Chapter 33 fifteen (below)

They packed up their fishing rods and prepared to go back down the mountain.The little boy lifted the string of fish out of the water, and those poor little things were struggling desperately.When they saw it, they couldn't bear it, and after discussing it, they tore the wire off the hook, and let the six or seven small fish go back.Seeing them dive into the water, turn around, and then disappear in the depths, the two were happy, so they smiled and came back with an empty fishing rod. Walking out of the valley and reaching the plains, the little boy smiled to himself and said, "The calculation is still correct! If you are tired from swimming, you must not be in such a good mood now."

Lin Yanmei liked to hear this, so she walked closer to him and said, "Is it better to have a girl with me?" The two of them laughed heartily, and then they went back to school happily.This time they entered the north gate of the north section of the new school building.When he got to the central road, the little boy kicked a small stone and walked.Lin Yanmei imitated his mischievousness by kicking a pebble, and the two walked away with their heads down.After entering the school, I didn't realize that I was talking about Zhu Shiqiao's departure.Xiao Tong said that if Lin Yanmei left, it would be completely different, the farewell party would have to be held for two weeks!She spat and said, "Don't get mad at me again, I'll show you!"

Xiao Tong suddenly said, "Stop! Close your eyes!" She closed her eyes and stood still. The little boy said, "Can I ask you to do one thing?" She closed her eyes and said, "It's all right." "Okay." The boy said, "try to change your strange temperament. The number of classmates is decreasing day by day, so don't make trouble with anyone. Open your eyes and have a look. You play with him for a while, and I will take the fishing rod Send it back to the house." He said and took the fishing rod from her hand.She opened her eyes and looked up, and there was no time to hide, Dayu had already walked in front of her.Xiao Tong took the fishing rod and gave her a meaningful look, then ran to the dormitory.

She looked at Xiao Tong's back, feeling indescribably sad.A day of happiness suddenly turned into loneliness.Dayu has come to the side and has to deal with it, but why are his eyes so sad and heartless! Although she said she hadn't talked to Dayu since Yu Yiliang came back, she had never stood face to face like this either.She avoided it cleverly every time.She either finds a girl to talk to, or walks around in another way.She can't say that they stand together when they meet and ignore people! From Xiaotong's words, she felt that Dayu would not be easy to deal with.His ferocity will surely reopen the scarred wound in her heart, causing her to bleed and suffer again.She knew that Dayu would not have a chance to talk to her this month, and she would not let this opportunity pass by easily today.She knows that Dayu's sharp eloquence and violent use of emotion are not easy to resist.But she knew that she didn't love him anymore, and she had to resist!

Dayu approached her and said, "Yanmei! I ask you to walk with me." "No! Meng Qin!" She looked at the ground and said in pain. "She already felt the great pressure in her heart. She was suddenly in an embarrassing situation. She took a small handkerchief and twisted her hands desperately. She said: "No!Meng Qin!I am very tired today.I'm going back to rest. " "You can't say that! Yanmei. You can't completely deny me a chance." His tone changed.He pierced her heart word by word. "I don't have any opportunities to give! Meng Qin, you don't need me to give anything. On the contrary, you have to quiet me and let me go. Can't you see that I am recuperating? You hit me faintly all at once. "

"The opportunity is here, Yanmei. If you don't give it to me, I will seize it. No matter how I didn't understand you before, I will understand you with my heart now. No matter how much I disliked you before, you have to allow me to try." Give it a try. Yanmei! You can’t pass a verdict without listening to a prisoner’s complaint!” "I don't understand what you're saying? I don't understand what you're saying? You're too excited, and I'm tired today too. Just let me go, and talk about it when you're quiet next time. Alright, Meng Qin? Let’s talk again?”

"I'm going straight to the point and talking about the topic." He could feel that Lin Yanmei was pretending not to understand.He said: "You don't need me to say a preface at all. You have been hiding from me for nearly a month, can you pretend you don't understand today? Yanmei, can't you listen to my appeal?" "I don't deserve to hear this. Meng Qin! You can't torture me like this. You are like a strong man beating up a child. I am not your opponent. You shouldn't come to suppress me. Meng Qin, let me go. In the world I don't know how many people are stronger than me, why do you think I'm here to bully you?"

"Yanmei!" "Stop talking! Let me go back! I can't say no to you, I'm afraid of you! I know your heart and your feelings, and your eloquence is even more invincible." "Yanmei!" "Even if you don't care about anything, you still want to miss our former friendship. Please forgive me and let go of me, a little fish. It's not enough to eat it, and it's not happy to kill it. " "Yanmei! Yanmei!" "I have said the most despicable and pitiful words. I have given up resisting and begged you for mercy. This is begging you to let me go! Can't I even keep a woman's last step of rights? I want to go back, I want to go back, I want to go back and rest!"

"Okay." He lowered his voice and said, "'Rome wasn't built in a day.' I obey you today and let you go back. At least I can walk this part of the way with you. Don't use 'woman' These two words, look at your clothes, how childish, how young! Don’t believe your decision, you need someone to guide you, you need someone to protect you. You disappoint me, and you surprise me I am disappointed that you still have that capricious temper. I am surprised that you have become so determined! But whether disappointed or surprised, I feel that you are abnormal, you are abnormal, so you refuse my diagnosis and medical treatment. I don’t blame you , at least I feel remiss.”

Lin Yanmei was most afraid of hearing these words.The more she was afraid to hear it, the more coincidentally he said it.Of course, she was not convinced. For example, the word "woman" was used by Dayu to refer to her in the past, but now she turned it over to criticize her, but she dared not argue. She bowed her head and walked quickly, hoping to leave quickly. arrive.She was also afraid of embarrassing the saint in front of her classmates, so she didn't dare to walk too fast. Dayu continued: "I'm afraid that I was mistaken by you as a heartless person in the past. But I think you should understand me. I hate that kind of person, who always talks about emotional matters at will. Casual nonsense. But I'm giving in now. I'm going to put my head down and learn. I'm going to learn from you. You won't hear me scolding you for being a girl anymore. I want your girly temper to temper me, Irrigate me. I may be a branch frozen by frost and snow, but you can warm me up. No matter who I am, even a passer-by, as long as you can do it, will you turn around? We are now Advocate forgiveness, compassion, and forgiveness. We want to encourage people to be reborn. I am such an example, and I am in your hands. You must not ignore me at least from today. You must allow me to often beg for mercy."

