Chapter 48 Part III.6.1

1 When people are young, it is inevitable that they will not make thrilling investments in the so-called ideals. At the time when the temples are frosty and the comprehension is thorough, I often have to sing a ruthless dirge that hurts the most parting to the weak, infatuated, and picturesque youth in my heart. Finally it was time for Wu Wei to sing the elegy. 2 Wu Wei's growth period is over, but her trauma is still growing. It's not that the relationship between Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei has no room for redemption, but neither of them wants to seize those possible redemption opportunities, but just let any opportunity slip away at will.

Did she really love Hu Bingchen shockingly? Wu wept for his own indifference, for the disappearance of that obsessed and crazy love.Why is there nothing left, without a trace?This is more hurtful than the insertion of a third party, or the replacement of a new love. It's so beautiful and empty! Hu Bingchen also hesitated and was unwilling. He and Wu Wei paid a large part of their lives for this. Why can't they get the life they deserve?Why are there often estrangements and can't talk in a consonant manner? The answer is simple, Wu Wei is not the same as anyone else. On the day Wu Wei finally agreed to divorce, they stopped arguing, and they were as beautiful as they were in love.Hu Bingchen said: "There is one thing that always makes me sad when I think about it." "What is it?"

"Every time we eat, you always wait for me to finish eating before bringing out the leftovers. Sometimes when Lai is gone, you just pour some boiling water into the leftover soup, stir the rice and eat it." Wu Wei put his arms around Hu Bingchen and said: . "Hey, what are you talking about? Just don't find fault with me and quarrel with me." Hu Bingchen immediately pulled off her arms around her body, "When did I find fault with you and quarrel?" So why "always sad to think about it"? From this point, Wu Wei concluded that she was brighter than Hu Bingchen.Self-protection and self-giving also require courage, the so-called shame and courage.Isn't there a saying - shame is a useful moral compass.No matter how many people's misfortune her confession caused, she can be called brave, even Xiaoyong.

A man who never repents must be a coward.Hu Bingchen, you are no longer my hero. In the end, everyone has gone their own way, Wu Wei, why are you still so serious?Why ask for an explanation? Although Hu Bingchen was vicious when he created the divorce, he was full of warmth when he divorced, "Don't be sad, you are still young, build your life again, it may not be easy at first, time will solve all troubles." how to start ! A sixty-year-old man can still be said to be at that time, but a sixty-year-old woman has no future at all. Wu Wei's life was damaged, but she searched out the few remaining undamaged remnants in the damaged ruins and dedicated them to Hu Bingchen until they were finally and completely destroyed by Hu Bingchen.

Hu Bingchen did not take special care of these few undamaged remnants, but only enjoyed them.And the sucking was so hard that when it was spit out from the mouth, there was really only a mouthful of bagasse left. Sixty-year-old Wu Wei is nothing but bagasse that Hu Bingchen spit on the ground. What's the beginning for this mouthful of bagasse? Regarding the divorce, Hu Bingchen explained again: "I am not a shepherd dog, but a strong horse, kicking and jumping, not easy to control, not easy to ride. How can I take care of a woman? I will not get along with a sensitive woman like you." Before you got married, you said: 'What will happen to you if you live with a sensitive person?' At that time, you had high self-esteem, overestimated your own capabilities, and didn't think there was any problem. Only after you got married did you realize that this is a big problem. Bai Fan is different, She trusts me freely and obeys me, just like a combination during the war, I command her to obey."

It should be said that this is Hu Bingchen's most sincere confession. What is a strong horse?It is a horse that cannot be controlled by humans. Its life is not to bear weight, but to gallop freely.No wonder most of the male images in ancient Greek mythology are neither human nor horse, they are horses galloping on women's mind and body. Wu Wei can obey Hu Bingchen physically and in life, but not spiritually. "Yeah, we've finally come to this day... But thinking you can have a relaxing day that you've never really left, and you're so adaptable, so familiar, effortless, and you can walk around in a ragged vest, after all, I'm still for you I'm happy." When good words come out of Wu Wei's mouth, they will also become eccentric.

