Chapter 31 fifteen (on)

"Reluctant to return to my heart, I secretly follow the flowing water to the end of the world." ——Qin Shaoyou Of course, there were many rumors and debates in the school because of this incident, and a kind of public opinion arose.This public opinion was formed after a day and a night, and it was only waiting for the person who was discussed to come back and listen. Lin Yanmei is a passive person, a character who should be loved in everyone's mind. No matter what happens to her, even if she insists on going her own way, everyone is used to not blaming her, but blaming the other person who caused her going her own way!She crashed a car, everyone blamed Dayu for not letting her drive, she pinned the forbidden flowers in the campus, everyone blamed Fan Kuanhu for not picking them, since she was dreaming this time, how could the Fan brothers and sisters not accept it? Severe sanctions by public opinion?

She was crying and homesick for this matter!She wanted to be a nun!That's great!The school couldn't keep her!She misses home and wants to leave everyone and go back.If she wanted to be a nun, it must be for a most holy reason.It is very in line with her disposition, which is naturally close to the religious atmosphere, and she can only be allowed to go under an extremely unfettered situation. Things may be wrong, but Lin Yanmei can't be wrong! This kind of public opinion is too sentimental and a bit unfair, but the more the public opinion is of this nature, the more aggressive it will be, and no opposition is allowed.Everyone is admonishing each other not to mention in front of her that she is going to practice Taoism, for fear of embarrassing her and making her unable to go down the stairs.Everyone warned each other again, not to explain that it was the classmates who deliberately protected her and made her feel uneasy.Although the debate was fierce behind the scenes, no one dared to say a word in front of her, even her protectors, Mr. Lu and Mr. Gu, kept silent about this matter, for fear of breaking the matter.

Wu Baosheng, Shi Xuanwen moved her back to the school lightly, but Mr. Zhao pretended not to know about it and instead scolded her for staying overnight outside the school.Two days later, following her to be baptized and to attend Feng Chen's wedding banquet, everyone only acted out the play of "Yanmei's Return" with trepidation, not daring to be troublesome.In fact, when she came back this time, she suddenly became a special character in the school, an isolated character!She seemed to be pushed backstage by everyone to watch the show, but she was not allowed to hear anything about the stage.

As soon as the Chenggong characters returned, the dispute intensified.The Fan brothers and sisters seemed to be unable to gain a foothold in school.One by one, Fan Kuanhu's pink accounts were taken out and recalculated.After they settled the account, they calmed down a bit, thinking that everyone was guilty too, who told everyone not to correct it earlier, but let him often sway beside Lin Yanmei to make up his mind?It is the responsibility of all of them to slow down and hide the robbers! Fan Kuanyi is a pungent guy, everyone didn't dare to provoke her, so they turned their heads to bully Zhou Tiyu, knowing that this would embarrass her even more.

The stupidity of all the actions of the masses is fully contained in their actions, and they have committed all the mistakes that the masses are prone to make.Of course, since Lin Yanmei suddenly went to the countryside, everyone has been full of dissatisfaction, but this dissatisfaction has brought them to this point, which is a big mistake. The formation of this kind of public opinion made boys like Dayu, Xiaotong, etc., and girls like Wu, Shi, Ling, Qiao, etc., and they didn't know what to do.They were caught off guard, and the overall situation has collapsed. Things in the world are often like this, knowledge is knowledge, and world affairs are world affairs.At this time, being an enthusiastic and knowledgeable person is the most difficult.If you only have enthusiasm but no insight, you can follow the trend and make a noise and win the love of the masses.If you are only knowledgeable but not enthusiastic, you can lie down and listen to people being killed outside the gate, and you can still sleep in the house.Unfortunately, there are often a few people who have both in the world, and unfortunately they are often a minority.So it is like a thin child desperately trying to pull an angry horse, or more properly, a sailor in the middle of a storm, trying to let go of the sail that is full of wind.

Is Fan Kuanyi such a bad person?She always thought that Lin Yanmei was shy and pretending to be asleep.And when she was in Chenggong, what she saw made her believe that they were very close.Even the two of them are hiding it from her!It was only when she crossed the river in Yiliang that she saw her brother's shyness and Lin Yanmei's shyness, and both of them were affectionate.If what she saw was true, as a younger sister, she could encourage her brother.In fact, Lin Yanmei did not blame her.Although Xiao Fan only had a few minutes to explain to Lin Yanmei in the car afterwards, she understood her thoroughly.How could Lin Yanmei not blame herself for this matter!From the night Fan Kuanhu picked her up from the horse when she arrived in Chenggong, until she came back from Yiliang, she really wanted to use Fan Kuanhu to sharpen her knife intentionally or unconsciously!

There will be no accidents when she sharpens the knife, because she knows that Fan Kuanhu dare not, and in her mentality of a little girl who is tentatively playing games, she does enjoy a kind of happiness that she thinks she shouldn't, but Unexpectedly, at such a time, I had a disappointing dream, which caused Xiao Fan to be scolded by everyone.She sympathized with Xiao Fan.But what's the use, under this kind of public opinion, it seems that she can pick anyone to sharpen the knife, and the person who is used as a sharpening stone must understand that he is a sharpening stone, and must not have other ideas!

This is simply unreasonable.Everyone didn't think about it at all, if Xiao Fan deliberately set up a trap, how could he imagine that kind of deceitful psychology among his classmates?Besides, Xiao Fan treats Lin Yanmei very well on weekdays, even if she doesn't like Dayu, her cleverness will not make her do such stupid things to Lin Yanmei.Lin Yanmei really hated this public opinion deeply, but she had no choice but to feel that rather than being blindly doted on by everyone blindly, she would rather be excluded by everyone for Xiao Fan, and feel more at ease. Speaking of Fan Kuanhu, he is even more of a poor hero.He decided that he had done something wrong.Although everything was a misunderstanding, he had no reason to forgive himself.So he gritted his teeth and didn't argue a word.He also told his younger sister not to slip a word and tell others what Lin Yanmei said when she woke up from sleep, everything should be handled by Lin Yanmei.He thought that after this incident, if Dayu and her had a falling out, this sentence would only put them in an embarrassing situation.If the two are lucky enough not to fall out, then these words will only add a shadow of memory to their happy days in the future.If Lin Yanmei is willing to tell others, that's up to her.He is absolutely unwilling to use this sentence as a tool to provoke satire, to add articles for himself, and is suspected of fishing in troubled waters.Even if she called out his name in a dream, but because it was in a dream, with his heroic spirit, he would tell his beauty to think again when she woke up.As for why he didn't see clearly at that time and kissed her suddenly, it was of course a beautiful negligence in a romantic atmosphere.We have no way of knowing whether it is accurate to use this statement to comment on Fan Kuanhu, because he vowed not to speak up and defend himself in one word.