Lin Yanmei seemed to be being tortured and tempted.Yu Mengqin was just pouring out his thoughts to her.The sentence was not intended to oppress her.However, this word is naturally powerful, and when she hears it, she feels that sometimes it is a threat, and sometimes it is a temptation.Especially the sentence: "Rome was not built in a day." This proverb made her feel that the future would be more dangerous, and she couldn't help her heart pounding. "Actually, you are doing something against nature. Against your own wishes." His self-confidence is frighteningly strong.He said slowly, word by word: "You know very well that you have a feeling, which you have cultivated very preciously. Unfortunately, it was accidentally damaged a little, so you painfully planned to let it go." Bury it. You don't know that what you bury this year may be a small seed, but next year it will grow a thorny bramble that will never be pulled out! You don't know that you should take it upon yourself to bury it. It's totally abnormal You don’t even know that you don’t need to bury it at all. You can’t think that this setback will become ten times as much comfort and happiness after receiving sympathy. Yanmei, you can’t explain my previous harsh argument out of context .You understand my intentions now." This has been said too bluntly.Lin Yanmei couldn't bear it any longer.She became angry.She said: "I can't understand what it means at all! I don't understand why you have the right to tell me this kind of thing. What's on my mind, why do you bother to guess? You can't pester me like this. I must quickly avoid you!" She said and walked quickly. Yu Mengqin silently accompanied her.When he was approaching the South Courtyard, he said, "Yanmei. I don't blame you for scolding me at all. I'm used to scolding others, and I understand that state of mind. I also understand that this tone is not your usual gentle temperament. Yes. You need to rest. I can't be hasty, I'll come see you tomorrow, do you promise?" When had Lin Yanmei been so furious?When she was about to reach the south courtyard, she already felt ashamed.She felt it was too inappropriate.Yu Mengqin forgave her again with these last few sentences, and she felt tears welling up in her eyes.She just nodded silently, and the tears couldn't help falling down.Without a word she turned and went in.Yu Mengqin couldn't help feeling sad too.Why did he suddenly hate creation for being unkind?Hard to make troubles in life. Lin Yanmei bowed her head and hurried away, she hoped that there would be no one in the room, so that she could cry bitterly, cry out her heartache.When she reached the door of the house, she saw that the lock was unlocked, she pushed the door open, but no one was there, so she fell on the pillow and wept bitterly. Since last night, she has tasted a little sweetness of love and gained a little warmth in her heart. This is the only experience in her life, nineteen years, although she still doesn't know that it is love , but she could taste the taste, so delicate, so lingering, so nostalgic, so she forgot Yu Mengqin's emotional debt to her in a mentality of evasion.If she can avoid meeting this creditor, her dream can last longer.Once she encounters it, she can only cheer up and make up her mind to settle it.It is true that it is painful to settle the matter, and it is true that you have gone through the bitter things one by one, but as long as she can bear it and slowly heal the wounds, she is still qualified to fall in love.She shouldn't have wanted to evade her debts, so she was caught off guard and severely punished by Yu Mengqin!How could she ignore the various feelings in her heart in the past year? She doesn't necessarily want to avoid it intentionally, but it's only natural for her to take the path with the lowest resistance.She didn't want to see Yu Mengqin because if she did, she would inevitably have trouble and pain.If he didn't forgive her and Fan Kuanhu's matter, it would certainly make her sad, but if he forgave her, it would make her feel even more guilty and sad.She was disheartened about everything.She avoided him because she was afraid of seeing him.She didn't know that it was inevitable after all, she didn't think about it at all. She hasn't figured it out yet, she's just in pain.She didn't want to cry to understand this truth, she just wanted to get relief from crying. At this moment, she only feels that she is unfortunate, and she seems to be surrounded by misfortune forever.Not only is she surrounded by misfortune, she is simply the embodiment of misfortune. She has already added misfortune to Fan Kuanhu, and she is about to envelop Yu Mengqin with misfortune.What noble characters these two are!And her victim is only qualified to be an extraordinary person. She thought of Xiaotong again, and she shuddered.Xiaotong is a good boy.Xiao Tong is a happy flying bird in the mountains and forests.Xiao Tong is a free fish swimming in the pool.The little fish may occasionally spit bubbles on the surface, and the bird may flip out of the air and fall happily.But she must not beckon him with her black magic-cursed hand.She will inevitably ruin another beautiful life. Didn't she mess with Xiao Tong again?She was frightened.She already felt