Chapter 5 4

Her mother is really worried, always worried that she will be injured doing odd jobs outside, saying that if a odd job is injured and there is no labor insurance, then your life will be over.A few money is a small matter, but a life is a big matter.But she knows how much money matters. If you don't have the money, you won't be able to buy rice, and you will be hungry.Besides, her family is not only short of "some money", but a lot of money. Her mother often asks other teachers to borrow money, and often repays the debt as soon as the salary is paid, and starts to borrow money the next day after the salary is paid.Her family often gave meat and egg tickets to others because they had no money to buy them.

The team where her brother went to the countryside did not have a good harvest, and the educated youths had to ask their parents for money to buy grain and rice, so that they could eat, because the points were too low, and the work points for a year were not enough for rations. These years, thanks to her going out to do odd jobs every summer, she is very able to help the family.She always comforts her mother: "I've been doing odd jobs for so long, isn't it still fine? With so many odd jobs, how many of them have you seen disabled? If something happens to someone, it can happen while sitting at home."

Now that she sees that the third child is like a mother-in-law, she uses this theory to deal with him. But he couldn't listen, and said eagerly: "Don't go out to do odd jobs, it's really, very dangerous, and it will take a lifetime to hurt yourself and get tired. You need money, and I have it here. We work in the field, the wages are relatively high, and there are field allowances. I have a deposit ----, you first use it to pay ---- the debt, and I can give you 30 to 50 yuan every month in the future- --, should be enough, right?" She didn't like his appearance very much, as if he was great because of his high salary, so she looked down at her and wanted to help her.She said proudly: "Your high salary is your business, I will not ask for your money."

"You---- even if I lent it to you, can't you? In the future you----you will pay it back when you work?" "Where will I have any job in the future?" She said sarcastically, "My father is not a high-ranking official, can he still find me a job in the field? I don't plan to recruit me back after I leave the countryside. At that time, I don't need It would be good if mom gave me the ration money, how can I pay you back?" "If you haven't paid it back, I won't pay it back. Anyway, I don't need the money. Don't be stubborn. For the money, you hurt yourself and lie in bed all your life. Isn't it more Is it bad?"

When she heard him say "for a few dollars", she felt that he looked down on her and regarded her as someone who loved money like his life.She said angrily: "I just want some money, I'm just a vulgar person. I'd rather be injured and exhausted doing odd jobs outside, than ask for your money----" As if he had been stabbed in the heart by her, he couldn't say anything, but whispered: "You--I--" He said "you and me" for a long time, but he didn't say anything, he just looked at her pitifully, reminding her of a puppy she had raised before, which was caught by the dog-beating team, its mouth was tied, and it couldn't bark. , also looked at her pitifully, as if knowing that being captured would be a dead end, and begging her for help.

Two days later, the sister-in-law came back, and the house was quiet again.Duanfen's "face" also didn't come, and the third team had a meeting that day, so they didn't have time to come.In the evening, my sister-in-law brought a colleague, Teacher Ye, to ask Jingqiu how to weave the opening in the front of a man's wool trousers. Jingqiu knew how to weave the opening, but Teacher Ye not only asked Jingqiu how to weave the opening, but also asked her how high the opening should be so that her husband could relieve it.Jingqiu learned to weave the opening from others, and when weaving, she never thought about what the opening was for.Now when Mrs. Ye said "relieve", she made her face blush, and hurriedly said, "Let me knit this for you." After speaking, she quickly helped to knit.

Teacher Ye was waiting for her to weave the hole, while chatting with his sister-in-law: "Yu Min, Miss Qiu is really capable and beautiful, no wonder your mother-in-law is so interested in telling her to your second child---. Qiu girl, just marry the second child, since you are married here, it will be convenient for us to knit sweaters, and I can come to ask you anytime—” The sister-in-law said: "Don't talk nonsense, she has a tender face." The sister-in-law said tentatively, "Young girl Qiu is from the city and eats commodity food. How can you look down on people in the valley? Someone like Qiu girl must marry A city person, don’t you think, Qiu girl?”

