Chapter 28 Bian Yinyu said: My name will be "Bian Mi" from now on (1)

How is Bian Yinyu, the younger sister who has a similar temperament to Bian Yin since she was a child, and how is she doing after living in Shanghai? Bian Yinyu's relatives in Shanghai are only her grandmother and uncle.Bian Yinyu's grandfather died of cancer before Bian Yinyu settled in Shanghai.Bian Yinyu's uncle is nearly ten years younger than her sister Ye Xiuzhu. He graduated from junior high school in the class of 1969. He did not go to high school. He went to the Jiangxi countryside to join the team for three years. He returned to the city due to illness and worked in a children's toy factory.The factory is unable to allocate housing for him, and he lives with his parents just like before.Their home is in Zhabei District, which is known as a "slum area". The house is a "Shikumen"-like attic on the street, and the upper and lower floors have a total area of ​​less than 15 square meters.When there were only Bian Yinyu's uncle and grandparents, they lived relatively spaciously compared with the surrounding houses. Many families had five or six people living in one attic.Later, Bian Yinyu's uncle married a wife, but her uncle's original single bed was replaced by a double bed, and the room was not too crowded.After Bian Yinyu's grandfather passed away, they went back to living with three people and returned to "Spacious".Soon Bian Yinyu's aunt gave birth to a boy, her cousin.In the first two years, my cousin was young and could live with his parents.But it is not easy for my cousin to live with his parents when he grows up to the age where he can speak and see things, so he will live with his grandmother first.It was a passable stay.When my cousin was four years old, he was not asked to live with his grandmother, but a small single bed was built for him, and a floral curtain was drawn between him and his grandmother.There are two people living upstairs and downstairs, which is still manageable.After Bian Yinyu joined, it became crowded.They rearranged the living pattern.It turned out that grandma lived downstairs with her cousin. After Bian Yinyu came, she asked grandma to take her cousin to live upstairs with her.Because of the limited space upstairs and the limited load-bearing of wooden floor partitions, the furniture and most household items are placed downstairs, while the upstairs is relatively spacious.Upstairs, Bian Yinyu and grandma's beds were joined together, as if they lived in the same bed. Before going to bed every night, a thick dark gray curtain was drawn between them and Bian Yinyu's cousin.It doesn't look crowded, but it is a bit awkward and inconvenient.

Bian Yinyu first came to Shanghai to live in such a small and dark attic. Although she was not used to it, she found it curious and fresh.Facing the street is to be in the middle of the bustle, and the mood is lively; taking off your shoes and climbing up and down the wooden stairs in the attic every day is as interesting as a game; the attic is low, jumping up, and your head will almost hit The ceiling felt like a giant; the attic was dark, a bit like a mysterious maze in a fairy tale, where she played with her classmates or cousins, as if isolated from the outside world.Afterwards, I became accustomed to living in the attic, and felt nothing bad or good about it.Bian Yinyu's primary school is an elementary school in Zhabei District. Almost all her classmates live in Zhabei District. Many people in Zhabei District live in such attic houses, and no one will look down on others among their classmates.

In the first few years of her arrival in Shanghai, Bian Yinyu was still young and a little overjoyed. She was new to Shanghai, and she liked Shanghai. The shops in Shanghai were dense, busy with traffic, and the flow of people flowed through them. Proud and honorable.She brought the glory and pride of Shanghai to Lanzhou. Compared with Shanghai, Lanzhou looks so deserted, remote and rustic!Every time she returns to Lanzhou, she always shows off to her sister and neighbors the various aspects of Shanghai, such as the old and new buildings, the dense commercial scene in the bustling area, the grandeur of the Bund, the stalls in the Yuyuan Garden, and all over the street. The large and small shops, all kinds of snacks, the attic houses all over the street, the messy corners, the narrow and crowded alleys, and the pieces of clothing that can be seen flying like flags in each attic house every day, In her mouth, they are uniformly praised as a class of prosperity, regardless of priority, high or low.That's what she saw in her eyes too, all of them combined together constitute a gathering, it's like a grand gathering composed of crowds of people, there is enough excitement, no matter what kind of people it is composed of.Speaking of it, Bian Yinyu was very proud of being able to stand in the middle of the crowd.She is not ashamed of living in the "slums" of Zhabei District, nor is she ashamed of living in an attic.In her eyes, Zhabei District and the lofts are another kind of prosperity in Shanghai.