that if she kept getting close to Xiao Tong, it would drag him down.She couldn't stand it. She seemed to see in a dream that when she was born, there was a bright angel blessing her, making her smart and beautiful, and a hideous witch was also blessing her, making her miserable and causing a kind of evil to circulate in her body. venom.This venom makes her charming, and brings disaster to all those who care for her. She harmed Fan Kuanhu and implicated Fan Kuanyi and Zhou Tiyu, and indirectly harmed her good friend Liang Chonghuai.Now Yu Mengqin couldn't escape again, and he was about to encounter misfortune.The future is a child!She didn't dare to think about it. They were lucky enough to win the meeting at the big banquet. If the changes were not satisfactory, wouldn't it implicate all good friends and even gentlemen? Thinking of these things, she felt that her own power was really small. Under the hands of the unfortunate demon, she was completely unable to resist, and she was simply a power that was not considered.She felt infinitely wronged.She would also ask God what she was born to do. Of course, she thought that no matter how deeply poisoned a person is, he can be cleansed in holy water, and that even those who are more unfortunate can find peace in the light of God.Only God can tolerate everything.What's more, she never gave up the idea of ​​becoming a nun. But she seemed to have changed a little bit at the moment.This change has just started in the bottom of my heart, and it has not yet come up.She already had a faint feeling of a little noise.But this change is too weak at the moment, it can't save her, it only makes her more afraid.She can't stand any more changes.At the same time, she was afraid that Dayu would build Rome day by day in the future.She wanted to run, to get out of the way.So the difficulty of this choice tightly grasped her mind that was fainted from crying. There is willingness to recruit her in life, but there is also a difficult road ahead.There are endless desolate years in the monastery, but there is also tranquility that can be obtained immediately.Slowly, her idea of ​​avoiding school gained the upper hand in her heart.She can go to southern Yunnan with the monks, put on a Taoist robe, mask, and compile a dictionary.In a strange place where no one knew who she was.Besides, didn't Xiaotong agree with her going?How many clever and beautiful daughters are covered under that nun's robe!Aside from those fascinating stories in Western literature, how holy and desirable her aunt is!All her vain laughter and unbearable bitterness today can't be violated by a daughter like Auntie!She herself is only suitable for such a life. If she leaves one day earlier, she will save others a little misfortune. She was tired from crying and was just about to sleep when she heard footsteps and the Liang sisters came back.She cried too sadly, so she didn't have the heart to wipe away the tears, so they found it when they entered the door. "What's the matter again? Yanmei!" Liang Chonghuai hurriedly ran over to snuggle up to her and coax her: "Go out happily in the morning, but come back crying in the afternoon? Are you childish?" "You are all harmful things." Liang Chongrong used another method to tell her to stop crying.The three of them were crying in turn anyway, so she even scolded her younger sister and said: "You cried away the three members of Fan Kuanhu's family last time you cried. Now I don't know who to hurt. Here Ms. Lin has another unlucky lover writing a letter. Let’s take a look to relieve boredom!" Then she sent a few letters and added: "Someone is bullying you. After reading the letter, tell me this. Big sister said, everyone think of a proper idea, don't just bring up another name, it will hurt people!" After Lin Yanmei heard this, she was thinking about something, so she didn't speak.Liang Chonghuai took the letter for her and said. "One, two, three, three. I heard the letter just now, and the two of us rushed there, but I did it for you. Shall I read it to you?" "Exactly that kind of letter?" she asked. "I can't be wrong." Liang Chongrong said aside, "Apart from your family letter, what other letters do you have? These letters are all from this city, and they don't have the name and address of the sender." Lin Yanmei received letters from strangers in the past, and most of them were put aside and ignored.The style of the Liang sisters is different, and they often read it several times.Although I didn't reply any of them, I always picked out the good ones and kept them.They couldn't understand Lin Yanmei's habits, so they often wanted to come and see.Of course, it is not easy to say this kind of words to be believed by others. I was afraid that Lin Yanmei would not reveal the name of the sender, so I came up with an idea, saying that I read it to her, and it has become a custom. But today Lin Yanmei is in a different mood.She suddenly felt that her poisonous life had not only harmed these conspicuous classmates, she had not even known how many insects and ants she had harmed unintentionally.Her crimes are very serious.She said, "Forget it. I won't read it today." After she finished speaking, she thought again: "Forget it, don't even open the envelope, and