Chapter 30 Fourteen (below)

He put down the bowl and chopsticks and looked at the three of them.Then he patted the book in his pocket and said, "Do you agree or disagree with the intention in this book?" "What's the meaning of this?" Zhu Shiqiao knew that what Xiao Tong said was not just a gossip, he liked to care about all the words in this book, so he interrupted to ask, expressing that they all agreed with the meaning of this book. "Okay!" said the little boy, "In this book, we tell people that human life is an organism, like a plant that grows from a seed. When a person dies, he must be different from the seed but the root of a big tree." All the genes in the seed actually control and regulate the shape of growth. Then do we have to admit that all the genes attached to the chromosomes in the seed, whether good or bad, are not the best of our own, nor are we our own? Power can be controlled?

"This is our first meaning in the book, and I put a note on it. However, our main meaning is not here. If we stop here and stop moving forward, all efforts and education in the world will become meaningless , only let the seeds be good or bad, let it happen, grow, and wither. It has become fatalism. "So we focus on two aspects of a stage after the seed is set. One is the social environment, and the other is education. We must give full play to the brilliance of a life as much as possible. Just like a gardener wants to weed weeds, apply Fertilizers, frost and snow, and insect pests are used to cultivate this flower and tree.

"This is actually a saying in the genetic part of our biology. But the metaphor is very encouraging in life. Feng Xinxian used it to write novels, so that people who read it can feel the value of being brave to change from the story, The new life is precious, and there are two aspects of pain and happiness in the ups and downs of life. Therefore, the discouraged can be encouraged again, those who stand on the high should help those who are struggling, and those with low talents should cheer up and have a good time. live his life. "It's like God gave each person a piece of paper when they were born, with different sizes and different advantages and disadvantages, but he asked everyone to try their best to draw his best pictures. It's also like the voice of life is different, but the voice is different. No one should care about singing the song of his life with all his heart. Isn't that right?"

"Yes!" Da Yan looked at him and said.Da Yan thought in his heart that this little boy really didn't know how much progress he had made compared to when he first tried to make a discussion.Zhu Shiqiao thought of the little boy who was like a babbling child when he said that Wu Baosheng was immortal. He was naive and unreliable. Now he is searching for his own way of thinking. "So!" The boy went straight to the question: "If we really believe what we say, we should sympathize with people with bad qualities. If we say these words sincerely, we should forgive all the mistakes in life. We must always help others and encourage ourselves to go up until the butcher puts the knife and the traitor repents when he dies. We must struggle with "original sin" like a monk. We respect a person who has reformed as much as a person who was born without fault. We see Don't frown on a scar. It has a more respectable history than smooth skin.

"Now, Dayu, do you agree to add this extended meaning to your passionate thoughts? Of course, people should not have faults, but there are quite differences between faults and faults. If it comes from the seeds Weaknesses are certainly forgivable. If it is an inevitable thing in the growth process, or a careless thing in irrigation or watering, don’t you have to erase all its beauty and sing the high-pitched perfection and perfection, And abandoned the responsibility of aid, with compassion? "Do you admit or not that Feng Xinxian paid special attention in the novel to explain that Da Che is enlightened and gives birth to great compassion? Instead of being harsh? This person, you see, has gone through many temptations, failed, and made almost all unforgivable mistakes. Is he still as glorious as an angel when he dies, can he enter heaven if he is holy? He has never given up his efforts to make progress! Doesn’t this alone deserve sympathy and forgiveness?

"It's not just forgiveness, he has to know that he has not encountered such a big temptation, such a big problem, he is lucky. If he does, he may not be comparable to the person in the book. He should respect himself!" At this time, no one was eating at the dinner table.He went on to say: "If we write novels like this, we should be more sympathetic to those who we use to read reality. We must be careful about criticism among our classmates and friends. "We hope to seek the perfect idol, and we cherish the white wall even more, because it is more painful, and to miss its other advantages will come to win our sympathy! Its wholeness is the best example of our preaching. Now we There is such an example:

"This white biscuit is so beautiful and so cherished by us, so even if there is such a little damage, it will make us look as big as a wheel! If this little damage is on the side, maybe we don't even pay attention to it." I can't notice it, but when we get here, we will only look at this one place and forget the rest of its luster. If we are used to being demanding, we may inevitably say that it is disappointing and blame it. In fact, please think about it, it itself Wouldn't it be more sad? It's not my fault. I thought about it all morning, and I slowly realized that what it needs at this moment is blame! It should be comforted and encouraged, so that it will not be too discouraged, and it would rather be broken. on the way."

When he said this, he asked everyone to relax their tense expressions and listen to him tell about Lin Yanmei's misfortune, how this flower that grew up in the campus and loved by everyone would wither, and how she encountered things that she didn't want to encounter. .He said: "When she came to the school, a few of us saw her. When she slowly flourished, we felt that we had the power to help and care. When she sang and said three wishes in the first spring gala, we all We acquiesced. Can we feel at ease if something happened to her today? We think that her home is thousands of miles away. Are we worthy of the parents who sent her here? She is so sad today, are we worthy of her? Although it is not big, she seems to have broken her heart. She has always tried so hard to protect herself! Her self-discipline rules are too high. Just like that white jade, it seems that this unfortunate incident is serious in her heart."

I am afraid that this feeling is not unique to Xiaotong at the moment.It wasn't Qiao Qianyin, Ling Xihui and their female classmates who could tell from Lin Yanmei's usual behavior.This is felt by almost everyone.The three people who listened were all dejected.Not only were they unable to think of the words of reproach, they wondered how this was possible, and at the same time thought about how Lin Yanmei, who was also an extreme person, would deal with it.They only have worry, not anger. Yu Mengqin was hit too hard at this moment. He had been thinking about his thoughts for more than ten days, and suddenly a more serious test came.A word from the traffic policeman!Didn't she do something embarrassing for the school and classmates like a car crash?Isn't it the gardener's fault that she went to Chenggong?

How could he only see Lin Yanmei's fault and not Fan Kuanhu?Isn't it because Fan Kuanhu's body was already full of scars, adding a scar is not a big deal, but it's different on Lin Yanmei's perfect body? Why is it that Fan Kuanhu has never been criticized for this aspect, but instead he is often praised for his many other talents?Isn't it common for people to look for new leaves on branches and blemishes on pearls? This news really shocked him.It is not easy for him to accept.Of course, these days, he reviewed Feng Xinxian's novel manuscripts over and over again, and he felt very relaxed. It also benefited him to think about Lin Yanmei's going to Chenggong day and night and feel sorry for himself, making him not so harsh.But it's not just so harsh.Now this question is too direct, too unexpected, too specific, and too weighty.

