Chapter 32 Fifteen (middle)

Fortunately, there was only a drizzle just now, and the grass was still not wet, so they sat down and calmed down for a while.My ears immediately felt cool.It was an early autumn night after the rain, and it was very cool. Lin Yanmei needed some time to review what she had just said, so she temporarily forgot about the uncomfortable new rumors she heard in the library. She had been looking forward to something for so long, once it was in her hands.Yu Mengqin loves her, and Yu Mengqin has always said that he loves her!Maybe when she first appeared in his eyes, he was already in love with her!She recalled carefully, the first time she came to school, when she got off the bus outside the gate of Xinshe, she met those stern eyes.After that, as if in a dream, she suddenly became the only person who attracted attention in the school, so that pair of eyes was the only one in the school.

Some eyes with outstanding majesty fell on themselves.Thinking about it now, she felt very tempted. "It's not that he came to see me, and it wasn't that I got his attention," she thought. "It's because I rose to the center of his field of vision, and I was automatically seen by him, and got his whole attention." She certainly sees farther now.She wondered why she was so simple at that time?And all the students looked at it so simply.Just because two people are outstanding figures in the school, can all the love conditions be satisfied? She herself is even more ashamed!At that time, she had the nerve to make a wish and keep her fragrant lips for him!She felt her cheeks flushed when she thought of this, and she didn't dare to think about it again.

Who knew that the key that made her infatuated with herself was also the key that woke her up with a blow to the head today.Since she made this wish, she never observed Dayu carefully, but just begged for his love and affection.She never tested her emotions with her heart, she just decided that her ultimate goal was the person of Dayu.She didn't want to have any feelings to maintain her aspirations. Fan Kuanhu, never dreamed that he would wake her up in such a situation!From then on, she understood that the feelings of a mature girl are completely different from the love of a little girl.From now on, she has to put her feelings to re-judgment after opening her eyes.Yu Mengqin used to be absolute and complete in her mind.Now it was up to her to think about it.

After much deliberation, she hadn't loved him until now.She has a lot of respect and sympathy for Yu Mengqin.But after much deliberation, she really didn't love him.Those feelings of reverence which have always been disguised as love by an unconscious disposition of their own.She felt that she was not in love yet, maybe that kind of anger, unwillingness, and wanting to conquer him looked a bit like love, but when she woke up from this dream, she liberated herself, and she was not so serious about conquering anyone.She felt that since she had no trouble giving up the idea, it was definitely not love.

She even felt that she had always been somewhat pitiful.Once she saw this clearly in her heart, she felt that it was not love anymore.Although she thinks that respect is a good start of love, respect and pity are both available to anyone worthy of respect or pity.Why does a man need a woman to respect him?Why use a woman to be pitiful?Shouldn't his lover have a more feminine, more primitive, more intense emotion for him? Her former little girl mind was at a loss for these.She shuddered now, knowing with horror that there were so many dangerous flames in the hearts of men made of flesh.No matter how clever she was, she couldn't escape being a girl, so she was instinctively afraid.She didn't know how these flames would burn her in the future.But at least she hasn't attracted the flame to her body yet, and she instinctively rejoices for herself.Because she is at the age when she is afraid of love.

But the scene that woke her up was too sad.Think about Yu Mengqin's criticism of the girls in the past, and think about the days when he made a wish and was proud. This is a last resort, a helpless end!It ended up being a regrettable event.This made her attitude towards Yu Mengqin very abnormal.She knew it herself, but she couldn't correct it. After she woke up from the dream, she could have had two futures, one was bright, healthy and happy, and the other was negative, decadent, and born.And her regretful memories, as well as all the unsatisfactory developments in recent days, quite forced her to embark on a negative path.

Of course she rarely had the opportunity to ask for explanation and guidance.Because first, she dared not mention this matter in front of her eyes, and second, she knew that anyone who was close to her would never believe her new attitude towards Yu Mengqin.It's useless to make her talk, so she has been alone.And a lonely person who is on the wrong path is usually more and more wrong. Today, she grasped the love of Yu Mengqin that she had wanted for a long time.She lost her mind as if she felt like she was going to faint.Her fainting is the kind of fainting that occurs when a person who has just recovered from a serious illness and is extremely weak takes another dose of medicine.

She took this love in her hand like a hungry person took a gem, which made her dumbfounded.If her former psychology were revived, she might swallow this gem like a madman.But she could never swallow the gem now, for there was a painful thorn in her throat.All she can do now is to return the gem, there is nothing else to say.She didn't even expect to get the gem yet.She didn't want others to be disturbed by her, and she herself couldn't bear the excitement in such a weak state of mind. This difficult and unpleasant situation led her back to her unanswered questions.What kind of environment is she suitable for living in?Does she have any uncoordinated personality of her own?Why did she have to encounter these incidents?Did God make her to make her happy, or to make her suffer?Is it true that the path of a beautiful and smart girl should be covered with thorns?Did God make her, regret having bestowed on her so much, and want to take it back?Then why bother to torture her with these things, why not simply take her whole son back!

