Chapter 27 Twenty-six

No matter how busy I am, I'm going to see Lao He and Sun Yue. The publication of the book "Marxism and Humanism" has become a big news in the publishing house, which I did not expect. My mind was originally simple.A work has a certain academic value, the author is a citizen who enjoys citizenship rights, and the publishing house is willing to accept his manuscript, isn't that enough?But it just doesn't work.Cheng Yaojin appeared on the way, and the secretary of the university party committee disagreed with the publication of the book, so the printing press actually stopped.Criticizing anarchism every day, I don't know what kind of doctrine it is.Policies don't work, laws don't work, but a hand stretched out from the belly does!

I had hoped for Zhang Yuan, the editor-in-chief of the publishing house.The comrades at the publishing house told me that he admired Lao He's book very much and was dissatisfied with Xi Liu's interference.He insisted that Xi Liu and the others write written materials, just to fight Xi Liu's "law".Unexpectedly, Minister Fu supported Xi Liu and approved You Ruoshui's materials to him: "Please ask the publisher to check the situation of the author and the work. Such questions should be cautious." He ordered the printing press to be stopped.He complained to his friends in private: "What are You Ruoshui's materials? They are taken out of context, intentionally distorted, and even personally attacked the author. But do I dare not listen to Minister Fu's words? He is worried that he can't catch me. What about the braids! If He Jingfu really has some braids in Xi Liu's hands, the shoes will be delivered right away, and they are made of crystal glass!"

Of course Lao Zhang is not a fool, is he willing to take the responsibility himself?No, the ball can be kicked up.He wrote a request for instructions to the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee, asking the Propaganda Department to issue instructions in the name of the Ministry, not in the name of Minister Fu.The court referee gestures: timeout.Questions remain. I have really learned a lot.If someone asks me: "Why are simple things complicated?" I will answer without thinking: the human factor comes first.People who make waves with various purposes, plus those who are timid and timid for various reasons, plus stubborn people.Simple things can become complicated.

God created man really well.To create a He Jingfu, you must create a Xiliu, who will be mutually beneficial; You Ruoshui and Xiliu must be complementary, these two people are really a pair, even their names are intrinsically linked.This wasn't enough, and they ran into Lao Zhang and Minister Fu, who were enemies, and were caught in the middle.There's also a Sun Yue, who paints the whole thing in a brighter color, making it even more captivating for viewers.Without one of these people, things would be much simpler.But who is missing?No one can be missing. In particular, Sun Yue cannot be missing.I heard that through this incident, Sun Yue and He Jingfu became closer and closer.This is really a happy event for Lao He.It can be said that "the sun rises in the east and rains in the west, so there is no sunshine (feeling) but there is sunshine (feeling)".It should be said that it is normal for a person to encounter such a situation.I am happy for Lao He.I wish this pair of lovers a happy marriage.

There are already several people sitting in Sun Yue's house: Xu Hengzhong, He Jingfu, and Li Yining.Regret is also at home.I greeted them and said: "It's a coincidence today, just a few when I saw it!" Sun Yue smiled and said: "It's better to come early than to come by coincidence. Today is the day when Lao Xu thanked the matchmaker. No, the 'matchmaker' Li Yining is here So. We also had a meal at Lao Xu's house, and came here together after the meal." This is another piece of news.Not long ago, I heard that Li Yining introduced Xu Hengzhong to someone who was rich.Didn't expect to get married so soon.I clasped my fists together, and said to Xu Hengzhong: "Congratulations, congratulations! Are you going to have a banquet? I'll help." Xu Hengzhong also gave me a salute, and replied: "It seems inevitable. I I’m poor, and I don’t like this. But the woman’s family doesn’t agree. It’s okay! Do as the Romans do, you can’t be so lofty! I’ve seen it through, and I’ve figured it out.” In the words, there was something that couldn’t be concealed. pride.