He couldn't fully understand the reason for this incident.How could he understand it!Even children don't understand.No one understood except Lin Yanmei herself.Except for Wu Baosheng who once listened to Lin Yanhai making a wish to the mirror, no one could understand how Lin Yanmei was wronged and heartbroken. But although Yu Mengqin didn't understand, he didn't doubt Lin Yanmei's love for him.He is not a suspicious person. After hearing those vivid stories from Qiao Qianyin's mouth, he thought about it for many days, and he was very sure.Unless his ears misheard such a thing, he would never believe it again.So he believed that there must be something strange.Lin Yanmei was ashamed to say that she had a heart, but he actually felt as if it was in his hands. Could he still blame Lin Yanmei?Maybe miles!He may also blame himself for being emotional!Why did he watch this once-beautiful character finally have a shadow, and he didn't die earlier, but here he sighs and breaks his heart!He blamed himself for not being able to avoid being emotional in the end, so that today he can no longer be cruel to reject and blame him. But the expressions of the three people in front of them could not be ignored.Zhu Shiqiao is a historian, and his opinions are well-founded and hard to shake.Yan Fezhong is from the Department of Psychology, and his views should not be easily confused.Tong Xiaoxian had seen his own reaction in advance, and prepared a set of reasons early on.In addition, his mind is straight and natural, and his words are sincere and sincere, which has already won the approval of the other two.He is a person who studies natural science, and treats all events equally, and does not allow personal emotions to be added, with exceptions.He has always taught adults like brothers and sisters for himself, and he can't make a mistake in front of him. These three people are waiting for their reaction!Their friendship is both close and terrifyingly majestic.Half of Feng Xinxian's book is his own words.Under this principle, one must not find excuses to avoid favoritism. Yu Mengqin's thought system and personality have never encountered such a serious test since he established his reputation in this school.If he is cowardly, he has every excuse to back down.But he is a young man who is not complacent and willing to correct himself, so he decided to confront the experiment head-on, and he decided to accept it.He said: "This news really hit me. I feel that when things are still suspicious, we will not comment. We have the responsibility to give a proper argument. Lin Yanmei was educated in this school. We have shared her to share her distress. Give her reasonable sympathy and, if necessary, the help she needs. She is a remarkable character, and we must take special care of her. She came here two years ago as our classmate. She was a happy and healthy soul at the time. We will create a more perfect personality for her when she graduates two years later. She herself has never done anything wrong before this. We must all feel sorry for her, and we will have no regrets in assisting her from now on. We If we allow her to be sad and regretful, and she is here to study, but she wants to leave us and go home, it is really a shame for us, and it is an act of self-destruction. "My own responsibility to her is even greater. I can admit in front of the three of you that I have been intentionally influencing her and inducing her to seek the best and innocence. I heard the terrible scene of her self-hatred and self-suffering afterwards , as if I saw that it was a performance forced by my usual style. It would not surprise me if she suddenly became narrow-minded and did something even more terrifying. "I should admit in front of you that I not only value her, but I also have a feeling of concern that I have never had before. I should say that after hearing this, I alone felt that she was closer to me, no matter what happened to her. What kind of pain does she have? Before this distress has left her, I must not shirk my responsibility. Even if this emotion is only on my side, I can only feel at ease after I have done my best. I will not blame her for a word today. It can be. Before I try my best to help her deal with this period of mystery and regret, if one day or something makes me feel discouraged and wants to let go, I will not be a person who starts and ends." After hearing this, Da Yan and Zhu Shiqiao nodded first, and then looked at Xiao Tong.Xiao Tong seemed to feel that he had really done something for Lin Yanmei, and he felt a little relieved.He couldn't even imagine, if Lin Yanmei lost her luster in school, or became the target of Dayu's criticism, what would happen in the future and what her situation in school would be like in the next two years! Therefore, Xiaotong said: "She is now at her aunt's place and refuses to come back directly. It is already a terrible association. When she went to Chenggong, she said that she would do some work to make up for the crime of causing trouble for the school work group. This is something that ordinary people would never take so seriously. Based on the same reasoning, if she refuses to go back to the dormitory directly, she doesn't