If God doesn't take her back, won't she go back by herself? Everything in this world is too difficult for her to deal with.Of course, she was constantly being pricked by the gossip she just heard in the library amidst the chaotic thoughts.If the heart of the world is vicious and sinister, then she can't believe it, she would rather die.But this change is too fast and unpredictable.It was as if he was saving people on the bank a minute ago, but now it was his turn to fall into the river and struggle. "Where is this kind of thing? How could it be a dream?" "Dayu doesn't understand? He is happy to pretend to be confused, and just let it go! Who doesn't see the interests clearly!" Now Fan Kuanhu has suffered a lot!" "Seeing that the wind was not right, and a myth came up, he was sacrificed!" These harsh words, one sentence at a time, re-tortured her heart again.

Unconsciously, she was extremely disheartened by the world and people, and became afraid again. The little boy threw small clods of soil into the pool one by one.He seemed to be undisturbed by anything on his mind.Of course, her melancholy was not all caused by this moment, and of course it was just like lightning flashing in her mind all at once; although it only lasted half a minute, it gave her an unknown amount of pain. .She naturally doesn't like this life, this environment.But looking at the little boy in front of her, she couldn't help feeling a little apologetic.These thoughts must have been immediately understood by him.But she was buried deep in her heart, and she was not so generous. Hao talked with him, but forbade him to talk too much, restraining him so much that he could only sit on the green grass after the rain, and throw dirt clods into the pool by himself.

She seemed to see an invisible temperament in Xiaotong, which made her feel very ashamed.I am ashamed that I shouldn't have such obsessive thoughts.I am ashamed that I was educated in the same school and my grades are too poor.Then she gained a kind of power to prevent her thoughts from sinking any further. She should continue the conversation again, she needs to think of a sentence to start.With this thought, she regained the smile on her face; when she looked at Xiaotong, the dark forces in her heart gradually receded.What is she thinking of saying?She thought: "Even if he goes to the bottom of it and talks about these things, I'll just have a heart-to-heart talk with him, and that will definitely save me! Fortunately, it's dark now, and it's rained again, so no one came." Before Xiaotong waited for her to speak, he seemed to have made up his mind to talk to her first to break the silence.He picked up a larger clod and threw it across the pond into the rose bushes on the other side.The flowers there are out of date.The dry branches and leaves beat the soil for a while.The fallen leaves sweep down a large piece to fall on the water.In the dark night, I could hear the voles hunting for food under the bushes running around in panic, bumping back and forth, making the rose bushes noisy for a long time. But this flower bush will still bloom new roses in the next spring, so those grown branches are already very tough, so they just trembled and shook off their dead branches, and then they still stood there uninjured. Xiao Tong made a decision because of his heart, he didn't feel that a clod of soil was heavy, and he threw it directly, but he didn't expect that it hit the two of them.The last time they sat there talking was this spring, and there was Fan Kuan Lake that day.Fan Kuanhu took so much trouble for Lin Yanmei to break off a rose, and it fell into the water.The heart-shattering sound of breaking branches seemed to still be piercing in my heart, but the Fan brothers and sisters, together with their loyal Zhou Tiyu, were pushed out by the schoolmates and couldn't stay, so they left them and left. The little boy said, "Lin Yanmei, I just thought about it for a long time, and I feel very sad for you..." "Little Tong," she was suddenly grateful, and she said, "Little Tong, why are you sad for me? Don't be like this, Xiaotong. You don't usually feel sad, but you also make me sad!" "Don't talk about me." Xiao Tong said, "I can see that you are sad. You have a lot of days! You are changing." "I'm changing." She said: "But you can't change. You have to be happy as usual. If you are afraid that I will change, you can't change. I told my sister a few days ago, It’s just that you treat me the same as usual. Boy, if you also feel sad, then there is nothing constant in front of me! I can’t bear it! I can’t live!” "It's