I'm not very interested in this matter.I don't want to get involved with Xu Hengzhong.I turned to He Jingfu: "Is there any clue about publishing the book?" Xu Hengzhong seemed to be very excited today. He rushed to answer me and said, "Things are getting more and more complicated. Today, Xi Liu's son, Xi Wang, wrote an article on the blackboard newspaper of the Chinese Department. The title is "Rule of Law or Rule of Man—— From Mr. He’s setback in publishing a book, think of our freedom of the press.” Not only revealed the matter exactly, but also criticized Xi Liu and the school’s party committee by name.”

"What's wrong with that? Let the masses talk, maybe Xiliu will wake up a little bit!" I said. "Your mind is so simple!" Xu Hengzhong shook his head dissatisfied and said to me, "Xi Liu will not say that Xi Wang was provoked by He Jingfu? He will also involve Sun Yue, saying that Sun Yue is He Jingfu and Xi Wang Backstage……" Having said that, he stopped and looked at Sun Yue.Sun Yue's face was already flushed red.She looked at He Jingfu, then at me, and then looked at no one: "I'm not afraid of being involved. Even if I don't say a word, I will still be involved. I really wish I had the power to author He's backstage, but unfortunately I There is no such power."

"Don't say that, Xiao Sun! I'm already very disturbed!" He Jingfu said, and he didn't look at Sun Yue either. This is how the same thing?Why are they so reserved and polite?Are you really scared by those rumors and gossip?It must be Sun Yue's problem!Lesbians have a particularly high self-esteem, and that's understandable.However, Lao He needs the support of love so much!So, I want to give them some encouragement: "Old He, Xiao Sun! No matter what others talk about, you have to make up your own mind. Xi Liu will never order you not to fall in love! You have gone through so many twists and turns, and finally—"

Before I could finish speaking, He Jingfu quickly waved his hand to stop me and said, "Old Zhang, where are you talking! Xiao Sun and I will always be comrades and friends." Sun Yue didn't seem to hear me and He Jingfu. Alright alright!You will always be comrades and friends.I really can't understand you guys.Look at Xu Hengzhong, people without lovers can get married, but it's just you two lovers who can't stop arguing! "Well, what are you going to do about publishing the book?" I returned to the subject with displeasure. "We are discussing this issue. You see what we should do, Lao Zhang." He Jingfu seemed to feel sorry for interrupting me just now, and his tone of speech was very kind and tactful.

"Report to the Discipline Inspection Committee!" I said. "The discipline inspection committee still has people like Xi Liu!" Xu Hengzhong immediately refuted me. "Then what should you do according to what you said? There is no way at all? It's much better now than before, right? Don't you admit it?" I was a little anxious, so I just rushed at him. I both admire and hate Xu Hengzhong.What I admire is that his consideration of problems is often more thoughtful and meticulous than ordinary people, and he has a bit of a big brother's demeanor.The annoying thing is that he generally puts things in a bad light and paints a dire picture.No one can say that the evil he speaks of cannot be produced.The problem is that he always thinks that these evils are inevitable and that people are powerless in the face of them.How did he become like this?Isn't the injustice he encountered much smaller than that of Lao He and Sun Yue?