know what to do. Since she wants Shi Xuanwen and Wu Baosheng to visit her, it can be seen that she still has us in her heart Classmate. I really want to see her myself, because I am not at ease. If you want, we will go to see her. We don’t care if she wants to see her or not. I am in the car, and I still have many feelings that cannot be expressed. Not going to see her, I'm very depressed. I just said a lot to anger them, maybe it's not fair." Zhu Shiqiao said to the banquet: "I also think that Dayu should go with Xiaotong. What do you think? The two of us will go back to Jin's house. If the opportunity is right and the weather is right, we can try our best to talk about the whole story. Say it without surprise." "I also agree with this idea." Da Yan said: "I don't need many people for the book. Go back and write, seal and wrap it. A few people are enough. Since we have something to do, we will have a lot of time to join in the fun. Besides, to put it more seriously, according to Xiaotong's feeling, if she is really unhappy with this school and doesn't plan to come back, it would be terrible. We all have to do something. We imagine that she will come back after school, and we have to prepare What a gentle and fair public opinion. There are half of the old and new classmates in the school. Now we go to Jin’s house, and there are all old classmates there. We can compare our opinions with this book and decide to build a public opinion Together with Wu Baosheng, Shi Xuanwen, Ling Xihui, and Qiao Qianyin, we will never make fun of it in the future, and those who like to spread rumors will gossip!" The four of them are old partners, and they made a decision as soon as they talked about it, and they felt that it was their duty to do so, so they became excited.The meal is hastily eaten.The four of them split up to do it. The more Xiaotong and Dayu talked along the way, the more they felt that Lin Yanmei should sympathize.But the minds of the Fan brothers and sisters are bizarre and unpredictable.Yu Mengqin felt even more sorry for her. "It's really strange!" He said, "From your point of view, the situation where she asked Fan Kuanyi to call you in without Fan Kuanyi's company is strange enough. Fan Kuanyi must be trying to buy time by not keeping her quiet. Don't Fan Kuanhu have to explain before getting off the car!" "Of course Xiao Fan wants to speak for her brother." Xiaotong said, "She has been blowing good things about her brother in Lin Yanmei's ears before. It has been obvious since Lao Jun's acting. We don't take it seriously because first, she It's okay to blow it in front of anyone. Second, it's okay to blow it. When I arrived in Chenggong, it seemed more obvious this time. Lin Yanmei listened to it after hearing it, and there was no reaction. She didn't suddenly stop listening to them like she did later. She has always had a good temper. Judging from her aura, if she has a bad temper, she will definitely scold others. "Besides, it's strange that the Fan family brothers and sisters want to explain something. I saw Lin Yanmei put down her hand. This is not a matter of one person. What's the explanation? Fan Kuanhu's expression became very ugly when he stood up. On the road Before the police gossip, Xiao Fan and Lin Yanmei both had strange faces at that time." "So I think you are the one who pays too much attention to the words of the road police." Dayu said, "Before the words of the road police, you must find a reason. Didn't you say that you heard her say something, Fan Kuanhu didn't Do you care about her? This sentence must be very important, but unfortunately I didn’t hear it.” After Dayu said it, he felt that it was wrong, and he said: “If Fan Kuanhu ignored her because of her bad words, then he didn’t listen to her later. Tell me, then what Fan Danghu said when he got off the car is wrong!" "That's right!" Xiao Tong said, "I've thought of this a long time ago. I feel wrong when I hear your reasoning." "We have to find a clue. This reasoning is untenable again." Dayu said, frowning his thick eyebrows. "However, looking at the expressions of the Fan family brothers and sisters who have been begging for mercy, it can be seen that she has suffered from them. The only thing she said to them was that one inaudible sentence, and it can still be seen that the words are important. After they heard the words Maybe it was something they didn't want to hear, so even though he didn't answer later, it may not be that he was angry with her. The only hateful thing here is that Yanmei's intentions are too loyal. She just said something when she was angry with them Tell them, but not everywhere. So even though she was so angry, she didn’t tell you when you were alone.” "If the key is here, I'll ask her when we meet!" Xiao Tong said. "But I think we have no reason to pry into other people's privacy." Dayu said: "Besides, from what you said, she was very kind to them both in Chenggong and on the way to Yiliang."Fan Kuanhu has always been sincere to her.He forgot his clothes when crossing the river and entering the water, and he didn't look like a person who carelessly played with girls.We cannot ask her these details if we respect her feelings.I don't agree with