Chapter 22 211-220

211 The aftermath of that night was that the terrible suspicion was brutally confirmed, and Yuan Xiaochen fell into an extreme psychological imbalance. She was obsessed with the fact that I had an affair behind her back, and she never forgot. From time to time, she mentioned that on the bed, under the bed. At first, thinking that I fucked someone, she could stop on the spot even when she was excited, and she ended up hating it, followed by a sporadic bout of frigidity, and then it happened a funny thing A small change, she began to question me about the details, the more she questioned, the stronger her sexual desire became, she seemed to be fighting for me with other girls in her imagination, she was a little bit like you and me again and again, for this reason, to be honest, I was surprised A little bit of sexual sweetness, and then she wondered guiltily if she was a bit of a pervert, and she consulted me specifically, and I told her I didn't care, and she stopped.

212 But the torment continued, and instead of forgiving each other and starting over, we did the opposite.I would say that thanks to both of us having such a strong sense of self and our competitive nature, the scars between us were getting deeper and our relationship was getting more and more tense, it was just out of control. Since that night, Yuan Xiaochen has become violent and nervous, losing his temper is a common occurrence, and he can fly into a rage if he doesn't deal with a word, or he has a strange tone and a dark heart. Getting along with her is completely due to my patience and tenacity Test, in fact, she herself is a very good, active, and daily updated curse manual, especially when she uses it seriously in the later stages of our relationship.

213 When early autumn came, Yuan Xiaochen's thinking simply seemed to have entered a dead end. On the surface, she was suspicious and tough, but her heart was already too fragile. Although I was careful and tried my best to improve our relationship, it was of no avail. She decided that It made me look for opportunities to be unfaithful to her, so no matter how much I tolerated it, in her eyes, it was just playing tricks on her. This kind of life is really like a year. In front of Yuan Xiaochen, I couldn't do anything. I could only walk around her without saying a word. One night, I received a call from a female editor of a fashion magazine. I wrote an article about extramarital affairs, and just after saying a few words, Yuan Xiaochen slammed a glass of water in front of me. I hurriedly ended the conversation and hung up the phone.

"Why are you talking so lowly? Is it a woman on the phone?" "Why did you throw the pot and the bowl?" "Where did I fall? Are you blind, I just gently put the cup on the table." "Then there's no need to play it several times in a row?" "What's wrong?" "When people call, you don't hide it." "What is there to hide? Let me tell you, you are my man. I will hold your hand when I go out from now on, and tell whoever I catch! lest you get excited like a bastard when you see a slut!" "Smelly 38."

"What's the matter? 38 is 38, that's better than you." "What's good?" "Let me tell you, you are just a sullen idiot, you think I don't know, why did you spray so much perfume when you went out yesterday, aren't you afraid that you will faint?" "Three eight!" "Smelly meat!" "How did I become rotten meat?" "Going out to take a shower and spray perfume, isn't it just a stinky mess? Why don't you die, stinky man." 214 If I want to go out to do errands, even if I go outside, she can stop me: "Hey, it's urgent, bring more money, treat people to dinner, don't let others look down on you, why don't you take it from my wallet first?" take some?"

"No need." "Don't be shy, take it. You think everyone is like me, and you just throw away a pack of plain instant noodles. If you have a conscience, think of me when eating big lobsters, and think of my poor back when eating instant noodles." 215 According to Yuan Xiaochen's standards, when I go out, my clothes must meet the requirements of "dirty and messy". If I accidentally slip on a pair of jeans, she can make use of it and sneer: "Take it off, take it off! You dress like this Are you going out to talk? Didn’t I give you my dad’s double-breasted suit? Why don’t you wear it? I’ll let you pretend to be tender! Let you wear leggings! Let you flirt! Let you flirt! Mom My mother will give birth to your third child tomorrow, and as soon as you go out, the third child’s crying will sound, and before you can sit down with your mistress, the second child will call your father with a trembling voice on the phone.”