"Of course it's not that there is no way. I suggest that Lao He come to talk to Xi Liu. On the one hand, it means that Xi Wang's haggard has nothing to do with them; There will be some relaxation. Enemies should be settled rather than knotted! It is always a disadvantage to be against someone with power. But I am afraid that I will not want to." Xu Hengzhong probably wanted to win my support, and he kept his eyes open when speaking facing me. Sure enough, before I could speak, He Jingfu said, "No! This is not a personal relationship issue, it should be resolved through organizational means." "But now, relying on normal organizational channels, you can't solve any problems. Yes, we hear every day that the rule of law is now emphasized! But do you know that in C City University, the law is in Xi Liu's mouth. Compromise Why not? It’s enough to achieve the purpose of publishing the book. You told Xi Liu that you are willing to modify it, but in fact you don’t change it, and he will not check it in person. Give him a ladder, save some face, and let him feel that his power is effective. What hinders you?" Xu Hengzhong argued. "Do you think Xi Liu did this just because of trouble with Lao He?" I couldn't help asking Xu Hengzhong. "Of course it's not that simple. The factors that determine Xi Liu's attitude are complicated. Various factors are mutually causal. If one of the factors is alleviated or disappears, the other factors will also change." Xu Hengzhong answered me immediately. "But for me, the important thing is to break through the shackles of dogma, not to gain Xi Liu's favor. I have no personal grudges with Xi Liu. What he thinks is his problem. I don't want to explain it with personal grudges The difference between me and him." He Jingfu immediately refuted. I agree with He Jingfu.But what should be done?I can't think of any way.I asked Sun Yue: "Is it okay to put the problem on the table and ask the department's general branch and the school party committee to discuss it?" Sun Yue sighed and said, "Who wouldn't want to do this? But Xi Liu was unwilling to bring the issue to the table. He said that the party committee did not actually intervene in this matter. Yes, it was discussed once, but nothing was decided. Comrade You Ruoshui His opinion is his own, and he has every right to do so. As for the stoppage of the printing press, that is the business of the publishing house, and we have no right to ask. Maybe it is because of a lack of paper, or maybe they have changed their plans. The publishing house did not invite us. The party committee asked about this matter, why should we take care of it?" "But Xi Liu and Minister Fu were both involved!" I said. "Have you got the real evidence? It's hard to say that you are framing! The little man gave false opinions to the big man, which is a framing. What about the big man's mishandling of the little man? You deserve it! The little man is standing in a low place, so it doesn't matter whether he is framed or not. "It was Xu Hengzhong's lukewarm words again. "Oh!" I sighed in frustration. "This is the most frightening thing. You can't use normal organizational means to solve the problem, but you can only resort to conspiracies and tricks, relying on connections, and going through the back door." Sun Yue said angrily. That's all right, but what can I do?For a variety of reasons, things often get churned up like a pot of mush that sticks to the conveyor belts, gears, and slows down or stops the machines we work on.In the Cultural Bureau, I often encounter such things: For a play to be staged, of course it has to wait for the approval of the leader.But after waiting for a long time, no one said yes or no.There can be various reasons to explain that this is caused by some accidental factors.But in fact, it was caused by a certain leader who disagreed with the stage, but was unwilling to speak out, and the people below did not dare to speak out. A man who has been wronged is about to arrange work.No one wants to kick around.There can also be various reasons to say that this is caused by some accidental factors.In fact, it is because a certain leader does not like this person, so everyone dare not like him. I often invent all sorts of "chance factors" for things like this.The leader sent me to "explain the situation", which was actually concealing the real situation.The real situation is often dismissed as "rumors". This is called "internal injury", right?Scars are not visible on the outside, but tissue necrosis is happening inside.If the rule of law is not practiced, how can such phenomena be overcome?However, without overcoming such phenomena, how can the rule of law be implemented seriously?Chicken and egg?Or a raw chicken?The chicken lays the egg, and the egg lays the chicken.The cause can become the effect, and the effect can become the cause.Therefore, treating