what you said later, saying that she was testing and comparing her to male classmates. " "But reason is reason, and emotion is emotion." Xiaotong said: "Besides, her behavior has become so special before and after. If we have such a deep relationship with her, and we are concerned about the situation at this stage, I think we can ask. In the car I I didn't think about it, if I thought about it, I would have asked. Whether to ask is up to us, whether to say it is up to her." "Of course this makes sense." Dayu said, "You're used to saying things when you're together. You talk to everyone with all your heart. You can ask. I'm not in a position to ask." "Then it's decided." Xiaotong raised his face to look at Dayu's expression and said, "If you don't ask me, I'm bored." As he said that, he had already walked outside the Catholic Church on Pingzheng Street.This Catholic Church is the largest in Yunnan, and the decoration is also the most special. Who would have thought that there is a teahouse outside the church?The outer courtyard of the church here happens to be a teahouse!It is a large and quiet open hall with high walls and many pictures of holy relics. It is also because of this teahouse that provides religious knowledge to students that they notice this church.They love the big picture on the wall facing the gate of hell.The names of the seven evils are written on the seven gates, and there are raptors and beasts that symbolize the seven evils. In addition, there are many figures, and a picture is very lively. The chapel is in the courtyard behind.The building is quite good, they only opened the windows, but never walked in.When he reached the back door, the little boy held Dayu back and asked, "Do you know what they call nuns? We had a joke in Yiliang." Dayu frowned and said, "I don't know about that either. Try calling me Shigudao. Since the priest is a priest, let's make him an equal." As he said that, the porter came over to ask who he was looking for. "Is there any Aunt Yang who just came here from Yiliang?" Dayu said. The man nodded, asked them what was the matter, and told them to wait.He went to find it.After speaking, he entered a small door.They stood there looking at the building of the church. Everything here was terribly clean.The tall stone churches and terraces, the courtyards, are all dazzled by the sun.The courtyard was extremely quiet again. After a while, the man came out and said, "No." They didn't believe it and refused to leave and asked him to look for it again.Suddenly, the boy saw two people coming out of a small door next to him. Before he could speak, Lin Yanmei and the nun had already turned around and walked up the stone steps of the church.There was no expression on her face.When the boy saw him, he hurriedly called Dayu.When Dayu looked, he saw only two figures from behind.The yard is wide and silent, and there is a kind of air that makes people unable to shout out loud. The janitor pointed with his finger and went back.They ran across the courtyard in two steps at a time, climbed the stone steps, and saw them cross themselves and go into the church. They dare not go in.Only standing there and waiting, the scene of the two of them walking up the stone steps still clearly appeared in the eyes, the clear black shadow shone on the dazzling stone steps, and then disappeared into the arch, everything was so silent. They approached the door to look, and saw the two of them walking to the wooden altar of confession. The nun taught Lin Yanmei to kneel down, made the sign of the cross, and walked into the curtain.Then he walked towards the altar.They still only saw the back of the nun.They also saw a French priest with a white beard listening to the confession in the alcove. The two of them could only stand on the stone steps and wait in the sun.After waiting for a full half an hour, they heard footsteps behind them, turned their heads hurriedly, and saw a charming nun walking towards them, and at a glance they knew it was Lin Yanmei's aunt.Seeing her approaching, the two of them seemed to want to avoid her, but she had already said something, and she said: "You two are waiting for Miss Lin, right? She said: Thank you, please Go back." When the two heard it, they were helpless, and there was no reason why they should stay next to each other.He only said "excuse me" and walked down the stone steps.The nun also walked back to the church.They walked to the door of the second entrance courtyard, and couldn't help but turn back to look at the church. Just across the stone courtyard, they saw Lin Yanmei and her aunt, bowing their heads, walking down the stone steps side by side and turning into the church. I just came out of the courtyard gate and went. Their plans along the way were all in vain, and if the boy wanted to ask, he never had a chance to speak.Not only was it impossible to talk, it was impossible to even approach her.As they walked back, they had no idea what to do next.They only felt that the air was heavier, Lin Yanmei was farther away from them, and the possibility of them losing her was greater.After thinking about it, they had to go to Wu Baosheng to find a solution.Dayu went back to Jin's house, and Xiaotong