not just that." Xiao Tong said, "Since you said that, of course I can stay the same for you. But you don't seem to be careful about yourself. You let yourself change. I just kept thinking that we walked here from the library Talking along the way. Our usual conversations are happier than this. There must be something on your mind today, which affects the atmosphere. You are a person who gets sick too easily, and you are not careful. So let me think about the future, Your life will inevitably be difficult, so I am sad." "Little boy," she said, "something happened to me again, and I heard some rumors occasionally. So when I came out of the library, it was not the same as usual. But I will try my best to stay the same. You must be happy first. .I am an exception today. I will definitely remember your words in the future. I have to be careful not to get sick." "But it's strange!" he said. "What did you hear in the library that would tell you that?" "A few words of scolding at me, to fight against Fan Kuanhu. Boy, it's not important. I have forgotten those words now. Fan Kuanhu should also be wronged. I'm already happy. I suddenly feel that those words don't matter. gone." "We all have mouths, you see, we can all talk. We're seniors at school now. It's time to take some responsibility. Don't feel bad when you hear gossip. Let me think up a theory for you, shall we?" Is it easy to deal with this kind of thing in the future?" "Okay. Tell me, boy." She suddenly felt the blood all over her body warm again.Her tone became a little excited: "Just to reassure you, I said it too unrealistically. I was actually very sad for a while because of those few words. You talk about your theories. I will remember them and call them later protect me." The little boy said: "Look, people who love to gossip rarely put their heart into it. They may have caused a big mess, but their intentions were not so bad at the beginning. We can say that they will be sad when they get into trouble. They scold you When you hear it, you should be like scolding others. You should feel sorry for others, feel sorry for them, and feel sorry for yourself. You should use compassion and unbearable heart to pity these careless people, and be firm and courageous for yourself. We have Responsibility corrects the atmosphere, supports the sense of justice, and corrects one's own faults. Because faults lead others to abuse. Is this good?...I'm not saying it's good or not, I mean, can it make you feel calmer? " "My heart is at peace. I will keep these good words in mind and use them later. Boy, tell me something like this again! There seems to be a door in my heart. It opened wide today. I can hear many words .” "But your tone is not calm. I remember Wu Baosheng said that you were emotionally excited several times. I think that is not good. For example, at the first spring gala, you left the stage and asked Mommy to go backstage , Later, when you sang the Three Wishes for Roses, you were so excited when you went to Chenggong at the West Railway Station, and on the car back this time. You are so excited now that I feel very heavy. I feel like I am talking by myself It's not like usual either. Look, aren't we going to be like usual?" "Xiaotong, you are right, but you are wrong. Xiaotong!" She said, "I want to say that it is just like usual, because I am happy now. Can you say that I am not happy like usual? Are you not happy?" "I'm happy too. Lin Yanmei, I'm happy too!" "That's great! Boy, but why can't you call me Yanmei? They all call me that. I heard you say so kindly to me, but calling me Lin Yanmei seems out of harmony." "Yanmei?" He was a little embarrassed: "I'm not used to shouting." "Here! No way!" "Xiao-tong." She puffed up her mouth, unhappy: "You forgot again?" "Forgot what?" "You walked across the Cuihu Bridge, how many steps are you going up now?" Xiaotong smiled, and he said, "It's only a few steps." "When you eat, why don't you pick up the bowl? Do you remember that I will take care of you?" "You're so bad!" "Have you imitated an adult?" "What are you talking about? Look, I'm wearing a coat!" "Do you have to wash your face in the morning?" "That's great." too much!" "How do you say that?" "Because, feel it! Look! It's not! I already have a few mustaches. I wash my face and shave my beard unless there is something special! It's so much fun! It's a pity that you don't have long hair, so I can't explain it. " "Don't talk nonsense." She smiled and said, "Now, I tell you to remember every day. From today on, call me Yanmei! When you see me and say hello, you will remember my