Chapter 13 twelve

Xi Liu picked on me as soon as he got home today.Just now at the party committee, Sun Yue made him angry, and he vented on me.It seems that I was the one who hated him, not Sun Yue! Who is to blame?I just told him how some teachers in the Chinese Department reacted to Sun Yue: they were too casual in life, and they were close to He Jingfu and Xu Hengzhong at the same time.Xu Hengzhong often went to her home for dinner.Since He Jingfu was hospitalized, she kept sending her daughter to deliver food. Everyone in the hospital regarded Regret as He Jingfu's daughter.Hmph, Sun Yue!You usually look serious, but when you see me, you look sideways, as if I have brought you, Sun Yue, into trouble.Don't you look like this yourself!I despise such prudish people the most.But Xi Liu valued her very much.He always thought that she was more capable than me, and asked her to be in charge of a general branch of a department, which was "on both shoulders", while I was just an ordinary clerk in the party committee office.

I wanted Xi Liu to see Sun Yue's true face, but Xi Liu turned his attention to the direction and route.He felt that since the call to emancipate the mind and launch discussions on truth issues, the "whole" direction and line had gone awry.He didn't say that "the whole" refers to the whole school or the whole party and country.But according to my experience, it is by no means just referring to the school.He said that if this continues, the country will be in chaos and the party will be repaired, just like the Soviet Union after Stalin's death.He believes that one day the central government will find out the problem. "The problem lies with these intellectuals. Whenever we correct our mistakes and adjust our policies, some intellectuals jump out to interfere from the right. Of course, there are two types of contradictions of different nature. A small number of real rightists Molecularists want to rise up again to change the direction of the country. A large number of people are confused and confused. People like Sun Yue are confused. She should be a wake-up call. Otherwise, she will make a mistake during the second anti-rightist struggle. mistake."

I don't care about the second "anti-rightist struggle".I don't believe there is such a thing.Xi Liu stays at home all day long and doesn't understand the emotions of the people.But to sound the alarm for Sun Yue, I agree. "I think the same as you! I also think about Sun Yue!" I said this to Xi Liu, hoping that he would sound the alarm and suppress Sun Yue's prestige. Today, Xi Liu held an enlarged party committee meeting, and the general branch secretaries of all departments were "expanded" in.In addition to expressing his views on the situation, Xi Liu carefully sounded the alarm for Sun Yue.He really had a lot of brains.He didn't want Sun Yue to be overwhelmed.Trust me!At the meeting, he didn't mention Sun Yue's personal affairs at all, but only criticized the work of the Chinese Department in principle: the general branch did not highlight politics, and ignored the struggle to eliminate capital and rejuvenate non-profits.The minds of teachers and students are very confused.He gave two examples: First, He Jingfu had a growing influence among students, and many students worshiped him as an idol.Even his son Xi Wang was encouraged by He Jingfu to move out of the house.We have dealt with He Jingfu more severely in the past, but can we wipe out the anti-rightist struggle?Call He Jingfu a hero?Is his influence on young students positive or negative? Has the General Branch of the Chinese Department conducted any research?Two, not long ago, he criticized the love poems such as "girl" and "boy" on the students' blackboard newspaper, and it actually spread among the students.Some of the students even wrote an anonymous letter to him, attacking him as a feudal defender, and even attached a cartoon showing him as a priest.What kind of problem is this?Finally, Xi Liu said to Sun Yue:

"You can talk to He Jingfu, and in the spirit of love, persuade him to pay attention to his influence among the students. You can also take this anonymous letter back and check to see who wrote it, and give proper criticism and education. The situation should be reported to the party committee.” Xi Liu's attitude is gentle.He is always like this in meetings, giving people the impression of honesty, peace and stability.That's how I developed a good impression of him, and kept looking for him to report my thoughts.At that time, I was still a naive college student, and I even reported to him who I fell in love with.I think he is an old man with no evil thoughts.But he never thought that when his wife was not at home that day... Sigh!What are you thinking about?The deal is done.

I thought Sun Yue would accept Xi Liu's opinion.Unexpectedly, she pushed back Xi Liu's opinions one by one: "As for the current ideological trend and political situation, I suggest that the party committee seriously discuss and discuss. Do you admit that practice is the only criterion for testing truth? I admit it. Although this kind of admission brings me pain, I want to deny my past achievements. Many things. But I admit it. Because it's true." "I also have a different view from Comrade Xi Liu on the movements of teachers and students in the Chinese Department. Teachers and students are active in thinking, actively participate in discussions on truth issues, and put forward a lot of fresh insights on some issues in literary theory. Is this a bad situation? Is Wanma Qiha good?

