Chapter 27 painful choice

It's not because she doesn't love him at all, but because she doesn't want to bring this pain to him.He really needs to think about it carefully. Whether his relationship with Ma Feila will advance or retreat, whether it is advancing or retreating, is under his own control.Qiao Nianchao faced another round of painful choices. Something happened to Ma Feila. No one thought that such a thing would happen at that time. Qiao Nian watched helplessly as Ma Feila was raped by gangsters. At that moment, he lost his anger and only despair. When Ma Feila staggered to him and loosened the ropes tied to his hands and feet, he had no strength to stand up and could only look at Ma Feila in astonishment.Ma Feila's eyes met his, and he also saw the despair in Ma Feila's eyes, as well as a ray of indifference he was not familiar with.

Later, she supported the tree and stood up, looking over his head with a numb and desolate expression.She walked forward step by step, passed the guardrail of the garden in the middle of the street, and walked across the road. Finally, she ran wildly and ran to the gate of the compound. He shouted something, but she didn't stop, and quickly disappeared into the darkness. . Qiao Nianzhao followed her staggeringly, and he shouted: Feila, Feila - the voice was difficult and old.He walked all the way to the downstairs of Ma Feila's house. There was no light in the whole house, and it was so quiet, as if it had been asleep for thousands of years.He walked backwards, staring at a certain window in Mafeila's house. How he wished that there would be a light behind that window, but there was none.The whole building was dark, just like Ma Feila's eyes of despair when they were about to part.

That night, Qiao Nianzhao didn't close his eyes all night. Ma Feila's eyes flashed in front of his eyes. What kind of eyes were those eyes? These eyes disturbed him all night, and then three gangsters dragged Ma Feila Step into the jungle situation.His heart was trembling, and he seemed to be falling into a bottomless canyon, endless... That night, he spent in a state of weightlessness. The next day was the day they went back to school. For this day, Ma Feila had planned for a long time.Originally, they had agreed to return to school on the same day, and they had bought the tickets two days before, and the seats of the two of them were connected together.

It was dawn, and Qiao Nianchao was ready to go. The things had already been prepared, so there was no need to prepare any more. He walked out of the house with his things in hand. He went to look at the small building in Ma Feila's house. The front door was quiet. For some reason, At this time, he hoped to see Ma Feila, but was afraid of seeing her.In this hesitation, he walked out of the compound step by step and got off at the bus stop.He didn't get on three consecutive buses leading to the bus station. While hesitating, he thought he would see Mafeila, but Mafeila never appeared.When the fourth car appeared again, he glanced at the watch on his wrist. If he didn't leave, he might not be able to catch the train, so he could only get on the train.

On the platform of the station, he was almost the last one to get on the train. He never saw Mafeila. He walked into the carriage. Did Feila come or did not come, and when he found a seat, he found that the seat between himself and Mafeila had been empty.His heart was like a boulder, heavy and stuffy.There was no sign of Ma Feila until the car drove away.The seat in Mafeila was so empty all the time, a man tried to squeeze over to sit in the empty seat, but he stopped him, saying: There are people. Then, after the car drove for a stop, he still didn't see Ma Feila, and the seat was occupied by a newcomer.He didn't know what happened to Ma Feila when he got home.

He appeared in the military academy, and later went to the cafeteria to eat at night, and he couldn't find Ma Feila in the communication team.Finally, he came to the place where he and Mafeila used to haunt in the military academy. He tried to see Mafeila's figure, just like before, maybe at some point, Mafeila would appear unexpectedly in his In front of him, he was smirking and willful.For three days in a row, he still did not find Ma Feila on the campus.He himself was in a trance, absent-minded, unable to listen to anything, unable to continue doing anything.When he closed his eyes, there were Mafeila's desperate and empty eyes.He didn't know what was wrong with him.To be honest, he never seemed to have loved Mafeila before, but Mafeila pestered him all day, making him submit again and again.He was passive and helpless, but now that he was about to lose Ma Feila, he realized that he loved her.How tedious life would be without Mafia.He was eager to see her, but she didn't appear in front of him for a long time.

He thought of all the worst thoughts, Ma Feila would not come to school, and since then, she disappeared from his sight.If that's the case, he'll ask for leave to go home and get the whole thing out.Another possibility is that Ma Feila couldn't think about it after the incident, and something bigger happened, such as suicide or running away, etc. Thinking of this, his heart sank again. In the evening, he went to the post office and called home. It was his father who answered the phone. His father was surprised to hear his voice. Father said: What are you doing? He said: Nothing, just tell my family that I have gone back to school and everything here is fine.

Father said: Well, just write a letter. In the end he said: Is everything all right at home? He was surprised by his tone. He never greeted his parents like this when he wrote letters before. First, his parents were not used to it. More importantly, his parents were both in good health and working smoothly, so there was nothing wrong with them. The father said again: Well, everything is fine, something happened to your boy, right? He hurriedly said: No, no. After speaking, he put down the phone. The purpose of his call was to inquire about Mafeila's news from home. If something happened to Mafeila, the whole compound would know, and of course his father would know too. He called, Father might tell him.He listened to his father's voice, and his father's voice was still normal. In this normal way, he thought that maybe nothing happened to Mafeila.

After another three days of anxiety, he finally saw Ma Feila.It was after breakfast, he went to the classroom in line for class, and the students of the communication team came to meet him, and he saw Ma Feila in the familiar queue of the communication team.Mafeila's face was pale and her expression was dull. She looked ahead, but seemed to see nothing, and followed the team in front of her.At that moment, he almost cried out.He didn't listen to a single word of that morning's class, only remembering that the military command instructor wrote a line on the black board: the art of command.