went to the south area of ​​the new school building to find Wu Baosheng.Arrived there and not at home.He went to see Mr. Lu's garden again, but there was nothing there. He was tired and went back to sleep.Unexpectedly, he and Wu Baosheng did not meet by coincidence just now. Wu Baosheng spent the whole morning in Mr. Lu's garden behind Huohuayuan, and Shi Xuanwen was there to accompany her. She was busy all morning, and the two of them didn't come back until it was time for dinner.The two chatted on the road.Shi Xuanwen watched her concentrate on taking notes while thinking about the morning's thoughts.At this moment she said: "Baosheng, I came back from Chongqing, and I ate several meals with you. But when it comes to welcoming me back, I have never been as comfortable as asking me to stay here all morning today. The more they invite you I, the more I feel like a guest, the more you treat me normally, the more I feel like I'm home. Baosheng, where did you come from such cleverness and cute little eyes?" When Wu Baosheng heard this, she laughed, and her neat little white teeth flashed when she smiled.Facing such a person, looking at the hills in this area, the flower garden makes anyone happy to look at it.She said: "My old sister! If you praise me sincerely, don't give me another stab at the end! People treat you like this naturally, and let you talk economically!" Shi Xuanwen brushed this Wu Baosheng's hair and said: "Look at you, you are still so lazy to put on a few clips! You really haven't changed at all, you have the same life, the same job, and you are responsible. It looks like a finished painting, forever beautiful." Wu Baosheng became angry when he heard it.She acted coquettishly, stood still, and said: "This person is a little crazy today. He went to Chongqing for a year, and learned some wild words and came back to vomit me!" Shi Xuanwen was even better. She knew she would be angry, but she didn't beg for mercy. She said: "You scold me again, I like this look. If I can think of something better, I will say it! It's a shame." It's me here, if I change to a male classmate, I'm not afraid that he will collapse on the ground!" "Ouch! You are really going to die! It makes people blush for you." Wu Baosheng was angry when he saw her naughty salivating face, and couldn't help laughing. She frowned and looked at her. "Forget it!" Shi Xuanwen dismissed the subject as if nothing had happened: "I've had a good time. I haven't seen your air for more than a year. Didn't you tell you to play with me all morning before I remembered your painful heart , come here..." "Good sister! I beg you, it's over if you can!" Wu Baosheng couldn't say no to her, he could only beg softly. "Let's take a good walk." Shi Xuanwen said: "Think about it, today, you can be a little girl in front of her, acting like a baby, there is no one else but me! Besides, your old sister wants to study. With this air, can you tell her not to make her happy for a while?" "Thank you! That's enough, that's enough!" Wu Baosheng said, "It's changed to this old-fashioned voice again. It really makes people afraid of your mouth that can speak! Fortunately, it's in the wild, if people listen to it , what does it mean?" "What does it mean?" Shi Xuanwen knew that Wu Baosheng, who entered the university together five years ago, was still so close to her and loved each other, so she took her arm unconsciously, and walked slowly beside her, like a lover like.At the same time, he looked at her expression with the tip of his eyes, figured out her intentions, and teased her with words.She said: "If you don't remind me, I really don't know what these jokes mean. Now that I think about it, it seems to have started a conversation, and said a primer. Next, if I say it again, it won't hurt." I'm sorry to bother you. I should speak carefully, for example: I haven't seen you in a year for such a personality. I don't know if she has a master? I would like to mention someone to her. Who knows if she is interested? No good intentions to touch her in the face! Who cares about her, she has already raised her head, so she has to continue with the cheek! Who told her to look like this even I love it! She used me I don’t talk too much when I’m here, and I’m sorry for our friendship over the years. That’s right, this old sister has to talk today.” Wu Baosheng had already heard that she was talking more and more.She just let her talk, but she had already stolen that hand and twisted her to hold her own arm.Shi Xuanwen felt it, so he pretended not to know, gritted his teeth, and talked more and more, and Wu Shili talked more and more.Shi Xuanwen didn't care about her.When the two of them were in a hurry, they felt that their feet were walking faster. Speaking of this, Wu Baosheng was about to die of anger, but she simply let go.He said openly: "Say it, talk it! I'm very anxious! Tell me, who do you want to mention?" If Shi Xuanwen deliberately made fun of her, would there be any reason why he should not guard against such a move?She turned her head and looked at her: "Who knows if this child is sincere? Or is it a lie! It's not a lie, it's useless to tell her to coax someone's good name! It's the sincerity, if you