According to this situation, Lin Yanmei and Fan's brothers and sisters can also be counted among the few people who have sighed together through the ages.They are parties again, so they are even more lonely.They were both troubled by this unhappy memory, so Lin Yanmei didn't want to be with them.In their loneliness, another layer of mutual suspicion was added. They didn't know whether their painstaking efforts for each other had been understood. No one would dare to say these words because they were afraid of causing misunderstandings again, so it made things even more confusing. The situation of the three people is miserable.

No matter how hard these enthusiastic and insightful people are trying to restore the happy and harmonious atmosphere of the school, the bitter criticisms and vicious rumors are increasing day by day.There are so many things that new students do here.On the one hand, they don't have deep feelings for anyone, so they don't have much scruples about anyone.On the other hand, just because the characters in this story are so famous, they can draw attention to themselves by attacking them.This kind of shallow-sighted person is deeply afraid of not being noticed and is willing to do all things that make a fool of himself.They are the ones who deliberately do boring things in class and get reprimanded by the teacher to make the classmates laugh.Look at that look!Ho!After finally getting into this school, walking on the street, I wish the police would have to know that he is a student here!

This semester started in such a mess.These old friends, the parties involved, could only say that at the wedding banquet of Feng Xinlian and Shen Jia, they had a review of the happy atmosphere they were accustomed to in the past, and after that, their mood became more and more embarrassing day by day. At this time, Feng Xinxian's book was selling well among his classmates.However, the kind of sympathy for mistakes and hard work does not seem to be very effective.For example: Fan Kuanhu is of course very lonely, and few people care about him.Liang Chonghuai was a good boy, but she didn't shy away from taboos, she still treated him as usual, at least she didn't neglect him.Unexpectedly, one day, they happened to be walking together on Wenlin Street, and after walking a few steps, they heard someone gossiping behind them.They could only hear: "Who is this? Don't you know? She is also a famous person! It is she who got the advantage this time, and the fisherman reaps the benefits! It is so difficult for a girl to find a master, and her heart is so hard! It is too pitiful." !" Fan Kuanhu was so angry that his face turned blue, he reluctantly accompanied her to the gate of the south courtyard, bowed his head and said, "I'm so sorry for you!" and left.Liang Chonghuai stood there looking at his back for a long while.Feeling sad for him, I don't know what to do.At this moment, he saw a boy opposite him stop him from speaking.Xiaotong is a person who never pretends to be fake. He is sincere and looks like usual. He naturally seems to be discussing with Fan Kuanhu to do something together.He only said a few words before dragging Fan Kuanhu away.She felt relieved when she saw it, and she was very grateful to Xiao Tong for saving Fan Kuanhu from a difficult time of grievances.She wanted to go to the south courtyard alone, and went into the house to see Liang Chongrong and Lin Yanmei were preparing homework there.She had something on her mind, so she threw herself on the bed without saying hello when she entered the door.I can't tell if I want to rest or cry.It shocked the two of them who were studying. When Liang Chonghuai came upstairs, Qiao Qianyin and Ling Xihui in the courtyard were looking for her. They saw her walking upstairs thinking about something on her mind, but she walked past them without saying hello, as if she didn't see her. They thought something was wrong, so they went with her Come up, go into the house and call Liang Chonghuai again.At this time, Lin Yanmei and Liang Chongrong also put down their books and came to her bedside, thinking that the two of them outside made her angry. Liang Chonghuai couldn't be bothered by them, so he told the annoying thing he met on the street just now.What Lin Yanmei heard was remedied the sympathy she couldn't express to Fan Kuanhu.She was secretly grateful to Xiao Tong, and she also admired the tolerance and insight of this good friend Liang Chonghuai.She knew that Liang Chonghuai was a girl with ideas and restraint. She might not be in love with Fan Kuanhu, but her kind of heart that could not be understood by the sparrows made her qualified to defy public opinion and sympathize with Fan Kuanhu at this time. . After Liang Chonghuai finished talking about this matter, she said: "I don't understand where the cute school spirit of our school is! Isn't this a street of mad dogs biting people? Don't say how strange the relationship is, it's between classmates. Emotional problems are not like the style of educated people. This is still a university!" Her elder sister said after hearing this: "How can this be generalized, who is that you saw?" "We didn't look