"I know He Jingfu very well. He is not at all like some comrades, who take the wrongedness as his personal capital, and he does not regard himself as a hero. He just loves young people and is willing to make friends with young people. If our party at all levels Workers like He Jingfu can also understand the youth, care about the youth, love the youth, and we will also be loved by the students. It is a pity that some of our comrades are unwilling to do this, but only want to rely on their own rights to establish their own authority. '. "There is also this anonymous letter. I think it is a normal phenomenon for the masses to criticize the leadership. And the opinions of the masses are correct. How can Comrade Xi Liu say that the love poems written by the students are yellow? If they are all yellow, So……"

I felt numb for a while, is Sun Yue going to mention my past with Xi Liu? "So... what color is it?" Would you say that?I looked at her nervously.She glanced at me and said nothing.After a pause, she said again: "Please discuss with the party committee: Should the person who wrote the letter be tracked down?" Xi Liu also had to say: "Alright, let's discuss it!" How can this question stand up to discussion?The letter was only a criticism of Xi Liu alone, and it was not against the Party or socialism.Besides, the newspapers have published several times criticisms of suppressing the opinions of the masses.Of course, in order to take care of Xi Liu's face, the members of the party committee were very tactful: "Comrade Xi Liu's reminder is necessary. Criticism should be open and aboveboard, and don't be afraid of retaliation! We have always opposed retaliation. Show the public Our attitude, if you pursue it, don't use it!"

Xiliu, oh Xiliu, today you have experienced how powerful Sun Yue is!The people you foster don't listen to you.I looked at Xi Liu proudly, only to see his two high cheekbones raised twice.I knew he was going to lose his temper.Send it!Let Sun Yue know that she is not the pride of heaven, no one dares to touch her!Let everyone know that Sun Yue has lost Xi Liu's trust! "What are you doing? Bring me my cloth shoes!" Xi Liu is calling.He only plays awe-inspiring at home.At the meeting, he only shrugged his cheekbones at Sun Yue, squeezed his lips hard, and swallowed the fire that was about to spew out.snort!Paper tiger!In the final analysis, he did not believe that his own way was correct.He just felt uncomfortable and unsatisfactory!He thinks he's a politician, who knows what's on his mind?

I put the cloth shoes in front of Xi Liu.Wait for him to change, and then take the leather shoes away.I am so upset!I dropped my leather shoes to the bottom of the bed and kicked them in again.If I had to choose now, would I choose him? I am also obsessed.I could have been a very good psychologist, I was a top student in psychology.But because of him, I lost my business.He asked me to join the party and serve as secretary of the party committee. He often drove in and out with him, and even went to resorts with him for vacation.I became a lowly but very visible figure.Those who flatter Xiliu must flatter me.Those who are afraid of Xiliu are also afraid of me.I am self-absorbed.The hero is sad about the beauty pass, how can this be explained psychologically?I thought that the relationship between myself and Xi Liu was invisible, and someone knew who knew it.Discuss behind your back.There are also some people, such as the old woman Zhang Yuanyuan who came to criticize Xi Liu after she was transferred from the school, saying, "Some leading cadres of our party like to play with young women. This is a remnant of the feudal thinking of emperors and generals, which has corrupted the party."But without evidence, she can only talk, who will talk to her?those letters!Those hapless letters!I should have burned them long ago!But at that time, I was afraid that one day he would turn his face and deny anyone... A done deal.Xi Wang is right, Xi Liu doesn't love me, he only treats me like a vase.

I sat down beside him, leaning against him.Xi Wang is gone, and there are only him and me at home, and we have to rely on each other.He was as thin as a wood board, strangely not hunchbacked, with a straight waist.Stiff and uncomfortable to look at.But I still look at him often, and still "affectionately".Since I am his wife, and since we are a union of love that has gone through adversity, I can only be like this.No, don't people laugh at me? Or Sun Yue is smarter than me.I believe Xi Liu is more willing to marry her!But she used the "thorn" to retain her right to choose, and now someone will pursue her...