authority. Okay, boy?" "Yanmei!" "Kid!" "It's time for me to be in class." He said, "Don't be so sad anymore!" "I can't, boy." "Don't be so hard-necked as to get into the horns of bulls!" "How? I don't understand." "They didn't ask me to talk about it. I think I should. So today." "Speak, boy. Didn't you just say that we are all grown-ups? We should have some ideas. Tell me, I'll listen." "I said that!" "Tell me, why do I get into the corner of the bull chair?" "Look, in Jiangwei Village, I just said that a person can't do things indiscriminately for a while. But when you returned to Kunming, you almost became a nun! If it weren't for Wu Baosheng, Shi Xuanwen and your aunt, three smart people, really I don’t know what’s going on today, Yanmei! This incident makes me often feel that human nature is hard to change. This time it’s really your masterpiece! Don’t be fooled!” "Don't talk, boy!" she begged, "When it comes to religion, our opinions are far apart. But I know you can do without the help of religion. Leaving me alone, you have to admit that some people in the world need religion. I believe You don't need religion, if there is heaven, you can get in without religion. Anyway, I am already grateful to you, boy, really. No one has ever talked to me about my matter. Today I have heard It's too much. Let me think about it and digest it slowly, okay?" "No, Yanmei! You're avoiding me!" Xiaotong said, "Of course some people need religion, and that's the same as people need a doctor. They need God's help." "No, boy. There are some things you don't understand here!" "If you can tell!" "It's not about religion." "What is it?" "It's life." "Forget it! You girls don't understand the things you don't understand but are afraid to understand, so you avoid talking about them, saying that others don't understand either." "No. Let's not talk about it." She said: "Well, I promise not to hold my breath and think about it. Is this okay?" "Of course, what if you fall into the old habit again? We have to give you something to remind you, like my bridge, rice bowl, and your name." "Let's think of one," she agreed. "So, you take me for a religion. Until you find no contradictions with me. Take me for a religion. When you think of religion, think of me!" "That's it! Boy!" she said. This kid has such a loud voice!But at this moment, which man's tone became soft again.Lin Yanmei was also happy to accept it without thinking about anything else!Who can blame her for being a girl! "I don't mean anything serious, boy," she said. "It's a pity that we are sitting in the dark. I can't show you a book I just borrowed here. I really want to ask you to read this book." , you can feel a little more of my fearful opinion." "What book is so good?" "It's not particularly good. Just talking about the words, the meaning is normal. Once the music is added, it feels so good that I can't describe it." "Is it sheet music?" "It's an opera. I borrowed it and copied a few songs. It's an opera by Keebel and Sullivan." "I suddenly remembered that I have a box of matches on me. We can row them and look at them!" The boy took out the matches as he spoke, "I bought them when I went to the toilet on the way." Lin Yanmei heard that there were matches, and hurriedly spread out the big music book.She was kneeling on the grass by the water at this time, so she spread the song book on her knees.She lowered her head to look at the song book, and because she leaned forward, her head reached the water on the bank.The raincoat was originally draped over the shoulders, so it was draped behind him.The little boy struck a match with a "sizzling" sound, and the eyes of both of them shone brightly.After a while, when he saw things clearly again, the little boy shouted: "Yanmei! Look! Look at the shadow in the water!" She hurriedly looked around, and the two shouted happily.She said excitedly: "Do you think it looks good? Do you think this shadow is beautiful? Even the best colorful movies are not so beautiful!" "Look at the shadow of your hair in the water, there is still light!" The little boy said, "Your white raincoat and black cheongsam complement your face so well. Is the water so clear today?" "But the water is completely black," she stared blankly.Her fair skin, rose-colored cheeks and coral-colored lips all reflected the light of a match clearly on the water.She said: "The surface of the black water is very clean. The water is probably too clear and too deep. Anyway, it's like a black silk curtain for the background." "The color tone of colorful movies is often deliberately exaggerated to make them