back." She said: "Anyway, they are classmates." Ling Xihui said: "School ethos is everyone's business. Everyone has their own freedom, and slowly see how it develops as it likes, and whichever faction prevails in love. It's up to everyone. For example, in love, there are old-fashioned people like Dayu, and hunters like Xiao Fan. There are petty people like Fu Xinchan and He Yizhen, and there are also people like Shen Jia who go out on their own! It's all personal issues, just like expressing everyone's opinions, it doesn't represent the school spirit." "And Ling Xihui was almost married by her family as a favor." Qiao Qianyin flashed behind Lin Yanmei and said with a smile, "That can only be regarded as a family tradition, not a school tradition!" What Qiao Qianyin meant was It implied that Ling Xihui shouldn't mention Dayu here, but Lin Yanmei already understood.Since she returned to school, she has never spoken a word to Dayu. "I understand what you mean." Liang Chonghuai said: "Of course it's not that someone is there to create a school spirit, but this bad atmosphere must be corrected." "Let's correct it!" Qiao Qianyin said: "One generation changes, and the waves behind push the waves ahead. In the past, it was Shi Xuanwen and Wu Baosheng in this room, but now it's you two sisters. I haven't seen anyone run away in anger. As soon as we came back and lay down on the bed, we cried, and when we walked past us, we couldn't see anyone!" Liang Chongrong saw the air of Qiao Qianyin arguing with her sister, and said: "Qiao Qianyin is really happy to see her, her illness has recovered, and her temper has become much more energetic." It was the first time for Lin Yanmei to participate in this debate about her concerns, so she was afraid that the subject would get lost again, so she quickly interjected, "You said we'll correct it, how can we correct it?" "Yes! Ask them both!" Liang Chonghuai pointed at Ling Xihui, Qiao Qianyin said with a smile: "They chased me up and corrected me, just like two policewomen!" "It's not a policeman, but a postman!" Ling Xihui said, "There are still people working hard to build the school spirit. We are here to deliver a letter telling you to prepare for a fresh meeting the day after tomorrow." "Where is this meeting to establish a school spirit?" Qiao Qianyin, who was a courier with her, was confused: "This meeting was called by Da Yan and his group. It is divided into two parts. The first part discusses Feng Xinxian's book. In the second part, according to their attitudes in this book, Dayan asks everyone to provide opinions for him to use in running the school. That’s why I ask you all to prepare to speak.” "Isn't this the same as establishing a school spirit? To divert everyone's attention from boring things?" Ling Xihui said: "And while a few graduates are still in school, hold this meeting and send them Show the style of the discussion to the younger boys!" "Miss Ling, please!" Liang Chonghuai said with a smile, "I don't quite know what kind of school the banquet is for! I don't know how to teach! I have nothing to say." "Why did you retreat first?" Qiao Qianyin said: "We will correct you first! Yanmei! You hold her hand, Xihui, you grab her feet. No need for you, Chong Rong, your own sister Partial!" Everyone knew she was joking, so they just laughed. No one really did anything, and she didn't do anything herself, but she went to sit next to Liang Chonghuai, and said, "Looking at you like this, the police can't be cruel!" Ling Xihui said hers: "We have to go to other places to spread the word, let's talk about the serious one first. The big banquet was hired by a local school as the dean before graduation. The school is now evacuated in the countryside, with more than 400 students. It is a junior high school with an elementary school. Both genders are accepted. In addition to the teacher's salary, room and food are provided..." Liang Chonghuai put his arms around Qiao Qianyin and said, "Your postman is very articulate! Does this passage look like Zhang Junrui's Kobai in The West Chamber?" Liang Chongrong said, "Which section is it? The school in The Story of the West Chamber?" Lin Yanmei said: "The matchmaker should say, 'Who asked you?'." Qiao Qianyin glared at Liang Chongrong and said, "That's why! How can the set of articles be so rigid!" Ling Xihui said angrily, "You ladies are familiar with The Story of the West Chamber, aren't you? Let's suggest that the day after tomorrow's meeting be changed to discuss the lyrics and music of the novel?" "I have no objection." Liang Chonghuai said: "It is also divided into two parts, the first half is the West Wing, and the second half is the Red Chamber." "Don't be angry! Xihui. Let's talk about the school meeting." Liang Chongrong saw that her sister was too naughty, so she said, "I'm not familiar with The West Chamber." "Don't listen to her!" Qiao Qianyin and Lin Yanmei rushed to say: "I'm pretending I'm not familiar with you. You're smarter!" As they spoke, they quarreled! "Stop arguing! Babies!" Liang Chonghuai said, "I'll apologize. Don't drive the postman away." Qiao Qianyin also stood up and said, "It's really time