Chapter 31 Chapter Thirty-One

It was an ugly street, but there were trees.Behind the tree were a series of shops, all of which had their doors closed when she passed them on work.This brief silence is enough to comfort her to start a busy day's work. This hospital is the only hospital in a small town that can perform minor surgery. All colleagues and patients trust her, respect her, and even obey her, because she is a doctor from a big city. A senior doctor from a big hospital.Despite this, she is not proud, not only can endure hardship, but also is so friendly to everyone... When she came home from get off work and passed the shops behind those trees again, they were still open.She buys food for dinner in it.Almost all the shopkeepers know her, so they always give her some more, and she always says, "It's too much, I can't eat it all by myself." But the shopkeeper says, "It's okay, I'll eat it tomorrow." something to eat and go home...

Liu Yun was sitting on the sofa. After Geng Lin slammed the door and went out, she kept looking at everything smashed in front of her, but the scene before her appeared in her head.She put herself in a strange small town, and began to imagine more concretely so easily, she even thought of retiring and dying in that small town.In such a specific imagination, the mess in front of Liu Yun's eyes became less concrete and less glaring.She wasn't very sad, just weak and heavy. Liu Yun forced himself to stand up, walked carefully past the broken glass, and walked into the bathroom.She washed her face, combed her hair, and then looked at her bloodless face in the mirror, but she didn't feel anything in her heart, as if the life she was living was someone else's, temporary.Then, she went back to the bedroom and started changing clothes, ready to go to work.There seems to be a special protective device in Liu Yun's body, that is, no matter what happens, as long as she thinks about going to work, she can force herself to calm down, just like just now; stop imagining, and don't look at everything in front of her , emptying herself, the body's instincts let her cope with the work.

Doorbell rang. Liu Yun thought for a while, decided that it was the neighbor who knocked on the door, and after thinking about what to say to the neighbor, he opened the door. Standing in front of the door was Wu Gang.Liu Yun was so surprised that he even forgot to invite Wu Gang in.Seeing Liu Yun's expression, Wu Gang immediately understood that what the neighbors were talking about at the door had indeed happened at Liu Yun's house.He gently pushed Liu Yun to the door, walked in by himself, and closed the door behind him. "Why are you here?" Liu Yun didn't show any emotion when he asked Wu Gang.She doesn't seem to have left the state she was in just now.

"I stopped by and waited downstairs, thinking I could take you to work." When Wu Gang said it, he deliberately weakened his attempt to care for Liu Yun, and said it lightly. "I heard from your neighbors that something exploded in your house, like a war." "Let me go in and take a look." Wu Gang said as he walked towards the living room.In front of the "results" left by Geng Lin, he was stunned. It was natural for Wu Gang that the man lost his temper and smashed two things symbolically. It's the first time I've seen it.He couldn't imagine how much hatred a person who did such a thing must have in his heart.He kicked the base of a vase, Liu Yun stood next to him and saw Wu Gang as if he had a foresight, and did not change his shoes.

"Put on your shoes too, don't wear slippers." Wu Gang told Liu Yun, but his heart was full of contempt for the man who did this. No matter who he was, Wu Gang would look down on him very much.Because in his opinion, this is not what men do. "Too fucking excessive." Wu Gang said in a low voice. "It's all my fault." Liu Yun said in a low voice.Wu Gang looked up at her, surprised that Liu Yun's attitude was very different from before. "Where is he?" Wu Gang asked. "gone." "Don't go to work, I'll take a leave of absence for you and clean up the place." Wu Gang tried to relax his tone when he spoke, as if what he was arranging was just a big cleaning.

"No, I have to go to work." Liu Yun said stubbornly, "Let's leave it like this for now." Wu Gang made Liu Yun's resolute attitude speechless.At this time, he saw Liu Yun's award-winning porcelain vase on the sofa, and felt a little comforted in his heart, because it didn't matter to Liu Yun. "Tell me where he is?" Wu Gang no longer mentioned the matter of leave. "Don't worry about this, please don't worry about it." Liu Yun suddenly became excited, "He can smash it if he likes, he bought it anyway. Besides, he also has a reason, you don't know what I did."

"No matter what you did, he shouldn't be like this, is this still a man?" "Isn't that what men are like?!" Wu Gang was angry with Liu Yun for speaking like this, so he said something against her: "Do you think that Geng Lin is the only man in this world?" "I don't think about anything, it's good." Liu Yun fought back tears as he spoke.In front of Wu Gang, Liu Yun often felt that he couldn't hide himself.No matter how much she hides the blind spots in her heart that she doesn't want to show, it will still be exposed.Sometimes she was afraid of Wu Gang, and she didn't understand why his words could touch such a place in her heart, eager to be cared for, but difficult to express.