Before the third grade of junior high school, Bian Yinyu basically had no ideals.Ideal is what to do in the future.She feels that the future is still quite far away, and she will talk about it when she gets to her.However, as her cousin Bian Yinxi from Lanzhou became famous, she set up an ideal among her classmates who flattered her in every possible way.At the same time, she understood vanity, and there was sorrow behind her. Whenever Bian Yinyu got off the bus and approached her grandmother's attic house step by step, the surrounding poverty and the poverty of her grandmother's house would make her feel proud at school. In an instant, I fell into a disappointment.She thought: This is where the star's relatives live!Where is this place that produces stars!Loss is also a kind of motivation, and she has a stronger ideal.

Once the dream of being an actor to become a star was established, Bian Yinyu's mind sank into daydreams about the future from time to time, and whether she attended classes or not did not affect her.In her mind, she would imagine many roles and let her play them. Often, once she entered the fantasy, her thinking would be hard to stop, and she would run wild.She didn't care if it affected her lectures. She still thought, anyway, she will be an actor in the future, and her current imagination is laying the foundation for becoming an actor.It is inevitable to often imagine that it will affect learning.During the examination review, her academic performance dropped significantly.She still didn't care, she pestered her uncle and told her not to tell her mother when she wrote the letter.Uncle is a wimpy person who is a bit like his father, and he couldn't help Bian Yinyu's pleadings, and said to Bian Yinyu solemnly, "It's okay not to tell, but you must try to catch up, otherwise you won't pass the high school exam, and you can't hide it even if you want to." of.Bian Yinyu said disdainfully, don't worry, the high school entrance examination is still a piece of cake for her, it will definitely not be a problem.

It was not a problem but it became a problem in the end. Bian Yinyu failed the senior high school entrance examination by three points.This result made her dumbfounded. She didn't condemn herself, but she was a little resentful. What she hated was the score line. She felt that she was really wronged, and she was only three points short.This fact has to be made public to Lanzhou's parents.Mother's letter was also full of resentment, hating her for not living up to expectations, and worrying about her future prospects, saying that she couldn't even pass the high school entrance examination, how could she cope with the college entrance examination in the future?If she knew that she was so unmotivated, she might as well have asked her sister Bian Yin to return to Shanghai.Along the way, I praised Bian Yin, saying that Bian Yin is active and able to learn, which is much better than her; if Bian Yin went to Shanghai instead, he might be able to be admitted to a key university, saying that Bian Yinyu is It is a waste of teaching quality in Shanghai which is better than Lanzhou.At that time, Bian Yin was already a sophomore in college.

The mother's condemnation stimulated Bian Yinyu, she put all her strength in her heart, and she put all the weight of striving for success on the road of becoming an actress and becoming a star.She vaguely remembers that when she was four years old, the whole family ate a "celebration meal" specially for her cousin to become an actress.Being an actor is a glorious thing, and it was remembered at that time.As an actress, she should show her mother well.She wrote a long letter to her cousin who had just been transferred to Beijing, pouring out her ardent wishes, hoping that her cousin could help her realize her wish immediately.Since she was a child, she understood the importance of going through the back door. She simply thought that as long as her cousin was willing to help her, she could easily become an actress.She also happily fantasizes that when she becomes an actress, she doesn't have to go to school; studying is tiring and bitter.

My cousin wrote back soon.But Bian Yinyu's joy soon faded.The cousin said in the letter that unlike before, theater troupes and film studios seldom openly recruit actors on their own. Actors are generally assigned by graduates from various art schools. The only way to become an actor is to take the performance department of art schools. If she wants to apply for the exam, she has to wait until she graduates from high school.He also said that it was still early, so she should study hard first.If she really likes acting and has the qualifications to be an actor, then she will consider helping her.To be an actor, you have to take exams, and you have to wait until you graduate from high school. Bian Yinyu felt a little bit cold, but it passed quickly. If you don’t change your ideals, you think that you should study hard, and you must go to high school next year. After graduating from high school, you will go to the actor exam .

