Chapter 5 about love

about love (1) If you ask me, career, health, love, what is the most important in my life, I will say without hesitation: love. Love is something that cannot be fully described in words. I think love is a feeling and an experience in the heart. Love is different for everyone. The first time I was moved by love, I think it was because of a movie called .I still probably remember that line of dialogue: "Although I am poor and not good-looking, I have the right to love others." From then on, I believe that everyone is equal before love. Although I watched Qiong Yao's works for a while when I was in middle school, the overly desolate and romantic plots didn't move me deeply. Maybe it's because I am too realistic, and I can't always be like some of my classmates. , Imagine yourself as those charming girls in the book

At that time, what I liked more was having Jose by my side like Sanmao, so wherever we went, as long as the two of us could be together, I didn't care about anything. My first love was when I was about to graduate from middle school.It was a big boy who was seven years older than me.Up to now, I still remember the way we talked for the first time. Looking at this stranger, I felt in my heart that I had met this person before.Later, he told me that he felt the same way looking at me standing in front of him. I still remember that he pushed the bicycle, and we walked and talked in this city non-stop.It always gets dark early, the time always flies by, and the streets are always too short.

We went to the movies and secretly held hands inside the theater. Such days only lasted for a month, and he was going to the United States.Although he had told me from the day we met, but on the day he left Shanghai, I walked the streets of Shanghai alone for a day, looking at the sky, guessing which plane had him in it. After that, we never contacted again. Although I also fell in love and got married later, his figure always appeared in my mind when I didn't expect it. Some people say that first love will determine a woman's judgment on a man.I guess it makes sense.Because someone else's action, a small action, will remind me of him.

Thirteen years later, when my marriage was over, the first thing I wanted to do was find him.I don't have any purpose, just want to know, is he okay? What does he look like now.As for whether he still remembers me, it doesn't matter to me at all.It's just that I know that this love has always been in my heart and has never disappeared. What happened after that was a bit like a novel. I found him, but everyone has changed and each has his own life.The trajectory of our lives has been completely different.But one thing is the same, we all cherish that memory from thirteen years ago.It's just that we all know that we can't change our current life for each other.

I used to think that as long as there is an attachment to love, just like the fairy tale books I read when I was a child, the prince and princess will live a happy life from now on.But real life isn't like that at all.Love will change because of some specific things in the lives of two people.I have to accept this fact, but after the pain is over, I think I am luckier than many people in that what remains in my memory are all good things. When I was young, I would easily say the word "forever" to someone I loved.But now I know that forever is a luxury, even impossible, but one cannot refuse to start because of fear that it will not last forever.

The length is not important, the important thing is that when two people are together, they are sincere. When love is about to go, no matter how you go, you can't keep it. As for the sad days, one day it will pass.When I was young, I thought that being sad would last forever, but I gradually discovered that the length of being sad was originally controlled by myself.The love that has gone will not come back because of your sadness. Your own tears are only for yourself to see. I have traveled more places, met more people, and I am getting older and older. I found that love can happen accidentally, and it will disappear quickly because of my own carelessness.There will be happy moments every time, although there will also be sad moments.

When my emotions finally calm down and I can finally recall that relationship, the face of the person I once loved has become blurred, but in the process of recalling, there will always be a smile that will involuntarily surface to me The corner of the mouth, it was because of a sentence once, or a romantic scene.Many times, the other party failed my affection, but I have never resented anyone, because I really believe that when love comes, everyone is sincere. As I have always believed, love should be equal.Or the status of two people is different, and the wealth owned by two people is different. In front of love, there is no difference between high and low.However, if what you value is the status and wealth of the other party, then this kind of love is already unequal.

In the past, when I fell in love with someone, I often forgot myself.Treat each other as the most important thing in your life.As a result, one day I suddenly realized that my time, my emotions, had become something controlled by others, and I was no longer myself.People begin to become full of dependence, and become bad at thinking and judging.Such a result often makes the other party feel a lot of pressure, and I feel unhappy from time to time. In my college yearbook, a classmate of mine told me to love myself first so that I can love others better.I really didn't understand at the time.

Now I understand what he meant and appreciate the reminder he made to me.If there is no self, there will be problems in getting along with two people sooner or later.If you can't be kind to yourself, how will you know how to be kind to others. About love (2) Every time you fall in love, you are helping yourself grow up and learn how to deal with feelings.If you love someone, in addition to advantages, there are also his disadvantages.What you need to change is to change yourself. If you really want to be with each other, you should learn to compromise. Watched an American movie "something gotta

give", I like the translated film title "Love is Compromise" used in mainland China.This is about a diamond king who is over sixty years old. He has always enjoyed a life full of beauties around him and constantly interacting with young women.He has an easy life.Until one day, by chance, in a random place, he fell in love with his girlfriend's mother, but when he returned to his own life circle, he resumed his original way of life, so his lover decided to leave He lives his own life.When they parted, he felt his heart ache.After half a year, he decided to give up his original way of life, and finally found his lover again.

I have no way to explain the plot of the movie very clearly here, I can only say that this is a very humorous and tear-making movie at the same time.It tells everyone that for love, you need to give up some things you are used to and have, and love needs to be paid. Similarly, there is another movie about love that I like, and that is "love Actually", in this movie, it tells different love stories. Christmas is coming, should I say to my beloved, I love you.The most touching one is the guy who fell in love with his friend's wife and confessed his true feelings to that girl on Christmas night.When the girl kissed him, he said to himself, enough, enough. Speak out your feelings, you don't need to get anything, just want to tell the other party three words: I love you. I watched this movie in a small town on the outskirts of London, and it was Christmas in two days. After watching the movie, it was very late, and the winter in London was very cold, and I curled up in the cold wind alone. , the way back to the hotel becomes very, very long.I couldn't control my tears, luckily this was in England, in a place where no one knew me.At this moment, I made up my mind to say goodbye to a hopeless love that lasted for two years.He already knew that I had loved him, and that was enough.I need to start over. A friend of mine said I was like a lovebird.Keep getting hurt, but never stop pursuing. Although my marriage was a failure, I never gave up believing in the existence of love. Over the years, I have also met people I love, but not everyone regards love as important as I do.When love conflicts with other things, what they choose is always not love. Sometimes, I wonder if I am too persistent.Just like the song sang, behind the adult world, there are always incompleteness.Perhaps at the beginning, if I hadn't been so obsessed with my own principles, my marriage would have been able to survive until now, just like most people.But if so, am I living my life honestly? Will I be happy? Many times, my heart will feel lonely.When there are more people, standing in the crowd, the more I feel that I can't see clearly.This lonely heart is waiting for the arrival of someone who also believes in the existence of love. Maybe a little unrealistic. But I did come across it, albeit briefly.Although ultimately lost to worldly desires and temptations.But after all, it was sincere.Love used to stay by my side. Until now, I still believe that love exists in this world.I still believe that there is one person who believes this as much as I do.I believe that I will meet a brave and responsible person