do something good for the person who sent the letter. Really, these enthusiasm Where do the children know how terrible love fire is, they only see the beauty of the flame, and they are playing with it!" "You are too cruel." Liang Chonghuai took the three letters and was reluctant to let them go. "Why am I cruel?" she asked. "Isn't it ruthless that someone put in so much effort to write a letter that he thought was a masterpiece, but he didn't get you to read it?" she said. "After you finish reading, you always tell the outside world." Lin Yanmei said. "Just don't tell me." As she said, she tore open an envelope with a "chuck!"This letter was extremely long, and the fonts were all tilted to one side. Although it was in Chinese, it was slanted like English, and they were all crowded together.Liang Chonggui frowned and read a few lines, but it was difficult to recognize every word.He said, "I can't read this letter." He opened the second letter to read it.Liang Chongrong picked up the letter she left behind and read it After looking at it, he also frowned, and said: "The paper is not bad." "Listen!" Liang Chonghuai said, "here is a bold one!" "What's so strange?" her sister said, "A school with more than 3,000 students can't find a few bold ones?" "Look!" Lin Yanmei sat up, snatched the letter and said, "Just read the letter and don't talk nonsense, then became happy again and forgot. I can't guarantee that you won't tell outsiders or give it to you. Read it, thank you!" Liang Chonghuai had no letter in her hand, and couldn't read it anymore, so she smiled and rushed to open the third letter.Lin Yanmei rushed to snatch it quickly, and it was torn in half.The letter paper was torn and fell to the ground, and there were only a few lines written in thick ink on it.One of the two took half of the envelope and laughed. Liang Chongrong was combing her hair on one side, and she pointed with the comb in her hand, "This isn't like a love letter, how many lines are there in a love letter?" "Maybe it's a poem?" Her sister said, "Let me be merciful and put it together for a look. Yanmei, give me your half." The two went to the table and gathered the letter together to read. "Father Wei Helan wrote Chinese characters well!" Liang Chonghuai shouted. Liang Chongrong came over to look at it strangely. She said, "What does he mean when he told you that someone will go to Wenshan tomorrow? Who do you want to tell? Where is Wenshan?" Lin Yanmei read the letter and remained silent.She was crying sadly, but she had already made up her mind, but she didn't expect this opportunity to come right away.As if she was being pushed by others at this critical moment, she walked straight on without thinking about it. She just said flatly: "Wenshan is in southern Yunnan." She picked up the envelope and looked at it carefully.No stamps.Knowing that he didn't go to church this morning, Father Wei Helan specially sent someone to deliver it. "What did he tell you about people going to southern Yunnan? Who did he want you to tell?" Liang Chonghuai asked. "I don't know either," she said. The two sisters saw that she was unwilling to speak, so they stopped asking. She took the letter, fell back on the bed and was in a daze for a while, and suddenly asked: "Do you think I can go to the dean to find it right now?" "What's the matter?" Liang Chonghuai asked. "It's nothing." She said, "Just ask." "If you want to find it, you can go to his house and try." Liang Chongrong said, "If there is anything wrong, how about going to the office tomorrow Monday to look for it." "I don't want to see him either," she said. Lin Yanmei saw that after they heard that she said that she didn't want to see the dean, they stopped looking at her so much, so she lay down on the bed for a while.After waiting for a long time, she thought: "It would be great if this matter could be left to the dean of the department! He is very concerned about me, so I might as well cut it off first and then talk about it after I leave!" After thinking about it, she was glad that she was determined and sat down at the table as if nothing had happened. to write a letter.I wrote a few letters and put them there, but suddenly wanted to tear them up. But for fear of making the Liang sisters suspicious, they put it in a book.She considered whether to send the letters or not.Time is running out.It is easy for her to act, but difficult to think about these things. After waiting for a while, Ling Xihui and Qiao Qianyin came.Everyone was chatting together, she was thinking about her own ideas, but she couldn't say them out, so she felt sad, she just paid more attention to these good classmates with her eyes, she wanted to remember the voices and smiles of these good classmates, and also remembered this A room, this school so that future memories can be clearer. Ling Xihui and the others came to find them something to eat.She thought about it all morning, besides breakfast, she only ate some pancakes, and she felt hungry.The three of them packed up and went out with the two of them.She took the book with the letter with her. They originally planned to eat some sweets, but she suggested to eat the rice noodle king. She wanted to take another look at the rice noodle king and his