Hu Bingchen felt insulted again, and his good face changed as soon as he said it. Speaking of the life-and-death love with Hu Bingchen, Wu Wei is still grateful.Nor would she have awakened from her fantasies and superstitions about men without such a mentor. After Hu Bingchen, Wu Wei no longer took men seriously, and they could no longer hurt her.Once a little boy tried to play tricks on her, Wu Wei could see clearly, and with a single look, he pulled away the man who was eager to try, and said to himself: just stay aside! you! man! Wu Wei finally got to know this man who had been infatuated with him for decades.

For a woman, how many days does the flower bloom red?It may be just a few years, and spending decades to get to know Hu Bingchen is equivalent to spending a lifetime. Worth it or not?Who can tell. Wu Wei, who finally got to know Hu Bingchen thoroughly, went through the divorce procedures and walked out of the office building, but he hoped that his steps and back looked normal, very normal, and did not show sadness or farewell. There were tears that couldn't be wiped away all over his face, but he refused to look back stubbornly. On the short tens of meters to the bus station, her life seemed to have another turning point.It was empty, like the day when she first came to the world from Ye Lianzi's body.

But she is now dying. She will walk alone. She had to start from nothing again and live on her own. Afterwards, he was lonely again, no matter what was on his mind, there was no one to tell.Although it didn't exist before, but now it's labeled, and it's not even possible to slap a swollen face to pretend to be fat. As Ru Feng said: "Your light is going out. No six, no nine, no..." This life may be worth it, with such ups and downs, great joy and great sorrow, and magnificent waves. What about Hu Bingchen?In the end, he is worthy of being a great man of his generation, especially as a man in the officialdom, to be able to get out of Bai Fan's marriage and have a marriage and love with Wu Wei, it should be said that he has extraordinary courage.In any case, it is considered a very classic love affair. In the next century, which brave man will fall in love with a woman like this?

The relationship between men and women will become simpler and clearer. After knowing that they were divorced, Ru Feng wrote to say——Your love for him has always moved me. Your tenacity and persistence all show that you are a loyal and persistent person, while all he wants is sex and vanity, not No other love. There are many things that don’t necessarily require a reason. There are reasons to love someone, and of course there are reasons to not love someone, but fundamentally speaking, it is an endless chaos and emotions that do not exist on a rational level, so it is difficult to use " reason” to explain.In the final analysis, what people have to deal with in their lives is their own psychology.There is no need to regret it, you have proved yourself in the process, what's wrong with it?If you weren't married, he might still exist, in your fiction, luckily the process is finally complete.

Don't think about history, history is true, but the situation will change, which further shows that this marriage is not suitable. Society develops rather slowly, and people cannot really change the world in decades of their lives.There are many people who want to find a fulcrum to move the earth, and they have made great achievements, but that fulcrum is illusory, and the earth still runs autonomously... The day is passing, and we are about to enter dusk, the vegetation is falling, and the beauties are twilight. It is unavoidable to be sad, but compared with the more unfortunate people, life can still go on, don't always get stuck in troubles. When the daughter grows up, she wants to spread her wings and soar, and don't expect to be with her. In the end, she still lives her life well. In fact, the greatest sin of man is love. The so-called final liberation is to be freed from love: love, brotherhood, family affection... Zhu Ziqing's prose gave us a message that no matter how affectionate the relationship in the world is, the essence is loss, a kind of low-key, background loneliness. Also, for more than ten years, friends have been scattered, ups and downs, dry and prosperous, each according to his own luck, as if there is water blocking the mountains.And the world is turned upside down, the feelings change with the situation, the thoughts of young people can no longer be expressed, the situation is as sad as my generation! 