"Liu Yun, you can't always keep things in your heart." "It's all right." "How can you say that this is not a problem?" Wu Gang said, pointing to everything on the ground. "He was going to hit me, but he thought I was too low-handed, and he smashed something because he was afraid of dirtying his hands." Liu Yun said with his head down, and at the same time kicked several large pieces of broken glass with his slippers. "It's good, and I feel at ease." Seeing Liu Yun like this, Wu Gang couldn't bear it.He gritted his teeth several times and thought of Geng Lin, he thought, Geng Lin destroyed Liu Yun's inner pride and self-esteem.The Liu Yun he knew in the past would never be able to say what he just said.Wu Gang believes that a person will only speak like this when there is nothing more to be trusted.But he didn't think about Liu Yun's own responsibilities in this sabotage process.

"I'll make a phone call, don't go to work, and then let's clean up here together." Wu Gang said and walked towards the phone.Liu Yun suddenly ran up to Wu Gang and stopped him, as if what Wu Gang wanted to do at this time was not to call to ask for leave, but to kill someone. "No, no, no." Liu Yun said, "I'm going to work." Wu Gang looked at Liu Yun in puzzlement. "I want to leave here, I have to go to work." Liu Yun answered Wu Gang's question in this way, but what she thought in her heart was that work is now the only place she can go.

The hospital's cardiac surgery has been in a semi-stop state recently, which is related to the fact that one chief surgeon went to the United States for further study and another doctor was transferred away.This is also the reason why Liu Yun was transferred for a period of time. On the operating table, Liu Yun is still a green leaf.Although she has become an important green leaf, she cannot support an operation independently. On this day when she went to work, the leader of the medical department talked to her and told her to go back to work in the ward from now on, and hinted that she should concentrate on her work because the hospital was preparing to resume normal heart surgery operations. A "doctor" was recruited, who was already skilled in heart surgery and was well-known in the industry.