Bian Yinyu's secondary school was not in the original middle school, and she asked to change it. There was no other reason, and she felt that she lost face.She was like his uncle's baton. After telling him to run around for a while, she finally got in touch with a better middle school not too far from home.Bian Yinyu's brain is not stupid. If she gets rid of selfish distractions and puts her energy into her studies, her grades will improve. She can't be top-notch, but she can be ranked in the middle and upper reaches.High school is successfully admitted.In the first and second grades of high school, Bian Yinyu played and studied, but she didn't think much about the future. In the third year of high school, she was divided into arts and sciences, and the future was not far away, and Bian Yinyu's dream of being an actor was not far away.At this time, she thought she should learn about the acting department first.Nearby, she went to the Shanghai Theater Academy. Before entering the school, she clearly felt that the students coming in and out here were all extraordinary, proud, free and easy, and confident; their clothes were also different from the norms of normal people, with distinctive characteristics , each with its own style, there are often very beautiful girls and handsome boys flashing in the middle, catching people's attention, which is rare in the crowd.This, she thought, is a place where the best of faces is gathered, as extraordinary as art.Her desire to be a member here is even stronger.She has a celebrity cousin behind her and the confidence of her natural appearance. She asks the students on campus about the admissions of the acting department as if asking for directions without any fear.When chatting, she would always bring out her cousin Bian Yinhe, which immediately shortened the distance between them. They put on airs of arrogance, and treated her as a friend with a sincere, patient and meticulous attitude.It was easy for her to understand the situation.As for the professional exams, although she still has no foundation in all aspects, she is not afraid. She has courage and flexibility, and she believes that she can master it by grinding her gun before the battle; if she can't master it, her cousin will help her.Because in the chat with others, some students easily said, "You have the star Bian Yinhe, what are you afraid of?", you can hear the implication.What also made her happy was that for cultural courses, the admission scores of art colleges were lower than those of ordinary colleges, so that was the least of her worries.

During the winter break in the first half of the third year of senior high school, Bian Yinyu wrote to her cousin Bian Yinyu about her thoughts and preparations, and it all depended on her suggestions and arrangements. "Arrangement" is to let her go through the back door.What she never expected was that the cousin wrote back to her and said that she couldn't help her. There was a good reason why Bian Yinyu didn't help, that is, Bian Yinyu was only 1.61 meters tall, which was not enough for girls in the acting department to ask for 1 meter. Sixty-five or more application standards.In addition, last year, their cousin Bian Xiaoyu was admitted to the acting department of the Film Academy through her guidance and help (this is a later story), but fortunately Bian Xiaoyu's own conditions are excellent, so people can't say anything; and Bian Yinyu's height After all, she didn't meet the requirements for applying for the exam, so forcing her to "help" in would give people a good reason to discuss it.She persuaded Bian Yinyu to give up, and said that acting is a career with brutal competition, and it is not as beautiful as she thought. After all, there are only a few people who become famous.She studies hard, and in the future she will be admitted to a good university and study a good major. In fact, her prospects are greater than being an actress.

The cousin's attitude made Bian Yinyu disappointed and resentful. She felt that there was no reason for it, because the cousin didn't want to help her at all.It all boiled down to the fact that I took root in Shanghai prematurely and alienated my cousin.Thinking of Bian Xiaoyu, who is one and a half years younger than her, but graduated from high school a year before her, she hated herself a little. If she hadn't repeated her studies, she would have graduated from high school in the same year as Bian Xiaoyu, and they still had a chance of "fair competition" She also hates her height. Lanzhou's sister Bian Yin grew to 1.69 meters when she graduated from high school. Why can't she grow taller?Thinking about it, she realized that it was the reason why she lived in Shanghai; one side supports the other, and southerners are generally short, so her height must have been changed by Shanghai.She regretted being a native of Shanghai. Since she couldn't get help from her cousin, Bian Yinyu