family.When they got there and sat down to eat, the rice noodle king's mother happened to come out for something, and when she saw Lin Yanmei, she came over to say hello.Lin Yanmei also stood up to greet her very affectionately, and insisted that the old lady sit with her. Since the year when Lin Yanmei first came, the old lady saw Lin Yanmei a few days after she gave her the big Dutch mouse cake, and she loved her very much.Today Lin Yanmei is especially gentle and considerate in front of her.Everyone was happy for the old lady.Of course the old lady was even more happy.She said: "You ladies, what beautiful characters, what kind of education are you all here! Don't you want to be others?" The five girls could only laugh when they heard this, and couldn't talk about their work. The old lady said again: "You guys are all good. There are also those who eat here who have found their own masters and made out with that air, I can't bear it! Girls need to be matched by others " As he spoke, he looked at Lin Yanmei with his eyes, and rubbed her hair with his hands, making her too ashamed to lift her head. Ling Xihui jokingly said: "If the old lady likes her, she can be a matchmaker for her, that would be great!" "I don't look like this!" She said and laughed again: "It's my turn to earn this face! But again, gentlemen, I mean your classmates, who often eat at our place , but they all think highly of me. I have to be careful! Those well-behaved gentlemen only come with their boyfriends, and they have to wait for a matchmaker?" A few words made even the people on the table next to them burst out laughing. Lin Yanmei loves this old lady, loves all the atmosphere here, so she felt even more depressed. She thought: "If you make up your mind, do it quickly! Don't miss it anymore!" So she proposed to go back to the dormitory.They bid farewell to the old lady and walked out together.Lin Yanmei also said that she would come back one step later to send a letter.So those four went back to the dormitory first. Lin Yanmei's letters were one for Dayu, one for Wu Baosheng and Tong Shi Xuanwen, and one for Xiaotong.As for letters home, she thought of writing them later.But she didn't want to send these three letters.The last time I wanted to be a nun, I failed, and the city was full of troubles. This time, I will do it neatly and quickly.Never make it into a joke again. Someone will leave tomorrow!What a temptation!Don't give her time to cook anything at all.She just doesn't cook anything.If you cook it, let alone the many nights and dreams, how can you finish the cooking!So the letter does not have to be sent.What's more, the most important benefit of leaving early tomorrow is to avoid running into Dayu. "Then what about Xiaotong?" She read Xiaotong's letter in her hand, and she thought, "I won't send it." In fact, she was also afraid of seeing Xiaotong.How quickly and quickly the little boy got into her heart!She really didn't dare to think about what her state of mind would be like if she was with Xiaotong for a few more days!She may be dodging debt again.But no matter what, she has a very strong desire for Xiaotong's good, she can't bring Xiaotong any more misfortune!She must leave him! Thinking all the way, she tore up all three letters.She sent the letter under the pretext of actually going to the dean's house.She threw the torn letter in the trash can by the side of the road. Walking to the dean's house, it happened that the dean didn't go out.She asked to see her, explained the situation, and told the provost that she would be responsible for compiling a dictionary in southern Yunnan, and that it would be convenient for her to go there because of her relationship with the Catholic Church.Finally, she said that she will leave tomorrow, and her news will be late, so the school should convey the instructions in writing in the future. The dean knew her results in Phonetics and Indo-European Language Studies, and knew that she would be competent, so he asked if the rest of the matter had been taken care of?Why didn't I hear it early. She smiled: "What is there to cook? I don't have a home here. It's the same wherever I go." Seeing that he had nothing to say, the dean agreed to her, and told her to be careful all the way and when she got there.And often communicate with classmates in school, don't lose contact when you are out alone.She - yes.The dean took out a piece of paper and asked her to write a volunteer letter.Watch her finish writing.Accepted, said: "Those forms are in the office, we will fill them out for you. And you will leave a stamp with the classmate, and I will receive a monthly allowance for you and send it for you. There is some compensation for this job." She smiled again, nodded in agreement, and said, "I know. This is the first time I've made money!" Then she resigned.The dean got up to see her off, but she couldn't thank her, so they walked out together.The dean said: "You have indeed changed a lot in the past two years and have grown a lot. When you first came, you have the same style, but now you are used to everything, and everything is the same as your classmates. After going here, you have to maintain it yourself. My own life, this is progress!" She felt an indescribable sadness