Jingqiu blushed, and only said: "I'm still young---, I didn't think about these things at all---" Teacher Ye said: "You want to marry someone from the city? Then I have an idea. Find someone from the survey team. There are people from the city among them. At that time, Miss Qiu will marry a person from the city, and we will have someone to help knit the sweater. It's the best of both worlds." Teacher Ye thought for a while and said, "I think that Xiaosun is pretty good, he can play the accordion, and he is a good match with Qiu girl. Yu Min, Xiaosun must be trying to trick Qiu girl when he ran to your house-- --"

Sister-in-law laughed: "Your eyes are quite sharp. Before, because I mentioned Changfen to him, he couldn't avoid coming to my house. But now he runs so frequently that he comes almost every day." Jing Qiu was so angry that she didn't dare to say a word, she only hoped that they were joking. Teacher Ye said: "Then your mother is in a hurry? Such a good girl, she was supposed to tell her son, but she was snatched away by an outsider." The sister-in-law smiled and said: "No, Qiu girl is definitely from our family, and there is a fiancée in Xiao Sun's family."

Jingqiu only felt a buzzing in her head, thinking that she was going to faint, but not only did she not faint, but instead she seemed to fly into the air, looking at herself like she was not afraid of the height of the stage when watching a play, and gloatingly thought: "Jingqiu, you Saying 'be optimistic about everything' all the time, now is the time to put you to the test." The sister-in-law and Teacher Ye chatted and laughed from time to time, and Jingqiu also laughed with them in due course.But there was only one sentence in her mind: "Xiao Sun has a fiancée at home."

She was knitting woolen trousers in a hurry, while listening to her sister-in-law and Mrs. Ye talking. The end result was that the opening of the trousers was knitted and I didn't know how long it was, but she didn't understand a word they said.It wasn't until Teacher Ye remembered that he was going back that he took the woolen trousers to look at them, and found that the hole had grown by a foot. Teacher Ye couldn't help laughing: "Hehe, now it's easier for my husband to relieve himself, it's almost like open crotch pants---" Jingqiu was extremely embarrassed, and immediately wanted to tear it down and reweave it.The sister-in-law said to Teacher Ye: "I don't think it needs to be disassembled. You can just go back and sew up the extra opening with a needle and thread----" Teacher Ye said, "That's right, it's been so long since weaving, it's a pity to tear it apart." After Teacher Ye left, Jingqiu hurried back to her room, as if she couldn't stand it anymore.She climbed into bed, covered her head with the quilt and pretended to be asleep.Although she was covered with a thick quilt, she was still shivering, not knowing whether it was cold or fear, or something else. She hid in the quilt and scolded the third child bitterly: Liar!fraud!You have a fiancée at home, why did you do that to me?Are you doing what a man with a fiancée can do to another girl? She painfully realized that it was useless to scold liars. The world was full of liars, and scolding them would not kill them, nor would they hurt them.If you want to blame, you can only blame yourself, because you have no eyes and can't recognize liars. Scenes of what happened on the mountain that day appeared in my mind again and again.When passing by at that time, it was like watching a movie. I couldn't stop it. A series of shots flashed by in a flash. My brain was completely confused. I didn't know what I was thinking, and I didn't know what to say or what to do. Looking back now, it seems like I was looking at a bunch of photos, each of which was fixed for a moment. There may be many shots omitted, but the key shots are all there. You can look at them one by one, evaluate and reflect while watching . The scenes before the third brother hugged her didn't seem to have been taken as photos, and even if they were taken, she would have passed them by.What repeatedly appeared in the memory was that the third child frightened her, saying that there was a ghost who looked like him standing under the tree.Then somehow, he hugged her, he kissed her, and almost put his tongue in her mouth. Knowing now that he has a fiancée at home, Jing Qiu suddenly felt as if she had dug out a lot of old photos, which clearly recorded everything, but she couldn't see it at the time.When she was with the third child, she always felt dizzy, as if the judgment and self-sufficiency that she had always been proud of did not exist.He was like a gust of strong wind, causing her to follow him without moving her feet. Her thinking slowed down and her hearing became dull, but her laughing nerves were particularly developed, and of course they were silly laughing nerves. On the day he went back, when he was walking on the mountain, he told the story and used Romeo and Juliet as an example to defend the young man