to go. There are many other places to go. If you want someone to provide advice, you have to give them time to prepare." While walking with Qiao Qianyin, Ling Xihui turned her head and warned: "Don't push me away! This time, I want everyone to do something. Think more. Read Feng Xinxian's book more." Said and went out. After they left, after a while, the Liang sisters found Lin Yanmei thinking deeply.Before Liang Chonghuai asked her, she said, "What do you think? Why can't we change the current bad atmosphere?" "What do you mean?" Liang Chongrong had already understood more than half of it, and she asked on purpose. "Very hard to say." Lin Yanmei gestured with her hand, then put it down again. "For example:...it's hard to say, especially for me. It's even harder to say. Cough!" Liang Chonghuai took her hand and patted it lightly, saying: "We understand without talking about it. If you want to use this, you will do something, right? Is there anything we can't say? We also feel that these things are too embarrassing. People hate it. We can’t let it go on like this.” "It's good to do something positive," Liang Chongrong said, "Yanmei, if you have any opinions, speak up and we will help." "If she could say it, she wouldn't have said it earlier?" Liang Chonghuai said to her sister. After Lin Yanmei heard this, she said: "There is nothing that must not be said. You see, these days, my ears are filled with scolding Xiao Fan and her brother. Some people deliberately came to my ear to scold, as if that It's like a social talk to me. I wonder, what's the matter with them? I feel wronged for Fan Kuanhu myself. I think if you want to scold me, you should scold me too. Without me here, you might not be able to implicate Fan Kuanhu. And wide lake!" "Then your troubles are in vain." Liang Chongrong said, "If you want them to scold you, it's simply impossible." "I don't think so!" Lin Yanmei said, "I'm used to scolding people, who can avoid being spoiled by them? The kind of people who go to others to scold a person are especially narrow-minded and become fast. Who among us can guarantee that he will not turn around and scold me when he goes to another group of people? Even if they are confused and don’t scold me, can’t we not tell them not to scold others?” The sisters of the Liang family fully understood her feelings, and they had indeed heard rumors that were very embarrassing, so of course they dragged her into it.After hearing what she said, I really feel that those who spread rumors have no heart.For such a classmate, they can tell such nasty rumors, which makes one have to despise them. At the same time, from this aspect, it is necessary to work together to eradicate the things that Lin Yanmei doesn't like today. "Besides, if they suddenly create an atmosphere of abuse," she went on, "what good will it do them themselves? However, I can't say all of this. I can't say a word about Fan Kuanhu. If I say something for him, it will be even more obvious that I thought I was being praised by everyone! Wouldn’t I feel sorry for him? Fan Kuanhu can’t stand people pitying him. Then let him It’s even more uncomfortable. I can only listen to it and bear it every time, and I can’t stop others from speaking, for fear of embarrassing him in person. I can only feel sad when I go back to the room after listening.” "I'm not afraid. I often give them a face-to-face interview." Liang Chonghuai said: "Every time I hear nonsense, I will give her a hard time and ask her where she came from." She said When it came to the words "not three, not four", it suddenly occurred to Lin Yanmei that she might reveal her words and arouse Lin Yanmei's suspicion, so she hurriedly changed her words, but luckily Lin Yanmei didn't catch it.She went on to say, "I just said to him: 'Who are you scolding, maybe people don't scold you because you are not worthy of being scolded!' Then I stopped her mouth!" Lin Yanmei was taken aback when she heard this, and said, "What? It's all so noisy? I don't even know it! Isn't this a quarrel?" "How do you know!" Liang Chongrong said, "I'm too lazy to participate, I think it's not just a quarrel, sometimes Chonghuai is desperate!" "You really? Chonghuai?" She said more cautiously: "I wonder, when did you learn such a powerful mouth? Don't let others bully you!" "Who can bully me?" She said, "No matter how stupid your mouth is, it will be worn out these days!" "Chonghuai!" Hearing this, Lin Yanmei thought about what Liang Chonghuai said just now when she entered the door, and realized that not only did she understand herself, but also that their sisters were really warm-hearted, so she burst out that she could no longer bear it: "You must be sincere." Help me, you have to help to the end! I don't want everyone to scold Fan Kuanhu, and I don't want everyone to scold each other. I have an idea. If we use the meeting the day after tomorrow to reveal this idea to our classmates, I will feel at ease. I can assure you , The opinions expressed at that venue will definitely become authoritative arguments in the school, and they will definitely stand up!" "I didn't expect that." Liang Chonghuai said. "Then what are you