don't say it, you will provoke this child for nothing The other side. There is no reason for someone to pursue her as a girl! Then why don’t you feel sorry for her! Make it difficult for me as a middleman!” They have already embarked on the road, and there are more classmates coming and going.Wu Baosheng said: "Okay, you've bullied me enough. Save it for later and let me use it slowly. You messed up this, and I'm hungry. How can you treat me to a good meal? " "Hey!" Shi Xuanwen said: "I just said that she would know people's wishes and greet them, so that's a rip-off! Come on, come on! The old sister came from Chongqing and still has some money left. Please invite this little sister stop." Wu Baosheng smiled when he heard this, rather complacently, and didn't speak.The two of them went back to Wu Baosheng's room to freshen up. Wu Baosheng didn't want to change his clothes, so he just flattened the creases, brushed off the dirt on their shoes, and then came out again.Go all the way into the gap in the city wall and walk towards the center of the city. "Let's go to the Dongyue Tower where we ate yesterday," Shi Xuanwen said, "The chicken legs in sauce are delicious there. I was a customer yesterday, so I'm sorry to ask for it again. Let's have a good time today!" "Don't make people greedy! Let's go! The more people say they are hungry, the more they can think of something to say!" Wu Baosheng said and pulled her away. "I was thinking of asking you!" Shi Xuanwen was staggered by her: "I've only heard of people running away in anger. I've never seen someone like you getting angry and hungry! I think I'm on the mountain What you said, there is a bit of eyebrows! If you don’t look at you smiling so well, your interest will be high! Really! These girls don’t want to hide anything from others, they tell people everything from their eyeballs! But this one I don’t even live up to my stomach! I’m not afraid that if you don’t tell me, it’s going to be a long time, and I’m afraid I won’t be able to see it!” Really, Shi Xuanwen is afraid that there will be too many people, so he won't joke?Now it's on the street, Wu Baosheng's expression made everyone walking on the street stop to look at her!They talked all the way and went to Dongyue Tower for dinner.The two sisters went to the fruit market on Guanghua Street to buy some pears, took the pears and walked down, turned onto Wucheng Road, exited Xiaoximen, and wanted to walk back along the ring road.Shi Xuanwen saw many carriages parked around Zhuantang outside Xiaoximen, so she stopped to look at them and said, "I didn't have these carriages when I left last year. Why are there so many?" "Isn't it because Kunming has more people and there are more alarms, and everyone has been evacuated to this area outside the city, and he is needed to go back and forth." Wu Baosheng said. Seeing the two of them standing still, the driver of the carriage coaxed them around to do business, and the two of them couldn't get away.Shi Xuanwen said: "Why don't you just leave it at that, and forget about having fun in the afternoon. You're tired early in the morning! Let's go to the Daguanlou for a sit-down?" "Alright." Wu Baosheng also felt that it was a long time since he had such a day to relax. "I've never been in a pony carriage with these car wheels before!" The two of them picked up a clean one and sat in it, and then rushed out of the road as if they were out of a tight siege. When we approached Daguanlou, we could see the evacuated families in the village.Their clothes obviously do not belong to this country, but that is where they live.Feed the chickens at the door and do laundry by the river. Wu Baosheng pointed to Shi Xuanwen and said: "Looking at how they live at home now, they feel much better. This war is really fierce. When they came, they were all sick. I don't know how much to give them." People have had blood tests, and nine out of ten are suffering from falciparum malaria. They are considered to have made it to Kunming, and I don’t know how much they lost on the way!” "Oh!" Shi Xuanwen sighed and shouted, "You feel better after seeing this situation? I'm just wondering! So you have seen something even more terrifying here! I just thought that if I asked people from Chongqing to come and see it, then it would be better." To teach them to think it's war time! It's sad enough to see them leave their homeland just now." After speaking, the two fell silent.After waiting for a while, Shi Xuanwen asked: "But when I think about it, did Kunming become very chaotic when the summer vacation was about to start? We saw people fleeing by plane in Chongqing, and there were suddenly more beautiful cars on the street. The city flew with the horn, and the words 'Guo Dian' were all written on it." "That's why we've only been quiet here for two days!" Wu Baosheng sighed and said, "Our Latin Quarter is different after all, and we should stay the same to cope with all changes. In the past, how long has it been! The city has become prosperous like an upstart Wake up, when we opened a small western restaurant in the street, we ate our rice noodle king, and now the Yangon customers are all crying, but we still eat our rice noodle king. You