Chapter 28 rebirth

At that time, ballroom dancing was just popular, and it was fresh.Two men and women who were not related to each other, because of dancing, came together in a clear and honest manner. During the shoulder-to-shoulder hook-up, the bodies rubbed from time to time. What a hazy and ambiguous thing it is! Since Wang Juan's intervention in Zhang Weiping's life, life has become much more vivid.In an institution like the Construction Committee, Zhang Weiping lives like a year. When he goes to work, there is not much to do, but everyone has to sit behind the desk, busy with the little work at hand, such as Monthly report, review a project reported below, this project has been completed

Many bright red seals have already been stamped, and this division of theirs will also stamp one as a matter of routine.When the project approval form was reported to the office, he was not in a hurry to stamp it, and first circulated it from everyone. I piled up a lot of such reports, and waited until the unit that applied for the project repeatedly urged me to ask, and some units even sent representatives to come to the unit at noon or before get off work in the evening.When I entered the room, I didn’t talk about the project first, but let out a circle of cigarettes first, and talked for a while. At this time, it was time for dinner, and the person who came said: Everyone, we are all friends. The manager asked me to meet with all of you, please do your best, and let's have a light meal.

People in the office, you look at me, I look at you.One person said: Forget it, forget it, we are all from our own family, so what else do we eat. The people who came said: You must eat it. If you don’t eat this meal, you will look down on me, Lao Guo, and how can we deal with you in the future. Speaking of which, Lao Guo is so sincere, so what else is there to say.After being polite for a while, Lao Guo said, "I've decided on the place. It's in Private Room No. 3 on the second floor of Aunt Wang Restaurant. I'll go first." After speaking, Lao Guo left, and everyone got ready. Someone called to inform the family that they would not go back to eat. Some ladies went to the bathroom to wash their faces, sat behind the table to put on makeup, and some people straightened their ties in the mirror, and played with their hair. What.

At that time, there were not many restaurants, and the last restaurant was a very grand event, and after the event, most people would arrange a dance or something.The environment of the dance hall is not good. In order to generate income, many units simply cleaned the canteen, put two speakers, put the dining tables together, and decorated the fluorescent lamp with a few strings of flowers. This is the dance hall, five yuan A ticket, people scramble to go. At that time, ballroom dancing was just popular, and it was fresh.Two men and women who were not related at first came together because of dancing, and their bodies rubbed against each other while hooking shoulders and backs. What a hazy and ambiguous thing it was! People, young and old, all go to battle, and they will dance to a song smartly. After warm applause, people will look at him (her) with admiration.Those who can't dance are not far behind, hiding in the corner and competing with their peers, some competing with chairs, and some returning home and dancing in front of the mirror for a while.Anyway, at that time people were fascinated by dancing.

Aunt Wang got together at the restaurant and danced for another night. Everyone was in a good mood.Before we broke up, Lao Guo just talked about the topic, took everyone's hand and said: Director Ma, look at our project approval report... I'm counting on you. Director Ma said: Well, you can pick it up tomorrow afternoon, and we will work overtime tomorrow to approve it for you. Lao Guo is very grateful. As soon as he went to work the next day, Director Ma found out the report that Lao Guo's work unit had sent for approval, and had someone stamp it with a bright red seal.In the afternoon, Lao Guo took it away, and naturally thanked him a thousand times. The approval form had already stamped a series of seals, and Lao Guo still wanted to stamp it.This was the situation of the agency at that time, and it was not surprising that people were like this.

In the rest of the time, people read newspapers, drink tea, chat, and live in a leisurely way. Aunt Yu, who was sitting opposite Zhang Weiping, was very concerned about the progress of Zhang Weiping and Wang Juan. She kept saying that she would rather demolish a temple than demolish a marriage. Aunt Yu asked: Xiao Zhang, how is the matter with Wang Juan going? Zhang Weiping just smiled. Aunt Yu said, "Wang Juan is a good child. I watched her grow up. Let's get along with each other. You can't go wrong." Ever since Zhang Weiping came back to the city and joined the construction committee, time seemed to have stopped, day after day, like today, tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.Zhang Weiping felt a sense of oppression, only a little bit of embers lingering in his heart.When he was a teenager, he thought about his future and his career thousands of times, but he never thought that he would live a life of doing nothing in the office. He was depressed and depressed.