look particularly good. This time we must have sat in the dark for a long time, and suddenly saw a colorful and gorgeous picture, so it looks very good." He said that the match in his hand had burned and throw it into the water. "Strike again, little boy." She begged him, "It's so beautiful, little boy, I can't wait to go into the water and fish that shadow up!" "Maybe it's because the reflection looks so sharp." The boy said and struck another match to see.Seeing Lin Yanmei in the water changed her posture this time, now a silhouette is looking at him.He also let go of the shadow in the water to look at the people on the shore.Isn't Lin Yanmei just looking at him!Seeing that the little boy had discovered it, she smiled and blew out the match with a bang.Said: "Little boy, the people on the shore are also pretty! I saw that you flashed a match in your hand and raised it up to look for shadows in the water. The look is also very beautiful. The background is also completely black, only the ground. The tip of the grass, the tree trunk behind, there is a little light. So the background in the water is also black." The little boy couldn't help but close his eyes again to look at the happy and smiling Lin Yanmei in front of him on the shore.Her beautiful eyes reflecting the flickering of matches, her smiling lips and white teeth, her leaning body, her semi-fragile knees, and a large musical score book on her knees, and the white raincoat on her shoulders , and a short-sleeved cheongsam of black fine wool. He wanted to strike a match again and read the opera.She pressed his hand to stop him rowing.She said: "I can't let you draw a match to see me anymore. This shadow is much better than what is said in the Naqu text. Now I can always see that shadow in the dark. Even in this life, I can always see it at any time." You can see the shadow when you close your eyes. It’s not good to strike a match again. Let me translate a few sentences of this piece of music from memory to you. I think it can be translated like this: Look!Here comes a string of children, They were just released from school, Everyone really likes it! Each of them has a little bit of fear, They wondered what a strange thing this world is! Some people say that life is trouble and sorrow, Let us sing mournfully. Some say beauty is nothing but soap bubbles, After all, not long! The bottom is almost the same meaning.You will feel better after listening to my singing.The tone of the original text is also good. ’ she sang softly as she spoke. "Music is much better." The little boy really felt cute when he heard it, and he said, "The kind of little girls who are surprised, scared, and ignorant can say it all. But Yanmei, this kind of sentence or It’s a tune, it’s common in poems and songs too?” "Common is common, common is good!" She said; "I like them all! Listen to me and sing again, but the bottom one can't sing, this is a female chorus song. The bottom part is separated. Sing with one mouth Don't come!" she said and sang again.After singing, I thought about it for a long time, and said: "Like a soap bubble! You say it's scary, isn't it scary!" "Yanmei, it's the same truth I said last time." He smiled and said in a comforting tone, "Let's talk about it as we walk back." They stood up and walked back to the south courtyard together. On the way, Xiaotong said, "It's still the same thing about aesthetic experience that night in Yiliang. Coincidentally, it was also night, after the rain. I said that your aesthetic experience is all indirect. Isn't it true this time?" Lin Yanmei was a little embarrassed when she heard this, so she bumped him with her shoulder to stop him from talking.He changed the direction and said: "Didn't you say that we have grown up and can make up our own minds? We should also have our own attitude towards life. Aesthetic experience is just one of them, and the emotions and judgments of people and things should also be Jump out of the stereotypes and observe and criticize for yourself. Right?" This sentence was giving her a big encouragement, and it was hitting her heart.So true, so true, so powerful.She couldn't help whispering: "I can suddenly get rid of my feelings for Dayu because I accidentally jumped out of the old custom's opinion and disagreement, and I have the reason for my own observation!" "Let's talk about this matter!" Xiao Tong said, "I hope you can understand that it is not appropriate to use such a hasty method to solve emotional problems. All emotional matters need time. Just ignore him, I’m afraid you won’t be able to bear this reaction.” "I understand