the effect and treating the cause, and treating the cause and effect, the two cannot be neglected. How to deal with this paste is really a tricky problem.I can't think of any way.I asked Lao He: "What are you going to do? It seems that we can only wait for the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee to make a statement." Sun Yue replied for Lao He: "We plan to jointly write a letter to the higher-level party committee, not only to talk about the publication of this book, but also to talk about our views on ideological emancipation and cadre issues." "Be quiet!" Li Yining, who had been silent all this time, spoke up, and immediately said, "There are already enough rumors if you don't join hands! You still don't think it's enough, right?" "Gossip! Let it go! Sometimes, I really want to say to these gossipers: I—" When Sun Yue said this, he suddenly stopped.I saw her eyes flicker towards He Jingfu, and He Jingfu was also looking at her.Their eyes quickly parted, and they all shot at Regret who was silently doing his homework.Unfortunately, he was also looking up at his mother at this time.My heart skipped a beat, as if I understood something.But before I could think about it, Li Yining spoke again: "It depends on whether it's worth it. It's fine to talk about the issue of publishing a book. What's the point of talking about other issues? China has a population of one billion, and no one can see the problem. You are the only ones who have a clear eye, don't you?" "You can't say that, someone has to do it!" I couldn't help saying to Li Yining.I don't see her much, so I'm very polite to her.However, she was rude to me: "You agree, you can do it. But I haven't seen you write a novel and raise any sharp social issues!" Unexpectedly, this lesbian, who usually looks mild, can speak such harsh words when she is angry.In fact, I have never written a novel that exposes sharp problems, although I think about sharp problems every day.I want to write every day, and I have new ideas every day.But when it came time to start writing, I hesitated.It's not that I'm afraid, what's so scary?It's just that I'm not used to thinking that I might be the target of criticism.It's like a person who has never acted before suddenly appears on stage and is in the spotlight.I know, it's also a lack of courage.And courage must be exercised.But it takes courage to exercise.It's still a chicken-and-egg problem.I have passed the "best age" period for "becoming a talent".The chicken is also an old chicken, and it can't lay a few eggs.It is an egg or an egg that has been held in a nest, and the chicken cannot be hatched.Although I am not willing to live my life like this, I really don't have much hope for the future.However, I fully support others to create and break new ground.I have heartfelt joy at anyone's achievement and heartfelt sympathy for anyone's misfortune.Can't it?Do I have to be a hero myself?I feel wronged.I said to Li Yining: "I have no courage or talent. But does that deprive me of the right to support others?" Li Yining probably felt that what he just said was serious, right?He softened his expression and tone: "You will only harm them if you support them. I have seen through the things in China. I will never get it right. Chinese people are too servile and lazy. Many people only think, not Do it, or don't want to do it. They just hope that others will do it, and they will stand by and 'reserve the right to criticize'. They often pin their hopes on clean officials. When clean officials are in power, they dare to stick their heads out of their collars. If What about corrupt officials? I’m sorry, they will just accept it, and even feel sorry for the tiger. Both Lao He and Xiao Sun have been troubled for half their lives, why bother to play such a role of pleading for the people? They should be safe and sound In a few years." "I completely agree with this view. It's useless to make unnecessary sacrifices." Xu Hengzhong happily agreed. "I don't agree! I don't agree!" Sun Yue exclaimed excitedly.She asked Li Yining: "Why do you look at our China and our people like this? I can't stand it emotionally. A son is not ugly to a mother! I admit that we are facing piles of problems, but I still love us China, love our nation, and is full of hope for the future. Since you think that China has no hope, and since you think it is impossible to do good things for the motherland and the people while alive, then what is the purpose of your life?" Xu Hengzhong smiled: "Is there a purpose in life? I believe that ninety-nine percent of people live without purpose. In other words: life is purpose." Sun Yue became even more excited, her eyebrows were furrowed, and she shot sullen eyes at Xu Hengzhong: "Then hide aside and live! Don't laugh at our motherland and people! Don't blow cold wind on our cause. Let us sacrifice! I