"Sun Yue is too proud! He has become a 'horn thorn character'!" Thinking of this, I said to Xi Liu. "She's not arrogant, she's a political vacillator." Xi Liu took my words. "Give me the Quotations from Maren and Lies." He ordered me.I stood up and looked for it and handed it to him without asking. "You read this passage." He opened a page and handed it to me. "The intellectuals, as a special stratum in modern capitalist society, are characterized, in general and as a whole, precisely by their individualism and their inability to accept discipline and organization...; that is to say, this social stratum is inferior to the proletariat place; this is one reason why the proletariat is so often hurt by the intellectuals' weak will and uncertainty..." When I read this, he waved his hand, and I stopped.A triumphant smile appeared on his face: "How well Lenin said! But now some intellectuals think that Marxism-Leninism is outdated!" "Lenin was talking about the pre-revolutionary intellectuals in Russia," I reminded him. "Marxism-Leninism is a universal truth! You should also pay attention not to get carried away." He answered me seriously. I don't want to argue with him about these issues.I know that he doesn't like intellectuals, not because of Lenin's teachings, but because he doesn't like knowledge.Once, he saw an article titled "Knowledge is Power" in a magazine, and he laughed it off: "Knowledge is power, this slogan is really fresh. The author doesn't even understand the basics of common sense. What is going forward in history? It is the people! It is class struggle! And the party! Knowledge is power, and our cause should be led by intellectuals! Where is the working class? What is the position of the people? And the party ?” I told him, “Knowledge is power” was mentioned by a British philosopher.On the contrary, he was more reasonable: "This is more clear. Can we copy the slogans of the bourgeoisie?" It is difficult for me to explain whether his psychology is self-esteem or self-defeating.He makes knowledge his enemy.As the power of knowledge expands, his power diminishes.He knew it intuitively, that's for sure. But, why am I arguing with him?My destiny is bound up with him.I always remember Sun Yue.So, I followed his lead and said: "Although the situation of intellectuals has changed, our policy towards intellectuals should also change accordingly. But Sun Yue is too right!" "This person has always had a strong petty bourgeois sentiment. He was deeply influenced by Western literary thoughts when he was a student, and he relaxed the transformation of his worldview. Now that the climate is suitable, it would be strange if he didn't jump out and stride to the right!" We hit a string.I get closer to him. "Then you still use her again!" I acted like a baby.If only he were ten years younger... "What do you know! Sun Yue's mass base is better than yours. Besides, I will never forget those who have supported me and helped me." He said. "Isn't it me who supports you the most and protects you to the end?" I glanced at him coquettishly.His cheekbones are really ugly, as if they were installed separately, and the perimeter is too clear! "You?" He looked at me with a smile.That smile is to "lower" half of the eyelids and cover half of the eyeballs, which is extremely ugly. "Of course you are different! You have an affair! Huh? Have you?" This is his way of expressing his feelings.I turned my face away from looking at him. "So, Sun Yuebao, you are selfless?" I asked sourly. "Sun Yue is really not selfish," he said. There was an unknown fire in my heart.He always speaks for Sun Yue.I handed everything over to him, which actually lowered my worth.People are bullying!Is Sun Yue selfish?snort! "Why did she get rid of He Jingfu in the first place, and now she pursues He Jingfu again? People have already regarded this as a scandal and are talking about it, and you still cover up for her? Listen to what she said just now, how thick-skinned she is!" I know He Jingfu very well. '. However, this is the truth, of course she knows He Jingfu very well! She also knows Xu Hengzhong very well!" After finishing speaking, I laughed.Xi Liu's high cheekbones moved upwards, and the "lowered" eyelids "raised" back again.I quickly stopped my smile, sighed and said, "I didn't see her jokes. I was really worried about her. Both Xu Hengzhong and He Jingfu have political problems. If they don't get it right, she will make political mistakes." mistakes. And it will have a bad influence on the party.” It worked.Xi Liu's cheekbones no longer raised, but the corners of his mouth moved, revealing a smile.There is only one pleasure in being with this man: to study the patterns and manifestations of his emotions, and sometimes to conduct a little scientific experiment.It is only at this time that I remember that I was once a top student in psychology. "You can talk to Sun Yue separately! She cares about face, and she might accept it if you talk to her separately. Do you want me to go find her?" I went on as I said just now.In Xi Liu's eyes, I am a woman with no independent opinions, which is of course correct.But as long as you are a human being, you can't be without a little cunning, and there's nothing that others can't see through.Otherwise there is no need for psychology.The Cultural Revolution "revolutionized" psychology.But