know, those cars didn’t drive much at the time It’s from the Jade Dragon Hill side of Cuihu Lake. So we didn’t really think that Kunming was really in chaos for a while. It’s not about other people. I hope they will run a few more and make room for overseas Chinese to live in. We spent the summer with them and it was so close." "I just remembered what you said," Shi Xuanwen said, "Your two younger brothers and Sang Yinzhai went to Burma with the army. Is there any news?" "They haven't had a letter for many days." Wu Baosheng said: "But I heard better recently that their headquarters has arrived in a safe place, but where it is, they can't announce it, maybe that's why there is no letter. I always feel that They won't have bad luck, and I can't say why. Anyway, they feel young, good-natured, and lively, making it seem like no misfortune will happen to them. Speaking of this, there is one more joy You only found out about it two days before you came. Do you remember that Ling Xihui’s uncle had engaged her? Ling Xihui hid in Burma as a reporter with the army. When she retreated this time, her uncle forgave her and promised her no more Speaking of this matter, Wei Wei recently heard that the gentleman who almost married her lost a lot of money in this war. It seems that at the beginning of the Pacific War, when Singapore was in a tight spot, he saw the benefits at a glance. Figure, cobbled together things, plus all his own, made a trip to Yangon on a desperate bet, hoping to make a lot of money from it. Unexpectedly, the situation of the war changed drastically. Of course, his car was sent for military use. His goods couldn’t come in. Once it fell to the end, it was concealed at first, but now it can no longer be concealed. They seem to be the dice rolled by the god of fate, spinning on a plate, and they seem to be supporting characters in the writing of literati. Use it at will, put it down at will. This change is so sudden that it is terrifying. I don’t know how many people like them who have had a sexual dream are in Kunming at the moment. They get up too fast and fall down really thoroughly Don't you see that the tabloids have been joking with them these two days? Yesterday I was entertaining guests at the big restaurant all night. When I went home, there was an urgent telegram on the desk. He is a big debtor and has to go to the countryside to hide his debts. See you in a few days He didn't even have money in his pocket to buy a pack of cigarettes." "By the way, what happened to Song Jiejun?" Shi Xuanwen interrupted her. "Song Jiejun is said to be finished." Wu Baosheng said. "Did you hear that he married a Burmese wife?" "Why don't I know! Look at your memory!" “跟人跑了！”她也笑了，便接着说：“这个你没想到罢！当初谁也没想到。还仿佛听说他俩怪不错的。谁知道一逃难，把那位太太从前的一个情人给冲了来，就像涨潮时顺水飘来那样，两个人一见面，没几天，便把她带走了。她到底过不惯中国生活，并且她始终不学中国话。” “那么，宋捷军呢？”史宣文听了热闹，偏了身子坐过来问。 “宋捷军也妙。他连找都不找。他的生意做得反还稳当。也是运气好，趁势收摊，虽说不多，到底剩了点钱，跟着就带了他的那个小喽罗，邝晋元坐飞机到重庆去混事情去了。你说的昆明逃难容里，还该算上他们一份儿呢！这家伙将来还不知道要做出些什么事来！冯新衔，余孟勤还常接他信。余孟勤不大理他，我还劝过，说开除离校的同学的教育责任我们再不管，他们更危险于在校中不好好念书了，听说最近他也给他写信了。” “那么宋捷军运气比那一位倒好得多了。人财到底不曾两空。”史宣文笑笑说：“还给他剩了一样儿！” “学校里可不就是这么说吗！”伍宝笙说：“他们做生意还不是跟赌博一样？所以小童他们说他是情场失意了，赌场才保住了本。不过像他这样好运气的所谓新兴商人——这是朱石樵给起的名字，是绝无仅有的了。他们多半是顾前不顾后的，又是光看枝叶儿大，地底下是没有根基的，就和他们买卖的门面 一样，木条子钉一钉，涂了洋灰，划上线充石头，门口汽车多跑两趟就震得一片片儿地往下掉。这时看出凌希慧她们家那种老字号的根底了。人家当初也没赚份外的钱，依旧是老规矩，作批发生意。此刻一丝儿也没撼动他的！那位先生若娶了凌希慧去，说不定倒救了他一命呢！ " “那也不一定。”史宣文说：“也许把凌家本钱一块儿给送进去了呢！你也别说得高兴了，就不讲道理。新兴商人也有真在这一下子捞着了大鱼的。凌家铺子以后货物来源断了，生意岂不是也不免冷落？” 伍宝笙想想自己那份打抱不平的腔调也笑了。说着这三里多路的大观路早已走完。她们便在大观楼石牌坊前下了马车。 她俩顺了牌坊底下的大路一直走进去到了湖畔，便坐在大观楼前栏杆上看湖里来往的帆船。史宣文忽然笑了起来，对伍宝笙说：“你说可笑么，在重庆有一回几个同事，也都是助教讲师之类在一起闲谈，谈到楹联，对子，就有那么一位先生冲着我说：'史小姐，你从昆明来，昆明大观楼那李冉翁的长联，当然见过啦，你听我背背看。'于是也不等我说话，自己就：'五百里滇池……'背下去了。在下联一起首就错了几个字。后几句上，看他简直敲头磕脑地受罪。好容易挨完了，还自己说难得。弄得我倒不好改他了。你说我当时难办不难办！”两个人笑着转过身来看楹联。 “当然啦，这不是逞能逞到背诗的祖宗这儿来了！”伍宝笙看了一会儿又笑着说：“到底可怜你一个出门在外的，这个本事没有人知道。话又说回来了。你到底喜欢那边不喜欢？看你信上一阵说好，一阵说坏的。” “我觉得念书是要多走几个学校的，我也赞成你去走走。否则老圈在一个地方，新血液便得不到了。我们那里高明的教授也很多。学生也有的是有天才的。不过空气总是不同。你既然用喜欢不喜欢这个字眼儿，我也就凭感情说，走遍天下，还是家里好。这种没来由的偏心谁也不免的。我也不赞成个个学校都像咱们这儿，应该各人抱定各人作风，传统，才有他的个性，才有比较也才彼此有好处。这回我来的时候，一年同事，同学，也怪不舍的。我们也聚会了几次，说好常常通信，讨论个问题什么的。所谓'各呈材而切磋'就是这个了。” “这么看来，你很舍不得那边呢！”伍宝笙笑了说：“人这种动物真是难缠得很！怎么也难对付得好。幸亏我们研究生物不管人的这颗心。否则头痛死了！” “有人单管这颗心，不是吗！”史宣文马上接口说：“我就一点也不觉头痛。走的时候，舍不下这边，回来了，又舍不下那边，一点也不奇怪。就说那位背诗的老先生罢，人真是好得透了顶。五十多岁，女儿都跟咱们这么大了，还这么天真呢！这些事我想想都有趣。你在我跟前也留点神，你看我不把你们这些小丫头子的心事瞧个透透的！”说着抓过伍宝笙的手臂来轻轻地掐了她一下。 伍宝笙就说：“所以我早知道啦，从来没敢在老姐姐面前捣半次鬼，明知道捣鬼也没有用呀！”说着就都开怀地笑了。 她两个一路闲谈，又到园中各处走走，自己不觉也热出一身汗来，所以也不去划船，只站在岸上看了一阵，天色已经晚了。午饭吃得饱，不忙吃晚饭，就慢慢走了回来，晚风吹着，一天都是好云霞，觉得舒适得很。日落之后她们也走进了大西门。在文林街随便吃了点甜食当了晚饭后，伍宝笙把史宣文送到南院门口，史宣文说：“既然走到这儿了，到赵先生屋里来一块儿谈谈岂不甚好。”伍宝笙闲散了一下午，也轻松松地想再多玩会儿。就又一路谈着进了南院。 她俩走到赵异祥舍监门口，见门开着。赵先生在书桌灯底下整理些旧信件，椅子旁边放了一个纸字篓，已经满了。她们就在开着的门扇上轻轻敲了两下。赵先生用手在眼睛前遮了灯光向这边望望，就招呼她们进来，说：“你们俩个到哪儿去了，一玩就是一天！这儿学校里仿佛是全体同学在找你们！女孩子们都快把我的门敲破了！自从吃过午饭以后我就没关过门！”她说着招呼她俩坐下，她俩彼此看看谁也不明白。赵先生放下手边的事，坐了过来，像有一件大事要说，她们就等着。 赵先生先派了一个老妈子去找凌希慧同乔倩垠来，自己也先稍为地把蔺燕梅的事说了一下。她说：“现在已经到晚上了，她也该回来了。我终不信她会在那边过夜！所以我一下午没出去，等到现在。你索性也在这儿等着，先别回南区去。” 伍宝笙听了心上简直不能信。她说：“这是不可能的事，赵先生！这若不是传错了话才奇怪呢！燕梅再也不会这样的！” 赵先生说：“你这说的是我今天一天来，仅闻的一句，这么肯定的话！我听了很高兴。不过事情就在今天早上。又是童孝贤说来的，偏偏错不了。我也奇怪得很。女孩子们的意见很不一致。有人说她是跟范宽湖不错，不过她们又解释不出来，她为什么哭成那个样儿。凌希慧乔倩垠她俩个的看法倒跟你差不多，到底是老同学。总之，她这件事真叫我心疼极了。” “赵先生！我们光是心疼，您不知道燕梅的心恐怕早已碎了！”伍宝笙欠身向前说：“我敢说，如果不是小童眼错看花了，一定就是燕梅在梦里吻的范宽湖！她若是醒着，我敢担保这事是决计做不到的！赵先生！这是决计做不到的！” 史宣文在一旁似乎比赵先生还多明白了一点。