steps forward, opened the door, and walked out. The moment I closed the door, a voice came from behind. There was a loud noise, most likely Yuan Xiaochen smashed a glass on the door, fortunately, it didn't hit my head. 236 I came to Q, and when I pushed the door, Yao Jingjing was walking out, and we almost bumped into each other. "Why didn't you make a phone call?" She asked, "I've been waiting for you for a long time, and I'm about to leave." "Yuan Xiaochen broke my phone." "What's wrong?" "She read the message you sent me." Yao Jingjing was stunned at the door, at a loss. "Let's find another place, maybe she will follow." I said, grabbed Yao Jingjing and got into the car. 237 I drove the car, and Yao Jingjing and I went for a ride on the street aimlessly. "Yuan Xiaochen and I bought this bag together." Yao Jingjing said with her hands on her shoulders. "What did your boyfriend say?" I interrupted her. "My boyfriend didn't say anything." "Oh." "That person is very nice, and advised me to think more about it." "What else did you say?" "He said that he would contract projects by himself in the future to earn more money. He has a little inferiority complex and always feels that he earns less and can't control me." "And you?" "I have nothing to say." Yao Jingjing leaned against me and sighed. Passing by a cold drink shop in Dongdan, Yao Jingjing said she was thirsty, we stopped the car, went in for a cold drink, just ordered two pearl milk teas, Yao Jingjing's cell phone rang, she glanced at it, and pushed it to me: "Yuan Xiaochen's. " When I answered the phone, Yuan Xiaochen simply said, "I want to talk to Yao Jingjing!" I covered the receiver: "She is looking for you." Yao Jingjing shook her head and pointed to the bathroom, so I had no choice but to say, "She's going to the bathroom, let's go for a while." "Give her the phone, I have something to tell her." Yuan Xiaochen said firmly. I handed the phone to Yao Jingjing, Yao Jingjing stuck out her tongue and hung up the phone all at once. After a while, the phone rang stubbornly again. I answered the phone, and Yuan Xiaochen asked angrily on the other end of the phone: "Why did you hang up on me?" "You still dropped my phone." I replied, "If you have anything to say, just tell me." "She is so shameless, and you still protect her. It seems that the relationship between you two is strong enough." Yuan Xiaochen said in a sarcastic tone, but from what I heard, she was in a panic and talking nonsense. "It's up to us, do you have any opinions?" "I wish you all a happy sex, and I also wish myself." Yuan Xiaochen hung up the phone with a "snap". "What did she say? Did she scold me?" Yao Jingjing asked. I shook my head and didn't speak, but I was very sad. 238 Pearl milk tea was delivered, and Yao Jingjing and I each had a cup and drank it through a straw. We both looked at each other, not knowing what to say. After drinking the milk tea, Yao Jingjing sighed and said, "She must hate me to death." I didn't know what to say, so I just sat there in a daze. After a while, Yao Jingjing said: "You should go back, it's too awkward to do so." I thought about it, but there was nothing I could do, so I nodded, we stood up, and walked to the door to pay the bill. After going out, Yao Jingjing pulled me and said, "Let's put the two of us aside for now, I don't think it's right." I said, "I'll take you home." Yao Jingjing said: "I'll take a taxi, goodbye." After all, as if fleeing, he ran to the side of the road without looking back, reached out to stop a taxi, got into the car, and disappeared in the blink of an eye. I went back to the car and found that Yao Jingjing's backpack was still on my front seat. 239 I drove home, depressed, and when I entered the door, unexpectedly, Yuan Xiaochen did not leave, she was still sitting on the sofa, a sad Japanese song played from the stereo, and she was wearing a beautiful dress that she wore when she was going out, Facing the mirror, draw eyebrows with eyebrow pencil while singing. She raised her eyes to see me, and was also a little surprised. In order to conceal a complicated emotion, she deliberately hummed along with the stereo. "Okay, I can sing Japanese songs, it's emotional enough." I said. She gave me a blank look, didn't speak, and continued to hum, and packed away small tools such as eyebrow pencil and eyelash curler. I found that under the light, she looked seductive and beautiful. "So fast, did you do it in the trunk?" She asked coldly. I ignored her and poured myself a glass of water. Yuan Xiaochen's cell phone rang, she picked it up, said something in English: "I'll go downstairs right away," and then hung up. No need to ask, it was her ex-boyfriend who drove the car downstairs to pick her up. I carried the water and walked towards the study, but she stopped me: "What do you think of my current attire?" "The introduction is enough." I said. "40,000 Hong Kong dollars, who would be willing to wear such expensive clothes?" Yuan Xiaochen said with a malicious smile as he turned around in front of me. "Stupid." I retorted and walked towards the study. Yuan Xiaochen grabbed me again: "Don't go, I still have something to say." I looked away: "Speak." She hugged me suddenly, raised her head, stared at me, and asked word by word: "Do you love me?" "I don't love you, I don't love you, I just don't love you." "So you just want to sleep with me?" "right." "You've never felt anything for me other than sleeping?" "yes." "I'll ask you one last time, from the time I met you to the present, have you ever loved me, even for just a second?" "No no no no—now you give up, right?" She stared at me frantically, panting heavily, her eyes widened, never before, like looking at a stranger, I believe, if she had a pistol in her hand at this moment, she would definitely not Fired at me hesitantly until he ran out of bullets. "Any more questions?" I asked her. She took two steps back and sat on the sofa without saying a word, nervously pulling her long hair with her hands. I walked into the study and heard her silently walk to the door, opened the door, and walked out. There was a soft slam of the door. 240 In the middle of the night, with a heavy heart, I suddenly felt hungry. I opened the refrigerator and found it was empty, not even a pack of instant noodles left. So I went downstairs, drove to Dongzhimen, found a small restaurant, and ordered a pot of boiled fish. 10 Spicy lobster, 10 spicy crabs, a portion of boiled peanuts, and a bottle of Coke, and I ate it all alone, and put all my attention on eating to make myself feel better , I ate all the dishes, and I still couldn’t get enough, so I ordered another bowl of noodles. I ate half of it, and a burst of nausea came up, and I almost spit out all the things in my stomach. Suppressing the nausea, I walked along Dongzhimen Street for a while, bought a pack of cigarettes at a small cigarette stand, and sat on the side of the street to smoke. After smoking two cigarettes in a row, I felt a little better. go home.