who dumped his previous girlfriend. In fact, he was talking about himself.On the night when he came back, when he was walking on the mountain, he admitted in a disguised form that he had held someone else's hand. Thinking of this, she was too late to regret.Why didn't I understand it then?If she understood, then when he came to hug him, she would lose her temper with him.If she loses her temper, it's a statement that she hates him for doing that. It's a pity that not only did she not lose her temper at that time, but she even confessed that she liked him holding hands.She really didn't know why she would do such a stupid thing. At that time, she saw that he no longer held her hand, as if he didn't talk much, and felt that he was angry. ignore her. Now she let him hug her and kiss her, but he has a fiancee, isn't he cheated?Since she was a child, Jingqiu heard her mother say that a girl "a misstep will cause eternal hatred". At first, she couldn't even figure out how to phrase this sentence, thinking it was "a moment --- enough to become eternal hatred".But she got the basic meaning right, that is, once she stumbles, she will regret it for the rest of her life. What she doesn't know is "missteps". In her opinion, letting a man know that he loves him is a mistake, because he can use it to brag to others and ruin the girl's reputation.Jingqiu knows a lot of such stories, and has seen girls she knows suffer from such misfortune, so she has always been careful not to "misstep". The safest way is not to fall in love with someone, then she will never " slip". Thinking of this, she felt less trembling.Fortunately, no one knew about her relationship with him, and she didn't give him any reason to write black words on the white paper.The worst thing so far was her admitting that she liked him holding her hand.But when she went to invite him to dinner that day, she had already rejected his request to hold hands, so she should have saved the situation, right? She decided not to talk to him anymore, as if it had never happened.Since he has a fiancée, he probably won't tell anyone about it, hoping that this will erase it from her life.She remembered a sentence she had seen somewhere: "A scandal that is not known is not a scandal." She hoped that this sentence explained a truth. Now it's a question of what to do with his bag of rock candies. Her mother really needs these rock candies. She couldn't afford to buy rock candies when she returned to K city, so she decided to accept it, but she must pay him, and pay as soon as possible.She can ask the people in the reform team to borrow some money first, and then pay them back when she goes back. She got up, and was thinking of borrowing money from Master Li of the education reform group, when the sister-in-law came and said she wanted to say a few words to her. The sister-in-law said: "My mother-in-law asked me to tell you about Changlin, but I didn't mention it to you, mainly because I thought it was impossible. You are from the city and a high school student. Duanlin is a countryman. , I haven’t even finished junior high school, so I’m sure I’m not good enough for you—” Jing Qiu said sadly: "I really didn't mean to look down on him, it's just——" The sister-in-law said: "After I heard about your family, I thought I should tell you about Duanlin, and I should also tell you about my own experience. It might be good for you." The sister-in-law sighed "Actually, when I saw you, it was like seeing myself. I used to have an urban hukou, but after my parents were labeled as rightists, they lost their public jobs and became unemployed. They made a living by doing odd jobs. Later, the urban Clean up, drive all unemployed people to the countryside, and our family went to that poor mountain valley." "It turns out that you also had--such a rough experience?" Jing Qiu said sympathetically, "I felt that you--are not like the people here, even your name is different from the people here." "Haven't you become a person here now? You will go to the countryside in the future, and you don't know where you will go to the old mountain. In fact, this is a county seat, not far from K City, and it is a relatively affluent area. You live here After these few months, you must have noticed that my mother-in-law's family treats people very well. If you marry Duan Lin, his family will definitely treat you like a fairy." Jingqiu tried her best to divert the conversation elsewhere: "You---from the city to the countryside, you must also---be very restrained---" "This is fate. A strong man can't beat fate." The sister-in-law sighed and said, "But I was lucky. I married Duan Sen. His father was an official. He got him out to eat commodity food, and he got me too. To teach in elementary school. Although I don’t eat commercial food, teaching is much better than working in the fields. When you come to Xicunping in the future, as long as Duanlin’s father is still in office, I will definitely let you teach in elementary school.” Jingqiu never thought of changing her