At that time, he failed to go to the Vietnam battlefield, which was full of gunfire, and went to the countryside instead. That vast land once planted his broad ideals. He sincerely hoped to do something in the countryside. At that time, there was only one belief that inspired him To change the backwardness of the countryside, to build terraces and canals, he took the lead, and the entire battle site was boiling. The site was full of colorful flags, which made people excited.People are sweating and struggling, as if communism can be realized overnight.During those exciting days one after another, Zhang Weiping's heart was burning, and he felt that his ideal was getting closer to reality.His ideals and fiery feelings died when he returned to the city.

The prison life in front of him suddenly strained his muscles and bones, and he couldn't use his energy. He wanted to scream from time to time, and the young and boiling blood gradually calmed down in his body.In this bland real life, he thought of Li Yaling many times. Whenever he thought of Li Yaling, he would think of the exciting, vast and boiling countryside, and all the complexes and beauties were related to Li Yaling.Whenever he thought of Li Yaling, he would recall those wonderful and unforgettable times in the countryside. Many times, he stopped at the entrance of the College of Traditional Chinese Medicine, looking at the flow of people coming and going, hoping to see Li Yaling's figure, but he rarely saw Li Yaling's figure.As long as he stood at the gate of the College of Traditional Chinese Medicine, no matter whether he could see Li Yaling or not, he felt that he was closer to Li Yaling, as if he could touch the memories and beauty he had once again.

When he was confused, he found the small piece of paper that Wang Juan had left for him, on which was written Wang Juan's phone number. When he thought of Wang Juan, he thought of Li Yaling again.Li Yaling back then, and Wang Juan now, both wore a pair of thick and long braids, standing in front of him innocently.At this time, he felt a little excited again.In this excitement, he seemed to have returned to the days when he was in the countryside. During a weekend, he dialed Wang Juan's phone, and she obviously recognized his voice, and said excitedly: "It's Wei Ping."She looked as if they had known each other for thousands of years, but for a while, they separated.

The two met again, and Wang Juan still looked a little shy. She was wearing a white shirt and blue skirt, and she looked a bit like a college student. Her face was red, but her eyes were bright.She didn't ask him where he was going, and he didn't know where he was going. They got on a bus, and they sat together, neither of them talking, just looking out the window. The scenery outside the window was the city at first, and then went out of the city. , came to the suburbs, and finally, they got out of the car. The bus went away, and the two came back to their senses. They were surrounded by a field of crops.