what you mean," she said. "My attitude is influenced by something else, and I understand it very well. At any rate, boy, it's all yours now!" While they were talking, they had already entered the North Courtyard, and then walked out to Wenlin Street.There are more electric lights, more people, and brighter lights.They were able to see each other clearly under the light.See who you were talking to and talking with during the period of time when you only heard words but didn't see your appearance in the dark. Here everything is practical and concrete too.People's moods are different in such a bright place.The conversation they had just now might not have happened here.They all felt that time was precious.They are grateful to each other and to God for creating such an opportunity. "Little boy." Lin Yanmei said with a sigh of relief: "I really hope that we can keep talking like this. Keep giving me new ideas. I seem to be a very hungry person. I just tasted a little food. I have a strong appetite, so I feel more hungry!" "It's your old temper again," he said, "it's all atrocious to do anything!" She smiled and said, "Stop talking. I've already arrived at the South Courtyard. Are you going back now?" Xiaotong thought for a while and said, "I don't want to go back either. Is this okay? Lin Yanmei? Oh! Yanmei, tomorrow is Sunday, let's go fishing in the mountains over there!" "Hey! Then you know how to ask your girlfriend out to play!" She nodded him with one finger and said. "You are so bad!" Xiaotong couldn't help laughing at her look.He caught the naughty little finger. "Don't you just think about it, I'm going to church tomorrow?" she said. "It's not easy." Xiao Tong said, "The last time I went to Jiangwei Village, I didn't catch any fish." "Don't worry, little boy." She said, "Didn't you want me to treat you as a religion? Tell me about how to fish on the mountain over there: the fish is on the mountain? You describe your church and we can discuss it." "Look, Yanmei." He raised his hand high and pointed north to the sky! "It's all in the north, on the far side of the sky. The tall, patterned peak there is Chang Chong Peak. The small red square on Chang Chong Peak, which we have seen during the day, is Tiefeng Temple. Tomorrow we will build a In the morning, we will start at half past six. We have to walk a long way. We will pass through four or five small villages, cross many small bridges, take the stone road, the big station, and the small road until we reach the foot of the mountain. Then We turned from the edge of the forest at the foot of the mountain to the valley. There were no rice fields there, it was all grassland and woods. The acorns and pine cones fell on the ground and were hidden in the grass. There were insects and birds singing. We walked along Up the stream in the valley. Maybe a squirrel would play with us on the way, and drop a little nut, 'Bang!' and hit you on the head." "On your head!" she said with a smile. "We have two heads, one hit." He said: "Let's go again, and halfway up the mountain we saw the stone dam built by the farmers. The stone dam intercepted the water in the valley like this, leaving only a small hole at the bottom. Let the water come out. The stone dam is more than ten feet high. Therefore, the pools raised by the weir are more than ten feet deep. There are three such pools. Because the weirs are built in the valley, the surface of the pools is irregular Triangular. We don’t fish in a pond in the middle of the mountain, we have to go up to the second pond.” "I just said, little boy, I can't walk anymore!" She also pretended to be really in the mountains: "Besides, it's so cool and breezy here, it's too quiet and beautiful, we can't go anymore, we make a lot of noise when we walk! Squirrel, the bird must not like us, we are two restless and noisy guests." "We didn't want to go up anymore. This place is already as high as the Tiefeng Temple in front of the mountain. This second pool is the smallest but the oldest one. Although it is small, it is bigger than the two small pastures in the South Courtyard. It is the oldest and has the most fish. The stone dam is full of small shrubs, and there are moss and grass on the side of the stone dam, which looks the most pleasing to the eye. The water here is very clear and cool. We can also fish and swim. But who is there You can't help but swim in a few positions without sound, because the slightest bit of sound can be carried through the valley. It's so exciting. So it's better to dive. Like a fish." Lin Yanmei went on to say, "We were playing there, and