Chapter 36 Chapter Thirty-Six

There are some people who always get a kick out of a jerky conflict, like two very hard but also very fragile things colliding with each other.The consequences that can be imagined without thinking a second before the collision do not hinder them, but instead give them strength, but they are desperate to break first. Lou Hong may have been born with such a fate. She walked from the general manager's office to Geng Lin's office without any hesitation, as if she knew the consequences a long time ago, or she wanted to achieve such an effect, and she knew what she was doing what. She knocked on the door twice, and before there was an answer from inside, she opened the door and went in.Her appearance cut off the noisy voice just now like a knife.

She paused at the door for a while to see where Geng Lin was.At this moment, the people in the office could clearly see the scar on Lou Hong's face, which prolonged the unnatural silence just now. No one knew what to say. Geng Lin was at his desk, like other colleagues. Similarly, she was overwhelmed by Lou Hong's aggressiveness. Lou Hong saw Geng Lin, walked straight towards him, and once again ruined the chance for others to say hello to her.Lou Hong is new here, and usually she doesn't like to have much contact with people in Geng Lin's office, maybe it's because of her relationship with Geng Lin.

"The general manager asked me to give it to you." Lou Hong put the stack of papers on Geng Lin's desk, and Geng Lin stood up immediately, as if it was the general manager himself. They stood face to face like this for a few seconds, under the gaze of others, neither of them spoke.Geng Lin tried his best not to make any strange sounds from his throat, because his heart was indeed beating strangely.He only saw her once after Lou Hong was injured, when the blood from the wound had just clotted.Now Lou Hong is standing in front of him, the red scars on her face that have faded and scabs are irritating him.He was about to respond, but Lou Hong preempted him: "Are you free tonight? I want to talk to you." Lou Hong said.

"I'm free." Geng Lin couldn't care less, and quickly agreed. "Okay, after get off work, I'll go to your house." Lou Hong turned and left their office without saying hello to anyone, as if their wide-eyed and small-eyed audience were just half-hearted to her. New and not old desk chairs. Maybe fifteen years from now such a personal attitude -- a little haughty and a little dismissive -- will be commonplace, but right now it's an attitude that can hurt people.Immediately after Lou Hong left, two men responded, one whistled like that, the other hissed, and neither of them spoke to Geng Lin immediately.Lou Hong's gesture might just be to express her pride and disdain, and perhaps she didn't point her disdain clearly at someone.But those who witnessed this attitude could not reciprocate disdain, immediately found the meaning of hurt in it, and became excited.This sort of thing has been the cause of death for many who don't allow others to despise themselves, not even indirectly.But what they express when they defend that dignity is genuine disdain for themselves.

The child who was lying on the operating table on Children's Day on June 1 finally died.The new patient who came in and slept on the child's bed was a young middle school teacher named Luoyang.When Liu Yun opened his medical records, he thought of the city with this name and smiled. "The name was changed later." The young man named Luoyang sat on the bed and said to Liu Yun with a smile. "Then why don't you change it to Shanghai. Shanghai is bigger and more famous than Luoyang." Liu Yun glanced at the young man. He is a person who can immediately make strangers feel friendly.Liu Yun knew from his medical records that he was twenty-six years old, but besides the vigor of a young man, there was a maturity close to that of a middle-aged man on his face, mixed with a bit of innocence that the elderly like.In short, Liu Yun got the impression that this is a young man who can be liked by everyone.He had aortic insufficiency.

"It's a pity that my father's surname is Luo, not Shang." He said with a smile, except that he sometimes had difficulty breathing, Liu Yun could not see other signs of heart disease.Common weakness in heart patients.Symptoms such as flushed face were not obvious in Luoyang. "Maybe he has superhuman willpower." Liu Yun thought. "Will they come during the operation?" Liu Yun asked casually, in order not to put him under psychological pressure. "My parents died when I was nine years old. Tangshan earthquake." Luoyang said. Liu Yun was surprised by what she heard, and she looked at the young man sympathetically.The young man gave her a sincere smile.His smile seemed to comfort Liu Yun: don't worry, he is used to such a fate, but he can live a good life nonetheless.Facing his smile, Liu Yun had to admit that he is a person who is satisfied with life.

"But how can he be satisfied with life?" Liu Yungang asked herself such a question in her heart. Before she could answer her question according to the young man's fate, Hou Bo walked into the ward and came to to them. "Yes, you already know each other." Hou Bo said, "This is Dr. Liu, your attending physician." Hou Bo pointed to Liu Yun and said, Hou Bo paused, then said to Liu Yun, "You have to take special care of me." This teacher, he is my nephew's class teacher. My nephew has given me two ultimatums, asking us to do our best to take good care of the teacher, otherwise there will be too many people who can't spare us." Hou Bo said to Liu Yun with a smile .