3 Since Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei got married, Bai Fan has been running this plan.With decades of experience in participating in the revolution, years of experience in political work, and years of experience in underground work... he is always studying Wu Wei's shortcomings in order to take advantage of them. It can be said that she has only lived for this plan all these years.What other woman would be like Bai Fan, who would take such an uneconomical risk to accept Hu Bingchen's "the prodigal son will never change his money" for the sake of gaining popularity and revenge? The honeymoon period can be described as beaming. First of all, all members of the "Baihu Marriage Defense Group" were invited to a banquet.This was Bai Fan's rare pleasure over the years. Although Hu Bingchen had written such an official document about Yang Baiquan's background, the final surrender communiqué wiped everything out. The old comrades who fought like black-eyed chickens because of various interests united again. Chang Mei said: "...that woman is not a good thing at first glance, and she is not on the stage at all. That time, Old Hu insisted on us going to dinner, and she was surrounded by dough around our buttocks... a minister's wife, why is she so unidentified? ?” Hu Bingchen smiled lazily and said: "The great leader also said: a wife is not as good as a concubine, a concubine is not as good as a maidservant, and a maidservant is not as good as a thief. Can you ask a concubine to be like a wife?" He really regarded Wu Wei as a concubine, a maidservant, Being a prostitute.It's like Hu Bingchen sometimes feels sorry for Bai Fan, but never feels sorry for Wu Wei.Even if he tried every means to trick Wu Wei into getting a divorce, and then remarried Bai Fan less than a month later, he didn't have any qualms in his conscience. Bai Fan rolled Hu Bingchen's eyes coquettishly, and said, "It's really obsessed with ghosts. What's the big deal? Isn't it just writing two novels! We have gone to the revolution, and if we are given a chance, we can still be a writer... I can't imagine that this kind of person is enjoying the fruits of our bloodshed, sacrifice and devotion to the revolution. ""Yes, yes, how can a cultural person have any serious things?"Now lift them up to heaven. " Even though Chang Mei has been hand in hand with Xu Dezhang for a lifetime and has so many children, she still cannot forget the past of being eliminated.Especially the loud noise of Hu Bingchen and Bai Fan's bridal chamber wedding night, until now, the sound is still in my ears. Hu Bingchen is kind, although it is impossible to talk about marriage with Chang Mei, but when he faced her long-awaited eyes that were looking forward to the rain and thunder, he also sprayed mild jokes.But this bit of kindness, after he and Bai Fan lived together, was regarded by Chang Mei as a sort of betrayal. Chang Mei never thought that helping Bai Fan snatch Hu Bingchen back from Wu Wei would be tantamount to helping Bai Fan clear up the history of stealing people and raising men in front of people who don't know Nei Qian. Perhaps it is not very accurate to say that, in fact, Chang Mei snatched Hu Bingchen back from Wu Wei for herself, not for Bai Fan.From the failure more than 50 years ago to now, the pain in my heart has not eased a bit, and it is still bloody.She is not only jealous of Bai Fan, but also all of Hu Bingchen's women. That's why Chang Mei preached that Bai Fan was her old classmate and good friend, and she never gave up the opportunity to write a book about the "serious problems" in Bai Fan's political history.Especially after Hu Bingchen was promoted to the executive vice minister and Bai Fan became the wife of the executive drama minister, it made her feel that the position might have belonged to her.But this did not delay the day when Hu Bingchen got the order, she hurriedly brought a bottle of good wine, and followed Xu Dezhang to congratulate her. On that day, even Hu Bingchen, who kept saying that he didn't want to be an official, couldn't help but think of the divination given to him by his father who was not doing business and a playboy: "In your fifties, you will have a step in your official career." Comrades may not be ignorant of Bai Fan's flaws, but maintaining Bai Fan is tantamount to maintaining their past. Not only history has forgotten them, but this era has also forgotten them.How many people still remember that they not only threw their heads and blood, but even contributed their family assets for the liberation of the working people?Some people accumulate capital in the world they have won, and in turn exploit the surplus value of them and their descendants.How can this make them bear it? Wu Wei's daring to break ground on them is a proof of this forgetfulness. Unintentionally, Wu Wei became a symbol of the next era.No matter how inferior and inferior this symbol is, it is still a person from the next era in terms of dating, and it hits their secret and jealous acupoint.History is more ruthless than love.And who made them choose politics?In the long river of history, politics can only be a momentary act. Since you choose it, don’t expect it to last forever, except for a few politicians who can influence the course of history. Maybe they will stay in the history textbook, but when the book is closed, maybe it will be