lost the courage to apply for the exam. She was not tall enough, and she had no professional training, so she didn't have the confidence to try her luck.This incident stimulated her, she thought ambitiously, if she is not an actress, she also has to stand out; in any aspect, she has no direction, she feels that the prospects are boundless, and she can be easily grasped.The immediate thing is to pass the college entrance examination first. Bian Yinyu did not do well in the college entrance examination. Her score was just enough for the second batch of undergraduate admissions. The score is just a minimum, which is for those unpopular schools and unpopular majors. Ordinary schools, the admission standards are far away. above the score line.It was impossible for Bian Yinyu to fill in the unpopular majors of unpopular schools, but as a result, none of the volunteers she applied for were admitted.Only to go to college.Originally, Bian Yinyu didn't want to go to college. She thought that she came to Shanghai where everything was better than Lanzhou. No matter what, she had to surpass her sister.If you don't go to junior college, you have to study for a year.She didn't want to take tutoring either. After taking tutoring once, she was older than the students of the same class. If she took tutoring again, she would become a veritable older youth among the students of the same class. "Old age" is always associated with "clumsy".These are just non-essential reasons, the main one is that she is already tired of the middle school life without autonomy, and wants to become independent and free earlier, and develop towards the goal of getting ahead. In college, although Bian Yinyu was also pretty, she was not like her elder sister Bian Yin, who was called "the flower" in school. In a city like Shanghai, there are many handsome faces brought up in the south in the school. She is one of them. It doesn't show mountains and dews anymore.This is not the main reason, the main thing is that Bian Yinyu does not have the demeanor of her sister, and her height is not as tall as her sister, which is a disadvantage, and she does not have the "dancing" nature, nor the arrogance of her sister's "dancing".Don't underestimate dancing, it can adjust the temperament of the whole body. After a long period of time, the momentum will be condensed on the face, which is extraordinary.In addition, her activity is somewhat different from that of her elder sister. Bian Yin always has an acting temperament, and the refined feeling makes people look attractive; Bian Yinyu is life-oriented and appears trivial and rough, but her true nature lacks attraction. Powerful.She did not have the prominence and "fire" of her elder sister, so she was not promoted like her elder sister. During the three years in school, she was active as she should be, playing with her classmates and making trouble, but she was not a romantic person. spend. Bian Yinyu's major is secretarial, which is an emerging practical and popular major.When Bian Yinyu applied for this major, she didn't think much about it at the time, but just wanted to choose the best major to fill in the report.After studying this major, she will have a direction. After graduation, she will go to a big company and work as a secretary for the big boss. In her mind, the secretary is the release and executor of the boss's rights, and her natural status is the highest.In fact, her wish is also the wish of most female students. Graduation assignments are a two-way option.In order to have a good place to go, many students started to get busy and contact the unit before graduation.Bian Yinyu's uncle has no status, and his energy in this area is pitifully small, so Bian Yinyu ran to contact her.The door-to-door contacts she made were all big companies, which she picked out through newspaper advertisements or searches in Shanghai's telephone register.After visiting the door, I found that some companies can be called big, and some companies are not the facades they imagined.Naturally, it can only be considered if it is decent.She is beautiful and can speak, and soon she was favored by several big companies, and Bian Yinyu chose a joint venture trading company.The company is located in a four-star office building. In this era, the strength of such a company is genuine. The company is magnificent, but the boss looks the opposite. He is a thin and short man in his fifties, with dark skin and rosy skin, large sweat pores, and spots of acne scars on his cheeks and chin. He looks tired; the boss said The heavily accented Shanghainese, if you talk to customers from other places, Mandarin is also mixed with a Shanghai accent; when you smile, you will have distinct wrinkles on your cheeks and forehead.It is difficult for Bian Yinyu, who once dreamed of being an actor, to work as a secretary for such an unsightly person.This is a trivial matter, but what makes her sick is that