All three laughed, then Hou Bo asked Luoyang a few more specific things, and then left the ward with Liu Yun. "After you finish the house inspection, I have to have a good talk with you about this Luoyang." Hou Bo said. "Okay. I'll go find you." Liu Yun said. Liu Yun went back to his office after the room check. He was supposed to take a rough record of the conditions of the patients, but he couldn't concentrate and kept thinking about the patient named Luoyang.She doesn't know Luoyang's personal life yet, but she can imagine that his life is not on a boulevard covered with flowers, the life of an orphan.Liu Yun simply put down his work and stood in front of the window. A man and a woman were sitting on a bench in the green space in front of the building. They were almost middle-aged. Looking at a place aimlessly; the man sat a little further apart, bent over and bowed his head to smoke... Seeing this, Liu Yun went back to the desk. She was afraid that if she continued to watch, they would immediately quarrel.Their sitting posture has created a very tense atmosphere.Her thoughts returned to Luoyang, and she found that the sincere and satisfied smile from Luoyang shocked her. "Compared with Luoyang's experience of losing his parents at the age of nine, what I'm going through now is too small, but I can't smile sincerely to life or even to myself like him." Thinking of this, Liu Yun seemed to see There is a huge difference -- the difference between people, and this difference determines everyone's life.She hadn't really understood what she felt dimly now, but she was already attracted, like a person who is lost in the dark is attracted by the light.She decided to do everything in her power for this patient in Luoyang, no matter what, to make him a healthy person who can continue to live.She hoped to find an opportunity to chat with Luoyang, and now she was going to Hou Bo's office to talk about Luoyang's surgery plan first.

The phone rang, a nurse answered the phone, and said to Liu Yun: "Looking for you." Peng Li's clear voice came from the phone, because I haven't seen Peng Li for a long time, listening to her voice made Liu Yun feel happy. "I haven't heard from you for a long time. I called you, but you're not here, have you gone out to play?" Liu Yun said. "Oh, Liu Yun, I'm really sorry. I should be calling you. I should care about you in your current situation. I'm sorry, Liu Yun, I'm not a good friend." Peng Li kept saying angrily Go on, "But I was not free some time ago, when I invite you to dinner alone, it is an apology."

"Don't say that, I'm not free either, the hospital has a lot going on. What are you busy with? Has your job changed? Why are you so busy?" Liu Yun asked. "The job has changed a bit." Peng Li said hesitantly. "A new unit?" Liu Yun asked. "I resigned." Peng Li tried to put it lightly. "Really?" Liu Yun was indeed surprised by the news. "Liu Yun, we haven't seen each other for a long time. My life has changed a lot during this time, but I'm a little embarrassed to tell you." "What's the matter, why are you making it so mysterious, maybe you can't trust me?"