forgotten.And how many politicians can go down in history?Even the heroes who gave their lives for the revolution, except for a special day, are they often mentioned? Unfortunately, and not so fair, Hu Bingchen and his comrades are not of this level or qualification.They also don't understand that not only love, but all, all, will go with time, no matter how brilliant or great it was. But they couldn't, and they didn't want to forget, so they hugged each other more and more tightly into a knot, as if they were holding on to their past. Although Mao Zedong once said, "The world belongs to you as well as ours, but in the final analysis it is yours..." But when it really comes to "it is yours in the final analysis", some people are really lost... In fact, everything is staged. A stage has a stage of people, and a stage has a stage of heroes. The waves behind the Yangtze River push the waves ahead. central.It is also true that a person can be a revolutionist for a certain stage, but not necessarily a permanent one. Inevitably, the twentieth century will be marked by the end of the handicraft era, including revolutions.However, the era of handicrafts produced stories and writers with their own merits and demeanor.And once the stories are the same, like coming off the production line of industrial society, writers will lose their writing paradise, and of course they will never go to hell.That's why comrades in the handicraft era performed such a tragic and final tango. With a tacit smile, Hu Bingchen allowed his comrades to scorn Wu Wei, toasting "The Prodigal Son Turns Back" again and again, to prove that there was a reason for his backlash; to prove that he returned to Bai Fan wholeheartedly, completely abandoned Wu Wei, and There was no nostalgia and concern but gradually, his smile gained weight. That big kid who would never grow up and was never their opponent, that heartless Wu Wei who could send her through fire and water with just a soft word! 4 Hanging out a huge oil painting that has been stored for a long time and was intended to be admired with Wu Wei, but has never been willing to hang up; Bai Fan also permed a Queen's hairstyle like the old Q of Hearts in a playing card; Let the nanny scrub all the places; The two searched everywhere for where they could buy a cheap second-hand piano, in order to break through Wu Wei's home crystal position; Bought a set of stereos to play classical music CDs... Bai Fan doesn't have a clear sense of being compared with Wu Wei, but she wants to create an artistic atmosphere that is no worse than Wu Wei. Hu Bingchen likes this kind of condiment-embellished life.The reason why Wu Wei was able to win was not to a large extent because of his artistic temperament?If Wu Wei was suddenly promoted to director or bureau chief, or became a model worker or a firefighting hero, Hu Bingchen would appreciate it, but he would not be tempted. They even started to have sex, not entirely to satisfy Hu Bingchen's need for sex, but also to have a good wish to relive the mandarin dream, which shows their seriousness and efforts in rebuilding their homeland. In order to ensure success, Hu Bingchen also bought an erection device to help his not-so-useful object get an erection; he also bought some lubricants to help Bai Fan lubricate. They also made some preparations that night, and asked the nanny to cook a few side dishes that they had been accustomed to since their youth, and drank a little wine, Bai Fan has a good capacity for alcohol.On the bed, Hu Bingchen also made colorful teasers at the right time, and the withered smile was obviously flattering.With such an arrogant and outstanding man like him, how could he be like this in their decades of relationship?Can't help but make him feel a little sad. Bai Fan, who always went straight to the point of everything, also responded.But Hu Bingchen felt that Bai Fan's cooperation was a compliment, and compared with their relationship decades ago, there was indeed a subtle difference.Now that he has fallen to this point, can he still care about these things? Hu Bingchen has not known what it is like to be a woman for a long time, and he really needs revenge for Wu Wei's refusal. At the same time, he realizes that Bai Fan's active cooperation hides the same vengeful psychology as him. Too much. One can imagine.How could they want to do this well, especially Bai Fan, who couldn't satisfy Hu Bingchen's needs back then, which gave Hu Bingchen an excuse to betray him.She hoped to prove that she would not give less to Hu Bingchen than Wu Wei in bed. The lonely Wu Wei didn't know that there were two people who were taking revenge on her on the same bed with such a purpose. The specific operation process is not too difficult. Hu Bingchen closed his eyes, imagining that what was pressed under him was not Bai Fan, but a vaguely sexy woman, and concentrated on imagining the desire to die that a love with this woman would bring Immortal joy. When he was