Chapter 14 Bian Yincao said: He is not what you think (1)

The third child, Bian Yincao, is the only one among the six children who looks most like their mother.Eyebrows, nose, mouth, and ears are all similar. When she was a young girl, she was thin, tall, dignified and delicate, and she was even more similar. My father often said that seeing her was like seeing her mother when she was young. when.When Bian Yincao heard what his father said, she just smiled shyly and said: I don't know how to sing Henan Opera.My father followed up and said: Yes, why can't you sing?Opera is learned. When she was young, Bian Yincao was often taught by her mother to sing Henan opera. She taught her to learn how to sing Henan opera. Her mother didn't have any functional purpose. She just thought she looked like herself and thought she could sing Henan opera. Like myself, like that, how comforting my heart is.However, Bian Yincao didn't have the aura and talent in this area, and she was out of tune when she sang. She had a left voice, so it was useless to teach her.Therefore, she looks like her mother, but only in appearance.

It is said that the third child in the family is making troubles, but this has no effect on Bian Yincao. Since childhood, Bian Yincao was not talkative, introverted and quiet, honest and well-behaved.With a group of children, she doesn't seem to have much fun, most of the time it is others playing, she is watching, like a spectator; she laughs when it is funny, and frowns when it is crying.She is introverted but not shy and weak. She is a bit like my fourth uncle Bian Jinguo when I was a child. She doesn't like to talk but is reserved. Once she speaks, she is not shy and has a generous posture.She also loves to study and read books, and she is also like the fourth uncle when she was a child.If you love to study, you can study well. She has always been among the best in her class.Studying well gave her an air of self-confidence, and when she became more confident, she gradually showed pride. From elementary school to junior high school to high school, she always held her chest high and held her head up in class, with a superior attitude.Her pride is isolated, and no one appreciates it. In the era of "studying is useless", the classmates didn't admire her good study at all, and ignored her pride at all. Instead, they thought she was a "nerd" and looked down on her. .Her introverted character made her not like to mingle with her classmates, and she always kept a certain distance from them.In this way, she has few close friends at school.She has a distance from her classmates at school, but it is the opposite at home. She has a good relationship with anyone, and she is quiet and stable. Her demeanor can please everyone, and she naturally becomes the force that everyone wants to unite.She is impartial, she is as good as anyone, and never protects anyone.It's not that she's being a good person, it's that she's naturally insensitive and insensitive to the struggle between people.

In 1976, Bian Yincao was about to graduate from high school.Everyone knows that they will go to the countryside to join the queue after graduation.When many students talked about their future queue jumping, they were excited and looked forward to it.But Bian Yincao didn't have that kind of enthusiasm, and she still couldn't figure it out. She loved to read and thought, and she thought that they would all go back to the city to work as workers in the future, and they would go to the countryside to learn how to farm, which would not be useful for workers. , How can jumping in line be a good thing?One day, she wrote what she was thinking into a notebook with a pencil.The reason why I write with a pencil is because I want to erase it when I want to.At that time, during class break, when some students talked about jumping in the queue, she sat aside, followed her classmates' train of thought, thought of this problem again, and wrote a sentence in her notebook with a pencil: There are so many farmers Oh, what do you want us to jump in line for!It's boring to jump in line, I don't like to jump in line!As she wrote this, she was actually having a conversation with her classmates in her heart.After finishing writing, a female classmate called her, she closed the notebook without any hassle, got up and went to the seat of the female classmate.Unexpectedly, a classmate flipped through her notebook and saw the record of her "opinions" on jumping in the queue. The classmate gave the notebook to the head teacher with great awareness.The head teacher felt that Bian Yincao had ideological problems, so he called a class meeting to summarize her negative thoughts. At the meeting, many students criticized her thinking. , also reported the matter to the Academic Affairs Office, and the school informed the whole school on the radio, and announced that Bian Yincao would be given a verbal warning.This was a heavy blow, and Bian Yincao fell ill for three days.After that, she went to Longnan with her classmates by train and car to Longnan, where she started her life as a queue jumper.