when she heard this, but she lowered her head for fear that her eyes would turn red and be seen by the dean.The provost said: "Two days ago Zhu Shiqiao went to Tibet and came to see me only after everything was decided. You young people have the same style! Very interesting! Very interesting!" Talking and walking to the door, the dean reminded her to take care again, saying that her parents are abroad, so don't make the old man worry, she bowed and thanked.Ask the provost to go back!He walked back to school by himself. It's all decided!She thought about fishing with Xiaotong behind Tieling'an Mountain in the morning.It has changed to this moment! "You young people have the same style!" How proud she was!What an honor to compare her with Zhu Shiqiao!She listened to the dean's praise for her progress, and she thought that she had indeed improved.It is worthy of the tradition of Southwestern Union students!She kept thinking about her thoughts, and she didn't know when she had already walked back to the South Courtyard. Seeing that she had reached the south courtyard, she was busy thinking about what to do next.Of course she had a lot of things on her mind, but because she had already made a decision, she was not at all chaotic.She thought; "If there's anything wrong, stay on the train and think about it, let's go first!" She walked to the door of her house and saw that the door was locked.While taking out the key to open the door, he listened carefully.The sisters of the Liang family were all talking and joking in Ling Xihui's room upstairs opposite.She thought: "It's just right, take advantage of the time, pack up and leave!" She entered the room and took a look first.Put the toilet utensils in the handbag.I brought a few more clothes that I usually wear, and I packed a few books and dictionaries.I also put the hanging family photos in it. After waiting for a while, she thought again: "Do you want to take the bedding with you? Do you want to tidy up the leftovers? The books in the library have to be returned, and today is Sunday again. And the coat from the tailor shop has not been changed. What!..." The more I think about it, the more things I think.She sat on the bed thinking.He picked up another pencil casually, intending to write down what he thought of and leave it to the sisters of the Liang family, and Tong Wu Baosheng would do it for her. She thought about it for a long time, and felt that there were too many things to do, and that she couldn't ask someone to do it.So unable to write. Suddenly, she laughed to herself.Said to herself: "Let's go, Yanmei. If you think about it again, you won't be able to take it off. Do you still need these clothes? You have already brought too many." She got up suddenly and took out all the clothes in the bag Come out and throw it on the bed.After looking around the house, he locked the door and left. After Xiaotong forced Lin Yanmei to talk with Dayu, he took the fishing rod and sent it back to the house. He saw a note on the table that Mr. Lu was looking for him.He hurried to Mr. Lu's residence to ask what was the matter.When we got there, Mr. Lu and his professors were eating. When they saw him coming, they asked him if he had eaten. He said he hadn't eaten all morning.Mr. Lu asked him to have dinner with him. At the dinner table, Mr. Lu said: "Next week, I will transfer you to the Grand Phuket Research Institute for a week's experiment, which is also related to your graduation thesis. I will talk to you slowly after you have eaten. It's something new for him to hear, and he can join the well-equipped laboratory over there, how can he be unhappy!He quickly finished his meal and sat on the sidelines waiting. Mr. Lu finished eating.He invited him to his room to explain the contents of the experiment in detail, and said: "Relevant records are all in the Southern District Office. You can go there tomorrow morning and take a look. If you think it is necessary, you can copy some important ones." .You can leave tomorrow afternoon.” After hearing this, he wished he could go right away.Mr. Lu left him to talk a lot.It was more than two hours before he had a chance to say goodbye. As soon as he went out, he ran to Wu Baosheng's room in a fit of anger, called her out, and forced her to take the key to the office of the Department of Biology, and went to look for the records together. Wu Baosheng took the key and went with him, saying: "I have a lot of visitors today, and Dayu just came to see me after dinner. He said that Yanmei had changed her attitude and treated him coldly. He was very sad. What do you think?" What's going on?" Xiaotong said: "This semester till today, this is the first time Yanmei has talked to Dayu, believe it or not?" "I wouldn't have believed it," she said, "if Dayu hadn't told me just now." "I think her temper is a bit unreasonable, today is still an opportunity I found for Dayu." Xiao Tong then talked about the situation after returning in the morning: "How can their friendship be so forcefully broken? " "I don't think so either." She said, "But looking at Dayu's dejected look, it seemed like there was no hope. I said to him: 'Where is your self-confidence? Yanmei is sad now. Excessive, slowly with your three-inch tongue, what