In this way, Liu Yun returned to the ward.The ward was in another new building. On the way to the ward with his belongings, Liu Yun felt a little restless in his heart.She decided to sit on a stone chair on the green space between the two buildings for a while. She was sitting next to a couple. Judging from his clothes, the man was a patient.His blue and white patient suit is reminiscent of Hitchcock's Doctor Edward.Liu Yun remembers watching this movie with Geng Lin.It was a rainy day. After watching the movie, they ate two bowls of wontons and two sandwiches at a wonton restaurant near the train station.The reason why she still remembers all this is because she likes this movie so much.She remembers telling Geng Lin that to her, the hero and heroine of the movie are the most beautiful people in the world and the most suitable couple. "But they are not lovers in real life." She remembered what Geng Lin said to her. Until now, she still feels pity, why are the man named Parker and the woman named Bergman not lovers? !Therefore, she also remembered Geng Lin's attitude towards this, such a beautiful person should also find his lover.After that, Geng Lin also told her his thoughts on marriage on different occasions. He felt that it was healthy and natural for a grown man to live with a woman, and vice versa for women. purposeful. "Forget it." The man in the patient's suit suddenly shouted to his girlfriend, interrupting Liu Yun's thoughts. Liu Yun looked up at the ninth floor where her ward was located. There was a window open, and she knew it was the doctor's office.Because Director Wang doesn't like to turn on the air conditioner, the windows are always open and the air conditioner is turned off.Liu Yun was surprised that he would sit here and think of an old movie he watched many years ago, and then think of Geng Lin. "The main thing is not what other people do to you, understand?" the male patient suddenly said loudly. "Then what do you say is important?" His female companion also raised her voice a little to express her dissatisfaction. "It depends on how you react. What they do is their business. How you react, how you treat them, and what kind of attitude is your business." The man said. Liu Yun was unexpectedly attracted by his words. "According to what you mean, people can live without contact with the outside world?" the female companion asked disdainfully. "Of course you can, but you can't, because you don't have the will." The man was a little annoyed after he finished speaking, and got up to leave, but was held back by his female companion. "Why are you so excited, am I not discussing with you?" the female companion said. Liu Yun got up and walked slowly towards the ward. She felt that what the patient said to his female companion had an effect on her invisibly.She seemed to suddenly understand what she was feeling at this moment: she was afraid of going back among familiar people. Because of her personality, she usually has casual acquaintances with colleagues in other departments of the hospital, except for her ward.Although the people in the emergency department of surgery witnessed many things that happened to her, they couldn't directly talk about these things with Liu Yun, because they hadn't gotten to a certain level of familiarity.This somewhat allowed Liu Yun to reserve a little space for herself. Liu Yun had no desire to explain many things, and even she herself was unwilling to face these things, but she couldn't get rid of them, so she didn't know how to deal with the ward. colleague.They are all people who are acquainted with her and have worked together in an operating room many times. The relationship between them is often deeper and more frank than ordinary colleagues. Back in the ward, everyone warmly greeted Liu Yun, because all the doctors and nurses in the ward were very busy in the morning.Director Wang introduced Liu Yun to the new doctor, Dr. Hou. After shaking hands with Liu Yun, he said: "I've heard about you, and to be honest, I'm kind of counting on you." "I'm willing to do my best." Liu Yun said. Then they chatted briefly about the situation in the ward.Dr. Hou's eagerness to do things infected Liu Yun.On the other hand, his attitude towards Liu Yun also made her very happy.He not only showed due respect to Liu Yun's skills and experience, but also called Liu Yun "you", which made Liu Yun feel very comfortable.In her opinion, this promising doctor who is a few years younger than her did not classify her as an older generation of medical workers. He also wanted to cooperate with her instead of rejecting her. As soon as Dr. Hou left the doctor's office, the nurse Xiao Zhou broke in: "Hey, Sister Liu, you're back? What happened to your husband? Everyone is talking about him, isn't he bullying too much? Shall we all unite and scold him?" Liu Yun didn't know how to answer her, when the phone rang, as if to save Liu Yun's driver. "Hi, hello, who are you looking for?" Nurse Xiao Zhou grabbed the phone. "Wait a minute." Xiao Zhou held out the receiver of the phone towards Liu Yun with some doubts, "I'm looking for you." Liu Yun stood up and took the receiver, when Xiao Zhou said: "Then I'll go get busy first, and we'll talk later." After speaking, Xiao Zhou smiled and left. "Hello?" Liu Yun said into the microphone. The other party didn't speak immediately, and Liu Yun immediately realized that the call might be from Lou Hong again.For some reason, she felt a little nervous, as if Lou Hong was an important person who could cause her uneasiness. Lou Hong was indeed on the other end of the phone. Because of her facial injury, she was still at home, and she couldn't see Geng Lin for the time being. She just called every day when her parents were at work.She couldn't say how the influence of her parents penetrated into her, but she could always feel the effect of those influences on her.For example, it's not that she can't find an opportunity to meet Geng Lin, she can occasionally disappoint her parents' trust in her.If she wanted to, she thought, she was brave enough to do it.But she didn't think about it.Occasionally she thought of Geng Lin and wanted to see him, but this desire was not strong at all, and it disappeared without her mobilizing her strength to control herself.She has not yet recognized this change in her feelings, and she is somewhat bored staying at home all day.She called Liu Yun today because she was dominated by such emotions, and she wanted to find something to dilute the boredom. "I think, you know who I am." Lou Hong said after a good pause. Liu Yun didn't answer, but he didn't put up the phone either.Liu Yun's reaction made Lou Hong think about her best. She felt that Liu Yun, as an opponent, could still get by sometimes.She originally wanted to satirize Liu Yun, saying that she went back to the ward to avoid the scandal she had done.But she suppressed the words, she was worried that Liu Yun would laugh at her words.She also hopes that she is not ridiculous when she hurts others. "Liu Yun, I want to tell you that if I don't take revenge on you, it's not because I can't, do you understand?" Liu Yun listened. "Everyone knows a few buddies." Lou Hong felt very comfortable when she found Liu Yun was listening, and she couldn't help but reveal a bit of inadvertent sincerity when she spoke. "Me too, if I move my little finger, I can find a buddy who will work hard for me too. But I'm smarter than you, it's not worth it. You're just a milf, maybe I won't find you again The person you like, there won’t be any major development in your career, so you may wish to end up with someone.” Lou Hong paused here to see Liu Yun’s reaction. Liu Yun didn't speak, but he was listening. "My situation is exactly the opposite of yours." Lou Hong seemed to feel that Liu Yun was listening instead of putting the receiver somewhere, so she continued to say seriously, "Our lives are not equivalent, and they cannot be exchanged. I don't Willing to sacrifice myself for a mediocre little doctor." Liu Yun smiled, she felt that Lou Hong's tone was a bit childish.After Lou Hong was scratched, Liu Yun had a new mentality.Although Lou Hong's humiliation to her on the phone made her uncomfortable, but in her heart she no longer felt anything close to hatred. "You're sneering." Lou Hong imagined Liu Yun's smile, and definitely classified the imaginary smile into the category of sneering. "It's useless. Maybe you want to say that one day I will be just as useless and mediocre as you. Yes, it is likely to be the case, but it will not be too late for me to finish by then. I don't have to be so anxious. It is very good to enjoy youth." Comfortable thing." Liu Yun couldn't say what she was moved by Lou Hong's words, she seemed to suddenly have courage and strength, and this power drew Lou Hong closer to Liu Yun as another person, not her rival in love. "How is your wound?" Liu Yun suddenly asked calmly. Lou Hong took the receiver away from her ear at once, she never expected Liu Yun to answer her words like this. "I don't know what to say, I'm so sorry." Liu Yun continued. After Lou Hong took the receiver away, she was worried that she might miss what Liu Yun had said, so she quickly put the receiver close to her ear. She heard the second half of Liu Yun's words, "I'm so sorry." "Eat more vitamin E, and you won't leave scars." Dr. Liu Yun's tone sounded calm and friendly. Lou Hong snapped the phone and looked at herself in the opposite mirror, as if she had just been frightened. Liu Yun approached the open window and looked at the green space downstairs where he had stayed just now.The couple has left, and the green grass is more eye-catching.Liu Yun took a deep breath, as if the freshness rising from the green land had injected into her heart, making her feel more comfortable than she had ever felt in a long time.