Wang Juan looked at Zhang Weiping in a daze.Standing here, Zhang Weiping seemed to have returned to the past. When he looked around and looked around, he found a canal, which was an abandoned canal. The canal crossed a river and led to the distance.He walked forward without saying a word, and Wang Juan could only follow him.In the end they came to a bridge built for the canal, the bridge over which the canal passed. When he came here, he seemed to have returned to the countryside. In the winter of that year, he also stood under a bridge hole to date Li Yaling. The ice on the ground made a small crackling sound due to the cold, and they breathed out and looked at each other with rapid breathing.There, he and Li Yaling had their first kiss, and their icy teeth collided with each other, making earth-shattering noises.They shivered in the cold wind, tentatively sticking out their tongues to each other.What an exciting moment it was, they were nostalgic for going back and forth. Zhang Weiping led Wang Juan to come here. At the beginning, it was completely aimless. He came here by accident, and his passion was mobilized all of a sudden.He whistled, picked up stones and threw them into the water, as if he had returned to the beautiful and fascinating years in the past. Wang Juan also seemed to be moved by Zhang Weiping, she yelled.Later, the two sat on a rock, staring at the flowing water in front of them.Standing here, Zhang Weiping seems to have come to a paradise, forgetting the idleness in the office and the passion that has passed away. He looked at Wang Juan's silhouette, she and Li Yaling were so similar, Li Yaling had two braids like this before, he looked at Wang Juan, Li Yaling's figure and Wang Juan's figure were changing, the long-lost impulse came again It recurred in his heart.He hugged Wang Juan suddenly, Wang Juan was taken aback, but still accepted him. He searched for her lips, but she dodged them.At this time, Zhang Weiping was stubborn and tenacious, and he kissed Wang Juan fervently and passionately. At first Wang Juan was struggling, her head twisted in his arms, panting, timid and shy.Later she didn't move, her lips were pressed together, leaving no gap for Zhang Weiping.Later, she opened her lips and began to cater to him. Her eyes were half closed, and she didn't know where she was for a while.There was a whining sound in her throat. He was excited and trembling, and from time to time he had the illusion that what he was facing was not Wang Juan, but Li Yaling. The former Li Yaling was strong, healthy, plump, and spotless like the sun. After a long time, he let her go.They were both out of breath, she looked at him with uneasiness, but he looked at the crop field in front of him. She gasped and said: You are too strong. He turned around and asked: What did you say? She said again: Too fast, we are too fast. She finally leaned towards his arm. After a woman's first line of defense was breached by a man, she had given half of her life to the man.When she leaned towards him, his body trembled, stiffened for a while, hesitated for a while, and finally stretched out his hand, wrapping her shoulders in his arms. Zhang Weiping closed his eyes, listened to the sound of the crops being blown by the wind, smelled the breath of the earth, hugged Wang Juan, two tears flowed from the corners of his eyes. Wang Juan looked up at him in astonishment and said: You are crying. He closed his eyes and said: No. She said: You cried, and I saw your tears streaming down your face. He quickly wiped away the tears on his face, gritted his teeth and said: No. The two stopped talking and stared at each other closely. Zhang Weiping was able to make Wang Juan approach him so quickly because of many psychological factors. First of all, he found the shadow of Li Yaling in Wang Juan. Of course, it was external. Because of this external similarity, Zhang Weiping Then there is an illusion, which makes Wang Juan and the ideal Li Yaling mixed together from time to time, making him unable to tell who is cuter; in addition, the real life in the office makes Zhang Weiping's life colorless. Find a little ideal outside the reality, and add a touch of bright color to the lifeless life.At this moment, Wang Juan appeared, filling Zhang Weiping's illusory life. The love produced in this state is destined to be tragic. Of course, at this moment, they are not aware of this. They work hard to walk into each other and use their bodies to awaken each other's passion. When the sun was setting, they came out of the bridge hole. Both of them looked a little tired because of love, but their expressions were excited.When they came, the two followed each other, Zhang Weiping was in front, Wang Juan was behind, Wang Juan's footsteps were a little hesitant, now Wang Juan had given half of her body to Zhang Weiping, she was almost hugged by him. go forward.Women in love are the easiest to lose their minds.At this time, Wang Juan followed Zhang Weiping regardless of whether there was a mountain of knives or a sea of ​​fire in front of her. On the way back, the two of them sat on the bus, she still leaned her head on his shoulder, her hands wrapped around his arm, and she closed her eyes and immersed herself in the sweetness of love. When Zhang Weiping sent Wang Juan to the door of the house, it was already dark, she turned and looked at him, and he also looked at her.He had another hallucination, he was standing in front of Li Yaling's house, he was sending Li