girl won't be changed by you?' Guess what he said, he said: 'When I talked to Yanmei just now, I was still very confident. Strong. Later, I suddenly felt wrong. I felt that once she had a new view, my position in her heart would suddenly change. This is not only because of her temperament, but also because our friendship is a kind of demonic, hypnotic She came to me in a state of intoxication. She came to me suddenly. Today the magic seems to have vanished. I try again, not only in vain, but against the law.' Is it strange for you to say that?" After hearing this, the little boy remained silent for a while, thinking to himself.At this time they came to the office of the Department of Biology, and Wu Baosheng opened the door to find the large pile of records for Xiaotong, and helped him find important ones. After searching for a long time, Xiaotong couldn't bear to read it.He said, "I want to ask you something, is there any truth in what you said about Dayu?" "But I'm not qualified to say that," she replied.Her heart is not on these records: "I am not qualified to comment on any inferences about her heart, because I have prejudices. I know Yanmei's secret. Of course no one can tell this, but it can be said that she loves Dave very much. The rest." "Whether she loves Dayu or not, I don't know." Xiao Tong said, "From what she said to me, it seems to mean the complete opposite. Of course, I don't believe what she said at this time. In short , at least Dayu has an important influence on her heart. This may be love, maybe not. Dayu's words are right. Everything under hypnosis is unreliable. If he wants Yanmei to love him, he will love him firmly , he must take the risk to restore her free mind first, and then rebuild her emotions. I agree with Dayu to recognize this truth and change their friendship to normal first. I think Dayu's understanding of Yanmei is not as good as yours in some aspects , and other places are not as good as me." Having said that, it seems that I can't continue.Wu Baosheng has Wu Baosheng's idea.Xiaotong also has a new understanding of Xiaotong.The thoughts of ordinary people are always very chaotic at the beginning.Until he had a chance to reveal it, he suddenly became a system.Even if it comes from my own mouth or pen, it can still make me feel novel.At this time, it takes time to recollect and solidify, to grasp this fleeting inspiration. The two of them have different views on this matter, but one thing is the same, that is, the relationship between Dayu and Lin Yanmei is very abnormal now and they cannot encourage it, otherwise it will not lead to good results. Xiaotong has always been in favor of following nature, and he named nature "God".So he regretted why he was so vulgar and inadvertently forced Dayu to have a chance to talk to Lin Yanmei!This kind of match-making is only harmful. I usually laugh at others for not being ignorant, but today I also committed a crime. After this matter, we can only let nature take its course.凡事皆有它成熟的时机，早不得也晚不得。他和蔺燕梅谈大余的事，是多余的举动。以后决不多事。他想着就定下心来抄那些数目字去了。 伍宝笙还在一边想她的心事。她想小童的话恐怕很有道理。她本来以为大余同蔺燕梅彼此的了解当然要胜过任何别人，那自然是鼓励大余不要灰心。现在大余自己已经失去信仰了。于是她的判断也就错误了。看去真了解她的恐怕还是小童。因为小童的话很中肯近情。说得也简捷了当，不似大余方才那么很乱。 她本来想，如果大余灰心了，她似乎可以不顾对蔺燕梅的诺言，而把她的梦，及梦醒时一句话告诉大余，让他明白一下。但是现在想法不同了。她忽然记起她从天主堂里把蔺燕梅接出来时，蔺燕梅说过，她就是不愿意大余知道这梦。 当然，她那时也许是怕大余会不原谅她，那么徒然把这女孩子的心事泄露出来是很难为情的。而现在她已经由大余那里知道他一切都同情她了，何以她仍旧给他一个钉子碰呢？这时候再鼓励大余，不是故意给蔺燕梅添麻烦吗？所以她仍得代蔺燕梅保守这点秘密，及她对镜子所许的愿，而不能说出口。 她自从把蔺燕梅接回来之后，一切态度皆有一个前提，就是认为蔺燕梅和余孟勤的感情一定要因此亲密起来。没想到完全是另外一回事。那么蔺燕梅心中便有了一部分是她不能了解的了。“可怕！”她想：“这孩子的心事我没有看到。她恐怕是还有那个傻主意在心里。她的阿姨到底见得深些。她若不是心上想去做修女，一了百了，她再不会舍下大余的！她从前那么爱他！” 她想到这里便猝然问小童道：“我昨天让你观察她想做修女的事，你跟她玩了一天，看出什么没有？” 小童抬起头来说：“倒看不出来。她现在心上一点也不糊涂了。很有主意的样子，不过在你告诉我留神这件事以前，我们倒可巧谈到她做修女的这个问题，因为我忍不住要问。” “她怎么说呢？”她忙问。 “她不肯解释。”小童说。 “你早不说！”她大吃了一惊：“我看她又打主意要离开我们了。这就是她不理大余的原故。这么说她这个心一直未死？她当初是认真那么想的？” “我的看法又不一样。”小童说：“我也说不出来。她不一定那么想做修女。她对我说过她的心事不是宗教的，是人生的。” “你的话我也摸不清头脑。我反正是忽然不放心了。”她说。 “我自己也需要多想想。”小童说：“方才我决定以后多用脑，少开口。她的事，需要时间的因素。一切忙不得。我正好有个机会离开学校去大普吉一个礼拜，很可以给我多想想。这样好不好，你这两天多陪陪她？她的阿姨既然托付了你。咱们不能空研究，也要观察一下。” “你什么时候去大普吉？”她说：“要不要咱们现在一块儿先去看看她？” “我想这就走。”他说：“你去看她罢。我一见到她就不免多嘴。你告诉她我去大普吉了。回来给她带点那边园子里的花。” “你跑了一上午的路了，下午又要走这一趟？”她说。她因为很怀疑自己的见解，颇希望小童帮忙。 “还是那句我的口头禅：这一点点路算什么。”小童说。不久他把要抄的数目字抄完了。两个人就走出办公室来。伍宝笙锁了门，看小童走了，自己一路想着，一路走回屋去。 她回到屋里想了一阵子，觉着固然是对蔺燕梅放心不下，可是也没有什么理由去盘问人家心事。既不能说是替大余讨口风，也不能冒冒失失地又问她做修女的事。她既然一直未再提这话，那么除了小童那种脾气，谁也没法开口问。 她只觉得对蔺燕梅有一种无法排解的关怀。自从她一入学，自己便担负起了这个照拂的责任。而为了余孟勤，她又没来由地去奔走。余孟勤现在那个沮丧的样子固然可怜，但是他当初何以那么欺凌人家？当初他完全不顾蔺燕梅有这么一位姐姐，今天为什么跑来向她诉苦？她决定不管余孟勤这一部分案子。 她在屋内闷坐了一会儿，看了几页书。忽然，又感觉一阵不宁。她似乎有去探视她妹妹一下的必要。“看余孟勤烦扰成那副神气，燕梅一定也很遇了一点困难。”她想。 过了一会儿，她心绪更紊乱起来了。她索性看不下书去了。她奇怪为什么一天到晚净是这种多烦忧的恋爱故事？连这么两个出众的角色也不例外？ 她又想自己是个局外人，尚且不快如此。燕梅更不知道多么排解不开了。“就去和她倾心谈谈余孟勤的事有什么要紧？”她想：“我们姐妹俩谈谈，不会被余孟勤知道。省得他以为我在为他出力。” 她看看天色已黑下来了。她可以去找燕梅一同吃晚饭。如果得到机会，她决定要把这个问题问个清楚。 她走出屋来，觉得这晚上要变天。在院里站了一会儿，便又回去取了雨衣。她的雨衣还是那件乳白色敞领大衣式样的，不下雨也可以挡挡寒。她便拿来披在肩上，然后走出院来。 她看了看这件白衣服披在自己肩上，忽然又想到蔺燕梅要做学习修女的事。“这种白的长衣服披在身上是怪美的。”她想：“这个孩子做起事来，也许就是为了这种奇奇妙妙的理由。她为了文学史上一两件美丽的传说便可以做修女。她见了那位可爱的阿姨，也可以做修女。这种事发生在她身上一点也不奇怪。” “那么小童恐怕未见到这一步。”她又恐慌了：“这个孩子的事没定准儿！她阿姨的话，不可不小心。她真要把我难缠死了！我今天找到她便再也不放她。一件件跟她问个清白！有什么话不能问的？” 她想着，已经走进南院。雨也稀稀落落有几点下来了。到了蔺燕梅屋门口，见门锁着。她看天已黑了，大概她们都吃饭去了。自己不如去吃过饭再来。于是翻身出来到文林街上去吃饭。她看看两三家小馆子，都没有梁家姐妹同蔺燕梅的影子，便只得自己把饭吃了。 饭吃过了，外面雨也大了起来。她想是就回去了明天再看燕梅来呢，还是现在再去一趟。她站在饭馆子门口一阵阵被风吹过来的小雨珠扑在脸上凉飕飕儿地，檐下滴水也从石阶上溅起来，打湿了鞋袜。 她想了想：“既然来了，就去找她。