we ate the cakes we brought along on the grass at the foot of the water by the water. Suddenly, we realized that it was getting late, so we were reluctant to let go, and didn't dare to miss it. We were looking for a way home in the twilight?" "Well said! Yanmei." He said fondly, "I'll go tomorrow. Don't wear a cheongsam. I've seen you have blue thick cloth trousers and a shirt that are easy to walk in. Wearing those makes it easier to walk, Looks like my playmate again." "Don't! Don't! Boy." She shook her head.Put a finger on your own lips and say, "It's too far for a boy to talk here. You have to leave a little room for girls to move freely?" The little boy also laughed. She added: "I know how to dress myself, boy. Even if it's a rule, I'll find you tomorrow, so it's better to drop by. Wait for me at the door of the dormitory." She turned her head and smiled as she spoke, and was about to enter the south courtyard. Turning around again, she said, "Also, thank you, boy. Thank you for what you said today." After speaking, she went back to the dormitory in a blink of an eye. Seeing her go in, Xiao Tong stayed there with a smile on his face. "Little boy!" He suddenly heard someone calling him with a smile: "We've been watching here for a long time, but they didn't even glance at us." He hurriedly turned his head and saw Wu Baosheng and Shi Xuanwen standing under the shadow of a tree a dozen steps away.There are also a few girls scattered nearby, so of course they have been watching for a long time.Seeing that the good show had ended and there was nothing else to see, they all smiled with their mouths pursed, and each of them bowed their heads and walked back to the dormitory.Shame a child to death. "What did you two chatter about? Can we hear it?" Shi Xuanwen walked over with Wu Baosheng as he spoke. The little boy said embarrassingly: "We agreed to go fishing behind Tiefeng Nunnery tomorrow morning." "Tomorrow morning?" Wu Baosheng said, "Did you hear that? Shi Xuanwen!" "Lin Yanmei isn't going to church tomorrow?" Shi Xuanwen said. "She just goes to church." Xiao Tong said, "I am her religion." "Bao Sheng, listen to this tone!" She said, "I'll see you tomorrow, you don't need to worry about anything. I don't think you should look for Yan Mei anymore. Let her go to bed early. The two of you go back on the same road. You can ask Xiao Tong That's it." She said goodbye with a smile, and went into the south courtyard by herself. On the way the two of them walked to the new school building, Wu Baosheng said: "We went to see Yanmei's aunt again today. The aunt said that she looked boring on the surface and wanted to be a nun again, but she still had a bit of yin and yang in her bones. Then said last week A bishop has come to Kunming. During the few days he is here, if she asks the bishop to accept her as a nun, if the bishop agrees without knowing it, then she and Father Wei Helan will have nothing to do. So let us pay more attention to her a little." "Is that so?" The little boy was also worried, and he said, "Has she met this bishop?" "It was about her meeting with the bishop last Sunday, and the bishop liked her very much, so I started talking about it." Wu Baosheng said, "Who is this bishop? It's about feasting on their fellow countryman, the famous Bishop Ding. He just returned to China. .He will go to Chongqing in a few days, once he leaves, he will be fine." "What did she talk about with the Bishop?" "There's nothing to talk about yet," she said. "Talk about some gossip. Yanmei asked the bishop if there were any larger Catholic churches in the south of Yunnan? The bishop said there were several. Ask her why she asked this. She said that the Ministry of Education recruited students from the school to study the language of the border peoples in several border areas. , compile a dictionary in each district. She said that maybe some female students would like to go. If there is a Catholic church, she can ask if they can live there. If there are people in the church, can you inform her, and she will ask to go The classmates are ready to go together." The boy's heart skipped a beat when he heard that.She said, "Perhaps what she's asking is not gossip! She may have a vague intention to go. She is the best student in the phonetics class, and there is a tendency to make her want to go. She is I don't want to stay in school." "I don't know that," she said. "I think she's doing better these days. Maybe she's asking for someone else. She doesn't go far alone. Unlike you, you often don't have a piece of luggage." If you don’t bring it, you can leave