During the days of jumping in the queue, she didn't like to talk much anymore. Her classmates "harmed" her. She couldn't say that she hated them in her heart. She realized that she made a mistake a long time ago, but she just felt that her classmates shouldn't treat her like that. She, they lack affection for her, she has no affection for them, and she rejects them even more; if she was unconscious in school before, she is conscious now.On the days of jumping in the queue, she was unsmiling and worried all day long, and she was not interested in anything, and she didn't even read the books she liked to read. In her spare time, she didn't joke with everyone, and she didn't read books. in a daze.She was in a daze, not really in a daze, her mind was constantly spinning, and what was spinning was all connected to the future.When it comes to the future, she thinks that the "mistakes" she made and the school's punishment must all be recorded in the file. Wherever she goes in the future, this will affect her image; it turns out that she still hopes to be recommended in the future. Go to college and dream about it.Every time she thinks of this, she closes her eyes, and two lines of tears fall from the corners of her eyes, feeling as if her life is going to be destroyed.She has been in this state for more than a year, and some classmates who understand her have enlightened her several times, but it still doesn't help.However, an accident happened that changed her.

This area of ​​Longnan is a mountainous area, the fields are in the mountains, and there are mountain roads between the mountains. The mountain roads are steep. Always be careful when crossing the mountain roads. When encountering rain and snow, the mountain roads are even more dangerous.On that day, the rain came suddenly, and the weather forecast did not foresee it. If it had been foreseen, the educated youths would not go to work on the mountain.That is prescribed.At three o'clock in the afternoon, when the educated youths were weeding in the fields, the sky was still clear.But after a while, the dark clouds covered the sun, and there was rumbling thunder in the sky. Everyone knew that it was going to rain, so they quickly jumped out of the field and trotted down the mountain to go back to the station.The rain came as soon as it was said. As soon as they walked on the mountain road, the rain began to rain.Like a washbasin splashing, in an instant, the ground flowed like a river mixed with soil.This kind of rain can easily cause mudslides. The educated youths who walked to the mountain road hurriedly withdrew again. Everyone gathered on the ground, let the rain drench, and let their feet turn into mud.The rain came quickly and violently, and stopped quickly. After ten minutes, the rain stopped abruptly.The rain stopped, and the fields were flooded with rain, so it was impossible to work any more.The educated youths "go home" along the mountain road.Halfway through, the road was blocked, and a mudslide occurred ahead.The slurry of mud and stone piled up like a small mountain peak.Everyone retreated and thought of another way.That road is a small road. You have to climb a section of hillside, walk a section of mountain road, and then go down a section of hillside to connect to the main road. The main road you connect to has already passed the mudslide and is almost at the station.The hillside is clear at a glance, and you can go up if you don't see it collapsed.But no one dared to go up first, because the dangerous part was the mountain road above. The mountain road was facing the mountain wall, and it was probably in vain. No one tested it. Who knew if it would landslide if it stepped on it. Once it collapsed, people would roll along Down the mountain, to die for.Everyone talked about the dangers and consequences, saying that whoever goes first is tantamount to exploring the way.After all, no one stood up and said first.Bian Yincao, who had been silent all this time, decided to go. She thought: what is so terrible about death!She is not afraid of death at this time, not based on some glorious and noble beliefs, but based on her depressed mood all the time. She is not afraid of death, and she doesn't take it seriously. It's a relief.Bian Yincao didn't say anything, and came to the slope, and someone asked: "You go up."Bian Yincao said "Oh".I didn't even look back.Someone shouted: Be careful!Bian Yincao still didn't look back.Up to the top, the mountain road is good.Bian Yincao wanted to ignore it and go on his own, but he relented and shouted "you can go" to the crowd below.So, she took the lead, followed the small road, connected to the main road, and returned to the station.

Afterwards, Bian Yincao was immediately praised by the educated youth, with great momentum.Saying that she is a hero, a role model, noble, selfless, with a fearless and brave spirit of self-sacrifice, etc., their praise was transmitted to the organization through letters, from bottom to top.Among them, many of her classmates made self-criticisms to her. When they talked about criticizing her in the past, they all looked ashamed, saying that their eyes were really not bright enough, why didn't they see that there was a higher hidden hidden in her? Spirit, if they saw it, they would forgive her for making a little verbal mistake.The sincere affirmation and remorse of the students who did not hide and begrudgingly moved her and she suddenly realized that she understood that it was not because her classmates were unreasonable to her, but because she did not do it herself. What reason does she have to complain about her classmates? go down!At the same time, she was also very ashamed of the praise she received this time, and felt that it was just an inadvertent indifference and had nothing to do with her heart.In this way, she secretly made up her mind that if she wanted to be worthy of her classmates, she had to ignore the previous suspicions, "change her face" and cheer up.To live up to the name.Afterwards, Bian Yincao seemed to be a different person, getting close to his classmates, getting closer, and becoming more cheerful.Half a year later, she was lucky enough to be approved by the higher authorities along with nine other educated youths, and among her group of educated youths, the first batch returned to the city.She knew that this result was inseparable from the praise of her classmates.This praise must also be recorded, and she no longer has any worries about her future.