thinking of?" she said: "Don't you also sympathize with him? Don't you want to?" "Whether I sympathize with him or not is another matter." She said, "I didn't think so specifically. I just heard Ling Xihui say that their meeting can have a good influence on classmates, and I can see your thoughts. I thought we could get ready." "Her method can be tried." Liang Chongrong said: "In fact, students don't necessarily like to swear. We just generally say that it is bad for students to ask questions, spread rumors and criticize others, and then talk about Fan Kuanhu's good things. Their abuse Since they didn’t get everyone’s appreciation and lost their goals, didn’t they just cut it down? In fact, these gossips can gain power, isn’t it because people feel that the words are bitter, clever, and they like to listen, so they are indirectly encouraged? ?” Lin Yanmei felt relieved when she heard this.She said gratefully: "This is not doing a good deed to Fan Kuanhu, it is simply doing a good deed to me. How can I get such help from you two!" "I'm wondering too!" Liang Chongrong said quite solemnly: "Fan Kuanhu is so blessed that you two will speak for him! You two, you know, are the most unfit to speak for him." "What am I afraid of," Liang Chonghuai said. "Chong Huai? Really!" Lin Yanmei said face to face, holding her shoulders with both hands.She had already had a word in her mind that she had to ask, and now that she had the opportunity, she must ask.She was very puzzled, how did Liang Chonghuai treat Fan Kuanhu? "What!" she said. "I want to ask you something!" she said, "Can I ask? Okay! You have to close your eyes. You close your eyes too, Chong Rong. I asked! You close your eyes to see your heart, I close your eyes It's embarrassing..." "Then what if I close my eyes?" Liang Chongrong had already closed his eyes.She smiled and said, "I understand most of the time. I'm afraid I know all the things in the hearts of these two children before you yourself." "You close your eyes just as if you were not here." Lin Yanmei said, "I asked, Chonghuai, do you blame me for this?" "Hey!" The sisters all opened their eyes: "Where did this start?" "It doesn't matter." She still closed her eyes and said, "I will do what I say! I will pay you for it; here!" She just pecked Liang Chonghuai's surprised little round lips.Seeing that expression, the Liang sisters couldn't help laughing no matter how much they didn't understand.Liang Chonghuai blushed.Lin Yanmei was still embarrassed to open her eyes, let go of Liang Chonghuai and hid on the pillow by herself. "Yanmei! Yanmei!" Liang Chonghuai went to sit by her table and called her. "Yanmei, you've confused me. If you don't explain it clearly, I can't let you go like this! You can't hide! I have to give it back to you!" Liang Chongrong suddenly understood when he heard the word "return".She was very moved, she wondered that Lin Yanmei would always be so considerate of others unexpectedly, what she did was simply too much.She stood there with a smile and said, "I can't pretend not to see it anymore. I have to go." "Chongrong, you can't leave!" Her sister said, "I must ask Yanmei to explain! I want a testimony." "It's up to you!" She said, "The witnesses are too embarrassed to witness. I won't be able to speak for you in the future. I won't go far, I'll just watch you at the door." She laughed so hard that she bent over and walked out , Sure enough, standing at the door. Lin Yanmei couldn't keep her eyes open, she heard the sound of the door and knew that Liang Chongrong had gone out, so she opened her eyes and saw that there was such a big face, Liang Chonghuai was pressing on her!She hurriedly turned her face away and said, "It's the end of the story. There's nothing like that!" Liang Chonghuai said: "You're done talking, and I'm still here! That's the end, isn't it bullying people for nothing?" Lin Yanmei hurriedly turned her face and said, "You're really angry, I don't mean anything else at all, I always thought you might blame me!" "What do I blame you for? This is a matter between you and Fan Kuanhu. Besides, what are you talking about?" She said pretending to be angry. Lin Yanmei hurriedly covered her lips with the back of her hand, wanted to laugh, and rushed to speak: "That means you've finished writing the letter, so seal it!" Outside, Liang Chongrong heard that they were making too much noise, so she knocked on the window and said, "Shut it up, hurry up. The postman is coming in to collect the letter!" She opened the door and walked in.Seeing that Lin Yanmei's hair was all messed up.She would pass a comb to her sister, and she would comb it for her, and she would sit in her arms.Anyway, there's no way to comb it like this, so it's just a matter of dressing up. "I think there is a reason for Yanmei to be like this." Liang Chongrong said: "I just heard that you asked Chonghuai about something, and I thought it was because you kept this matter all the time. If I didn't ask clearly, I was afraid that the bottom line would be hard to say. Who knows You've been thinking about the tip of this horn! Tell me, what's the point?" "Ask Chonghuai, she understands," she said. "How