Yaling home, there was snowflakes in the sky, and there were one or two real barking sounds of dogs around. His eyes were blurred, half sober, half drunk. She finally said: go to my house. He woke up and looked at Wang Juan.The scene of going to see Li Yaling at the end reappeared in front of his eyes, and that scene pierced his heart deeply like a knife. After such a long time, his heart is still bleeding. A voice told him: Li Yaling is married, with her teacher. He woke up again. Listen and say: Come and sit at home, you will meet my parents sooner or later. He thought about it, and finally followed Wang Juan to the door.It wasn't until he walked into Wang Juan's house that he realized that Wang Juan's parents were not ordinary people. The house was a four-bedroom one-living room, and the Japanese Sanyo TV at home was clearly broadcasting news programs. At that time, not to mention Japanese color TV sets, many black and white TV sets were even unthinkable. Wang Juan's father was watching TV. He looked about fifty years old, with a white shirt and dark trousers. It could be seen at a glance that this was a typical cadre attire.Wang Juan's father was very kind. When he saw Zhang Weiping coming in, he stood up, shook hands with Zhang Weiping, and said, "Sit down, sit down." At that time, Zhang Weiping found out that Wang Juan's father was the deputy director of the health department, and her mother was a general cadre of the health department. She was sick at home and her face was pale. Deputy Director Wang was chatting with Zhang Weiping nonchalantly, while Wang Juan was busy inside and out, pouring tea and looking for cigarettes. When Zhang Weiping said his father's name, Deputy Director Wang's eyes widened, and he asked again in disbelief: Are you the child of Deputy Commander Zhang? Zhang Weiping smiled shallowly, and Deputy Director Wang moved his body over, made a lot of affection for Zhang Weiping, and even personally took out a cigarette and handed it to Zhang Weiping. Then Deputy Director Wang said: Deputy Commander Zhang is my teacher, 312 Division. I won the first place, and it was the big red flower worn by Deputy Commander Zhang himself. When mentioning the past, Deputy Director Wang blushed, with a look of boundless reverie. Zhang Weiping also did not expect that Wang Juan's father was his father's comrade-in-arms. At that moment, his feelings for Wang Juan became closer. Deputy Director Wang said again: "Xiaojuan, you child, you didn't say anything about your relationship with Xiaozhang. Look at what's going on. If the two of you get married, it will be more intimate."Okay, okay, let's chat slowly, and I'll go with your mother. Deputy Director Wang also retired, leaving only Zhang Weiping and Wang Juan in the living room.The two of them had nothing to say for a while, Zhang Weiping suddenly felt that everything in front of him seemed so familiar.He suddenly remembered that at Li Yaling's house, Li Yaling's father, the old branch secretary, they were sitting on the kang with snowflakes floating outside the window.Li Zhishu and him were drinking and talking about family affairs. He was a good old man who was well educated and reasonable. I don't know what he was doing at this time. After sitting for a while, he stood up and said: I am leaving. Wang Juan glanced at him, and followed him all the way downstairs. He stood still and said to her: You go back. She said: You know my family too, you are welcome to come often. He smiled and walked towards the night. After walking for a while, when he turned around, he saw Wang Juan standing at the door and waving to him. Zhang Weiping had no choice but to fall in love with Wang Juan, and then everything was normal. The two dated to watch movies and go to the park.Later, Wang Juan also went to Zhang Weiping's house, and Deputy Commander Zhang still remembered Wang Juan's father.Deputy Commander Zhang commented on Wang Juan's father in this way: That kid can endure hardships, he is smart, but he left the army too early.If he was still in the army, he might have become a division commander too. Regarding Deputy Director Wang's change of job, there is also a small episode, it should be said that he left the army for love.Back then, Wang Juan's father was stationed in the hospital as a military representative of the army. At that time, Wang Juan's mother had just graduated from a nursing school. She was in her early twenties and was very healthy.The first time Wang Juan's father saw this little nurse, he was attracted.Before this, Wang Juan's father was engaged in his hometown in the countryside. If this experience hadn't been supported by Zhi Zuo, maybe his fate would have been different.But at this moment, the little nurse ran into Deputy Director Wang's chest like a deer, and he couldn't forget her.It didn't take long for the two to fall in love.The fiancée in the countryside found out, and came to the army crying and crying, dying.The army leader talked to Wang Juan's father. The purpose of the conversation was: love or future.After a period of painful choices, Wang Juan's father still chose love.He changed jobs. He was twenty-eight years old that year, and he was a company commander in his prime.Then there was Wang Juan, and by accident, Wang Juan fell in love with Zhang Weiping again. When Zhang Weiping knew about this little episode, he felt a lot of emotion in his heart. The beautiful little nurse back then no longer exists, and Wang Juan's mother was tortured by