After returning to the city, Bian Yincao was assigned to a food factory. She first made popsicles in the freezing workshop, and then was transferred to the pastry workshop to make pastries.Wherever she is assigned to work, she has no complaints; wherever she works, she is dedicated and active in her work.Although she has no prejudice against being a worker, after the resumption of the college entrance examination system, she was aroused to want to go to university. Using her spare time, she seized the time to make up cultural courses.When she started studying again, she realized that it was difficult for her to catch up with the motivation and feeling she had when she was in school. She hadn’t touched books for more than two years, so she couldn’t find the spirit of learning. No matter how hard she forced herself, she couldn’t get back to school The smart thinking I have in this era.It's like when a person becomes an adult, he can't find the feeling of being a teenager.Although she felt that the prospects were not good, she still insisted on taking the college entrance examination.It is said that the questions in the college entrance examination are not difficult, so she thought maybe she could cover it correctly.But after the college entrance examination, she didn't see her name on the list. Although she was prepared, she was still sad for a few days.After being sad, she decided to calm down and become a good worker, then find a good partner, get married, have children, entrust her dreams to the future children, and let the children realize it for her.A child is hope, and she puts her hope on the object.

Although Bian Yincao is not as good at singing as her mother, she has a tall and straight figure, a dignified and delicate appearance, and an elegant temperament. After all, she is a qualified person, especially among the workers, she stands out even more.She is twenty years old, it is a good time to fall in love; she has no partner, this is a good opportunity, young men who have no partner will not let go of the opportunity to pursue her.In fact, since she first entered the factory, someone has pursued her. She was preparing to take the college entrance examination at that time, and she didn't even think about what happened to that person. She made excuses and declined politely.She settled down and continued to work in the food factory, thinking about personal issues as needed, she thought.She began to take seriously those who chased her.If she doesn't like it at first glance, she politely declines the appointment, and doesn't give the other party a chance. This kind of people are too ugly in appearance; if she thinks it can be observed, she goes to the appointment to get to know the other party better.If you don’t feel in place after understanding it, you don’t need to understand it anymore.After going on like this, for more than half a year, among the few people who chased her in the factory, none of them got the chance to have a second date with her.The reason why she looks down on them is very simple, that is, she feels that she has nothing to talk to with them. This talk is complementary to her likes, tastes, longings, hopes, hobbies, and temperament. If they can't get together, they can't communicate. Yes, what else can we talk about if we can't communicate?In fact, she understands that in the factory, there are not many people who can communicate with her. Her inner likes, tastes, longings, hopes, and hobbies must be educated and qualified, and they are opposed to vulgar, ordinary, and boring. , the workers in the factory, who would be as unconventional as her?She has never seen or heard of such a person, and it will be difficult to meet them in the future.She thought that since she had already become a worker, and it was difficult to find "good people" among the workers, she should not look for another worker.In this way, no matter whether the workers are in the factory or outside the factory, the workers are not in her consideration.

She is not worried that she will not have a chance if she is so picky.Because her conditions are there, there are far more people who are willing to introduce her to her than those who are chasing her.The range of introducers is very wide, including those from the factory, colleagues of parents, colleagues of uncles, colleagues of eldest sister, and neighbors.The introducers are from all walks of life, and the objects introduced are also from all walks of life.Since she has made it clear that she does not want to look for workers, the conditions of the people she introduces are basically "acceptable", including teachers, doctors, soldiers, technicians, cadres, etc., and she has met more than a dozen within six months.However, after seeing it, she felt disappointed.Only then did I feel that the conditions sounded good, but it was not the case when I met them. Those people sounded decent in their work, but when I met them, the quality should be good, but the quality is better, but the appearance is too bad. Those who are too short, whose skin is too dark, and whose appearance is not eye-catching.Regarding appearance, which young woman has no vanity at all, let alone she has a good face?In this way, the people I have met are either good in appearance but bad in quality, good in appearance and bad in quality, and the worst is neither.In addition, there are also people who can combine the two, but they have a huge disparity with her personality, so it is difficult to reach a consensus.This is also useless.She thought, it's really hard for a person to find someone he likes.Disappointment is disappointment, she still has to pin her hopes on the introducer, without relying on the introducer, where can she find opportunities by herself?She thought that if she could pick one essence out of a hundred, she didn't expect the essence, she just looked suitable, so there was no need to pick one out of a hundred, then, after seeing you again, she would definitely be able to pick something she was satisfied with.