no longer the sometimes sensitive, sometimes chaotic, abrupt and witch-like Wu Wei, Hu Bingchen felt relaxed. After all, he was an old married couple and knew his way around.But they failed.Although Bai Fan has the help of lubricant, Hu Bingchen's operation is still very difficult, after all, Bai Fan is an old woman.When a woman gets old, she is really old. And his erection-activated guy couldn't compare to a real hardening effect. Even if Hu Bingchen doesn't want to think that way, he still has to think about the sex with other women, including the sex with Wu Wei, which is more contrasting with the current reluctance, and it also shows their revenge on Wu Wei and their efforts to return to this old home. It was so shabby. After all, it is difficult to have both in the world. Then there was a shock—isn't the repetition of women's issues in my life the result of the regret that I can't have both?In the days to come, Hu Bingchen could only help himself while imagining a new and old inseparable situation of making love with Wu Wei. 5 It's just after the honeymoon and nothing feels right. After divorcing Wu Wei and remarrying Bai Fan, Hu Bingchen fell into the rut of divorcing Bai Fan and comparing two wives and two lives after marrying Wu Wei.This kind of comparison has never stopped on any day, time, or event.Not intentionally, but involuntarily. The two spirits and the two completely different and too disparate lives made Hu Bingchen never really forget Bai Fan at that time, and of course he never really forgot Wu Wei at this time. When he first divorced Wu Wei, Hu Bingchen could be said to be elated.He had just finished the divorce procedure, and at his age, it was unbelievable that he jumped down the building of the street office. Hu Bingchen gradually realizes that the ministerial house is of course Bai Fan's interest, but her more important purpose is revenge.Not only revenge against Wu Wei, but also revenge against him. There is no family happiness as imagined.Wu Wei not only withdrew from his life, but also withdrew from the conversation between him and Fu Rong. He and Fu Rong didn't have much to say.The children lived their own lives, especially Yang Baiquan, who showed a kind of contempt from time to time-you think of us now! Those tastes also began to fade—— On the edges of the washbasin and the tub, there is still a circle of black mud that Hu Bingchen hated so much decades ago; Bai Fan's hair is no longer dyed, and a stubble is exposed under the root of the hair that has not yet faded; The oil painting on the wall is also crooked; Hu Bingchen faced FM again. Just like the first round of the marriage war, Hu Bingchen formally left Bai Fan, but his old living habits appeared everywhere in his new life with Wu Wei. Similarly, Hu Bingchen only left Wu Wei in formalities, and another living habit established after ten years of training also appeared everywhere in the life of Bai Fan who said that old is not old and new is not new. I thought it would be like what Wu Wei said, "...I think that you can have a relaxed life that you have never left, and you are very adaptable, very familiar, effortless, and you can walk around wearing a broken vest. You are happy." But after ten years of desolation, I couldn't handle it with ease. Hu Bingchen was left and right. There is also the coldness behind the exchange. Just as the "three chapters of agreement" between Hu Bingchen and Bai Fan had not been implemented, the "three chapters of agreement" between Bai Fan and him before their remarriage had not been implemented either. Back then, didn't Bai Fan imagine that once Hu Bingchen got the divorce certificate from her, would he be able to keep his promise and not marry Wu Wei?Hu Bingchen's divorce was not for this! Similarly, didn't Hu Bingchen imagine that once Bai Fan got the certificate of remarriage with him, would she be able to keep her promise and settle the old score? Soon after the honeymoon, "Who asked you to come back and beg me!" became Bai Fan's catchphrase, which meant that Hu Bingchen had to accept all the treatment no matter what.It's not what he looked like when he was drugged. It's really different when a person gets rich, and it's very different from when he was incited to divorce Wu Wei. It is "a small amount is not a gentleman, and non-toxic is not a husband". Gorky wrote an article about what people think and do when they are alone.The article said that Chekhov was walking alone in the garden, saw a lizard on the ground, and asked it: "Are you happy?" Then he shook his head and replied: "No, I am not happy." After returning, Hu Bingchen became more and more unhappy, and Wu Wei's "farewell words" also appeared unexpectedly: "I believe you sometimes think of the harsh treatment you have given me, and you may not regret it. How can you be happy?" Yes, when they were husband and wife, whenever Bai Fan called him, Wu Wei always treated him well and greeted him warmly. He knew it was Bai Fan's