Then his mind became a mess, he was both excited and sad, and there was an indescribable feeling in his heart.It seems that Ma Feila is still here, and he will face her next. What will she say when she sees him? What is their relationship? How will they continue? He doesn't know, and he can't tell, everything is It's chaotic... In the evening, he finally found a chance to be alone with Ma Feila. He walked from the cafeteria to the dormitory. Ma Feila walked towards him with his head down. He stood there, waiting for Ma Feila to approach.Seeing him, Ma Feila seemed to see a snake lying across the road, and turned around to go around a side road.

He stood there and opened his mouth to call her.He didn't understand why she had such an attitude towards him? He stood there speechless, not knowing what to do for a moment.Mafeila walked briskly at first, and finally broke into a run, as she had done that night.His attitude towards her was really incomprehensible. In the next few days, he could only look at Mafeila from a distance, and Mafeila had no intention of seeing him at all.He went to her dormitory to look for her, and the door was opened by a fat and white female soldier who always said: Ma Feila is not here.Then looked at him strangely. He has searched his classroom and library, but there is no sign of Ma Feila at all.He went outside again and searched almost every corner of the campus. In the end, he found no sign of Ma Feila. About half a month later, he finally had a chance to meet Ma Feila alone.It was after morning exercises, and Ma Feila was walking towards the dormitory with the kettle in hand. He quickly chased after him and lay in front of Ma Feila. With nowhere to go, Ma Feila stood there without looking at him, and looked away coldly. He said: Ma Feila, why are you avoiding me?If you have anything to say, just say it. She said: "I don't want to say anything.You dodge, let me go, class will start in a while. He said: I will wait for you in the library at night, and I have something to tell you. Before he finished speaking, Ma Feila quickly walked past him.He watched Ma Feila go away helplessly, and his heart was cloudy, rainy and snowy.Mafeila's attitude towards him was a 180-degree turn, and he didn't know what it all meant. In the evening, when he came to the library, he didn't see Mafeila. He didn't see Mafeila until the library was closed.He held the book between his hands, and while he was waiting, he opened a book, but he didn't read a single word, and everything that happened after he and Ma Feila came to the military academy flashed before his eyes from time to time.In the end, he teased out an emotion, that of being abandoned. It seemed that he had no chance to face Ma Feila. In the queue and on the campus, he could see Ma Feila's shadow, but whenever he approached her, she always ran away from afar.He was unwilling to just play this kind of cat and mouse game with Ma Feila.He wants to find her and ask her clearly. On a sunny autumn weekend, he broke into his dorm in Mafira.Coincidentally, Ma Feila was alone in the dormitory. She was neatly dressed and leaning on the bed. Her complexion was better than before, but she was still a little pale.Mafira saw him and turned to face the wall. He stood by her bed, looked at the back of her head and said: Ma Feila, tell me clearly today, what happened to you? She didn't speak, he saw her shoulders twitching and shrugging. He said again: Mafeila, why are you doing this to me? She finally spoke, and said with a choked voice: Qiao Nianchao, do I still need to say this? Why do you keep pestering me? The former Ma Feila is dead. After hearing her words, his blood froze all of a sudden, and he understood that all of this had something to do with what happened that night.He didn't know what to say for a while, and stood there blankly. She added: Qiao Nianchao, just pretend you don't know me. I liked you before, but now I'm not worthy. There are so many girls, go and like them. Qiao Nianchao understood everything at that moment, he only stood there for a few minutes, but it seemed as long as a century.He understood the reasons and thoughts of Ma Feila avoiding him, she was in pain and despair. The events of that night became a watershed moment in their relationship.Until now, Qiao Nianchao has not realized what the sudden incident that night meant to them.He stood by her bed for a while, then stood for a while, and finally left. He really wanted to sort out the relationship between Er and Ma Feila.The campus under the autumn sun looks so lovely. The students of the military academy are in twos and threes under the autumn sun, some are reading, some are talking and laughing together, everything looks so beautiful.Only his heart is heavy, he walks alone in this autumn sun, he knows that if he and Mafeila continue to communicate, it means that he will combine with Mafeila in the future.Thinking of this, his thinking stopped, and what happened that night suddenly crossed his eyes: Ma Feila struggled and cried out in a low voice, even though her mouth was covered.Then there were the obscene laughter of the three gangsters, mixed with obscene words. One of them said: Hey, still a fucking virgin. Another said: After doing so much, I really met a virgin, and I earned it tonight. ... Obscene words one after another pierced his eardrums one after another, making him tremble all over.After the incident happened, what he was most worried about did not happen, and Ma Feila appeared in the school again. She was in pain and despair. After all, she came back again, and she finally passed this hurdle.Then after time rinsing, the wound in her heart will gradually heal, no one else can see it, only she knows a hidden wound in her heart, maybe she will still fall in love, marry a strange man, and live together ... Qiao Nianchao could only think along this line of thinking, the more he thought about it, the more his heart ached, as if it was not Ma Feila who was hurt, but himself. In those days, Qiao Nianzhao lived like a year, he hesitated, he understood that the reason why Ma Feila ignored him was not at all because she didn't love him, but because she didn't want to bring this pain to him.He really needs to think about it carefully. Whether his relationship with Ma Feila will advance or retreat, whether it is advancing or retreating, is under his own control.Qiao Nianchao faced another round of painful choices.