the boss always wants to touch her and touch her inadvertently. There is no bold action and a clear purpose, but he keeps taking advantage of it.Bian Yinyu couldn't bear it anymore, so she contacted another unit in private, saying that she would be transferred.The boss did not let go, so Bian Yinyu resigned. A month later, Bian Yinyu found a job. A classmate introduced her to a magazine called "Times and Life". "Times Life" is a large-scale comprehensive monthly magazine. It has just been published, and its content is complex and extensive, involving culture, art, film and television, sports, science, business, finance, law and other fields.Bian Yinyu didn't go to work as a secretary, but as an editor for the film and television section.The reason why she is called in the film and television section is because she has a cousin Bian Yinxi who is a star, and she thinks it is convenient for her to contact and interview film and television stars.Otherwise, I'm afraid she won't be able to get in. All of them here require a bachelor's degree or above in a related major and relevant work experience.Bian Yinyu has no experience in editing work, so he can only apply what he has learned.Bian Yinyu is new to editing work, and is also interested in trying, and wants to gain a foothold in the magazine with her own efforts. But after work, many things are not as easy as Bian Yinyu thought.The magazine has a lot of talents, good majors, and accumulated legacy of relationships and years of accumulation. Those who have these capitals are lined up and can't use them. How can it be her turn to be promoted?Shanghai is a utilitarian and pragmatic city, and the people in the city are also utilitarian and pragmatic. They use people who are useful and capable. As much energy as you have, they will allocate as much space and location for you to use; they are very Being stingy will not give you a little extra reward in vain.One is one, two is two, absolutely unambiguous.Bian Yinyu's capital is actually owned by her cousin Bian Yinkai. She is just close to the water, what else does she have?She is just a tool, only to be used, not valued.Her whole day is to perform tasks and complete tasks; perform again, complete again, and repeat forever. It is the same, monotonous, and it is difficult to have signs and symptoms of jumping here.This is not a problem that can be solved by hard work, but a matter of increasing energy.Energy needs to be accumulated separately, how can it be so good to surpass the current level?In this way, her depression accumulated everywhere. The magazine office is facing the Huangpu River. Through the window, you can see a corner of the Huangpu River from the gaps in the buildings behind it. The whistle of the ferry rises and falls from time to time. It is to make people imagine.The metropolis' new, prosperous expanse seems to stretch beyond bounds.Every time when standing in front of the window and feeling like this, Bian Yinyu wondered when would the time for her enlargement be? The magazine office is located in the north of Nancheng District. From Zhabei District to the magazine office, the spatial distance is actually a relatively short distance, but it has to pass through the bustling Tibet Road and Nanjing Road. Most of the routes passed are in downtown areas, so Bian Yinyu The commute to and from get off work takes about two hours.Day after day, people are swaying in the bus every day, eyes walking through the bustling scene, watching the dense and turbulent flow of people along the way, the car is crowded with people of all colors, they are tired, numb, cold, Bian Yinyu She couldn't cheer up, she thought how small she was, how mediocre and how popular she was, and she felt very poor.Thoughts surged, thinking that she was still living in a pitifully small attic in this prosperous city, her vision of the future was like a gloomy attic, with little light at dawn.She thought, when will the scene of getting ahead come? Bian Yinyu's idea of ​​getting ahead is to be as dazzling and eye-catching as the brilliant buildings she sees rising from the ground every day.Going to work year after year made her see the reality, unlike before, it was just a hazy imagination.She thought that just being an editor was a far cry from the success she wanted.Even if he gained a firm position in the magazine and was promoted, he would not be able to stand out.Unless she became the president, which is still a bit reliable, then it is very unlikely that she will survive until she dies.If she wants to realize her expectations, she must take a path that is both possible and effective.To stand out is actually to be a superior person, which is nothing more than reflected in status, honor and money.She has insufficient background and insufficient ability, and it is impossible to develop slowly.Honor is earned through hard work, achievements, and brilliance. She cannot achieve the former two; as