"Forget it, I'll be honest, I'm almost exhausted from walking around like this." Peng Li came up again with a blunt energy, like a girl, which made her very cute sometimes. "I didn't tell you. First, I was worried about your situation. Now that you and Geng Lin are in such a mess, I can't help you. I still tell you about me. I'm afraid that the contrast will be too great and it will make you sad. " "I still don't get it, your..." "I'm getting married, Liu Yun." Peng Li's voice conveyed happiness. "Really?" Liu Yun said in surprise, "So fast? With whom?" "You'll know who you're with when you come to the wedding." At this time, Liu Yun fully understood Peng Li's painstaking efforts.On the one hand, she thanked Peng Li for her consideration, but on the other hand, she felt sorry for herself. She found that she was in an abnormal state of life. People did not regard her as a lunatic, but she was different from ordinary people.The restlessness that she had felt when she was with Wu Gang enveloped her again.But she quickly got rid of this emotion and sincerely wished Peng Li a happy new life. "Thank you, Liu Yun. I'm so glad you can say that. I was worried that you wouldn't like this kind of thing. Anyway, we met through Wang Shu, and he died not long ago. I was afraid that you would scold me. Me." Peng Li became more frank because of her happiness. Thinking of Geng Lin's diary about Wang Shu, Liu Yun didn't answer Peng Li's words right away, "God may be really fair, Wang Shu has another love in his heart, so God sent another man to Peng Li." Liu Yun thought. "Do you have to go to the operating room right away?" Peng Li asked. "No, I didn't have surgery this morning." "Then I'll chat with you for a while, is it okay?" Peng Li seemed to have forgotten the worries just now, and wished to pour out all her emotions to Liu Yun at this time, "Why do I want to chat with you, Liu Yun, you should start over Life. If Wang Shu is not the only one, Geng Lin is certainly not. Liu Yun, anyone can start life again, unless they die, life has no end, don’t you think so?” "Do you love him?" Liu Yun asked. "You want to ask me if I love this person more than I love Wang Shu? You know, he is fourteen years older than me, and he is different from Wang Shu. How to say, we live together now. By the way, you don't know yet, do you?" , my daughter goes to boarding school, and I live with him except when she comes home on weekends and I go to my house." "He doesn't go to work, does he?" Liu Yun couldn't think well, why would two people who don't work stay together all day. "He quit early. He used to be an editor of a publishing house. Liu Yun, you know my feelings for Wang Shu, but I feel different when I'm with this person. Wang Shu loves me very much, and everything in the family is his. Hold on, and he's so busy all day long. But I can chat with this guy, we're fine, we talk a lot. He tells me about his past, even when he was a kid. I also tell him It doesn’t matter if I talk about me like this. I thought I had forgotten a lot of things when I was young, but I still remember them. Apart from chatting, we just go shopping together, cook, and sometimes go out to see exhibitions together. He likes to see exhibitions, he sees all kinds of exhibitions. Sometimes he goes to concerts... As time goes by, I fall in love with this old man, he is so quiet and considerate, I can't do without him more and more, and I don't want to go I went to work. Then I thought, why do I still go to work? The money is enough, so I might as well quit and save time for myself. The day after I resigned, he proposed to me, and I was really touched , He didn’t know that I still have shares in Wang Shu Company. I’m really lucky. God sent me such a good man after Wang Shu died. I really want to do something good for others. I and him After discussion, we finally decided to provide education for fifteen out-of-school children." "That's great, Peng Li, I'm really happy for you." Liu Yun was moved by Peng Li's narration, as if a mirage slowly rose before his eyes. "How are you and Geng Lin?" "No way, I think." "He's too stupid, don't think about him, cut the mess quickly..." "Doctor Liu, Hou Bo asked you to go over there." A nurse yelled. "I'll come." Liu Yun replied, and then said to Peng Li on the phone, "I'm sorry, I have to go over for a while, and I'll call you again?" "No need," Peng Li said quickly, "remember two things: come to my wedding, that's the first thing; the second thing is more important." "Go ahead." "Start your own new life!" Peng Li shouted to Liu Yun, then put down the phone. Liu Yun didn't take the receiver away from her ear for a long time, as if she had merged into Peng Li's words, an unspeakable excitement continued in her body... "What are you doing? If you don't come, I won't have time. Director Zhou asked me to go." As soon as Liu Yun entered Hou Bo's office, he heard Hou Bo's kind complaint. "Sorry, I'm starting a new life," Liu Yun said. Hou Bo laughed instinctively, then stopped laughing, and stared up at Liu Yun.Maybe his staring lasted too long, which made Liu Yun a little flustered. She quickly glanced at the office, but luckily no one else was there. "Doctor Liu, I just came here, and I don't know you very well, but I heard about you from my colleagues. As an ordinary colleague, maybe I shouldn't say this, but I'm still happy for you from the bottom of my heart." Hou Bo still looked at Liu Yun, said to her seriously. "For me? Why?" "You've got a sense of humor." "I……" "This is the first step. You will definitely be able to start a new life." Hou Bo changed the atmosphere, "I am very sure about this, just like I am sure about the operation in Luoyang." "why?" "Heart surgeons are very popular right now, don't you know?" Hou Bo said this with a touch of Cantonese on purpose, and both of them laughed. "Tell me about Luoyang." Liu Yun continued. After get off work, Liu Yun took off his white coat and did not feel tired and depressed as usual.She felt as if a new power was growing in her body.She didn't know where this power came from, but her mood seemed much brighter.She suddenly saw so many kind and friendly people around her, and they were all happy.These seem to remind her that life is also satisfying, and she even eagerly wants to know how to achieve this goal. She not only began to have a sense of humor, but also began to envy, and wishes approached her quietly. She walked to the bus station and heard someone calling her from behind.When she turned around, Wu Gang had already come close.The two smiled in embarrassment, and finally Liu Yun spoke first: "Why didn't you ride a motorcycle?" "Sold." Wu Gang said. "Is the business not good?" Liu Yun immediately thought of the "behind" bar worriedly. "It doesn't matter there, I'll tell you the reason later." Wu Gang was still moved by Liu Yun's concern when he spoke.The look in her eyes that asked eagerly just now was very frightening, which made Wu Gang confirm his feeling: he is not nothing with Liu Yun. The two walked away together without discussing, and sometimes they looked at the pedestrians on the street, looking for something to talk about.All Liu Yun could ask was the bar, but she didn't open her mouth.She couldn't understand why she was so reserved when she saw Wu Gang again after the last breakup. "Shall I take you home?" Wu Gang asked tentatively. "Okay." Liu Yun agreed to take a taxi immediately, but was stopped by Wu Gang. "Let's go," he said. "Walking back?" Liu Yun exclaimed.The distance from her home to the hospital is an hour's bus ride away.