destiny by getting married. She knew that she was destined to go to the countryside, and if she went down, she would not be recruited back, but she never thought of changing this by getting married, just like she knew that she The family is poor, and she really wants to change the face of poverty, but she will never change by marrying, she would rather rob the bank. For her, everything is out of her control. It is not up to her to decide whether to go to school, find a job, join the league, etc.Only her own feelings can be controlled by herself. This is the only thing she can control freely, so she must control her feelings according to her own will.She can repay others with herself out of gratitude, and save a person out of sympathy, but she will never exchange her feelings for money or status. The sister-in-law said: "I know that you don't want to be with Duanlin because you like the third child. To be honest, the third child is quite a good person---" "Who said I like the third child?" Jing Qiu immediately pulled the third child away from her, "You said you mentioned Duanfen to him---what is it?" "Oh, when the third son and his team first entered the village, they lived in various households before the work sheds were repaired. The third son just happened to live in our house. Duan Fen loved to sing, the third son could play the piano, Duan Fen She always asked the third child to accompany him, and fell in love with him as soon as she came and went. But she was too embarrassed to say it herself, and waited until the third child moved to the work shed, and then asked me to help her. I mentioned it to the third child, but he said he has a fiancée in his hometown---" "Is he—is he making excuses, then?" "No, he even gave me a photo of him and his fiancée. He is really beautiful. After all, he is the son of a cadre. They are really a good match." The sister-in-law said, and walked to the table. Under this pane of glass, I'll show you." The sister-in-law searched for a while, and said in surprise, "Hey, I can't find it. Where did it go? Could it be that Changfen put it away? Or did Changfang put it away?" Jingqiu immediately thought that the third child hid himself so that she would not see him, which further proved that he was a liar.Sneaky, sneaky, shameful! The sister-in-law said: "He didn't come to my house very much after that. The aunt was still very kind to him. If nothing happened, the favor was there. If there was something delicious, I still asked him to come to eat. Later, Duanfen met him. It’s okay, it’s okay.” "Have you seen him—the fiancée?" "No, a girl from the provincial capital, and her father is a high-ranking official, how could she come to this ravine." Jing Qiu was too embarrassed to ask any more questions, and didn't know what to say, so she just sat there blankly. The sister-in-law said: "I advise you not to think about the third child, and forget about him as soon as possible. If you listen to my lesson, you will know that the official family is not something we can climb up to. Before my family was driven to the countryside, I also had a boyfriend, and his father was also an official, but not as big as the third father. I heard that the third father was the commander of the military region, and my boyfriend's father was just an official in the military division. .But the children of cadres are all the same. They are well-informed and have contact with many people, so they don't have to worry about finding a partner. My boyfriend's family didn't agree with him to associate with me from the very beginning. The cadre family is very well-matched, but my boyfriend insisted on getting along with me at that time, so he didn't dare to bring me home.Later, when he heard that my family was going to the countryside, he panicked and wanted to open a back door to leave me alone, but he didn't have that much skill, so he gave up in the end. Fortunately, I was able to control myself at that time and never let him get on me, so I was able to marry a good man later. If I followed him and had trouble with him, then the day he dumped me would be mine. Death day. " Jing Qiu was startled when she heard it: "Why is it your death day?" "A girl, who lost her virginity and was dumped by others, who would dare to want you in the future? Even if she wants you, on the wedding night, she will find that you are not a girl anymore, and she will insult you. Treat yourself like a human being. Girl Qiu, I think you are more guilty than I was back then, you are beautiful, and you are destined to be pestered by someone all your life, if you are not sure, you will suffer." Jingqiu was so upset when she heard this, she used to only know that "sleeping" with a man is dangerous, but now she has a "upper body", wondering if being hugged by the third child counts as "upper body" . She desperately asked, "What do you mean when you said you didn't—let him go up?" After asking, she regretted it, afraid that the sister-in-law would ask her why she cared about this. "You don't understand