She hasn't found a suitable person among the people she introduced, but she has met a satisfactory person.It happened by accident. On that day, people from the Municipal Sanitation Bureau came to the factory to inspect the sanitation. The sanitation inspection was not to check the sanitation of the factory surface, but to check whether every process of production and food production in each workshop was "hygienic". The inspection was also equal to monitored.When the pastry workshop was inspected, Bian Yincao, the monitor on duty, accompanied the inspectors to monitor each production process and explained.Among the staff of the Health Bureau, there is a handsome young man with a side-parted head who always loves to stare at Bian Yincao. Eyes, his eyes are naked, Bian Yincao is embarrassed.This young man just listened and recorded without asking a single word. It seems that he is just an officer.Therefore, during the whole process, he and Bian Yincao did not speak a word.At the end of the inspection of the pastry workshop, the young man intentionally walked at the end of the inspection line, then stopped, turned his head, and walked towards Bian Yincao who was watching them off as if thinking of something. She tore off a page and handed it to Bian Yincao. With a smile on her lips, she said, "Xiao Bian, this is my phone number. We know each other. We can keep in touch in the future."

Bian Yincao was startled, a little overwhelmed, without thinking about anything, as if the subordinate was to the superior, he hurriedly accepted the note obediently, and said "OK". The young man also waved his hands like a leader and said: Go back.After all, he turned and left. Bian Yincao looked at the note in his hand, on it was the young man's name and his office phone number.The young man's name is Gao Guoqiang. "Gao Guoqiang", Bian Yincao said three times in his mouth and remembered it.On the way back to the workshop, Bian Yincao thought of the way Gao Guoqiang looked at her, and seemed to understand his intentions.Gao Guoqiang was handsome and talented, Bian Yincao couldn't help but his heart beat with joy. Bian Yincao had expectations for Gao Guoqiang, but she didn't have the courage to call him. How could a 22-year-old woman have the "courage" in this regard.She doesn't call because she is in a hurry. Every day, Gao Guoqiang keeps her appetite up, and the past day is like a day; she hopes that Gao Guoqiang can come to her, and she knows that as long as Gao Guoqiang has the heart to find her, he will definitely find her. .It shouldn't be a problem that Gao Guoqiang didn't ask for her factory's phone number that day. The Health Bureau must have her factory's phone number.Gao Guoqiang lived up to her expectations. Sure enough, a week later, she called. The call reached the reception room, and the reception room conveyed her through the loudspeaker.On the way to answer the phone, she trotted, guessing in her heart that it was probably Gao Guoqiang who called.The family members don't call unless there is something special, because they know how troublesome it is for her to answer the phone from the workshop to the reception room, but Gao Guoqiang is different, if it is not so troublesome, it will be even more troublesome for them to contact.During the phone call, Gao Guoqiang didn't say much, but just asked her to go to the movies on the weekend, and she readily agreed.With this appointment, she excitedly thought her original guess was right.She was almost like a child, bouncing back to the workshop. The colleagues looked at her and knew that she had a happy event.Ask her where she likes it?She shook her head cheerfully like a child and said: Keep it secret!Keep it secret! Before the date, Bian Yincao dressed up meticulously, wearing her favorite red sweater, her favorite snow blue jacket, and tied green bows on the two "hair brushes" on her head.A pair of black cloth shoes with loops that she wanted to wear, she patted and patted at the gate of the courtyard to get rid of the dust and make it look brand new; although her face was not covered with rouge or powder, she had washed her face well.Dressed neatly, she is clean and tidy, and the whole person looks beautiful and conspicuous.Knowing her date, her parents were as happy as she was, and they watched her go out with relief, expecting her to have a good result. Bian Yincao and Gao Guoqiang made an appointment to meet in front of the Guanghua Department Store, which was one stop away from the cinema.When Bian Yincao arrived, Gao Guoqiang had already arrived.He was pushing a brand-new Phoenix bicycle. He was wearing a silver-gray jacket and a pair of well-polished leather shoes. , Standing there, the overall eye-catching, Bian Yincao could easily see him.When walking towards him, Bian Yincao's heart was beating a little, excited and nervous, she thought Gao Guoqiang's conditions were so good, is she worthy of him? When she came to Gao Guoqiang, she looked a bit shy, as if she didn't dare to look at