people's complicated psychology cannot be eradicated.Xi Liu doesn't understand this.He only wants people to agree with him and obey him.Sure enough, Xi Liu was very satisfied with me.The corners of his mouth twitched more obviously, the smile jumped from the corner of his mouth to his eyes, his eyelids "lowered" halfway again, and his eyeballs looked at me with a little light. "I won't talk to her for the time being." He stroked my shoulder and said, "How about you talk to her? Some things are better for you lesbians. Tell her that we don't want to interfere with her private life, But you can't help but care about her political life." I go?When have I talked to Sun Yue alone all these years?We are like the well water does not interfere with the river water, each flowing horizontally and vertically.Every time I go to the party committee meeting, she always sits far away from me.Come to my house to say hello to me, and never look at me.Which nerve did Xi Liu get wrong today?Forgot about these situations?I didn't speak, I looked at him suspiciously. "I know you guys can't talk very well. Lesbians are narrow-minded. The ten-year experience of the 'Cultural Revolution' taught me that solidarity with my comrades is very important. If it weren't for a group of people who tried their best to protect me, my life would have been lost." Lost. Both you and Sun Yue have suffered for me one by one, and today you should be like sisters. Don’t get entangled in minor issues, please seek common ground while reserving minor differences!” I interpreted his words according to my own meaning: a leader must have a group of people under him, who should be brothers in peacetime and protectors in "wartime".As the leader's wife, she should be the glue of this gang.Xi Liu has pinned his expectations on me, which shows that he regards me as the closest person after all.I go.Let Sun Yue understand that I am a man of character. Sun Yue was carrying a small basket in her hand, and was about to go out with her daughter. When I asked her where she was going, I got an unambiguous answer: "Send food to He Jingfu." This is Sun Yue!Originally, I didn't go to the hospital by myself, but after criticizing me, I decided to go to the hospital by myself!Look at how beautiful and demure she looks, but she is actually full of thorns, she loves challenges! I told her that Xi Liu asked me to come and talk to her.She gave the things to her daughter and told her to go alone.Her daughter gave me an unfriendly look, then murmured to her mother: "Uncle He often asks about you. Xi Wang also asks why you don't go to see Uncle He. It's the first time today, and I won't go again." Sun Yue smiled and said to her daughter: "Tell Uncle He that I have wanted to see him for a long time. Let him recover from his illness with peace of mind. I will definitely go to the hospital to see him tomorrow." Her daughter left. Sun Yue politely asked me to go back to the house and sit down, and then waited for me to speak in silence.She didn't look me in the face, but looked out the window with her hands on her face, giving me a profile.Her face is more beautiful when viewed from the side.Although her hair has turned gray, she still looks much younger than her actual age.Gray hair on her head seemed not a sign of aging, but a sign of solemnity.I am confident that I am no worse than her in appearance.It's just that I can't make such a solemn posture.She has worked as a drama actress and has always paid attention to her demeanor. "Aren't you too excited at today's party committee meeting? Lao Xi has good intentions!" I broke the silence. "Normal life in the party! There's nothing else to talk about." She said this calmly, but still didn't turn her face away.It's really outrageous!I'm here on behalf of Xiliu! "Xiao Sun, I think you also know that Comrade Xi Liu loves you very much." I won't be called "Old Xi" anymore, so you, Sun Yue, should know that I didn't come to drop by casually and get your eyes on me, right?Comrade Xi Liu did not reveal the opinions of the masses towards you at the meeting. Why do you think this is? "I believe that my attitude is kind enough. This sentence moved her?She turned her head around and her eyes were on mine.Sun Yue's eyes are not big, but slender, so she looks gentle and kind, in fact?It's a great character.You heard what she said: "Actually, there is no need for Comrade Xi Liu to love me like this. I really want to hear the opinions of the people of the Chinese department. Comrade Xi Liu sent you to discuss these opinions, right? Please talk about it, don't worry! " Xi Liu, your kindness will not be rewarded.Well, if you, Sun Yue, ask me to talk about it, I will talk about it. I want to see how thick your skin is.I smiled and said to her: "Comrade Xi Liu didn't send me to talk about this. He doesn't believe those opinions. He thinks you are a person with your own opinions in politics and life, and you won't do that kind of thing." "What have I done?" she asked stubbornly.Her two eyebrows were raised up, forming a mark between her eyebrows, as if stippling with an eyebrow pencil.Obviously, she was suppressing her excitement. "Does Xu Hengzhong often come to your house for dinner? ——I'm just asking casually, Xiao Sun, don't worry too much." "I don't care too much. Compared with other comrades, Xu Hengzhong often eats at my