她却不能插口。她只说：“可怜的燕梅，我还没看见她呢！这下子，等一会儿她来了，我们见面，也是另外一个凄惨情调了！”她说着不禁难过起来。 伍宝笙听见她声音不对，便一下子转过身来对她说：“史宣文，我告诉你，这事情一定不是这样的！燕梅来了自见分晓！她决计是没有一点儿错的！你不能先存了可怜的心来替她难过。我们要拿她和平时一样待。她是跟平时一样的！你早上还说呢，我们接待老朋友不该用另一副神气呀！” 这时凌希慧、乔倩垠来了，她们并肩在门口站了一下，便走进来。伍宝笙也不回头净等史宣文回话。史宣文说：“我岂不明白你的意思？我是到了燕梅的心里，忽然觉得这件事在她心上的份量。” 凌希慧她们听见了，知道赵先生必定先把这件事情讲过了。便说：“你们两个到哪里去了一天？叫我们好一阵子找！” “我们？才真是天晓得！”伍宝笙看了史宣文：“玩了一天，没事人儿似的！”就把一天玩的地方说了一下。 凌希慧就说：“现在你们也不用去天主堂了。你们一块儿等一下罢！大家都把希望放到你们两个人身上了呢：”她说着又忙告诉赵先生：“余孟勤刚刚来过，说他中午同童孝贤到天主堂去过了。只远远看见燕梅跟了她阿姨走进教堂去忏悔。她看见他们了，不但不理他们，反而叫她阿姨出来，打发他们走路！” 伍宝笙就抢白她说：“你这口气是护着她呀，还是恨不得再给她惹点事？她现在见到他俩有什么说的？燕梅就不会'叫'她阿姨出来，'打发'，'他俩'，走路！她从来没有这种口气！” 她们，连赵先生一共五个人围了小圆桌子谈论着，迎面的屋门是开着的，门外走过的女孩子们都看见她们，也都知道蔺燕梅还没有回来。 乔倩垠又提起沈葭同冯新衔就要结婚了的事，她说：“我们下午去看沈葭，听他们说，看情形非就在这两天办了不可，因为得了消息像我们这样去讨喜酒吃的人太多，若不快一点，冯新衔那一点稿费便不够请客的了。”说着大家笑了。 “宝笙，”史宣文说。“咱们明天非快点去登个记不可，别叫他们给落下了。” 凌希慧说：“把沈老先生夫妇落下，都落不下你们俩，放心罢！我们瞧见单子，头两个就是你们，底下是燕梅，再靠后才是按了亲疏排名次的。连赵先生都在你们后边，你们想想罪过不罪过！”她俩吐了一下舌头笑了笑。 “宣文，还是这儿像你的娘家罢！”赵先生笑着说，她摸了摸茶杯，说：“哟，茶也白了，水也凉了。燕梅这个阿姨真是不讲理，没的叫她半夜一个人走回来？” “可不是，都快十点钟了！”伍宝笙着急起来。“等不来她，我回去也没法睡觉！” 赵先生便对凌希慧说：“还没有开学，你们宿舍里空床多得很呢，你给找一个。不过一定要有帐子。南院的蚊子不是闹着玩的。宝笙你也不用回去了。” “哪儿用得着找，”乔倩垠说：“燕梅一屋三个都不在家。等她回来开了门，宝笙去睡梁家姊妹的床。那是她的老屋子！” “那我定下另外一张床！”史宣文抢着说：“我们三个再聚一聚。” “这倒好啦。”赵先生说：“有了燕梅，连赵先生都不要了！去，去，去你们的。说得怪叫人心酸的！” 几个人听了，又笑着说别的，等着。 等着，说着，不觉到了十一点半钟。大家渐渐不自在起来。伍宝笙说：“这可糟了！如果我们一回来就去找她去倒对了。现在是太晚了，一定没法去找，又眼见她今晚不回来了。” 赵先生也觉得不会来了，她说：“再没有这时候去找的道理，你赶紧去找个地方睡，马上要熄灯了。明天一早来叫着史宣文去看她，现在别再蘑菇了。”伍宝笙无奈，随了凌希慧去了。她一夜怎么睡得着！别人都睡了，她还在那儿想。想她这妹妹的脾气，她所许的愿心，她觉得就是神仙下凡来帮她，也要觉得困难。 她有一个决定，决定要从蔺燕梅的性情上下手，不改造她的性情，这件事是没办法解决的。她又不大明白余孟勤那方面究竟如何。那个人的性情也是个走极端的。他怎么能受得了这个消息呢？就算她扳得转蔺燕梅的牛脾气，人家那边翻了脸那怎么了局呢？ 想到这里不觉记起史宣文白天开玩笑的话。“谁知道他们心上是有多么深的情感呢？”她想：“也没有一个人说出个明白的尺寸，叫我们这做中间人的怎么揣摸？他们这种说浓真浓、说淡又真淡得像水似的恋爱，真是少见！这个余孟勤真不像个谈恋爱的角色，他们的作风怎么这么特别？” 为了蔺燕梅的缘故，她当然很留神余孟勤的用心。“但是，奇怪。”她想：“燕梅就没有告诉过我他说过一句明白话。如果他说过爱她，她再也不会不来告诉我的。” 忽然，她的想法令她害怕了。这时也许是午夜刚过，也许是天将明之前，总之，是一个令人信心飘忽，容易恐惧的时辰。她想：“也许就是这个道理？也许余孟勤曾令她大大地伤心过。这事她便瞒了我不对我说？可怜燕梅，你怎么会害怕在姐姐面前失面子？姐姐哪一天不把你的事当做自己的？可恨燕梅，你拿姐姐当了外人！又可怜我自己啊，怎么就被燕梅忘在脑后了啊！” 她想得有些失神了，眼前出了许多可怕的景象。那一张余孟勤的脸真是铁青得吓煞人。又仿佛看见燕梅在荒野中掩面痛哭着飞逃。她慌不择路，赤着的双足全为荆棘刺破，流着滴滴鲜血，衣服也撕得一条条儿的，片片随风吹。她自己仿佛在拼命推着余孟勤去追她回来。 她想得头上一阵阵地跳动着疼。她又感到晨寒，又觉得困倦，窗口微微发白时，她睡着了。 到了上午史宣文来推他时，她才忽然惊醒，也顾不得说话，揉了揉眼睛就看表：“呀，九点半了！”她忙跳下床来，就埋怨史宣文不早叫她。史宣文看了她这个神气，心上不忍说她什么，只叫她定一定神，梳洗了，好出门。她说：“昨天我和赵先生也说了大半夜话，睡完了，今早还想等你来呢，赵先生说你一定没有好睡，叫我晚点儿再来看你呢！” 伍宝笙便叫她回赵先生屋去等着去，自己忙忙洗了梳了穿好衣服，找上她就要走。赵先生叫住她们说：“你们这个气色太严重了，路上走慢一点，把心定一定，到了那里要做出若无其事的样子，别叫那个孩子更害怕不敢回来！宝笙，你也是个叫人不放心的。你今天怎么这份脸色！回来再一块儿到我屋来！” “赵先生，她没睡好。”史宣文说：“路上有我照呼她俩呢！” “咳，也罢了，你又好得了多少！”赵先生说：“走罢，回来别忘了先看我，听见了？” 史宣文忙说：“听见了，马上回来！”就和伍宝笙跑了。一气跑出南院门口。到了文林街上，史宣文说：“走慢点儿罢。又没有多远。街上人又多。” 她们当然不能在街上跑，可是走得仍是不慢，不一会儿到了平政街天主堂，抬头看了看，便往敞厅后面小门里走。耳中听到教堂中早祷的歌声四散飞扬，直上青天里去，教堂便如在歌声中漂浮着一样。 忽然看见迎面一位修女走过来，叫她俩个暗暗一惊，伍宝笙眼都看呆了。她扯了一下史宣文的衣服说：“这个若不是燕梅的阿姨我再也不信。怎么有这样好看的修女？也没听她们说一句？” “她们哪里见过！” “大余跟小童不是昨天来过吗？凌希慧竟忘了这么个人物不描写？” “大余，小童两个人哪里是看得出女人容貌的！”史宣文不叫她再说：“他两个昨天碰了软钉子，心上不知道多么恨她呢！” 修女本来是出来找人去给她俩送信的。远远见了，也暗暗纳罕，她想：“真是跟燕梅说的一点也不差，风度比人品还要胜几分！难怪她这么念叨着不能忘！”她竟似不用介绍，便如旧相识一般，带了笑容走过来。史宣文见她俩四只眼睛彼此打量。走近了，竟一齐开口。从那问活的声调里就听得出两个人又惊又爱的心意。 也不用介绍，修女便说：“既然来了，也不用说燕梅怎么等了你们一天了。她现在在做早祷。你们到我屋里去等一等好不好？” 伍宝笙说：“我们能不能到礼拜堂先看她一看？” 修女说：“非进去看不见，她在歌诗班的台上，台在一进门背面的楼上，不过你们到门口站一会儿，她的声音是一定听得出来的。” 她俩听了，知道自己不懂得礼拜堂的规矩，不便进去，便不强求，随了修女走上石阶，站在门口听了一下，听出蔺燕梅歌声清越，竟大不同平时，不觉眼圈湿了，便不再听，由修女领到学生宿舍那边蔺燕梅的房中去等。到了房中，修女说：“我要去做祈祷去，桌上那个是燕梅昨晚上写给你们未完的信，你们看一看罢，燕梅脾气扭得很，我叫她缠得没办法，等一下你们帮忙劝劝，还有半个钟头我们就回来了。”说着便拽上门，走了。 伍宝笙忙到桌上拿起那信来和史宣文同看。蔺燕梅的笔迹，她们多么熟悉呀！ 信上一开头便是她译的几句祈祷书上的话：“还有谁那里可以容我投奔？还有谁能接受，洗清我的罪。主，啊！主，请你垂恩！” 她俩个互看一眼，心冷了一半，呆住了。 这信的前一半都说得是昨天她读祈祷文的感想。说昨天阿姨到教堂去做早祷时，她独自跪在床边上读这本法文的祈祷文。她认为有生以来，到今日为止，一切都是罪孽。快乐或得意，皆是虚荣，争得别人疼爱及夸奖，无非是满足自己骄傲的心理，甚至穿一件好衣服，找一件高兴的事做一做，都是贪婪，奢侈，不应当的行为，这都是罪。她又说，遇到了不如意的事，想毁去自己的生命，也不应该，也要算在杀戒之内。大为感情激动更是造罪之源。 底下她平平淡淡地说了不怕吓死人的话：她要做修女了！ 她虽然年令还不到，危赫澜神甫不准她，但是可以求他先收做学习的修女，她可以先接受白色面幕，束带挂珠，潜修到年龄够了的时候再做正式的修女。她战栗地祈求上帝助她勇气。那严重的戒律和手上所带的戒指，表示把身体许给上帝作新娘的婚戒是在向她招手了。她不能抗拒，她要勉力做去。 眼前她要在教堂里斋戒，学习规矩，准备三天后受洗。 最后用了讥讽自己的口吻叙说了这次的事，描写了那个令她得到解脱的梦。She is not sad at all.她说梦中以为是真，醒来不信是梦。庄周蝴蝶，哪天是了？她的解脱令人反更觉沉重。偏偏这文字又美丽得如诗篇。 她对范家兄妹，一字责备都没有。只简单说范宽怡曾告她，以为她是醒着等语。她说这就够令人彻悟的了。反求她俩不要令校中舆论对他们兄妹太难堪。 伍宝笙看了信，直在落泪。史宣文接过信来放回桌子上安慰她说：“宝笙，你别难过成这样，我看还有救。” 伍宝笙说：“我早料想燕梅是在梦里，没想到事情离奇到这样。” 史宣文停了一下，缓缓地说：“大凡一个人能够彻悟到这一步，已经又跳出宗教这个圈子以外去了。况且平时听她言论，也不是个眼界不宽的人。这个学校的空气是学术自由。那思想也就崇尚理解。她受了两年熏陶对她必有好处。愚夫愚妇的信教，是心灵软弱要找依靠。她是心冷已极的话，等一下千万不要照直劝她，由她去。我们只说学问要紧。告诉她学识不足，修道也难深。只得做个庸碌的修女，为上帝也做不出事来。你看看，包管见效。” 伍宝笙噙了两行泪听着。忽闻廊下有人声，是燕梅同她阿姨来了，两人忙拭了泪等着。只听见她阿姨似乎劝阻她什么。她那声调之激越，完全与信中两样，她执扭地说：“不，我要！阿姨，我一定要，你要再跟危赫澜神甫说！” 她阿姨便说：“好了，好了。慢慢再说罢。还不快来看你的两个姐姐！”说着开了门。 也不等伍宝笙端详一下她这个妹妹到底怎么样了。她一看见姐姐便直扑过来抱住伍宝笙，耳中只听见：“姐姐！姐姐！你看我怎么得了啊！”一句话，索性就哭了起来。伍宝笙也忍不住揽了她哭泣。 屋里只听见她两个伤心的声音。谁也没有话可说。史宣文想：“不知道这位修女心上觉得燕梅够格修行么？她这个样子和信上的口气多么不同！这还是学校里的蔺燕梅，不是天主堂的女修士啊！” 修女看了，虽然也难过却觉得不及听她缠着要修行那么令人伤心。她便打点起话头来慰解。她说：“燕梅，你盼了人家一天，人家来了，又哭成这样连个给人说话的空儿都没有！” 伍宝笙听了忙着先止住哭来劝蔺燕梅，却不知道说什么好。史宣文在一边早打定了注意，她说：“也该哭够了，旁边还有个我呢，不知道看见了没有！” 蔺燕梅是个多么周到的人，这一句话果然见效，她赶紧收泪来和史宣文说话，史宣文不等她先开口便先羞她：“我若是晚一步从重庆回来，还赶不上到这儿来见你呢！” 蔺燕梅羞涩地拭了泪，心上怪难为情地没处藏躲。修女去找人打水给她们洗脸去了。史宣文说：“你过来，我小声儿告诉你一句，你这个底子离做修女还远得很呢！” 旁边伍宝笙听得这句话莽撞，吃惊不小。只见蔺燕梅听了伸手把桌上她写的信拿在手里，略看看，撕了，不改柔和声口说：“别提这信中的话，昨天火气还是太大些，你看我做成做不成。” 史宣文见她脸上顽皮，孩气不改，就笑了说：“这个话也没有这种说法呀！反正你岁数不到。慢慢地说罢。我又没拦你。” 史宣文的话头这么难捉定，她听了也没法做腔调。伍宝笙也早改了笑脸说：“我倒觉得做修女跟念大学都差不多，只是燕梅的妈妈听见不知道怎么想法？” 史宣文说：“怎么想？一定说：'好乖，到底长大了，自己会拿主意了，第一次拿主意不跟我商量！'” 蔺燕梅拦住她，问伍宝笙说：“怎么作修女会跟上大学差不多？” “这个简单得很，”史宣文偏说：“上大学是研究着科学或是什么别的学问，去体验哲学。修道院是潜修着哲学去解释人文和科学。” 伍宝笙说：“你们西洋文学史上不是还有经院学派么？中国历史上更不知道有多少学识高深的和尚。别的我不知道，我们遗传学上最基本的定理就是孟德尔一个和尚发