the disease until she was left with only a human form.Zhang Weiping found out later that Wang Juan's mother had been ill for several years. First, she had a gynecological disease, and later she had a stomach problem. One day, Wang Juan's mother was in front of the hospital bed, took Zhang Weiping with one hand, and Wang Juan's hand with the other, and said, "My child, you should get married soon. While I still have the breath, if you get married, you can count on me to marry you." Happy once. Zhang Weiping found that Wang Juan's mother's hands were cold, and Wang Juan was crying secretly.Wang Juan's mother fixed a pair of dull eyes on his face, what else could Zhang Weiping say at this moment.He avoided Wang Juan's mother's gaze and nodded. Next, they got busy getting married. The two had the following discussion about which house to live in after marriage. Wang Juan said: Let's live in my house after we get married. My mother is not in good health and needs to be taken care of. Zhang Weiping said: I have no problem taking care of your mother, but I am not used to it. Zhang Weiping also doesn't want to live in his own home, because in that case, he won't feel free.So, he sent a report to the leaders of the Construction Committee, applying for a house to get married. Unexpectedly, the Construction Committee had just built a batch of dormitory buildings, and many people could move into the new houses, vacating some old houses. After arriving at an old house with one bedroom and one living room, someone painted it and bought some things. Wang Juan and Zhang Weiping were really ready to get married. In the process of preparing for the marriage, Zhang Weiping himself couldn't explain why he was not excited at all, as if he had been married several times, and he was not at all impulsive about getting married, and he didn't even have the slightest yearning for it, as if it was to complete a task . When he was busy with the pre-marriage preparations, he calmed down. At this moment, he thought of Li Yaling.After so many days of darkness, I finally saw the dawn. When Li Yaling got married, she didn't inform him that he was going to get married, so she must tell her the news. On the evening of the first day of the wedding, that is, when he was off work, Zhang Weiping rode a bicycle to the gate of the Affiliated Hospital of the College of Traditional Chinese Medicine. He had secretly watched Li Yaling go to and from get off work here countless times before, but he just watched her figure from a distance. Hurry through the crowd.Today, he came to send her an invitation, hoping that she could attend his wedding tomorrow. Finally, he saw her figure. She walked hurriedly with her head down, neither happy nor unhappy.The moment he saw her, his heart jumped up suddenly. Before that, he had said to himself in his heart: Today is an invitation for her, and tomorrow I will marry Wang Juan.At that time, he comforted himself like this, and his heart was at peace.But as soon as she appeared in front of his eyes, for some reason, he was both nervous and excited.She was far away in his sight before he shouted: Li Yaling. He yelled three times in a row before she heard it. She stopped, looked for the sound, and found Zhang Weiping in the crowd.He walked over to her. Is it you? She was a little taken aback, but she asked anyway. This is the first official meeting between the two since they broke up on campus that time.On campus that day, his image had been deeply etched into her mind. The news about him was told by her father's letter. In the letter, his father said: Zhang Weiping has returned to the city... that's all. My father has always been worried about her failure to marry Zhang Weiping. When she got married, her father didn't even come to see her letter. Zhang Weiping has faded away in her life. Occasionally, when sorting out her emotions, Zhang Weiping will emerge from a deep place.Of course, it is related to her future and destiny. Without Zhang Weiping, she would not have lived in the city in reality.From the bottom of her heart, she was grateful to Zhang Weiping.Sometimes she also thought about what it would be like if she married Zhang Weiping instead of Zhang Song? She didn't dare to think about it, and she couldn't think about it.She is a very pragmatic person, she only wants to touch and see what is around her. Here and now, when she saw Zhang Weiping, she felt as if she had passed away. She said: is that you? He said: I will get married tomorrow, this is an invitation, I hope you can attend. She said: You, are you married? In her impression, Zhang Weiping was married a long time ago, maybe he has children.Just married now, she has a feeling of stepping back in time. He wanted to say something, but seeing that she didn't intend to continue, she just put the envelope containing the invitation in her satchel, and brushed her hair with her hands. He was too familiar with her action, In the past, when the two were about to break up, she used to brush her hair in this way. She finally said: I know, if I have time, I will definitely go. After finishing speaking, she bowed her head and hurried away. At the wedding the next day, he never saw Li Yaling among the guests.Until the wedding ended, at that moment, he said in his heart: I, Zhang Weiping, are married, married. Then he handed his arm to Wang Juan who was standing aside. Wang Juan took his arm and stood at the door to bid farewell to relatives and friends who attended the wedding.