believe that sacrifice will never be meaningless." He Jingfu looked so excited.He first looked at Sun Yue with flickering eyes. Hearing this, he suddenly stood up and walked to Sun Yue's side, but immediately backed away.Sun Yue didn't seem to see He Jingfu's actions, but she was even more excited and started crying instead. Tears flowed down Sun Yue's cheeks.He Jingfu stood up from his seat again.He took his own teacup and presented it to Sun Yue.Just as Sun Yue was about to reach out to pick it up, she suddenly realized something, pushed away He Jingfu's teacup, and picked up her own from the table. He Jingfu blushed and retreated from Sun Yue's side.Li Yining and I looked at each other.Apparently, she noticed it too, but we pretended we didn't see anything.In fact, I really can't see anything! For Sun Yue's fierce criticism just now, Li Yining did not argue.She grabbed Sun Yue's two hands and stroked and rubbed them gently in her own, as if she felt pain from what she just said. Xu Hengzhong also stopped laughing.He shook his head and sighed, "I completely understand Xiao Sun's feelings. Who doesn't love their motherland and people? But these years, I really see it through!" "What did you see through, old Xu?" He Jingfu dragged the stool towards Xu Hengzhong and asked gently. "See through everything." Xu Hengzhong muttered. "Not necessarily, Old Xu." He Jingfu patted Xu Hengzhong's hand and said with a smile. "Will a person who sees through everything still be so active in finding a partner and holding a wedding?" Xu Hengzhong's face immediately flushed red.We all laughed too.He Jingfu patted Xu Hengzhong's hand again, begging him not to be offended, and then said sincerely: "Old Xu, what you see clearly is that our road ahead is not smooth, and we need to pay a huge price and sacrifice. Scared off. Isn't it?" Xu Hengzhong shrugged his shoulders, neither denying nor affirming. "Then what do you think of me? Are you also afraid of paying the price and sacrifice?" Li Yining asked He Jingfu. He Jing smiled and answered her: "Xiao Li, I'm not a doctor! Li Yining is the one who knows Li Yining best." "I'm suffering from a terrible inertia! Xiao Sun, you can't tolerate my words. How would you know that I'm scolding myself too! If I don't love my motherland, why don't I go abroad to inherit the inheritance? I have suffered so much in the past few years, and I never thought of escaping from my motherland. I have been waiting for the opportunity to serve the motherland. But the long-term waiting has worn down my will, and I have developed a temperament, content with The status quo, fear of twists and turns and hardships. I also see that now is different from the past, and there is real hope. But I can no longer fly. What is needed now is persistent, unremitting, ordinary and arduous struggle and work. To adapt to such a need, a person must always maintain an uplifting spirit, vigorous energy, and a tenacious will. But I have lost all of these. Sometimes I think about it alone: ​​If there is a chance, let me give my life It would be great to express your feelings for the motherland! But where is there such an opportunity?" "I still want to cheer up. Sometimes, I also hear the footsteps of the times. But I am used to the current pace of life, slow and monotonous. My limbs are getting more and more developed, and my mind is getting more and more empty. I I have to comfort myself! So I said: 'Even if you cheer up, it's useless. China can't do well anyway!' In fact, why do I really think so?" Li Yining spoke very sincerely, and Sun Yue was so moved that she shed tears again.I felt "I have sympathy for you" again.I said to Li Yining: "So, we probably belong to the same type!" "We are contemporaries, so there must be some similarities! Our experience has also made us have many differences. What is this, a natural phenomenon! Seek common ground while reserving differences, and accept what you see?" He Jingfu probably wanted to end this tense debate, right?He looked at everyone and smiled as he spoke.Seeing that Sun Yue was still immersed in excitement, he called softly: "Little Sun!" Sun Yue quickly glanced at him, then turned his face away immediately, and smiled at everyone. The atmosphere relaxed. "Hee hee! It's fun!" Regret had been doing homework, but now he suddenly laughed. He Jingfu walked up to her, took a look at her homework, and shouted: "Ha! I expose! I only did two questions. I have been eavesdropping on our conversation!" Hand the homework book to Sun Yue. Regret looked at her mother secretly, and seeing the smile on her face, she grabbed the homework book and acted bravely: "What do you call eavesdropping? It was the sound waves of your words that reached my ears, and the vibrating It penetrates my eardrum and then reaches my brain, and my brain sends a signal ordering me to respond. It’s purely