Gao Guoqiang, she lowered her head and said: You came early. Gao Guoqiang glanced at the watch on his wrist and said with a smile: You are five minutes ahead, and I am ahead of you again. It seems that we have used our hearts together. Hearing what he said, Bian Yincao was ashamed, but less nervous. Gao Guoqiang looked Bian Yincao up and down, looked at her intently and said: You are so beautiful today, and you look nothing like you were wearing work clothes that day. Hearing Gao Guoqiang use the word "beautiful", Bian Yincao was so confident that she was almost not nervous. She asked: Am I ugly in work clothes? "How could it be? You are good-looking, and you will never be ugly. What you wear has different tastes, and each has its own value. Otherwise, why would I like to look at you in work clothes that day?" Gao Guoqiang said freely and relaxed. Yes, seems to be very familiar with Bian Yincao. Bian Yincao became nervous again, and was glad that he said that, but she didn't know what to say. She had seen so many "partners" introduced, and she had never met someone as generous and cheerful as Gao Guoqiang, who could say whatever he wanted people.She likes people who can speak and use words like this, and they can say something when they open their mouths. I can't blame her for not seeing an introduction. "Water".Gao Guoqiang speaks meaningfully, because he is well-developed and smart, and this is his quality. Just as she was thinking, Gao Guoqiang gently gave her a hand and said "Let's go". On the road, Gao Guoqiang said to take Bian Yincao and go, then he rode on the Phoenix car, slowed down and waited for Bian Yincao to get on the car, Bian Yincao jumped on the back seat unambiguously.Gao Guoqiang accelerated towards the cinema.Bian Yincao's mood at this time is like the spring breeze blowing on his face, refreshing, clear, warm, floating, beautiful. That night, the movie they watched was depressing and hurtful, but Bian Yincao found excitement in it, and she discovered that Gao Guoqiang looked like the male protagonist, Juansheng. If his face is wider, it will be like death; like Juansheng, he is actually like the actor Wang Xingang, Wang Xingang is recognized as a handsome man, the more he thinks about it, the more satisfied he is.She is completely in love with Gao Guoqiang; Gao Guoqiang is willing to get along with her, so she will get along with him to the end.Watching the movie, she didn't follow the sad mood of the protagonist, but excitedly thought about her and Gao Guoqiang's future.After the movie ended, Gao Guoqiang suggested that they go for a walk and chat, and they started walking aimlessly along the sidewalk, chatting while walking, knowing each other's growth process, family background, and thinking about each other. Understand, what should be understood, probably understand each other.At the end, Gao Guoqiang graciously sent Bian Yincao to the door of his house, and before leaving, he made an appointment for the next meeting.Bian Yincao nodded happily.They are mutually satisfied. Gao Guoqiang is six years older than Bian Yincao, and is 28 years old this year. His parents are workers in a glass factory, and he has four younger siblings. He is the eldest. In 1970, after graduating from junior high school, he was assigned to the Health Bureau. Because of his good performance, he was recommended to go to university a year later.In college, he majored in Chinese. After graduation, he returned to the Health Bureau and became the secretary of the director.He is positive, and has devoted himself to his work for the past few years. He has set a rule for himself: he wants to marry and have children later, so that he can concentrate on his work and respond to the call of the country.Otherwise, he wouldn't have fallen in love so late.Bian Yincao believed everything he said.What Bian Yincao is excited about is that Gao Guoqiang is an excellent person, and his family is well matched with him. The foundation built like this is solid and reliable. As suggested by her parents, she brought Gao Guoqiang home the second time she met.Gao Guoqiang went as soon as he said he would, without buying anything, and left empty-handed.My mother's heart skipped a beat when she saw Gao Guoqiang. Although he was obviously like the actor Wang Xingang, her mother felt that his eloquence was like another person, that is Comrade Fu who lied to her back then.This feeling made my mother's heart flutter, and when she looked at Gao Guoqiang again, her eyes poked into his heart, making Gao Guoqiang afraid to look directly into her eyes.Parents specially prepared a good meal for Gao Guoqiang, but Gao Guoqiang was not polite, so he stayed to eat.In the middle, his face was courteous, but his behavior was the opposite, sitting on the sofa, flipping through novels, just waiting for Bian Yincao and her parents to be busy arranging meals, without saying a word of help; after eating, he just wiped his mouth , sat back on the sofa, watched Bian Yincao and her