call, but he never ignored it; Every time Fu Rong came to visit, when she entered the door, the first thing Wu Wei said in front of her was always "Dad, my mother asked you to call her", or "Dad, my mother has something to call you" and so on. Wu Wei turned a blind eye, and Wu Wei never said a word of gossip; Whenever I went back to visit Bai Fan, Wu Wei never stopped him, and often sent the driver the things issued by the agency to Bai Fan, saying, "The prices are soaring, and Bai Fan should be taken care of more. She must be in distress when she only relies on wages. It’s not like I still have royalties”; I can't think about it, when I think about it, I feel that I have done a lot of harm to a muddle-headed Wu Wei. The life after remarriage is stable and stable, and the frequency of food renovation is high... At the same time, Hu Bingchen feels sorely lacking and monotonous in his spiritual life, unable to talk to each other, so that he would rather stay in the study all day than What did Ken and Bai Fan say?This is a way to maintain a stable relationship, because the more you communicate, the more embarrassing and embarrassing the distance will become. He often lamented that he could no longer enjoy the joy of debates or discussions with Wu Wei, and the joy of climbing to the top of the spirit with that debate or discussion, and he could no longer enjoy the boudoir with Wu Wei.I had no choice but to comfort myself, an overly refined person like Wu Wei is only suitable for love but not for life.And day after day, like air and water, are inseparable even for a moment. Hu Bingchen was also well-informed.Whenever Bai Fan sits in front of the stove in the kitchen, staring at the medicine pot on the stove to decoct medicine for him, he immediately (of course, temporarily) forgets the treatment Bai Fan gave him to the horse that has turned back, and turns his head away. Another exclamation: Still an old couple! Immediately (of course, temporarily) he remembered Wu Wei's misdeeds. If it was Wu Wei, the nanny would definitely cook. Even when he was seriously ill, Wu Wei just couldn't eat, drink, sleep, cry, have sores on his mouth and tongue...flying around like headless flies, and even accompanied him to get sick.But what is the practical significance of this?If the trouble is not good, not only will he not be able to recover from his illness, but he will also be disturbed by her.After their relationship deteriorated day by day, she even ran away every day and left him to the babysitter. Hu Bingchen is a person who can't stand repetition. He has been trying to renovate and contrive changes all his life, ranging from a small decoration at home to a revolutionary career. However, who can treat him kindly and tolerate him like Wu Wei?Who can be as easy to deal with as Wu Wei, or as cheap as Wu Wei, who can make her give up the principle she swore to insist on a minute ago with a few soft words? ... Hu Bingchen dated Wu Wei again.After all, they were once husband and wife, and in some ways they had moments of undeniable bliss that Bai Fan would never get to savor, but there was no possibility of a fire ever again. Just like the marriage between Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei, he couldn't satisfy his feeling of family happiness and dignity. He had to go back from time to time to share with Bai Fan the "past" that Wu Wei didn't have, or replay an old tender memory to feel it. The awe of the supreme...they really look like a man born only for love. The only man who can make Wu Wei fall in love with him is Hu Bingchen. He often sneaked out of the house and made long pay phone calls to Wu Wei. "...Bai Fan quarreled with me again today. I went to see my friend to buy some bananas, and she said I bought them for you..." "Just ask her to call that friend surnamed Ding and check it out?" "Then she can tell that I bought two copies, and the one with the surname is just a cover-up." Or complained on the phone: "There are several sunny rooms in my house, but I was left alone in the north-facing cabin, half lying on the bamboo recliner coughing and spitting... alone!" But he didn't say that he just Stay in that hut during the day, and sleep in Baifan's big sunny room at night, and have sex again on Baifan's bed.Wu Wei on the other end of the phone was secretly sad and weeping, forgetting Hu Bingchen's ruthlessness... He said some unsure comforting words: "If you have any difficulties and need help urgently, just tell me, as long as I can do it, I will try my best." And for." How to help him?Now they are at a loss.Unlike more than twenty years ago, at least they still have healthy bodies, can go out for dates, win lawsuits, and deal with Bai Fan's various schemes... Now they are all bad, only Bai Fan is good.When guarding against and punishing them, Bai Fan's vitality was still as vigorous as before. Wu Wei can often hear his slightly trembling voice again, which is the tremor that can only be heard