could I understand, God has a conscience!" she said. "Do you understand or not? I didn't know at first." Lin Yanmei said, "If you hadn't revealed the truth just now, I really thought you didn't know that I had heard about it!" "Chongrong, do you understand?" Liang Chonghuai was really confused: "Yanmei! You are going to suffocate me to death!" "How do I know?" "Look!" she said, "none of us understands! Tell me, what have you heard?" "Of course, what you hear may not be reliable. Since you have said that there are nonsense outside, I dare to say it." She remembered that what she heard was really ugly, so she replied hesitantly. "Of course what they said was too much, saying that you were very upset because of Fan Kuanhu or something. Of course they said that I was not good! I knew you would blame me, otherwise how could I tell you? Look, you are not Are you going to give them a nail and not allow them to scold me in front of you?" "Oh my God!" Liang Chonghuai shouted, "Why is it all on my head! Sister, did you hear that?" Since Liang Chongrong is her elder sister, of course this kind of talk can't catch her ears.She needs to make up her mind quickly at this time, she can only vaguely admit this wronged case for her younger sister, although she knows that her younger sister is big-hearted, this matter is enough for her, no matter what, if you have this opportunity today, everyone should say goodbye It's better to check the rumors you hear. "Look, don't you!" she said to her sister, "The most powerful things don't reach your ears!" "I'll tell you!" Lin Yanmei breathed a sigh of relief, "When everyone kept secrets from me in the past few days, and you didn't say anything, I knew there was something you didn't want to tell me. Wait until I hear it myself." I just realized that you have worked so hard. I was afraid that I would hear it and be sad. In fact, I already knew that you would forgive me. I can also make 'you' believe that 'I' really know that 'you' will not blame' me 'Yes. Now, isn't it all right? What a pleasure! Isn't it useless for others to gossip in the middle? Well, now I feel that the same 'house' is no different from a dream. I really have a heart I can't keep up with things." Now the gossip they heard on both sides was confirmed, and the three of them felt really chilled! Liang Chonghuai had nothing to explain, she stayed there.Her elder sister said: "Yanmei, you should be careful and don't make things up. How many turns have you made now? You think about her, you want her for you, but in fact you are thinking about her... don't be afraid." Confused people!" "If it weren't for such a turning method, I still can't get out of my confusion today!" She said so happily. Liang Chongrong knew that her younger sister must have understood her intentions, so she tried to clarify the truth with words, and she pushed away a step and said: "I knew that these curious talkative people would tell you some unbearable things sooner or later! You see, isn't this all proven? So you two are the most inappropriate to speak for Fan Kuanhu! Besides, for him, Chonghuai, it's not worth your friendship with him." "If I want to talk, I don't care about it." Her sister said: "It's not worth talking about friendship. When the road is rough, you have to draw your sword to help! Isn't it? Yanmei. Not to mention you are implicated!" "I don't like to listen to gossip." She said mischievously, "How is your friendship with him? I didn't think so at first, but then I heard people say that it seems to be very good! Now I look at it and it's not so good!" "I think it must come down to me. This conversation will not be easy." Liang Chonghuai said: "You guys should be beaten up for whatever you do! Let me say it. I have my temper, and others say what they say is up to them Well, so, I want to play with him, no matter how far others will talk. After a long time, there is nothing to talk about, so it is not far away. You know that Fan Kuan is a good guy, and he can play. Besides, he is Prettier than others. Fuck you! That’s how I say it. If you like to hear it, that’s it. If you don’t like to listen, it’s nothing else! Whether it’s beautiful or not is of course very important, and it’s okay to say that you like to look ugly. Thunderbolt. I play tennis, he can play, and swim, he swims well. Looking happy, I have no reason not to ask him to play with him." "Do you know what they say?" Lin Yanmei said. "Listen to her." Liang Chongrong stopped Lin Yanmei.She thought that her sister's opinion could also be used as a reference for Lin Yanmei. "Of course I have heard people say that he has no sincerity towards girls." She said: "But it is useless. If it is said by a male classmate, I will not play with the person who said that. If it is said Is it a girl? I told her that it was because she showed her sincerity too early. A man’s sincerity is so embarrassing that it scares her back!” "Shut up!" Her sister smiled and hit her: "There's nothing better to say." "This sentence is worth selling a ticket to listen to!" She said: "Throw the liver to the kitten, is it still purring in your arms? To be clear, if you don't want to call your