for the latter, if she is an actress like her cousin Bian Yinxie and has a chance to become famous, she can become brilliant. In this regard, she has no possibility, so she can't count on it.The only thing she can count on now is to take the road of money. This is a market economy, and money has become a status symbol and a status symbol day by day, where the glory of being rich is placed there.Earning money is free, she is going to earn money.In order to make money, Bian Yinyu chose to work as a medical representative in a pharmaceutical company.It is heard that medical representatives can earn high commissions.Bian Yinyu thought, with her eloquent ability, she should have a try in this respect. The pharmaceutical company is located in Hongkou District. It was originally very close to the home of Bian Yinyu's grandmother in Zhabei District, and it was only a few stops away by bus.But as if deliberately playing tricks on Bian Yinyu, more than a month after she went to the pharmaceutical company, her grandmother's house was used as a demolition household and moved to a new residential village in the Liuliqiao area of ​​Pudong.It is good to move into a spacious new house, but Bian Yinyu suffers, and it still takes more than two hours to go back and forth every day. The bus that Bian Yinyu takes every day crosses the Nanpu Bridge, along Zhongshan Road, and passes by the Bund stretching on the Huangpu River. You can see the tall buildings there, the sparkling Huangpu River, and the green trees on the bank. Couples of men and women in love and piles of people in clusters.If it is dark, it will be a luxurious stage in a mottled and colorful big world under the radiance of lights and shadows.In short, prosperity and grandeur are scenes that cannot be shaken off every day; standing in this scene, as long as you feel it, you can't help but strive hard to match the gorgeous city. Shanghai is a city that can cultivate vanity.The material she possesses is a vast ocean, immersed in this vast ocean, you can't see the exit, you can't find the entrance.You can only wander here vaguely, from one end to the other, never repeating to one position; repetition is the past, once gone, it will never return.Money is like grains of sand, no matter how much money is put into this sea, it will disappear without a trace. Being a medical representative is indeed lucrative. Bian Yinyu worked hard. At her peak, she could earn nearly 20,000 yuan a month, catching up with senior white-collar workers!Everyone in Shanghai is vain, you can talk about your ability as much as you have; ability is to be displayed and let people see.The envy and praise you attract is the ultimate goal, so the psychology is balanced.When she is rich, Bian Yinyu's skin care products and cosmetic products are gradually updated with high-end imported brands; she wears high-end clothing; Wear platinum and diamond jewellery; authentic famous brand French perfume is sprayed on the clothes.In addition to work needs, these outfits should be shown to friends, colleagues and classmates to make them envious and jealous is the ultimate goal.In addition, social life is indispensable.In gatherings with friends, go to eat high-grade Chinese food, enjoy authentic Western food, and go to famous bars for entertainment.As long as it is the fashionable consumption enjoyment of this group of fashionable young people, Bian Yinyu will try her best to be at the forefront and keep up with the pace.To be such a lady, you must prepare a sum of communication expenses at hand.Men in the city of Shanghai seem to speak softly to women, and their voices are as weak as their voices when they invite ladies, which is linked to their idea of ​​equality between men and women.Therefore, in front of a Shanghai man who is not your husband, you should not expect the man to pay for it.It takes turns to pay the bill, and it's the woman's turn to pay the bill. The men are not polite, and the women are also unambiguous; this is the demeanor of Shanghai ladies, and it is also the demeanor of Shanghai men. Look at how much money is needed for everything. This is just the most basic requirement for arming one's personal needs. If you want to improve, the temptation will shock your soul.What one expects is wealth and splendor. As long as one is in the ocean of material things, it is not an exaggeration to think of owning anything.If you can get what you expect, that is the life of a master.Touching deeply, Bian Yinyu realized that she was still infinitely far away from her dream, and the money the medical representative could earn was just to maintain her superficial "food and clothing".The prospect of going on like this is not great, she has to think about finding another way.She is smart, she won't throw away her job and go looking for it specially.While continuing to be a medical representative, she waited for the opportunity to leave. Soon, a female colleague