parents clean up the "mess", but still didn't say a word of help. After Gao Guoqiang left, the mother told her daughter that Gao Guoqiang seemed to be interested in her, but in fact he didn't take her seriously. She cited examples of him not buying things and not being "gracious" in his actions. Bian Yincao said Mother is a bit vulgar.My mother said that I didn't want him to buy things, but I wanted him to work. I saw from there that he didn't care about you.Bian Yincao said that it was normal for Gao Guoqiang to come to the house for the first time when he was born at the first time and to be familiar with him at the second time.My mother said, let's look at the future.When Gao Guoqiang came to Bian Yincao's house again, he didn't buy or do anything, so his mother kept talking.On the contrary, Bian Yincao said that people who act diligently are hypocritical, and that "fake diligence" makes people easy to be fooled.My father also retorted: If you like someone, you can't fake it; if you don't like someone, you can't fake it.No matter how they argued, Bian Yincao would justify Gao Guoqiang. Gao Guoqiang came to Bian Yincao’s home for the third time, one month later, and said that he had just returned from a business trip in Shanghai. When his mother heard that Gao Guoqiang still had no “behaviour” when she saw Gao Guoqiang again, she asked her daughter in private what gift Gao Guoqiang bought her from Shanghai. ?The daughter said nothing.The mother said nothing with a sullen face, and after Gao Guoqiang left, she was full of dissatisfaction with Gao Guoqiang again.Bian Yincao said: He is not what you think, he is a cultured person, a cultured person, who does that vulgar thing.Bian Yincao insisted that parents who judge people by "performance" actually want to pursue material things, and she thinks that parents are vulgar.Parents said: I was with you, what are we planning?We're afraid he doesn't really like you.Bian Yincao said unambiguously: If you don't want to draw, then leave it alone.He doesn't like me, why is he looking for me? Is there anything I can do?This sentence blocked the mouths of the parents. They thought: Yes, what is Gao Guoqiang trying to do with his daughter?As far as appearance is concerned, Gao Guoqiang looks good too. Later, Bian Yincao tried not to take Gao Guoqiang home.More than a month later, Bian Yincao suddenly said that he would marry Gao Guoqiang.Mother said in amazement: You have only come and gone a few times now, let's observe again.Bian Yincao lowered her head and said, there is no time to observe, she is pregnant.The parents had no choice but to prepare the dowry.This situation is the same as when his parents rushed to prepare for Bian Jinli's wedding. Bian Jinsuo said with emotion: "Everything has reincarnation."Gao Guoqiang does not have a separate house and lives with his parents.The house he lived in was his and Bian Yincao's new house.It was easy for Gao Guoqiang to marry Bian Yincao. He hardly bought any new household items. He just cleaned the house where he lived and replaced the single bed with a double bed.Gao Guoqiang is very good at saying that when the unit allocates a house to him in the future, that will be the real new house, and everything in the new house will be new.Bian Yincao heard that what he said was poetic and reasonable, and followed him straight away. After getting married in a hurry, Bian Yincao got sick and took medicine for fever and cold.After recovering from the illness, the child in her womb was unbearable, so she had an abortion. For this reason, Bian Yincao was sad for several days. She thought: the lost child is so smart and cute.Six months later, she became pregnant again.When she was four months pregnant, Bian Yincao caught another bad cold. For the sake of the baby in her stomach, Bian Yincao insisted on not taking injections or taking medicine.She was dizzy all day long, her nose was blocked, her eyes were tearful, her body and head seemed to be out of her control, sometimes heavy, sometimes erratic, the uncomfortable feeling wanted to close her eyes and never wake up again.Seeing her suffering, the mother said to take medicine, and then go to get rid of the child.Bian Yincao shook her head resolutely and said no, she was reluctant, and said that she was afraid that doing it would affect her future pregnancy.The mother sighed in her heart, thinking that this daughter's life is really miserable, and the bad luck made her catch up anyway.Her husband, Gao Guoqiang, said unhappily that she didn't take medicine and injections, and that if she was infected with the virus, it would also affect the child. He didn't want to raise a stupid child.Bian Yincao still insisted, and said in an angry tone: If she is born a fool, she will raise him and divorce him, so she won't drag him down.Gao Guoqiang actually said seriously: You said, do you not go back on your word?Bian Yincao's chest couldn't help feeling tight, but she said forcefully: I said so!Don't go back on your word!