boyfriend If you are scolded by others, it is better for you to be more reserved. This is simply a kind of cooperation. If a man does not move forward and is not bold, what kind of man is he? But if a girl does not resist and be conservative, she will not fulfill her responsibility and do not cooperate." Lin Yanmei had never heard of it.She didn't say a word.Liang Chongrong just pretended not to see her surprised look, and let her sister go on. "To sum up a word." She said: "It's very happy to be together. Whether it's chatting, singing, or playing, as long as the two of you are really happy, you are sincere, and you don't need to deny it. But when he gets carried away and says something stupid When you want to make a move again, no matter what you think about him, you must be angry. If you want to be angry, you have to be as real as you are, and you are so angry! Otherwise, you will not be able to beat him, and he will take you easy next time Yes! I have seen women get married, have children, get old, and die without saying "love" to their husbands. Like these ladies, love love love all day long! Even There's not even a nice way to say it!" "Where is the conclusion of your summary!" Her sister said: "You are just bragging, and you let your own words be taken away!" "It's here." She said: "My friendship with Fan Kuanhu is friendship, there is no love or no love. I didn't say anything bad about him. He would never say a bad word about me. His suffering Scolding, I treat him like anyone else, and I have to defend him. And he will never include me in his scolding. I have a little messy entanglement, so I avoid it. This is the benefit of this set of principles. "You forget it as soon as you get scolded!" Her sister said, "You're so angry!" "Yanmei, you understand, I'm out of breath now." She said: "Who can walk without bumping into a long worm? Take a detour and don't step on it. It can also leave its own affairs behind. , keep staring at you? It’s worse if you want to argue! Besides, he doesn’t sound like me when he scolds me like that. If he comes to me, I don’t necessarily pay attention to him. Hu can't affect Fan Kuanhu either. Those words aren't enough to swear!" "Your argument is really not for everyone." Lin Yanmei said: "And it's too depressing." "It hurts a little god, so as not to hurt a big one." She said: "Then you are the kind of person who loves you or not? I'll listen to you to interrogate me, and I will repay you with a few words to see if you can stand it or not." , Fan Kuanhu, you just don’t-love-la. Dayu is love-love? Is it that simple?” "It's ugly!" she said. "Then it's better to listen to me." "Let's be honest." Lin Yanmei thought for a while, and then said: "I think about it carefully, I have never really loved anyone. The word love is hard to say. I can say that I don't love anyone. I don't love anyone. Love it!" "Sin!" Liang Chongrong said: "Look at you squeezed out her words! Chonghuai!" “她哪儿说什么话了？”她说：“她就不会说话，也不会想。我问你一句，你回来之后，不跟大余说一句话，是什么毛病？” “是不想说。” “你这个忽然不想说，是个什么力量？是心上没有他还是太多的他了？” 蔺燕梅摇摇头说：“我不知道。并且你再问，我也说不知道。” 梁崇槐听了忽然打消了再问的意思。她知道这个话问远了。其实她这次是真猜错了，蔺燕梅心上对余孟勤确实忽然减少了热望。这一点她一时看不出来，她不明白人在不幸中会把昔日幸福时的乐观看法自动地打了折扣的。这是人人都有的一种本能。一种心理上的自卫方法。 梁崇槐只想她这话不能接着问。因为她以为她当然爱余孟勤，此刻叫她怎么能说呢。她只有放弃了这个极有趣的质辩。但是她必需另起一个不大突然的话头，否则便不免露了破绽。她说：“那么你肯为范宽湖打抱不平是为了什么呢？” “这个简单。这因为我比骂他的人明白他。这是正义感。” “完了！完了！”梁崇槐早就准备结束她的话题了。她是个乖觉得很的人，得收便收，所以，她说：“又跑出个正义感来了！又是大字眼儿！大字眼儿顺手乱用！还是你聪明，叫你逃掉了。咱们收摊子，这出戏不唱了，谈正义感罢。你打算怎么个感法？” “我看这件事你们两个人都开不得口。”梁崇榕说：“由我说话，也不方便。” “你这成了什么话？”她妹妹说：“燕梅刚才求我们，我们就答应了。这会儿你不愿意说，不要紧，别又扯上了我。我到时候，就站起来说！” “不行，你别着急。”蔺燕梅说：“咱们三个都不合适。我让你们帮忙也不是就由你们说。咱们大家想办法呀。” “这个意思还得透给大宴他们知道。”梁崇榕说：“若是不告诉人家，那临时有点措手不及。” “当然应该告诉大宴他们召集的人，不过这个场面只有余孟勤来发言合适。”梁崇槐对蔺燕梅说：“临时由他提才好。这不是说笑话。” “我不去跟他说。”蔺燕梅说。 她们不觉静下来了。过了没多久，梁崇榕又提起来说：“决定做就一定要做。眼前有个人，由她转达一下罢。你跟她什么话都能谈的。她又一定能把你的意思委婉表达得好。要她去告诉大余。” “谁？”她妹妹问。 “伍宝笙呀！”她说：“就是不知道这次会他们请先生们了没有。伍宝笙也许不知道这件事。她们做了先生真是化外之人了。无论如何，她自有办法帮忙。你去找她怎么样？” “我当然想到她，可是。”蔺燕梅说：“说也奇怪，她啦，史宣文啦，近来都不常找我来，你们瞧是不是？我找她们去玩，当然还是一样，可是她们从来不跟我谈这件事，有时候我提起来她们又扯到别处去。好像她们的意思是：这是过去的事了，老提它干什么？仿佛疑我心上搁不下这点儿事似的。其实我心上对我自己的这点子事也许叫你们大家奇怪，是很早就看得开了。可是学校里这股子不痛快的空气，我想谈谈呀！说实话，这是我第一次有机会谈到这个问题！不管，我这就找她去，她不会不管的。我信得过她。” 她说着，站起来就走。她们两姐妹，也觉得伍宝笙是一定信得过的。她们当然也明白伍宝笙的用心，便由她走了。 她走得很快。因为她心上的确是松快了。 她知道伍宝笙此刻在什么地方，她直接到试验室，一找便找到了。开学期间，像伍宝笙这样的人，每天，几点钟到几点钟，在什么地方，是一丝也错不了的。 蔺燕梅把她找出来，不容分说，一下子把来意说明，就要她去对大余说。伍宝笙当然答应，她早知道这开会的事，这次会并且请了许多先生的。她们说到这里，两个人已经在南区的走道上，溜了两个来回了，课室中上课的人，全向外对她们看。她们谈得入神，全不觉得。 伍宝笙做梦也没有想到这变化竟如此可人意，都有点不敢相信。她说：“燕梅，让我细看看你！你真是个不得了的孩子！将来真不知道你要怎么样呢！我恨不得马上跑去告诉史宣文！我们完全过虑了，你用不着人操心，你永远有上帝照应着似的。我要说你简直是个完全的人了！” “早得很呢！姐姐。”她说：“我至少心上还得加上个梁崇槐才成个人。她说女孩子天生要管束男人。全凭感情是会害人害己的。她还说了许多别的。她太妙了！”她笑着把梁崇槐一套话学给伍宝笙。当然，由她转述一遍，用了她的字眼儿，那理论便整个儿改换了。改换得极和缓了。 伍宝笙听来诧异得很，便追问她们今天怎么起的话头。她便—一说了。她索性再进一步，说：“这些天，你们都不好。连你这个当我姐姐的也不好，对我都变了个样儿！” 伍宝笙知道她不怪她，便只笑，不回答，用手揽着她紧紧地。 蔺燕梅又说：“可是也有一个人，单他一个，跟你们都不同。对我始终一样，什么事都照常，那就是小童，今天给范宽湖解围的，也是他。” “小童是个好的。”伍宝笙说：“学自然学的人不愿意把人事关系看得太复杂了。”她们两个觉得今天真是快乐极了。 过了两天，看见了布告。这个会公开请同学参加。会场在南区七号大课室，时间是晚上六时，为了免受警报影响。 到会的先生们很多，召集人心目中最肯接近同学的先生如金先生、陆先生，顾一白先生，赵异祥先生，教体育的陈先生及许多位别的，全到了。有些未会请的，也来自动参加，因为冯新衔的书，及宴取中的素日成绩，令他们乐于到会。史宣文、伍宝笙、及冯新衔自己，全要算作先生了。便都坐在屋中教职员的荣誉席上。伍宝笙要蔺燕梅同她坐在一起，便同史宣文去也把她拖来，一同坐在金先生后面一排，夹在她同史宣文中间。 同学们到的更多，如旁听一堂名气特别大的功课那样，屋里在晚饭前便有人用笔记本占座位，此刻更是挤得插进半个人来也不可能了。大家便都围在窗外，同门外听。每个窗外，便堆成一个半圆。