when colliding with a caring woman, and it is a tremor that can definitely resonate, "...I miss you, if I were younger, I would definitely I won't take this step, I can't forget your love for me...can't forget...I very much regret making such a decision..." The voice is full of grievances, full of despair knowing that there is no possibility of recovery.It seemed to be truly desperate, and it was completely different from the voice full of vitality when they had just remarried. Saying "if I had been younger, I would never have taken this step", but if God gave another ten years, he would never return to any of them, but break new ground.Women are still interested in him, and they will not stop because of the fate of one Wu Wei, one Bai Fan, or even tens of thousands of Wu Wei and Bai Fan. It's a pity that Hu Bingchen doesn't have this time anymore.Except for these two women, no other woman would cast a glance at this once remarkable man.How many more glamorous women passed by Hu Bingchen without seeing them, which made him feel painful that his youth was gone forever, so he had no choice but to simply accept these two old women. Wu Wei said anxiously: "I hope they treat you well." "It's just taking care of my life... I often dream about you. That day I dreamed that we were staying in a big courtyard. There were rockeries and pools in the yard. There were fish and many birds in the pool. The north house is very big. , but we didn't want to go in, because the view in the yard was very good. We walked arm in arm in the yard, looking at the fish in the pool. Later, I saw many people swimming in the pool, and I asked, where did these people come from, are they outsiders? You said no, they were all acquaintances and friends. Later we saw two birds, an owl, a bird with a human face... and then woke up." Didn't he take Wu Wei back to Hu's old house? Hu Bingchen didn't lie, he really often dreamed of Wu Wei, and in the dream they hadn't separated yet. "I really want to go with you to the places we visited more than 20 years ago when we were in love." Wu Wei agreed, but she didn't dare—if Hu Bingchen lay down in those places in agitation, wouldn't Bai Fan kill her? Does she still have the courage?Like back then, even going to jail or beheading?No, she doesn't have the strength anymore, she is old, even if she has the heart, she doesn't have the strength anymore. Sometimes there is nothing to say, just calling each other's name on the phone, and then there is a long silence. When the weather is bad, Hu Bingchen writes to Wu Wei—my dear: Ouyang Xiu has a song "Lang Taosha", which has ten sentences in two sections. I selected five sentences and combined them into one section, and changed a few words, as follows: Gathering and dispersing are in a hurry, the ten gens are endless.Chuiyangzimo Luocheng East, always hand in hand at that time, dreaming every night. You are a great lover and a charming, wonderful woman.There is no such woman in ten million. I am going to order you a copy of "Little Reference", a copy of "Newspaper Digest", and a copy of "Southern Weekend", so that you can basically know the news.They are booked until the end of the year, please be careful not to overbook.I will let you know the delivery date after I order. Your eternal servant dear: You are so visibly emaciated, and a different person than you were before the divorce, it astonishes me.I hope you will take some time to rest quietly and regain your former spirit.The hair is much more comfortable, let's find a good beautician to tidy it up, people still need to be refreshed.Take some tonic, such as ginseng. Please see the other side of our parting. In a few years, I may not be able to move. At that time, you will understand that separating in time will save you a lot of troubles, including those annoying things about the funeral. , so it’s better to be like this, I hope you can recover your body quickly.I love you forever... I had a dream at night. In the dream, we were not separated, and we slept on a big bed under a shed without walls at night.It was pitch black and I couldn't see anything, but I seemed to realize that I was in the Summer Palace.The summer wind is cool and comfortable.You leaned quietly in my arms, talking about something.A man came over and said to us: "Your house is at No. xx on xx street, look for xxx, he will give you the key." I realized that the problem of our separation in two places can be solved, and said to him: "It's too late today. It's late, let's do it at dawn." The man left.Then another person came over, holding a bouquet of flowers on my head, I reached out to take it, and he walked away again.At this time, I found that we were in the "IN" state, and very happy.You said: "From now on, we will come here to live here for a while every summer." I said: "It's just not safe, people will come to harass us." At this time, the dream woke up, but people were still in the "IN" In the joy, the time is 3:20 in the morning.