if you didn't let him go up? You just didn't have sex with him, didn't sleep with him, and didn't do couple things with him." Jingqiu felt that she let go of two out of three hearts, because she didn't have sex with the third child, she didn't sleep with him, she just didn't know if she had done anything about husband and wife.But she didn't dare to ask any more. If she asked again, the sister-in-law would definitely suspect her. Why is a girl so concerned about these things? The next day, Jingqiu had the cheek to ask a few people in the education reform team to borrow money, saying that it was urgently needed to buy rock candy for her mother.It was almost time to go back, and no one had any money left. Master Li and Principal Chen pooled up 18 yuan and lent it to Jingqiu. Aunt and the others also came back that day. At night, Jingqiu heard the third child playing with Huanhuan in the main room, so she quickly took the money and went to the main room. She saw him sitting on a very low bench, lying on his back. Make out with him. The third child saw her and raised his face to greet her, but she kept a straight face and threw the money on his lap, saying, "Thank you for helping me buy rock candy, see if the money is enough." His expression reminded her of a sentence in Lu Xun's "Xianglin Wife": "It's like being burned by a cannon". She saw him looking at the money on his lap like that, as if the money was burning his leg, and he Not daring to reach out and touch it.He looked up at her helplessly, as if asking what happened. She didn't know why, as if she felt she had the right to be angry with him, she said angrily, "Is it enough? Just tell me if it's not enough, and I'll make it up for you." In fact, she had already given him all the money she borrowed. The money was used to "make up" him, and if it was really bad, she had no choice but to borrow it again. He asked, "Didn't you say yes - later - to pay it back?" "There are many things that have been agreed and then changed. Can you expect others to honor every word they say?" He pondered this sentence for a while, but he probably didn't come up with anything. He just said, "Didn't you—didn't you say that you didn't have any money? How did you get so much money all at once?" "Ask someone in the group to borrow it." He seemed to be very hurt: "You are borrowing money anyway, why do you insist on asking --- someone else borrowed it?" "I'm happy to ask whoever I want to borrow. I will thank you on my mother's behalf." After finishing speaking, she went to her room, took out her village history book, and wanted to write something.But her hands were shaking, and she didn't know whether it was from anger or cold. He followed in and stood behind her: "What's the matter? Tell me, don't be like this——, something must have happened. It was fine the day before yesterday. How come——" "What happened the day before yesterday? I kept saying I don't want your money----." He asked suspiciously: "Just because I said that I would give you money that day, you are so angry? You said no that day, so I didn't force you anymore. I know you have strong self-esteem and don't want to accept it. ---other people's help, but you--you don't have to treat me as ---other people--" She thought, she is a liar after all, her mouth seems to be smeared with honey when she speaks, if I didn't know your details, I would definitely be deceived by you again.Did you trick your fiancée into your hand then?Does she know that you are lying to others outside again?No wonder people say that people who can chew their mouths can't be trusted. If he can coax you, he can also coax others. A stuffy gourd like Duanlin will definitely not deceive people. Without looking back, she said, "Stop standing here, go get busy, I have to write something." She felt that he was still standing there, but she didn't look back at him, she just wrote in the notebook tremblingly.After a while, she felt that he was no longer there, so she turned her head, and he was no longer there.She was very disappointed again, thinking that he would stand behind her for a while, or even stand all the time. She didn't know what was going on with her, she had thought about it well, she wanted to forget him, forget him, and never take him seriously again.Beforehand, she thought it would be easy to do, but after meeting him, she could really talk to him viciously.When he looked at her pitifully, her heart was also firm and seemed unmoved.But when he really left, she panicked and could only think resentfully, how could he be like this, how could he be like this, I just said a few words, and he ran away? She felt that her behavior was simply ugly. When others flattered you, she was afraid that when you were angry, you would be careless and say things that hurt others.When others run away, you regret it again.Aren't you forcing people to ignore you and pretend to be you? After scolding herself, she pretended to go back to see if he really left.She walked through the main room and the kitchen, and walked