natural!” Regrettably imitating the accent of a cross talk actor, which made us laugh out loud.He Jingfu patted Regret on the head while laughing and said, "Well, it's a natural phenomenon! Then tell me what you're laughing at?" Regret smiled triumphantly at her mother, as if she was happy and proud of He Jingfu's attention to her.She giggled again, and said while laughing: "I think you intellectuals are weird. You are all a little nervous. Like children, you will be noisy for a while, and you will be fine for a while. Isn't it strange?" I jokingly said, "We are different from you children. What we are fighting for is not food and entertainment, but big issues about the future and destiny of the country!" Regret immediately answered me and said, "Are we just competing for food and fun? Don't underestimate people. We think about the same things as you. We will be college students in the 1980s, and you are college students in the 1950s, separated from us. Thirty years! So you can't understand us and always treat us like children." The look of regret is funny.She tried her best to pretend to be serious and reserved, but her face was the face of a child through and through.We seem to be facing a big puppet.None of us laughed at her, though, and we all nodded appreciatively.Only Sun Yue pretended to be angry and said, "Look, what have I done to her?" Regret made a face at He Jingfu, He Jingfu smiled kindly, and then said to her: "Okay, enough trouble. Let's do homework!" Regret turned around obediently, and no longer looked at the adults. "Have you started writing letters?" I turned to the main topic and asked He Jingfu and Sun Yue. "Just as I was about to start writing, you came here. It seems that we deliberately held a high-ranking council meeting, using Lao Xu's marriage as a cover." Sun Yue answered me with a smile. Xu Hengzhong showed a disapproving expression again and said: "No matter how clever an adviser is, it is useless to you. You have your own established rules. You sit down, I have to go home." Walking to the door, he stopped and turned to me and said : "In another ten days, I will hold a wedding. Please come, but you must come early and help me, otherwise there will be no food." He also has his established rules.I nodded quickly: "Don't worry! I must be the first one to congratulate you that day! I wish you a happy love and a happy life." He shrugged his shoulders and smiled smartly: "In today's society, love is still a rare commodity. I am an ordinary person and dare not have such extravagant hopes. However, because of this, my life may be happy." After speaking, he floated away. Elegant vulgarity.Sensitive numbness.See all folly.Indomitable retreat.Love without pursuit.Happiness without love.Like everyone else, Xu Hengzhong has countless unity of opposites.And the highest point of unity is two words: affordable. "How different the paths of our generation of intellectuals are!" I couldn't help but sigh with emotion. "However, we are all born of our time. One mother gave birth to nine sons, and the nine sons are different. Together, we reflect our time, its strengths and weaknesses, its light and darkness, its past and future. " He Jingfu said. "In the past few years, we talked about great turbulence and great division every day. But in the past few years, the turbulence and division I feel have become more profound." I said. "I also feel the same way. Unexpectedly, the Cultural Revolution, which is clamoring every day to touch the soul, touched only the flesh and blood of people. Now it really touches everyone's soul." Sun Yue said. "It's more painful than touching the flesh." Li Yining said. "You cannot create without suffering." He Jingfu said. "It's like I do exercises. It's painful when I can't do it. But only the questions that are finally answered after painful thinking are interesting and make people happy." Regret couldn't help but interjected again. He Jingfu gave her a thumbs up: "Well said, what a pity! It's easy to understand. Your generation is definitely more promising than ours. You will become modern young people. By then, don't throw us all into the trash! " Regretfully looked at us one by one: "It depends on your performance! If you don't want to transform yourself into a newcomer, I'm sorry, we will be eliminated!" I bid them farewell with a good heart.Li Yining and He Jingfu also came out together.I asked He Jingfu: "Old He, what happened to you and Xiao Sun?" Unexpectedly, he shook his head and said, "We don't talk about it at all." Li Yining also said: "You probably heard some legends? " I was a little frustrated: "The emperor is really not in a hurry, and he is in a hurry to kill the eunuch. What are you going to do?" "Life will always open its own way. This is Lenin's words." He Jingfu answered me. correct.Life will always make its own way.Why should I worry too much?