站得最远的，便常常“这个山头看了那个山头高”，东边张张，西边望望，打算挑个人薄一点的窗口，其实，哪里也差不多，于是成了流动分子。有了这些流动分子，那些窗口的半圆形便时时被修正，而十分整齐。谁说人的活动不能用物理来解释？ 小童挨了范宽湖坐，他两个在前排。大余算是学生，他在同大宴，朱石樵，冯新衔，沈葭，编集临时收到的意见条子。 那些新学生们便你指我瞧地来认这些人。蔺燕梅是大家都认得的了。便以她为坐标找到史宣文。有少数人还不认得伍宝笙，那么只要他一开口，四围的人便会轰然告诉他，然后大家皆为自己的高声所吓住，而不免哑然半晌。当然有人把宴取中同朱石樵认错，后来一开会也明白了。范宽湖是个倒霉的角色，许多便毫无顾忌高声地告诉给不知道的人，又指指点点地来看。他今日若有所思，小童问三句，他答两句地。至于小童，他们注意的还不太多，也因为小童要接近过才知道他的好处。大余呢，则提一提名字，便够受半天的了，心上要默祝，未来在学校的日子里别撞上他。 他们准时开会。 大余做总主席，约略说了今天没料到有这么多不吝赐教的人肯来增光。准备得很仓促，请大家原谅的话。然后说一说这会分两部分，各部分有各部分的主席。他说了一下两部分的性质后，便临时自己加了一项，请先生们演讲。第一个便请金先生。 金先生说他今天只打算来听，同讨论的。不能演讲。大家哄然大笑，他自己也仰起脸来大笑。大余再让别位先生，也都客气的不讲。他一直让到伍宝笙。她们也都浅浅地笑笑，深深地低下头，谢了。 大余正待往台上走，后面有人起哄。他们喊：“要蔺燕梅讲！”“要蔺先生讲！”因为看见她坐在先生席上就故意捣乱。 伍宝笙深知余孟勤的脾气，怕他发作，正待着急。谁知他今天特别好脾气。以他的急智，这事本不难应付，他便笑着又走回来，竟来请蔺燕梅。这下子，坐在前面的都回头了，坐在后面的都站起来了，最后面的只有站上椅。笑声掌声，全场闹成一片。 蔺燕梅羞得一头钻到伍宝笙怀里。大家闹声里也听不见伍宝笙说了一句什么，只见她笑得那么好，两手抚了蔺燕梅的头发，看了大余那么摇一摇头，脸上也泛起红云来，又把摇到额前的头发掠回耳后。那么温柔，又那么优雅，更那么羞涩。会场中人男子就都看得张了口，女孩子就都羞得偏了头。 大余便作出了个失望的神气，告诉大家他的使命失败。然后走回台上。大家也不忍再和这一对玉也似的女孩儿捣乱，又已经满足了，便不再生事。这时候单苦了窗口半圆堆儿最外面形成“弧”那一部分的人，他们只有跳起来看。脚跳酸了，也是看不见。没法儿垂头丧气地，等有眼福的人看够了，再用傲然的口气，给他们一点支离破碎的转播消息。这时大余已结束了开会仪式。正式开始程序了。 第一部分是讨论冯新衔的书。这一部分又分报告同批评两段。报告由冯新衔自己来担任。他说了原作大意之后，也约略范围了一下批评的范围。他这个报告居然很需要，因为竟有人不清楚这小说主要的动机。读者拿来当故事看，单瞧热闹儿了，那怎怪这书的影响看不见呢！ 批评讨论是由沈葭作主席。一开始，一种谦让的空气笼罩了会场，以致全场默然片刻，无人发言。余孟勤就对伍宝笙示意。伍宝笙便在金先生耳边说了几句话。金先生这次也痛快地答应了。他就在座位上第一个发言，打破了这个无声的场面。他提议以后发言的人也不必站起来，好令人觉得自然些。这以后发言的人便多了。总括来说，先生们多半就书中的某一点；两点说些称赞的话。同学多半给批评。蔺燕梅本来也准备了要说话的，被开会时的一场闹得不好意思说话了。她便怪两位姐姐不该把她拖来坐在先生席中，两位姐姐便笑着哄着她。 大宴的一部分是朱石樵做主席，他自己当记录。这一部分有赵异祥先生一段长长的关于教育心理的专论演讲。讨论方面很少，提供的意见则很多而且实际，当然不免琐碎一点。 从开会到现在，一直是十分成功的。他们造成了一种极亲睦可留恋的空气，大家都恨不得找个题目多谈一会儿，不愿意散会。 大宴致了谢辞，下去了。余孟勤便走上台来。旁听的人，连先生在内都觉得没有什么事了，几个发起人却提心在口。范宽湖自己当然也不知道。蔺燕梅向前欠身偷偷横过眼去看他，他正看了台上，小童正好对蔺燕梅看着，他俩挤了挤眼。 余孟勤说他们今天这个会还有个第三部分。就是他愿非正式地在这里以学生服务组织的领袖资格，报告一下暑假服务工作。最后他说：“我们现在是自己人关起门来谈谈，我们不妨说，几个单位工作都很令人满意。这完全是同学们合作的表现。而各单位中完全没有出一点意外的是江尾村的一个。这个要归功于那边的负责人，我介绍给大家，我们这位办事能力特别优越的范宽湖同学！” 说着便领先鼓掌。小童就推范党湖站起来。范宽湖全未料到，他惊住了。 谁知道掌声毫不热烈。后边人堆里渐渐起了骚动。过了没有几秒钟，他们已觉长如几年了；有人向外走，自动退席。窗外有人嘟嚷着说“谁？是他！范宽湖！” 走的人牵带上了本来不打算走的人。坐在中间不便挤出去的人也特别要引人注意似的，提议跳窗子出去。靠近窗子坐的甚至已经骑上窗子了。一时人声鼎沸。那些毫无成见、专以捣乱取乐的，更是起劲得很。做鬼脸，打胡哨，你推我一把，我拍你一下。 余孟勤知道大家不赞成范党湖。而这次决不容失败。因为失败了会叫情形分外糟糕。他记起了伍宝笙把这意思告诉他的时候，她的神色。她的象征着冯新衔书中的慈爱精神。他便打定主意为这精神奋斗一下。 余孟勤的镇定工夫是很好的。他神色不动，脸带笑容，微笑着向范宽湖点头，手中不断鼓掌。他像是说捣乱的正是早些走掉好，这个会中没有他们才更有意义。先生们完全明白他们的动机，更为这一群热心为学校改革风气的学生们所感动。他们头也不回，完全当作不见后面的顽皮学生都作了些什么事。他们一致热烈鼓掌。蔺燕梅她们手都拍疼了，梁崇榕、梁崇槐姐妹本来坐在靠后边一点的，此刻趁乱，人松了些，也走上前来加入这热烈的鼓掌集团。这里简直是一场魔鬼与天使的竞争。在垂危欲倒时，硬要挽回大局来，是一件又艰难又迟缓，又兴奋的事。 这时局势的决定是在大众手里。在当初刻薄的流言盛行时，那群众中有点判断的人也多半守缄默。因为他们不知道自己是多数，他们又多半怯懦不敢出头。现在受了刺激兴奋起来，便依了怯懦的深浅程度不同，一个，两个，四个，五个，十个，二十个，壮起胆量，两眼看着前面，不敢回头，只偷看了身旁人的神气，鼓起掌来。 他们一鼓了掌，便立刻自己有了一种优越感，一种抑压已久的闷气得以伸吐的快感。他们又下意识地要抢在前面，要比同辈人先动手。这种心理一发展开来。那气势就陡然增涨，而弥漫全场了。掌声此时已震耳欲聋，不久就又听见欢呼声了。这下子，已经走了的人，那些心上本无所谓的人，又抢先回来看热闹，那些发动的人也怪丧气地往回走。他们的好地位已被别人占了，他们成了窗外的“弧”。他们又伸了颈子在那儿张。他们才是真正的懦夫，此刻又怕被同学抛在后面了！当然其中也有少数硬汉为此情景所气，掉头不顾而去。 这时的胜利感已不全是为范宽湖了。实际是校中多少天来暗争，热辩的爆裂，是一阵地下泉流之涌出山口。这时首举义旗的几双手早已拍得又红又肿，疲惫欲休了。 范宽湖在这胜利的空气里，这才走上台去，向大家致谢。致谢完了他向大余说他有几句话，本来不必讲的，现在机会如此好，他倒要讲了。大余弄得莫名其妙，只有向大家说了。范宽湖便简简单单地说：“难得这个机会，诸位好朋友都在这里。我借几分钟说几句告别的话，将来免得—一辞行。” 这真是叫人摸不着头脑，全呆了。 他说：“我很爱这里的学校，我更爱这里的好同学。可是我忽然觉得我宁可走到别处去而想念大家，也不宜逗留在这里。也许我将来会明白因为什么，现在却说不出来，我只是觉得如此。 “前两天我报考空军飞行军官了。身体检查合格，一两天内便去重庆报到，我走之后心上一定常常惦念着这里。愿大家在学校里能利用这好环境有显著的长进，也一方面努力使学校更伟大，更可爱。我不喜欢驾驶轰炸机，却喜欢飞驱逐机，也许有机会在空中保护母校呢！” 为了他的态度，他的言词及行动，大家是忍不住要大鼓掌的。可是为了这事件之突然，及谁也领悟了他的心境，又不禁黯然。掌声先是很沉闷，虽然终久也播散开而响亮了。他鞠了躬下来。 小范同周体予是在中间坐着，傍了凌希慧同几个别的女学生的。她便告诉她们说，他们本来早已决定这两天就走的。她回家，转学重庆去。周体予去地质调查所做事。三个人正好一路走。 这消息当然马上也传开来了。 大余他们倒不知如何结束这会了。他本来想再说几句称赞的话为范宽湖送行的。范宽湖已在众人注视之下走到蔺燕梅跟前去了。蔺燕梅两眼泪汪汪地看了他。伍宝笙紧紧地持了她两肩也看着范宽湖。在这场面下，大余是不被人注意的。他只有不开口。 范宽湖低低地，又清晰地，说：“燕梅，我知道你原谅我。我祝福你。我们再见了。”这时全场寂无一点声息，他的话人人听见。 蔺燕梅的泪珠已要落下，她赶紧垂了头，头发拂向前来遮了脸，她抽噎着也没有说出话来，只见她点了点头，头发一闪一闪地，两眼看了地下，伸出了她的右手给范宽湖。范宽湖向前欠身，接到手来握了一下便先自走出会场去了。他的背影仍显现着他平日自持的身份。 大余宣布散会。伍宝笙她们便忙先护着蔺燕梅出去。梁家姐妹等，几个女同学便跟上一起走。别的人渐渐也散了。 这晚上散会之后，学校的谈论当然是这方面压倒了那方面，甚至发现当初胡乱说话逼得人家立足不住的也不过是少数人，但是范家兄妹同周体予已经走了。 蔺燕梅的心事又多了一重，她觉得有点茫然。她完全思索不出来的作法是对是错。她相信，即使范宽湖已经报考了空军，她仍可以留住他的。他是他们系里这么出色的一个好学生。他的辍学是可惜的。他考空军好与不好是另外一件事。他不必在此时此刻离校。 她心上更有一种冤屈。她觉得她真正对不起她的好朋友梁崇槐了。她从后来和梁崇槐的谈话中慢慢地觉出来，这个女孩子的嘴上虽然硬，真心恐怕也早已拿出来了。当然男人的真心不见得便如她所描述那样，会退回去。但是为了中间有她这场纠纷，至少范宽湖没有颜面再谈别的了。当时他既然也未从梁崇槐那里看出多少情意来，此刻一走，竟大有两人消息从今断绝之可能。这事令蔺燕梅心如刀割。她从未作过一件伤别人心的事，近几次来竟连二接三，不由自己地出了这许多事。她的悔恨是无法形容的。她从来是快乐、率直、没有任何话不能同别人谈的。如今她心上已不知有了多少事而一句也不能跟人谈。她从前一向是用软语去安慰别的可怜人的，如今自己变成个可怜人了。这个令她自尊心极其痛楚，这种痛楚令她比什么都难过。一个人在他曾得意的舞台上跌了跤，虽说仍是红角儿，那心境自然不同。所以她笑容日见减少了。 梁崇槐本来是她可以谈心的人，但是自己既然有了对她这么深沉而无法出口的歉意，两人相对时，也就不那么自然了。 更令她无法排遣的是学校里为了这次开会时的种种又有了新猜测。这是她有一天晚上到图书馆去在借书处偶然听来的。那天有一点点雨，她的雨衣为梁崇槐穿走，后来她想去借书，便披了梁崇槐的。她们身材差不多，背影又像，所以站在借书处等候馆员去书库中取书的时候，在她背面两个说话的女孩子便未察觉。她只听得一个说：“哪里会有这种事？那样会是作着梦？” 另一个说：“你少缺点德吧，净顾自己嘴上说得痛快。” “这也没有什么不得了啊！”头一个说：“凭她那样的人，随便玩一玩也没有人怪她。我恨这些疯了似的捧她的人，惟恐她有半点儿错，造出个什么是在梦里的神话！这下子把个范宽湖害苦了！她也真狠心哪，玩的时候找人一起玩，看见风势不对，来个脱身法就把人甩了！” “算了，你越说越上劲了！”那一个有点不爱听了。就这样拦她。蔺燕梅在前面听了不觉身子凉了半截，两眼一昏几乎要倒，她急忙紧紧抓住借书处前的短栏杆，稳住了身子。只听见那个还在说：“他们编这个神话当然也有道理。他们怕这种偶而也玩玩的举动叫大余不满意，他们又好像人人有责任来做媒婆来成全这一对儿似的。大余他心上会不明白？他一个圣人会相信这种神话？他乐得装明白糊涂，得过且过就是了！哪儿会有真圣人？谁还不是利害关系看得清清楚楚地！” enough!这已经够了。蔺燕梅她打算搭救一个人，却拖累了两个！连自己在内！这环境她似乎永远适应不好了。她的书这时既已收到，她便急忙忙转身就走，她惟恐被这两个女孩子看见，弄得她们失悔多言，大家难过。她急走几步，便要出门去。 谁知道马上一眼被那两个瞥见了。她虽已走到门口将及出门，耳中却如针刺一般传入一句：“你看！你看！你这个多嘴的害死人了……”这语句这么急骤这么轻细，偏能这么传得远，传得快，追上她。 她如在雾中飘游，恍恍惚惚，走完了图书馆门内的甬道，出了门，眼前路又暗。她看不清路，又头上晕涨得难过，顺势在图书馆外门柱上一倚，打算闭目养一养神。她明知自己的样子十分狼狈，但是她想，这漆黑无月，雨虽停了而天仍阴着的晚上，无人看得见她，她实在走不得路了。 忽然，对