back, and found that he was not in the main room or the kitchen. She opened her ears to listen for a while, but she didn't hear his voice.He did go, and he was angry because she was so rude and cold to him. She looked for him everywhere in despair, not knowing what to do if she found him, but she couldn't care about anything, she just hoped that he didn't go away. At last she saw him in the mill, he was pushing the mill, and Mother was feeding it.As soon as Jingqiu saw him, she knew that he hadn't left, so she stopped panicking and hated him. She scolded him viciously as a "liar" in her heart, then turned around and walked back to her room. For several days, she ignored him.He took a chance to talk to her and asked her what happened, but she didn't say anything.Sometimes when I was in a hurry to ask, I would throw down a sentence: "The good things you do yourself, you know in your heart." He pleaded, "I don't understand, tell me what good I've done." She ignored him and went into her room to pretend to write something.Seeing that he wouldn't go away in anger, she became presumptuous and became more indifferent to him, but she didn't explain to him and let him think hard.She couldn't figure out why she felt she had the right to torture him, just because she could make him suffer?Or do you think that he took advantage of her on the mountain that day, so you have to punish him by torturing him? The education reform team was about to go back to City K, and Jingqiu hadn't thought of a good way to get those walnuts back. She was determined not to send Lin, let alone the third child.But she can't count on the people in the education reform team to help her carry it back, because everyone in the team carries luggage on their backs, and it would be nice if they can carry their own luggage back. Who can help her carry that basket of walnuts? She wanted to break open the walnuts and take back only the kernels inside, which would be much lighter.But the sister-in-law said that if you broke it, it would be difficult to preserve it. You can't let your mother eat it all at once, right?Always keep some in case you get sick next time, right?She thought about it too, so she had no choice but to not smash it open. The sister-in-law suggested: "Let Duanlin send you off. He seldom goes to K City, so he goes there for fun. If you find it inconvenient, let my father-in-law send Changlin to send you back to the teaching reformation group." Yes, the team can still give him work points." Jingqiu thought that was even worse, even Village Chief Wang was pulled out, wouldn't she look more like his daughter-in-law? It wasn't until the day before leaving that Duanfang came back from Yanjiahe, and she finally got over it, saying that she could deliver it, but she couldn't carry such a big basket of walnuts, so she could ask her second brother to go with her. The two siblings mainly went to K city to play, and helped deliver the walnuts by the way.Duanfang said that she had wanted to go to K city for a long time, but she didn't have a companion, and now she just took this opportunity to go to K city. The aunt and sister-in-law both said that they also had a lot of things that Duanfang wanted to buy in K City, and Jingqiu couldn't think of a better way, subconsciously thinking that this would punish the third child, so she agreed. Duanlin was very excited, and the aunt was also very excited. She arranged clothes, shoes and socks for Duanlin, taught him the etiquette when going out, and told him to call Jingqiu's mother "Teacher" instead of being like a log. ; When eating, chew slowly, not as if you were released from a starvation prison; walk lightly, not as if you were pounding.All in all, I have explained everything in detail countless times, and looking at it like that, I wish I could do it for him. In the evening, the third child came over.When he came, the aunt's family was enthusiastically and nervously making the final touches for Changlin's trip to K City.The aunt and sister-in-law were busy packing the walnuts in bags, and found some dried beans, dried cabbage, pickled vegetables, etc., and said they would give them to Jingqiu's family for cooking. Jingqiu was very panicked, and felt that this matter had exceeded the budget. It was agreed that the Duanlin brothers and sisters would just go to K City to play, and they would bring the walnuts there.She wanted to stop it, but she couldn't say it out loud, she couldn't turn down her kindness, she stretched out her hand and didn't hit the smiling face, others were so happy, how could she be so cold?Besides, the aunt didn't ask Duan Lin to go to her house, but called her mother-in-law, only "teacher".Could it be that you have lived at aunt's house for so long, and other people's children want to play with you, and you are not willing? The third child stood among the busy helpers, looking very confused, unable to figure out what happened, when he asked that he was packing for Duanlin to go to Jingqiu's house, his expression changed obviously, and