万一她们还没有回来，就在她屋门口等她一会儿。今天不知道为什么这么想见她，若是空回去也是无法排遣这个心绪。晚上也没法子睡觉！”主意一定，便迈步走出来，大雨倾在身上。她急忙又跑回南院去了。 门仍是锁着。幸喜等得时间还不长， 梁家姐妹一块回来了。 “怎么，燕梅没在家？让你久等了？”梁崇榕一边开门一边说。 “怎么？燕梅没有跟你们一块出去？”她也惊奇地问：“我在这儿等她一会儿了。今天不知道怎么这么想见她。” 她们三个人进了屋，开了电灯，一边脱雨衣，一边抖去头发上的水。梁崇榕就又说：“奇怪，她会到什么地方去了，崇槐。是不是吃过米线以后一直没看见她？对了，她说是发信去的。” “发信哪发得了这么久？”她妹妹说：“她今天有点怪。宝笙，今天她早上高高兴兴换了衣服，一大早就找小童钓鱼去了。下午我们回来，却看见她一个人在床上哭。” “她哭来着？”伍宝笙说：“我就是为这件事来找她。那时候是不是下午两三点钟的样子？” “你知道的？”梁崇槐说：“小童跟她吵嘴了？” “没有跟小童吵嘴。”伍宝笙说。她不愿意把话岔开讲大余的事。她说：“我光是忽然心上惦记她，忍不住要来看看她。你们说说她的情形，她哭的时候说了些什么来着？” “崇槐。”梁崇榕说：“你觉得怎么样？我看宝笙比我们知道得多些。告诉告诉她看？” “对。”她妹妹就对伍宝笙说：“我们也是一天到晚留心她，可是总看不出个道理来。她近来说话有头无尾的也不止一天了。她心里一定有事，不过我们一点也寻思不出来。” “她今天还有一件事奇怪。”梁崇榕说：“平政街天主堂的危赫澜神甫给她来了一封信。我们问她什么原故，她说不知道。” 伍宝笙这一惊不小，她忙说：“信呢？你们知道是什么信不知道？可不得了！” “真的吗？”她说：“崇槐，你快找找！信我们都看了。只几句话，说明天一早教会里有人去文山，特为通知她，叫她去告诉人。” 梁崇槐已经把信找到。伍宝笙手都抖了，接过来看。她说：“真的！这可要命了！信纸怎么撕成两半了？她不愿意看？” “不是，”梁崇榕说：“那是崇槐以为又是那些男同学的信，两个人一抢，就扯了。” “她愿意看得很呢！”崇槐说：“她倒在床上翻来覆去看了半天。崇榕，她后来问了一句什么话来着？对了，她问那会儿如果要去见教务长，到什么地方去找。” “够了！够了！”伍宝笙说：“还是小童料得对！告诉你们，燕梅一定是去平政街了。她明天一定去文山了！去文山编那个教育部的字典了。” “怎么能？”梁崇榕说：“没有见她说这个？再说也不能铺盖衣裳都不带？” 伍宝笙便看了看她床上，一切整齐如常，不过多着一叠儿衣裳。心上也奇怪，随手把衣裳翻翻，那件绿绸雨衣也在。听听外面雨势正大。便抽出雨衣在手，心上想想她此刻到底在什么地方。又猛见雨衣领上还有已经紫了未洗退的血迹，想起小童描述的她在车上痛哭的情景。这个女儿竟自如此不幸！如此自苦。不觉心酸，真要落泪。 她又忽然想到一件事，便抬头去墙上探望那张合家欢照相中蔺燕梅还在国外的父母。ah!相片取下了！ “燕梅走了！燕梅走了！她真走了！”她惊叫起来，用手直往墙上指点。她又看见桌上一枝铅笔压了一张白纸。心上更想到她走时心意坚决之可怕。她觉得浑身都抖了。梁家姐妹也慌了起来。看了墙上平时挂相片的地方，心上同那墙一样空了一片。 她们忙去搜看蔺燕梅的东西。提包不见了！伍宝笙心跳都停了。再看，盥洗用具，字典，也全不见了。 “她只带这一点点东西！”伍宝笙说；“好心狠的孩子！” “衣服也不够呀。”梁崇榕说。 “衣服？”伍宝笙说着，忙冲到她床前，把床下箱子抽出来一看。一切衣服全叠得好好地满满一箱子。她如突然疯了似的，眼光也散了，她连着说：“完了！完了！这可不得了了！” 她一面披雨衣，一面说：“她那个傻主意又回来了！这些衣服她用不着了呀！大余这个没福气的东西！单单在这时候逼了她一下！我告诉你们，现在她是不是已经进了修道院都说不定！我今天要去拼一下，再耽误不得了。崇槐，把她那件雨衣递给我。我不管，一我要把她硬拖回来！”她说着便往外走。 门一开，“哗！哗！”的雨声马上大起来。一阵急风夹着骤雨迎面吹来。三个人都机伶伶打了个寒噤。 “雨呀！宝笙！”梁崇槐喊。但是伍宝笙已经冲下楼梯去了。耳中只听见她下到院子中第一步便踏在泥上一个水坑里，拍！的一声水声。大雨声里，浓密的树叶下，也听不见她的声音，也看不见她的人影了！ 伍宝笙还没有走出南院操场头发已经被水湿透，雨便顺了脖子往脊背上流。她只有裹紧了领口，仍是赶着走。脚下的水顺了衣裾湿上来，绊着了腿很是走不快。 她到了文林街上，只能看见路灯远远的，一盏一盏在街心里明亮，街上全没有一个行路人。店铺的门口虽冷清清的有些灯光却空自照在店窗外急淌的檐溜上。地上的石板冲洗得白惨惨的，雨点落在街面上的流水中打起水花，喷起小水泡沫。 一路上全没有一处可以躲了雨走，她便只得沿了街边的墙，不管脚下踏在什么垃圾上，往前一步高一步低地抢。 文林街快到小吉坡的地方，路灯特别亮，照见小吉坡弄堂里还洁净些，她便半滑半跑地顺了小吉坡一口气冲到玉龙堆。 这里地势低了，水不但是自每一个坡上流下来，并且还从石板缝里冒上来，她两脚都没在水里，每一步踏下去都把水溅起来冰凉凉地打到膝盖那么高。她等于是淌河那样到了青云街同丁字坡口。 青云街地势更低，一眼看过去，汹汹涌涌，竟起了波涛，她便在大雨中不觉怔住了。呆了一下，她看只有决定不走青云街，就忙忙赶上了丁字坡，这坡口上完全没有灯，路又陡。她一步跨大了，便再也踏不稳，直滑下来。手中抱了蔺燕梅的雨衣，又不能放，便扑地倒了。磕得膝盖腿胫生痛。Pitiful!她哪有心顾到自己，又敏捷地站起来再走，没想到坡边的土崩了一大块，横在路上，她紧跟着又被倒下来的零乱蔓草绊倒，弄得一手一脸的黄泥。 她再扶了地下站了起来，可不敢快走了，一步一步踏了泥土上去，拐过了弯，又有路灯了。逆了下山的水上去，心上恨不得能飞，脚下却快不起来。两个大跤跌得痛澈心脾，再加上着急，不觉热泪直流。泪水，迎了暴急的大雨点，在脸上汇合起来往下淌，把脸上跌跤弄上的黄泥，冲成泥水，滴在雨衣前胸上，黄了一大片，再往下染。 她爬完丁字坡，到了北门街，这里好走了，就咬紧了牙，不顾身上多冷，多痛，极快地赶到了圆通街口。她到了圆通街，心上好过了一点，前面不远便是平政街了。可是她那紧张已经到了极点的神经却又添了个疑团：“如果已经晚了呢？”她不禁祷告出声来：“燕梅！燕梅！你等姐姐一步，你千万等姐姐一步！你这个主意行不得哟！你不是那里边的人呀！”这时雷声在天上隆隆滚滚，也不知道是允许还是拒绝，她不觉又仰首向天祝祷。 迎面有一辆汽车，亮着两只耀眼的灯，轮上“沙！沙！”地溅着水花飞驰过来。大雨映在车灯里一片雪白，斜着一条条，疾刺下来，如锐利发光的无数小匕首尖刀。她被照得眼也花了，便只有躲一躲。她的白雨衣也照得发亮，被风吹得压在胸前，身后的又吹得乱战。她如花的，雪白的脸上，蒙了披散着的黑丝发，发上晶晶的是水珠。 车里坐着两位阔老，中间夹着一位浓妆艳抹的姨太太。三个人都看见伍宝笙。一位阔老说：“这是谁家的女孩子？”另一位说：“蛮年青的呢！”那位姨太大就撅着嘴说：“还漂亮得很呢！”两位听了就大笑起来。车子急驰而过，把路面的水直送到伍宝笙脸上。车中三个人虽然都不便再说什么了，却皆为方才大雨里车灯下，一瞥的女儿身影所喑哑，心上作闷，半晌没有说话。 伍宝笙终于到了平政街了，一个落雷正打在街心，闪电里现出天主堂那个金字黑木牌来，她便直奔过去。门是开着的，她便向里走，闪电之后，一条街的电灯全熄了，她只见教堂那五彩玻璃的长长窗子里，烛光十分明亮。 这正是晚祷的时候，修女们正循了教士的祷词，一递一句地和着。伍宝笙便向教堂跑，她想：“只要到了教堂，便可见到分晓。”她直扑过去，上了石阶，里面唱圣诗了。她站在大门中间，两眼为金紫辉煌的神龛所眩迷，心灵被颂词歌声所拦阻，教堂中的一切，上面拱起的窗框，穹顶，地下跪成一行行的修女同她们的披幕，皆强迫她走不进去，她呆在那里了。 修女们的默祷如低喘，如叹息。修女们的衣服如有千斤重，把她们在地上压成一片，抬不起头来。她们衣饰上那苦十字像，那数珠，在跪下，起来，起来，跪下所发出的窣窣声，都像是站在她与蔺燕梅之间的障物，如石城，如防河，如碉堡，如弓矢，令她不能越过，而蔺燕梅是包围在那禁城之中了。 她既然意识到了这宗教的力量，她便忽然变成斗败了的武士。她方才一度过分紧张的奔驰所致的困倦，便在此刻向她袭来。湿透了的衣衫，冻僵了的肢体，昏眩，疼痛的头脑，一齐迸发，爆裂。她眼前的神龛，烛火，道袍，石柱，一切一切，开始不稳定，开始要动，要旋转了。她想要闭上眼，其实她在寻到蔺燕梅之前，是不肯闭上眼的。但是她实在很难再支持了。她倚了门柱，身子矮下来，往下溜。 这时，修女们都已就坐。上面披了白衣，身前身后绣了红底金十字的主教正从讲经台上走下来。她一眼看见教堂当中走道上出现了两个行动的身影。两个身影厮并着走向前去。一个没有穿道袍！ “燕梅！”她想，她脱口喊出了。她挣扎起最后一点气力，她像从血管中挤出最后一滴血那样；从喉咙中进出她这一个最亲爱的名字。她喊：“燕梅！燕梅你回来呀！” 她的生命，期望，热诚，似乎都随了这一声喊飞出了她的身壳奔向前去，追上她的燕梅，而把她的身体无足轻重地遗留在后面。于是她那倚在门框上的身肢，便如突然被抽去了骨骼，软痪地滑在地上，无声息，无生命的了。 教堂中的安静当然受了打扰，但是由于她声音之清越、圣洁，又令修女们，连主教在内，并不觉得陌生，而只感到关怀。 她昏过去不知多久，才微微醒转来，她是被燕梅的阿姨从身后抱着，还是坐在教堂门口地下，前面是蔺燕梅满脸泪水跪在地上看了她哭。她此刻觉得自己体气是真虚弱到了极点了，这雨水，这寒冷，方才来时一路上全然不顾的，现在真正征服了她。但是她心头尚有一口气，她一定要再进一步，然后才容自己昏厥过去，不打算再醒转来。 她颤巍巍地举起手中紧紧抓着的雨衣，对蔺燕梅说：“雨衣！喏，燕梅，跟姐姐回去！燕梅，咱们回去！”说完真的又昏过去了。 身背后的阿姨悲怆得扶她不住，把脸伏在她肩上哭。四围站着的修女也索性哭出声来了，蔺燕梅抓紧了她冰凉的两手贴在自己脸上，哭倒在她怀里，她如失去神志那样哭喊。“带来了雨衣！啊！姐姐！我的好姐姐啊！” 站在这个眼泪圈儿外边的丁主教，稳住了他那特别高大的身躯，闭上了那特别有深思的双眼，心中默想：“这蔺燕梅还是一个血色鲜丽的人间儿女，不是将要从我手中接取学习修道的白色面幕的人啊！她的监誓保护人，也只有这个招呼她回去的姐姐有资格做！”他想着便没有说什么，只令几位修女好好招呼着把伍宝笙送到寝室去安息。晚祷之后本该是蔺燕梅受幕的仪式的。现在就当然是散了。 外面的雨淅淅沥沥地下了一夜，在屋中，蔺燕梅同她的阿姨守着伍宝笙也絮絮软软地谈了一夜。蔺燕梅打定主意做修女，去文山县天主堂中一边学习一边作工作的心，本来如渐渐吹胀了的一个气球，一下午，晚上已经胀到极点不由自己再想其他的事了。这时听到了伍宝笙一声“回来罢！”的呼唤，便如刺进了一枚尖锐的针，炸碎了。 她披心沥胆地对她的好姐姐诉出心底蕴结不解的心事，她天明之后是一定要走的了，这眼前每一分钟都要用来作向姐姐报答厚爱之用。她再没有一句不能告诉姐姐的话。伍宝笙希望听她谈大余，她却谈小童。从她的话里，很可听出来，大余对她是惊羡，小童对她是亲爱。她说：“你看，姐姐，我的事情他关怀得很，我的心境，他明白得到家，最叫我感动的是我几次心情激动不能支持的时候，当时总得他宽解，事后他又都一桩桩地，清楚记在心上。他是个令人觉得亲爱，了解的温和角色，你说是不是？” 最后她说：“姐姐，人生实在甜蜜，又实在可怕！美丽的景物，常常令人心疼地就忽然幻灭了。小童真是个好孩子，我爱他，可是我不敢多见他，我要快走。我走了他当然想我，可是去作点可以传得久远的事，是他赞成的。他又说过，大家都会修养自己的话，分别了，相忆起来，也是含笑地。让他含笑地想着我罢，他又说过一切感情的事都需要时间的，让我躲开，给他一点时间，等到他懂得我的情感时，姐姐，你叫他来找我。这一点点路在他不算什么的。”这几个“他”，她说得好亲切，又好得意哟！ 伍宝笙把她抱在胸前，听她说。自己两眼看了逐渐发白的窗口，天快亮了，雨快晴了。 蔺燕梅又说。“昆明的情形大复杂了。姐姐，大余既去找过你，你当然知道了。现在，走到这一步，天明之后，昆明我更没有法子呆下去。一切的事托给你。姐姐放我走了罢？” 伍宝笙捧起她的脸来端详了一阵，说：“姐姐过后把你的衣服给你寄去。你今天带了这件雨衣走，就算是答应了姐姐不再起心改装了。答应么？” 蔺燕梅感激得紧紧伏在伍宝笙的身上，她们慢慢地疲乏了起来，正想睡去，但是时候已经到了。阿姨便不准伍宝笙送她上车，只自己帮着蔺燕梅整顿好，送了她同那些教堂中人去火车站。回来之后下午才把伍宝笙送回学校去。蔺燕梅那时候在滇越路车上，顺了红河上游的峡谷南下，不知已经到多远的地方了。