"What about my baby?" "I was strangled to death, in order to remind you to pay attention to the health of the next generation." 216 Every time Yuan Xiaochen was away on a business trip, I had nowhere to hide and nothing to hide when she called me. If I was late for taking a shower, she would have to question me for a long time. , and, due to the overdeveloped fantasy of misfortune, she can always make up stories about how I lied to her. She is really bold in assuming, carefully verifying, and doing what she says. He raised his hand to turn on the small bedside lamp, turned on his back, threw off the quilt, and in front of me, lay down on the bed looking for her imaginary pubic hair, which made me feel embarrassed.It is said that all this was just because she seemed to smell a strange smell. She got excited and thought I was in the way, so she asked me to stand under the bed, which made me very unnatural, so I had to walk around naked on the ground, shivering and bored. Extremely, and it took her 20 minutes to find it, throwing the quilt under the bed, lying on the dark floral bed sheet to do a carpet search, relishing, tireless, I firmly believe that if she finds one, in order to verify it, she To be able to pull one from me for comparison, she can definitely do this kind of thing, she doesn't think there is anything to be ashamed of, she is proud of it, and she calls it sensitive.

217 Out of sexual vanity, or an imaginary comparison, or more likely a malicious stimulation of my psychology, Yuan Xiaochen described to me many of her former boyfriends from time to time, and made some comparisons with me, some of which may be Really, the other ones are completely fabricated by her, because she speaks very confusingly, often she will forget what she said before, and I have to remind her who is who. Once she said to me: "I don't like foreigners. , Once, a foreigner took me home, he took off his clothes and lay flat on his back, I found that thing like a small chimney erected on the grass, very ridiculous.”

"Hey! Hey! Hey! How did you become a foreigner? Isn't the one in Little Chimney the handsome guy in the gymnasium? Please, can I type up a dozen drafts before bragging?" I will seize the opportunity to fight back and blow her arrogance. 218 Yuan Xiaochen often asked me about Yao Jingjing in a joking tone, and this matter became her heart disease. Out of the same sensitivity, I never admitted to her about sleeping with Yao Jingjing, but she With an indomitable energy, he tested me endlessly. "Hey, give Yao Jingjing a call. I haven't seen her for more than a year. It's weird. Let's treat her to dinner together."

"Not interested in." "I'll make a call for you, just say it." "Speak for yourself." "I'm not close to you. I really care for you. When I'm drunk, I help someone to live in a five-star hotel. It's one thousand yuan a day, and there's an extra service fee, right?" "have no idea." "Hey, let me ask you, what did you spend a thousand dollars on?" "Ask her." "Where am I ashamed to ask—hey, how is Yao Jingjing drunk on the bed?" "not so good." "I asked her how she was sleeping in bed?"

"Good." "Why do you say that!" Yuan Xiaochen slapped the table, "Does this sound human? Huh? My boyfriend said that my girlfriend is fine in bed? You two are too bastards!" 219 Life is going on in this kind of half-truth and half-fake quarrel, I know that whether it is me or Yuan Xiaochen, we are all insignificant in the crowd, we are all parts that can be replaced at any time, we grow in the cracks of the city Among them, our desires and dreams are embedded in countless similar desires and fantasies, and we are entangled with others. In fact, those desires and fantasies can also be replaced. Here, everyone is like It is a sample of a product, and there are countless backups behind it Available for selection and consumption, every story, every life, every emotion is produced and discarded with a fast rhythm, which is the torrent of the city, the torrent of people, the torrent of character, the torrent of interests, and the sound , color and smell are confused with each other, orderly, mud and sand, turbulent, unstoppable, but without direction. 220 When the autumn leaves are flying with the wind, the relationship between Yuan Xiaochen and me has not been improved very well. An autumn rain has pressed the golden yellow leaves layer by layer on the ground, just like the time that is rotting away, because of the eternal farewell A calm and obedient life, confused by the boundless eternity, feels at ease to find a campsite even though it is inexplicable. This is not the end of the road, there is nowhere, this is just autumn, the air is as clear as water, and the clouds are so white Like the wings of a white swan, there is a charming wind passing through the hair gently, and scattered memories are scattered with the autumn leaves.