he was stunned. Standing there, in stark contrast to the group of busy people. Jingqiu looked at him, gloating a little, thinking who made you have a fiancée?I'm glad you have a fiancée, but I'm not--can someone help me?She was still regretting that she had asked Duan Lin to take walnuts to K City just now, for fear of causing trouble, but now she felt that this decision was a good one, and she could take revenge on the third child. Seeing the youngest child standing there lonely, the sister-in-law asked him: "Do you have a travel bag? You can take whatever bag you can get your hands on. It doesn't look like Duanlin goes to the city without a bag." The third child was stunned for a while, and then said: "Oh, I have a bag for going out, I'll go and get it." After finishing speaking, he left.After a while, he brought some bags, gave them to Duan Lin, and asked, "Can you carry them by yourself? I can help tomorrow if I can't. I will rest tomorrow." Duan Lin repeatedly said: "I can carry it, I can carry it. Didn't I bring that basket back from my sister-in-law's natal house? Not only can I carry walnuts, but I can also help them with their backpacks. You don't have to go tomorrow. " The third child glanced at Jingqiu, as if expecting her to invite him to help tomorrow, she quickly avoided his gaze and went back to the room to collect her things.The third child followed in and asked, "Is there anything I can do for you?" "No." "Why do you ask Duan Lin to deliver it? He will delay work----. I don't go to work tomorrow, why not----" "Forget it, don't bother you." He stood there in embarrassment, watching her pack things, and wanted to stuff a lot of things into a military bag, so he asked: "I also brought a few bags over, do you think you need them—" "No need. What kind of bag should I bring, and what kind of bag should I carry back." He looked at her blankly and stuffed things into the bag angrily, and said, "You went back---, send your mother's hello for me---, wish her a speedy recovery---" "Well. I will thank you for the rock candy you bought for her instead of my mother." He was silent for a moment, and added: "When you're done with the rock candy, just tell me---I'll buy it again---" "No." "It's important to cure mother's illness---" "I know." He was silent for a while again: "Come over to play when you have free time, in May or June, come and see the hawthorn flowers---" She suddenly remembered the first time she met him, and he also invited her to see the hawthorn flower.At that time, she thought she would definitely come to see it, but now she didn't know what to say, as if the hawthorn flower had no meaning to her. She stood there feeling lost, thinking that she was leaving soon, she was really reluctant to part with this place, even the liar in front of her made her so nostalgic.She looked at him and saw that he also had a lost look on his face, so she turned her face away and didn't look at him. The two of them stood blankly for a while, and she said, "You stand here, Duanfang dare not come in to sleep, go back quickly." "I'm leaving," he said, but he didn't move, and he was still standing there, "you--you're leaving soon, and you still won't tell me what--why are you mad at me?" She didn't answer, feeling a lump in her throat.Seeing that she refused to speak, he changed the question: "You--have you promised Aunt?" "Promise what?" "What about you and Duan Lin?" "It's none of your business." He was robbed of this by her, and he didn't catch his breath for a long time. After a while, he said: "Just now when I went back to get my bag, I wrote this letter, hoping to make my meaning clear. I'm leaving, You have a good rest. Have a good trip tomorrow." He put a letter on her desk, looked at her for a while, and went out. Jing Qiu looked at the letter, it was folded like a pigeon.She thought it must be a severance letter, because he said that it was written when he went back to get the bag, that is, when he knew that Chang Lin was going to send her off, what else could he say? She didn't dare to open it, just stared at the letter, hated him, and scolded him: You are so quick to write the letter of resignation so that you can take the initiative, which means you dumped me?What can you do?I didn't promise you at all, what can I do?It's all you liar, who has a fiancée and is still lying to others outside. She also wanted to write a letter to him and scold him severely, but she felt that it would not save her face, because after all, he had lied to her.Those who deceive others have bad qualities; those who are deceived have poor brains.The ones people laugh at are always the ones who are cheated.She thought about it, and picked up the letter to see what he said. After reading it, she could write a critical letter against his letter. She slowly unfolded the letter, it was not long, only a few paragraphs: "You are leaving tomorrow. If Duanlin will send you off, I will not. I agree with whatever decision you make. I only hope that your decision comes from your heart.