as soon as you say. Besides, if she wants to leave school, she will also become a nun. So will that kind of negative thinking make her compile a dictionary?” "Leave that aside," he said. "What did the bishop say?" "The bishop said, of course I would help. He told Father Wei Helan to remember to help. He said that there must be someone in the Catholic Church over there who also studied the text, so they can refer to each other and make corrections." "This bishop is wonderful." The boy said, "What can Yanmei say?" "She probably didn't say anything. Her aunt told us to come here. Well, now you are watching over her. How about it, take me, the big sister, tomorrow, okay?" They had already walked to the southern district and she The dormitory, she asked deliberately.Without waiting for the little boy to speak, he went on to say: "I'm making you anxious! Go play hard tomorrow and come back well. The two children are not followed by anyone, so don't let the big civet cat take them away. Don't fight." The little boy said with a smile: "Goodbye!" He ran back to the dormitory by himself, found out the fishing rod, made a choice, and went to tie the fishing line.These fishing rods are all made by himself.He chose the best green bamboo pole for Lin Yanmei.Conveniently tied on a bright red float. They are all upright, standing on the edge of the bed, and jumping on the bed.After thinking about it, I found a swimsuit and a towel and put them on the table.After thinking about it again, he looked at the fishing rod again.Nothing happened, so I closed my eyes and fell asleep. 第二天天一亮他就醒了。他洗完了脸。又想了一想，换了身干净的衣裳，仍是他的短打扮。便到门口来放鸽子，放兔子。在那里等了一会儿。时间太早，又进屋去把钓竿都拿出来等着。他自己正独自个儿笑着呢，蔺燕梅也满脸笑容，带了早晨的新鲜空气来了。今天好一个晴爽的早晨天气呵！ 她没有穿小童说的那一套，她站在那里让小童来看。那个神气仿佛说：“我们女孩子穿衣裳的事不比你知道的多？” 她穿了一条深灰色的长裤，是很轻的料子，匀称地在腰间束了她的衬衫。这件浅绿色有小白花的绸衬衫，袖子是很肥很宽的。袖口却很窄。翻开的领子旁边隐隐透出围胸的白纱花边。衬衫又轻又薄，歇在她圆圆的两肩上，又软软地贴了身子滑下来。最轻的风吹着，也飘飘地动。一身衣服都栽得那么贴身，于是她的腰，她的腿就都带了她那美丽又稚气的神气。小童不知道怎么看女孩子。他只觉两眼留连在人家身上移不开去。殊不知他已经得到看女孩子最好的方式了。 她咬牙打算给他看个饱，谁知他一直看下去，全没个饱。 她忽然羞了。她便走过去双手挽了小童的臂膀说：“你不能让我饿着上山。咱们吃点早点再走？” 他满心怡悦地看了看这个望了自己的脸，笑着点头，便去把钓鱼竿游泳衣顺手拿起来。 她接过游泳衣来说：“小童，咱们不游泳。走这么远的来回就够乏了。不游罢？” 小童看着她并没有拿游泳衣，便把游泳衣放下。两个人一个人一把钓竿，就到校门外吃早点去了。 他们走到小贞官儿的摊子前，小童把钓鱼竿往地下一插。她看了，也学样儿，也那么一插。小童吃东西是其快如风的，她也不去拦他，只学他那个粗样儿给他看，两个人就又都笑。 他们一人一个钓鱼竿插在那里，钓丝被风吹得飘起来带了丝上的漂儿也动，就像引人注意的两个幌子似的。他们本来就引人注意。蔺燕梅又穿了这么一套称体好腰身的衣裳，引得女孩子都不忍把目光移开。 待她学着那种男孩子的神气把早点吃完，两个人就那么一路说笑地走了，全似身旁并没有这些同学看着似的。 他们从火化院墙外小道往北走，太阳光刚刚令人觉出一点点暖和来。他们在经过的村子里买了几个才烘好的麦饼，拿着一直走进山谷去。 山色姣好还不足令人喜。而蔺燕梅走来一直轻捷不倦才叫人真高兴。想想看，如果像她昨夜所说，累了，那么什么兴致不也就提不起来了么？ 他们在林下小径上，直往山上走，没有多久便到了第二个水池边上。水是真清，鱼儿在水里打漩全看得见。这山谷的幽美竟比昨日所说还胜一层，因为这里还有一阵阵的花草香气呢！ “小童，这种奇怪的气候只有云南有。说四季皆春，就真四季皆春。告诉没来过的人都不能信。”她说。 小童一边理钓丝一边看她迎了朝阳，正把一小束粉紫色的野花戴到发上。花儿上还有露水呢！ 她戴好了花又说：“云南南边的气候更不知道什么样儿了。” 小童听了说：“你有没有应征去滇南作语言工作的意思？” “你怎么什么事都打听得这么清楚？”她奇怪地说：“我只告诉过系主任有这个意恩。你说怎么样？” “我说不坏。”他只有如此回答：“可是你一个人出过远门么？” “没有。”她看了地上的青草说：“不过也不要紧。她们传教士，修女常常有人走，可以结伴去，到那边也住在天主堂里。你想，一去两年，字典编好，代替论文，也是一样毕业，另外又作了点事业。” “你已经决定了？”他半信半疑地问。 “你赞成不赞成？”她抬起头来笑了；“我有这么个想法。我想可能性是很小的。一个想法只不过是一个想法，离成为事实还有一大段路呢！” “我想不出来放你一个人去那边区深山里工作是一种什么滋味来。” “这儿不也是山里？这儿岂不是挺好。” “也许女孩子们同样地需要做点事业？”他沉思地说：“你听听这松树林里的风，看看这山，这水。千古是一样，是一样地美。人便不同。过去有多少美人，为了时尚，装束不同，仪止不同，许多画像现在看来并不完美。倒是她们留下的故事还始终动人。女孩子太美了，常常害怕自己的容貌给自己带来了太离奇的生命。可是不知道容貌能有多久？那些回肠荡气的故事才真传得久远。燕梅，我觉得你太美了。美的奇怪，不似人间的品质，也许你生命的精华一幕一幕还是才开始呢！我也不愿拦你，你尽管挑不平凡的路走罢！” “小童！”她感动得心脏都觉得震荡：“你说的话句句在我心上！小童！你怎么为我想得这么多？” “喜欢想的人，有点事情就不自主地想了下去。”他说：“昨天晚上你走后我遇上了伍宝笙，她说你阿姨告诉她，你打听滇南的事。我忽然想起也许是有心问的话。教育部这个征募的事，原本是有限几个人能应征的。男同学学语文的又都已经从军做翻译官去了，剩下的还不是女孩子们了。” “你还知道有谁去没有？” “当然有，都忘记告诉你了。布告才出来不久，朱石樵就决定去西藏去研究喇嘛教。我们，大余，大宴，三个人送的他。昨天就是把他剩下的两件衣裳几本书，几封旧信给送到大宴那儿去寄存。他这一去不知道什么时候回来，也不知道哪年才再见！燕梅！学校里熟人一天天地走得少了。我真觉得孤单得很呀！”他说着难过了起来：“昨天我在大宴那儿都舍不得回来。大宴脱下一件长衫给我，他穿起一件朱石樵的。说大家互相纪念着。我听着直想哭。后来一个人走夜路回来时候，真难受！” 蔺燕梅没有法子劝她。她自己鼻子也酸了。她只能连着说：“小童，你别难过！” 小童说：“你看，我家不在这里，我等于在学校里长大的。他们几个人，我从来没有分开过。现在一分开便似乎是此后分开的日子多，相聚的日子少了！你说，我能不觉凄凉么？” 蔺燕梅一面抚慰他，一面接过钓丝来，替他把麦饼掐下几小块来装上，放下水去，嘴里又慢慢引他谈别的。她说：“怎么朱石樵走也没有叫我们知道呢？” “他脾气是这样。”小童说：“告诉我们的时候已经快启程了。冯新衔他都没告诉。他说．'告诉了他，那么沈葭当然知道了，那就大家都知道了！'所以送行的只有我们三个人。” “西藏真远呀！”她说：“他怎么个去法儿？” “坐飞机先去印度。”小童说：“中国的旅行全是这种玄玄妙妙的！当初到云南来是先走安南！” 蔺燕梅本来就是个容易激动的性情，她爱小童生性中感情浓厚的一部分，可是她又一向最怕他那种意味特别深沉的凄凉话。她看已经把话题引开了，便故意笑了出来说：“你想好笑不好笑，白莲教去研究喇嘛教去了！” 小童听了觉得像是自己的话。便也笑了。正在笑着忽见水上鱼漂儿一动，两个人忙去扯钓竿，直把一条小鱼儿挑在半空中。银白色的鱼肚子在阳光里直闪。他们喜欢极了，拖到草地上四只手把它捉住，摘下钓来，是一条柳叶儿，有五寸多长。 小童摘了几根小草棍儿想来穿却都不够结实，他便截下一段钓丝穿了放下水去。两个人就专心钓鱼，快到中午已经钓了六七条了。有一条小鲫鱼才三寸多一点，是蔺燕梅钓的。这条鱼虽小，却挺有肉，比五寸的柳叶儿还要重些呢。 他们一边钓鱼，一边顺手把麦饼撕了来吃，不觉把麦饼吃光了。 “得，这下子完啦。”小童说：“鱼食儿也没有了，人的干粮也完了。” “咱们就不钓了。”她说：“反正是玩儿。” “那若是带了游泳衣倒对了。”小童说：“就可以游泳了。” “我也没想到水这么清。”她说：“早知道我也带了。” “可不是吗！”小童看了水说：“你如果下水，我就抓你这条美丽的人鱼公主！不过现在游不成了！” “我明白你的意思，小童。”她看着他说：“后悔带了女孩子来玩了！是不是？没有我在这儿，恐怕你脱了衣服早就下去了！” “算了。”他笑了一笑：“也不定就得游。留一点精神回去。” “真是越变越听话了。”她说：“那么咱们就走。” “正好。”他说：“再多呆就该饿了。”