house." She answered me coldly. "Didn't I remind you before? Although his problem has been investigated, the impact has not been eliminated. We know you, of course we will not believe that you have anything to do with him, but the masses..." I stopped deliberately Do not say. She sneered, took my words and said, "Why don't you believe that what will happen to me and him? Believe it, it's entirely possible!" "We're all for your own good." I said to her with a smile.Now, I'm not angry at all. "Thank you for your concern. I will consider all of this myself. Since Comrade Xi Liu doesn't want to interfere with my private life, let's not talk about my relationship with Xu Hengzhong!" Her face turned pale, but she actually smiled, for the sake of Express yourself calmly and calmly. "As for Xu Hengzhong's mistakes, I think that since it has been found out that he is not a person involved in conspiracy activities, there is no reason to restrict his activities, let alone interfere in his private life. Speaking of the 'elimination' of 'influence' , I think the mistakes we have made and the mistakes made by our party have not eliminated their influence. And eliminating these influences is our top priority." This is Sun Yue!Always show that she is a head above everyone else.You see, how tall she stands, she cares about the party!It's how you overcome your mistakes!But she avoided the crucial issue - the abnormal relationship with Xu Hengzhong!Am I a fool? "No, no! Xiao Sun! I don't want to talk to you about such a big issue. I do care about your relationship with Xu Hengzhong." "You wouldn't call me an anarchist if I didn't want to talk to you about it?" Her face grew paler, her eyebrows thicker, her eyes darker.I am a little proud, but also a little flustered.After thinking about it, I said to her, "Why do I want to take care of these things? However, if you really have a relationship with Xu Hengzhong, you should pay attention to your attitude towards He Jingfu. I heard that you send your daughter to the hospital to deliver meals to him every day." .The people in the hospital mistook your daughter for his daughter." Her face instantly turned red, even the whites of her eyes.It showed that I had touched her sore spot.It seems that she really has feelings for He Jingfu.People like He Jingfu are likely to win Sun Yue's favor.What's more, they are old relationship? She wanted to say something, but said nothing.She put her head in her hands and looked out the window, giving me a silhouette.I still want to say: "Have you considered the impact? Being with two people at the same time... And, they are both people with problems! Besides, who doesn't know about your past relationship with He Jingfu? What will people think about the current situation? It was thrown away in the past, Today I have become a baby again. Xiao Sun, we have all gone through those years, and the words are awesome!" Her body trembled slightly, but soon calmed down again.She was still looking out the window, as if talking to herself, but her words were still very clear. "Yes, people's words are terrible! Here, everyone thinks that they have the right to interfere in other people's private life, because we think that private life is also full of class struggle and line struggle. Some people take advantage of this and work hard to create various All kinds of 'human speech' to achieve personal goals. When will this phenomenon disappear?" "So, you have to be careful! Lao Xi and I are really worried about you! If there are any more turmoil - who can decide on China's affairs? It's better to be more cautious." When I said these words, I was really Sincerely.I don't know why, but I'm always afraid of the future.Who knows if there will be another Cultural Revolution?I hope that when we encounter such storms again, many, many people will stand with us.After all, Sun Yue is a "Bao Xi sect"! Sun Yue stood up, brushed her short hair, and issued an order to evict the guest: "Let's talk about this, Comrade Chen Yuli! Please tell Comrade Xi Liu that the work of the Chinese Department can be discussed in the party meeting in the future. I I will not hide my views, nor will I insist on my mistakes. As for my personal affairs, I will handle them myself. I am responsible for my actions. If someone finds that I have violated party discipline and state laws, please report to the relevant departments and courts. Sue, don't cover up anything for me." As soon as I walked to the door, I ran into Xi Wang.He nodded to me, walked into the room and said to Sun Yue: "Mr. Sun, I will go to see Mr. He with you." They went out together, looking very intimate.I can't tell what it's like. "Are you back?" Xi Liu followed me with a smile. I shook my head and sighed, and said sadly: "Sun Yue really surprised me! In her eyes, political principles and party discipline are worthless. She only has her own feelings in her heart. He Jingfu It has too much influence on her. And our Xi Wang, just took Sun Yue's arm to see He Jingfu. Your cronies and son Yu have all been attracted to He Jingfu. People have to stand in line and form again gone." Xi Liu looked at me in surprise.I told him the content of my conversation with Sun Yue in detail.Certainly highlighted and emphasized.After Xi Liu heard it, he said several times in a row: "I can't think of it, I really can't think of it!"