of Bian Yinyu's former "Times and Life" magazine quickly became famous because of a novel.That young woman joined the magazine a few months earlier than Bian Yinyu, half a year younger than Bian Yinyu, and she did not come from learning Chinese.She is in the culture section, just like Bian Yinyu, just an ordinary editor.When Bian Yinyu left, the young woman was still working hard at the magazine.In less than two years, she has become famous, which is unbelievable.The young woman in the book did not use her real name, but took the pseudonym "Yinyin", but with her photo and profile, Bian Yinyu knew it was her without even thinking about it.The name of the book is "Mirror Ceiling", which describes private life, because the mirror ceiling is in the bedroom, the things on the bed, whether alone or together, are all seen by the mirror ceiling.It's an alluring scene, one that's supposed to come from prying eyes, and now that the doors are wide open, who wouldn't want to enjoy it?Originally, what I read from the book was obviously a naked fantasy of sex and other presentation scenes, and it was difficult to figure out other connotations. However, the newspapers and the Internet ushered in the voices of propaganda from all directions. Those who do not know whether they are real critics The commentators used words such as "masculinity, feminism, depression, struggle, subconsciousness, pain, cry, confusion, release, subversion, awakening" to advertise the novel in a high-profile manner. "Mirror Ceiling" was staged grandiosely and sold well. Readers calm down after being stimulated by the senses. Maybe some people who are not willing to be left behind will seriously look for those profound concepts and explore them. Profoundness is a fashion. Even if you see a glass of plain water, you must think about it , You have to think deeply, you have to tell the imagination and guessing that only a color-blind person can have, and you have to say that boiled water is colorful; only then can you prove how broad your ability to think and explore is.This is your brilliance and your profundity.But Bian Yinyu is disdainful, she knows that this is actually very simple, it is a commercial behavior and hype method designed for the market, she has worked in the magazine for more than three years, and she is very familiar with such things well aware.Moreover, in the city of Shanghai, in order to achieve the vanity of expectations, there is no bottom line for human courage. Long before the young women, there have been a few young female authors who have succeeded in lining up. Written with secret and true wishes, it is bold and forthright, causing an uproar. The functions of "uproar" and "applause" are actually the same, both can cause a sensational effect; this is the information age, and sensation means rolling in money.In the end, the women authors, both themselves and the publisher, were rich and famous.They are either professional or amateur; either they were born and raised in Shanghai, or they were rooted in other places and then settled in Shanghai. Anyway, they took off from Shanghai, so they are all called Shanghai.I don't know if they are borrowing Shanghai's light, or they are adding to Shanghai's glory.No matter what, Bian Yinyu knew about them before, but there was no disturbance in her heart. She had nothing to do with them, and their success had a distant influence on her.But it was different when such a person came out beside her, which stimulated her and reminded her. "Yinyin" can do it, so can she.She has studied secretarial work and practiced writing; she has worked as an editor and deals with writing all day long, so coding is not a problem.Her eyes lit up. Before going into battle, Bian Yinyu carefully studied the possibility of her own success. First of all, there are two most valuable points in her. One is that she has a celebrity cousin; The faces of the authors are several times better, both of them are such good hype points!Good "point", but also a reminder of her disadvantage, that is her name. The combination of "Yinyu" is a common name, and she must choose an alternative name and put it in the book.The change must be thorough, and it cannot be replaced by a pseudonym.She felt that the pseudonym was another person. If she became famous, she would not enjoy it enough.If you want to be famous, you have to be completely yourself.The name she recalled must not only be unique, but also have a "symbolic" sense of memory.She racked her brains to choose countless combinations, but in the end it was the "rice" that she ate every day that inspired her, and she chose "Bian rice".This name is concise, distinctive, and unique. It reads and looks unique, but it is easy to remember.She changed it as she said, found someone, spent money, and quickly went to the police station to change it.Bian Mi's uncle didn't appreciate the name "Bian Mi", saying that it was easy to be called "constipation".Bian Mi laughed at his uncle for not being appreciative and uneducated. "Constipation" is actually not "bian mi" but "bian bi". After changing her name, Bian Mi excitedly notified her family in Lanzhou and all her classmates and friends in Shanghai. The first sentence she opened her mouth was: I want to tell you an important news. My name will be "Bian Mi" from now on!Everyone asked why she changed her name?Bian Mi said in an exaggerated tone: Because, a new era is coming!After further questioning, Bian Mi became mysterious and said, "Let's wait and see later." Now that the hardware is ready, it's time to consider the software.Then Bian Mi studied the book market carefully.Excluding famous writers, the best-selling novels are written by young authors, especially female authors.The content written in the book is nothing more than two kinds, one is about the body, and there is a description of private life, the yin and yin "Mirror Ceiling" is a typical example; the other is about the soul, as long as you pour out the truth of your heart Feeling is enough, all you talk about is to write your own thoughts, worries, loves and wishes, so that readers can reach a telepathic connection with you.This kind of writing does not require a wonderful storyline and the spirit of the theme, as long as you express it to your heart's content, and say whatever you want, it doesn't matter if it is fragmented or broken; this aspect does not seem to be skillful, but it must be particular , we must make use of the most fashionable elements in the contemporary world, such as eating, drinking, wearing, using, wearing, playing, concepts, character, taste, etc., all of which are indispensable; and profound, the farther the human spiritual world is from the normal, the better. .Bian Mi is keen on secular life, and she will not reach that spiritual state; she has not thought about the soul, so she can't write about the soul, she can only take the road of body writing.But Bian Mi wants to open up a new way of presentation, which is to change the soup without changing the medicine, and must add new things in it, which can catch people's attention. Without much trouble, she had an idea.She was going to write about sex moods.She can find elements from various books that research and discuss sex, and then use her own feelings and imaginations to process them as if she is talking about her own words. This is something that can definitely attract the interest of others; The people in the photography company personally took some photos that matched the content of the book. In the photos, she had to be more exposed, her body had to achieve a hazy effect of wanting to be nude, and her expression had to enter various desires for "eroticism". state.This is nothing special, what's more, she still needs a man to cooperate with the "performance", which is easy to handle, she just needs to pay for a handsome male model.The investment is worth it.This idea made her proud and excited, she thought, this should be a unique novelty and stimulation for readers.The title of the book should be "Sex Photo". What is Byun Mi's own sex like?It should be said that only with love can there be sex, so we have to turn back to love. Love is not exactly love, but it includes love.Since graduating from university, when it comes to love, Bian Mi has never had it, because she has never fallen in love with any boyfriend consensually.都是一厢情愿或两厢无意，却也要凑合将就着走一段，根据形势的发展，因情而定。他们总的是奔情而去，奔情交往，也是能称作情爱的，姑且也能称之为恋爱吧。卞米上大学以来不乏恋爱，在她的恋爱中，都是她或对方，一方情愿促成的，将就着或为打发孤独，或为尝试，或为试验，或为寻找，或几种心理都有的。当时抱的想法就是顺其自然，发展成什么样就是什么样。但往往最后的结果，将就哪方或应付哪方，总是有一方不能进入“情境”或者满意，就分手了。这样的体验，卞米经历了七八场。每一次，大家都是要走入最深入的检测的，所以都会放开。这不仅是一种潮流和时髦的行为，也是当代恋爱中非常实用的考察手段，卞米当然不会落伍的。到了她准备身体写作的时候，她依然是只有性爱而没有过爱情的。没有爱人约束，她怕什么呢，尽管放开胆量好了。只要有性爱，有没有爱情无所谓，是不妨碍她写性爱的。 写作用了四个月的时间，文字不到十万字；拍照片是花了三千多块钱，其中请男模特花了一千五百元，照了两卷胶卷。照片多数是达到了她的要求。卞米挑出了三十张满意的，其中有十二张是她和男模特“演”出的暧昧姿态。当她把书稿和照片交到出版商的手中并介绍了自己的情况时，出版商的眼睛立即放出了光芒，笑着咧开嘴说：这书准能热卖。卞米喜悦地想，她的新时代就要来了。 三个月后，卞米的《性爱写真》就出版了。为吸引读者，书的封面上端，写了一行醒目的提示：一个美女的性爱经历——明星卞银薿的堂妹卞米，真诚向你说性爱。书印得还算精致，有她艳情的照片和精心挑选的文字，加上卞米是明星卞银薿的堂妹，读者是太有兴趣去看看卞米有过怎样的性爱遭际了。书一上市，果然热卖。一个月的时间就卖了十多万册。卞米和书商立即就赚了一把。他们都指望再赚把大钱。但是不久相应的主管部门，以内容不健康为由给《性爱写真》下了禁卖令。越禁越火，结果遍地是盗版。钱赚不到卞米的口袋里，她是无所谓的，因为她欢喜的是她已经大名鼎鼎了，这是一个巨大的无形资产，它是今后产生源源不断有形资产的广阔平台。 堂姐卞银薿对卞米利用她的名声炒作深切愤怒，电话中不仅叱责了卞米的行为，也批判了她的写作，说那是令人作呕的垃圾。并说今后卞米没有经过她的同意，再打着她的旗号，她就采取法律手段。卞米表面诚恳地说下不为例了，心里不仅埋怨堂姐的古板，也对堂姐有了不屑，想堂姐是名人，她也是名人了，她和堂姐已经是一条水平线上的人了，在她眼中堂姐没什么了不起了。她无所谓地想，反正她已经出名了，堂姐的光是用不着了，今后不提她也罢。 名利双收是立竿见影的。不久，一个意大利书商找到卞米，以四十万人民币的价钱买下了《性爱写真》的意大利文版权。意大利书商很欣赏卞米作为东方女性，却敢于冲破古老“性观念”的解放精神。他说卞米应该去西方国家生活一段，那样将会提高她，更加上升一个层次。今后她会有更大超越的。不用意大利书商提醒，卞米也早就想出国看看的。在这个开放的时代，不走出国门，是极度落伍的。现在，她有钱了，出去的时候到了。她有了写作的经验，她想等出国回来后，她可以写一个遭遇老外的性爱故事，这样的故事，想要发生体验，还不容易吗？有体验了，她就记日记似的把过程真实地记录下来，过后，不用费劲地稍稍地加工一下文字，就能出手了，多简单省事啊！只要她写出来，指望出她书的出版商一定不少，那她就又能在图书市场上大赚一把了。赚钱的事，她今后是不愁的，因为她是有名的卞米。 另外，出了国后，她还可以去见识一下已经在法国生活的堂弟卞小宇，他们是一个家族的人，彼此都算是出类拔萃的人，熟悉起来，将来是可以互相衬托的。因为这个曾经走在她前面一年，考进了电影学院表演系的大帅哥，对卞米来说几乎是陌生的。